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Stories from the Trenches,
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Ali Razakos. Oh, by the way, Ali, we are not
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recording the video. We're
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just doing audio. Hello, welcome back to another
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episode of the Sales Enablement
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Society podcast, Stories from the Trenches.
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The For Us, Buy Us podcast,
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where we bring together enablement leaders
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from all over the world.
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We talk about the things that we're dealing
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with on a common basis and
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innovative ways that people are solving for
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it. We also love to sometimes
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talk about things that didn't go so well because
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there's even more learning
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a lot of times in those situations. Today we
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have a little bit different
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guest. I'd like to first of all welcome Ali
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Razakos. Thank you for joining
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us, Ali.
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Thank you.
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Ali has, and she's gonna
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share more about this, a background in sales
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and in sales enablement,
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but her work now is as an imposter syndrome
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coach for high achievers
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in tech. That's
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Yes.
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a hot topic right now, not
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just in the enablement community. So we're
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really excited to have you
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on, Ali, to talk about something that's frankly
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pretty important to a lot
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of people. But before we
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Yeah.
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get into it, maybe share
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a little bit about yourself so everybody can
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get to know you.
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For sure. Yeah. Thanks for having
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me. So yeah, as you mentioned, I have a background
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in sales and sales enablement.
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So I spent my whole career in sales, one of
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those people who just kind of
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found themselves there. And I found myself
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at Salesforce for eight of those
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years and then left Salesforce and right before
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the pandemic, January 2020,
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and joined a smaller company. as the head of
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revenue enablement. And that
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was kind of my final role in the corporate
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world before I left and started
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to be a coach. But that role was pivotal for
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me because it came with so much
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imposter syndrome and it was so glaringly obvious,
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at least to me,
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Mm-hmm.
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how impactful it was on myself,
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like my wellbeing and my mental health, but
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then also just on my performance
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as well. And so I am so grateful for that experience
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and being in sales enablement
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to have really kind of shown me the perils
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of imposter syndrome. I mean,
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I felt it so many other times in my career,
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but being in a role I had never
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had before in
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Mm-hmm.
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a smaller company I didn't know,
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and in the middle of the pandemic,
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Right,
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and I'm
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perfect
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trying
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store.
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to build a function.
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Yeah.
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Yeah, I'm trying to put the
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function that never existed before. It was
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just like, oh my God, just,
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you know, an atomic bomb of imposter syndrome
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for me.
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Yeah. Okay. All right. Well,
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this is, this is going to be, um, this is gonna
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be a really good episode
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before we get into it though. Um, nobody gets
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out without the Jimmy Kimmel
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cow, Jimmy Kimmel challenge. All right. So
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you're ready?
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Yes.
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Uh, Kimmel retires through
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your amazing connections. You were offered
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his show. Uh, you can have
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anybody you want on as your first guest. So
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who's going to be on the couch and why
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So I would be remiss to not
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say Oprah because she's been my girl for forever.
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And I had this... I still have
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it. I have this like cue card where I wrote
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down my like four big life goals.
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And this was, I don't know, less than 10 years,
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somewhere between 10 and six
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years ago or something like that. And... Three
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of them I've already achieved
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and the last one was to be interviewed by Oprah.
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So if, you know, a twist of
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fate had it that I got to interview Oprah,
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same thing.
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It still counts. Okay. All
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Yeah,
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right.
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still counts. So I would be
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remiss to say Oprah, but I also kind of feel
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like it's a bit like a Vakapo
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because, you know, she's so known. So if I
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get to have one caveat answer,
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I would also say Gabor Mate. who is an author
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and physician who I'm obsessed
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with at the moment. And he really focuses on
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trauma in our society and how
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his newest book is called The Myth of Normal,
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right? And we
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and
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all wanna be normal, but how
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that is completely a myth. And I would just
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love to bring him to the masses.
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I mean, he's already quite famous, but what
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he has to say, we all need to
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know. So that would be my kind of adjacent.
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Okay. I just took a note
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on that because I'm an avid reader. In fact,
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I'm a parallel reader. I'll
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normally have two or three books going on at
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a time.
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Yeah.
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And I'm sure ADHD has nothing
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to do with that either,
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I was just
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right?
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just eating sweet.
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Yeah. So for those that
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are listening, we're prepping for the show.
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We were talking about, and
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in fact, I'll share in a second, we were talking
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about imposter syndrome
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that I've dealt with and the fact that I do
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have ADHD and that is kind
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of an interesting exasperating factor.
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Yeah.
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Anyway, but I wrote it down because that sounds like an amazing book. So thank you for sharing
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So,
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that recommendation.
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fantastic.
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So to bring everybody into
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the loop what you and I have been talking about,
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just with my personal experience
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with imposter syndrome, I, like you, came from
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the sales world into enablement.
