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Motherhood is hard.
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One second,
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we think we're doing a good enough job, and the next
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we feel like the worst mom on the planet.
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Which is why we need the refreshing truth of
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the gospel to be repeated over and over,
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giving us hope in the everyday moments. So
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Welcome back to another episode of Risen Motherhood.
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I'm Emily, and in just a few moments, I'll be joined
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If you didn't know, we're in the midst of a mini-series all
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about grief and motherhood. We're tackling
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some specific areas of grief in this series
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and today Jen Oschman is here to chat
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all about adoption. She shares
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a bit of her family's experience with international
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adoption, including some of the joys
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and sorrows throughout the process. Jen
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has been in women's ministry for over two decades
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as a missionary and pastor's wife on three
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continents. She's the mother of four daughters,
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including one through adoption, which you'll hear more about
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in this show, and she's the author of two
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books, Enough about me and cultural counterfeits.
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Well, hey Jen, welcome to the Risen Motherhood podcast.
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Oh, thanks you guys. So good to be here. Yes,
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we are thrilled to have you come and to talk with
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us and share your wisdom. For any of
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our listeners who might not be familiar with your work, can
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you just give us a brief 101, kind
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of give us the flyover about Jen? Yeah,
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sure. So my husband and I have been married almost 24
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years and we finished
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seminary and headed to the mission field pretty much right
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after we got married. So we served
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overseas for a long time. We have four daughters,
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three by birth, one by adoption. We've
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been back
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in the US for seven years and
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it's been a joy in that time. We've planted a church.
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I've written some books, done some podcasting and speaking.
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And so yeah, sums it up. It's been a pretty global
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life full of ministry and daughters and joy.
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We love that. And you mentioned right away that you
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have an adopted daughter in the
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mix. So can you give us an overview
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of her story? Tell
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us how adoption entered your life. Sure.
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We do have kind of a unique adoption story.
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So before my husband and I had
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kids when we were
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brand new married in our first
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year, our home church here
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in Colorado began a year was
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pursuing a relationship with a
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home in Thailand.
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where our daughter was living. She
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lost both of her mom and dad when she
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was the age of four. And at the age of five,
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she went to go live in this home. And so
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her picture was on our refrigerator and we exchanged
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letters and prayed for her from the time that she was five.
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Now we moved to Japan and
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began ministry there. And then we started taking
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teams from our church in Japan to
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Thailand to the home where she lived. And
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so we began to know her and spend
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time with with her once or twice or three times
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a year. So when she
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was nine, my husband took a team there
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and then about a month later, I took a team
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there. And after those two trips, we
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came back to one another and said, I
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really sense the Lord is saying, I
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want you to be her mom and dad. But
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that was much easier said than done. On
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the one hand, we realized that
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to pursue the adoption of a nine-year-old in
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Thailand by Americans when we were living in Japan
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would be very disruptive to her own life.
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And so we were seeking wisdom and prayer, and
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we decided that we would give it a try.
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And if the Lord's will be done, keep
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walking through doors as he opened them. It
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took three years because of
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all the three country dynamics.
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And actually as the Lord would have
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it, our daughter had to be involved
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in the process the whole time. And so we would
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go back and forth and be
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before various judges and lawyers and
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social workers. But
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finally, the Lord did bring it to pass three years later.
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And she was 12 when we brought her home, and
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our other girls were two, four, and
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six. And
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she's now 25, so we've been her parents for 13 years now. And
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she herself is a mom. She made us
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grandparents about three years ago. And
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I just
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look at the hand of God and His mercy
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and redemptive work. We have a beautiful,
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strong relationship with her. She
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has endured tremendous loss in her life,
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but the Lord has been good to her and made her resilient
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and gracious, and she's
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just a joy. so very proud.
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of her and grateful for what
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the Lord has done in our family. That
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is just an incredible story. Thank
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you for sharing it with us and it's amazing
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just to hear how resilient
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you guys were as you pursued her
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and your daughter as well and just hearing about
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the Lord's hand and just orchestrating that sovereignly.
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You shared that the adoption process took about
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three years and so can
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you walk us through a little bit about some
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of the griefs that an adoptive mom might experience.
