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This is episode 437. Get out of your head with Ivy. Welcome
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to Over It and On With It. I'm
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your host, Christine Hasler, and for over a
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decade, I've been a life coach, speaker, and
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author. Each week, you'll hear me
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work directly with a caller as I coach them
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through a goal they want to accomplish or an
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obstacle they may be facing. I'll provide a blend
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of practical and spiritual advice, as well as tangible
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actions you can apply to your own life. Now,
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let's get on with the episode. Hi,
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everybody. Welcome back to the show. I
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have a beautiful episode today, and those
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of you that relate to being in
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your head or very cognitive or thinking
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your way through things, I think I'm
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really going to connect with this episode.
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My own personal journey getting out
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of my head has been such
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an important thing. Even
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my current coach interrupts
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me. It's like, uh-uh, in your
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head, in your head, out of your head. I'm like,
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oh, my head is so useful. And
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it is, it is at times. And
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at other times, it's so important
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and so deeply healing to get
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into our body and actually get
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into our inner child, which
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I do with Ivy in this episode. And
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once again, an episode is pointing
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to inner child work as they
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so often do, which
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is why I am hosting a
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free three-day workshop. I'm co-hosting with
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my husband called Journey to Joy.
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It's all about reconnecting to your
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inner child and awakening your authentic
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self. You can join us for
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free at christinehasler.com slash
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joy. As
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you're listening to this episode, consider, do you
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have trouble getting out of your head and into your body?
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Have you been told to do somatic work or
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body-based practices, but you just can't seem to do
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it? Do you have a fierce
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inner critic? Do you carry a lot
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of shame? I keep these
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questions in mind as you listen to my coach call
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with Ivy. Ivy,
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welcome to the show. How can I help? Hi,
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thank you for having me. I
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was reaching out because I
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can't seem to get where I kind of want to be
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in any area of
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my life, romantically, financially, health
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and body wise, career wise.
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And I've been in therapy for a
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few years and I'm slowly learning about
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myself. It seems like a major recurring
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impediment is a seeming
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inability to, I guess, identify
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how I feel. And in
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addition to that, there's what seems to
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be an immovable block
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around doing like the suggested body
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work and body scans. And
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I suspect that might have to do with disassociation
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or maybe some body shame. I'm
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not super sure. So just kind of hoping for
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some guidance. Okay,
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so who's telling
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you you need those things? My
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therapist. Okay. And what's
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the reasoning behind that? Well,
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I've been discovering that I'm pretty
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emotionally unavailable. And an
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epiphany we had one time in therapy
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was realizing that intellectually
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I understand emotions and I can
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speak to them. But in the
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moment, I somehow seem to
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not be able to identify what I'm feeling,
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which seems to be
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pretty difficult when you're trying to set a boundary of
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like, I feel hurt when you say X, Y, and
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Z, but I miss the skill to
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identify what I feel in that moment. Okay.
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So can you tell me how this like
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shows up in your life? Can you give me an example? Yes,
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I have a really hard time expressing
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anger to romantic
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partners or even identifying
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anger. because there's so much,
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I guess, concern that I'm
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not worthy subconsciously, that it's this
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mad dash internally to try and make
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sure things remain copacetic. And
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then in familial settings, you know,
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I have a hard time
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saying, you know,
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when you make a passive aggressive comment or
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when this happens, it makes me feel hurt
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or angry. Instead, I want to say, like,
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that feels really condescending or dismissive.
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And so I can't seem
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to crack that code
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or that soft skill of
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just drawing those boundaries or
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protecting myself or standing up
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for myself in different relational
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areas. And then additionally, it seems to be
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a struggle because I seem
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to not be able to, I guess, look
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internally to trust gut feelings or
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use that kind of internal compass
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at times. So I'm not
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super sure. I struggle with quite a bit of shame and self-criticism.
