Forgiveness, to forgive. Why is it so hard to do? Is it that we think we are condoning the person's behavior if we forgive the person? What do we gain by not forgiving? What do we lose by not forgiving?We lose a great deal when we hang on to re

Searching for Awe

Jul 17th, 2023 19m 11s

What is Awe? When is the last time you experienced it? Even I questioned whether it is considered an emotion? It is an emotion that absolutely can improve our quality of life. Yet, it takes paying attention and being open to it.In this episode

Five Regrets of the Dying

Jun 29th, 2023 24m 35s

Susie Steiner, a writer for the Guardian, published an article about a nurse who documented the top regrets of the dying.She wrtites, "Bronnie Ware is an Australian nurse who spent several years working in palliative care, caring for patients i

I'm Inviting You Into the Conversation

Jun 15th, 2023 12m 53s

It can be lonely in the podcast land. I'll admit that having a one-way conversation has its advantages. And, facing my mortality can be lonely at times. So, I've decided to invite you into the conversation. In this short episode, I pose a numbe

Becoming Real - a Lesson Taken from the Velveteen Rabbit

Apr 27th, 2023 20m 47s

The chidren's book, The Velveteen Rabbit, was first published just over 100 years ago. The book is packed with life lessons or least encurages the reader to go inward and explore what it means to be REAL in this world that rewards us for being

There is Nothing Wrong with You. You are Not Your Illness. And Why Friendships Matter

Apr 6th, 2023 28m 19s

I've struggled for a long time attaching my value to my health. This struggle has been amplified these past 9 + years since I was diagnosed with cancer. The emotion that comes up strongly is shame. Shame and guilt are cousins in the emotional w

Kindness Matters and Announcing the Precarious Project

Mar 23rd, 2023 27m 8s

I've been receiving a newly FDA-approved drug since December. My hope has been to give my body the chance to see if the disease responds to treatment in order to improve my quality of life. As it turns out, this treatment has been very difficut

It's My Honor to Walk this Precarious Path with You - My Interview with Monica Dewey

Feb 9th, 2023 48m 18s

Every wonder what its like to work in cancer care? As a nurse? How it affects that individual? How it changes her/him? I do. You'd think I'd have those questions answered living with cancer for almost 10 years. Nope. All of my heath care provid

I Have Something To Tell You - My Precarious Life: B0NUS EPISODE

Jan 23rd, 2023 28m 57s

I have decided to come clean and let you in on how my path towards death has evolved. I admit, I was purposely not disclosing some information. And, in this episode I lay the foundation for my rationale - or at least I explore my rationale. I'm

I Still Find Hope. I See it Through Our Eyes - BONUS EPISODE

Dec 30th, 2022 28m 44s

Here's another BONUS episode of the Precarious podcast. I'm tossing these out there as I feel moved to share with you an "audio journal" version of my experiences living and dying. I guess you could say I'm letting you in to my inner workings a

I Have A Different Relationship with Time - BONUS EPISODE

Dec 23rd, 2022 36m 18s

In this episode of BONUS EPISODE of Precarious, I share my experiences about how my not knowing how much time I have left to live has beautfully transformed my relationship with time for the better. I have a different relationship with time. Ca

Rehabilitation for the Soul

Dec 22nd, 2022 51m 43s

I met Jeff Eagan a couple of years ago. He is a physical therapist specializing in oncology. What does that mean? Research demonstrates that moving your body and exercising through cancer treatment decreases fatigue, increases mood and improves

It"s My 9th Cancerversary!

Dec 15th, 2022 35m 54s

I've been living with cancer (ovarian and breast and now ovarian) for nine years. I've been grateful to have periods of life with out active disease. Now - I'm approaching the end of my life. If someone told me that I would live nine years beyo

There is So Much Beauty on the Way to Death

Nov 24th, 2022 1h 3m

I've stopped treatment for my cancer. And, honestly, didn't plan on recording another podcast mostly because I did't think I'd still be alive. In this episode of the Precarious podcast, I took advantage of my "aliveness" and sat down with my de

Don't Give Up Living Just Because Death is Looming - My Conversation with Skye C Cleary

Nov 3rd, 2022 42m 53s

I love sitting down with Skye C Cleary because I love philosophers and especially female philosophers! This was a treat for me. Not only is Skye a philosopher, she is an author - her most recent book "How to be Authentic. Simone de Beauvoir and

You Might Not be Cured, But You Can be Healed - My Conversation with Cissy White

Nov 3rd, 2022 1h

I recorded this episode in mid-September and am just releasing it now (my cancer/treatment got in the way).Cissy White is a writer, speaker and advocate all things trauma. She is a survivor of childhood sexual abuse, physical abuse and abandonm

As Good as it Gets

Sep 22nd, 2022 23m 37s

What if this is as good as it gets? What if our best days are behind us? I think about this often as I'm constantly adjusting my definition of what it means to be fulfilled, successful, or even happy (I'd settle for content). Join me as I explo

Letting Go of Hope Might Be a Good Thing - My Conversation with Keith Kahn Harris

Sep 8th, 2022 40m 9s

Dr Keith Kahn-Harris has been living with Myalgic encephalomyelitis/chronic fatigue syndrome (ME/CFS) since his early twenties. He acknowledges that he is privileged in that he was able through support of his family to complete his graduate stu

Man Turning Into Stone - My Conversation with Joe Sooch

Aug 11th, 2022 50m 19s

Joe Sooch is 29 years old and has been living with Fibrodysplasia ossificans progressiva (FOP) is a very rare genetic connective tissue disorder characterized by the abnormal development of bone in areas of the body where bone is not normally

Life is Like a Tube of Toothpaste.

Jul 28th, 2022 27m 29s

Forrest Gump famously said "Life is like a box of chocolates. You never know what you are gonna get." True. And, I've been thinking about how life is like a tube of toothpaste. That full tube of toothpaste feels endless and abundant. It's only

I Adopted a Feral Kitty and Other Thoughts on Self-Care

Jul 14th, 2022 33m 50s

I did something irrational and some may say a bit reckless. It wasn't planned. I adopted a feral kitty! My original plan was to sign up as a foster volunteer for one of our local animal shelters. I should have known better. My first attempt at

"I Have Been Bent and Broken - But - I Hope - Into a Better Shape": My Conversation with Danielle Glick

May 26th, 2022 40m 33s

Danielle Glick is a survivor of multiple traumas: domestic violence, emotional abuse, and a suicide attempt (just to name a few), and now cancer. She describes cancer as the hardest thing she has ever endured, which came as a surprise to her. W

Walking Each Other Home

May 5th, 2022 21m 27s

Strangely, I recorded this episode right before I experienced a bit of a medical emergency and ended up in the hospital. So, it seems a be prophetic. Allowing others to take care of me is one of my greatest challenges. It feels like I'm jumping

I've Learned to Make Life Count - My Conversation with my Brother, Jason

Apr 21st, 2022 59m 9s

It was a treat to sit down with my brother, Jason Barrett. I was curious about how his time serving in the Marine Corps affected him. Believe it or not, we had not ever really talked about it. He shares stories of facing his fears, witnessing d