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Jean Taylor: We're on the land of the Wurundjeri Woi Wurrung
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people of the Kulin nation.
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And this place is called Bulleke-bek in Naarm, which I've only found out fairly
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recently, but I'm pleased to be able to use Bulleke-bek Naarm as the name of
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the place I live in and pay my respects to the Wurundjeri Woi Wurrung people.
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Nat Grant: Welcome to season five of the Prima Donna podcast, Sonic
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portraits of Australian artists. These episodes, comprise interview recordings and original music, celebrating
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creative elders across all disciplines.
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The third episode in this series features Jean Taylor, a writer, publisher, and
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activist, living on Wurundjeri Woi Wurrung country in Bulleke-bek, Naarm.
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She has been a member of feminist activist collectives in the women's liberation
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movement since the early 1970s and was a founding member of the performing older
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women's circus (POW) for women over 40.
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Jean Taylor: My name's Jean Taylor. I'm a writer, radical lesbian, feminist publisher archivist.
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I'm also a grandmother. I've been living here in Bulleke-bek, Naarm for.
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Since 1970, um, I really liked the area, the urban area,
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and I think I was very lucky. I, I just sort of lucked into getting into, um, Bulluke-bek or
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Brunswick as it's called and, and haven't moved since I've I find it
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a very vibrant suburb back in 1970.
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Of course it was much more working class migrant area, and there
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are still lots of that around.
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But it has gentrified a lot since that time.
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Of course. , I've been at a radical lesbian feminist activist since the, I
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came out in 1979 as a lesbian.
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But before then I was radical feminist in the women's liberation movement as well.
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So, and I've worked in refuges.
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Written books about the women's liberation movement and the activism, because
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having a joined the archive group back in the day, uh, I've a great believer
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in documenting all of our actions and what we're doing, because I'm a
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writer I've documented as as a writer.
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I started writing as a child. I really liked the idea of writing I'm an avid reader.
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Most writers are avid readers. And so I was reading very much from very early age in books and loved them.
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And so I decided that when I was. It's still primary school, actually that I would write a book, which I did.
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It was only a small little book and I used to read it to my
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younger brother who liked it. But then through my teen years about the only thing I was doing or in the way of
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writing was compositions for schools. I think in our teen years, especially for young women, uh, teenage girls,
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it's very hard to do anything outside schoolwork because you're expected to, you
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know, excel, do you know, these show an interest and in amongst everything else
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that you go it's happening as a teenager.
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So it wasn't, I didn't actually start writing seriously as an adult until
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I tried cause I was pregnant 17.
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I got married at 18 and had a couple of kids by the time I was 19.
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So I was fairly busy, sort of through my late teens.
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I had started training as a nurse and left that when I became pregnant.
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And um, then I really, it was then that I thought I want to start
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writing again, but I just could not do it with the kids in the house.
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There was no way I could do writing when there's babies around and toddlers,
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because you need to oversee them and watch them every minute of the day.
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Plus I was working in between pregnancies. We didn't have enough money.
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Of course, back in back then I was doing some nursing.
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And so it wasn't until my children went to kindergarten, you know, there was
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big push in those days for kids to go to kindergarten before they went to school.
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And there were three and four and I had three hours.
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A day. And that's when I started writing and wrote my first novel in those couple
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of years, I only wrote fiction for many years and I had a pseudonym, Emily
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George and I published my work too.
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From 1976 onwards.
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I had this idea that I'd start writing, I'd send the book off
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and it would get published and.
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When that didn't happen. And I, I had other books that I wanted to write.
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I thought, well, I'm going to have to just keep writing and hopefully,
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you know, and then mid seventies.
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And I realized that getting published was a lot harder than just writing and
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I still wanted to continue writing. And when I was at Latrobe uni, because I went back as a mature aged student
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and got a degree, which I haven't used it, but it was extra curricular.
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activities. I really liked. And I was on Rabelais, a student newspaper for awhile and learnt about publishing
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in as much as then I was doing kind of cutting and pasting, you know, corrections
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those days, you did everything by hand.
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And I thought, well, this is fairly straightforward.
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I could do that. And I, by the time I was in the women's liberation movement, we
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just all encouraged each other. You want to do this?
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Just do it. You know, we're gonna put out a book just do it so I published my first
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book in 76 went overseas in 77.
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And when I came back on 78 and 79 and 80, I put out three more books
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and I started with the poetry. Then I did short stories and then I did two novels.
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And then I took a break for a while. By the time I came out as a lesbian and I started seriously writing my books even
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more so, and didn't get back to publishing til 84 when I set up Dyke books.
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So it's putting out two novels a year working and saving all my money,
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went into publishing in those days.
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And, uh, because that's what I wanted to do.
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Just write and publish. When I first started publishing, I was very hesitant.
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It was an embarrassing thing to do to put your work out into the world.
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But I realized that once your books in your hand, it's a completely
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different thing from scribbling on a bit of paper over here.
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Suddenly you've got a recognizable product and I stopped being embarrassed.
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And I realized that I had fallen into a good way of, um, not only doing my writing
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cause I was, I still had to discipline myself and I started being really, quite
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disciplined about it, but I could also publish my work, which is an absolutely,
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you know, free, freeing up and.
