In this episode I explore the field of emotional biology and the science behind how emotions are the scaffolding to idiopathic disease. How Entheogens are being shown to modulate the epigenetic component of illness status.

Finding solace on the voyage of transmigration after death

Aug 8th, 2022 53m 54s

Coming back to some old texts while in a whirlwind of instability. Awakening to a better understanding of the Bardo Thodal and how it flavors my ambition to coping towards ambiguous loss.

When monsters are allies and your shadow is the meeting point

Jul 18th, 2022 45m 35s

Recognizing The Shadow in myself and in the collective to then explore how I can integrate the darker parts of my psyche. Why understanding my potential to be a monster allows for a higher understanding of my thoughts and actions

Snapping the chain of hollow needs with the crowbar of terror •Part 2•

Jul 4th, 2022 34m 46s

Finding comfort in a Ram Das lecture that reintroduced how a hierarchy of needs is attached to a false conditioned persona. How investment in this process can lead to separateness.

Snapping the chain of hollow needs with the crowbar of terror •Part 1•

Jun 20th, 2022 39m 34s

Exploring the emotional tension with a high and terrifying dose of cannabis. Treating this process as an extreme ritual to jumping into very uncomfortable and necessary spaces in facing what I’ve been denying. How learning to self love calmed a

Before The Mats Jiu Jitsu Program background

Jun 6th, 2022 48m 4s

Here I explain the buildup and philosophy around my jiu jitsu program that helps new students integrate into academy’s more prepared.

Finding the boogeyman in the imprint of a pushed envelope •PART 2•

May 16th, 2022 42m 19s

Dealing with a triggering phone call that then allowed me to move through the fear it placed on my lap. A mild vision quest that enlightened me to the power of intently listening. How I’ve integrated leaning into the most uncomfortable question

Finding the boogeyman in the imprint of a pushed envelope •PART 1•

May 2nd, 2022 38m 30s

I recall a very significant trip to Colorado with a close friend. I discover more about my toxic attachments to my caretaker identity. How an ice bath spiraled me into an authentic emotional release. And when intentions are made, how serendipit

The force behind transformation percolates through the catacomb of shame

Aug 3rd, 2021 43m 2s

How shame may be my greatest ally in the continuous pursuit to change. Why enthusiasm and sparks of motivation are superficially naive tools. Attaching an action to something outside of yourself (meaning/purpose) yields consistency

The transparency of gatekeepers who profit from our lack of knowledge

Jul 20th, 2021 48m 45s

Exploring the questions of accountability for members on FDA councils. Why so many therapies are restricted and why uprooting the idea that there’s countless accounts of conflicts of interest is seen as fringe thinking

As the shield of resistance breaks, ignorance becomes exposed

Jul 6th, 2021 43m 12s

The feelings of resistance towards personal advice. How pondering that sensation spiraled into a discovery that furthered my own trauma designation while exposing a deep seeded hypocrisy trap

When the parental pillar crumbles conformity burns in its ashes

Jun 15th, 2021 41m 17s

Fleshing out the idea that when a parental figure betrays your trust it may condition how we question hierarchies and ridicule from the nurtured basic norm . How to stimulate intuition which can make independent thinking the anchor in a world t

To shovel through the soil of inadequacy will only uncover guns and no roses

Jun 1st, 2021 45m 49s

Tracing the dynamics that may exist in the answer to the question of why we see so much gun violence. Recognizing the paradigm of “isms” that corrupt our idea of worth and meaning. Using the Joker movie as a catalyst into pondering where energy

Shining a light on personal practice from the paradox of sensory deprivation - Part 2

May 18th, 2021 37m 49s

Detailing one of the thought experiments that aims to address the tension from a previous float experience. Using the seat of self concept as a point of meditation to make that time more useful

Shining a light on personal practice from the paradox of sensory deprivation - Part 1

May 4th, 2021 36m 37s

My experience in a sensory deprivation session that through surprising tension, highlighted the degree of my existential attachment. Exploring new modalities of personal practice on the persuit to obtaining control in losing it.

No Stone Unturned: MTHFR gene and its role in demethylation based symptoms

Apr 20th, 2021 37m 47s

I explore the MTHFR gene and how demethylation can deregulate many different systems of the body. The overlooking of early diagnostic steps that may confirm an origin to patients health problems.

How dissatisfaction fuels the engine of the distorted hypothesis

Apr 6th, 2021 42m 55s

With some of the recent events at the Capitol and all the talk about the demographic of people, I find the conspiracy theorist at the forefront of this unfortunate movement. Looking into my own conspiratorial bias and discovering the emotions t

No Stone Unturned: Lions Mane mushroom and the neuroregenerative power of fungi.

Mar 23rd, 2021 36m 24s

On my path to understand microdosing I discovered the great Paul Stamets and his work with medicinal mushrooms and disease states. Focusing on lions mane I expand my knowledge about this potent and natural regenerative fungi as a supplement and

The predatory net casted out by egoistic fraudulent gurus.

Mar 9th, 2021 42m 54s

Identifying tactics and signs by "awakened" mentors who perpetuate a dishonest need to help by martyrdom and instead inflate a disillusioned ego.

Finding a voice within the abyss that is the center of a heroic dose

Feb 23rd, 2021 34m 58s

A very profound and life changing moment that was driven by a potent psilocybin ceremony. I read a personal memoir that recounts an emotional build up into my own "ego death"

Through the lens of pragmatism, hope becomes less of an odyssey

Feb 9th, 2021 38m 21s

Describing how new information about the fear of hope allowed me to understand how to cultivate practical faith. The equation of persuit=action=confidence=faith in self=less fear of hope=more desired outcomes

No stone unturned: Sauna and the hack into a journey of health

Jan 26th, 2021 40m 50s

Our experience in purchasing our first sauna and the list of health benefits that are achieved in the most convenient way.

Procrastination is a prerequisite for a call to adventure

Jan 12th, 2021 37m 37s

Bringing in the new year with a personal story about taking the first step towards living a heros journey. Using a themed journal to construct a quest that uses writing science to achieve short and long term goals. Embracing the archetype of th

A farewell to 2020 and some announcements for 2021

Dec 22nd, 2020 14m 38s

Going over some details on a new format with the podcasts and also recognizing everyone who has engaged and supported the podcast thus far.

How a glib donkey stoked the flames of a house full of elephants

Dec 15th, 2020 46m 3s

The idea of pathologizing a political party. How the path of dehumanizing people under the guise of intellectual superiority fans the flames of separatism and potential violence.