On my first North India tour with our Ashram, we arrived in Calcutta.I am a big fan of Ramakrishna, so I had to go to his place, Dakshineswar Kali Temple. I asked my friends if they like to join… We found a group of 5 people to go with a taxi early in the morning to Dakshineswar…
The Swamis from our Ashram approached me, how can You do such a journey, is not our Guru good enough…?I questioned them and said I have to go there, nobody can stop me…
We arrived there during sunrise… I was so excited, beyond words…My Indian friend gave alms to the beggars, even I said don’t so so and they followed us… It was so disturbing,..I said to him, it is your problem I go alone to the Ramakrishna temple…
I went inside, many people were already sitting there, I squeezed in between them so that I didn’t touch anybody…
I went so deep in meditation, that I hardly could go out of it…
I don’t know how long…
Then the Indians started to worship me, throwing flowers on me,…When I got out of meditation, I was covered with flowers…
We had to leave and go back to the place where we slept with the other devotees …
In the meantime, the Western devotees and some Indian devotees complained why we could go and not them… The swamis had a hard time…
Normally I could do what I wanted because I was meditating the entire day and then to stop or control me was impossible…
In the evening, we had an event at a high-luxury hotel, that I disliked because it reminded me of my traumatic past, and I never wanted to go back… The next day it was in a slum, that fitted me much better…
A Swami came to me… I said, Sorry, I had to go there, please forgive me…The Swami said it was okay, please wear your best white clothes, you should join us on the stage.
On the stage, are you sure?Yes, our guru wants that.
I thought, maybe they are playing some games with me… And I hate Luxury hotels.
So what, who cares, I have to do that…
In the right corner of the stage, I got a place to sit, … All devotees who had Darshan with our Guru first had to pass the right corner…
The row was filled fast and the first devotee bowed deep in front of me touching the ground and went to our Guru…And so did all the other devotees…
Sounds weird…
It was the first time that I was in Calcutta, only one year in the Ashram, and only the devotees from the Ramakrishna Math in Calcutta had seen me…
The Swamis and Brahmachari looked in my direction and I looked in their direction…We could not believe it… Are they mad?
Swamiji said, please go to the edge of the stage so that the devotees can touch you and meditate…
I went deep in meditation and the devotees could do what they wanted…
What was the reason?Why wanted our Guru me on the stage?A true Guru knows much more, even what he/she can’t know.
The first devotees were for sure, from the Ramakrishna math and wanted to see our Guru, after they had watched me in Dakshineswar…
How did they know that I am from the Amritananda Mai Math?I had long, curly hair, a full beard, and wore a Traditional South Indian Doti with a white shirt… And that was typical for our Ashram…
The next year every devotee from our Ashram could go with our buses to Dakshineswar…
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