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And so that might be entwined in
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this in some capacity. Yeah. How
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long have you been in therapy? Since 2016. With
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the same therapist? No, I
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actually lived in a different country briefly. And
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that's when I went through quite a bit
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there and started therapy there and then returned
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to the States in 2018. And
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I started seeing my current therapist in
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2019. So with the same person just over
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four years. Okay, great. And
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what progress do you think you have made? I've
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made some big revelations with this
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particular therapist. I don't think
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I really fully understood the
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severity to myself criticism previously.
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I didn't fully comprehend how
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cognitively driven I am
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or cognitively, I guess I exist.
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I seem to, I seem to have discovered,
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in combination with therapy and of course reading
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tons of books and your podcast has been
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quite helpful in identifying there's a lot of
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inner child wounding. And, you
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know, I've got an anxious attachment style. So those
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were kind of big revelations we've had in the last
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couple of years. But I do struggle
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a little bit. I'm quite direct. And,
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you know, when I started going to
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therapy, I was like, there's some stuff
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that doesn't align. There's some things that
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aren't balanced. I don't feel super great.
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I want to try and compile the
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user manual of myself to figure out
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what's going on. What are our
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areas for opportunity? What, you know,
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systems can we put in place to get
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back on track when we're struggling? And
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my therapist is wonderful. She's been
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wonderful, but she's not as direct
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as I am. And I think
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she's really been trying to be
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intentional in pushing me towards nonlinear
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work and pushing me into
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my body and out of my prefrontal
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cortex. And sometimes it
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feels like we're speaking different languages and
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I can get quite frustrated. But,
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yeah. Right. Well,
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a couple of things I'll say right off the bat.
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There's no one size fits all approach for
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anyone. What might have worked for your therapist or
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someone for other clients might not work for you. And
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a lot of the things that you're talking about, especially
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having trouble boundaries, trusting
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our gut, standing up for what we need,
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that's really, really common. I
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can relate to so much of what you're saying
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personally. So I just want you to know
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you're not alone and it doesn't necessarily
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mean you're emotionally unavailable. What
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it sounds like to me, and I'm
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not disagreeing with your therapist, I just
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also want to normalize normalize
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a lot of what you're experiencing and feeling. Thank
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you. So with, let's look
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at the cognitive thing. First
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of all, you're incredibly intelligent. I
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can tell by how articulate you are, you're very, very
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smart. So that's
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a gift. And that's a beautiful thing. Now,
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where we tend to be strong, we
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tend to... spend
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a lot of time in. You know, some
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people that are very smart are going to feel more
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comfortable in their intelligence,
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in their cognition, than necessarily their
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emotion, their body, their creativity. Because
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it's not that those areas are weak, it's just
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that we excel in one area. It's a very
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well developed muscle. So like, why not use it
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more? That's very common.
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But what I'm curious about is what made
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you have to go so in your head?
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That's a very easy answer, actually.
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Yeah. I think it's
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a byproduct of how my
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parents raised me to no fault of their own,
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you know, as a byproduct of how they were
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raised. And so as a child, I
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was actually very emotionally expressive.
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And I don't think
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they fully understood how to help
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me feel and fully process those
8:53
emotions. And so I
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didn't have that support or space
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and was actually very shamed for
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them and frequently called a drama
9:02
queen. Or yeah.
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Yeah. Yeah, there you go.
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So it's not that your
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emotions are unavailable, it's that you
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carry a lot of shame
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around your emotions. And they just don't feel very
9:20
safe. It doesn't feel safe for you to express
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in that way. Absolutely. It
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was a really alienating experience.
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And so especially in romantic
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relationships, it's really hard
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to bring down that barrier because it's associated
9:35
with that alienation. Yeah.
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Yeah, I know. I get that. So
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I think what's going to be maybe helpful for you
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because somebody that's like, so
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in their head, getting you to lie down
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and do a body scan is
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going to be really hard for your brain. Yeah.
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So What? I Want to ask you. Why?
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Why does. Turn your think
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it off, or at least. Muted or what
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Does actually gets you. More.
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Into your body. Is
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there anything they can be cooking? It could be.
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Time. With friends? That could be. You.
