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Welcome to repo's fight back a
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podcast where we explore all things, reproductive,
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health, rights, and justice. I'm
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your host, Jenny wetter. And I'll
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be helping you stay informed around issues like
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birth control, abortion, sex,
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education, and LGBTQ
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issues, and much, much more giving
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you the tools you need to take action
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and fight back. Okay, let's dive
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in. Hi,
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we rose. How's everybody doing? I'm
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your host, Jenny wetter and my pronouns.
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Are she her? So
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yeah , I'm really excited for today's episode
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and I'm gonna really just keep my intro
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short. I had the guests who was
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gonna come talk to you fall through, she
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had some flight issues and
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so we had to reschedule. And so
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she'll be back soon. Don't worry. You will
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have a great conversation with her coming up
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in the next couple episodes. Don't worry, but
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I am so lucky to have a wonderful
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friend like Tara deman who stepped up and
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said she would help me make sure that we still
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got an episode to y'all today. So I
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had Tara come and help me do and ask
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me anything episode . So I
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guess with that, I will turn this episode
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over to Tara demand from amnesty.
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Hi Tara. Thank you so much for being here
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today.
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Hello. Thank you for letting me temporarily take
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over your podcast. I know
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I'm so excited. First.
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I will do this one, one Hosty thing and I'll
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hand it over. Do you wanna introduce yourself
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and include your pronouns and then it's
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all you?
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Yeah, I would love to. My name is Tara
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deman . My pronouns are she her and I'm
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with amnesty international USA. And I'm
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really excited to be an interloper
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here and lead this great
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podcast. So today,
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welcome to res fight back and
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we are running an AMA, which isn't
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ask me anything, which I definitely had
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to look up because I am not cool. <laugh>
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dunno, acronyms or the internet,
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but this is some of the questions that
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you are listeners sent in and wanna
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hear more about your Intrepid host. So I
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will be kicking some questions to
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you, Jenny, are you ready?
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I hope so.
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Awesome. Let's
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Do it.
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Let's do this. So
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the first question I think is helpful
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for everyone, which is how
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are you preparing for the forthcoming SCOTUS
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ruling ?
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So I guess I can't say like hiding under my
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bed and crying, like that's probably not helpful.
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It might be real. I mean , if that's what
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you're doing , I have some suggestions , but
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the answer .
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So like a number
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of things, definitely lots
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of rage donating mostly to
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abortion funds. Mm-hmm <affirmative> because
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yeah, they're gonna need the money. I just did
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my latest round to the
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row fund and Oklahoma cuz Oklahoma
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just has like a total abortion
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ban that went into effect. So that's
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a real problem and not just for Oklahoma,
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but like that's where everybody from tech or not
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everybody, but a lot of people from Texas were
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going to get their abortions. Mm-hmm <affirmative> so
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just again, things are gonna be really bad. So
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I'm lucky in that I am able to donate
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mm-hmm <affirmative> so I have been doing donating. I
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also went on a spree
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of buying a bunch of fun
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abortion fund t-shirts this last weekend,
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which I didn't need, but I mean, honestly,
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do you ever not need them ? So
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I , and a bunch more of those, I
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have also been thinking about the things that,
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so like the things I'm preparing like for work,
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right? Like making sure like all of our pressure releases
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already and like thinking about things
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that we need to talk about, like how is this gonna have
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an impact globally? Not just in
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the us , but also
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thinking about the podcast and like what
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topics or what things do we need to talk about
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on here that are gonna be helpful for other people.
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So in that area, I'm thinking
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of like digital security, like what
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things should I be talking about for people who
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are in a state where abortion might get criminalized?
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Like what are things that they need to think about
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around digital security, if they're gonna go get
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an abortion. So I'm just trying to think
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of episodes. That would be helpful. Mm-hmm
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<affirmative> in , in ways that I can help
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out. So that's kind of where my head
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has been at. I'm sure you
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have some suggestions too. So what have you been
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doing
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Well, let me first, I mean, let me first dig
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in a little bit to what you've been saying. So, you know, oftentimes
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I think when people , like, what are you doing? And, and
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like the first answer for lots of us is like donating
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into abortion funds, right? And I'm
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usually very wary of capitalistic
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solutions to systemic problems. And
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I would say if people have funds, this
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is a capitalistic problem as well,
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which is if you have funds to donate, please do.
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And, and of course get your amazing abortion
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merch. And partly because of course it, it
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provides financial support to the abortion funds
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that are making these great t-shirts. But also
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because it is a way of showing your solidarity.
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And I was recently in
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Vermont wearing my, everybody loves
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somebody who has had an abortion t-shirt from N N
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a F . And I had,
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I was stopped by like four or five older
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women in like somewhat discreet
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situations where someone would sort
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of come over and whisper like, oh yes, that's that's
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really, really good. Right. And this is like in a really, really liberal
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space. And the opposite
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example of that is I was wearing my abortion bands.
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T-shirt from TIFA down in Texas two
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months ago, I think. And many,
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many people were like clearly
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just really glad to see
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someone supporting abortion
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and lots and lots of people in Texas support abortion. Right.
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So they were glad to see someone else supporting the
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thing. They also did, whether or not they have a t-shirt . Right.
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And, and so I think one of the ways to think about
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when you're wearing abortion merch is the
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way that we're trained to create solidarity
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and conversation with each other, as well
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as like give your money to abortion funds.
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Absolutely. If you've got an extra dollar boy,
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make it, make it count, but
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Like destigmatizing, like even
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just wearing a shirt that says abortion
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yeah . Is like big.
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Yeah. So I think that's one of the things I'd think
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about too for , for all of us is like, what are
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the ways in which like, we are like,
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yes, donate your money. And like
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friends, we are in this for the long haul, we're
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gonna lose a lot and it's gonna be really tough.
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And we have to lay down the pavement before we can
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walk that road and win. So what
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are we doing to take care of each other? And what are we doing
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to take care of ourselves and what are we doing to
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connect to our community? And like, sometimes it's
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as simple and dumb as wearing a abortion
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bands. T-shirt in Texas where loads
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and loads oftexans are
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fully in supporting human rights and abortion and
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can feel , I know that I feel that solidarity when
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I see other people wearing abortion gear
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out in the wild, right. Obviously at a protest, but
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like just out in the wild where I'm like, yes, my people,
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we outnumber them
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Smile , like head nod or like,
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oh my God , I love your shirt.
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So, so that's, I think a challenge for both of us
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who are, you know, obviously very professionalized
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in this work, but also then
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, um, like what are the ways that we're
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taking care of ourselves in our community long term
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? And I think, and that's really tough in
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these moments of crises , right? So that, that's one
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of the , it's a plug for an abortion t-shirt or whatever
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merch and , and obviously in the safest space, that
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makes sense for you as a listener. But,
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but thinking about the way that we're continuing that conversation.
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And I think, I think one of the challenges
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is like, and also like, where are those points of
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joy, right? Like that this is such
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like just a really time. And
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, and Jen , I never know if I swear on
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your podcast, I'll try and load it back. Your listeners are probably
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like, who is this clown? Yeah . That know
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mean talking
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About abortion ban ,
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I'm talking about abortion ban . So it it's appropriate.