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I've been in the workforce longer than you
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have, so I had more time
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in the job. I've led sales teams for Microsoft.
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One of my teams there, for
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example, had a $430-some-dollar, million-dollar
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quota. I led sales teams
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at Intuit, HP, etc. I knew the sales world.
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When I was at a company
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called InContact, which was a contact center
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as a service company, I
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was asked to leave my job as a director over
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the Eastern AEs and go figure
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out how to build an employment. So I went from
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Friday being a sales director
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to Monday being a sales name with director.
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So a little bit different
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path. And one of my first things, the directives
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from my EVP of sales was
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to take the methodology that I'd learned as
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a Microsoft leader, that
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I'd use it into it and go and get certified
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in customizing it for our
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business, teaching it, implementing it, driving
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it, option, all of that,
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which is a different level than just using
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it in the field as a, as
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a sales leader. Um,
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Sure.
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I went and I did that. I
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worked very hard at it and I actually really
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enjoy teaching. So that
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wasn't the issue, but Nonetheless, even with
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years of experience in the
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field with it, even with the, and I even had
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one of the co-founders helping
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me prepare. Right. So, I mean, everything was
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aligned, but those last
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couple of weeks before my first workshop, and
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these were three and a half
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day workshops. So they were, remember we used
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to all get together for
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like multi-day
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Yeah.
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training. Right. So, um,
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those last couple of weeks leading up to it
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though, I was being affected
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physically. I wasn't sleeping well.
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Mm.
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I was just, just kept thinking.
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that I was going to get up there, I was going
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to forget the material,
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which I've never done, but I was just convinced
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it was going to happen.
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People were going to see through me and it
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was going to turn into a
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game of stump the chump and I wasn't going
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to be able to answer their
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questions, all kinds of things, none of which
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actually came true. Yeah,
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but for about two weeks, I wasn't sleeping
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well and just headaches
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and that kind of thing. So that's me sharing
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my experience, would love
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to know. Is that common? And let's just talk
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about in general what you're
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seeing when you work with your clients.
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Yeah, so yeah, thank you for
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sharing that. And just to kind of like analyze
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that story a little bit to give
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us some, a jumping off point is, you know,
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all facts and figures point
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to the fact that you absolutely had the experience
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and the training to deliver
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this, you know, these workshops with, you know,
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at a high quality, right? And
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so, you know, so then it's not about the facts
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and figures, but that's often
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where we go. We're like, well, I don't understand
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why I feel this way because,
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you know, all of these things that I have and
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I shouldn't feel this way. Which
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means that it's not coming from a kind of facts
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and figures place. It's coming
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from a deeper place, right? So an emotional
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level and probably a memory,
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either conscious or subconscious,
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Mm-hmm.
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that is being triggered in this
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moment. Because what I was hearing is like
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you were trying to avoid. feeling,
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you know, rejection, feeling stupid, feeling
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Mm-hmm.
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inadequate, looking or feeling
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embarrassed, right? And those are all super
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uncomfortable feelings.
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Mm-hmm.
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And our brain will try to prevent
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us from having to feel that way because that
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is programming or like that,
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yeah, that was programmed in us as children.
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We all had those times as children
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because yeah, we just, you know. we do say
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stupid things and then someone
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laughs. We don't understand, we misinterpret
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it or not. So we have these
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kind of scary emotions that are kind of hardwired
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in us that now in our adult
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brains we try to avoid, right? And what's behind
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all of that is a belief. And
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I wanna check in with you, which typically
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the belief is that I'm not enough.
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Mm-hmm.
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So is that what you were feeling at the time?
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Yeah. Yeah. Again, despite
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all kinds of evidence to the contrary, that's
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The
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exactly
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contract.
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what I was feeling. And, and,
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Right.
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yep.
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Exactly, right? And so, you
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know, in my experience, you know, myself, my
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own
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Mm-hmm.
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experience, but now, and I was
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a leader for so many of the years that I was
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at Salesforce. So, you know,
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Mm-hmm.
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I don't know how many people
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I've managed, 200 at this point, right? And
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now I have clients and I, you
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know, I have hundreds of those. And so all
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this markets research that I've
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done, I don't think I've met one person that
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hasn't felt that they're not
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good enough, you know, like everyone has. of
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inner belief. So it begs the
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question though, like is it sales? The sales
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environment that's making us
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feel not enough, right? Or is there some kind
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of universality or some deeper
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something going on that we feel not enough
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and thus we were then attracted
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to the sales world because it affirms what
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we already believe about ourselves,
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right? So a bit of like a chicken and an egg
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The thing about beliefs is that
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whatever we believe, we will find evidence
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to support that belief, right?
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Because we don't wanna make ourselves crazy.