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Is there anything? You
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know, the only time I've been fully
10:20
self aware enough of that happening had
10:22
fail when I rock climb. Okay,
10:26
And what happened said? Well.
10:28
As steaks a pretty high when you're
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thirty feet off the ground on the
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festive Iraq in her. I'm
10:35
fully consumed with. Where. Am
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I put my hands on it's? fully take
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me out of my head and into that
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hasn't say. About. Really?
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Enjoyed by an omen I struggle
10:46
with there. Is there's a lot
10:49
of bodies you may have and I
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don't feel very safe doing physical activities
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in front of other people. Are
10:55
being been doing Ma'am You know when
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I when I go for around I
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went to do it at three am
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under cloak and dagger scenarios. A
11:04
puzzle. With
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you actually run at three am. Yeah,
11:08
anywhere from three to five am. On
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weekends I have a. Nihilist.
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Okay. The
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Office Now I'm not. I'm not laugh
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he Ned's you have more and more
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Just slate. Oh it
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is feeling the tenderness of this
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human experience in the beach streams
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will go to to keep ourselves
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on on quote safe. Let's.
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Begin less the question.
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What State that? What's your
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worst fear? In terms
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of what people are going to think of, you. I
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suppose my worst fear is that those see me the
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way I see me. Pretty.
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Which is how. Pretty.
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Messy. And.
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Unlovable. Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm.
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Why do you believe you're unlovable? I
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really want to fall back into, like, the logic... ...of
12:15
that, you know, feeling alienated as a
12:18
kid for... ...being
12:20
who I was as a kid, you know, before those.
12:23
I think that's more than just logic. I think
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that's truth. Yeah.
12:29
So it seems to me like a very
12:31
scared little girl is running the shell most
12:33
of the time. Yeah.
12:38
And what might be most
12:40
useful is really connecting
12:42
with that little girl who thinks she needs to run
12:45
at 3 a.m. And
12:48
be like, you know what?
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We're gonna run at 8. I
12:53
got you. You're safe. No
12:56
one's gonna tease you. Nothing's gonna happen to
12:58
you. No one's gonna shame you. And
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if anything like that happens, I got you. I
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think what a big part of you
13:06
needs is to find that compassionate
13:09
parental voice inside of yourself that
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never was there. Because
13:14
if you keep doing things to get in your
13:16
body, but you actually don't feel
13:18
safe in your body, then
13:20
it's kind of counterintuitive. Like,
13:23
I wouldn't want to do body scan if I don't feel safe
13:25
and comfortable in my body. Why would I want to get deeper
13:27
in my body? Exactly.
13:30
Yeah. Right. It's
13:33
an elegant way of raising it. Yeah.
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I understand why it's difficult and why it's challenging.
13:39
So what did you get from that, from what I just
13:41
said? I think there
13:43
was a succinctness with which you said that it's
13:45
hard to get into my body when I don't
13:47
feel safe in my body, that I wasn't able
13:49
to comprehend previously.
13:53
Yeah. And yeah.
13:57
Yeah. Letting it sink in. Sorry. That's okay. No.
14:00
no apologies necessary. So where are you right
14:02
now? Are you in your house? Are you in your car? Where are you?
14:04
Yeah, I'm in my house. Okay. So
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I just want you to argue on
14:10
a phone you can move around. Yes.
14:12
Okay. So I just want you to just
14:14
go stand in front of a mirror somewhere. Those have
14:16
to be full legs. I don't care. Does any kind of
14:19
mirror raise your face? Okay, we're
14:22
there. Okay. So I just want you
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to feel your feet on the floor. Take your shoes
14:26
off if you can. So your
14:28
barefoot. And
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I just want you to feel
14:34
your feet on the floor. And
14:36
how does it feel to feel your feet on the floor? It
14:43
feels dirty and
14:46
a little tingly because I was sitting on top of
14:48
my feet. Yeah.
14:53
Yeah. So just feel your feet
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on the floor right here, right now in this moment.
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No longer a child. No longer
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living with your parents. And
15:04
then just feel the clothes on your body. How does it feel to
15:06
feel the clothes on your body? I
15:14
feel warm and soft.
