A four-part miniseries where I explore my spirituality through four interconnected stories in the ancient writings. In the last episode I unravel the statement “…You will know the truth and the truth will set you free” and why I believe Jesus

Episode 59 | The Kingdom of Heaven is Within You (Part III): Water Cooler Conversations (The Woman at The Well)

Apr 8th, 2020 46m 1s

A four-part miniseries where I explore my spirituality through four interconnected stories in the ancient writings. In episode #3, I explore the profound and enigmatic encounter between Jesus and a Samaritan woman and why it is a story about be

Episode 58 | Beatitudes Part VIII: Blessed Are Those Who Become the Enemy (The Persecuted)

Apr 7th, 2020 1h 21m

The Eighth Affirmation in the beatitude series, where Jesus gives eight odd blessing statements that maps a transformative journey of rupturing dependency on others and the external world in order to feel secure and satisfied, to a vibrant and

Episode 57 | The Kingdom of Heaven is Within You (Part II): The Child is the Way

Apr 1st, 2020 32m 48s

Part two in the miniseries where I explore my spirituality outside the walls of religion. In this episode I unravel Jesus’s statement, “unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven.” Also, why “c

Episode 56 | Beatitudes Part VII: Blessed Are Those Who Disturb the Peace (The Peacemakers)

Mar 31st, 2020 54m 43s

The Seventh Affirmation in the beatitude series, where Jesus gives eight odd blessing statements that maps a transformative journey of rupturing dependency on others and the external world in order to feel secure and satisfied, to a vibrant and

Episode 55 | The Kingdom of Heaven is Within You (Part I)

Mar 27th, 2020 40m 30s

A new miniseries where I explore my spirituality through four interconnected stories in the ancient writings. In this first episode, what did Jesus mean when he said, “The Kingdom of Heaven is Within (Inside) You?”. Also, I talk about the diffi

Episode 54 | Dating (Part 3): Are You My Mother?

Mar 24th, 2020 39m 53s

How dating unearthed my own unfinished work/pain from my childhood, why I looked to an ex-girlfriend to fill a void within, and how these past relationships and heartbreak drew me closer to myself.

Episode 53 | Dating (Part 2): "It's Not You, It's Me" / Daaaamn!

Mar 24th, 2020 50m 39s

New dating episode! Here I talk about my dating experiences and the realization of why dating is a wonderfully “selfish” endeavor of finding my identity, unearthing my genuineness, and the kind of intimate connection I inherently desire. Also,

Episode 52 | Beatitudes Part VI: Blessed Are Those Who Are Genuine (The Pure in Heart)

Mar 23rd, 2020 1h 10m

The Sixth Affirmation in the beatitude series, where Jesus gives eight odd blessing statements that maps a transformative journey of rupturing dependency on others and the external world in order to feel secure and satisfied, to a vibrant and p

Episode 51 | Beatitudes Part V: Blessed Are Those Who Can Laugh at Life (The Merciful)

Mar 16th, 2020 45m 40s

The Fifth Affirmation in the Beatitude Series, where Jesus gives eight odd blessing statements that maps a transformative journey of rupturing dependency on others and the external world in order to feel secure and satisfied, to a vibrant and p

Episode 50 | Beatitudes Part IV: Blessed Are Those Who Are Enraged (Hunger and Thirst for Righteousness)

Mar 9th, 2020 39m 30s

The Fourth Affirmation in the Beatitude Series, where Jesus gives eight odd blessing statements that maps a transformative journey of rupturing dependency on others and the external world in order to feel secure and satisfied, to a vibrant and

Episode 49 | Beatitudes Part III: Blessed Are the "Earthy" (The Meek)

Mar 2nd, 2020 31m 11s

The Third Affirmation in the beatitude series, where Jesus gives eight odd blessing statements that maps a transformative journey of rupturing dependency on others and the external world in order to feel secure and satisfied, to a vibrant and p

Episode 48 | Divine Loss (Poetry Reading and Commentary)