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Like we don't wanna, you know,
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I doubt that we're crazy. So whatever we believe,
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we'll just go find evidence
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that it's true because then we'll feel sane
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and okay and safe, right? So
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I, you know, I am fascinated with the sales
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environment, right? You know,
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and sales enablement is in that environment
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because you're governed by the
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same rules, right? because
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often reporting
10:57
of,
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to sales,
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of course,
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even.
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that was
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Yeah,
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me, I reported
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right.
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the sales.
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Yeah, I always have to, yeah.
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Yeah, I think that's how it
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should be. But anyway, it's so fascinating
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because, you know, it attracts
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the people that feel not enough, right?
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Mm-hmm.
11:17
Because we then now have this
11:17
opportunity, especially in sales, right? Where
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it's like, you know, if we take
11:21
sales out of it for a second, how can we prove
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that we're enough, right?
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Mm-hmm.
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I'll ask you that. How can you prove that you're enough?
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hit quota overachieve. That's,
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Right.
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and it's pretty binary.
11:34
You either do or you don't. It doesn't really
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matter, you know, what was
11:37
the old Yoda thing? You know, do not try, do
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or do not. And then sales,
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Yeah.
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that's kind of what it is.
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Nobody really cares how hard you tried. You
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either hit your number or you don't hit your number.
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Exactly. It's very binary and
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binary is attractive because it's either yes
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or it's no. There's no in between,
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right? So it's like it
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Mm-hmm.
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feels factual. So if I can
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Mm-hmm.
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do it then I'm enough and if
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I don't do it then I'm not enough, right? So
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Mm-hmm.
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let me just fucking do it and
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then I'll be enough, right? And especially
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in sales, too It's like there's
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status that comes with it, right? And there's
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money
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Mm-hmm.
12:12
that comes with
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Mm-hmm.
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and there's power that comes
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with it, right?
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Mm-hmm.
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Who do we believe in the world
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is enough? people with money, people with power,
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people that have status, right?
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So sales is like this super attractive world
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for people that don't feel enough
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because it feels like an easy, you know, in
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quotation marks, this easy place
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to get the affirmation and validation that
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you might be, right?
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It's fair.
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But like you said, it is binary.
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So the problem is, is there's only ever one
12:47
winner really, you know?
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Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm. Yeah.
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There's not room for everyone
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to be the best. There's only room for one person
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to be the best. Because of that,
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it feeds that inner belief in us of never feeling
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enough. It's a vicious cycle to be in
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sales and to not feel enough because one is
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ever enough. How do we define
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enoughness?
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In an enablement, it seems
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like we could have a further complicator because
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we have, you know, when
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sales are going really well and the team's
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crushing it, we rarely
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Yep.
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get credit for that, right?
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Because that's all them. But when they're not
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doing well, often it's a
13:31
due to a lack of training, right? And then
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everybody's looking back at us. So,
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Almost
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so
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made
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there's
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it.
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just that extra element.
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We don't have that direct control over the
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success of the sales org
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that we have when we're salespeople. So.
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I truly think, not to use a
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dramatic word here, but I truly think sales
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is quite traumatizing in itself,
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right? Because
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Mm-hmm.
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it is so binary, it's like either
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Mm-hmm.
13:53
you are or you're not, like
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Mm-hmm.
13:55
ship in or ship out, right?
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But sales enablement is so elusive. You never
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know if you're doing well. And
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it's just 10 times more traumatizing in
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Okay,
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that sense.
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yeah.
14:08
Because you can never feel good,
14:08
really.
14:11
Yeah. Yeah.
14:12
is either they're doing well
14:12
and it's not because of you, or they're not
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doing well and it's because
14:16
of you. So when am I supposed to feel good?
14:19
Yeah, yeah, right, right,
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exactly. Okay.
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Yeah. Yeah.
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So how do we, I don't know
14:25
if upgrade's the right word, but what do we
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do about it? How do we upgrade
14:29
our own operating system?
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Yeah, yeah, and you know, it's
14:33
a good word to say operating system, right?
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Because we
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Mm-hmm.
14:40
need to think about how did
14:40
we get the current one that we have, right?
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So that always leads us back
14:44
to childhood,
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Okay.
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which is exactly where we got
14:47
the belief around not being enough. So, you
14:54
know, as we have some fundamental
14:54
needs as humans and as kids, as children, there's
15:01
kind of two big ones that...