15:18
Yeah. Yeah. Right. So just
15:20
notice right now your body is feeling
15:22
warm and soft by the clothes you're
15:24
wearing. And
15:27
then I just want you to look in the mirror and just
15:29
make eye contact with yourself and just take a deep breath. And
15:37
I actually don't want you to see your current
15:39
day self. So I want you
15:41
to look in your mirror and hold eye contact long
15:43
enough until you can see
15:45
or kind of imagine seeing you as a little
15:47
girl. Yeah,
15:51
I see her. Okay. And there
15:53
may be some emotions that are coming up, which is
15:55
great. Yeah. Great.
16:02
So I just want to ask if there's anything this
16:04
little girl wants to say or anything
16:07
she wants to express. She's
16:13
kind of lonely. Yeah, I'm
16:15
lonely. What else? A
16:20
bit invisible. Yeah,
16:23
I don't feel seen. Yeah.
16:33
You can use a hug. Okay.
16:38
See, I know it's maybe difficult because you may be
16:40
holding the phone but if you can you can wrap
16:43
your arms around yourself give yourself a little hug.
16:48
I can do that. Yeah. And
16:51
what I would just like you to
16:53
be aware of right now is your
16:56
emotions are very available to you. And
17:03
this little girl is safe
17:06
now to express them and
17:10
to be seen. I
17:14
just want you to kind of hold the reference
17:16
point right now for me being
17:18
with you as emotions come up and
17:20
you being with yourself as
17:23
emotion comes up. And
17:31
is there anything that you'd want to say to this
17:34
younger part of you. I
17:38
wish she just knew that in
17:42
the face of a world where
17:44
others are responsible for teaching her
17:46
about things that
17:49
she knows quite a bit more than they do about some
17:51
stuff. But
17:54
she didn't abandon that knowing. Okay.
17:58
So tell her directly in a way that it was. would make
18:00
sense to her. I
18:02
think you sound something like you're very
18:04
wise. Trust
18:06
yourself. Yeah,
18:11
trust yourself, when with
18:14
the grownups are telling you doesn't seem to make
18:18
sense internally. Right.
18:22
Right. Anything
18:28
else you wanna tell her? I'm
18:32
not sure. There's still just a lot in
18:34
processing. Ahem. Okay, you can
18:36
just be with that, Paz. Yeah,
18:40
I wish I could tell her to ignore
18:46
some of the opinions
18:49
she'll encounter from some of these. You
18:53
can't. Don't grab her that are insecure and
18:55
don't know it. You can.
18:58
So right here, right now, what
19:00
do you wanna tell her is not true, that maybe
19:02
she believed was true? But
19:07
her dreams are worth the investment. What
19:13
else? She's
19:15
worth the investment. She's
19:19
worthy, her dreams are worthy,
19:22
her emotions are worthy. Yes,
19:29
all of that. Yeah. What
19:39
do you notice in your body now? I
19:45
feel a bit warmer. And
19:49
my face is quite damp. I
19:53
feel a little steadier on my feet, on the
19:55
ground. Yeah. Yeah.
20:07
And I think
20:09
we can both agree right
20:12
here right now you are not emotionally unavailable.
20:17
We're totally in your head. There's
20:20
plenty of emotion and feeling
20:23
happening. And
20:27
when you look in the mirror, I
20:29
mean just look at yourself, what do you see? I
20:34
still see that sassy little kid. Yeah.
20:39
What would that sassy little kid want to say
20:41
you're a critic. She
20:45
probably tell it to get out of my way. We've
20:50
got stuff to do, people to see. Yeah.
20:56
And she may say something
20:58
like, I'm
21:00
not going to believe you anymore. Yeah.