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But like, this is such a time and you
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know, lots of your listeners won't
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be prepping, press releases because they
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don't work in an yeah . And then,
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then that's not their job. And I
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think one of the questions is how do we
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sustain ourselves in this moment? Which
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is also like, are you doing yoga? Are you taking care
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of yourself? Are you drinking lots of water? And I mean, this like
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very like hydrate for God's sake, the abortion movement
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needs hydration. And like, what are
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the ways we're creating joy for each other? And
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it even in the , even in the face of immense loss,
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right? How are we creating joy for each other? So,
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so what have I been doing? I mean, I've been donating to abortion
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funds. I have been obviously
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work staff getting P running
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. We've been launching campaign tags. We've been coordinating
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with state base work. I mean, prepping for the state
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work. And , and that's, that is a very tangible thing
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people can do is like, yeah , wherever, whatever
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state you live in, whether it's a quote unquote good
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state or a bad state, like who
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on the ground is doing that work in campaigning, like
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find out how you can be a , a part of that because
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that's, you can control right now. Like you can't
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control the Supreme court, but also like, how
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are you just taking care of our
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community? Right. Which is how are we reaching
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out and checking in with each other? And, and
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not that it makes it better. It doesn't, it's really, really
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bad, but it, it makes it like
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we can survive this together and actually carve out
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pieces of joy. So, yeah . I
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mean, I've been, I've been struggling with obviously the trying to
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trying to create joy, but because there's
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so much we're gonna lose. Right. But like, I
9:21
know that we will win. It's just that
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we have to get through this and we have to do it together
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and, and we can only win together. Right. So, so
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in addition to donating and wearing abortion,
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T-shirts
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Like, same, like the exact top me
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of things. Like I've been trying to focus on things that
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I can control. And sometimes
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that's as simple as like, oh, the
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actual thing around the house I haven't gotten done
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in maybe two years that finally I'm like, I will
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put that shelf back up. Right. <laugh>
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Oh my God. I've totally . Yeah . Yeah. Cause
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Like that's a way to actually exert control . And then
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also trying to think is what is one thing I
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can control in this space that
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we can't control the Supreme court. Right. But I can
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control checking out the
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like I'm basic , like you in DC and
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checking back in with the DC abortion fund and seeing
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what they need right now, or checking in, if you live
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outside of DC and your state, like, what
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is the movement going on there? And today the one
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thing I did was check in on that, like, I didn't have to
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solve anything. I didn't have to, you know, but I , I
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checked in on that. So yeah. But it's
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been tough. I mean, as , as you know, which,
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I mean, this dovetails really well into
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the next question from listeners, which
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is there is so much happening right now.
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How are you dealing with burnout? <affirmative>
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So this is like, I feel like always like complicated
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question, because burnout
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is like one of those things. It , there's not like
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a end. I mean,
10:38
I'm sure at some point there is, but I don't feel it any
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time soon. I feel like last
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year I went through, I I'm
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hoping the worst of it. Lots
10:48
of like crying for, I mean,
10:50
for like the slightest reason, like you looked at
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me funny and like, right . I'm I'm
10:54
like crying on zooms and
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yeah . Yeah . I'm hoping that was the worst of it. But
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I also do worry a little bit. I, at the point
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where emotions are kind of
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dull, like yeah.
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Yes. I, I worry about that.
11:08
<laugh> I worry . I'm like, am , am I worse
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? Like, is the , was like the crying, the
11:12
good part. And like, now I'm like so
11:15
much more burned out or if I'd gotten
11:17
things more under control, I
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don't know . I'm not sure where that is. Mm-hmm <affirmative>
11:21
but I know like when the Supreme court ruling
11:23
came down, I was like, this really
11:26
sucks. I'm mad, but I don't like feel
11:29
mad. Mm-hmm <affirmative> and it's really hard.
11:31
I don't know . It feels hard to explain, like everything
11:33
just feels a little muffled.
11:35
No,
11:35
Yes . And that not good. Like I
11:37
assume like I can't, that can't be good. Yeah.
11:40
I bet a lot of your listeners are listeners.
11:42
Now that I'm a cohost for the day. Um,
11:45
I had a lot of listeners. I mean, everything you
11:47
said resonated so strongly with me,
11:50
I feel like when the decision was leaked, I,
11:53
I was shocked because we weren't expecting
11:55
it to be least no , not , not shocked with the
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outcome.
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I was having a perfectly pleasant, Monday Orly
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program , whatever.
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Exactly. And I felt
12:04
more than anything I
12:06
felt empty. Yeah. And
12:08
I felt like, I felt like a , a bit
12:10
of a , like a Gollum , like a , like a terracotta
12:13
pot. That's like it's. And that
12:15
specifically all the water had been dumped out. And
12:17
if you know anything about gardening, terracotta, seeps
12:19
water, so , okay . Cause it's like a terrible way to
12:22
plant things actually. And I felt so empty.
12:24
I remember thinking, I feel like a terracotta
12:26
pot, which of course is a pun on my name I hadn't thought about,
12:28
but like, I , I just like, I've been, I've just
12:30
all the water's dumped out and I have nothing to give. Like
12:33
I just like , I'd have this dullness to my voice
12:35
when explaining when someone would call me, like,
12:38
what is this? And I had to explain to our staff and I had to explain to families
12:40
and friends that you are in different lines of work or, or
12:42
not paying as close attention. Which of course totally understandable.
12:45
And I just felt dull and
12:47
like dull like that, that illness . I
12:49
think that look, you know, like not
12:52
a medical doctor, but you there's a lot of
12:54
research out there talking about how, like,
12:56
we are not designed as
12:59
bodies to take on the amount of trauma that
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we've been collectively experiencing over
13:03
the last six years and, and
13:06
particularly within of the pandemic. But of course,
13:08
like four years of, of real political violence
13:10
being so present in,
13:13
in the national daily life, which of course had been
13:15
extremely present for a number of
13:17
our community members and particularly black and brown people. But
13:20
like, we're not, we're not equipped to
13:22
deal with this much trauma. And I do wonder
13:24
how much of this is a continuation
13:27
of that, that impact.
13:29
But I , I do think it's, you know, I , I really
13:31
appreciate you sharing that
13:34
one cuz I feel the exact same and you and I haven't
13:36
had a chance to talk lately , which is what sucks.
13:38
But, but I , I would guess a lot of your
13:40
listeners have the same thing. And
13:42
I, I think that these are also
13:44
really classic symptoms of anxiety and
13:46
depression, which to me
13:49
having thought about this as you
13:51
know, I thought, yeah, but like , it just feels super normal that
13:53
in the face of like unspeakable horror,
13:56
you would feel this way. Right . And that's,
13:58
that's also true, but I , I do think it's
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a good plug for folks to be plugged into
14:02
mental health professionals. I,
14:04
I think about that too, the way that this has sort
14:07
of weighed on all of us living our
14:09
normal mental health lives. Right. And that
14:11
now it's a question of like it's normal
14:13
to feel bad and empty, but it doesn't,
14:16
you know, is that the way we have to live?
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And , and I don't know, you know , it's , that's deeply, deeply personal.
14:21
And I think that like, it's not advice
14:23
for folks, but I , I do wonder, and I
14:25
wonder how you and I can think about that too.
14:27
Like what does it mean again,
14:29
to wanna find joy in a really, really
14:31
up world <laugh>
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So I'm trying to be proactive mm-hmm
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<affirmative> and know that things are like,
14:38
June's gonna be bad. Right? Mm-hmm <affirmative> like , I
14:40
know June's gonna be bad. So I am
14:42
actually off next week and
14:45
I am so like the week when
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y'all are listening to this, I am off. I will
14:49
hopefully be staying off
14:51
of social media. It's a curse. And sometimes
14:53
you still go on, but I'm really going
14:56
to make the effort to not be there.
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I have no plans. I
15:01
don't, I don't have anything planned I'm going to
15:03
do. I am just going to do what makes
15:05
my heart happy. And honestly, if that's nothing,
15:08
it's nothing. And I'm
15:10
looking forward to that, watching some bad TV, reading
15:13
some lovely books, I
15:16
, I just, that's where I'm at and I'm
15:18
really looking forward to it.
15:20
And I think that unplugging there surely there's
15:22
like an app for that, that you can be like, don't let me social
15:24
media between the hours or whatever. Like the
15:26
Internet's figured out a solution for itself. <laugh> but
15:29
like, yeah . But like unplugging is
15:31
a central part of being plugged in. And I
15:33
think for me, and again, I'd assume the last of
15:35
your listeners that I can feel sometimes a guilt
15:37
when I'm not like top of my game and
15:39
like a hundred percent in the fight at this
15:42
very moment. I need
15:42
To do all the things I need your ,
15:44
All the things all the time, or I personally, and
15:46
I'm
15:46
A bad advocate. Yeah . I'm
15:48
A bad advocate. And like, I am
15:50
the reason, you know, et cetera . Yeah . And like there's
15:52
no small amount of Hubers there, but it's also,
15:54
I think the guilt and the weight that all of us
15:56
feel who are in this movement who care about this
15:59
because of how important it is . It is natural than
16:02
to feel that It's personal. And
16:05
so how can people unplug,
16:08
even at this, the most crucial moment, how
16:10
can you take a breath so that
16:12
you can breathe in so that you
16:14
can come back to breathe out, right? Like,
16:16
yeah . Yeah, no, I'm really, really glad you're off next
16:18
week. And I have a number of bad
16:21
television. I will be sending you , you
16:23
. Yes . Like so much. I
16:25
have bad television is all I watch I
16:27
, someone once ask , like, what was it? Do
16:30
you watch like 20 there's something 24
16:32
, the Ham's tale. I was like, no, I watch cartoons. Like
16:34
<laugh> right . I watch like seriously
16:36
Serious , serious be through so much. Yeah.
