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lovely humans. I'm Wyo Lee and you
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are listening to Sex Stories, a podcast
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where we share personal stories in an
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effort to understand and connect with one
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another. so that we may all lead
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better-laid lives. Our guest today
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is a 53-year-old recently-ish single non-monogamous straight
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dude who grew up on the Upper
2:07
West Side of Manhattan in the late
2:10
80s. He is into novel
2:12
sexual situations, and throughout his life has
2:14
experienced many different depths of connection with
2:16
his partners, which we are gonna hear
2:18
about. He is also into prostate massage,
2:21
his cock being worshiped deeply,
2:24
giving and once receiving anal,
2:27
and he even surprised himself by
2:29
being super-duper into helping a partner fulfill
2:31
a double penetration fantasy in a
2:33
threesome with two penises and one
2:35
pussy owner. A software engineer, house
2:37
renovator, and writer whose book Seek the
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Risk is about his journey into non-monogamy
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with us today from New York, welcome
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Adam. Hi, Wile, it's
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great to be here. I'm so excited to
2:48
have you here. Can you please start off by
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telling us if you had to rate yourself on
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a sexual shame-o-meter with 10 being the most full
2:54
of shame and one being like, nah, I'm good.
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Where do you fall today and what is that kind
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of roller coaster of shame being like for you throughout
3:01
your lifetime? Right, so it somewhat
3:03
depends on who I'm with, but if I
3:05
had to give an average, I would say
3:07
I'm probably between a two and a three.
3:10
It started way higher when I
3:12
was younger, coming from a somewhat more
3:14
traditional background. Probably say I was in
3:16
the sixth range, and as
3:19
I got older, went out in the
3:21
world, and started realizing that sex is
3:23
normal, slowly, surely, it definitely kept getting
3:25
lower and lower. I actually maybe got
3:27
to a five until I met Jane,
3:30
who the book is about, and she basically
3:32
took me down to the
3:34
two area, showed me that, hey, sex
3:36
is normal and wonderful. Is
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Jane the risk that you sought?
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Jane is the risk. Okay,
3:44
ooh! Okay,
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and can you give us just an idea
3:49
of what Manhattan traditional
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is like? I know all of
3:53
us have such different backgrounds, what
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was that texture like for you growing
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up? Sure, I mean, I grew up in New
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York. New York City. So my traditional is
4:01
probably some other areas of the country,
4:04
incredibly liberal, but non-monogamy wasn't even, that
4:06
wasn't even a word. It was the
4:08
traditional of, oh, you'll meet a girl
4:10
and you'll get together and you'll get
4:13
married and you'll have kids. I grew
4:15
up with that paradigm throughout my life.
4:18
And I remember the very first time I
4:20
ever heard the word non-monogamous, I think
4:22
I was in like 2021. I was like, oh, that's
4:26
what I'm feeling. So when I
4:28
say group traditional, obviously there was a lot
4:30
of very liberal ideas in New York City,
4:33
but the idea of one life, one wife
4:35
or monogamy was sort of a default. So
4:38
that's what I mean by traditional monogamy,
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default monogamy. That relationship escalator
4:43
where you just keep going, going, going until
4:45
you do the ring thing and you don't
4:47
even know there's another option. Okay. So on
4:50
that note, as you reflect on
4:52
your personal life, like when you just kind of look
4:54
back on all of it and think
4:56
about the euphemisms, the social norms,
4:59
the cultural messages, polite,
5:01
I'm doing that with air quotes, like white lies
5:03
that are supposed to be polite. They're theoretically polite.
5:05
They're literally lies. I call these regular
5:07
human lies because it's very normal to do this. However,
5:09
for me, they're very confusing. I'm like, just tell me the real
5:11
thing. So as you reflect on kind of
5:14
some of that, do you know what I'm talking about? The
5:16
euphemism vibe, the niceness of our culture. I would
5:18
love to hear how like maybe any of those
5:21
messages negatively affected your ability
5:23
to give, receive, or understand the
5:25
pleasure. So this is
5:27
a new question, it's a new noodle, but it's like,
5:30
you know, you've had this kind of awakening,
5:32
right? Where you are in a headspace now
5:35
with non-monogamy where it was vastly different from
5:37
what you were raised with. And
5:39
I wonder if there were any moments of
5:41
waking up to sort of some of the
5:43
cultural norms that it's like, oh, that's a
5:46
regular human lie. Like I don't actually have
5:48
to live that way. And were any of
5:50
those things a block to your pleasure? I mean,
5:52
monogamy itself, right? Yeah. I mean,
5:55
basically the monogamy idea that the
5:57
thought of only being attracted to
5:59
one woman And that was the biggest lie. Oh,
6:01
you're once you find the right woman, you're only going
6:03
to be attracted to her. That was the first thing.
6:05
And I thought there was something wrong with me because
6:08
I was attracted to most of the women. Same.
6:11
I mean, yeah, me too. Like I'm like attracted to everyone.
6:13
I just have to figure out when you're on off switch
6:15
and like, when I look at him like, I
6:18
wonder what sex would her would be like? Once
6:21
I finally got past that, it did
6:24
open up a lot of pleasure. That was the biggest one,
6:26
I think. And you'll play as well. That
6:29
was that. Yes. Oh, no. Someone
6:31
touched my asshole. Oh my God. No, but oh, wait, that
6:33
feels kind of good. That was a big
6:36
one. Yeah. I didn't even know what the thing
6:38
until a partner was like, and this and I was like, it was
6:40
a what? I'll try it. What? So
6:43
you said you were 21 or 20 ish
6:45
when you first heard about non monogamy.
6:47
Do you remember when, how, where, like
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what that was? Gosh, I
6:52
don't remember that. I remember the emotion
6:54
very clearly. I do not remember where
6:56
I was, but I remember I heard
6:58
the word non-monogamous and
7:01
it's like this light bulb went up. It's
7:03
like, oh, that's what I am. That's what
7:05
I've been doing. I was
7:07
somewhere out in one of my sports
7:09
adventure worlds, which is kind of a little book teases
7:11
all those in, but I think I was with some
7:15
of my adventure partners and someone said
7:17
that they were non-monogamous. I
7:19
just was like this light bulb. Like it just, it was
7:21
vocabulary. I didn't even know it was out there. Okay.
7:25
So I mean, this was 30 years ago at
7:27
this point. So, you know, very different world than
7:29
we're in now. Okay. But before we get to
7:31
all of the details of that story, before
7:33
then, what are the first
7:36
memories that you have of sex, especially
7:38
sex education? But like, when did you first
7:40
hear about it? What did you learn about it growing up? Like
7:42
tell us your formative years. So
7:45
I was very lucky growing up in New York City
7:47
and we had sex education. I think the first sex
7:49
education we had was in fourth grade and it was
7:51
pretty good. I went to public school in New York
7:54
And the sex education that we got
7:56
in fourth grade was looking back now.
8:00
Pretty good, but. My. Mom of
8:02
the public school teacher So when I was
8:04
in second grade see actually gave me my
8:06
very first sex education. I remember the so
8:08
clearly. She sat me down with a buck
8:10
and said this is where babies come from
8:12
and she went through the whole thing of
8:15
penis in vagina and man and woman love
8:17
each other and creating a baby in this
8:19
is how it works and I was totally
8:21
blown away and I went to school the
8:23
next their midst of it'll It's like told
8:25
when my best friends did you know this
8:27
is how babies or maybe ghosts that's not
8:30
true the matter. What
8:34
was your reaction to that? Were you like oh maybe
8:36
I'm wrong way? like know it is. No.
8:38
I knew I was right as my
8:40
of them so mean a lot like
8:42
yeah nine Total trust my mom she
8:45
was right and I think I think
8:47
eventually he came back to your weight
8:49
by the way up with Sunset Grid
8:51
Cells My first experience of learning about
8:53
sex lives first feelings of sex for
8:55
probably even maybe earlier. I was always
8:58
been very sad for always a really
9:00
high sex drive and I remember to
9:02
skilling pleasure in my groin and like
9:04
oh the feels good before I was
9:06
old enough to orgasm I. Remember
9:08
having missed us? Incredible.
9:11
just powerful feelings. Down
9:13
in my groin. I couldn't explain
9:15
and now. It's like
9:17
mother feels really good. And then
9:19
I was lucky when I was
9:21
thirteen and my neighborhood. The Review:
9:23
Neighborhood girls that were fairly adventurous
9:25
as I was and. Reed
9:28
said the four of us myself in
9:30
these three girls started games together after
9:32
school and getting naked in playing with
9:34
each other's parts and so I was
9:37
having these for some specific with that.
9:39
we didn't have any penetrative sex but
9:41
we use now since Amazon body parts
9:43
in it doesn't my for sexual experiences
9:46
with the three women. Wow.
9:48
Okay, so what unfolded from bar
9:50
and at the time did you
9:52
have any concept that that was
9:54
sexual? Or was it just three?
9:56
Ah, city play for you at that moment. No
9:59
idea it was. The actual definitely sexual
10:01
yeah and I remember one of the
10:03
we were all thirteen but one of
10:05
the girls she had gone to her
10:07
pew research study very very well and
10:09
had this huge breasts and I was
10:11
just totally overcome with her curves. I
10:13
did was very sexual to me, it
10:15
was very arousing. it was just all
10:17
I wanted to do was play with
10:19
her curves. Are under
10:21
that very clearly. Looking
10:24
back at your younger years. Or
10:27
is there any aspect of sex education
10:29
that you wish you had hard? you
10:31
know whether that's emotional contact, earning, sort
10:33
of Other conversations like what do you
10:35
wish I guess you could have like
10:37
bumped down a series genie the a
10:39
Teacher to teach you sexy things like
10:41
how are settled in. Your experiences.
10:45
The. Even with all the sex education than
10:47
I had, there was still a scene
10:49
element to it in a taboo element.
10:51
In with all the good six that
10:53
I had with my mom, my mom
10:55
is like just one woman when mankind
10:57
us and I would have been nice
10:59
to learn that people can choose do
11:01
something different for some reason than I
11:03
do not know why. I
11:06
similar seem around masturbation when I
11:08
was fifteen, sixteen, seventeen and I
11:10
don't know why. I don't remember
11:13
ever being told. Is certainly
11:15
by adults and it was wrong. It
11:17
may have just been the environment of
11:19
children making fun of. You know, don't
11:21
be masturbate earth, who knows what, but
11:23
I remember having a lot of seem
11:25
around that growing up in. It wasn't
11:27
until I got to my private. College.
11:30
The the them later twenty one two into that
11:32
I started actually been letting go of that and
11:34
masturbation fun. So what if I do it five
11:37
times a day supply with. Or anything that catalysts
11:39
that are? Was it sort of just part of
11:41
your evolution? I think spurred my
11:43
evolution. There is something back there. I can
11:45
access it as a memory back there. Of
11:48
a moment when I finally decided it
11:50
was okay but I didn't meddle with
11:52
a catalyst lox still between the the
11:54
am I a bad person if I
11:56
say aloud thirteen. Year old, four sons
11:58
and your college year. When.
