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Hi. I am Kate Hudson and my name is
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Oliver Hudson. We wanted to
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do something that highlighted our relationship and
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what it's like to be siblings. We
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are a sibling Railvalry. No,
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no, sibling val don't
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do that with your mouth, sibling
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Revelry. That's
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good.
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Hello, it's me. It's Oliver Hudson,
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one of your two hosts from Sibling
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Revelry. We're missing one. We're
0:48
missing the other Hudson, the Kate Hudson.
0:50
The Kate Hudson is in Greece right now
0:54
making a movie. She's working. The
0:57
bro is taking over. We're
0:59
gonna make it. We're gonna make it great.
1:02
I mean maybe,
1:04
just maybe we're gonna
1:06
get some comments that say, hey, you know what,
1:10
you just do it on your own. Probably
1:12
not, but Kate,
1:15
I love you, I miss you. You
1:17
know you're making the world a better place by
1:19
being in an action comedy. So
1:22
to replace Kate, I
1:25
have an extremely in
1:27
depth interview into our relationship
1:30
because this is this is the path that we're going
1:32
to take for this particular episode.
1:36
Is my beautiful wife, Aaron Hudson. She is
1:38
here, she is with me, she is sitting next to
1:40
me saying Hi, Hi,
1:43
Okay, So what
1:45
we're gonna do here is I'm going to
1:48
interview her. I'm going to ask her questions
1:50
about me, things that I
1:52
think I know about myself, things
1:55
I think that you know, I think that she
1:57
might think about me. Maybe she doesn't, I don't know.
2:00
And we're going to get into the depths of our
2:02
relationships starting from the beginning.
2:05
And I might have a few questions for you, and
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she might have a few questions for me as
2:10
well. So let's
2:13
get started, babe. I
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need your age, okay, your
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weight, your height? Why?
2:23
First of all, this is what we do with all of our guests.
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Okay, So
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when was the first time that
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you noticed me? Let's
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see it first time I noticed you. It's
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actually the first time I met you in
2:45
Sandy Marshall's acting class. You
2:48
were in the front row. I was in the way back.
2:50
We had it. Did have a mutual friend, Mark
2:53
Rose. I'm sure you mentioned
2:55
him before in your podcast, and
2:59
he introduced us just as
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his friend. This is Oliver. I
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definitely thought you were cute, but it was not my
3:09
style or vibe. I
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wasn't your type. Yeah, what was
3:13
your type? I
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don't know at the time, a little more like East Coast,
3:19
maybe a little like preppy
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khaki's white T shirt
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and what did I what did I look like? You had on
3:30
like vintage levies, like a rock
3:32
or tea and like a black leather jacket, very
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rock and roll, very like kind
3:38
of long hair, very cool. But
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and then I remember we had a few classes together
3:46
and I remember like smiling
3:49
at Mark, like, oh, he's kind of
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cute, and Mark's like he's
3:53
dating someone, He's in a relationship
3:55
and it's serious, and I was like, okay,
3:58
cool. Yeah, But then we got
4:00
paired together to do a scene,
4:02
so we had to rehearse this scene
4:05
together. So we were meeting up every week
4:07
at someone's house and going
4:09
over this scene because we were supposed to put it up
4:12
at some sort of a showcase. So we
4:15
really kind of got to know each other. And
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that's when you started to fall in love with me. I
4:24
definitely, yes, started
4:26
to shoot find
4:29
some qualities that I was attracted
4:31
to. Was there anything that you did to you
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were like ugh in the beginning? Physically
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no, I mean I just was, like I said, kind
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of like style and you know, but
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then obviously it
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was you know, just our connection and
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it was kind of your sense of humor, our
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back and forth, like just
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the energy of being around you. I
4:53
remember saying to my best friend Jackie at
4:55
the time, I was like, I don't know, this
4:57
kind of like feels weird, but I'm like nerve
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to go in and see him. She
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was dropping me off. Yeah,
5:04
And then that just that feeling
5:07
was kind of there where I knew and then I was kind of
5:09
like thinking about you. But I
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think because you had a girlfriend, it allowed
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us to kind of be
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friends and know that there was no awkwardness
5:19
of like trying to you
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know, get to know somebody, or when
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there's the openness of like ooh, we're two
5:25
single people, it immediately creates something
5:28
different. And this was like, oh, all right, he has a girlfriend.
5:31
And she was beautiful and a
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Buddhist and you know, part
5:35
of the family band she
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was. She was and
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you know, you were very attractive.
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I mean you were hot, so hot,
5:45
and then but I was good.
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But it was a very flirty friendship, very
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flirty, you know, I mean that was
5:53
just our thing. I mean from the beginning,
5:55
it was playful and it was flirty,
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but it was a flirty, safe because I kind of knew,
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like and you were doing it. I did. I was gonna lead you on
6:02
because I knew you couldn't be with me. You
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were doing your kind of charming thing
6:07
that you do, which is what is that just
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wanting everybody to fall in love with you.
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That's a deeper psychological issue.
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Yeah, we can get to that one there. But
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no, you did try to like send me up with your friend.