16:40
Yeah . And it , for folks that can watch horror and
16:42
like really serious, like good for you. That's
16:45
great. I don't think that's anything bad, but my brain's
16:47
like, Nope. <laugh> like , we were dealing with
16:49
that all day long. We're gonna watch some really
16:52
like questionably written bad
16:55
TV. <laugh> where the joke
16:57
is. How bad it's. Yeah . Maybe
16:59
when this publishes we'll go back online.
17:01
Yeah. I mean, listen, the great British baking
17:03
show can only do so much. Right.
17:05
Like that really got me through a
17:08
while . <laugh> like , you know , you can tell when things
17:10
are like bad, I'm like, I need to watch great
17:12
British baking
17:12
Show. I mean, it is just like a , you
17:15
know, Xanax to the soul, right. Like , yeah . And
17:17
also it's, I think this is, I mean, again,
17:19
not a mental health professional, like, but
17:21
there's something to be said. I , I do
17:24
this a lot where, when things feel the most outta
17:26
control, I do something
17:28
that is very physical, obviously
17:30
not exercise, which would be healthy for me. And my doctor's
17:33
like, please God exercise. And I'm like, okay , it's
17:35
just not gonna happen. But you know, like my
17:37
heart rate is always the wrong weight or
17:39
whatever, but like that, like I'll bake
17:41
something and I know you baked a lot and like,
17:43
or I'll fix something around the house or I'll build something
17:46
or I'll go out into the garden, I'll do something
17:48
with my power tools. Like I love power tools. I
17:50
am my father's daughter. Like, but something that's
17:52
really corporal because it's like so contained.
17:55
Right. Whereas this is the fight of all and
17:57
Thing being done
17:57
And it's done. Yeah. And then when you bake that thing
18:00
, I
18:00
Have this thing.
18:01
Yeah. And then you're like, and then I ate this thing.
18:03
So I would strongly recommend, so all you listeners
18:05
out there, what is one thing that you can do
18:07
and you don't have to do it well, no , if
18:09
you don't have to be a master knitter to knit something
18:11
or a master baker, like do a thing that has an
18:14
end point and then be like, I made
18:16
this ohoh , it kinda sucks. Oh, well like , you
18:18
know ? Yeah . Yeah . I mean this , the problem
18:20
is Jenny , you have set the baking bar
18:23
very high <laugh> . So we
18:25
could, I do love the idea of next week when
18:27
you're off of social in this points . Those of
18:29
us that are still on going through and doing a bake off
18:32
on your Twitter feed. Oh see
18:34
all the great stuff. Like what are people doing to take care of
18:36
themselves? I , I think that's actually, as
18:38
you're listening to this podcast, like on Twitter,
18:41
under the show, you know, what are you doing
18:43
to take care of yourself? Yeah. Because
18:46
we need every single one of us in this fight, which
18:48
means we need to be able to step out of this fight for a
18:50
moment and take a breath.
18:51
Yes. And if you need to step away, step
18:53
away. Cause I mean, it's not like,
18:56
it's not just a saying this is a marathon, not
18:58
a sprint. And like it's a really race too .
19:01
It's a really race . It is a bat
19:03
Race . Step away when you need pass
19:05
, you're mad. Like it's the time
19:07
That's right. Pass me the Baton and I will
19:09
pass it off and it's time for me. And then I'll come back
19:11
in on the next, I don't know how relay do you come
19:13
back in on relay racist ,
19:15
But this is a
19:16
Recurring relay race . Right? Like you
19:18
pass the Baton so you can take a break and then someone
19:20
else runs around and they'll pass it back to you. So
19:22
yeah. It's a good metaphor. Cause it's really real.
19:25
Yeah. And like, you also need to know
19:27
that you can't do all the things, right?
19:29
Yeah . Like I have really figured out
19:32
over the last several years that like
19:34
big crowd based things
19:37
mm-hmm <affirmative> give me anxiety. Mm-hmm <affirmative> I went to the
19:39
March for our lives and started
19:41
to have like a mini panic attack. Like I
19:44
was fine until I wasn't. Right . And I needed to
19:47
be out of there and I couldn't get out of there very
19:49
easily. Mm-hmm <affirmative> if you were there, like it
19:51
was mm-hmm <affirmative> there weren't easy exits mm-hmm
19:53
<affirmative> and I just can't do that to
19:55
myself anymore. So like, I always feel guilty
19:58
for not going to like marches, but
20:01
I'm like, it is not
20:03
good for me, so I need to do other
20:05
things and like, so finding what
20:07
your things are that are, that make you
20:10
happy and like that you like doing
20:13
are the things that are good to do.
20:15
Yeah. And also like there's
20:17
too many cooks in the kitchen, you know, a restaurant
20:20
needs lots of different types of workers. You
20:22
need someone at the front, you need someone who cleans. You need
20:24
someone who cooks. You need someone who eats, like, you
20:26
know, you need all those things and that's the same at the
20:28
movement. Right. So yeah. I mean, short , I find
20:30
those, those really invigorating and
20:33
that I'm tired in cranky, but you know , that's,
20:36
that's not the only way. That's just a very visible
20:38
way to make change and it can be very cathartic, but
20:41
it's it's I
20:41
Like the small things at the Supreme court. Yeah
20:44
. Cause like it's the smaller crowd mm-hmm
20:46
<affirmative> and like that
20:49
I feel that one is, has
20:51
been better for me doing those. I haven't done it
20:53
since the pandemic, but
20:56
I think, well, yeah, gosh, the plague. Right. I think the
20:58
other thing is right. There's things that feel
21:01
like they're the right thing, cuz they're very visible
21:04
and I , yeah . One of the questions right. Is like,
21:06
what can you do right now?
21:09
And it might not be the thing that hits the photo on
21:11
the paper. And for those of us that are based in DC,
21:13
like that is where the photo gets taken right at the court.
21:16
You're like, oh, I should have been there. It's like, or not, you should
21:18
have been calling your auntie to have that conversation
21:21
that, you know, they've been putting off or
21:23
like talking to someone who
21:25
needed the mental health break together
21:28
to talk to how hard it is or like taking
21:30
your own break because you need to be ready
21:32
for the movement. Right. Like, so those are
21:34
really visible. And obviously they're like really Instagramable
21:36
to prove like, don't worry. I did my, I got my merit
21:38
badge. Yeah . I did my like abortion merit
21:40
badge today. But like, yeah, the , the movement
21:43
needs accountants too. Y'all like, you know, do do
21:45
the thing, do the thing that you can do and
21:47
that , and we need that thing. Yeah , yeah. That
21:50
, you know, so gosh, just one
21:52
out of the questions that's also from the AMA
21:54
and is really related, is like, what
21:57
is it that made you so passionate about this issue
21:59
when you're thinking about the tactics that now are
22:02
really are life giving to you, but like what
22:04
is it about this issue that made you wanna
22:06
get involved? I mean, did you always wanna be involved
22:08
in reproductive
22:09
Rights? Oh my God. No. If you were to like
22:11
go talk to like little, little Jenny
22:13
and were like, you're gonna be like working on abortion
22:16
or whatever. So a little Catholic school, Jenny , would've
22:18
definitely been like, what I
22:21
dunno about that, but, but
22:23
I also can like trace it back to there.
22:25
So like, I , I always say that like, I
22:27
didn't have like a big aha moment
22:30
mm-hmm <affirmative> but there were like seeds planted,
22:33
like throughout mm-hmm <affirmative> my life.