12:01
You could also did the i do want to point out in
12:03
a very serious way. This. Is the
12:06
problem when it comes to, like adults
12:08
educating around childhood experiences, right, we're not
12:10
allowed to talk to unless? Are an
12:12
educator for. Code think we are curious
12:14
at young ages and so it's like people
12:16
were at all your pervert your but it's
12:18
like wool. A lot of us had experiences
12:20
at younger ages, so in a very serious
12:23
way. What else? Formative li happens between your
12:25
thirteen. Year old kind of like exploring your
12:27
body with others and your college aid. Relax
12:29
I am like masturbating like what else is
12:31
important from from the with you. Will.
12:34
The first thing is like an older
12:36
to step outside the six for certain
12:39
as I started getting older and group
12:41
in your city in the ladies which
12:43
was pretty rough and tumble place to
12:46
be too. so misadventure on the streets
12:48
I start getting addicted to exciting adventures
12:50
and matches. Then. Drizzly.
12:52
To bedroom Ram Isis sexual experiences were with
12:55
these women like for hims two three four
12:57
of us in the bed the same time
12:59
so it was exciting having wild. Wild.
13:02
Increase I'm using includes wild and
13:04
crazy sex moon groups X rayed
13:06
says. Is so exciting especially those young years
13:08
like it's still the mean through the roof as
13:10
I think still just just so you know you're
13:13
talking to a person that like. Most
13:16
of my significant life choices have
13:18
been made in pursuit of satisfying
13:20
like. Next level Sex like I
13:22
am speaking at I don't I don't think of
13:24
it is a risk, but I think of it
13:26
as tight. Nutrients so I would love
13:29
to hear any details of those experiences that
13:31
you feel com for sure. I was lucky
13:33
in high school and didn't have a number
13:35
of sexual experiences with women, but when we
13:38
got to college somehow I don't know how
13:40
I ended up connecting with a few pairs
13:42
of women who liked to good boy home
13:44
in. I and I end up having a
13:46
lot of these three subs college which were
13:49
sentenced of the business. It was amazing. So
13:51
I have presented a gross and my my
13:53
freshman year so I was actually monogamous to
13:55
my freshman year and then we broke. up
13:58
and then i started putting up with this two
14:00
women and they were hooking up with other
14:02
people. I think that made us, that was
14:04
when I heard the night. I can't remember,
14:06
but I started the adventure of new partners
14:08
and the adventure of discovering a new body
14:11
was phenomenal. I was very young, I
14:13
was let's say 2021. I
14:15
still would not say I was very good at sex. I
14:18
didn't know how to make sex good, but if
14:20
it was adventurous, it felt good. I
14:23
think the adventure was taking the place
14:25
of the experience level at that point.
14:27
I love adventure, but once I actually
14:30
started learning how to have sex, I started
14:32
being able to get a lot more enjoyment
14:34
out of partnered sex as I got better
14:36
and better in knowing someone's body. So, there
14:39
was an evolution there for sure, but the
14:41
excitement of the new body, the excitement of
14:43
a new environment, that was kind of cool. I
14:46
love that. I would love to take just
14:48
a little detour to hear kind of your
14:51
current definitions of good sex,
14:54
right? Because it's very,
14:56
I think, difficult for us to put
14:58
a label or definition on. And
15:00
it's something that I think for me has been evolving
15:02
over the years. So I would love to hear kind
15:04
of like what you
15:06
learned and especially in reference to
15:08
these words, good and better. How
15:11
are you kind of thinking about that or quantifying that?
15:14
So I had fantastic sex
15:16
with a one night earlier this
15:18
year, and I had fantastic sex
15:20
with someone I've known 30 years. And
15:23
they're both very different. They're both were
15:25
incredibly satisfying. So maybe I'll describe those
15:27
two experiences. I love
15:29
examples. The
15:32
woman I've known for 30 years, when we
15:34
get together and we have a glass of
15:36
wine and we start getting sexy and we
15:38
start knowing each other's bodies, we know what
15:40
pushes each other's buttons, and
15:42
we sink into a
15:45
sultriness of connection. It's
15:47
so impossible to get that without a depth of
15:49
shared experience. And when you can call on that
15:51
history, there's a connection that
15:54
makes the pleasure and securing. And there's
15:56
a bond that There's no
15:58
other way to get that except with time. The him
16:00
and. A. Certain way that were.
16:03
Know how many an hour, two hours?
16:05
whatever it is and then you collapse
16:07
in bed together and news you both
16:09
just exhausted yourself and your line. They're
16:11
looking at the ceiling and just feeling
16:13
so close because you know the person
16:16
beyond it's I didn't have next level
16:18
intimacy and then he sleep so well
16:20
as suits or years you're in the
16:22
arms of someone used to set this
16:24
great experience with and you feel so
16:26
connected to and that's the measure right?
16:28
Have well he sleep like oh my
16:31
daughter didn't. Exhausted. By ourselves with someone
16:33
I'd love. It's a true. Fact that we
16:35
have higher levels of prolactin release. The
16:37
thing that makes a sleepy after partnered
16:39
sex than we do after masturbation at
16:41
a thing. I believe it. And
16:43
then I went on. A friend of
16:45
mine connected me with a woman earlier
16:47
this him actually tried a year ago
16:49
now and I've met her and we
16:51
went out and had a drink and
16:53
and we were just feeling the energy
16:55
and we went. Back. To my
16:57
place. And. I'm fifty
17:00
three. We talked for
17:02
like twelve hours and I was driving
17:04
swell of hours and I was just
17:06
like I haven't come four times and
17:08
twelve hours in see remember what at
17:10
the end will be both which is
17:12
I could sit that was incredible and
17:14
was only we didn't sleep for a
17:17
while. His was weird sleeping with someone
17:19
when when a brand new pursuit sounds
17:21
like my god the sex be kept
17:23
waking up and having such each other
17:25
was so hot of both of those
17:27
are examples of just and just a
17:29
novelty in the new body. The adventure.
17:32
Of it. it's really exciting when it's of
17:34
and new body I. To. Any
17:36
person who loves exploring new
17:38
bodies like. They. Are. Magical.
17:41
Mystery is I have a brain to that's
17:43
very good at like remember all this person
17:46
is not that person and so I really
17:48
bring my beginners mind of my meditation practice
17:50
to everybody that I sat and gauge west
17:52
and not for me as a been part
17:55
of being with a new person right that
17:57
and then of course as you said. That
18:00
trust and hotness of yummy. What
18:02
are your favorite parts of discovering
18:04
a new body? If you can
18:06
put it into words. Like energetically
18:08
specifically like what are your favorite
18:10
about newness. My. Seabirds
18:13
About Newness Eight so. I.
18:15
Got hooked. The doesn't doesn't come
18:17
out refund if someone's a judging
18:19
you for sharing. Vulnerably. then they
18:21
have some self reflection. To do it
18:23
because this is a fresh noodle. Our. Excellent!
18:26
One of my favorite things about
18:28
a novel experience is being objectified.
18:31
Have been fun of is just a
18:33
hot bought her a hard task like
18:35
ah just yeah. like I'm just a
18:37
tool like Amazon twice and know yeah
18:39
factoids him isn't as you still get
18:42
them from apart even for thirty years.
18:44
I just someone can't look at you
18:46
with those new eyes. Some of these
18:48
my body for the first time. It's
18:51
a did an athlete my whole life
18:53
and I still. It's just amazing and.
18:56
When they just a proven hands over
18:58
you and they're just exploring the contours
19:00
and burning the new nooks and crannies
19:03
and seeing someone's eyes light up liked
19:05
as glove that that's that's why the
19:07
best part about yeah the newness being
19:10
objectified and being able to objectify range
19:12
years woman who just wants to get
19:14
be connected sexually and that's if we
19:17
she doesn't know me she met be
19:19
an hour ago. but crt just wants
19:21
to be fucked by Indian. I love
19:24
that it's powerful feeling. I. Fucking love
19:26
that. Jumping back to your college here is
19:28
real quick. A wedding think need to. Such
19:30
a great choice for the penis in Three
19:32
sons like to think you gave honest like
19:35
a threesome fiber we like a scissor suit
19:37
or with it like hey. I had a
19:39
seat and soon where it started getting around. or like
19:41
what he costs or do you attribute that to. I
19:44
honestly don't know. and my wife and I
19:46
the execs lies and I've had conversations about
19:48
see seen it too and she's like what
19:50
is it You seem to attract people who
19:52
like X y Z. I don't understand how
19:54
people just look at you know you don't
19:56
put it like I don't I'm not overly
19:58
sexual partners, which one. I'm not sex is not
20:01
part of my profession. It's probably good if you want to
20:03
have a sex life. I've discovered the hard way So
20:07
you don't have a tattoo that says I like three sounds
20:09
like on the back of your neck or anything I Do
20:12
not I do not I shouldn't
20:14
get one of those right part of me
20:16
is like how should I signal stronger? I
20:19
don't have a cool tattoo. I
20:21
like girls, too Okay,
20:24
I'm being But so you so
20:26
you really have no idea I don't it
20:28
keeps happening to me I had a climbing
20:31
partner once came up We were on a climbing trip
20:33
and we came back and he said
20:35
hey I really love you to help me fuck
20:37
my girlfriend and I was like wait what? Yes,
20:40
I was like, how would you know I'd
20:43
never done that before and okay How
20:46
would she felt comfortable enough to ask that I
20:48
was like, yeah Let's try that. Oh Man,
20:53
I recently thought I was about to
20:55
have my first male male with me
20:58
and I I got so close and
21:00
then It didn't happen. So
21:02
that's still my current first Holy Grail I
21:04
think it's why the double penetration was
21:06
her Holy Grail and I yeah,
21:09
she I
21:11
really ended up finding out I really like
21:13
being one of the penises in a double
21:15
penetration Care which one like do you prefer
21:17
to be the baby? Tell
21:19
us details. Tell us details. This seems like a good time
21:22
for you to tell us details of your delights of double
21:24
penetration Well first
21:26
when I had that first mmm with my climbing
21:28
partner, we didn't do a double penetration Just
21:31
mouse and vagina. I guess that's a double penetration,
21:34
but not a DP is
21:36
spit roast. I'm learning So
21:41
when I started getting to get with my wife The
21:44
whole story of the book and she's this
21:46
sexual powerhouse I mean like I'm looking at
21:48
this woman like oh my god I am
21:50
NOT worthy as far as her sexual appetite
21:52
and her sexual experience Was
21:54
and so this is about the seek the rest
21:57
like going into a relationship with someone who just
21:59
has so much more experience than I did. And
22:02
she floated the idea, would you be
22:04
okay to do this? And I said,
22:06
yeah, sure. I'll try that. Why not? Let's do it.
22:08
I said, but I want to be in the ass.