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I'm sure that was not easy in that
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process. And I think for many
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of us, we feel like adoption
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goes quickly and it
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feels like a celebratory time. But
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we also know that there are a lot of hard things along
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the way. Can you just speak to some of those things? Yes,
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I would love to encourage the adoptive
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mom who's listening, who's in the process. For
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many of us, it takes years and years. And
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it's just a very trying process. You know, you sense
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this call from God, you feel very strongly, this
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is the right thing to do. Adoption
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is our father's heart, you know, so it should
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happen quickly, right? Like this is God's heart,
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it should happen quickly. But it
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rarely does. And when people question,
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you know, why did it take three years? That's crazy. I
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often remind them that there's laws on
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the books for good reasons. It's very
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good that as Americans, we could not enter Thailand
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and pick out a child and take her home. It's
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very good that there are laws, international
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laws in place that protect children. And
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so I think that it's important for
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adoptive parents to remember
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the red tape is there for good reason.
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Now, sometimes it's not. Obviously, I won't go down
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that path, but adoption can be full of corruption
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as well, and corrupt governments, and corrupt agencies.
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But yeah, for us,
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we had to go before American,
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Japanese, and Thai social workers,
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and lawyers, and judges. And it was just an extremely
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difficult process. And the fact that our daughter was
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involved, the Thai government required
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her consent and involvement
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the entire time. So every time
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we went to Thailand to
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sort of push the. process forward and then returned
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home to Japan. I very much
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had to trust that the Lord would care
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for our not yet daughter, that
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he would meet her in her
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grief as she waited on us, and that he would
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meet us in our grief as we waited on him. I
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remember really poignantly one moment when
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we were speaking on the phone with our pastor
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back here in the United States, and
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he asked us,
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do you trust the Lord with her?
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Like she is not yet your daughter.
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And, you know, are you
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willing to entrust her to the Lord if this
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does not come to pass? And
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I feel like that was just such a shaping question for
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me because it caused
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me to ask myself, you know,
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am I willing to entrust everything
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about her and our family and her future
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and our future to my God in heaven?
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Or do I see myself as
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necessary to her story? Am
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I subconsciously putting myself
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in the seat of God? We're like, no,
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I have to rescue her. I
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have to sort of be her savior, which
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I know is like an ugly way to say it, but we
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have to come to terms with that way that we think
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sometimes. And so that
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was a good question. And so for the mom
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who's waiting right now, my encouragement is, you know,
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do you trust the Lord to
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be sovereign and good and true
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in your waiting child's life, even
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if he does not bring the adoption to come
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to pass. Because what's true is our
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kids, all of our kids belong to the Lord,
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right? We are not the savior
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for any of our kids. So
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it's important that we trust the Lord with all
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of those details, all of the timing, that
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every piece of red tape
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is there with his permission
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and by his will,
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that we might grow in trust and that
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our kids might grow in trust, even in
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the darkness and the pain that is
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waiting.
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That's so encouraging to think about
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God with us in the waiting and. and
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shifting gears a little bit, because I know the
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end of your waiting was the
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moment of adoption with your daughter. And
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that can be such a beautiful and
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joyful celebratory thing.
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I know that
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we've had the privilege of taking our
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children to adoption hearings
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now in a courthouse for some good friends. And
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it
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is just overwhelmingly joyful
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to even see the adoptive parents
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give testimony and the things that they say
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and accepting the child into their family.
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And both of those were followed up by a really big
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party afterwards where the whole church came
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out. And those memories
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are just seared into my mind, but what's interesting
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is it's also brought up, at least for our kids, a
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lot of questions. It's like their next question is,
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but where are their biological
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parents and why is this adoption
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taking
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place? So could you speak to us a
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little bit about the tension
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there of the joy of
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the adoption, but also the sorrow
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of what it means that we live in a fallen world and
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that families, biological families are
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not always kept together and
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united. So
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what is the grief and the sadness?
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Why is there a sadness as
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part of this process? I love that you're
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asking this question because I think it's one
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that is sort of kept hush hush in
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our circles. You know, of
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course, God's heart is for adoption
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and His heart is to set the fatherless and families. And
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so when that happens, it is worthy of our rejoicing.