15:01
are in opposition to each other. And those
15:05
needs are the need for authenticity
15:05
and the need for attachment. And when I say
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authenticity, what I mean by
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authenticity is the need to be able to fully
15:16
express how your feelings and
15:16
what's coming up for you, right? So cry when
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I'm upset and angry or I'm hurt
15:23
or laugh or yell, whatever it is, whatever
15:29
is coming up in me, I want to
15:29
be able to express that. right? The other side
15:33
of it, the other need is the
15:33
attachment, right? I think we know as humans,
15:36
like we are social animals,
15:36
we literally will die without the parent or
15:42
an adult around who are literally
15:42
babies, right? So that need is very much, very
15:50
much kind of outweighs the need
15:50
for authenticity as children because... given
15:56
an opportunity to either be
15:56
authentically ourselves and be able to express
16:00
ourselves or get the attachment
16:00
from mom and dad, I'm gonna pick attachment,
16:06
right? But what that does is
16:06
when I'm, you know, let's say throwing a tantrum
16:11
and my parent is like doing
16:11
what they've probably learned from parenting
16:16
books, which is like, sometimes
16:16
you ignore them or, you know, you tell them,
16:19
you know, to calm down, basically
16:19
stop expressing what
16:23
Right,
16:23
your
16:23
time
16:24
authentic
16:24
out. Yeah.
16:25
feelings are.
16:25
Yeah.
16:26
And so then what the child develops
16:26
is this understanding that, oh, like, it's
16:31
not okay for me to be authentic,
16:31
to be
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Interesting.
16:34
myself. I need to now, like,
16:34
because I'm not good enough, right? If mommy
16:39
and daddy aren't liking this,
16:39
then it must be I'm deficient or something's
16:42
wrong with me. So in order to
16:42
keep my attachment to mommy and daddy, let
16:48
me be what they will praise
16:48
me for, right?
16:52
Mm-hmm.
16:52
And what does that become when
16:52
we're kids? You know, like... I was a dancer,
16:55
right? So if I was good at dance
16:55
or, you know, good grades in schools, like
16:59
the big one, right? Like
17:00
Mm-hmm.
17:01
being valuable in some
17:03
Mm-hmm.
17:03
way, right? Being productive
17:04
Yeah.
17:05
in some
17:05
Yeah.
17:05
way.
17:06
Yep. Yeah.
17:06
And when we're not, we then
17:06
believe we're not enough, right? So that's
17:12
originally kind of where where
17:12
it comes from. And then we take that and that
17:17
becomes our operating system.
17:17
Right. So I'm not enough unless I am being.
17:22
valuable or productive or, you
17:22
know, smiling and being happy for everyone.
17:29
Like whatever
17:30
Mm-hmm.
17:30
we encountered as children,
17:30
right, whatever the environment was as children,
17:36
were not valuable unless for
17:36
that, right? And so then we bring that into
17:40
adulthood and that is, you know,
17:40
we can see the parallel now. with sales, right?
17:45
Like, oh, maybe mommy and daddy
17:45
will love me if I'm really good at my sales
17:50
job and make lots of money and
17:50
get promoted, right? Like maybe they'll actually
17:54
finally love me, right? Because
17:54
we all develop this kind of belief that if
17:58
we're not enough, then we must
17:58
not be lovable, right? And then we go out as
18:02
adults into the world trying
18:02
to prove how enough we are so that we can finally
18:08
get the love that we never truly
18:08
felt that we got, right? Because we had to
18:13
be inauthentic to get that love.
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Okay.
18:18
And so, your question is like,
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what do we do about it and how do we start
18:23
upgrading our operating system?
18:23
Well, one is like getting aware of what it
18:27
currently is, which is what
18:27
I just described, right? That's pretty much
18:31
everyone in this world,
18:32
Yeah,
18:33
right?
18:33
yeah.
18:33
No, like, of course, listen,
18:33
we all, many of us had loving parents and,
18:38
quote unquote, normal childhoods,
18:38
no big traumas, right? And sometimes that's
18:44
almost like worse because then
18:44
you don't feel justified to have
18:48
Oh, it's like, what's my
18:48
problem? I had a great
18:50
exactly.
18:50
childhood.
18:51
Right.
18:51
I had a privileged childhood.
18:51
What, you know, what's my, yeah. That makes
18:54
sense.
18:54
Yeah, I want to want
18:55
That makes
18:55
to have
18:55
sense.
18:55
problems, right?
18:56
Yeah.
18:56
But but it's the problem is
18:56
like these this operating system was created
19:03
subconsciously like not in your
19:03
working memory. Like this was created like
19:07
when you were eight months old
19:07
and you know, one and a half like you're not
19:11
remembering these things. But
19:11
As a child, your brain is not fully developed.
19:16
So you can't have the capacity,
19:16
the cognitive capacity to say, oh, mommy and
19:20
daddy must just be stressed
19:20
today. They probably had a big meeting at work
19:24
or something didn't go their
19:24
way. That's why mommy's not really paying attention
19:27
to me right now, right? You
19:27
think, well, I must be.
19:31
Everything's internalized.
19:33
Yeah,
19:33
Yeah,
19:33
it must be me.
19:34
yeah, yeah.
19:35
I obviously, I'm not enough.
19:35
That's why mommy doesn't care about me, right?
19:38
So of course your mom cared
19:38
about you, of course, right? but we couldn't
19:42
interpret it that way, right?