22:11
And she said, well, that's great, because you're really good
22:14
at anal sex. So yeah, let's and
22:16
so apparently it's pretty hard to find,
22:19
or this is 15 years ago, it's kind of
22:21
hard to find another willing penis owner. Depends on
22:23
the circles you run in, I hear. It
22:26
is true. But even she ran in some
22:28
pretty progressive circles. And you can actually find
22:30
someone, but then generally this performance issue, we
22:32
found out a lot of the time, people
22:34
get nervous, penises require some stimulation, and it
22:37
doesn't always work. Well, here's the
22:39
thing. If we all had more MMS
22:42
than MMS, maybe the penises wouldn't
22:44
get so nervous every I'm just saying we
22:46
just got to practice, you know, you're 100% right,
22:50
actually. So
22:52
it was wild. And what I loved about
22:54
it is how much pleasure she got, like
22:57
seeing her in ecstasy. And that's where she
22:59
comes over and over and over again, from
23:01
having two penises. And it was great being
23:03
that anchor of being the guy who can
23:06
always Yeah, it was hot. Did you get
23:08
to do different positions? Like, was she like,
23:10
on you kind of spooning or like what or
23:12
was she facing you? Like, will you give us
23:14
some physical I always just like love hearing
23:16
the descriptions of physically like what some
23:18
configurations were? It's usually the
23:21
other guy would be laying down. Okay. And
23:23
I would be in her ass, she
23:26
would be straddling him, I'd be in her ass.
23:28
And then while she's on my my cock, I
23:30
would lift her up and put her on to
23:32
the other penis. And
23:34
then she would have both of us inside
23:37
her. And then you can totally feel the other
23:39
guy's cock rubbing against yours in between the vaginal
23:41
walls. I love that
23:43
so much. And in the asshole, well, tell
23:45
me if you can really feel this on
23:47
your cock because one of my greatest like
23:50
obsessions is when the partner
23:52
is coming or like if I'm in my
23:54
asshole or partner's assholes like during the orgasm
23:56
time like the squeezing I love feeling the
23:59
asshole specifically squeeze Can you feel it
24:01
on your cock? Yeah, okay. I
24:03
just think that's so cock. When a woman orgasms
24:05
and my penis is in
24:07
her ass, yeah, it's absolutely just clenches,
24:09
boom, the lockdown, it's awful. It's completely different
24:11
from when my fingers are in my pussy. Like it's
24:13
a completely different feeling. Like it turns me on in
24:16
a completely different way. And it doesn't matter if I'm
24:18
in the ass of a penis owner or a
24:20
pussy owner. Like I like it. I really, like
24:22
that's where I'm like, no, we are all one.
24:24
We all have something in common. We
24:26
have assholes and they squeeze when we call. Assholes.
24:30
Exactly. That's so cool.
24:32
Okay, so I really made your story
24:34
go very squiggly out of order, but
24:37
between these college years when you were
24:39
kind of like having all these threesomes
24:41
discovering that you weren't monogamous, like was
24:43
there a time gap between claiming the
24:45
non-monogamy? Like at what point did you
24:47
meet your former wife? And also just
24:49
like as a person who had high desire, I'm
24:52
like, how do I not scare the boys?
24:55
Just gotta find the right boys. Oh, maybe that's it,
24:57
okay. Maybe they need to read my book. Yes,
25:00
go read the book. The book is about if
25:02
she scares you, you should probably go date her.
25:05
Mm, interesting. Okay. We'll
25:08
get there. So as we were talking
25:10
about with how sometimes people in these
25:12
novel situations, penis owners maybe go flaccid
25:14
because it's so new, it's overwhelming. However,
25:16
you and I are also the type
25:18
of people that can get turned
25:20
on by novelty. And I personally have some
25:23
days where my body is like in
25:26
concordance basically, like it's on the same page
25:29
and my arousal matches my arousal in my
25:31
brain. And then I've had days where my
25:34
body's like, like I'm not gonna
25:36
come because I'm so turned on and I'm
25:38
so paying attention to everything. You know, and
25:40
usually at that moment, I need like a
25:42
lot of impact play to get kind of
25:44
bolted back into my body. Have you had
25:46
both experiences with novelty or are you so
25:48
turned on by novelty that it just like keeps
25:50
you turned on? So I've
25:52
never had a situation where I couldn't come
25:54
when I wanted to. Whoa,
25:56
whoa. Ever,
25:59
never, not once. I mean,
26:01
I sure there were some nights when I probably done
26:03
some drugs and I couldn't, but in terms of any
26:05
normal experience. Wow. Are
26:08
you aware that hyper unusual? Like
26:11
most people, because I know a lot of penis owners who
26:13
don't know that that's unusual, so I'm trying to spread the
26:15
word of like, it's very normal for penises
26:17
to not, you know, get people. Yeah.
26:20
And my wife, who's been with more men than anyone else
26:22
I know of, and she was always
26:24
like, you're not normal. Your cock is not
26:27
normal. Okay. Yeah.
26:29
I'd be normal. I'd be normal. Cool.
26:33
Okay. So, so go back
26:35
to filling in your details because I totally derailed you
26:37
with a detail question. Right. So
26:40
I mean, I didn't have so many, I had a
26:42
few threesomes in college. I would have known if you
26:44
call it a lot or a little, but then after
26:47
college, I got into the dating world and I knew
26:49
I liked casual sex and I was having some casual
26:51
sex. And then I had my first real partner at
26:54
25, like long-term, got into
26:56
it and we would
26:58
occasionally have a threesome with someone else.
27:01
And boy, I felt like, yeah, I'm
27:03
living this wildlife. I had threesomes. Yeah.
27:07
I still feel like that every time I have a threesome, just so
27:09
you know, I'm still like, yeah.
27:13
No, but this is actually relevant. So
27:15
I, you know, I had this five year relationship with
27:17
this woman that was, it was good.
27:19
And we had anal sex. Ooh, we're freaky.
27:21
We had anal sex. I still didn't know
27:23
what kink was. In my head, I was
27:25
kinky because I liked anal and we occasionally
27:27
had threesomes. Now during this period
27:29
is during the years I was competing in extreme
27:31
sports and such. And so I had this real
27:34
very, very masculine dominated idea about
27:36
sexuality and about my relationships and
27:39
this will tie into the story
27:41
in a minute. And we exited
27:43
that. We broke up when I was about 30. And
27:46
then I had a few other relationships
27:48
that were similar to that one where
27:50
we had a lot of sexual energy
27:52
and occasionally we had other people join
27:54
us in the bedroom. And
27:57
as I got into mid 30, I had a girlfriend
27:59
where we We actually went on our website and
28:01
found another couple. I've
28:03
never done that. And I was like, oh, I'm
28:06
living life. Like parallel? Were you like in
28:09
the same room? Tell us details. Yes,
28:11
on the same room, all four of us
28:13
on the same bed. And that was wild.
28:15
And then we went to a sex party
28:17
together. So this is this now I'm fully
28:20
exploring ethical non-monogamy. And we go to this
28:22
sex party, never been to one before. And
28:24
we were totally scared and newbies and didn't
28:26
know what we were doing. We went to
28:28
like a meetup at a bar
28:30
because we read it. We were on a website
28:33
somewhere. We went to the bar and there was
28:35
a bunch of people there and they said, hey, we're going back
28:37
to someone's house. Do you guys want to go? We were like,
28:39
oh, no, no, no, no, we're not going to go. And they
28:41
gave us the address. Like, well, if you change your mind, here's
28:43
the address. And so we sat in the car for 20 minutes.
28:46
Like, do we, because we both wanted to
28:48
go, but we were terrified. Okay. And so
28:50
we go to this sex party and we
28:53
knock on the door and they
28:55
open us in. And everyone's naked except it's,
28:57
we're fully clothed. And we're like, okay,
28:59
we're going to keep our clothes on. Just
29:01
because we were nervous. And after about 10 minutes, we're like,
29:03
okay, we can't keep our clothes on. We'll just go down
29:05
our underbri, we're not hooking up. And then
29:07
we were down our underwear. And then the underwear came
29:10
off and like, okay, but maybe just some kissing and
29:12
touching. We're not really. And then by the end of
29:14
the night, we were having sex with everyone. It was
29:16
like this crazy wild. And all 12 of us were
29:18
in this room with mattresses. And that was
29:20
my first sex party experience. That
29:22
was pretty wild. And it was, we were the newbies.
29:25
They all knew each other. So everyone was paying attention
29:27
to us. And I remember at
29:29
one point I'm like, on my back, I have
29:31
five women just totally touching. And I look over
29:33
at my girlfriend. She's got five men on her
29:35
totally touching. Oh my God. I want
29:37
to have five women and men touching me. That
29:40
sounds like a great first sex party. How was
29:42
it for you guys? It was great.
29:44
We had, it was awesome. Yeah, we still talk about it. It's
29:46
hilarious. Yeah. She's one
29:48
of my best friends. And that was my evolution of
29:50
thinking like, oh, I'm, I'm a guy. Look at all
29:52
this great sex I'm having. I'm working on masculine. I
29:54
am. I'm having threesomes with women.
29:56
And then I met Jane who
29:59
was the. person the story's about and she
30:02
thought my level of sexual experience
30:04
was adorable. She's
30:06
like, oh, that's cute. Oh, you
30:08
have threesomes. Isn't that adorable? I was like,
30:10
wait, wait, what? She's like,
30:13
yeah, I slept with 500 people. And
30:15
I was like, what's the craziest thing you've ever done
30:17
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30:19
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30:22
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how did you meet? Like what was that like for
32:26
you? And I'm guessing it's the first person that you
32:28
met who was kind of like that, right? And it
32:30
was all just in her personal life or was she
32:32
a sexual professional of any sort? No, she
32:34
was a sexual professional. She was getting a
32:36
PhD in human psychology with focus on human
32:38
sexuality. She's a sex educator. She'd written
32:41
books. She was a social media person or was going
32:43
to be. Not at that point. She was still in
32:45
school. But I met her at a dinner party at
32:47
my house. Some friends brought her. They picked her up
32:49
at a club a few weeks earlier. They're having these
32:52
crazy threesomes with her. But what
32:54
struck me is just who she was as
32:56
a person is how I really got attracted
32:58
to her. I mean, she's gorgeous, but
33:00
she was a really interesting individual. And as we
33:02
got to know each other over the next
33:04
couple of years, we just connected on some
33:07
non sexually like we didn't really have any
33:09
sexual experiences. We're just becoming friends. And
33:11
we had so much in common. She
33:13
was really into extreme sports. She was
33:15
also big adventurer, love novelty into theater,
33:18
art, music, all our tastes were the
33:20
same food. We just connected on so
33:22
many levels. And this is a woman
33:24
that I was so attracted to her
33:26
physically, but then I was also so attracted to her
33:28
mentally. But she's like, Look,
33:30
I'm not monogamous. If you want
33:32
to be with me, this is going to be
33:35
way beyond anything you've ever experienced. And
33:37
so there was this decision point of that's
33:39
the book, Seek the Risk. And I kind
33:41
of went for it because it turned my
33:44
world completely upside down because she was such
33:46
a public person. My entire
33:48
friend network, my professional network,
33:50
everybody knew, oh, Adam's
33:52
in an open relationship with this self
33:55
described slut, right? And I'm using air
33:57
quotes. But she that's how she described
33:59
herself. And my entire world got
34:01
turned upside down and I knew it was going to
34:03
and yet I was like, all right, let's go I
34:05
want to be with this woman. Let's see what this
34:07
non-monogamy thing is really like Okay.