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The celebration is absolutely
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appropriate. And I love to see that. And
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that's the highlight and the beauty that we share on social
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media. And that's the good news that we want
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to share with others. But it
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really is a just small
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slice of the story, you know, and for
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the moms who are listening. What
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I want to share with you might be hard to hear
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and I just I want to acknowledge that.
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what we see online, what we
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see in movies. you know, every storyline,
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every movie that has an orphan in it,
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music and even just in our own flesh
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and the way that we've been shaped by our culture. We
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we just see sort of the happily
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ever after. We just see, you know,
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that this was beautiful and good and
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redemptive and nothing hard about it. So
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I appreciate you asking the question because.
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Many times that we as adoptive moms here
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and what our children here is
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well-meaning people say things like, oh,
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you are so lucky. They say that to the child.
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You're so lucky that you've been adopted
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by this family.
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And that is just a really damaging thing
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to say. So first
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of all, don't say that. If you have
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said that in the past, maybe remove that
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from your repertoire of things that you say
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to adoptive families, because the
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fact that adoption exists points
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to the reality, as you said, Emily, of
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just brokenness in our world. In
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the adoption community, we talk frequently about
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the triad, the three. So if you picture
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a triangle, each
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corner of the triangle, the first corner
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is the birth family, the biological mom
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or the first family. The second
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is the adoptee, and the third is
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the adoptive family. And
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so we have to really be considering all
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three corners when it comes to adoption.
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And I think we have,
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unfortunately, for the most part, focused
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just on the adoptive family more than
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anything and not the adoptee as well as
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the first family
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or the biological mom. So
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it's important that we consider, you know, what
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has happened in the biological mom's life
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that has led to her inability
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to parent the baby that
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she grew in her womb and acknowledge
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that grief and that loss and that sadness.
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And then knowing that that's a tremendous
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loss for the adoptee as well. More
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and more is coming out about separation
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and grief and trauma, but studies
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show that
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even babies...
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who are adopted directly
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from
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the delivery room into
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a tremendous trauma. And it literally
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impacts their brain in ways that we're just
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beginning to understand. So
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while our adoption of a 12 year old is
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sort of maybe extreme and unique,
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and you don't usually hear about that,
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the hard reality is that an adoption
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of a newborn baby is also
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hugely impactful on that child. So
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there's just, there is a ton
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of loss.
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And I can get into that more as the conversation
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goes on, but I guess I'll just stop here with saying
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that yes, it is worthy
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of celebrating. Every child deserves
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and needs a mother and a father
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who's unconditionally loving.
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But the fact that there is a child who
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needs that points
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to extreme brokenness
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in the birth mom's life. And then
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a lifetime of grief for
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the adoptee who lost his or
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her first family. We've got to hold
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both. Both are true. And it's okay
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to hold both in one hand, the
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joy and the grief, the sorrow,
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the reconciliation, the brokenness, the redemption.
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It's all part of the story. I
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really appreciate just that example
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of the triad that you shared and
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wanting to honor all three parties
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involved. And you're right. even as someone
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kind of looking from the outside, it can
15:25
be very easy to just focus on
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that one happy, happy
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day, happy moment when the adoption
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is complete and it feels like this new family
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has been formed. And you
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know, I'm just
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wondering here how as an adoptive
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parent, as a mom who has gone
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through an adoption, what does that look like
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to honor the grief that
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you mentioned your child is going to have for the rest of their
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life and understandably
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so. And even the grief that you know
15:55
is the reality. But also,
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you have been given this.
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new son or daughter and it is truly
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beautiful. And so what does it look like to honor
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those things? I like how you talked about having them both in one
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hand, but how do we see that kind
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of practically play out?
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I think it's crucial for adoptive
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parents to be really open
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and honest with their children from day
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one and to just
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say what's true all the time.
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And what is true
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is that we can honor our children's
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birth families. You know, I know that children
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are separated from their first families for various
16:32
reasons. And some feel
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like to us, you know, horrific
16:37
and unspeakable.
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And it's not that we should share like those kinds of details.