21:07
I'm curious, do you ever see a
21:09
connection between this, this,
21:12
I guess, inner
21:14
child, ignoring
21:17
or inner child abandonment that we
21:19
might have and an
21:21
inability to be self
21:25
aware with your inner narrative. I
21:29
mean cognitive therapy a lot of the
21:31
conversation is around like stopping harmful narratives
21:34
as they happen. And I also really struggle
21:36
with identifying when it's an
21:38
inner narrative and not truth, you know, when
21:40
my world the sky's purple and everybody else
21:42
says it's blue, but it's about me and
21:44
I'm wondering, do you see that between a
21:47
connection between this inner
21:49
child abandonment and that, I
21:51
guess, skill, because here you say that my, you
21:54
know, my inner child is telling you not to believe some of that. Is
21:57
that helpful in also being able to.
22:00
to identify that harmful self-narrative and not
22:02
believing it? Yes.
22:05
Yes. So
22:08
I'll say it maybe
22:10
in a different way. OK,
22:12
great. This
22:15
is what, well, first of all, before
22:17
we go on, I just want you to put
22:20
a hand on your heart and just
22:22
thank little Ivy
22:24
for coming forward. And
22:27
just internally or out loud,
22:29
just tell her, she's welcome
22:32
anytime. And you'll be checking in with her more.
22:36
And then in your mind's eye, just put her in a
22:38
safe place. It can be a place you make up or
22:40
it can be a familiar place that you know in your
22:42
life now or in the
22:44
past. Grandma's house, best friend's
22:47
house, a tree house, a park you
22:49
make up. And
22:52
when you feel like she's there and
22:55
she feels like heart and acknowledged for
22:57
what she's shared, then just let me
22:59
know. Yeah,
23:06
thank you for making me do
23:08
actually safely making good use of your own heart
23:10
right now. Great. Perfect.
23:12
Perfect. Because
23:14
we don't want to abandon their child after they
23:16
come forward in the process. So
23:19
here's what I'll say. And I know you
23:21
really like to understand things. So I will
23:25
explain this. And that's a beautiful thing. I'll
23:27
explain this the best
23:29
I can. I
23:32
don't know that you necessarily have quote unquote
23:35
in her child abandonment. She's
23:37
very connected to her. She came forward pretty
23:39
easily. I think
23:41
more of what happened is you actually never
23:43
got to be a child. Children
23:48
are allowed to have freedom of
23:50
expression, freedom of dreams,
23:52
unbridled self-expression,
23:56
basically. And
24:01
you didn't really get that from what
24:03
I'm hearing You
24:07
had to go in your head kind of
24:09
be a little adult No
24:13
drama no dreams really
24:15
early Yeah,
24:20
I don't think it fully understood
24:22
that until you just know that yeah
24:27
So that to me is
24:32
Why they're such a self-critic too Because
24:35
when a child doesn't feel safe
24:37
to be a child, which
24:40
is our natural You
24:44
know inclination right you had to
24:46
suppress all the things that developmentally
24:48
were appropriate
24:53
Give us a present. Yeah How
24:56
do you big dreams? Being
24:58
dramatic all the
25:00
expression things that's all developmentally
25:03
appropriate childhood And
25:05
you were told that was wrong And
25:08
so because you were told just you
25:10
being wrong just you being you was
25:12
wrong You basically
25:14
decided something's wrong with me It's
25:19
all these things I naturally feel I want
25:21
to do are are
25:25
And changed and judged
25:28
and criticized That's
25:32
very very confusing for a child and
25:35
so you had to That
25:38
the inner critic was developed as a
25:41
way to protect yourself Because
25:44
if you're harder on yourself than anyone else's
25:47
and you're safe And
25:49
I know you know that cognitively I mean most of us know
25:52
that about our inner critic Yeah,
25:54
it's not about making it a critic wrong But
25:57
What's happened is instead of developing? The
26:00
been a. For
26:02
lack of a better word, Pure. It. Voice inside
26:04
of you. That
26:06
says things like you got
26:08
this sticker truth. Came
26:11
here. You know what did he
26:13
say when you got ceiling you've developed
26:15
in inner critic voice? Similar
26:23
to your parents. As well. We
26:26
internalize A voice We internalize
26:28
and that amplified the voice and
26:31
messages of our parents. That
26:34
becomes their voice. Kept
26:38
our side really have that things like.