34:10
So even though you like identified
34:12
yourself as non-monogamous in your early
34:15
20s This was the moment where you're like,
34:17
I'm gonna put it to the
34:19
test like I'm gonna practice it Yeah,
34:21
my non-monogamy up to that point had
34:24
been my girlfriend and I having a
34:26
woman join Okay, another couple and
34:28
Jane was saying listen, I'm gonna fuck whoever I
34:30
want whenever I want to yes, you mean they
34:33
agreed Consensual
34:35
legal consensual And
34:38
I had never that kind of blew
34:40
my head and that's where I started questioning
34:42
all these things about my own masculinity And
34:45
people were like, oh you're a cuckold and
34:47
it was a very difficult time for me
34:50
based on your introduction That's not one of your
34:52
kinks, right? Not like
34:54
into the cut and you also don't identify
34:56
as a stag like you're not like here's
34:58
my life Let me share her or like
35:00
right was that part? Okay. Okay. What
35:02
about like reclaiming? I have so many fantasies of
35:04
meeting someone who like wants to reclaim me when
35:06
I come home from other partners But be my
35:08
main person like was that part of the turn off
35:10
like I would love to hear the turn ons and turn off You
35:13
discovered through this relationship. I mean we covered the
35:15
DP bit So initially was a turn off
35:17
thinking for with other men and I
35:19
had to put it out of my head I had
35:21
to pretend it wasn't happening. We had sort of a
35:23
don't ask don't tell kind of Relationship and
35:25
she was also up at school and I was down
35:27
in New York City so we would
35:29
only see each other for two four-day weekends a month
35:31
and The rule is initially
35:33
was look whatever you do at school you do at
35:36
school I'll do whatever I want in New York and
35:38
then when we're together We're only together or we're having
35:40
threesomes or But I'm just
35:42
gonna pretend that's not happening because it was too
35:44
threatening to me Does that make you feel far
35:46
away from your partner though? Well again, this
35:48
is early in the relationship This
35:51
is the first first year and a half two years
35:53
the relationship It was so good when
35:55
we were together like it was so good. She
35:57
was is one of the most present people
35:59
I know When you're with her, 100%, she's
36:01
there, connected. So
36:03
it was hard when we weren't there. That is true.
36:06
I had some pretty hard nights. But then we were together. It felt
36:08
so good. But to answer your other
36:10
question, there was no reclaiming kink or anything like
36:12
that. Okay, so what did you learn about
36:14
yourself in this journey of you sought the
36:17
risk? Like what were the parts that felt
36:19
edgy? What were the parts that were really
36:21
rewarding for you? So you know,
36:23
it's funny, I was listening to one
36:25
of your episodes and you talk about,
36:27
I forget what you said, but you
36:29
said struggle, like the more you have to struggle
36:31
in something, the more the value is, the more
36:33
the return is when you get there. I can't
36:35
remember exactly what your words were, but you said
36:38
that. Sounds like something I might think. Donatello, Casey
36:40
Donatello, I think that's, oh, nothing worth doing is
36:42
going to be easy. I think you said there's
36:44
no actual growth without struggle. So that's kind of
36:46
what the first part of the book about is
36:48
me. Well, I really want to
36:50
be with this woman. And this non-monogamy thing is
36:52
bringing up all these emotions
36:54
around jealousy and masculinity. If
36:57
these emotions are coming up, there's probably something
36:59
really good to learn there about myself. And
37:02
those were the things that I just decided, well,
37:04
I'm going to dive into what was it, Socrates
37:07
and examine life. Examine life is the only life
37:09
worth living. I think it was Socrates, I think
37:11
it was Aristotle, can't remember. I don't know. But
37:15
I do like to examine our lives and be
37:17
thoughtful about it, but not self judgmental, got to
37:19
practice to be loving all the way through. So
37:22
I just, I dove into the emotions and it
37:24
was, it was terrifying. It was scary. And I
37:27
thought I was this tough guy because of all
37:29
these things I did in the extreme sports with
37:31
all the competitions I did. And
37:33
I believe I could handle anything because I've
37:35
experienced things that a lot of people haven't.
37:39
And then I got totally broken down by
37:41
this relationship. I became a shell of who
37:43
I was. I lost my sense of self.
37:45
I lost my sense of masculinity. I was
37:47
jealous. And I just was like, okay,
37:49
I have to start examining this as if it was
37:51
an extreme sport. And there's an
37:54
environment I don't understand. And there are skills
37:56
here that I do not have yet. So I
37:59
have to start understanding. what I need to
38:01
do to get to the point
38:03
where I can start not only being okay
38:05
with it, but actually appreciate it and then
38:07
eventually getting turned on by it. And
38:09
I, this journey of trying to
38:11
take it just tiny step by tiny
38:13
step by tiny step. And the
38:16
amazing thing about the journey I went on is that I
38:18
really set out to fall deeper in
38:21
love with Jane. But I
38:23
ended up falling deeper in love with
38:25
me because I had to really understand
38:27
myself so much. And that's the beauty
38:29
to me. That is the beauty of
38:31
non monogamy. That all those
38:33
emotions that it brings up all those
38:35
thoughts, there's something in there and
38:38
you can learn about yourself. Non monogamy is
38:40
a sharp knife and it gets through tough
38:42
skin and the toughest person can be just
38:44
broken down by jealousy and fear. But
38:48
if you sink into it, man, up until I
38:50
wrote the book, the hardest thing I ever did
38:52
in my life was getting into this relationship with
38:54
Jane. Then the hardest thing I've been writing
38:56
about it. I went so vulnerable in
38:58
the book that I'm actually a bit surprised. I
39:01
can relate to that feeling. Man, that brings
39:03
up so many great conversation threads. I think
39:06
the thing I want to ask you about first
39:08
is what I'm hearing in your story as you
39:10
tell it is very
39:12
strong motivational factor. However,
39:15
I want to observe slash ask to make
39:17
sure I'm understanding it doesn't sound like it's
39:19
all sex related, right? Like you met this
39:22
incredible human. Like yes, sex is a part
39:24
of your story. Yes, non monogamy is obviously
39:26
woven into that. But
39:28
it sounds like this human
39:30
that entered your life is a growth partner, a
39:32
teacher, and really is the catalyst for all of
39:34
this, right? Like maybe say a little bit about
39:37
the motivation because like that's a strong willingness
39:39
to do discomfort. And it doesn't sound like you're like, Oh,
39:41
I just want to bang this chick who's a challenge, right?
39:43
Like it sounds like it was so much more than that.
39:46
Totally. If she hadn't been the person who
39:49
she was in terms
39:51
of all the other connections that
39:53
she and I had outside of the bedrooms, I probably
39:55
wouldn't have gotten on this journey. But it was it
39:57
was such a deep connection. I
40:00
saw in her an opportunity to live
40:03
out any sexual fantasy I ever wanted
40:05
Like there was nothing that was taboo to this
40:08
woman at all I mean, she may
40:10
not want to do it, but you could say
40:12
anything you could express anything about sexuality She
40:15
was like, oh, yeah, tell me more there was no
40:17
shit like you talk about I had a zero shame
40:19
on me With her like it was like negative I'd
40:22
never met anyone like that before I'd never had
40:24
that freedom to just be
40:26
and sink into my own questions and
40:28
my own ideas and my own fantasies
40:30
and I saw
40:32
in her and and maybe
40:34
this is an objectification and maybe this is
40:37
an infatuation but
40:39
I Saw a chance
40:41
to live a life. I can only dream about
40:43
sexually with her and that Was
40:47
really really attractive. Yeah,
40:49
I mean I was the neophyte I was an
40:52
absolute I went from thinking I was this sexual
40:54
powerhouse to realizing I was an absolute neophyte Yeah,
40:57
yeah I mean it's pretty cool that
40:59
someone with her level of credential experience It sounds like
41:01
like it sounds like you really did have a strong
41:03
connection if she's also willing to invest that much in
41:05
a Brand new monot non monogamous
41:07
baby, but I know a lot of people are a lot
41:09
more patient than I am I heard
41:12
you say something about toughness
41:15
and vulnerability and at this
41:17
point on your journey of
41:19
self-love Are
41:21
they even on opposite sides of the scale? Do
41:24
you think they're a little bit more like interwoven,
41:26
right? Do you think having all those emotions in
41:28
the difficulty like isn't that the toughness or like
41:30
how do you understand toughness now on the other?
41:32
You are absolutely 100 100
41:34
percent right at the ending of the book or the
41:36
last couple chapters is where I start sinking into what's
41:40
tough is being
41:42
vulnerable and being Okay,
41:44
and and and sharing so when
41:46
I first came out as
41:48
open by basically Dating Jane and
41:51
she said oh we're open for
41:53
my extreme sports competitors and a
41:55
friend Said you let other guys
41:57
fuck your woman. What's wrong with you? Like it was
42:00
Oh, damn. Oh, that's like
42:02
the worst case scenario voices out
42:04
loud at you and a real person.
42:07
Whoa. What did you
42:09
say? I said, I don't let her
42:11
fuck other guys any more than I let her be
42:13
female. That's great.
42:15
That's who she is. That's what I said.
42:17
I thought that was a pretty good response.
42:20
But what's interesting is fast forward
42:22
10 years. And now
42:24
I'm working on the book. And
42:27
he and I are driving to a destination. We're
42:29
going backcountry skiing. We do a lot of extreme
42:31
stuff. And he's asking me
42:33
questions about the book. And he said, you
42:35
know, and he's been married for a while. And
42:37
he says, I really wish I could have sex
42:39
with other women. But there's no way
42:42
I could let my wife have sex with other men. So
42:44
I'm not going to do it. And then
42:46
he says, you know what, you
42:48
are a far stronger man than I am. The
42:51
same guy. Wow. Yeah,
42:55
incredible. Also, I love
42:57
that story and that example of
42:59
like friends continuing these conversations over
43:02
the course of years. And also like
43:04
what a good example of like, okay, we have
43:06
a different opinion, you're not gonna be like, hey,
43:08
fuck you, friend. Bye. We're not friends anymore. You
43:10
say, okay, well, maybe we can continue to know each
43:12
other and learn from each other. Yeah,
43:14
a lot of what I talk about in the book is
43:16
my deep, I have deep, deep friendships with people. 20, 30,
43:19
40 years, my
43:21
newest friend is 10 years, we've been friends
43:24
for 10 years. He's now he's finally reaching
43:26
real friend status. I cultivate deep, long
43:28
friendships in my life, because it is that is
43:30
the point to being alive, is relationships
43:33
above all else. And so this particular person
43:35
is someone who I competed against. And then
43:37
I've done adventures with it. But when he
43:39
said you're a stronger man than I, that
43:41
was a moment that it hit home.