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What I'm getting at is that we should honor
16:45
birth families where honor is due. And
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there is some measure of honor
16:50
due to every birth family. And
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I would even argue probably pretty incredible honor
16:55
if you understand and value the story
16:58
of those first families and what they as moms
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and dads were born into themselves and
17:02
what they're navigating themselves. I think just
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probably immeasurable
17:07
honor is due them even if
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as the adoptive parent, you feel like there
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are some things that
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are just really horrifying to you. you. So
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I would say speak what's true and
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give the honor, give the credit, give the
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glory to God for the life of
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the mom and dad, the life of the child
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that they chose to give life to. You
17:29
know, there's a lot of ways that we can express
17:31
gratitude and celebrate first
17:34
families and biological moms, and that should
17:36
be done from day one. And
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then at the same time also acknowledging
17:41
the loss, as we've already said,
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just the brokenness and the separation that had to
17:46
happen
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and also saying, you know,
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I have had the gift
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from God above of being your mom and I
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treasure that and repeating that over and over
17:56
and just voicing to your child.
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your trust in God's sovereignty,
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his providence, his kindness in
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uniting you to your child and
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the treasure that that child is. And
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again, holding both of those things in both hands
18:11
and speaking what is true, not exaggerating,
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not lying, but also not keeping things
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secret or shameful. And
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also speaking in a way that's age appropriate, of course,
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you know, and sharing things at the right
18:24
milestones. And I think it takes a village to do
18:26
this well. I
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strongly encourage, I think
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it's just probably imperative that
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families pursue counseling and
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pursue that through Christian
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counselors who are trauma informed,
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who are adoption informed, so
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that they are speaking in a healthy way to that
18:44
whole triad. I think counseling
18:46
is just crucial for adoptive parents
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as well as adopted kids
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and biological kids. Everybody's
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got things to
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sort through and work through. So
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I would say, you know, one way of
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holding both of those things in one hand is to pursue counseling.
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It's to have friends in your community
19:05
who are also trauma informed and adoption
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informed and who aren't going to say
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those really damaging sentences
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that mean well, but leave a
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mark for a lifetime. And
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this is a process that is lifelong
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because every milestone, every birthday,
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every holiday, developmental phase for your
19:24
child is a reminder that
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they have lost their first
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mom and their culture and their first
19:31
family. And so it's not
19:33
something that we can sort of
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heal from and move on. It's something
19:37
that we have to process for a lifetime.
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So I think, yeah, for the adoptive mom out there, build
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a community who knows these things
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and seek their friendship. your
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child has relationships with those people
19:51
who have this knowledge and this understanding and
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who will honor first moms and first families,
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as well as adoptive and forever families.
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I'm glad that you're talking openly about
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this and just sharing some really practical things
20:04
that we hope will help and serve,
20:07
you know, adoptive moms in our community. And
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I know at the end there, you're kind of shifting the conversation
20:12
towards the adoptee
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and some of the unique griefs
20:17
that they experience, not just one
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time, but over the course of a lifetime.
20:22
Is there anything else you would want to add to
20:25
that of, you know, what are some of the
20:27
griefs that adoptees might experience
20:30
and then what does it look like for a mom
20:32
to come alongside them in
20:34
those sorrows? You know, again,
20:37
we are so saturated in a culture
20:39
that just does not talk about these things.
20:41
You know, I know you guys have spoken
20:42
before about the fact that
20:45
we don't lay men well as a people, we don't
20:47
grieve well as a people. And I think
20:49
that is amplified in this particular
20:51
conversation because we also really
20:54
celebrate only the happy side of adoption.
20:56
So we're just, as a people, we're just ill-equipped
20:59
to do this. So
21:02
the adoptive parents have a arduous
21:05
journey ahead of them to get prepared. And
21:08
I
21:10
count adoption as one of the
21:13
most precious gifts in our lives. I cannot
21:15
fathom not having
21:17
had this gift. And I
21:20
would do it a million times
21:21
over our daughter's precious to us. At
21:23
the same time, I want the prospective adoptive
21:26
families to know you're
21:28
going into something that's not a fairy tale.
21:31
You're not going into a fantasy. You're
21:33
not walking into happily ever after. And
21:36
you will be the greatest
21:39
source of healing for your child
21:42
if you're willing. You
21:45
can be a source of, I think,
21:48
continued grief and continued trauma if
21:50
you're not ready. So it's important
21:52
that you prepare yourself. I think
21:55
one of the best ways to do that is by
21:57
centering the voice of the adoptee. there
21:59
are.