19:42
Even if we had normal, loving, beautiful parents,
19:47
you can still have this, I'm
19:47
not good enough belief, right?
19:51
Yeah, because even beautiful,
19:51
loving parents are human. They
19:55
Oh!
19:55
have their ups and downs,
19:55
they have their flaws, they have their biases.
19:59
Of course,
19:59
Yeah. Yeah.
20:00
right? Their sort fuses, their
20:00
stress, right? You know, let's come back to
20:04
your example for a second, right?
20:04
During that time when you were, you know, to
20:09
deliver these workshops and
20:09
you weren't sleeping, did you have kids at
20:11
that time? Right.
20:12
Mm-hmm. Edit.
20:14
So, you know, were you maybe
20:14
a little bit less, you know, attentive to them
20:21
because you were so in your
20:21
own mind and so
20:23
Probably.
20:23
caught up in your own stuff,
20:23
right? Like probably.
20:25
I'm just gonna say yes.
20:25
I don't remember, but knowing how I was feeling,
20:29
I'm gonna just say yeah.
20:31
And like, and you weren't a
20:31
bad dad, you're not a bad
20:34
Yeah.
20:34
parent, right?
20:35
Yeah.
20:35
But you, it's just life, you
20:35
know,
20:37
Yeah.
20:37
like life's happening, right?
20:37
The problem to your point is like, kids personalize
20:43
everything. That's the way that
20:43
we, we understand the world is to personalize
20:48
it. Right. So, okay. So one
20:48
is like, let's realize that that's the operating
20:53
Okay,
20:53
system.
20:54
alright.
20:55
Now it's like, okay, well, what
20:55
is the operating system that I, that would
20:58
be beneficial to me? Like, what
20:58
do I want to be able to feel about myself?
21:02
Well, first and foremost, I
21:02
think we all want to feel that we already are
21:04
good enough, right? Like, if
21:04
we believed that, how would we act differently,
21:12
right? And what different behaviors
21:12
would we, you know, create in our life that
21:18
would then lead to different
21:18
outcomes and different results, right? When
21:23
you look at... most behaviors
21:23
in the world, you can kind of tie it back to,
21:28
oh, they don't think they're
21:28
good enough. That's why they're like trying
21:32
to make all this money or trying,
21:32
you know, whatever it might be. Like it's,
21:35
it usually comes back to that,
21:35
right? So if the, so then what is the belief?
21:40
So, you know, I am enough. And
21:40
that really starts with, you know, if you,
21:48
if we could just change our
21:48
beliefs, we would do it immediately. So sometimes
21:51
we need to reverse
21:52
Yeah.
21:52
engineer it.
21:53
Okay.
21:53
So... why don't we show ourselves
21:53
that we are enough in the way that we treat
22:00
ourselves? Right?
22:02
Mm-hmm.
22:03
So you know you and I were talking
22:03
before this how we all love to be our own worst
22:09
critic and almost take it as
22:09
like a point of pride. It's
22:12
Right.
22:13
like it's the same
22:13
Yeah.
22:13
pride that we have around being busy.
22:15
Right. Oh, that's another.
22:15
Yeah, you're right. I'm so busy. I don't get
22:19
any personal life. Look at me. Yeah.
22:22
Yeah,
22:22
Yeah. Another
22:22
and you're just,
22:22
topic.
22:23
and I'm like,
22:23
Yeah.
22:23
oh my god, like,
22:24
Yeah.
22:24
poor you, what do you mean? Right?
22:26
Right.
22:26
And so my clients will say that
22:26
to me all the time. Oh, no, no, I'm my own
22:29
worst critic. And I'm like,
22:29
I don't know why you're kind of happy about
22:35
it, right?
22:35
Yeah,
22:35
Like,
22:35
right, right.
22:37
because, first of all, let me
22:37
ask everyone this, has that strategy worked?
22:45
No, I mean, just speaking
22:45
for myself, no. And, and as I reflect on it,
22:50
I think it maybe comes from
22:50
a place of you can't or don't need to criticize
22:55
me because I've already
22:55
identified those
22:58
defense.
22:58
things on my own.
22:59
Yeah,
22:59
Thank you very much.
23:00
yeah,
23:00
Yeah.
23:01
yeah, yeah, I got it. I'm covered.
23:01
Yeah, you're not going to point anything out
23:05
that I already have it nitpicked
23:05
at, right?
23:08
Mm-hmm.
23:08
So it's a defense against not
23:08
wanting to seem ignorant or incompetent or
23:14
inadequate in some
23:15
Thanks for watching!
23:15
way, right? But why would we
23:15
need to defend ourselves against that if we
23:21
don't actually believe that about ourselves?
23:23
Yeah. Yeah.