22:35
So one and
22:37
I feel like I tell this story a lot, but it really
22:40
was big to me for like a number of reasons.
22:42
And again, I went to Catholic school and
22:46
a girl in my class asked me if I wanted
22:48
to go with her to go to Madison to go save
22:50
babies. Mm . And
22:52
I was like, I mean, yeah, obviously
22:54
like I would love to go save babies
22:57
mm-hmm <affirmative> and like going home and
22:59
like, Hey mom, can I go with so
23:01
and so to go to Madison and save babies and
23:04
her being like she
23:10
did in a very , I
23:13
found very important way. She
23:16
didn't tell me like, this is what you should
23:18
think, or that is wrong.
23:20
She really sat me down and was like, well, have
23:22
you thought about what about this situation?
23:25
Or what about this? What if this is
23:27
happening? Or she just like gave
23:30
me a fuller picture and then said,
23:32
if you still wanna go, you can
23:34
go. And
23:37
she gave me the agency to make my own
23:39
choices with more information. And
23:42
that was ground changing, not just for planning,
23:44
repro, proceeds, but like for life.
23:47
Right. Like learn
23:49
more about the issue and then make up your
23:51
own mind. And I know so
23:53
many people who weren't raised that way.
23:55
Right. Mm-hmm <affirmative> like , this is what you should think. And
23:58
like, to me, that was just like really groundbreaking
24:00
that that's how my mom approached it. Yeah
24:03
. And like, I remember talking to her later and
24:05
being like, this
24:07
was like so important to me. And she's like,
24:09
I don't , I don't re I don't know what you're talking about.
24:14
So to her , it was just like another day, but it really
24:16
stuck with me. Like I can picture sitting at
24:20
the , in like in the sunroom at the counter.
24:23
Like I , I can see it. Right.
24:26
It's so funny. And then again, Catholic
24:29
school . So I had sex ed from a
24:31
nun who , um,
24:33
as you can imagine, was very education
24:37
about sex ed. Right .
24:38
Super fact based .
24:40
Yeah. Super fact based like, I , I really,
24:42
I always just say I had the mean girls sex
24:44
ed education, right? Like, you're gonna have sex, you're
24:46
gonna get this horrible disease and you're gonna die. And
24:49
so again like that did not make me, like it
24:51
go all in on repro. And
24:54
it's just like things that came back later when I
24:56
started getting more involved and
24:58
being like, I don't want anybody to
25:00
get that education I had mm-hmm
25:03
<affirmative> like, it did not prepare me for life later. Like
25:05
that is terrible. Let's make sure that this
25:08
doesn't happen to anybody else. And
25:10
then just like all of a sudden it was just like
25:12
the passion and fire just exploded.
25:15
But yeah, if you were like to go back and tell younger
25:17
me, like, I could never imagine that this would
25:19
be what I'm doing for a number
25:21
of reasons. Like , I couldn't imagine myself talking
25:25
on a microphone about something. Cause like that's
25:27
not my jam either, but mm-hmm , <affirmative>
25:29
, it's something I really have found. I really enjoy doing.
25:33
Yeah. I grew up in a really conservative
25:35
town too in a rural , a rural space.
25:37
We grew up in California. Yeah . But like in a really rural, really
25:40
rural town and my
25:42
parents were the only Democrats in town and
25:45
they weren't like particularly hyper progressive, but
25:47
you know, comparatively and I
25:50
Don know that there was really an aha moment either. Right.
25:52
You just, yeah . At some point you're just
25:54
like, yeah. Do you gotta do this
25:56
work? There's no women's liberation without this.
25:59
Unless there no L LGBT equality without
26:01
this there's no racial equity without
26:03
this. Right. Like,
26:04
Like it just was like baked in. Right? Yeah . Like my mom
26:07
was like really in, and I'm
26:09
sure you had this in a similar way, but like, my mom
26:11
was very much into service and like, she
26:13
served on a lot of boards and did a lot of volunteering.
26:16
So like, it was just like baked in. And
26:18
so, like I said, not an aha moment,
26:21
but like things that happened
26:23
that like triggered like, yeah, no,
26:25
this is not cool. So like I had
26:28
a roommate in college who was very
26:31
conservative and part of like a really
26:33
conservative religion . And
26:35
so was very like outspoken on
26:38
like being pro-life and anti-gay and
26:40
all these things. And like,
26:42
Mm-hmm , <affirmative>
26:43
Just being like, whoa, whoa , whoa, whoa . Not
26:45
cool. Not okay. And like,
26:49
but it wouldn't , wasn't something that like I
26:51
had like the aha moment. It was just like that pushback
26:53
right away. I don't know .
26:55
Yeah. Yeah. I think, you
26:57
know, thinking about human rights more broadly,
26:59
which I was doing sort of earlier, there
27:02
was just a moment where it's like, you can't do any, you can't
27:04
have any of this without abortion. You
27:07
can't. Yeah . None of this happens without
27:09
abortion and that's true for a number of intersectional issues.
27:11
Right. But I, I think it's like a , I
27:14
mean, as a CIS woman also thinking, what
27:16
does it mean to have equality in this world? And
27:19
what does equity look like? And you
27:21
know, and those were , those are big thoughts
27:24
for some , you know, in college
27:26
they feel like gigantic thoughts. Right ? No one's ever thought
27:28
this that way.
27:29
Right . Never .
27:31
Yes . And now it's like these 12 year olds are like, yeah, obviously
27:34
do . And I , I think that was a big turning point
27:36
for me is I was really focused
27:39
in, on women's rights work and, and
27:42
sort of like a broad version of it. I
27:44
do remember though , when I was, this one was really gonna date
27:46
me, probably your listeners are much
27:48
younger and cooler, but I was,
27:51
I , it was really young. It must have been like eight and
27:54
we were going to a political rally
27:57
and it was in Fresno. I grew
27:59
up outside of Fresno and
28:02
it was, my mom went, it was like,
28:04
it was for the democratic candidate and
28:06
oh gosh, I'll have to think of the year. And my mom went
28:08
and there were people outside with
28:11
those signs of like dismembered fetuses.
28:14
Oh
28:14
Yes. And my mom is like five
28:18
foot. She's like, she's actually like four 11. She
28:20
likes to say she's five foot <laugh> she's not
28:23
Remember being about my height.
28:24
Yeah. Yeah. She's four 11 . And
28:27
she lost her. Like
28:31
she lost. She
28:33
just was like, how dare you?
28:35
It was the Michael Duka rally, which
28:38
will not resonate for loads of people who are under
28:40
40. But , um , Michael
28:43
Duka R I P that campaign who was a democratic,
28:45
who lost to Georgia HW Bush , Georgia , B
28:47
Bush's father. And my mom just
28:49
like went , she doesn't nuts. I mean, and I, my,
28:51
I knew that she was pro-choice,
28:54
which is how she would've said it then, but
28:56
it wasn't something that she was like hyper passionate
28:58
about. And then
29:01
she , she was just like, no, these are lies. Like
29:03
these are lies and how dare you. And
29:05
I remember being like, well, whatever's gotten her
29:07
that fired up. I should probably figure this out. <laugh>
29:11
um , and then they came and like picketed our school too
29:13
. We , we lived in this really rural town.
29:16
It could go up in an extremely rural space, like 30
29:18
miles, even more like two
29:20
, the closest city, which was Fresno. Fresno . Yes
29:22
. And in town with about a thousand people. Oh,
29:25
I feel , yeah . Yeah, yeah. Yeah. Like, so I , I
29:27
often say I grew up in the Midwest of California and
29:30
the folks with those big signs, the dismembered
29:32
Fe of signs came to our school and we lived in
29:34
the , the house right across from the high school. Like we're the one
29:36
intersection in town and like there
29:38
. And then my dad also, oh , I love it
29:40
. The one intersection, we were literal one intersection
29:43
in town.
29:43
I mean, I didn't live in the town where I went to high
29:45
school, but I relate to that. Yeah . Cause that's
29:47
what that was. Yeah .
