What brought the whole journey together for me was two things:To understand my life as a pilgrimage, and not something I attained or owned.And to have a daily consecration prayer that brought it all together and called me into wonder.It h

Guidepost 5: Released to be foolishly courageous

Oct 1st, 2020 19m 19s

One of the other things that stopped me trusting the Trinity to call me into flourishing was their justice.I felt they were unjust, especially that good and bad people flourished. I wanted the good to flourish and the bad people to receive ju

Guidepost 5: How the Trinity sees me, especially in the dark

Sep 28th, 2020 20m 7s

For so long I have believed lies about myself and about the Trinity.What I discovered was that the Trinity says to me, "I am enough. I am loved. I am cherished." What causes me to struggle to believe these statements is one word: not. It is i

Guidepost 17: How the Trinity sees me, especially in the dark

Sep 25th, 2020 20m 7s

For so long I have believed lies about myself and about the Trinity. What I discovered was that the Trinity says to me, "I am enough. I am loved. I am cherished." What causes me to struggle to believe these statements is one word: not. It is

Guidepost 5 Do I trust them to call me into flourishing? Answer, No.

Sep 17th, 2020 23m 5s

I was developing trust that God's heart was for me, that Jesus heart was for me, that the Holy Spirit's heart was for me, and that the Trinity was present and active in my life, but what I lacked was trust that they could call me into flourishi

Guidepost 4: Holding Vulnerable Expectant Waiting for the Trinity

Sep 10th, 2020 15m 17s

As I started to live with the Trinity actually present and active, I saw a similarity with dancing. How I needed to join the dance, and now watch from the side. How the Trinity call me on, help me to dance, and ask me to lead.I also began to

Guidepost 4: The Trinity present and active in my wilderness

Sep 3rd, 2020 20m 52s

In order for me to trust the Trinity in my now, I need a way to see them present and active in my now.I didn't want to look back and see how they had done something, or to hope they might do something in the future, I needed to see how they a

Guidepost 4: Life is now with the Trinity

Sep 1st, 2020 20m 17s

After finding the first three guideposts I felt so blessed.Then I tried to find a way to hold onto it, which developed fears that I couldn't, and I quickly lost sight of the Trinity. It happened fast.What I found, again, was that the Trinit

Guidepost 3: A growing awareness of the Holy Spirit

Aug 20th, 2020 17m 7s

The last thing I found at this guidepost was to give away blessing and empowerment. To trust that the Trinity give out of abundance.This was a challenge, because I hoard blessings and empowerment. I fear God's heart my be against me today, Je

Guidepost 3: Receiving Blessing and Empowerment is hard, but changes everything.

Aug 6th, 2020 20m 46s

This was one of the hardest parts of my track to walk.I have such a hard time receiving blessing and empowerment. I know I want it and need it, but it is built into me to earn it. Even if I get it I fear losing it.What I needed to learn was

Guidepost 3: The Holy Spirit, and now everything is wild

Jul 30th, 2020 18m 2s

Having found wonder and God's wild heart and Jesus the Shepherd/Poet, I saw the 3rd guidepost for the Holy Spirit quickly.What I didn't count on was how much garbage was in my way to this guidepost. How much I wanted to control the Holy Spiri

Guidepost 2: I began to see and hear Jesus again, as he led me to safety, contentment, strength and rest

Jul 24th, 2020 23m 27s

What I gained at this guide post was more than just seeing and hearing Jesus again.I began to see all of him again. In particular, I began to see how he was active in my wilderness, leading me to safety, contentment, strength and rest, right

Guidepost 2: Jesus the poet who sees me as a restored saint

Jul 16th, 2020 21m 30s

The metaphor that complemented the shepherd, the one that helped me hear his voice and listen with wonder, was the poet. The rebellious poet, who was both God and Human, full of wisdom and revelation and grace.The place where the shepherd and

Guidepost 2: I could not hear or see Jesus, then I found a Shepherd

Jul 8th, 2020 20m 18s

It was weird to me that the first guidepost I found was about God. At the time, God wasn't a big issue for me- I assumed he hated me. What was a big issue was that I could no longer see or hear Jesus. The first question I had was about Jesus, a

Guidepost 1: The courage to trust that God's heart is for me

Jul 2nd, 2020 21m 32s

When I was honest with myself, I knew I had some serious trust issues with God.What happened when I did the wrong thing and got lost out in the wilderness? Was God just waiting to punish me?What I learned was that God's heart is always for

Guidepost 1: God out in the sacred wilderness

Jun 24th, 2020 20m 47s

What God helped me see, post May 2014, was how little trust I had for him, and some of the things that stopped me trusting him.This included simple things like the metaphors and names I used to limit God, rather than allowing God to actually

Guidepost 1: God's heart is wild

Jun 18th, 2020 12m 55s

Guidepost 1: God’s heart is wild.In May, 2014, I lost my trust in God. My faith in God and attempts to control him and the limit to only accept the reasonable about him killed off my wonder for him and relationship with him and my trust that

There is more: the call to wonder

Jun 11th, 2020 17m 4s

The call to follow wonder can be challenging. I am so thankful for the explorers and guides who helped me find my way. How they helped me notice wonder, resist limiting it, step into it, and find a wonder-full life.Episode 3/20

I wonder

Jun 3rd, 2020 19m 13s

I used to define wonder as marvelling at a flower or a sunset. This is very limited. What I found on my journey was a different definition, and it is this: to expect that in every moment of my life there is something new to experience, know and

An Invitation to Wonder

May 28th, 2020 6m 17s

This podcast series is an invitation to explore. It is about my life between 2014-2018 and all the mess and joys I found as I recaptured wonder. I hope that you, the listener, can follow me along the track I found, and in doing so, discover you

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