23:24
Right? So it always comes back
23:24
to the belief. So if we could just change our
23:30
beliefs, we would. We would
23:30
just stop being our own worst critic. So one,
23:34
it doesn't really work, because
23:34
in the sense too is, yes, it might help you
23:38
achieve a certain thing or hit
23:38
a certain deadline, cool, right. But what I'm
23:43
assuming we all kind of want
23:43
in this world is some definition of fulfillment,
23:48
whatever that means, to be
23:50
Mm-hmm.
23:50
happy.
23:51
Mm-hmm.
23:51
And what my clients mostly say
23:51
is like, just mental peace.
23:57
Yeah.
23:57
Like to have less like chaos
23:57
in my mind of like my mind beating myself up
24:03
or like second guessing everything
24:03
or comparing myself to everyone or
24:08
Mm-hmm.
24:08
thinking that people are thinking
24:08
or judging me. Like that is so much noise,
24:14
Mm-hmm.
24:14
right? That is our own creation,
24:14
right? We're, it's not, we're not getting it
24:19
from the world. We're creating
24:19
it in ourselves. And so does being your own
24:23
worst critic lead you to more
24:23
mental peace?
24:27
You know, I learned a lesson
24:27
from a golf pro, but I think it still applies
24:33
here. And that is, you know,
24:33
I would worry about looking stupid on the golf
24:39
course. And I remember was
24:39
working with a pro once as in a teaching environment,
24:43
and he said, trust me, everyone
24:43
else on the course is obsessed about their
24:49
own games, their
24:50
Yeah.
24:50
own poor shots
24:51
So that's it
24:52
and looking
24:52
for
24:52
stupid.
24:52
the other side. Yeah.
24:53
They are not
24:53
Yeah.
24:53
looking at you, right? And
24:53
I think there's probably application for that
24:59
in life
24:59
Yeah,
25:00
in general, yes?
25:01
of course, of course,
25:02
Yeah.
25:03
right? Yeah, I love how, you
25:03
know, he's like, trust me because I literally
25:09
talk to every single one of these people here.
25:11
Yeah,
25:11
Like,
25:11
yeah, great.
25:12
they're all not paying attention
25:12
to you because there's so much paying attention
25:15
to ourselves, right? Yeah, we
25:15
have this like belief that somehow if we criticize
25:20
ourselves, that it will create
25:20
a good result, right? But... If being our own
25:29
worst critic is not creating
25:29
more mental peace, well then it's not the strategy,
25:34
you know, it's not the solution.
25:34
So something that I help clients do, which
25:38
is kind of reverse engineering
25:38
it, is like start to treat yourself, every
25:44
Mm-hmm.
25:44
aspect of yourself, your mind,
25:44
your body, you know, your health, as if you
25:50
already knew that you were enough
25:50
and that you mattered, right? So, you know,
25:55
you mentioned that... because
25:55
you were beating yourself up, then you couldn't
25:58
sleep. And you didn't elaborate,
25:58
but I'm sure that also resulted in probably
26:03
like, eating poorly or like
26:03
not leaving the house or not getting some movement
26:08
in or just poor decision-making
26:08
about yourself, right?
26:12
Yeah, because
26:12
Because
26:12
I was
26:13
you
26:13
obsessed
26:13
have to be
26:14
for
26:14
obsessed.
26:14
a short period of time. Yeah, right.
26:16
Exactly, yeah. And so then we
26:16
let ourselves go, right? We deprioritize ourselves
26:23
to prioritize the obsession,
26:23
right? And so when you deprioritize yourself,
26:29
you are internally and intrinsically
26:29
saying that you don't matter. and if you don't
26:36
matter,
26:36
Okay.
26:36
then why would you be enough?
26:36
So if we start just treating our body, our
26:43
health, our mind as if it mattered,
26:48
Mm-hmm.
26:48
our mind will start realizing,
26:48
oh wow, you matter, you know, you're enough,
26:54
Mm-hmm.
26:54
right?
26:54
Mm-hmm.
26:55
So one of the biggest like game
26:55
changers of my life has been that, like the
27:00
actual physical actions of showing
27:00
myself every day that I matter, right? Because
27:07
there's a whole slew of decisions
27:07
I could make that show myself I don't matter,
27:11
Mm-hmm.
27:11
right?
27:12
Yeah.
27:12
But now I have a belief that
27:12
I know I'm enough and I matter, so it's now
27:18
like I don't have to think about
27:18
these decisions, but in the beginning, it was
27:21
an act of like, okay, if I cared
27:21
about myself and I knew I mattered and I knew
27:26
I was enough, what would I do
27:26
today, right? And I'm like, okay, I'll make
27:31
a salad. I'll go for a walk.
27:31
I'll go to the gym. Like I'll call a friend.
27:34
You know, like that's what I
27:34
would do. What would I do if I thought I was
27:38
a piece of crap and didn't matter?
27:38
Like, well, I'd probably eat a burrito and
27:42
like sit on the couch and watch
27:42
Netflix and you know, feel
27:45
Mm-hmm.