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I did. I thought Aaron was so
6:25
beautiful and fun and all of that. I was
6:27
trying to set her up with my friends, even though I knew
6:29
that that wouldn't happen, and I didn't want that to happen
6:31
anyway, you know. And then she was she
6:33
had a little crew of girls that she would
6:36
roll around with and they'd show up at the
6:38
clubs and the bars, and they'd be wearing like
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their white like tank tops, and
6:43
you know, they're like dog collar chokers.
6:46
And they had this whole little crew cruising
6:49
around all the celebrities homes after
6:51
hours. And then she had a boyfriend
6:55
and then they broke up and she
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was heartbroken. And
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then she comes out and hangs out
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with me, and I think it's on. I'm like,
7:05
oh, my God, We're finally going to like make
7:08
it happen. And it didn't. It
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didn't. She just needed consoling. But I guess
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the nice part about that was you came
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to me for that, for whatever reason
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I did, because I had a friend. You know, we
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had a friendship. We talked on the phone for like
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hours at a time, and like, yeah,
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there was something we were definitely friends
7:27
about a year and a half prior. Yeah,
7:29
and you knew about Simon and when I called you when
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we broke up. I called you when we broke up.
7:34
Remember, I was like reading about him and Jamie Presley,
7:36
like as I was getting on an airplane. Yeah, I was
7:38
like, oh my god. Yeah,
7:41
at the same time I was reading f hm, you
7:45
were talking about joining the Mile High
7:47
Club with Simon and
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your family had to read all that, Yes
7:54
they did. Let's talk about that for a second. Let's
7:57
keep moving on. No, we'll keep moving
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So anyway, I experience with Simon
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and her parents, who are very East
8:03
Coast, you know, a little
8:06
more conservative, had to read this
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article. The interviewer got me wasted.
8:11
Just start parent's families. Number
8:13
one, they follow
8:16
everything that she does. They literally have clippings
8:18
of her Aaron was like Miss teen Massachusetts.
8:21
She was like runner up for Miss teen America
8:24
or whatever. I mean, she was a pageant girl.
8:26
And then she moved. She goes to she goes
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to Miami and she models,
8:31
and she's all hot model girl
8:33
and dating bad boys. Bad boy
8:35
who's now in jail. But your parents would
8:37
clip out every little thing and then keep it up.
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And then the FHM article
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comes out and she literally is talking
8:44
about in explicit, sort
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of graphic detail about how she
8:48
had an experience in an airplane
8:50
bathroom. I can't even imagine imagine
8:52
reading that about Rio. Imagine
8:56
that. I think I've warned them not to read
8:58
it. I don't know, you know. So oh
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then
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then then it all then well,
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then we had a few months before we actually
9:09
got together, both being single, because in my mind,
9:11
I was like, you've been in a relationship. You
9:14
started to, like, you know, pretty much date
9:17
I hook up with every girl in LA and I was
9:19
like, I'm gonna let him kind of ride that out.
9:22
And I also didn't want to like ruin what
9:25
we had a little bit. I knew
9:27
our chemistry was going to be kind
9:29
of like an all or nothing. This wasn't going to be
9:31
like, hey, let's like first
9:34
base, second base, you
9:36
know, first date, third date. I knew that wasn't going to happen.
9:38
We had too much history, too much chemistry, and
9:40
it didn't. First night I just knew.
9:42
I also was like a grand slam. Yeah, but
9:45
I knew that if I did that too quickly,
9:47
I would I just didn't want to be like another
9:50
girl that you got or well what happened was
9:52
too with on my end of things is like, you know,
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I was having a good time and
9:57
Aaron was part of the good time with other
9:59
people. I mean, not all of us together,
10:01
but you know, clarify
10:04
that please, And but
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I was just starting to really like Aaron
10:09
and at some point I
10:12
had to eliminate everybody
10:14
else from the rotation.
10:16
Is that your favorite word? I don't want to say
10:18
that. Well,
10:22
the early two thousands, so now that's not appropriate,
10:24
but oh yeah,
10:26
I mean it was. But
10:29
then but I had to lay down the law. I remember,
10:31
I know, because there was an exclusivity
10:33
issue or
10:36
or a conversation. But that was after
10:38
Vegas, because
10:40
we went to Vegas. Vegas was crazy. Vegas
10:43
is where everything happened. Okay, Vegas
10:45
is where we fell in love. Now
10:49
were we chemically helped? I mean
10:51
maybe we were there for the Super Bowl.
10:53
It was three nights of just insanity.
10:57
I was cruising around Caesar's Palace and like
10:59
in like a silk Superman robe. We're
11:02
doing cartwheels in the hallway all night
11:04
long, all day long. I mean, it was really a beautiful
11:06
experience. And we were with all of our friends. We're
11:08
having the best time ever. And
11:10
we were in a hotel room and we were playing
11:13
Truth or Dare and
11:16
I asked Aaron true and we
11:18
were thirteen. Yeah,
11:21
yeah, but I asked Aaron. She said truth,
11:24
And I said, they said do you love me?
