You start your recovery process with identifying, and relating to a Higher Power as you understand this Power.  This understanding, in partnership with applying time-tested principles, puts you in touch with that power greater than yourself.  As you continue to apply the principles, and your understanding deepens, you can explain to yourself what this Power is, and how it manifests in your personal life journey.  At this point, you have experienced a spiritual awakening personal to you.  This has happened slowly and gradually, as you have been patiently working the steps.  If you have been asleep for a long period of time, you may need a long period of time to awaken.  It does not happen overnight.