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As many women have done over the years, you know, for Virginia Woolf set up her
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own publishing house with her husband. And she actually writes that she was one of the luckiest person, you
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know, writers in the world that, cause she knew that whatever she
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wrote, she could get published. And that is such a freeing thing.
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If you've got control of your writing and your publishing, you can, you know, as a
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writer, the world's your oyster, really.
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So even though I have had one book published by spinifex press the C
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word, um, I've continued to self publish and these books were a
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bit later into the late nineties, I wasn't, um, publishing so much.
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Didn't have enough money and I'd sort of left it a bit, but still writing.
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And, um, then I realized that I really needed to as an activist for 30 years as
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an archivist for about 20 years, by that stage and an activist since the early
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seventies that if anybody who was going to document our women's liberation movement
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and our radical lesbian feminist activism.
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I was in this prime position to do that.
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Cause I had the three, I was , I knew I could write it
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uh, because it was non-fiction. I was writing under my own name then.
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So I think as I've got older, I've become much more interested in non-fiction
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and it's reflected in somebody like Helen Garner, for example, who's
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written lots of, uh, fiction, and now she's almost exclusively writing
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non-fiction and I've just finished reading her third diary that she put out.
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And I think making up stories is, is excellent.
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And, um, and I enjoyed that when I was doing it, but now I wonder.
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Yeah, the reality of life rather than, you know, make up storiesso much.
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When I first started writing, uh, I thought it would be simple,
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just pen and paper and write away.
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And it's not, of course, you know, and especially when you're starting out.
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And so I was determined to do it because.
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At the end of the day, if I hadn't written, uh, I'd feel badly.
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You know, I wrote mainly because I did not want to feel that feeling at the
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end of a day that I hadn't written. So I'd start in the morning.
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The kids would go off , I'd take the kids to kindergarten and I
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eventually had to go and go to the.
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South Melbourne library we're living in south Melbourne at that stage is the sixties.
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And because if I just started at home, I think I'll just do the dishes.
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I'd procrastinate, like mad. And that was no good either.
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So I'd be at the library and I sit myself two pages a day, two foolscap
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pages a day, cause that was achievable. And that was just for those couple of hours at the library.
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It was so painful and excruciating.
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But, but once I'd finished and I'd try and finish in the middle of a sentence
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so that it would I'd think, oh, yes, I've just finished that sentence.
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And the next day on the next page, I wouldn't be starting
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with a blank page so much. I'd be starting at the middle of a sentence and I could finish it off.
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So I had these little tricks to get myself into the way of writing.
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Time went on and I was doing that and it was, you know, it got a lot, a lot easier.
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And only because I made sure that I was doing it every day and in the morning,
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primarily because of the kids would be at school, et cetera, et cetera.
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And then I had to learn to type, had to teach myself to type
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cause I had to type them up. So that was another way of editing as I went along so I could send
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them off to publishers and things. And then of course, when I started publishing my books, I'd be
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sending, sending them to the type setter so that the type setter
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would type them up for publishing. So the time I'd finished typing up my first novel I
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could type, I knew what to do. I'm still a two finger typist, but it's better people would say
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to me, Jane, you've got to get what you don't have a computer.
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What is this? You're a writer and you haven't got a computer.
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I go, no, no, no, no. I'd sit up in bed every morning and write.
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Uh, longhand. That's how I write.
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And it's that connection with the writing. And I liked that and yes, but when you start, you know, people say
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better computer so much easier. No, no, no.
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So eventually of course I did. So I started seeing benefits, but I thought I'll still,
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probably still do it in longhand. And then I'll type it all up, which I started doing typing up my books.
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And then after a while, much to my astonishment, I found that I was
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writing directly into the computer. And that, that was so easy because you could just switch around,
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you know, as we know, cutting and pasting is so much simpler.
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So I thought, oh, well, I'll just continue doing that because it was convenient.
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It was. obviously something that I was getting good at as well.
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I could just write directly onto the computer. And then the ease of that in terms of not having to double up , write
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and then type was monumental. I have no trouble about disciplining myself.
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The discipline has been there for decades now.
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And also my favorite thing to do is write, you know, I have the joy of
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writing now is partly because I have disciplined myself that anything
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it's, it's an easy practice now. It's not something I have to angst over.
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I don't care if the right, the reading public likes it or not.
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I don't have to worry about that. I'm not a famous writer.
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In fact, I've, you know, stepped back from that a long time ago, because I
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do not want that angst that writers have Helen Garner, for example,
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terrified every time a book comes out and Virginia Wolf would nearly have a
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nervous breakdown every time, a book was coming out, I don't have any of that.
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It doesn't worry me if nobody buys my books or whatever I
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haven't promoted them you know. I haven't ever gone out of my way to try and make a living out of it.
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Ever. I've never made a living out of it, all my money goes into
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publishing and publishing my books. And because of my age now I'm 77.
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I'm no longer writing big books. They've thought of writing a huge book.
