Self-awareness is a peculiar thing. Some would argue that an antisocial narcissist is incapable of admitting it. This awareness of myself wasn’t an epiphany of my own. I was made aware of it by the most important person in my life (besides myself of course, because of the very definition of narcissism.) My wife has been with me for 20 years and she is fed up with the lies and manipulation. These are the uncensored thoughts that I need to get out to treat or manage these disorders and hopefully help someone else going through the same thing.