22:00
beautiful memoirs and
22:02
podcasts and tools available where
22:05
adoptees voices are being centered more
22:07
and more, and I'm so thankful and cannot recommend
22:09
that enough. A lot of them are
22:12
hard to listen to at times.
22:14
Some of them are not Christian, so they
22:16
miss the focus of the gospel and the redemption
22:19
of God and the reconciliation that He is doing,
22:22
but they are nonetheless the voice of adoptees, and
22:24
I think they're really valuable. As hard as they can be
22:26
to listen to, I think it's important to
22:29
hear unflinchingly what adult
22:32
adoptees have to say, sort
22:33
of looking back on what was good, what was hard.
22:37
Because yeah, again, as I've said, this grief will
22:39
last a lifetime and it resurfaces frequently.
22:42
And as our daughter
22:43
has grown and become a mom
22:45
herself, that's a whole new wave
22:48
of processing for her. What
22:51
she endured as a child now and she's raising
22:53
her own children from that perspective.
22:56
So I think it's just key that
22:59
adoptive parents be ready for that,
23:01
be educated. Many agencies,
23:04
I would say find a very good agency
23:06
because they do require trauma training.
23:09
And I think that's so important. Pursue
23:11
those books and those podcasts in the community,
23:14
the adoption community where it's not
23:16
all sunshine, but
23:20
people are getting a real about what
23:23
is hard as well as beautiful and redemptive.
23:26
We can do this and we must do this. Adoption
23:30
is a beautiful and holy
23:32
calling. I just also want
23:34
to impress upon the listener that
23:37
it is hard and you've got to be ready to
23:40
be a tool of healing
23:42
rather than a tool of accidental,
23:45
even subconscious, unintentional
23:47
continued harm. So it
23:50
can be done. And I know so many godly,
23:52
beautiful, wise,
23:53
adoptive parents who I seek their wisdom
23:56
all the time and they're doing it well. My
23:58
daughter is thriving.
24:00
because of God's good hand in her life,
24:02
and I can talk openly with her about these things.
24:05
That's coming. That is coming
24:07
in the future, but there are
24:09
years of just work
24:11
as a family to put in. Thank you
24:13
for sharing that with us. It
24:16
is encouraging just to hear that no matter
24:18
how hard it is, it is still worth it and it's still
24:20
possible. We know that as believers that the
24:24
the gospel is just a huge aid
24:27
in that. And it's something, as
24:29
you noted, gives us an entirely different perspective
24:31
than those who do not know the Lord. And so
24:33
can you help us just understand
24:37
and get a grasp on how
24:39
the gospel has given you a deeper
24:42
understanding and appreciation
24:42
of adoption and
24:45
how that helps you even in your griefs? Yes.
24:48
As believers, we know that our father's
24:50
heart is for the fatherless and we know that
24:53
adoption is his plan. It's his
24:55
idea. I mean, his will is that no
24:57
child would be without a mom and a dad.
25:00
He's the one who designed families and
25:02
he's the one who welcomes us in going
25:05
so far as to have endured
25:07
death on a cross to make us his
25:10
own. And in our adoption
25:12
journey, I have so chewed
25:14
on those truths daily,
25:17
just meditated on them and even obsessed
25:19
over the goodness of my father
25:21
in heaven and the lengths that he
25:23
has gone to, to make me
25:26
his daughter
25:26
and to just provide
25:28
healing and unconditional love and unconditional
25:31
forgiveness and mercy in my life. So
25:33
it's important that all that we do as
25:36
believers and especially as adoptive parents is
25:38
couched in the gospel.
25:39
This is key
25:41
and there were definitely you know verses throughout scripture
25:44
about adoption that really fueled us while we were
25:46
waiting, that fueled us in
25:48
some of the harder days of parenting. absolutely
25:52
gird yourself up
25:53
with the gospel and
25:55
the goodness of your father. One
25:58
thing I would say that. may
26:00
feel a little bit jarring is
26:03
in the church, we love that metaphor.