29:48
Like small town and like people have extremely
29:51
strong heart beliefs around
29:53
abortion and mostly most people
29:55
opposed abortion on deeply religious grounds
29:58
that I knew. And I, you know, growing
30:00
up, I like, yeah, feel , I don't know , abortion feels wrong that
30:02
right . You know, but then these people came with these signs. I'm
30:04
like, oh no, they're they're lunatic. Right. And
30:07
then the more you learn, you're like, oh, this,
30:09
this debate has been co-opted and this nothing
30:11
I sort of thought about this was right. So
30:14
yeah . Again, yeah . Not like an aha moment, but, but
30:17
then you get here and you're like, I can't, there's no way
30:19
that you can't not do this. Right. It's
30:21
a , yeah . Nothing that I want in this world
30:23
to be is happens without
30:26
abortion. I think that's been a really interesting journey
30:28
for me. You know, always you're supposed to do these visions,
30:30
which is like, what's the world you want to be. And
30:32
if , if folks that are listening, work in nonprofit , that's
30:35
supposed to be the like thing you pitch to
30:37
people, not the like things that are wrong. And
30:39
all I am is like driven by intense fire
30:42
hatred for the things that are wrong. Like, and just like, yes
30:44
, the , the sun , no , the fire of a thousand
30:47
sons of, of hate. And which
30:49
is like such a one ,
30:51
Which is obviously why we're friends, which is
30:52
Why we're friends. And it's also like every mental
30:55
health professional in the world is probably like, please, no . So
30:57
like what's the world we wanna live in. Right. And
31:00
like, what's the world we want it to be. And
31:02
those that's the vision. Like
31:04
none of that happens without abortion. And
31:06
now it's just like so obvious, it feels like so obvious
31:09
that we do this work. Right. But it's so funny that you
31:11
and I have had such parallel, parallel
31:13
journey. I know. Right. What's, you know,
31:15
what's something when you've been doing this work in
31:17
the variations that you've done it, but like, what's something you're
31:19
really proud of having achieved.
31:23
So what this
31:25
podcast like , like just
31:28
in its entirety, like I
31:31
am inherently pretty introverted.
31:33
I mean, I'm very introverted. I like, I,
31:37
so like the thought of doing something like
31:39
this was a little terrifying and I definitely rejected
31:41
it when it came up. Mm-hmm <affirmative>, but
31:44
I overcame all that and,
31:47
and I'm doing it. And so like, that's pretty amazing
31:49
in and of itself. But I
31:52
was terrified this
31:54
year. We did an episode talking about
31:57
intimate partner violence. Mm-hmm <affirmative> , mm-hmm
31:59
, <affirmative> how it's a repro issue. And
32:01
I was so nervous to
32:05
talk about it on there. Talk about my
32:08
experience with it. I
32:10
really feel very lucky that I
32:12
interviewed Monica Edwards for that. Like,
32:15
she, I think together
32:17
we found the strength to like tell our
32:19
stories and like have a really, I
32:22
mean, not light, but like not
32:24
feel the stress of it in the moment, like
32:27
telling each other the stories. And like, we
32:29
ended up talking a long time after about
32:31
a number of things and, and like, that
32:33
really helped, but like the
32:36
thought of like, when , when it came time to like push publish,
32:38
like I just like really nervous again.
32:41
And I'm just like really proud of
32:43
myself cuz like that was like the first time I really
32:45
talked about it other than like kind of a really
32:48
just Lansing reference. Mm-hmm <affirmative> maybe a
32:51
little bit, you know, I, like
32:53
I said, I'm inherently introverted and I , I
32:55
let people in, but like, you
32:57
know, maybe there's like a , a bit of a wall of
33:00
like mm-hmm
33:00
<affirmative>
33:01
You're to here. Right . And so it felt like
33:04
opening it a little further and like
33:06
being more open, which I
33:08
thought was a big step.
33:09
Well, and like to the worldwide web <laugh> yeah
33:12
. As the young folks call it the
33:14
worldwide web, I mean like that's everybody,
33:16
right? Yeah. No, I, that episode was so
33:18
powerful and so good. I mean all the episodes are so,
33:20
so good. I think that, you
33:23
know, it can be very abstract
33:25
when we talk about these issues. Yeah . Especially
33:27
if you work in law policy and we're trying to
33:29
like, you know, we're trying to change law policy
33:31
and code and all these kinda like really technical, nerdy
33:33
things. And like, as I adjust my glasses and
33:36
I'm like, lemme tell you about the , you know, the following
33:38
treaties that we're violating, which again, I'm
33:40
a hundred percent gonna do that I'm
33:41
Telling , but also yes. Yeah. But
33:42
Also yes, but like, you know, at the end, this
33:44
matters because like we
33:47
all deserve
33:47
To live like about the people, right.
33:49
Dignity . Yeah. Like at the end it matters cuz we're humans
33:51
that have human experiences and it , and it's
33:53
so powerful. It's very generous .
33:55
And I think it ties back to like the burnout, right?
33:57
Like it's easy to focus on the policies
33:59
and things. Mm-hmm <affirmative> because if I think
34:01
about the people, like that's when I
34:03
talked about like being really numb around SCOTUS
34:06
. But when I started to think about like all of the people
34:08
who aren't gonna get access to abortion
34:11
that they need, like that's when I started to
34:13
cry. And so like I can't focus mm-hmm
34:15
<affirmative> on the people because that's
34:17
the part that just like utterly will break
34:20
my heart. I need to think of the
34:22
policy changes. Yeah . That need to happen to
34:24
ensure that the people get the services
34:26
they need. And so, but it is really
34:28
important to bring it back to like that personal
34:31
level, because that's why it's important.
34:33
Right. But it's, it's hard to focus on
34:35
that cuz like that's the part I feel like that
34:37
just it'll break me man
34:39
.
34:40
Yeah. Well, cause it's , it's devastating.
34:43
Yeah . Right . It's devastating. Yeah.
34:45
I , I
34:48
feel that, I think that like, you know, I think one
34:50
of it's also like how do we find again? Like, man,
34:52
all I'm doing is talking about joy. I feel like Oprah <laugh>
34:55
for like 40 billion , less, less , less wealthy,
34:58
obviously <laugh> but otherwise we're the exact same
35:00
. Well it's like I get a
35:02
Card . Oh my God .
35:05
Yeah . You get a card . You I've gotta use
35:07
Tupperware if you want it. <laugh> it's
35:10
it's got some spaghetti stains on it. I'm so sorry
35:12
. It's not great .
35:14
<laugh>
35:15
Like, you know, this is a dark time in
35:17
the world and it's a tough time. It's
35:20
certainly one of definitely the , one of the darker
35:22
timelines I've been in this multiverse, <laugh>
35:25
called America in terms of this, you know, moment.
35:27
But we, this country's had lots and lots of dark
35:29
times obviously, but like things are hard and they're
35:31
really bad and they're really. And like we
35:34
can't pretend they're not, but what we can
35:36
do is still find joy in connection and
35:38
like, you know, and do these really
35:41
hard things together, joyfully
35:44
and there's a real privilege.
35:46
I mean, there's certainly a real privilege to being able to professionalize
35:49
that work and do that from nine to five
35:51
or in, you know, in DC from 10 to eight <laugh>
35:54
whatever might be . Right . But like no
35:56
one comes in real early, but we don't roll home early
35:58
either. But you know, so there's a real privilege
36:00
there, but it's also partly because it's like,
36:03
it's a privilege to do hard things with
36:05
friends, Paul Farmer. Right. Who was
36:07
the position physicians
36:09
and health PIH . That was yeah . Yeah
36:12
. I , I don't work that much in sort of global
36:14
health partners in health partners in health. Thank you. Partners
36:16
in health who started that organization? They do a
36:18
load of like targeting
36:21
the most underserved spaces
36:23
for healthcare and globally.
36:26
And he founded this, I don't know , way back when, and,
36:28
and recently passed away the last couple of months, somewhat early.
36:30
He was like, in his sixties, it was real shock for the global health
36:33
community. And, and one of his quotes,
36:35
I was really moved by, you
36:37
know, they , he talked, he'd been interviewed a
36:39
number of times with like, how do you stay hopeful and blah, blah,
36:42
blah. And, and he was just like, it's, it's
36:44
a pleasure to do this work. Like it is to be
36:46
able to do hard things with friends. Right.