26:42
The what comes up for you as I say it. By.
26:46
Immediately want to ask where actions that can
26:48
I say? going for a. Brief
26:52
period without. Me: My
26:54
biggest. My biggest recommendation would be it or
26:57
child work. Near it.
26:59
As far as I say that not
27:01
just because I'm passionate about it and
27:03
the work open I also experienced could
27:05
be wrong you you clarify for beats
27:07
I did experience. And
27:10
beautiful shifts with you when we get. A
27:12
good experience he dropping out of your head. You.
27:16
Still there little bit the it's roots
27:18
in the the questions but one hundred
27:20
percent just cognitive. Yes
27:23
definitely. Lotion their. Yeah.
27:27
Yeah, absolutely. With
27:29
as beautiful. So.
27:32
the how would be more of that it
27:34
or child work it also like fi you
27:36
need ways. Is
27:39
again what you want to be She's
27:41
it's so funny cause of about to
27:43
give you advice and tell you don't
27:45
take advice from people. That's exactly what
27:47
you want to be mindful. Of Ib
27:49
is. It sounds
27:51
like. Growing up you were told a
27:53
lot what to do and what not to do. And
27:58
so even though there's a party, It
28:00
might want to rebel and what city would.
28:02
ever you like. There's also a
28:04
party view that. Consistently.
28:07
Looking for someone to tell you what to do? The
28:10
or how to be it
28:12
so I would encourage you
28:14
to do is find ways
28:16
and seems that. Really
28:18
work for you. See.
28:21
Like instead of forcing yourself to
28:24
do a body scan, be like.
28:27
Okay what Led feel gets me going out
28:29
and let me the grass. Ice
28:34
bath. Or. Ready
28:37
A row is on the inside of my
28:39
arm in Philly. What that feels like? you're
28:41
like. Stein things
28:43
that help. The you. Connect.
28:46
Your body but that are in
28:48
your own way. To that makes
28:50
sense. Yeah. Yeah,
28:54
I'm curious to see. Semantic
28:57
work. Help with
29:00
that Also. The I think
29:02
about it works great. Idea.
29:04
It's. A beautiful way
29:06
to. Trace ceiling.
29:08
For someone who is very had a it
29:10
can be challenging to de smet Quick attack,
29:13
core of the know. that's that's helpful to
29:15
have clarified. But.
29:17
it it clarify for you. Why? They cheat.
29:19
Yeah, what you're saying is. There
29:22
he can't help but insists. for people like
29:24
you say you get your body Here's a
29:26
video that because they don't have faith in
29:28
my body, that's just another list to call
29:30
the things that might not necessarily work. And
29:33
therefore may feet into that. Moral
29:36
failing in or narrative That and
29:38
costs. At me as much as
29:40
brushing my here in the sunshine
29:43
for twenty minutes isn't think yes
29:45
exactly. And the more
29:47
you do that. The brush your hair
29:49
in the sunshine example. The
29:52
more you're going to. Feel safer
29:54
and safer. And your body is
29:56
that it additions you. Letting the
29:58
inner child come forward. and finally
30:00
giving yourself a childhood you never had. That
30:04
is going to help you then do the somatic
30:06
work or the breath work or any of these
30:08
other things that can take you to deeper levels.
30:11
But if it feels like too much of a
30:14
stretch, then I
30:16
encourage you to do things that feel like they're going to
30:18
get you where you want to go. You
30:21
know, there are many roads to Rome. Somatic
30:23
work is awesome. And
30:25
it might not be the best place
30:27
for you right now. But
30:30
I really trust you to make that decision. Not
30:33
anybody else. Thank
30:35
you. That feels very freeing.
30:39
And I feel very seen
30:41
and to have a little bit of renewed
30:45
hope that I haven't had in a while. So
30:47
thank you. It's my
30:49
pleasure, love. I just want
30:51
to say again, a lot of what you're
30:54
sharing is so relatable and so
30:56
very, very common. You
31:01
know, I remember I'll tell you a quick story. This
31:03
was years ago when I was working
31:05
on really connecting more
31:07
deeply to my sexuality and femininity.