11:27
Are you in love with me? And
11:30
she looked at me, I think, and then you nodded
11:32
your head and you said yeah yeah. I also
11:34
like exstious sleep flowing for my butt body.
11:37
Like if like the you know, room
11:39
surface guy came and said it, I would have been like, I
11:41
love you too, you
11:44
love me? But but I did. It
11:46
was a year and a half of build up. It was a
11:48
year and a half of belting a friendship.
11:50
Hours on the phone, and I remember Alex,
11:52
our friend. Alex, was also like, dude,
11:55
that's fucked up that you would ask her
11:57
that question like that, I remember my what,
12:00
and the psychology for me behind that is
12:02
obviously I was way too afraid to
12:04
say it myself. You know. I wanted her to say
12:07
it first, because you know, then I wouldn't
12:09
have to be hurt if she in fact didn't
12:11
say it back to me or didn't love
12:14
me. But I don't think I said I love you back. I
12:16
don't think you did. No, I don't think it was like that.
12:20
No. So we had an incredible time in
12:22
Vegas, and then we came home and had
12:24
to and had to discover whether
12:26
or not it was real,
12:29
you know, outside of just that insanity.
12:32
Yeah, but the
12:34
insanity ensued, really, I mean even
12:36
it was just a said, it ensued.
12:39
I mean it was just a good time. It
12:41
was before like emails and real cell
12:43
phones, and it was just a
12:46
young you know, not a lot of
12:48
responsibility. We're both just kind of you
12:51
know mm hmm, going on auditions
12:53
and like going to clubs. I mean, it was a time.
12:56
It was a really fun, crazy
12:58
time. But I remember coming home home and
13:01
thinking, all right, like I
13:03
knew this would happen. We finally
13:05
like are together physically, it's
13:07
on all I'm doing is thinking about this guy.
13:10
And you know, in my mind, I think
13:13
I was like, all right,
13:15
like I don't want to just be one of those girls.
13:17
I don't want this to die out. I
13:19
don't want to like have him be like, oh
13:21
I finally got her and now I'm good.
13:24
And I've always had kind of a little you
13:28
know, saying or thought which is always
13:30
like be the one that
13:32
no one can get. My
13:35
dad always told me, and I thought it was great advice. No, I
13:37
know, and by the way, I carried with you because in La
13:39
I my friends who were like, oh,
13:41
you know, you're hanging out with Aaron
13:43
or whatever, and they're like, you know, they're
13:46
like, no, you won't be able to get
13:48
her. No one can get her. It's like she's she's
13:50
like an unattainable Yeah.
13:53
It was. It wasn't like only
13:55
like was up for the challenge. Was the challenge.
13:58
No, it was you know, you know, kind of playing
14:00
hard to get the thing is. At a certain point
14:02
I couldn't hold back anymore.
14:05
I also didn't want to lose what we had, which
14:07
was this friendship. But that I really did
14:09
value that I thought was different and amazing
14:11
to talk about the night on the phone, I remember,
14:14
and then but you know I said to you
14:16
because I said to Jackie, I was like, you
14:19
know, my best friend. And I would talk about it over and over
14:22
and I finally called and I was like, look, it's
14:26
either like we're together, just us, or
14:28
I don't really want to do this anymore. I'd rather like
14:30
put it on hold and have you kind of
14:32
do your thing and revisit
14:35
it down the road. And I felt
14:37
scared because I was like, oh my god, there was
14:39
a very good chance you could say okay,
14:43
and we hung up the phone. I was hoping
14:45
that he would be like, okay, no, I'm
14:47
all in. I'm all in, and you didn't.
14:50
You said I have to think about this. And
14:52
I remember hanging up the phone being like that
14:55
mother fucker liked Jackie and I was
14:57
like, he fucking has to think about
14:59
this. And I was spiraling and angry
15:02
well because I had, I
15:04
know, my ex girlfriend, you know what I
15:06
mean, like we were broken up, but I was like huh
15:09
and a few other people that I you know, I could nay no,
15:12
I know, but it was more about her. I remember
15:14
that. It was like, God, like I don't want to hurt
15:16
her. I don't want to is it over? Because
15:18
I was still sleeping with her kind of even though we were
15:20
broken up. Yeah, you know. But
15:22
then I called back pretty quickly, Well, you
15:25
made it sound like, you know all I
15:27
got to think about this, give me some time.
15:29
And I thought, what the fuck? And it was so
15:31
mad. I thought you made it sound like it's going to be like a couple of
15:33
days. You got to go through some stuff, and it was like
15:36
two hours later you called back and
15:38
you were like, okay, I'm in. Well
15:41
I was like, this is stupid. What am I doing? You
15:43
know? What am I afraid of? Who am I? You
15:45
know, is one of those you know, commitment
15:48
I've always been. I've always
15:50
been a girlfriend guy. I mean I've had
15:52
three girlfriends, and in
15:55
all of my life, I haven't even dated
15:58
for a week or two weeks or two or three
16:00
months or six months. It's been in love or
16:03
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16:07
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But then she invited me, Then Aaron invited me. This
20:10
was like almost spring ish.