Feb 28th, 2020 32m 19s

Here I read a personal poem on the loss of God, for me, as an object or being out in the ether, the wars that are created over this Divine being, the painful disorientation of that personal loss, and how the presence of the Divine is revealed t

Episode 47 | The Place I Became Free (Poetry Reading and Commentary)

Feb 28th, 2020 20m 59s

A reading and commentary of a personal poem exploring a time judgment kept me from being present and the sudden moment when it left, giving way to a peaceful, and euphoric connection with the environment around me while hiking through Point Lob

Episode 46 | Beers, Ultramarathons, Resurrection and Trusting the Body

Feb 26th, 2020 28m 51s

A surprising and profound conversation with a friend after a chance encounter that led to meeting up for beers. Ultramarathons, the obstruction of judgment, becoming fully present and attuned to one’s body despite the pull to give up, giving wa

Episode 45 | This Was Not An Accident

Feb 26th, 2020 36m 7s

After a “chance” run-in with a friend at a grocery store that brought about deeper sharing and an opportunity to be honest, I realized that there are those enigmatic moments in life that seem to be more than just an ordinary encounter.

Episode 44 | Beatitudes Part II: Blessed are Those Who Grieve the Loss of Themselves (Mourn)

Feb 24th, 2020 50m 14s

The Second Affirmation in the beatitude series, where Jesus gives eight odd blessing statements that maps a transformative journey of rupturing dependency on others and the external world in order to feel secure and satisfied, to a vibrant and

Episode 43 | Let's Get Honest (Part 5): I Love you...But Only if You See It My Way

Feb 21st, 2020 32m 39s

A series within a series where I discuss my life in uncensored fashion. In this episode, disappointment that came from rejection from a woman on a dating site after vetting me for my belief system and spiritual lifestyle, led me to explore what

Episode 42 | Let's Get Honest (Part 4): That Dream about the Moldy Thermos

Feb 20th, 2020 41m 32s

A series within a series where I talk about my life in uncensored fashion. In this episode, I explore my dream about a moldy thermos and why this was symbolic of me leaving my family and finding my own identity. Also, I talk about differentiati

Episode 41 | Beatitudes Part I: Blessed are Those Who Have Found Meaninglessness (Poor in Spirit)

Feb 18th, 2020 1h 34m

The First Affirmation in the beatitude series, where Jesus gives eight strange blessing statements that maps a transformative journey of rupturing dependency on others and the external world in order to feel secure and satisfied, to a vibrant a

Episode 40 | Let's Get Honest (Part 3) : Ireland and the Long Drive to Finding My Anger

Feb 13th, 2020 38m 4s

My series within a series where I explore my own life in uncensored fashion. In this episode I explore an unsettling and lingering memory of why I held back my anger on the last day with my ex while in Ireland and why I felt peace when I discov

Episode 39 | The Silenced Voice (A Poetry Reading and Commentary)

Feb 4th, 2020 23m 54s

Another poetry reading and commentary. This was written as I explored my own experience with suppressing feelings and truths, our conditioning that teaches us to suppress to avoid disturbing the “peace” and what arises, on a global scale, when

Episode 38 | Let's Get Honest (Part 2)

Jan 31st, 2020 48m 25s

Series within a series where I talk about life in uncensored fashion. In this episode, how soccer parents are the suburban version of political protestors, the challenge of being vulnerable and wanting others to join in, following my inkling to

Episode 37 | Blood, Rules, Robes and Freedom

Jan 30th, 2020 55m 2s

How the ancient story of the healing of a woman hemorrhaging for twelve years, revealed to me that faith is not a belief system, but an inner compelling stirring of our genuine voice, that thrusts us into the unknown, breaking cultural and soci

Episode 36 | Let's Get Honest (Part 1)

Jan 24th, 2020 52m 10s

A new series within a series, where I talk about my life in an uncensored fashion. In this episode. Porn. Fear. Anger. How much I stress over a podcast episode. Honesty versus artificiality. Confrontation. Sharing controversial topics. The risk