43:44
How much like, yeah, that's what toughness is.
43:46
That's what masculinity is. And that's it's about
43:48
being the man you want to be. It's
43:50
not about second party validation. It's not about
43:52
what everyone else thinks about you or your
43:54
wife, girlfriend and what they do. It's how
43:56
you hold yourself and how you carry yourself.
43:58
And if it takes take years for someone
44:00
to realize, wow, you know what, you
44:03
were right all along, you're a really tough strong
44:05
man, that's okay. I fucking
44:07
love that. And I really, you know,
44:09
I have my own version of that, right? Like one
44:11
of the hottest partners I've ever been with is someone
44:13
that I see off and on who is
44:16
so unslappable, like unshakable,
44:18
just in approval of me. We're
44:20
not super close, but like, loves
44:22
that I'm a slut, loves that I'm a whore, like
44:24
loves that I just like love to get fucked, obviously
44:27
loves that I do it safely, which
44:29
I do. Okay, I want to talk about health and
44:31
safety and the conversations you have with people and how
44:33
that's evolved over the years. But first, I
44:36
want to talk about when on this journey, you
44:38
discovered your own butthole and prostate massages,
44:40
because I have been practicing these lately.
44:42
And it's one of my favorite things
44:44
to put fingers inside of people regardless
44:46
of their parts. But where
44:49
was that on your journey of personally
44:51
opening up? Right. I think actually
44:53
the first time a woman
44:55
played with my asshole, I think I was 25. Yeah.
45:01
Really good. And she was a lot younger. She was like 18. I
45:04
had been her climbing instructor a couple of years
45:06
before and then we reconnected and she
45:08
loved to be a slut. And we went out and had
45:10
a great time. And then while she was going down to
45:12
me, she put her finger in my. Without
45:16
without discussion. Well,
45:18
it wasn't just like ram it in there.
45:20
It kind of rolled around for a while.
45:22
It got eventually then she was teasing
45:24
it and then it went in and it was like one
45:26
of the strongest orgasms I've ever had up to that point.
45:29
It was phenomenal. But then
45:31
it wasn't until I
45:33
was with Jane, my to be wife,
45:36
that that started again. Like,
45:38
but in between that wasn't like 10 years
45:40
in between that no one had had
45:43
played with that piece of me before it.
45:45
And there's probably a piece of me that felt
45:47
resistive to it because I'm still learning what sex
45:50
was, learning who I was, learning what everything meant.
45:52
It's like, oh, she played with my ass. What
45:54
does that mean? You know, there's a masculinity continuum.
45:56
Where where do where do I sit on that?
45:58
If I like. things in my ass
46:01
totally well and I certainly have also
46:03
encountered penis owning partners where it's like
46:05
it's one thing if they're air quotes
46:08
letting me do it right if I'm initiating it you
46:10
know if I and this is why I ask really
46:12
I'm say are you would never put it in your
46:14
ass type of person so I really listen to their
46:16
response so it's because if someone's like no I'm
46:18
not a never no no no you know like that's one
46:21
thing versus someone who's like oh well you know
46:23
because I really like the
46:26
positive request right so it is a
46:28
different thing for some people to ask
46:30
for that versus to just receive it
46:32
when it's offered I think
46:34
I would have a hard time asking yeah
46:36
and maybe that's across all the maybe it's not just
46:38
a butt thing too right I mean some days I
46:40
have a really hard time asking unless I'm so overwhelmed
46:43
by desire that I'm like I really
46:45
need to be slapped in the face by your cock
46:47
and then please thank me a lot of you know
46:49
like but it has to get for me to a
46:51
really extreme point otherwise I'm really big on receiving what's
46:53
offered but I've started to find out how as
46:56
a submissive I can offer more to my
46:58
partners by being clear about my desires which
47:00
means I have to get to know and love
47:03
myself more and more everyday actively ongoing blah blah
47:05
blah cuz I'm changing but okay so
47:07
speaking of change and normally I do this early on to like get
47:09
it out of the way but I do want to
47:11
talk about health and safety and your practices
47:13
around health and safety and the conversations that
47:15
you have with partners in this non-monogamous lifestyle
47:18
condoms are the default and I get
47:20
tested once every so I'm not
47:22
all that's actually active right now this has been six
47:24
months and I try to get tested every six months
47:27
regardless of what's going on but if
47:29
I'm very sexually active every three months once
47:31
I start having sex with someone regularly I really
47:34
prefer the kind of come off I've
47:37
noticed I've gotten older that point gets quicker and
47:39
quicker okay is there usually a conversation that
47:41
happens about like fluid bonding and like if
47:43
we have other people unprotected yeah
47:45
what is it something like that once the condoms
47:47
come off it's like hey how many of the people you're
47:49
having unprotected sex with and if you do let
47:53
me know if you're someone new so to speak like
47:55
oh we had unprotected sex so it's communication
47:58
I wouldn't say that Him
48:00
over leap. Millikan. About
48:02
the conversation but a have the conversation It's
48:04
where the things you need to have and
48:06
I don't ask to see people's sci reports
48:09
no one's ever asked to see mine but
48:11
I I believe people when they tell me
48:13
when at the point where the kind of
48:15
the coming off I usually have a good
48:17
feel for the person within the you're not
48:19
out hope I mean listen I'm to deter
48:21
and had committee and crabs that not the
48:24
same time in okay and. I
48:27
just always ask and I just like to get
48:29
it out there for the sake of nomination. Here's
48:31
a question in the Condom his own: Do you
48:33
still use them for blow jobs? or is it
48:35
for penetrate? Have sex on the. Only.
48:37
Country to psychopaths. Well I just
48:39
want to remind everyone that is a reason I
48:41
have herpes in. My throat cut I like
48:43
steep started always is another thing we gotta
48:45
talk about. You like videos in the throat
48:48
in it. I do like you do but
48:50
I've never really. Met. Someone who can
48:52
get roman. We've been. How do you know you like
48:54
it? I. Like it when they try to
48:56
get close, but no one's an onside people
48:58
do thirty but never all the way. So.
49:01
Do have a large penis occur. Is
49:03
it girthy that curvy as it
49:05
moves? Street preacher? It's so. For
49:07
me if I have a hard time
49:10
deep starting sometimes. I came up and figure
49:12
out why like there's like an angle thing to
49:14
eat cock. Some of them just lip right in
49:16
and it. And. Those can be even
49:18
on the larger size, but like I do
49:20
have a partner were when they are up
49:22
for hardness I can no longer fit of
49:24
them. but there's the like semi hard momentum
49:27
some that were oregon so that so is
49:29
that is it. Like usually of. That. Sony
49:31
hires semi heard his happen but when
49:33
I'm thankfully. No. One's
49:35
ever documentaries? Well, I haven't met someone who can
49:37
I. I know there are people who could. Have
49:39
so a big fan of saying look not yes. I
49:42
am old hope for the future Always
49:44
getting married is funny the I have
49:46
a bottomless like wanna buy some one
49:48
a happy I want to come with
49:50
all the way down. Plan on the
49:52
cellphone. Only here's a thing I finally
49:54
got that the surface. I was on my bucket lists
49:57
but as a receiver a cat really feel like I
49:59
have and like. I'm not a little bit so I
50:01
can because it just goes. It goes back to the part
50:03
where I conceal it, but it. Is very hard to
50:05
be like airtight for me to to just
50:07
get layer which helps and like. That Okay,
50:10
What about getting what sensations do love
50:12
giving to your partner's. I
50:14
love doing things that get responses from
50:16
women saudis some it's a real of
50:19
do like I would pretty much do
50:21
anything to her that makes her mon
50:23
in a way because it's so sad
50:25
sight I mean I like all the
50:27
basic was basically don't woman with the
50:30
correct way to say going down a
50:32
woman it's going down can pussy says.
50:34
Well what turned you on? I think it's
50:36
what turns you on the most in that
50:38
moment day. I like also going down on
50:41
people also pussy licking in or depends on
50:43
that particular position with your see sitting may
50:45
be are worshipping the current. I don't know.
50:47
it's like wet what phrases make. I
50:49
actually love pussy lighting from behind
50:51
when woman's on all fours. So
50:54
hot that's so hot new like.
50:56
The like apples to. I recently had a partner
50:58
that was like do when both.boat yeah you do
51:00
have. Areas are you are Just had my
51:02
first Unlike anything with the but. Yeah,
51:04
no Saint Sultan's getting lit from behind
51:07
on my pussy mostly. But than having
51:09
both have played with is what. Got
51:11
me recently to my first infinity orgasm and
51:13
I was like oh my god like
51:15
him with somebody or does it just wasn't
51:17
stop a i don't have a real word
51:20
well as what I call this. And
51:22
I wasn't sir what was happening until after what
51:24
I had to be like break it down for
51:26
me what just happened with the most intense experience?
51:28
I hadn't quite a while and then I just
51:31
like collapsed afren. Talk about vulnerable Like it was
51:33
such an intense because there was a point where
51:35
I was like i think I'm just still coming
51:37
Nope, I'm definitely still coming and it's not gonna
51:40
stop. I was A or Your Hands Hooks Picnic
51:42
School System The fucking. The
51:44
point is it was pussy licking from behind.
51:47
That like took me to the next level
51:49
with the. Like singers are doing
51:51
that without gets me so fucking
51:53
I do. I mean that's. Why?
51:58
But you were talking about. Following
52:00
like the noises of the people, do you
52:02
tend to sort of just like explore around
52:04
to see what gets the most noises? Or
52:07
do you have verbal conversations that are like
52:09
gimme your one two three, how to Why?
52:11
What's resume. And you know what? I
52:13
really like the exploration. I love to
52:15
lead layers back slowly and pure and
52:18
figuring. I like the puzzle. I have
52:20
conversations in my business world I I
52:22
wanted. I don't know the something about
52:24
another people who do conversation but it
52:26
feels so. Rigid. To
52:29
me for some reason and not judging
52:31
I funny I was recently hooking up.
52:33
With. A woman recently this unless you have
52:35
and I was having a tough time Can
52:38
reading Hurley has been nice and good and
52:40
finally I said stay. Maybe we could have
52:42
a currently of the first time I've ever.
52:45
Actually be like hey let's let's have a
52:47
conversation. I'd love to know. it really turns
52:49
you on And she gave me a peach
52:51
and a half type saying that she had
52:53
the to get out were lovers and I
52:55
was like oh you've given me a memo
52:57
okay think yourself as was. it was just
52:59
very businesslike. can look at it was. It
53:02
was interesting that it was great. I've. Heard
53:04
of that in like non monogamous kinky series
53:06
of the Will Have Written On thing I
53:08
personally like, I don't want to do only
53:10
those things and also what will we explore
53:12
together in this wild unknown? But also like.
53:14
My. Body changes, Every day
53:16
And my body I think. I
53:19
mean what, I am not a scientist, they haven't
53:21
studied under Fairmont. Although unlike after hearing your story
53:23
on like. Could. We get a
53:26
study funded about people who have more
53:28
recently. In. Their pheromones his car be something that's.