20:12
And then she invited me to
20:14
go back east to her to
20:17
see her parents. And I was
20:19
like, no fucking way, because Simon was there
20:22
the summer before, and I'm like, I don't
20:24
want to just be the next dude
20:26
who's going to the Cape to like meet your
20:29
family. Yeah, just get in line.
20:34
But I was a girlfriend person too, a
20:36
relationship person. I didn't you
20:38
know. I had Steve for like
20:40
one hundred years through high school and college and
20:42
then like the worst person
20:44
on the Planet for a minute, and then
20:46
Simon that was it. And Simon and I were like
20:49
together for six months. Yeah, I
20:51
knew Simon, I think even before Aaron
20:53
and I love Simon. Simon's a good dude. So
20:56
then you came to the Cape the next
20:58
summer. Yeah yeah, yeah,
21:00
yeah, yeah yeah yeah yeah, and
21:02
it was on. Then you got your show and
21:04
went to Vancouver and once
21:07
it was on and you were you
21:09
know, yeah,
21:12
I was in So my history
21:14
a little bit is this. Okay, I had my
21:18
first high school girlfriend, and
21:21
you know, it's high school, but I was in love. I mean, there's
21:23
no doubt. And I know that now because I had I've
21:25
been in love obviously since,
21:28
and so I knew it was real. And
21:31
I was a good boyfriend up until the last
21:34
little bit. And I was a cheater and I
21:36
was bad and I did some bad
21:38
things I was in high school. But it hurt
21:41
her and it was devastating to me. And
21:44
so then with my second girlfriend, I
21:47
was so faithful, like super
21:49
super super faithful to Vanessa.
21:52
You know. Then I was getting into another relationship
21:55
and being committed and it was easy.
21:57
I mean, honestly, it was. It was easy
22:00
for me until
22:02
it wasn't until
22:05
it wasn't. I mean, honestly, three were together
22:07
for three years and
22:11
we weren't engaged. Yep,
22:14
blissful, wonderful.
22:17
We weren't engaged. So
22:19
I bought her jewelry all the time, and
22:22
I would always consult my mom because
22:25
she's good with jewelry and I'm good with jewelry as well.
22:27
But I just wanted to, you know, always throw
22:29
her things. What about this for Aaron? And it
22:32
was around Christmas time and I was getting her a Christmas
22:34
gift and I brought these rings and necklaces
22:37
and I'm like, what do you think about this? This and that? And
22:39
my Mom's like, what are you doing? You
22:41
know, why are you Why don't you just
22:44
give her a ring ring? I'm like, you mean
22:46
a fucking ring ring, like an engagement
22:49
ring. And I was scared. Marriage
22:51
scared me, honestly. And I think I
22:53
could probably speak for Aaron saying that she
22:55
you never thought that we were really going to
22:57
get married. I didn't.
22:59
I mean, I think I was the
23:02
opposite. I wanted a wedding.
23:04
I wanted my dad to walk me down the aisle. I'm
23:06
definitely more traditional, but
23:10
I also felt like I
23:12
know, you know from my parents
23:15
and you know their upbringing. My parents are high
23:17
school sweethearts, by the way. But you
23:20
know, when you find somebody, no matter
23:22
what it is, whether it kind of goes against
23:24
maybe your religious you
23:26
know, beliefs or you
23:28
know, parents or whatever it
23:31
might be, it's hard enough to find
23:33
somebody. So I was
23:35
more excited just to have a life partner.
23:37
And the and the truth is, my dad used to always
23:39
say this, you know, it isn't
23:41
about the marriage. It's about who this person
23:43
will be as a father if you have children.
23:46
So I think for me, I was like, oh,
23:49
that's going to be off the charts, like no
23:52
question. And I just let go
23:54
a little bit of the idea because I knew you weren't
23:56
into it. You had your parents,
23:59
you know that. And I said, Okay, it
24:02
isn't about like the certificate
24:04
of marriage and legally being bound, but
24:06
I did want to have some sort of like wedding
24:08
or party or fun part like yeah,
24:11
And I was just sort of not. I
24:13
saw Kurt and Mom, and I
24:15
saw that work. And then I looked
24:17
at my dad and mom who were married, and I
24:19
looked at that and I saw that didn't work. It was
24:21
pretty basic, right, So my
24:24
philosophy was, why get married, what's
24:27
the point really, Let's just be together
24:29
and be in love and have a family and all that. Yeah,
24:32
and I believed
24:34
that. I think in the beginning I did think
24:36
it was probably just a little bit of an excuse.
24:38
I was kind of like and I would
24:40
say, look, here's my parents been
24:42
married since like, you know, high
24:45
school. Sweetheart's amazing marriage,
24:47
still happy, laughing, having fun. So
24:49
that was my model, so, you
24:51
know, yeah, I believed in that, right.
24:54
And her dad is just one of the great
24:56
human beings to ever walk on this earth.
