After a six-month hiatus, Pretty Girl Pill Club returns for its second season. After my brother, Andrew, died at the age of 34 on April 2nd of this year after battling alcoholism, I took a step back from the podcast, among many other things. Finding the motivation and drive to create again took a lot of time, therapy, self-reflection. I will be grieving Andrew for as long as I live, but I have to keep moving, creating, and living. I found so much solace in Megan Devine's book: It's Okay That You're Not Okay (thank you to the kind listener who suggested it). I've recommended it to my boyfriend, mother, father, and others. Whether you've lost someone close to you or you're trying to support someone in their grief, this book is an invaluable resource.In the words of Megan Devine, "there is pain in this world that cannot be fixed, only carried." I will carry this loss forever, not because I am weak, but because I cherish my brother in life and death. In this episode, Rohnie and I discuss my experience losing Andrew, Rohnie's past substance issues, sobriety, and where we go from here. While I have no advice to give those in grief (aside from a book recommendation - seriously, check it out), I hope you find comfort in this episode. We are rooting for you. We stand in solidarity with you. Take care of yourself. Almost a year to the day before Andrew died, he wrote the following poem. I have found immense comfort and strength in his words, and I hope you do too:"In moments of sheer terror like what I'm faced with, remain calm, remain calm, remain calm. I grind my knuckles deep into the ground as I take a sprinter's stance. My knuckles begin to bleed as I dig them in. I am covered in rock dust. The gun goes off, I destroy my opponent."Take your meds, drink some water, and we'll talk to you again soon.LinksWebsite: https://www.pgpcpod.com/Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/prettygirlpillclub/Twitter: https://twitter.com/pgpcpodSourcesIt's Okay That You're Not Okay by Megan Devine: https://refugeingrief.com/book/One Art by Elizabeth Bishop: https://www.poetryfoundation.org/poems/47536/one-artCreditsPretty Girl Pill Club is a production of Public Notice LLC. Hosted by Sophie Collis and Rohnie Williams. Editing and Audio Engineering by Sophie Collis. Produced by Public Notice. Created by Sophie Collis in conjunction with Public Notice. Music by Eevee & Sarah, The Illstrumentalist. Theme music mixed by Patrick Retzer. All associated artwork by Sophie Collis.Disclaimer: We are not professionals. We’re just idiots on the internet with wack as hell brain chemistry. If you are struggling, never hesitate to seek help.

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