53:31
Gotta be something they're they're not going on instead
53:33
of at something my ex was a sensory sense.
53:36
That so called yes. So why when is
53:38
your first? about any other turn ons in
53:41
your sexy sphere that we haven't gotten to
53:43
yet? Like any things that make you hot
53:45
like specific the patients like and you suck
53:47
on your and center as late. As.
53:49
You done with? You know? I guess? I.
53:53
Don't an underwater first and really me such
53:55
as for says. Know about but I have
53:57
a listener who writes me some very interesting emails
53:59
and sense. Linked about aqua failure and about kind
54:01
of like the compression this good. I'm like I'm
54:03
not a message to school but he to do
54:05
it but I'm like. Color. Me curious if
54:07
I were in the rain disturbance right? I guess
54:09
is if I'm a free diver so he was
54:11
freediving only get down to leave a few minutes
54:13
and with the. Damn. Have
54:16
does breath holding skills come in handy when
54:18
you're going. Down On a pussy.
54:21
My sake. I mean. Sometimes
54:23
it is a matter of how likes to the into
54:25
how deep and I get. That. You know it
54:27
becomes more of an issue with when the
54:29
tons of these so exactly reading that then
54:31
i went to really move into so as
54:33
to say think my know does. This
54:38
of the I'd say want to be A because
54:40
in your outflow of your suggests you say if
54:42
you don't know someone you need to commit them
54:45
with something of value if you want to interact
54:47
with them Sexual. This is my new memo
54:49
of twenty Twenty Four irresistible invitations. Yes,
54:51
and like, what are you offering? A
54:53
mate? I totally get that. But. When.
54:56
I want to push back and you that even if you
54:58
do know them. In. Fact. When.
55:01
You know them. Pizza Hut Hut.
55:03
To have transactional sex. I love
55:05
transactional sex with someone I'm involved
55:08
with, someone call and long term
55:10
growth and. I have. No, I don't
55:12
think those things are at odds with one another.
55:14
Folder. Now but it was it was
55:16
the with the outer was like. You.
55:19
Need to come up with something his eyes like even if
55:21
you know. He said if you don't know someone come within
55:23
the something of value my body do know some people come
55:25
with the my. Assumption there is if you know
55:27
someone in have chosen to keep them in
55:29
your license because they continue to provide value
55:31
tear like or. You're stuck with that
55:33
says they're related to you. But
55:37
I definitely think of treating else I.
55:39
I'm an adult houses so I love
55:42
coming over my tool belt and sixty
55:44
someone's house to blow job or I.
55:47
Know we're on the East. Coast game
55:49
is. On the list.
55:52
goes on like I'm right near a lake
55:54
view. Original: I'm in Colorado River. Oh.
55:56
really it on your to lay on and
55:58
on and health somehow I literally
56:00
did. I literally did. So I literally was
56:02
just talking to someone of where I'm like,
56:05
I have this kink. And now for me,
56:07
I was like, I was like, is this
56:09
getting a submissive? Like, am I
56:11
am I because that was kind of one of my December bucket
56:13
list items. I was like, I don't know, you know, I'm, I've
56:16
only done dominant things for work. Like,
56:18
in my personal life, I'm a submissive.
56:21
But I'm like, you know, I could
56:23
see a scenario in which maybe someone's
56:25
cleaning with me, can I help them clean? I don't really want
56:27
to, I don't know if I want to be in charge of
56:29
someone in everyday life. But I love
56:31
transactional things because as a
56:34
person whose brain can't
56:36
fucking figure out the social norms, I'm like, all right,
56:38
what do you want from me? All right, here's what
56:40
I need from you. Or here's a menu
56:43
of options that would be hot and nice for
56:45
me plumbing issues. You got some carpentry, literally
56:47
do can't can't get my bathroom. Well, I think I
56:49
can fix this later. But my bathroom stopper is currently broken.
56:51
I have a shelf I need to put up. I got
56:53
to put on a new closet door and I have to
56:55
refix my suit. Wait, so
56:58
first of all, we'll talk after
57:00
this. Second of all, so you've done this like
57:02
with tool belt? Like, what do you mean? Oh,
57:04
absolutely. Oh, no, this is a kink of money. How do
57:06
you bring this up? How do you talk about it? Because
57:09
I was like, how do I ask people for this? This
57:11
is I've only done this
57:13
with with partners with people who know, oh, you
57:15
were already the kink of my I love transaction.
57:19
And sometimes it's purely paying. Sometimes I'll
57:21
call my partner up and be like,
57:23
I'll give you X number of dollars to get over
57:25
here and suck my talk right now. That's
57:28
so hot. Wait, can I I just have to
57:30
narrate what just happened? Because that's not going to
57:32
be in the video recording. But on your screen,
57:34
when you said that the little thumbs
57:36
up emoji just popped up and did
57:38
a thumbs up and disappeared. It's the
57:41
new iOS updates. That is
57:43
hilarious. So
57:47
Apple approved. Okay, so it's been
57:49
mostly with partners, but you've paid them for a
57:51
sex. I mean, that's my yeah,
57:53
like that's top top top hot. I don't really
57:55
have an interest in paying strangers for sex. That's
57:58
not kinky to me. I have paid strangers
58:00
for sex at points but paying a partner
58:02
for sex is just I don't know why
58:05
that's so kinky to me and friends obviously
58:07
have a lot of flexible friends and whenever
58:09
they need work done they're like I'll give
58:11
you a blowjob you come over and the
58:14
sink needs a new trap put
58:16
in or I need my circuits
58:18
moved and outlet moved or is
58:21
it like are you like I need to focus on
58:23
the job and then we have fun or is it
58:26
like can you be like hammering and then your person
58:28
is just like let me just unzip that for a
58:30
second and then like going back or do you like
58:32
prefer to have a corporate all the above
58:34
okay okay you're open I mean novelty seeking
58:36
right but the sex has to be at
58:38
the end like we can tease they're gonna
58:40
be teasing I mean I think
58:43
you're living in a new paradigm where you
58:45
can come four times if it's an intense
58:47
exciting moment so I think you could I think
58:49
you can just follow your heart I say follow
58:51
your heart follow your part you'll be good to
58:53
go so damn that's the okay what else what else
58:56
what other turn ons do we not know about you so
58:59
this girlfriend I had when I was
59:01
25 first real relationship I had she
59:03
was the first woman I
59:05
was with a lot that liked anal sex
59:07
and that's where I really had a lot
59:09
of and we had this one this is
59:11
amazing this happens 30 years ago we
59:13
were in a hotel on a ski trip
59:15
and they had a steam shower in the
59:17
hotel room we were in and it was
59:20
handed down like the greatest anal sex of
59:22
my life in this steam shower for like
59:25
an hour it was just
59:27
a sweat and the steam and the hot
59:29
and the body we were both 25 we
59:31
were just incredible and she's up against the
59:34
wall and I'm behind her did you still
59:36
use lube though oh yeah yeah
59:38
lots of lube we had lots of that yeah we
59:40
had lots of kept applying more you could
59:42
even do water-based lube in a steam shower because you'd
59:44
always be having the moisture you know with water-based lube
59:46
sometimes you gotta add water because it gets sticky dude
59:49
so this
59:51
is this incredible experience which happened 30 years
59:53
ago okay oh yeah totally standing up thing
59:55
time in for an hour we were in
59:58
there and it was just we just When
1:00:00
I finally came in her ass and we left that
1:00:02
shower and we were just like oh my god, what
1:00:04
just happened? What's amazing to
1:00:06
me eyes? I have never really
1:00:09
done that again and I build
1:00:11
houses and just this year I was like,
1:00:14
what the fuck am I doing? What I put a steam shower
1:00:16
in my house It was
1:00:18
just what I'm doing this winter in my house
1:00:20
here in Colorado's I'm putting a steam shower in
1:00:22
Purely, I'm like, why have I waited
1:00:24
this long to do it? So I'm like building
1:00:26
this out I've just I'm just starting to rebuild
1:00:28
the bathroom and I'm like, okay Well
1:00:31
when you christen it with someone maybe you'll
1:00:33
want to come back and share details with
1:00:35
a past guest update I don't know just
1:00:37
saying cool. Okay anything anything else before I
1:00:39
ask you other questions like other just turn
1:00:41
on things you love Well, I finally
1:00:43
did have my first prostate massage like an
1:00:45
actual prostate massage like I'd yeah This
1:00:48
whole thing I my wife really liked pegging and
1:00:50
she begged me a couple times then once actually
1:00:52
blogged about it to the entire How
1:00:55
is that for you? It's a whole scene in
1:00:57
the book about it I don't want to give
1:00:59
away but all of a sudden a friend called
1:01:01
me was like, you know, you're being pegged online
1:01:03
I was like wait what okay, that was my
1:01:05
whole thing Between
1:01:07
us. Yeah, we broke up actually over it for
1:01:10
a But
1:01:12
her point was like I talked about our
1:01:14
sex all the time all of a sudden
1:01:16
this one thing I can't talk about What's your
1:01:18
problem? It was just interesting. She's like I talked
1:01:20
about watching girls Suck your cock and you're totally
1:01:23
okay with it And so there was this real
1:01:25
mental battle that I was in with my
1:01:27
head is like well She's right on some level but the
1:01:29
other level shouldn't she talk to me, but
1:01:31
I've been okay with everything else There's
1:01:34
a conflict in my brain around being
1:01:36
a man who likes his ass played
1:01:38
with so fast forward after We
1:01:41
would know she and I no longer together
1:01:43
and I have an excuse a massage therapist
1:01:45
who now is giving central massages And
1:01:48
so I actually had shoulder surgery and I
1:01:50
couldn't jack off inside then hey I want
1:01:52
to come in for a session and she
1:01:54
said great said, you know, I offered prostate
1:01:57
massage It's like, you know, I actually never
1:01:59
had my the prospects actually massaged. I said
1:02:01
fingers up there, but no one there. And
1:02:04
she didn't, my God,
1:02:06
that was so, and that's only happened
1:02:08
once. So far. I have
1:02:10
to find someone else to have to find my
1:02:12
next partner who might be willing to do that.
1:02:14
And I can't even believe I'm saying this out
1:02:16
loud. Oh, well, I mean,
1:02:19
don't you think this is a perfect example of we
1:02:21
got to be the change we want to see? And
1:02:23
it's like, you know, we think so far, we put
1:02:25
it out there, we literally putting it out there. Because
1:02:27
who knows? I mean, I have the same thing, right?
1:02:29
I am practicing, again, 2024, I
1:02:31
am practicing giving, offering,
1:02:34
and receiving irresistible invitations.
1:02:36
I really just want to do a
1:02:38
good job identifying my desires and inviting
1:02:40
people into them. And it's
1:02:42
for me, scary, vulnerable. What
1:02:45
else is on your horizon to discover
1:02:47
or explore, both in your personal life,
1:02:49
and then what do you wish would
1:02:51
happen for the world's sexuality? I want
1:02:53
to hear your personal stuff first, and then we'll get into broad
1:02:55
noodles about making the world a sexy, more loving place. So
1:02:58
it's funny, in the 10 years I was with
1:03:00
Jane, I got to live out my bucket list.