24:58
I mean, it is true, he's not in
25:01
so many different ways. And Aaron's
25:04
childhood so it was my mom
25:06
and my mom is one of the grades too,
25:09
But in her childhood
25:11
was like so idyllic. It
25:14
was fairytale esque, you
25:17
know, small town in Long Meadow, ride
25:19
your bike to school. I mean, it was out of a
25:21
movie. Parents are still
25:27
I'm just saying. I'm just talking about sort of your
25:29
expectations of man when when
25:31
one is sort of having getting
25:34
married or falling in love, and
25:36
you know, you're you're looking at your father figure
25:38
in a sense, and you have to live up to
25:40
who your who your dad is,
25:43
you know what I mean? And there's no way
25:45
I could do that, but
25:48
but you did have like if I
25:50
was thinking about, you know, my dad,
25:52
there is that, you know, kind of
25:54
light up the room. Everybody's drawn to
25:57
him, charming,
26:00
you know, the best like dad,
26:02
father figure, like you had a lot of those.
26:04
Yes, so you might not be as good of a
26:06
golfer as my dad, but yeah.
26:10
But anyway, so we're there. I got
26:12
the rings and my mom is like, what are you doing?
26:14
I say, Mom, I don't know what do you what are you nuts?
26:17
Like I'm scared, And my mom basically
26:19
said, she goes, look, this is this ring
26:21
that you were going to get her. Doesn't mean you have
26:23
to get married right away. It's a token.
26:26
It's it's it's saying something. And
26:28
she said, do you want to be with her for the rest of your life?
26:30
And I said I do, yeah,
26:32
Well, then get her something just to show her that
26:35
you can wait. And it sort
26:37
of put me at ease a little bit. So I
26:39
said, okay, fuck, here we go and
26:42
I bought her a ring and
26:45
Neil Lane I picked it out myself, and
26:48
I had whole plan. I bought my first house.
26:50
We were moving into the house. You
26:53
know, it's kind of a funny,
26:55
cute story. There's boxes everywhere, sort
26:57
of movie style, and we
27:00
it's raining, and I have this whole
27:02
plan. I've got the ring, I've
27:04
rehearsed a little bit of a speech, you
27:07
know, just
27:09
to set it a little bit. We did have this
27:11
thing that we would say to each other, our
27:13
a little comment which was like guess how much I love
27:16
you? From the children's book
27:18
with the bunnies and the whole thing. And
27:20
then you know,
27:22
it would be like, do you know how much I love you? And
27:24
I would always say coyly like no, you
27:27
know, like and then if he would tell me, it's like a cute
27:29
little thing. Sometimes.
27:31
Yeah, So I had a whole I
27:34
have to sell this bog it's so good.
27:36
So we're moving into this house. It's
27:39
so exciting. It's a cute little Spanish house
27:41
in West Hollywood. And we're
27:43
going through undoing boxes and my friend
27:46
Jackie has come over and she's there
27:48
helping, and she looks
27:50
up on the fireplace and she's like, what
27:53
is this? And up on the fireplace
27:55
Oliver has found a box of like, say,
27:57
memorabilia or whatever, it is a photos
28:00
and he's taking out like
28:02
eight pictures of me and my ex cibon
28:05
now that everybody knows, but and
28:08
put them up on the mantle. So it's like us
28:10
in Jamaica, like us cuddling, kissing,
28:13
like you know, on the beach whatever, all
28:15
up on the thing. And I come out. I'm like hysterically
28:18
laughing, and that's just like who
28:21
he is, because this is actually the night that he's going
28:23
to propose. If I don't know this yet. So
28:26
we had like a great night. You know,
28:28
Jackie was there, and you told
28:31
Jackie you were going to do it. Remember, So
28:33
I'm in another room and you're looking at Jackie
28:35
and you like show her the ring. She like burst into tears
28:38
and then she's like I have to leave because I'm not going to
28:40
be able to like see Aaron. And
28:43
he was like, oh okay, but she was so excited.
28:45
So I come out of the room and she's just smiling at me like
28:48
Hi, like a totally
28:50
awkward, like weird, like she could barely keep
28:52
it in. Of course, I had no clue what she was talking about. She's like,
28:54
I'm gonna go. I was like, okay, you know,
28:56
I love you. Anyways, we crawl
28:58
into bed. It's late planned. I
29:00
planned. I planned it, so I was gonna I
29:02
wrote her a note. I was going
29:04
to make her cry beautiful and you
29:06
know, the love letter, just saying,
29:09
you know, just I'm so happy to be moving into this
29:11
house with you, like starting starting her
29:13
life together and
29:15
how special you are to me and all the
29:18
stuff, and boom, okay, cue
29:20
the tears. Great. And then I
29:22
was going to like just hold her and look at her, and it's
29:25
going to say do you know how much I love you? And
29:27
like we do, and she's supposed to coily, acutely
29:29
say no. And then I'm supposed
29:32
to have the ring in my pillow case. I'm gonna
29:34
pull a ring out and then say well, this is how much I
29:36
love you or something like that. This is
29:38
well, this is how much you know. Boom
29:41
I had it had it was going to go to plan.