31:11
And I hired this coach who was
31:13
like an expert in that. And
31:17
we were doing – we did like eight sessions
31:19
and she
31:22
would tell me to do stuff. And
31:24
it just wouldn't land for
31:27
me. And I
31:29
finally – a light bulb
31:31
finally connected when I realized
31:34
like this particular coach had been a very
31:36
sexual being since she was a kid. She
31:38
would tell me stories. And I was like,
31:40
this isn't the right coach for me. I
31:44
hired her because she kind of has what
31:47
I want, but I actually need someone who
31:49
struggled with this because someone
31:51
who this has always come easily for doesn't
31:54
understand how hard it is for me. And
31:57
It's giving me practices that are just –
32:00
Too far out there for me.
32:03
He. Is so I found
32:05
someone. Who was. Very.
32:08
Open femininity. It's actually
32:10
wasn't always. It
32:14
had to get there by getting. Another had
32:16
and everything like that. So
32:19
I share that with you because. You
32:22
know when. You're. Reading a
32:24
book or point therapy or even
32:26
listen to the podcast. It's someone's
32:28
gonna giving you advice from. Something.
32:30
That's been easy for them. And
32:34
then say oh try this the it'll be
32:36
easy for you to it may not be
32:38
in that's okay. Yeah.
32:42
That help. Totally. I
32:45
wish you could search therapists in
32:47
your insurance by that has it.
32:51
Affected. The city
32:53
so I know Now it's
32:55
important to. You don't feel safe,
32:58
listen minutes and like you doing really really
33:00
really. Beautiful work with you therapist.
33:02
Sounds like. An
33:06
part of how you trust your gut. Advocate
33:09
for yourself as like. Okay about
33:11
his can things. Grayson just. Working for
33:14
the hurts when I didn't Are you have
33:16
the other successes? Yeah.
33:19
You know, Yeah. Really stuck in
33:21
my. Body. Scans are
33:23
the only way to do this. And
33:27
I think that you are able to see
33:29
that connection between body safety and that not.
33:32
I guess communicating. Wow. That
33:34
down a little bit much for me what
33:36
he needed. The as here. Here.
33:44
Here, redacted, fully committed to keep
33:46
trying. He. He
33:50
ha well. And even
33:52
this. Is when
33:54
he say keep trying to sort of like eat
33:56
out. A
33:59
free throws. You're just shooting
34:01
and shooting and shooting. It's
34:03
less about a goal, but
34:05
more about like I'm committed to
34:08
loving myself, really committed to
34:10
loving myself and
34:13
understanding myself and
34:16
giving myself the childhood I didn't have. Yeah,
34:20
that's not broken. Yeah. Yeah,
34:25
I think that inner child work will help
34:27
with that perspective. Yes, absolutely.
34:31
And as
34:34
we wrap up and if nothing comes through,
34:36
that's totally okay. But are
34:38
you aware of anything you're feeling in your body?
34:47
I feel a little
34:49
knot in my lower back and
34:52
between my shoulder blades. I
35:03
feel a little lighter than I did earlier.
35:06
Okay. So with
35:08
those knots, instead of interpreting them, after
35:11
we hang up, just go stretch or
35:13
get a tennis ball, lay
35:15
down on it between your shoulder blades, move
35:18
your body in a way that helps loosen those
35:20
knots. Don't make them mean
35:22
anything. Just do
35:25
what would feel good. I
35:27
can do that. I know you can. Thank you.