1:03:02
I crossed, I crossed just about everything out of
1:03:04
my bucket list except the throat pie. So
1:03:07
I don't have a lot of things that
1:03:09
I'm looking to do other than a life
1:03:11
partner would be great. As much as I
1:03:14
appreciate naminogamy, I don't call myself polyamorous. I
1:03:16
want a primary partner, I want a single romantic
1:03:19
relationship and then have some flexibility. So
1:03:21
what's on the horizon is I'm looking
1:03:23
for that person who has a evolvedness
1:03:26
about sexuality and sex that
1:03:29
I can be 100% open. Because it's hard,
1:03:31
you don't meet a lot of people that you can,
1:03:33
and that was one of the best things about being
1:03:35
with Jane, is that there was no
1:03:37
judgment about, and it didn't matter what my brain
1:03:39
thought of around sex. I want
1:03:42
that openness, I want that freedom, I want that
1:03:44
connection, I want that respect, I want that excitement
1:03:47
from a partner who celebrates the way I
1:03:49
express to the world. That's what
1:03:51
I would like. At the same time, I
1:03:53
do like sex, so having some constant sex
1:03:55
would be good. At the moment, there is
1:03:57
no constant sex. I would never- sex
1:04:00
lead you to that relationship? Maybe
1:04:03
I'm too Pollyanna, but I really
1:04:05
I'm like I love getting to know people
1:04:07
through sex. I just also need the piece
1:04:09
where we're getting to know each other, not
1:04:12
just being you. I mean if you're gonna
1:04:14
use me as a tool there's specific scenarios
1:04:16
in which we can make that a happy
1:04:18
energetic exchange, right? But it's like if
1:04:20
we're getting to know each other I think it's such
1:04:22
a, maybe it's not the cultural norm, but my hope
1:04:24
for you, that's a fellow person that likes sex. I
1:04:26
totally agree, that's I'm saying it'd be nice to be
1:04:28
having sex with them and getting to know them. I
1:04:30
recently scared away a crush by
1:04:33
asking him to have sex, or asking
1:04:35
him you know about the timeline or
1:04:37
the conversation that might need to be in
1:04:39
place for us to talk about moving to that next step.
1:04:41
Didn't hear from him again after that. Maybe there were
1:04:43
other factors at play, but I thought I would be
1:04:45
a real gentle, but... Men are fearful and
1:04:47
that's kind of why I wrote this. What's
1:04:50
the scary part? We are fearful. Like
1:04:52
if something makes us uncomfortable, we shy
1:04:54
away and I've had this
1:04:56
overarching MO in my life is I
1:04:59
want to get comfortable being uncomfortable. I
1:05:01
want to get to that point where being
1:05:03
uncomfortable is an interesting feeling, not a scary
1:05:05
feeling, right? Things should be
1:05:07
exciting because of the fear not in spite
1:05:09
of it. And so when your partner says
1:05:11
what you said and it
1:05:14
makes you uncomfortable, like if it makes you
1:05:16
uncomfortable you should probably run towards it. Right,
1:05:18
I mean at the same time I'm like I
1:05:20
don't need to be that person's teacher if that's where they
1:05:22
are in their journey. They're just gonna poof away. I
1:05:25
need someone who's like gonna actually be able to
1:05:27
say, hey you're so nice. I can't communicate anymore
1:05:29
now. I'm scared. You know like but I'm like
1:05:31
I'm learning that you know to go back to
1:05:33
my noodle on regular human lives it's like I
1:05:36
get it. It's normal to ghost people. I think
1:05:38
it's a terrible norm but it's you know it's sort
1:05:40
of like... I've never... I don't
1:05:42
ghost and I hate being ghosted. It's a terrible
1:05:44
thing. It's a digital thing.
1:05:46
It would happen to the digital age. It's
1:05:48
so normal for people. Yeah, yeah. Well
1:05:51
and receiving no is hard for a lot of
1:05:53
us and that's why it's hard for some of
1:05:55
us. or it's like I noodle that it's hard
1:05:57
for some of us to ask for what we
1:05:59
want because we live in a cold... there weren't
1:06:01
nose or sometimes like getting our whole selves rejected
1:06:03
but sounds like you had. I mean maybe really
1:06:05
spoiling. Experiences and when the lead you into this. but like
1:06:08
how do you. Feel. In this
1:06:10
new era where you are seeking new partnership
1:06:12
after having a. Partnership of for
1:06:14
Kinky, Permission for yourself? Yeah
1:06:17
it is interesting is turned off a couple
1:06:19
women and when they signed up my past
1:06:21
but then again it's turned on one wonders.
1:06:23
So it's self selecting. Okay,
1:06:26
So what do you noodle? We'd need collectively
1:06:28
to make the world a sexy or more
1:06:30
loving place. Will. Certainly we need
1:06:32
to normalize conversations around. Sucks that talking
1:06:34
about sex it's not a taboo, it's
1:06:37
not this thing that that is talked
1:06:39
about in hushed whispers. We all have
1:06:41
sex. Everyone Sexual. that seems to be
1:06:43
happening. It's a slow but it certainly
1:06:45
when I was a kid I in
1:06:48
the late eighties sex was not something
1:06:50
that was really talked about and normal
1:06:52
circles. So. You are
1:06:54
a penis owner who has. Sounds.
1:06:56
Like always been pretty in concert with
1:06:59
his cock. However,
1:07:01
I. Would like you to speak to
1:07:03
this cultural norm we have. The
1:07:05
hardness is the most important aspect
1:07:07
of under say that would air
1:07:10
quotes performance. It. Sounds
1:07:12
like you may be have a different
1:07:14
perspective or perhaps some knowledge even though
1:07:16
you're caught has always. Worked. With you like
1:07:18
or I wouldn't put words in your message until
1:07:20
or experience but like what are the most Not
1:07:22
only is it having. A hard boehner the
1:07:24
most important thing and sexism. A leading question.
1:07:27
I think it depends on the situation,
1:07:30
but well as I've gotten older and.
1:07:32
My twenties the cock result of the cask ale the museum
1:07:35
when we see how I use my cock and then I.
1:07:37
Will. Point out that when you sell said earlier
1:07:39
that you were not very good at sex
1:07:41
you. Are where it's from earlier as he
1:07:43
discovers that one hundred percent. and he was
1:07:45
funny. About my mid twenties I started having.
1:07:48
A sword really be attracted to Women are
1:07:50
dating women in their forties and that's actually
1:07:52
how I start getting good at sex. Was
1:07:55
starting to have sex with older women who
1:07:57
were like no, you don't rock in of
1:07:59
the just. The how did pay attention to
1:08:01
your partner I remember very clearly and will
1:08:03
bury. We're going to show you how only
1:08:05
pussy like an odd or the belly dancer
1:08:07
taught me how that it has the right
1:08:10
way to have anal sex, How to prepare
1:08:12
a woman's how to do it correctly so
1:08:14
she's gonna enjoy it's and I credit any
1:08:16
ability themselves in my sexual around from these
1:08:18
experiences I had as a young man in
1:08:20
my twenties with these women in their forties
1:08:22
and thirty. So if you're a young guy
1:08:24
out there your twenties you have to start
1:08:26
have sex with over and you dislikes and
1:08:29
it's not have sex. With you have called for like
1:08:31
do some. Learning on your own and then go do
1:08:33
it right. Like we don't turn. I mean I do,
1:08:35
I do. I'm a person that definitely turns every into
1:08:37
my teacher for better or worse. But it's like, you
1:08:39
know, I mean it's it. It is so beautiful and
1:08:41
officers many ways to learn and also like. Learning.
1:08:44
To warm up an asshole directly from a
1:08:46
person's so on as grammarly my men and
1:08:48
way to learn. It has honestly that one
1:08:51
of the best sex against. Any
1:08:53
woman ever gave me was that lesson I
1:08:55
got from her. and then this period of
1:08:57
time we are together having a lot of
1:08:59
anal sex but as I don't know there
1:09:01
and of repertoire has increased beyond macaques. The
1:09:04
sex be Closed This You can just sit
1:09:06
there and. Play. With food your
1:09:08
finger for an hour you a wouldn't see tied
1:09:10
up or something. Doesn't matter with your cats working
1:09:12
you're not. You can get some of the greatest
1:09:14
my the delights in your pants can stay on.
1:09:16
So as I've gotten older I have gotten away
1:09:19
from the hardness of the cock. And
1:09:21
even though saying that it does your
1:09:23
really good when my clock is really
1:09:26
hard and women really appreciate. A
1:09:28
very hard cock that is one of those. Feelings
1:09:31
that I absolutely love when the caucus
1:09:33
really hard and the woman's just and
1:09:36
loving it. So yes, I've moved away
1:09:38
from it, but blaze nice when it's.
1:09:40
Yeah, elsa sounds like you're not a
1:09:43
particularly high anxiety person. Just from talking
1:09:45
to you which are no anxiety ten and
1:09:47
like fear of performance can really affect people.
1:09:50
he i think that stems and the
1:09:52
book thought a lot about this into
1:09:54
his performance because in extreme sports i
1:09:56
competed in you cannot having zion you
1:09:58
can have anything that to distract you
1:10:00
from performance. You learn how to compartmentalize
1:10:03
so well. You learn how to take
1:10:05
fear and reframe it. You learn how
1:10:07
to look at situations completely differently. You
1:10:09
learn how to find the mindset of
1:10:11
just that space where you can perform
1:10:13
because in extreme sports, if you misperform
1:10:16
it, it can have consequences which aren't
1:10:18
very good. So yeah, I don't have
1:10:20
a lot of anxiety. Yeah, no, I hear that.
1:10:22
And I just want to call that up because I
1:10:24
think oftentimes, you know, people just want to pop
1:10:27
a pill or do kind of a quick six
1:10:29
instead of dealing with the connection of the relationship,
1:10:31
their connection to themselves, their self-love, you know, and
1:10:33
I just want to say to all penis owners
1:10:35
out there, you know, I definitely
1:10:37
had a really good friend who started Cialis in his early
1:10:39
20s not knowing that it gets less and less and
1:10:41
less effective the older you get. So I am just
1:10:44
all for people like really checking in with themselves.
1:10:47
Yeah, take time. I want to share
1:10:49
a personal story with you about a
1:10:51
penis sting in the pants and it was really
1:10:53
hot. So I had a partner
1:10:55
recently where our agreement was he was just
1:10:57
going to play with my asshole. Like he
1:10:59
really wanted to play with an asshole first
1:11:01
time for him and I was like, okay,
1:11:04
we'll see, you know, so we put on the
1:11:06
gloves. I was like teaching him to go slow.
1:11:08
He did not go slow enough, but he was
1:11:10
like so, so excited because it was his first
1:11:12
time with someone who's like really into butt stuff
1:11:14
playing with it. And he also had
1:11:17
been edging himself for a while and it got so
1:11:19
hot. Like it was so, so hot. We both got
1:11:21
so turned on. He ended up coming
1:11:23
in his pants for the first time since he
1:11:25
was a teenager and he was much older now.