29:44
Wasn't too It wasn't too difficult. Read
29:46
the letter, crying, check, you
29:49
know, hug Great. Then I go
29:51
to the port where I'm like, do you know do
29:53
you know how much I love you? And
29:55
she goes yes, and
29:59
I'm like, because you had just written
30:01
me this love letter it's amazing. I don't
30:03
know, I'm emotional. No, it was supposed
30:05
to prompt me to say this is how much
30:07
pull the fucking ring out and then boom her off to
30:09
the races. But she
30:11
says yes, so I'm like,
30:14
oh, she were like she's donne and then I
30:16
was like, just kissing you and
30:20
yes, and I was like, oh,
30:23
I know, I love you the
30:25
fuck and I've got the ring
30:27
behind me. And then she saves
30:30
me by saying not
30:32
she doesn't, no, there's a ring, but she goes,
30:34
this is the best night ever. And
30:37
then and then I pull out
30:39
the ring and I say, well, here's something to
30:41
make it even better yep, and
30:45
then boom, amazing. So I
30:47
improved. I recovered and
30:49
scene, and so I also had a fucking
30:51
video camera recording
30:54
all of this. As filming her.
30:56
As she's looking at the ring, she goes, shut the fuck.
30:58
Oh opens it up, you know, closes it. Yeah,
31:00
Because I was so in shock because obviously
31:03
I had been prepping my family, who was like, you've
31:05
been dating this guy for three years, like, is he gonna
31:07
put a ring on your finger? And I had to
31:09
tell everybody it was like, no, he's not, and
31:11
everyone's gonna have to deal with that, Like my East Coast
31:14
traditional family is going to have to accept that,
31:16
Like we're going to be together, we're probably gonna
31:18
have kids, but like there's not going to be
31:20
a wedding. Yeah, And speaking of East Coast traditional,
31:22
one of the first questions she asked me, I'm
31:25
literally in tears so
31:27
excited, and like thirty seconds
31:29
after I realized what's going on, I'm like, oh my god,
31:31
I'm like, what did my dad say? Like crying,
31:34
all emotional. He goes straight faced, like ghost
31:37
and he's like, uh, it's
31:40
silent. I'm like, wait a minute. You didn't ask
31:42
my dad or call my dad.
31:45
And he's like no, and he's like, didn't
31:47
even cross my mind, Like it wasn't even
31:50
it wasn't even a thought in my
31:52
mind, non traditional versus tradition.
31:56
I did not. I did not, So what
31:58
did we do? She did to call
32:00
my dad on the East Coast and my mom.
32:03
It was like it was like three in the morning. Three in the morning
32:05
for them, so they're going to wake up with like a heart attack phone
32:07
call. But Oliver did set it up. He called
32:10
right. I called her dad and I said Brooks.
32:13
He pals like I got some news. I got something
32:15
to tell you, and he goes, what
32:17
is it? And I take a beat
32:20
and I'm like, Aaron's
32:22
pregnant. And
32:25
there's a long pause and said thing
32:28
and I'm like, ah, I'm just kidding. I just
32:30
proposed. She said yes, and he's
32:32
like, oh fuck, man, fuck, what
32:34
are you doing, buddy? And then yeah,
32:36
you know, it was actually smart because you
32:39
know, you hit him with the extreme
32:41
and then you pull back with the joke, and
32:43
then the fact that I didn't tell him
32:46
or ask him that goes away. Yeah,
32:48
it was like just relieve. Yeah, it's just really
32:51
And but then we did end up having
32:53
an amazing wedding. We
32:56
did. But but but even even after that, which threw
32:58
me for a loop, was the next
33:00
fucking morning, Jackie and all your
33:02
friends all of a sudden show up at like seven
33:04
point thirty with baskets
33:07
of already pre made sweatshirts,
33:09
and like missus hudds. I'm
33:11
like, when the fuck did they get
33:13
this shit done? I mean it was a few days, and yeah,
33:15
it was like crazy, like a scene out of a movie.
33:19
Honestly, I remember exactly. I
33:21
felt overwhelmed and I left
33:23
the house. I went to Dukes. I
33:25
remember, I went to Duke's and I had a chili cheese
33:27
homelet by myself. I remember,
33:30
and I remember being like, what the fuck are you guys
33:32
doing? Like what couldn't you wait till like Ollie
33:34
wasn't here to come in with like baskets
33:36
of like bride shit. And it was just
33:39
it was it was exciting. It was the girly, the
33:42
girly stuff. And then from that moment on
33:44
the panic set in and then everything was
33:46
good. We got married, went downhill,
33:49
we got married and had kids
33:51
and yeah, everything was good. Yeah,
33:54
so should we break and go to commercial folks
33:56
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34:00
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34:02
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34:04
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34:06
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the story.
37:40
There's a lot of lessons in this story. We
37:42
won't get too detailed, but basically,
37:46
I just went I just took a downward spiral.