27:45
bad about myself, right?
27:46
Mm-hmm.
27:47
So when you do those things,
27:47
you're only feeding that critic inside of you,
27:52
right? When you make decisions
27:52
that are not in favor of you, right? Like not
27:58
making you feel like you matter.
27:58
your critic is like just chopping at the bit.
28:02
It's like popcorn for the critic,
28:02
like give me more, right?
28:06
Yeah.
28:06
But when you start making decisions
28:06
in favor of your mind, so like, you know, for
28:10
example, I don't have any social
28:10
media on my phone because social media is an
28:14
attack to our minds.
28:15
Mm-hmm.
28:16
I'm a firm believer in that.
28:16
If someone wants to disprove me, I would love
28:20
for them to try.
28:21
No, I mean, I think there's
28:21
at least a dozen state legislators right now
28:25
trying to figure out how
28:25
to regulate it for children
28:27
For
28:28
because
28:28
sure. So, that's
28:29
the
28:29
what soldierhood's
28:29
evidence
28:30
had
28:30
seems
28:30
for
28:30
pretty,
28:30
them.
28:31
I think it's uncontroversial,
28:31
incontrovertible, the evidence of the damage
28:35
that it's doing to young
28:35
people, especially. So.
28:38
Well, and how are we not in
28:38
that category too?
28:42
Yeah, that's fair.
28:43
Right? Like,
28:44
Right.
28:45
we're, we also are young people
28:45
inside of us too, like we're
28:47
Mm-hmm.
28:47
just a nesting doll of all the
28:47
ages that we've ever been inside of us, right?
28:50
So,
28:51
Mm-hmm.
28:52
so yeah, like, so that's, so
28:52
something I do every day for my mind is I don't
28:56
have any social media, so that
28:56
I'm not infusing my brain with like... people
29:00
to compare myself to and bad
29:00
news and all this stuff. So already I'm putting
29:05
myself in a place where I'm
29:05
not going to feed myself terrible information
29:10
because I care about myself
29:10
and I matter, right?
29:14
Mm-hmm.
29:14
If we feed ourselves terrible
29:14
information, your brain's like, oh yeah, I
29:17
see what you're doing because
29:17
I guess we don't matter today, you know?
29:21
So I want to clarify
29:21
So
29:22
something, because you said
29:22
you don't have social media on your phone.
29:25
So it doesn't
29:25
Yes.
29:26
sound like you're completely
29:26
unplugged from social media.
29:29
Well, my business runs on LinkedIn.
29:29
So
29:31
Mm-hmm.
29:31
I do have, like LinkedIn is
29:31
the only social platform that I use and I
29:35
Okay.
29:35
only use it on my desktop. When
29:37
Okay.
29:38
I'm, if I'm on my desktop, then
29:38
I'm working and LinkedIn is my work,
29:42
So you're
29:42
right?
29:42
being intentional about it. It's
29:44
Exactly,
29:44
not your default.
29:44
yeah.
29:45
Yeah, okay.
29:46
Oh yeah, like, but there's nothing,
29:46
like my phone is basically useless. I,
29:49
Okay.
29:50
other than texting and I don't
29:50
even call people. So other than texting, it's
29:55
a camera and a texting machine
29:55
for me.
29:58
Okay, all right.
30:00
And I felt so like insane amounts
30:00
of mental peace from that. Like my brain doesn't
30:07
beat me up anymore. Whereas
30:07
when I was just passively scrolling and every...
30:12
There would just be all these
30:12
like incessant thoughts of like that I'm not
30:14
doing enough. It
30:15
Mm-hmm.
30:16
always came back to that. I'd
30:16
see someone that I used to work with and they're
30:19
like in Aruba. And my thoughts
30:19
would just start attacking me being like, why
30:23
aren't you in Aruba? You should
30:23
be on vacation. Do you make enough money to
30:26
be on vacation? Is your business
30:26
doing enough? I don't know if you're... actually
30:29
successful enough. Like it would
30:29
just be this like onslaught of thoughts
30:32
Right.
30:33
that I could not control because
30:33
I saw an image that triggered them, right?
30:38
So now if I just don't see those
30:38
images, I'm good. I feel like I am doing enough.
30:43
Sometimes ignorance is bliss.
30:43
Is that what I'm hearing?
30:46
Absolutely.
30:46
When it comes to social
30:47
Yes,
30:47
media at least. Yeah.
30:49
yes.
30:50
Okay, all right. Thank you.
30:50
Especially thank you for helping us understand
30:57
and also offering some practical
30:57
steps and things that people can do. Before
31:03
we let you go, wanna just
31:03
explore one more area. And it's a scenario
31:10
that you and I talked about.
31:10
You can go back in time. You've been given
31:12
a gift. going back in time
31:12
and having a one-on-one with yourself at any
31:17
stage in your life, right?