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It's just too much for me now. I'm very lucky. I did that in my sixties when I was relatively young, but I knew if I
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didn't do it in my sixties, when I still had a lot of energy, actually
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in my sixties, I would get to 70ish, and I might not get them done.
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So I was on a trot through the sixties to get those three huge books done.
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Plus another book that I put out a couple of years ago.
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The thing is that because I've been in the women's liberation,
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Victorian women's liberation, lesbian feminist archives since 1984.
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And I've been a dedicated archivist all that time.
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All that stuff is now at the university of Melbourne archives.
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And, um, a lot of my materials already there.
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And they've been happy to take my, all my old manuscripts.
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So there's a whole archive of my writing and these books will go in there.
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In 91, Donna Jackson, a good friend decided that she was
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going to do a women's circus. Now.
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By that time, I, I was. Getting off of my late forties.
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And I thought, I perhaps that can be a clown, you know, anyway,
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got to the surface I'm joined and Donna didn't like clowns at all.
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So I was immediately thrust into this environment, where I was learning physical
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circus skills at 47, I was learning to walk on stilts and do tumbled, everything.
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I loved it. One of the best community theaters.
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Uh, there are about a hundred of us at, at the end of the year show.
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Some were techies and the rest of us were performers, you know, it was brilliant.
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And so that was my life.
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Every year I was in the circus for about six years.
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I was starting to run circus workshops. If I went to a lesbian festival or a lesbian camp, or, you know, I
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started doing circus workshops and teaching other lesbians circus skills.
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And I was going to a camp called the national 10 40 conferences,
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which were for every Easter, for lesbians and feminists over 40 and
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ran the usual circus skills workshop.
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And somebody said, look, I think Jean you should organize.
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Uh, circus for lesbians over 40 or women over 40.
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And I said I'm far too flat chat cause I was training in the contingent
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to go to Beijing for the women's forum there, with the circus.
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And I was doing it you know my use usual writing and etc.
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And anyway, but once the idea got into my head, that was it.
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So the beginning of 95, I set up circus skills workshops for women over 40.
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I was a bit worried that I might've been setting women up
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for failure, but it was not true. These women could very easily do trapeze or climbing ropes or all of the things,
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stilt walkers, within a couple of months, we had stilt walkers and, and, uh,
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everything, people on a bike, everything.
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So I was the director and I was sort of part of the show, but I'd fill in
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if we needed somebody else to do it. So I was sort of a director on set really that suited me.
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That again was another vibrant thing, but because I was in charge of it,
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you know, in charge in terms of I'd set it up, it was not as relaxing as
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in the women's circus in the women's circus, I was one of 50 women on stage.
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Donna Jackson was in charge. I didn't have to do anything except do this, do that and learn that.
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And you know, and it was much freer.
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So I was doing both there at one stage. I was doing women's circus and I was doing POW.
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So I was running workshops in POW and doing a whole range of things.
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So it was very, very demanding.
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And then part way through that, my lover at the time was diagnosed
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with cancer and I realized I could not keep that pace up anymore.
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I was in my fifties by that stage, which is still relatively young, but
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that was a physically and emotionally demanding life I was living.
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And I don't regret stopping both circuses, continued on the women's circuses even
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mega more than, than it was back then.
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And, and the same with POW. POW a little bit less so, but it's still going strong and we're still
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coming up to the pride March, uh, myself helping to carry the POW banner in
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the pride March for the last well, we were in the first pride March in 96.
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So all of that time from then In little ways, I'm still connected with POW.
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And I still see it as a really very, very useful and, um,
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uh, physically challenging, but really quite it's showing.
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Older women can do things that they were not expected to do.
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And I, I, I rather suspect is probably when it started.
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It was probably the only one in the world of, you know, training women
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over 40 to be circus performers.
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The thing that we underestimated in the in the seventies, Is that the patriarchy
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is this multi-billion dollar monolith of, out to kill with wars there's at any
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one time, it was about 40 wars happening on the planet that the munitions
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industries, another multi-billion dollar industry, the internet has huge
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advantages, but has huge disadvantages.
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We're stuck with it now. There's no way we can get out of the internet anymore that's it.
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So they try to make people accountable, but they don't care.
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Nobody cares. But the, the fact that we had a megalomaniac in the white house, in
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the richest, most dominant country on the planet for four years, that's
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the sort of world we live in. I mean, this idea that civilization .Has got better and it had.
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Life has got better for most of us really compared to where we've come from.
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But for a lot of people, it hasn't at all.
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You know, it might've got better, but it's still not anywhere near.
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You know, places like India, China, even the states, you know, there's
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still got capital punishment Here.
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The refugee thing. How we treat Aboriginal people is absolutely appalling.
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It's got better, but so no where near as good as it could be.
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So we have. To the best of our ability and our own small way.
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That's how I see that. I only in my own small way, if I am not living as closely as
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possible to how I want the world to be, I'm bullshitting myself.
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Nat Grant: You've been listening to the Prima Donna podcast, Sonic
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portraits of Australian artists .For more information about the project
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and to hear more episodes like the. Visit prima Donna podcast.com.
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This podcast was produced on the lands of the Wurundjeri people
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of the Kulin nation, and I pay respects to elders past and present.
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