37:48
I mean, I don't know what it was. Three years. I
37:51
was perfectly good, and then after the
37:53
engagement, something happened and
37:55
I started to drink a little bit more and I
37:58
just became detached and
38:00
went into party mode and
38:02
of into major avoidance
38:04
of some kind. And I don't know if this was
38:07
triggered by well, it probably was
38:09
triggered by the bridle
38:12
baskets, the bridle baskets, just the
38:15
finality, I guess, of
38:17
what it means to be married,
38:21
maybe dealing with my parents
38:23
and their divorce. And I don't know, but I
38:26
just so you were a baby. Don't forget you
38:28
were like twenty twenty
38:31
eight when
38:33
we got engaged. No, yeah,
38:35
twenty seven, twenty seven or twenty
38:38
eight, I mean you know you use yeah.
38:40
I mean I had experienced a
38:42
ton of life. I had never
38:44
lived alone, I lived with a roommate or whatever.
38:46
Anyway, these are all bullshit excuses. But
38:49
I just tumbled into
38:51
darkness, and I was unfaithful,
38:54
and I was out on the
38:56
scene and partying and doing
38:58
my thing, and of
39:01
course me thinking I had,
39:03
you know, found my like night and shining
39:06
armor, whatever the saying is,
39:10
who had had unfaithful orphans in the past
39:12
and kind of put all way up on this pedestal
39:15
due to his dad and
39:17
his childhood and never wanted to do that and all that kind
39:19
of stuff. When I look
39:22
back, of course, there were red flags
39:24
and I saw it happening, but I was so of
39:27
course naive is going to be
39:30
the obvious word that comes, you
39:32
know, to mind, and
39:34
I'll take that. But I think I also
39:38
had a better belief
39:40
in you and just I
39:43
was not a jealous person. And when I say
39:45
that, like, I truly mean I was
39:47
not jealous of him going out. I
39:49
wasn't jealous of the girls throwing themselves
39:52
at him. I literally almost liked
39:55
it. I felt like it was a compliment,
39:57
right, that all these girls liked him and that he
39:59
was hot. I always felt like, well,
40:01
I know he's not going to cross the line.
40:03
He's still going to come home with me. And I fell
40:05
in love with you because you were flirt and
40:08
charming and all of that stuff. I loved about
40:10
you. I wasn't threatened
40:12
by it. I
40:15
had the confidence in me, you know, all
40:17
that kind of stuff. And you
40:19
know, looking back, of course, now there's a million
40:22
red flags that I either just didn't
40:24
choose to see or want to see or want to believe.
40:27
Yeah, but I was also ever
40:29
catch you. There was nothing that I could
40:32
no, there was no getting caught. And we'll get into that in
40:34
a second. But for me, just to talk about my personal
40:36
state of being, I was there
40:40
was a I called it like a after
40:43
therapy and going through all of this, I called it like
40:45
a lowercase addiction, like a lowercase
40:47
a addiction in a sense, because
40:50
I would come home and I would shower, and
40:52
I would cry in the shower, and I would
40:54
have shame, deep shame. But then
40:56
I'd you know, mix a drink and get
40:59
right back out there, you know what I mean. So there
41:01
was a lot that I was masking, you
41:03
know, a lot of psychology that I was
41:05
had yet to come up. I mean, I
41:08
also looked at I think a lot of it, you
41:10
know at the time was I
41:12
knew you had insecurities,
41:15
right, Like I knew that you needed
41:17
kind of your ego to be fed a little
41:19
bit. And I but I didn't mind that.
41:22
I just didn't realize how deep down
41:25
it was going and you
41:27
know, you going out and partying and staying out
41:30
late. You know, I was like, all right,
41:32
like you know, it just it just wasn't
41:34
a thought to me. But I did start to sense
41:36
like, okay, if I'm not enough,
41:38
and like, you know, you need other women
41:41
to you know, because look, we all want to go out
41:43
or be wherever we are and you know, feel
41:45
like we're attractive
41:48
or that I mean it feels
41:50
good. I mean I'm just being one hundred percent honest
41:52
and you know, humble. You still,
41:54
even if you're in a relationship, whether you're dating
41:57
or married or you still you
41:59
know, want to know that you could you
42:03
know. I guess my feeling was like, hey, if
42:05
I went out to borrow, I knew I could still get
42:08
you know, a guy, or I could go home with
42:10
someone like That's what I would have That's
42:12
where I would have drawn my line on my confidence
42:14
or my ego. It's like, all right, I still got it, and
42:17
I think yours started there, and
42:19
it just kind of went
42:21
down into a darker spiral
42:24
of needing to knowing that you
42:26
could get the girl, then knowing that you could
42:29
and you kind of want to or where it just it
42:31
just you know, yeah, no, I know,
42:33
it was just it was a bad spot. And it was
42:36
about two years of just cycling
42:38
spiraling down into this hole. And
42:41
then we got married, which
42:43
was an incredible fucking wedding. I mean,
42:45
one of the all time great weddings,
42:48
honestly. I mean it was about ninety
42:50
people, and
42:53
I was such a fucking dick. Oh my god, the dick.
42:55
But I don't know if I would have changed anything.