31:17
Just some younger version of you. But you can
31:21
only have one topic to coach
31:21
on. What do you most wish you'd known then
31:27
that
31:27
Yeah,
31:27
you'd want to talk about?
31:29
this is like a no-brainer from
31:29
my perspective. I wish that I knew about needs
31:39
and our like fundamental needs
31:39
as humans, but also our our own personal needs,
31:46
right? Especially as women,
31:46
we are very often socialized to not have needs
31:53
and to believe that our need
31:53
is to take care of other people's needs. Especially
31:58
coming from a family of people
31:58
pleasers and
32:01
Mm-hmm.
32:01
you know, that sort of world.
32:01
We often are told that we don't matter and
32:07
again coming back to like because
32:07
of the belief, we all believe
32:09
Mm-hmm.
32:09
that about ourselves, that we
32:09
don't matter and that we need to take care
32:12
of other people, right? At our
32:12
own expense. And what that does is completely
32:18
disconnects us from our needs.
32:18
And coming back to like what we all want in
32:22
life, you know, that fulfillment,
32:22
that inner peace, fulfillment and inner peace
32:28
comes when our, all of our needs
32:28
are being met. That's like literally the definition,
32:34
right?
32:34
Mm-hmm.
32:35
But if you don't know what your
32:35
needs are, how could you possibly meet them,
32:40
right? And so instead what we
32:40
do is we just trial and error. Oh, let me go
32:45
try this job. Let me go date
32:45
this guy. Let me go make that friend. Let me,
32:49
you know, you just start trialing
32:49
the world
32:51
Mm-hmm. Or
32:52
thinking
32:52
buy
32:52
that,
32:52
something.
32:52
oh,
32:53
Retail therapy.
32:53
yeah,
32:54
Yeah, yeah.
32:55
yeah, exactly. Like maybe these
32:55
things will make me happy. Maybe
32:57
Mm-hmm.
32:58
these things will make me happy.
32:58
And instead of actually going inward and, and
33:04
actually figuring out, well,
33:04
what do I truly need and care about?
33:08
Mm-hmm.
33:08
Right. And how, what are my
33:08
strategies by which I will go and fulfill those
33:13
needs? Right. So, one is like
33:13
the need for connection and community, right?
33:19
And that's gonna look, you know,
33:19
we will both have that need. It's a fundamental
33:23
need as a human, but the way
33:23
that you and I go about finding that and having
33:27
that for ourselves and what
33:27
that looks like for us is very different. But
33:31
again, the world teaches us
33:31
that it like, it looks one way and it has to,
33:35
you know, there's this one way
33:35
to do it. So, it's
33:38
that myth
33:38
back
33:39
of
33:39
to the
33:39
normal.
33:39
day. Exactly, but the normal
33:40
Yeah.
33:41
thing. So I would love to have
33:41
known that I had needs, because I'm a recovering
33:47
people pleaser, and I would
33:47
have loved to know what they are, because just
33:52
life would have been simpler if
33:54
Yeah.
33:54
I actually knew what I needed.
33:56
Thanks.
33:56
And then you can ask for what
33:56
you need too, right? So
33:58
Mm-hmm.
33:58
much of our conflict
33:59
Yeah.
34:00
between people is because we
34:00
don't know what we need, and then we don't
34:03
know how to ask for it too.
34:04
And then we get upset or
34:04
offended when they don't know and they don't
34:08
when they
34:08
do
34:08
go out
34:08
it.
34:08
and they don't give
34:09
Yeah.
34:09
it to them. Exactly,
34:09
Yeah.
34:10
right? That's
34:10
Yeah.
34:11
every conflict ever is because
34:11
of this. Because
34:13
Yeah,
34:14
you don't
34:14
makes
34:14
know what
34:14
sense.
34:14
you need and you're not asking
34:14
for it and the other person certainly doesn't
34:17
know because they're not a mind reader.
34:21
Allie, thank you. Thank
34:21
you for sharing that last piece. Thank you
34:24
again for sharing some of
34:24
the, you know, the coaching work that you're
34:27
doing and some of the techniques
34:27
and things that, that you help your clients
34:31
understand, um, and, uh,
34:31
appreciate your time being with us today.
34:36
Thank you. Yeah, thank you for having me.
34:38
I want to thank everyone
34:38
who's been listening. Again, we wouldn't be
34:42
here without your support.
34:42
Appreciate your time. Ali, I did mean to ask
34:46
you if people want to connect
34:46
with you, LinkedIn. Sounds like maybe the only
34:50
Yes,
34:51
way. I'm
34:51
the only place, yeah.
34:53
doing it. Okay, so that's
34:53
great. Well, that's gonna wrap up another episode
34:58
then, and we appreciate
34:58
your support, and we hope you'll be back in
35:03
two weeks when we'll have
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another guest and another topic.
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