36:49
Which doesn't mean like the thing is not really crummy
36:51
that you're doing, which is like in , you
36:53
know, looking at the like devastating impact
36:55
of colonialism on, on like healthcare
36:57
in Haiti. Right. But, but like
36:59
to do hard things with friends, you know, that
37:02
that's where that's, that's a pleasure. Like
37:04
it's actually fun. It's good. And feels
37:06
sometimes guilty and this
37:08
Community is amazing .
37:10
Yeah. Like this community's amazing. And
37:13
like, yeah, we're gonna do , we're gonna do really
37:15
hard things. And we wish we didn't have to, it'd be so
37:17
much better if we could just go do anything else.
37:20
Cause this was taken care of. But like we have the privilege
37:22
of, of being together in this together , whether you're
37:24
professional or not. Right. We, we will do hard
37:26
things together. And that is fun. That
37:29
is interesting. Yes . So yeah, no,
37:31
that was a , that was a really powerful episode.
37:33
And, and partly cuz it is about doing hard things together,
37:35
having that conversation together. Right. Yeah.
37:38
You know, you've talked about on
37:40
the podcast, thinking of other episodes and,
37:43
and also sort of dovetailing on the question, what you're proud of.
37:45
You've talked about imposter syndrome a couple
37:47
of times and I'm
37:50
wondering what advice you have for,
37:54
I don't know, let's say the random listener
37:56
out there also known as myself who
37:59
like, how do we get better at not feeling like a
38:01
fake?
38:04
So this is like, like transparency
38:07
of like, I really
38:09
struggle with this one, but I also feel
38:11
like, again, I'll take this back to my conversation with
38:13
Monica and like when we were
38:15
talking after the interview, so the
38:17
part y'all, didn't hear, we were
38:19
talking about like the voice in your head and
38:22
I'm like, I don't understand like my imposter
38:24
syndrome, like my parents didn't raise me that way. And I'm
38:27
like, I just don't understand where it comes from. I'm like,
38:29
holy. Is that where that
38:31
voice is coming from? From
38:33
like the person who kept saying I wasn't
38:35
good enough. And like all of those things
38:37
that it has now become my internal mono
38:41
that I always refer to it as the
38:43
Statler in Waldorf, in my head . And
38:45
some of y'all may too young for that . But like that's
38:48
for the Muppet. Right ? Like I
38:51
just feel like there
38:54
are like , they're constantly in my head. Yeah . And so
38:57
I, for a lot of it I've
38:59
run like mitigation strategies
39:01
around it. Like I just try
39:04
to not give them space. So one
39:07
of the things is like the
39:09
podcast, like that's like the one where I
39:12
can think of like the clearest strategies, like I've
39:14
come across to deal with. It is
39:17
after I get done recording this with Tara, I
39:19
will have the little voice in my head being like you said
39:21
this wrong, you should have said this better. And
39:24
like, you sounded stupid or
39:26
like , what are you doing ? You don't know what you're talking about . And
39:28
so I don't re-listen
39:31
right. Mm-hmm <affirmative> because all I will hear
39:33
like Tara and I had this amazing, lovely conversation
39:36
and I will hear like, oh,
39:39
but did you hear like this two second clip?
39:41
Mm-hmm where you sounded like an idiot. Like, and that'll
39:43
just like replay in my head. So like my
39:45
coping strategy is to like, not give it space.
39:48
So I won't re-listen unless I have to for
39:50
like editing mm-hmm , <affirmative> where I need to tell
39:53
my editor that there's like a chunk we need to cut
39:55
or something. So I try to
39:57
not give it space. And I really
40:00
just try not to listen to it. It's
40:02
hard and it's hard. And like, I
40:05
also find it hard cuz I feel like I work with
40:07
so many amazing
40:10
advocates like Tara included and I
40:12
hear them talking about things and I'm just
40:14
like, y'all are so talented
40:17
and so smart. And I am not that person. I
40:21
feel like I , what every single one of us is
40:23
thinking. And , and I think that's the important
40:25
thing, which is why I try to keep talking
40:27
about it because I'm
40:30
sure that some people feel that way about me.
40:32
Like I may , I may never get to that point,
40:34
but like for sure, I'm
40:37
sure that way to some people. And so like, we all
40:39
are impressed by these amazing people we are
40:42
surrounded with and find that intimidating
40:44
and that feeds the voice. So like I really just
40:46
try to do what I can to not
40:49
give it space mm-hmm <affirmative> and that has
40:51
for most, the part has been pretty successful.
40:54
And then I've also learned, I think, I
40:56
can't remember if I talked about this on the podcast or not,
40:59
but I have a really hard time with the word expert.
41:01
It does not resonate with me. I
41:03
cringe from it when someone's like, you're a repro
41:06
expert. I'm like, no, I'm not mm-hmm
41:08
<affirmative> like, I really have a hard time with that. And it's,
41:10
and it's really like that word. So I,
41:14
I had some coaching around podcasting
41:16
and I , and I came up with that cause like you're a podcast expert
41:19
and I'm like , no , I'm a podcast expert
41:21
. Like I have this podcast, but I'm not an expert.
41:25
And like really it's like the word . So
41:27
we were like looking up on this . Thisor like
41:29
other options. And like, it
41:31
really seems to be like just the word expert. Like
41:33
that makes me cringe. So we came up with
41:36
I'm a reproductive health and rights Maven and
41:39
I, I love the word I love Maven and
41:41
that one doesn't give me a full body cringe.
41:45
I think, you know the question with expertise, right?
41:47
Like, and it came from academia
41:49
before it came from DC and like
41:51
expertise is this like heavily
41:54
guarded word of like
41:56
white male affirmation.
42:00
And like, so like
42:02
I think one of the things I've when I've thought that like,
42:04
oh, am I an expert in X, Y , Z , right. Is
42:06
like, well, first of all, like literate write down who is
42:08
the expert then ? Like not like a person, but like what
42:11
would it be to me to have this expertise to
42:13
you? And cuz if
42:15
, if you think like it's only like 50 years of
42:17
experience in the field, then it's like one woman and
42:19
she's 80. Right, right. Like that's
42:21
the only expert in this. Right. So, so
42:23
one of the things is like, what are we thinking about? Who makes
42:26
an expert and then like, and who told
42:28
us that's what expertise means. Right.
42:31
And how is that guarded? So that's
42:33
what I mean, that's like a highly academic exercise
42:35
<laugh> as an extremely nerdy exercise.
42:38
And the way I think about when
42:40
I with imposter syndrome is
42:42
like, I don't know how to like train myself to not
42:44
feel a certain way, but what I can
42:47
do is say like what,
42:49
like white man is benefiting from me thinking
42:51
this, like what, who
42:53
is benefiting when I think about this
42:55
and it's not like, it's not people
42:57
like, you know , who <laugh> , who are
43:00
also thinking that they're imposters.
43:01
Right. Right.
43:02
And like, I think
43:05
that that's the question, like who benefits from, from
43:07
me being like, oh, well not next , blah , blah
43:09
, blah , blah . Right? Or like, oh this is,
43:11
you know, if not, I, there was , you
43:13
know, it's true about everyone else, but oh,
43:15
but not me though. Not me though. Right? Yeah . Right. And
43:17
, and like, I'm like, oh yeah. Who that's, that's been sold
43:20
to us. And that's been sold to us like
43:23
in , particularly in professional spaces , by men
43:25
and now like, and I think there are women that will do that
43:28
now too. And which is just really
43:30
disappointing. My white women get your
43:32
together. But like those types of rarefied species
43:34
, like the question is like, who benefits if
43:36
you say that? Whether or not is true. Cause I'm like , I
43:39
don't know . Am I an imposter ? I have no idea. What does
43:41
it mean to be an imposter ? Like sure. But whether
43:43
or not like, what does it mean that that's what
43:45
the definition meets and like who got to
43:47
define that? So yeah. I don't know how to
43:49
like, not have that thought except
43:51
for to think like, this is just not useful.
43:53
No
43:54
Is not useful.