1:11:27
So it's like that was things where we were
1:11:29
just like super, super turned on the cocks in
1:11:31
the pants and then he masturbated to it a
1:11:33
lot later. And so we were just like very
1:11:35
happy about that. So my personal share. Thanks for
1:11:37
listening. Yeah, no, it's got me kind
1:11:39
of like, like, oh, I remember coming in my pants.
1:11:42
Right. And that's fun too, right? But
1:11:44
it's something that oftentimes I think we get in, we
1:11:46
have this idea that like an adult sexual experience has
1:11:48
to be this certain way. But what do we love
1:11:50
more than anything is to feel young, to feel like
1:11:53
a little bit out of control in these ways that
1:11:55
are safe and exciting and surprising for me, for me,
1:11:57
I'll speak for myself. Okay. Anything
1:11:59
else? your sex life before
1:12:01
I ask you my fantasy questions?
1:12:04
Ooh, fantasy questions. I mean, you know, I
1:12:06
am someone who just, like, loves
1:12:09
the one-off blowjob in the bathroom at
1:12:11
a restaurant, all right? Or somewhere, like,
1:12:13
behind a tree quick or I once
1:12:15
fucked Jane on the edge of the
1:12:17
Grand Canyon. From behind, we were just
1:12:19
looking out into the... That's so hot!
1:12:21
Oh, that's so hot! Have you ever come
1:12:23
over a cliff? I love to ask people this question.
1:12:25
So far, I have not met a penis that has
1:12:28
jacked off into a canyon, but... I
1:12:30
have had sex on cliffs from climbing. I
1:12:32
have had like... I want to watch someone
1:12:34
come over a cliff safely, right? And I
1:12:36
want to slow-mo video it. Like, that's one
1:12:38
of my just, like, random bucket list fantasies.
1:12:40
I'm like... Or at least hear a story
1:12:42
about it. No one has come over a cliff yet. Well,
1:12:44
I'll happily be your subject. You
1:12:47
want to watch the ones... Do you
1:12:49
want to film? I know you're a filmmaker. Yes, yes,
1:12:51
no. I... Yes,
1:12:53
I mean, I... There's
1:12:56
a lot of good things you can do with, like,
1:12:58
come in zero gravity that I think we just have
1:13:00
not seen enough of yet. So I'm... I'm... I'm
1:13:02
curious and all... Mars has
1:13:04
the biggest canyon anywhere in our soil.
1:13:07
That's right! That's right! That's a really...
1:13:09
I think... I want
1:13:12
to fly to Mars and come
1:13:14
out... And it would go really
1:13:16
slowly. I think I don't know why... I can't
1:13:18
remember Mars gravity right now. I think it's left. It's
1:13:21
left. We're point-six. Point-six,
1:13:23
yeah. Okay, so... If you
1:13:25
had to be a sex
1:13:27
worker for two years, we suddenly live in a world
1:13:29
where that's the community service we all do. Like,
1:13:32
maybe at the cusp of download, or maybe anything to point out our lives, because
1:13:34
it's a new law. What kind of
1:13:36
sex worker would you be? What
1:13:38
kind? Yeah. How would you serve? Well,
1:13:40
I know that I would love to
1:13:43
be the man who shows that
1:13:45
women hire to come teach them how to
1:13:47
enjoy anal sex. That's
1:13:50
what I would love. I
1:13:52
love that. That's hot. Yeah, okay. And
1:13:56
I've had a lot of good feedback. Oh, well, you
1:13:58
wear well. I've had good feedback. that
1:14:00
I just felt well. That's great. It would be
1:14:02
nice for you to get properly appreciated for your
1:14:04
skills. Right, because I've met many women
1:14:06
who said, I don't like it in my ass. When
1:14:09
someone who does it the correct way, they're
1:14:11
like, oh. Right, because when you go slow
1:14:13
enough and do enough teasing and enough gentling,
1:14:15
the assholes welcome you in. Yeah, take time.
1:14:18
Yes, yeah, if you let the asshole be.
1:14:20
That's very good. You want to hear a really hot
1:14:22
story about that? Yes. So, I was dating
1:14:24
this girl, this is years ago, and she had this really young
1:14:26
roommate. We were like 25, 26, she was maybe 20. And
1:14:31
she was always seeing me dating her roommate, and we
1:14:33
were always showing us having crazy sex. She
1:14:35
was this little church girl. Boom. Fast
1:14:38
forward 10, 15 years, I
1:14:40
get a text, hey, I just moved to New York City. I was
1:14:42
in New York City. She's like, I'd love to go out with you.
1:14:45
And I was like, just grab a drink, whatever. And
1:14:48
so, we go out, grab a drink. She
1:14:50
is like totally religious, totally comes from this
1:14:52
background, but she's thinking of stepping away from
1:14:54
the church. So anyway, we go
1:14:56
out, have a lovely date. She
1:14:58
says, look, I always just want to start getting
1:15:01
into sex that first night. She's like, I've never
1:15:03
really given a blowjob. I want to give a
1:15:05
blowjob. She gave me a blowjob that night, and
1:15:07
we started this relationship where we're starting to
1:15:09
explore. And her whole thing was like, I
1:15:11
think I want to try anal sex. For
1:15:14
six months, we're working up to it,
1:15:16
right? It took a while. She had
1:15:18
all kinds of socialization issues
1:15:21
and shame issues around growing
1:15:23
up in the church. And
1:15:26
so anyway, finally, one night, we're
1:15:29
having this really sexy night. We're like having a
1:15:31
martini. We're out somewhere. We come back to the
1:15:33
apartment. And it was just the
1:15:35
night. And with fully clothed,
1:15:38
she's bent over the countertop. I'm on
1:15:40
my knees with my tongue, working her
1:15:42
ass, working her ass with my tongue,
1:15:44
fingers getting her so hot. And
1:15:47
I finally just slipped my cock in
1:15:50
her ass and I fucked her ass over
1:15:52
the countertop that night. And
1:15:55
she filled up her boots with cum
1:15:57
that night and screamed so loud. neighbors
1:16:00
the next day were like, who did you fuck
1:16:02
last night? And
1:16:04
then she went back to the church. No,
1:16:07
I hope she I hope she went back to
1:16:09
the church and kept her kinky parts, her slutty
1:16:12
parts. Like maybe just with one person.
1:16:14
Wow. That was like a month workout
1:16:16
to it. Yeah. It was so
1:16:18
built up, so built up. And
1:16:20
I still remember that orgasm, like my
1:16:23
own orgasm. But yeah, she
1:16:25
filled up her like she poured the cum out of her or
1:16:28
the whatever the squirt. Yeah, I mean,
1:16:31
that's so sexy. Also,
1:16:33
I just want
1:16:35
to point out, you know, yes, you're a
1:16:37
novelty seeker, but you like a good project.
1:16:39
I think that's hot, like that combination, you
1:16:41
know, because it's because for me, it's such
1:16:43
a different experience, right to have someone that
1:16:46
I may never see again versus someone
1:16:48
who I am building, you know, exploration with.
1:16:50
That's really great. There you go. So if
1:16:52
I was a sex worker, that's the work
1:16:54
I would like to do. I love
1:16:56
that. Okay, this one, I wonder if you've
1:16:59
thought about I mean, you could probably make
1:17:01
this come true for yourself. But in this
1:17:03
fantasy question, you have an unlimited budget to
1:17:05
build or someone else can do it for
1:17:07
you. Your perfect playroom, dungeon, castle, whatever structure
1:17:10
you want. What is it like?
1:17:12
What is it? I know. I knew you were gonna
1:17:14
ask me this question because you've asked it to all year.
1:17:16
And I think I even sent in my email, I'm not
1:17:18
that kinky. I don't like that's okay. It doesn't have to
1:17:20
be kinky. The thing I'm building. I'm building a
1:17:22
steam shower. Doing it. You're like, I'm doing it.
1:17:24
I don't have a dungeon. I just I want
1:17:27
a steam shower to have anal
1:17:32
sex and I am currently building it. I
1:17:34
have to pour some leveling cement tonight after
1:17:36
we're off the phone. Oh, that's so that
1:17:38
hot. Well, okay, let me rephrase this
1:17:41
question to see if I get a
1:17:43
different answer. In my future vision of
1:17:45
Wyo's ideal sexy world, there is like
1:17:48
a museum
1:17:51
slash play space, you know, so
1:17:54
in Monday through Friday, it's a
1:17:56
museum space, you do sex ed,
1:17:58
there's erotic art, it's beautiful. It's
1:18:00
sectioned off. So here's the family part. Here's
1:18:02
the naughty sexy part on the weekends daytime.
1:18:04
It becomes a place base Obviously
1:18:06
has a great gift shop. There's toys.
1:18:08
There's beautiful lingerie. There's all sorts of spaces
1:18:11
for workshopping and learning What do you think
1:18:13
needs to go in there? Like what can
1:18:15
I definitely not miss big bed
1:18:17
for threesomes? Like I'm like based off your stuff. You
1:18:19
know, there's got to be like a good butt situation
1:18:21
But like what do I know something nice someone
1:18:23
something you can bend someone over one of
1:18:25
those horses you can bend someone over I
1:18:29
want to roll your fingers. Yeah. Yeah. Oh,
1:18:31
that's like when you were talking with Casey
1:18:33
Donatello And she's seeing how her husband gets
1:18:35
off more watching himself on the screen Love
1:18:37
all and I was like I get that
1:18:39
when I'm having sex with someone I want
1:18:41
to watch it in the mirror I don't
1:18:43
want to watch it up close So,
1:18:50
yeah, I think mirrors are important things people
1:18:52
can be bent over I think
1:18:55
you obviously need restraints on the bed so someone can
1:18:57
get good. Oh, yeah At
1:19:00
all just restrain him on the bed totally vanilla Well,
1:19:05
so that's where I'm like, nope kink is getting
1:19:07
normalized we gotta talk about it My
1:19:09
wife had a live-in sex life. That's something to
1:19:11
cage Cages with
1:19:14
padding on the bottom. I hope or was it a mean cage?
1:19:17
She had to build the cage himself as this young kid
1:19:19
who Arrangement I don't
1:19:21
know if it was padded or not But he
1:19:23
built it she made him build it and so
1:19:25
she took kink to a level that I had
1:19:27
even a tough time watching Them play so that's
1:19:30
why I don't think of myself as kinky. She
1:19:32
always she always introduced me as her vanilla husband
1:19:34
Well, just cuz you're with someone who was way
1:19:36
more kinky than you doesn't mean you're not kinky,
1:19:39
but I hear that Yeah,
1:19:41
a little rope tie up very good ropes as
1:19:43
a climber. So, you know, yeah You
1:19:46
know, I ropes you bro. Thanks. It's important Amazing
1:19:50
Wow. Okay lovers you can go
1:19:52
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1:19:54
at seek the risk net
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Adam Thank you so much for being a guest
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1:20:01
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