26:06
God has adopted us, so then
26:08
we adopt the fatherless. And
26:11
it's a
26:12
good metaphor, but it does
26:15
fall short. And I think it's really
26:17
important that we acknowledge that.
26:20
We adoptive parents
26:22
are not God. We
26:25
are not good like Him. We
26:27
are not omniscient, omnipotent,
26:29
sovereign and able like He is.
26:32
We also are not a savior. And
26:36
I think just being really gut level honest,
26:38
the conversations I have with other adoptive families
26:41
is
26:42
whether it's conscious or not, and
26:44
I think it's subconscious in pretty pervasive ways,
26:47
we go into adoption wanting to rescue
26:49
and save.
26:51
And some of that is really good. And
26:53
some of that comes directly from God. But
26:56
what is true is that we won't be
26:58
able to do that because we are fallen
27:01
and we are finite. We
27:03
just, we are not the savior
27:06
and we are not like God in so
27:08
many ways. So it's important
27:10
to just realize that, you know, I mean, you have
27:12
to do that as a mom, right? You
27:15
guys talk about this all the time. You have to come to the end of yourself
27:17
and realize I am not God.
27:20
I am not enough, but He is,
27:22
and
27:23
He is there for me and
27:25
my children. And so I feel like it's worth
27:27
just repeating and even adding exclamation
27:29
points for the adoptive parent,
27:32
because you are in this weird, unique situation
27:34
where you do go in and rescue. You
27:37
do go in and reconcile
27:39
a child and bring them home and make
27:41
them your own. And they inherit all
27:43
that you have. And it is a picture of
27:45
the gospel. but where
27:47
it falls short is in the reality
27:49
that will confront you about
27:53
five seconds into your being an adoptive
27:55
parent, that you are not good like
27:57
God and that you don't
27:59
have. have the immeasurable patience
28:02
and mercy and goodness that he has. So
28:06
what has comforted me, and you guys speak to this
28:09
so well, is not
28:11
depending on my perfection as an
28:13
adoptive mom, just acknowledging
28:15
from the get-go, I am going to screw
28:17
this up and acknowledging that to my
28:20
kids and saying
28:22
I'm sorry and looking back on dumb
28:24
things that I said or sinful posture
28:26
of my heart and just apologizing and repenting.
28:30
And then asking for forgiveness and trusting
28:32
God in heaven to
28:34
meet my child, not only for the losses
28:36
she endured in her first family, but the losses she's
28:39
enduring now in her forever family and
28:41
the ways that I have
28:43
painted a bad picture of who God is.
28:46
And just trusting that the Lord will
28:49
meet me when I fall short and he
28:51
will meet her when I
28:53
fall short and that He is enough.
28:56
So I think that just the gospel
28:59
is a picture of adoption and at the same time, we
29:01
are not God. But let us turn
29:03
to God, let
29:04
us rely on Him and encourage our children
29:06
to do the same.
29:08
It's so rich and I think sometimes,
29:10
you know, it can feel trite because we just
29:13
say over and over, Christians just say over and over
29:16
again to one another, anything that we should say, right?
29:18
Jesus is better.
29:21
Jesus is the only Savior.
29:23
Only God is enough. And
29:26
yeah, those are the answers and
29:28
the truths that we
29:30
need to remember over and over
29:32
and over again,
29:34
regardless of what
29:36
we're facing and experiencing in motherhood
29:38
as Christians, that is our aim, right? To look
29:41
to Christ
29:42
and to point our children to Christ. Because
29:44
like you said, we will fail them. We
29:47
will fall short no matter what circumstances
29:49
we have or whether someone is an adoptive
29:51
mom or not. And so I
29:53
love that we can all be
29:55
united around that and
29:58
say, yeah, we're all pointing to the. Savior.
30:01
He's our only hope. Praise
30:04
Him that He doesn't put the hope
30:06
within us. And that just gives Him
30:09
all the more glory. So
30:10
grateful for that word. And is
30:13
there any final encouragement that
30:15
you would give to a mom who is
30:17
perhaps in the adoption process or
30:20
she's already adoptive mom and she is
30:22
struggling with grief? Yes, I would
30:24
love to speak to her. I wish I could have coffee with
30:26
her and just come alongside
30:28
her as a mom who's been in this for over 13 years now.