43:55
And, and I'm trying to not let it hold
43:57
me back. Right. So like when
43:59
it comes to like thinking of like looking
44:01
at a job that I might apply for or
44:04
something and being like, I'm not qualified for
44:06
that. What do you mean? Like, don't just sell
44:08
yourself short mm-hmm <affirmative> like, if
44:11
you're like utterly unqualified, like that's
44:13
one thing. But like if it's like studies
44:17
about
44:17
That right . Margin , there's loads of studies
44:19
about who applies for what? Depending
44:22
on their identity, both their gender and
44:24
their race identity. And like for,
44:26
you know, this is gonna in a shocking turn of events.
44:29
<laugh> like , women will not
44:31
apply unless they meet like 95%
44:33
of things listed on the thing. Whereas men will apply if
44:35
they meet 50 and then it also splits
44:38
among racial lines too. Right. So like, yeah.
44:40
Who who's benefiting when we're like, I shouldn't apply
44:42
for that . I only meet like 78% of the things
44:44
. There's the one thing I don't meet. Right?
44:47
Yeah. You, this is everyone
44:49
listening. You are good for that job. Go do
44:51
it.
44:51
Just do it. And like , do what's
44:53
the worst that happens.
44:56
They don't interview you. Right. Or you
44:58
do it and you fail like, okay ,
45:01
Next
45:01
I failed at loads of things , you
45:05
gotta pay your rent , but that's like, you know
45:07
, figure that part out. Yeah. No, no.
45:09
That's, <laugh> , that's true. I,
45:11
you know, one of these things is like, it doesn't
45:13
go away. Right. I think that like, and
45:16
you read, I don't tend to read sort of memoirs.
45:19
I find it as sort of a genre, but you
45:21
know, you read memoirs of people that you think, oh,
45:23
this person for sure has its
45:26
together . Not be an imposter. This , this person.
45:28
That's what I mean. When I , when I say someone's
45:30
not an imposter, this person, you read the book and they're
45:33
just like, I'm a total imposter. You're like, oh, okay.
45:35
So that's just made
45:36
Up . This is definitely a, you fake it
45:38
until you make it. Like you just keep telling yeah
45:41
. You just like fine. Keep telling yourself
45:43
you're faking it and keep doing it.
45:46
Faking it is the making it. Yeah. That's
45:48
what there is every once in a while, I'll
45:50
think, okay , I need the person who actually does this.
45:52
And then you look around and that person does not exist. You're
45:54
like, oh, I am that person. Okay . Well I
45:57
wish I felt a little more like an adult. I mean
45:59
like I'm in my mid forties and I'm still, like, I
46:01
just thought being an adult would feel a
46:03
lot more adulty <laugh>
46:05
I thought I was supposed to know what I was doing now.
46:08
I thought , yeah. And now I think back to my
46:10
parents and their , you know, at their
46:12
age and I'm like, oh my God, they had no idea
46:16
because when you're a kid, you think, oh , they like
46:18
parents. Really? They know all you disagree
46:20
with them . Obviously, you , you like, think they're
46:22
wrong, but they've got it figured out. Yeah . They just
46:24
have the wrong answer to whatever you wanna be doing.
46:27
And now I'm like, oh no, they had no idea
46:29
. Like , and my mom was like, yeah , we have no idea what we're
46:31
doing. Why did you think that? I was like, I thought adults.
46:33
That's why you were ,
46:35
That's why you're an adult. <laugh>
46:38
Like , there was one day where all of a sudden I
46:40
was going to become this magical person and
46:43
Adult . Yeah . Today you are a woman. Yeah
46:45
. My , and
46:46
She'll know all the things . Oh .
46:48
And I'll know other things. Yeah, no, I , um
46:50
, it is uh , good news, everybody
46:53
out there. No one really know there is no mold.
46:55
You can do it. You'll be great. You
46:59
, this podcast has been such a joy. I
47:02
mean, it's so such a joy for the movement, such a joy for
47:04
me. And so many listeners. What
47:06
are things that you listen to? Not
47:09
your own. I , yeah, I would never , gosh
47:11
, I can't listen to my own voice. Partly cause
47:13
It's like ,
47:13
I can hear my mother. Yeah. Yeah. I'm
47:16
just like, oh my God, my mother's coming right outta my mouth
47:18
whom I love, but did not want to sound
47:20
like
47:21
Yes.
47:22
So, so when , when , other than this podcast
47:24
or the other good podcasts.
47:26
Yeah , yeah . I listen to so many podcasts. So
47:28
I'll just like do a couple that
47:30
I love, I really love maintenance
47:32
phase with Michael Hobbs and Avory Gordon.
47:35
It's like, I
47:37
would say like , almost like the anti wellness podcast,
47:40
it's like debunking, like BMI
47:43
is total. And this is why here's
47:45
all this data for why it's wrong.
47:48
And like goes after like diets. There's
47:50
like an amazing Dr . Oz episode.
47:52
Like, oh my God, what a quack ?
47:54
Uh , yeah. So like amazing. I love that
47:56
podcast. I also love you're
47:59
wrong about , which is like the same,
48:01
but like about that different, right? Like it's
48:03
more pop culture moments . I would say
48:06
the one I just listened to today was about the
48:08
McDonald's hot coffee case.
48:11
And like, why, like what people know about
48:13
it is like,
48:15
It's like totally wrong is
48:16
Totally wrong. And like this woman was
48:18
like seriously, seriously
48:21
injured. And it became like this
48:23
joke of like, well, duh , of course coffee's
48:25
hot, but it was like
48:27
No
48:27
Way beyond . It was like almost boiling
48:30
My mom. Tell me all about this. Yeah . So I
48:32
don't listen to that podcast, but my mom does, which is the same as
48:34
listening to that podcast. Right .
48:35
<laugh> style of that. Okay . I'm
48:38
like gonna have another recommendation. So
48:40
cancel me daddy with Caitlin burns
48:42
and Oliver, Ash Klein burned and our Ash Kline , they
48:45
take on cancel culture and like, why it's
48:47
Such
48:48
A joke and like, what are y'all
48:50
talking about anyway, this week's episode?
48:53
Cause no one's been canceled and they all , so
48:55
They talk about the , the cancel Grif economy, which
48:57
is amazing. But this week's
49:00
episode reached a special place for
49:02
me. It had funny enough,
49:04
the host of like both of these other podcasts.
49:07
I just talked about Michael Hobbs on it, talking
49:09
about the trial,
49:12
which I have been avoiding, like the plague . Oh
49:15
, this
49:15
Has been crazy . I
49:17
mean, the amount that this society hates women is
49:20
out .
49:20
So he really takes on
49:21
Like , it is outta this world.
49:23
Y'all this is like the most clear cut case of
49:25
abuse, like the most well documented.
49:28
And like, if you read the like British
49:30
court case , which he did, like,
49:33
he's like, anyway, it
49:35
was just like really great. I, for
49:37
like health reason , like just mental health
49:39
reasons have like checked out. I can't follow it,
49:42
but I have been shocked by some of the things I've
49:44
seen, people that I know, like
49:47
post on social. And I'm just like, really
49:49
all ,
49:50
Like, it's like an international
49:52
gas lighting.
49:53
It leads into like a couple things of like, the people
49:55
don't really understand intimate partner violence and
49:57
like all the ways it expresses itself. And
49:59
like , mm-hmm , <affirmative> the whole range of it. Mm-hmm <affirmative> and
50:02
misogyny. Like , it's just like this like crash
50:04
course in all of it at the same time
50:06
. So I really love that.
50:10
And then ,
50:10
Yeah, let me pause for two reasons
50:13
. One so that
50:15
if your listeners are wondering, like, do I
50:17
understand what intimate partner violence is? Do
50:19
I like, am I in a situation that I maybe
50:21
didn't think was intimate partner violence?
50:24
Because it didn't fit some like really clear
50:26
cut definition I had in my mind. I
50:29
just wanna remind people that they can call
50:31
the national DV hotline anytime at
50:34
1
50:37
807 9 9 7 2 3 3 , to talk with someone confidentially, whether
50:39
or not you think right in this moment. Oh, it's not
50:41
that bad . Not that bad . So just , yeah
50:45
, it's not , it's not this thing, which
50:47
is clearly DV . So it's not . Thank you .
50:48
I appreciate
50:49
That from remind people that like it is out there.