35:29
So thank you, Ivy, for sharing your story and your experience and
35:32
for being courageous enough
35:37
to let me guide you through a little inner child process. So
35:47
there are lots of things we could have unpacked
35:50
in this episode, lots of roads we could
35:52
have gone down. One
35:54
was a big one. The one I
35:56
chose to go down. was
36:00
helping her actually have the
36:03
experience of being emotionally available
36:05
and connecting to her inner child. As
36:08
I felt that that was at the root of
36:11
many other things, including being able to take a
36:13
run, not between 3 and 5 a.m. Oh,
36:17
what we do to protect ourselves, the
36:20
lengths we go to to protect ourselves. And
36:24
what ends up happening is all
36:27
we do is hurt ourselves more, but until
36:29
we realize that so much of
36:31
what we're doing is protective patterning,
36:34
until we find another way to get
36:36
that protocol protection, we'll keep doing
36:38
the things that make us feel safe,
36:41
even if they aren't the healthiest things for us.
36:45
So for Ivy, she was
36:48
using her head to try to get into her
36:50
body. That never works. That never works. And
36:53
she had this beautiful therapist that has been
36:56
suggesting these things, which are great
36:58
suggestions, but for Ivy, just
37:00
may not work because she doesn't quite feel safe enough
37:02
in her body. So
37:04
how we start to really feel that safety
37:07
is nervous system regulation, which I've talked a
37:09
lot about on the show, but secondarily, really
37:12
reconnecting to that inner child. Often
37:14
why we don't feel safe in
37:17
our body is because we left our body at
37:20
a very young age because it didn't feel safe. We
37:22
didn't feel safe to be ourselves. We didn't feel
37:24
safe physically. We didn't feel safe mentally. We didn't
37:27
feel safe emotionally. And so
37:29
we checked out. So I wanted to give
37:31
her an experience of coming back into her body.
37:35
Of course, our work today was just a
37:37
taste of that, but I hope it reframes
37:39
some of her thinking around, I'm emotionally
37:41
unavailable. I want to
37:43
speak to you also what I shared about hiring that
37:45
coach that I realized wasn't the best bet for me
37:48
because she hadn't gone through something
37:50
similar. Now, I'm not saying
37:52
that every practitioner, coach therapist you hire has to
37:54
have the exact same journey you have,
37:58
but I find it is useful. if
38:01
you are working with
38:03
someone who has at some level struggled
38:06
with some of the things
38:08
you're struggling with. So for example, if
38:10
you are a super, super heady person
38:13
working with someone who always has
38:15
been super connected to their body
38:17
and their emotions and everything can be great
38:20
because it can be so inspiring and those
38:22
people are really good at that. However,
38:25
there can be a disconnect because
38:27
they haven't
38:29
ever experienced how hard it is
38:31
to get out of bed into the
38:33
body. I'm not saying that
38:35
that is the case for a therapist but
38:38
I do see this in
38:40
a lot of client practitioner relationships
38:42
and so my encouragement
38:44
to any of you when
38:46
looking for someone to work with is
38:48
not hire someone
38:51
based on being aspirational. They
38:53
have what you want. There's
38:56
that but you also want them
38:58
to be experiential, meaning they've walked in
39:00
your shoes. It doesn't have to
39:02
be the exact shoe or the
39:05
exact route but there's enough
39:08
of a shared experience
39:10
where they can help you get to
39:12
the other side. I see my work as a coach of
39:15
the people that I help or coach, even
39:17
any of you listeners, you're on the same
39:19
path too. You may just be a few
39:22
steps behind. My role is like, oh
39:24
yeah, I've been on that path. I know to turn here
39:26
or go there or watch out for that rock or watch
39:28
out for that ditch because
39:30
I've walked the path. That's
39:33
why I get so frustrated when I hear aspiring
39:35
coaches or even current coaches going, oh I haven't
39:37
figured out my life or I still have all
39:39
these things. I haven't figured out how
39:41
am I ever gonna help people and I always
39:43
say you're so
39:46
beautifully qualified to help other people
39:49
because you've walked your version of
39:51
the human path and human experience.
39:54
None of us are perfect. None of us have
39:56
it all figured out. Some of
39:58
us are just a little farther down the path. a doe the route.
40:00
All right everybody, that's the show for today. So, you need so much
40:02
love at Benny Blercy. Until next time. Thank you for listening to Over at
40:04
Non with It. I love hearing from you. Until
40:10
next time, I'm here
40:26
to get in over it and on with it.
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