When I first attempted this step, I had two immediate thoughts: 1) How and why would my Higher Power “remove” anything from me, and 2) What would I feel like if I were “entirely ready” to give up all my “defects”? I felt that if I would attempt this step, I would allow something extreme in my life, and this seemed intimidating. My fear was that Step Six meant I would have to open up in a way that felt unnatural to me. Frankly, I did not want to let go of what I thought would have to be too much, too fast, or parting from my vital survival skills. Taking this step did not seem at all appealing to me. The way I processed my fears was by asking which parts of me I thought would be removed, and was I afraid of having to live a life without these very necessary parts of myself. My fear was that this meant I had to become someone fundamentally different from my basic personality and nature. This was because I believed that I was defective, and who I was must be problematic. This too, is another tragic result of trauma and victimization. It is not the intent of Step Six at all.
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