30:33
I would say, you know, again, as we
30:35
have said a few times already, adoption is
30:37
worthwhile. It is important that children
30:40
have moms and dads,
30:40
and it is good for children without
30:43
homes to be brought into homes. So don't
30:46
second guess the goodness of this call. It
30:49
is an alignment with God's heart. But
30:53
do
30:53
respond to that call in healthy ways
30:56
with a community that can confirm that
30:58
calling in your life
31:00
with the support of people around you
31:02
saying, yes, I think your marriage can handle
31:05
it. You're ready for it. You have
31:07
a faith family. You have the support that you need.
31:09
Don't go into it blindly or thinking
31:12
that love is all you need
31:14
because that's just not true. into
31:16
it prepared with just an army of support
31:19
and ready to respond
31:21
to what's going to happen in
31:23
your in your family as it changes as
31:26
a result of adoption. My encouragement
31:29
and even exhortation, and I say this to myself
31:31
first and foremost, is
31:33
to be healthy and whole
31:36
and ready. Truly, your
31:38
relationship with your kids
31:40
will be the strongest tool in the
31:42
hands of God to heal their trauma.
31:45
And so it's imperative that
31:47
you are ready to respond to
31:49
them with unconditional love
31:51
and unwavering stability. Children
31:54
who've gone through trauma and I know we are friends
31:57
with so many adoptive families internationally
31:59
as well as.
32:00
foster care and domestically. Kids
32:03
who endure that any kind of trauma
32:06
present behaviors and needs that
32:09
are not typical and that
32:11
we are not generally ready for. And
32:13
so if we take things
32:15
personally, or if we respond
32:18
emotionally, or if we have some
32:20
sort of debt of like
32:23
need or love or affirmation that
32:25
we want our adoptive kids to fill, we
32:27
will place on them expectations
32:30
and requirements that they cannot bear. And
32:32
so for our adoptive moms, my
32:35
encouragement would be go to counseling, be
32:37
in an adoptive community, have
32:39
strong mature Christian friends who have infused
32:42
the gospel into every
32:43
crevice and corner of your life
32:46
and who will help you
32:48
be firm in your foundation in
32:50
the Lord,
32:51
know who you are in Jesus and
32:54
be able to just be filled by the spirit
32:57
and a conduit for the spirit to
32:59
your children. I think that adoptive
33:02
moms do need to grieve a
33:04
lot of losses. There's a lot of expectation
33:07
for what it's going to be like.
33:08
There's a lot of just a fantasy
33:11
out there for what's ahead.
33:13
And that's true for motherhood in general.
33:16
I think it's kind of on steroids for adoptive motherhood.
33:19
So there is grief, you know, grieve,
33:21
grieve what you've lost or thought you
33:23
would have that you're not going to have.
33:26
Grieve what your child has lost
33:28
and continues to lose every year, every
33:31
milestone. But then cling
33:33
to the cross and remember that our
33:35
God is absolutely able
33:37
to heal. And when you're tempted
33:39
to not believe that, cling
33:41
to the cross again and call your friends and get
33:43
your community around you to remind you
33:45
of the strength and victory
33:48
that we have in Christ and
33:50
that that resurrection power is available to us as
33:53
moms. And you can do this by
33:55
Him, for Him, through Him, to
33:57
Him. You can do this with Jesus. You
33:59
can't.
34:00
do it without him though and
34:02
so don't try. So yeah,
34:04
I think my final encouragement to that mom is just twofold
34:06
is one, be ready because
34:09
it's hard.
34:11
Rejoice in it. It's good and it's worth
34:13
celebrating.
34:14
Be ready
34:16
to celebrate and be ready to work hard
34:18
and just call on the Lord your God
34:20
in the good and the bad. He
34:22
is sovereign and good and he does
34:25
bring healing. He is reconciling all
34:27
things by the blood of his cross and
34:29
don't believe otherwise.
34:33
My name is Annie Perez
34:35
and I'm part of the Risen
34:39
Motherhood community because
34:41
no matter So
34:52
what I'm going through in the mundane
34:55
tasks of every single day,
34:57
I am reminded
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