50:51
Talk ,
50:52
Talk ,
50:52
There's
50:53
Chat on their website,
50:55
There's chat super easy and
50:57
like get some more information. And also, so that
50:59
you have more information about what you might be seeing and , and other
51:01
people and , and how you can support Jenny
51:03
. These are all extremely educational
51:06
podcasts. And I am, I've got to say,
51:08
Okay , so then the next one I was gonna say was
51:10
, um, how did this get made? I
51:13
love that podcast. Yes . Uh
51:16
, yes, no, that makes me super
51:19
happy. And then you must remember
51:21
this by Korean Longworth. I
51:24
grew up watching like a lot of old Hollywood
51:26
movies. Cause that is my mother's jam. Like
51:28
if there is a carry grant movie, mm-hmm <affirmative> , I'm sure
51:30
I had seen it. That it is like her favorite. I
51:33
was joking when I came back from being in Wisconsin
51:36
at Christmas time that I forgot that movies came
51:38
in color . So
51:41
, uh , I really love the
51:43
, you must remember this podcast, which looks at
51:45
old Hollywood. I mean, although right now
51:47
she is looking at sex in
51:49
the eighties. So it's sex on
51:52
screen in the eighties also
51:54
very on brand . Yes .
51:56
How did you get made is a podcast where
51:59
they look at movies that are like so absurd
52:02
and then they just talk about them being like,
52:04
how did this happen? And it's amazing. It is
52:06
so
52:06
Hilarious. It's so funny .
52:08
Our like our pop culture is yeah . <laugh>
52:10
I love that podcast . They're
52:13
all so funny . I
52:15
guess I'll stop there. Yeah .
52:17
It's important . It's important to
52:19
have outlets. I mean, it's important to learn.
52:21
It's always important to learn. Everybody, go keep
52:24
learning and it's important
52:26
to have good outlets where you can
52:28
actually just laugh your head off at like a
52:30
Really bad. And some people are like so bad. I'm
52:32
like, well now do I need to see this? Because
52:34
like, it sounds like horribly
52:37
terrible for
52:37
Sure . And we should , like, we should do a viewing party actually
52:40
together when we're feeling like when the caseload
52:42
is down or we'll do it outside, like
52:45
the, in these COVID dimes and then
52:47
like , do it , listen to the thing and then do a screen
52:49
That be fun with dinosaurs
52:51
that I've just been like , what is
52:53
,
52:56
And you're there Bonker and you think to yourself, this can't possibly get made. And then
52:58
you remember every David Hasselhoff
53:00
movie mm-hmm <affirmative> so yeah, highly recommend.
53:02
I am much less Aite in my
53:05
podcasting. I , I don't listen to
53:07
a ton of podcasts. I listen to yours and I listen to
53:09
dear Hank and John , which is, oh yeah , yeah . John
53:12
Hank green. I , yeah. Which
53:14
is also funny and very sweet. It's like, it's
53:16
about as sincere as I get ever
53:20
in terms of like national sincerity. But I
53:22
love gays at the national parks, G
53:24
a C at the national parks, which
53:26
is a podcast, which I always thought was
53:29
G a Y S the national parks, cuz that is
53:31
also its brand. But if , if anyone even
53:33
has a passing love of national parks
53:35
, this is a great podcast. And then I
53:37
listen to like a star Trek
53:39
Podcast .
53:42
Yeah's it's now , which makes me really sad
53:44
cuz I know there's an end. I got it really late.
53:46
Like it's it's older. But like, yeah.
53:48
I , I love it. Like , so this is again, I
53:51
would come home when I watch cartoons and I'm like, no, no, you
53:53
Need to unplug fun . I
53:55
haven't started it yet. But I've
53:58
been like, I was thinking I wanted to do a rewatch
54:00
of true blood, which I never
54:02
finished, but I was like, it
54:05
Got
54:05
Weird. And so I didn't do it. And
54:08
so, but there's
54:10
now a true blood podcast with
54:13
the woman who played Pam and the woman
54:15
who played Jessica. And I was like,
54:17
oh my God, this sounds like something I
54:19
would love to like watch an episode,
54:22
listen to the podcast.
54:24
That's I watched so true blood at
54:26
the beginning and it's got so intense.
54:29
I was like,
54:29
Yeah , it got a little wild . And I was like, and
54:32
I think I'm gonna check out now.
54:35
Yeah. Like again, I'm not people
54:37
if people like it a great, but
54:40
I was like, holy moly , this is getting too
54:42
crazy. I think part of that's age , right . I'm
54:44
just aging out of anything sharp edge these days. But
54:47
I li the other thing I love if you've never listened
54:49
to pump
54:53
that right . In my brain, especially if I'm tra well , you
54:55
know, like COVID , haven't done a load, but like I
54:57
used to listen that all the time on planes. Cause
55:01
you , first of all , you put your , how earphones in you're like, please
55:03
don't talk to me. This is the universal sign who don't talk to me.
55:05
Yes. And then like his, he just like, the
55:07
stories are so good that he chooses. And of
55:09
course his voice is just so wonderful. He's such a good narrator.
55:12
So another good podcast to recommend to vote
55:14
.
55:14
Yeah. I also listen to this one, go
55:16
Go of these .
55:17
Like I love like having podcasts, like
55:19
playing one . So I I've used that
55:21
for that mm-hmm <affirmative> and then there's one called sleep
55:23
with me. That is like nice
55:26
. Basically a guy gets on Mike and he'll
55:28
like, recap, he's done like star
55:30
Trek episodes. Or he did like
55:32
some Dr . Who episodes and he is just like talk
55:35
and wanders and rambles. He's just like ,
55:37
He's got that sort of sweet little .
55:39
So that is the delightful for like trying to fall asleep
55:42
podcast.
55:44
I mean, these are good wrecks for everyone. Movement
55:47
. Stay hydrated, stay, stay
55:49
joyful, take some time off Jenny.
55:51
It has been such a joy to be
55:54
able to talk with you. One
55:56
of the major, obviously just
55:58
for everyone's life is the inability to sort of get
56:01
together in person. And so
56:03
I'm missing you, even though we actually
56:05
worked very close. I'm building for like
56:07
two blocks away. But, but
56:09
it's so good to talk to you and I'm just so excited
56:11
to be on your podcast and be able to like
56:13
take the re so that you can actually
56:16
tell us more instead of being the great
56:18
interviewer, the great interviewee.
56:19
Well , Tara , thank you so much for doing this. I
56:21
had so much fun talking to you . I
56:23
mean, as we always do and I cannot wait
56:26
to have you back on soon, cuz y'all just released
56:28
a new report that I will have you come and
56:30
talk all about cuz it is super important.
56:34
Oh yeah. So that is yeah. We'll everybody
56:36
grab a glass of water, everyone and some snacks
56:39
and then, and have listen to a good light
56:41
podcast because then we'll talk about,
56:43
you know, the sort of serious situation facing indigenous
56:45
women here in the us . But, but there's always something
56:47
people can do. Right. And that's that's the other thing is
56:50
like you learn and then you think, whoa , that's the most screwed up
56:52
thing I've ever heard in my life. Exactly . And then you take action and
56:54
you do the thing . So speaking of the most screwed up
56:57
thing we've ever heard in our lives, everybody. Yeah
56:59
. Stay safe, stay safe . Thank you . Drink
57:01
more water. Brace yourself. We're
57:04
all in it in the long haul. This is our life's work.
57:06
We will get through this. We'll get
57:07
Through this. Yeah. Thanks so much,
57:09
Jenny . Thank you everyone. Who's listening. Make
57:11
sure you subscribe to this podcast that
57:13
you shared on social media. Um
57:15
, and that you come back here . My we'll
57:17
see you then.
57:19
Okay . Y'all I hope you enjoyed my conversation
57:21
with Tara. I am so, so
57:23
grateful for her to do this. I
57:26
really, really appreciate it. She is just
57:28
the absolute best. So thank you. Thank
57:31
you. Thank you . Thank you . Thank you Tara. With
57:33
that. If you have anything
57:35
you would like us to cover or if you have any questions,
57:37
you can always shoot me an [email protected]
57:42
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57:44
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57:46
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57:49
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57:53
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