42:57
So Aaron has her amazing friends from college
43:00
who I love, a home and home and everything
43:02
else, right, and I've got my family, and
43:04
I wanted to make it small, like intimacy
43:07
matters to me when I'm speaking, you know,
43:09
words from my heart. I especially
43:12
like having a wedding when you didn't want to have a wedding,
43:14
so right, I didn't want anyone there who
43:16
I didn't know, So no, you
43:18
literally you said to me, I don't want to have to be introduced
43:21
to anybody at my own wedding, yes, and
43:23
with your parents and you know all this stuff.
43:26
You know, it made sense and it was, oh,
43:29
I got people are gonna hate me for this, I know, but
43:31
but but it was like, here's the thing.
43:33
What happens is, you know, if I have one friend
43:35
and the husband and then but it's a group of friends
43:37
from my right so it's a group of friends. It's
43:40
fine. It all turned out amazing. It was small
43:42
and intimate. Few people might have not been
43:45
happy, but like, right, because well, no,
43:47
I know, but I didn't tell the thing like
43:50
I was like, your girlfriends
43:52
from college, I love it, but their husbands
43:54
or boyfriends who I don't know. I didn't
43:57
know at the time. I didn't know at the time. Right now I
43:59
do didn't know. I was like, I don't really want
44:01
them to be at my wedding. Well,
44:03
we had to cut numbers, is really what was happening
44:06
because where we were and space
44:08
and so who ended up getting cut was people
44:10
that Oliver didn't know. He is a very small family.
44:13
I know everybody and his family, and
44:15
it was I had to say to my parents too, you
44:17
can't have like the bigger, wider
44:20
group of friends. We had all family,
44:22
a few close friends
44:24
that are basically like but all the friends, all
44:26
the husbands came to Cobo, but
44:28
they just didn't come to the wedding. There
44:31
were other hotels and my friends that
44:33
have you know, normal jobs, and they aren't
44:35
in the entertainment business. Was like, we're taking a fucking
44:37
vacation to come like great, like go,
44:39
I mean terrible. I apologized
44:42
all you boys out there, that's
44:44
my best friend, my friends, you know who wanted
44:46
that were single, just you know. I also said, if you're
44:48
single, do not bring a date. There were no
44:50
dates. You had to like literally
44:52
be like married and we had to know your partner. Did
44:54
that happen because I remember Tray you know. Anyway,
44:58
it was an incredible wedding, incredible
45:00
speeches. Aaron's brother like brought
45:02
the house down, My brother, why I brought the house
45:04
down? It was just beautiful. We partied
45:07
till five in the morning. It was so much fun.
45:10
It was just one of those
45:12
moments, just a really really fun wedding.
45:14
And then I will say this, So that was
45:17
June sixth, ninth,
45:21
June ninth, So from June ninth
45:23
on I will say this though too, in our in our
45:25
vows, I
45:28
didn't cry and you
45:31
were weeping and
45:33
a mess, and I think it was a lot of your guilt and shame
45:35
and just kind of like, holy shit,
45:38
I've been a fucking horrible person. Yeah,
45:41
I was an angel and perfect. And then
45:45
so we spent my birthday
45:47
in Colorado and won't get in, but we
45:49
went on our honeymoon. Honeymoon, I
45:52
mean, it was just beautiful. And by the way, you
45:54
know, I was good from that point on. Once
45:56
marriage happened, I was good. And
45:59
then my birthday comes around and
46:02
we're driving back from Vegas and
46:05
uh, basically
46:08
we're at dinner. Well you got
46:10
to call. I know
46:13
all the details. We don't have so much time, okay,
46:15
okay, anyways, long story short, Yeah,
46:17
there's so much time. We can do a
46:19
part two if in the comment section they
46:22
want to hear more and more and more. But let me just say it really
46:24
quickly. We tried to get pregnant that summer on the honeymoon.
46:26
I had gone off the pill. That was kind of our goal
46:28
right away, and it didn't happen.
46:30
And so we were driving home
46:33
from Colorado to La we stopped
46:35
in Vegas, had a great night.
46:37
We're sitting at dinner and I was like, god, I got my period
46:40
or whatever, and you know, I was I was bombed,
46:42
but I was like whatever, it's a few months. And
46:44
you were like ghost
46:46
white, really like awkward
46:49
and you know, just sad, and I'm thinking, oh
46:51
my god, like he really wants a kid. And
46:53
I was like it's not going to be okay, babe, like it's going to happen,
46:57
and you were just like weird and
46:59
distant. Is everything okay? And then
47:01
you just were like I'm not the
47:03
man you think I am. And
47:07
you started with the saying You're like I gotta go, we
47:09
gotta leave dinner. And I was like, holy
47:11
fucking shit, he's going to break up with me, like
47:14
didn't want to get married. Now he's freaking out
47:17
cold feet. It's over. And
47:19
we have this like silent, like walk
47:21
of silence back to the hotel room
47:24
that now looks like the shining hallway
47:26
in my memory. And
47:28
we go back to the hotel room and you're like, I've
47:31
been unfaithful and I don't want to bring a child
47:34
into the world like this, and I'm relieved that
47:36
you're not pregnant. Because
47:39
there's just there's too much darkness and
47:41
I need to get this off my chest. And
47:44
basically, if you will ever
47:47
forgive me, you know, well,
47:50
I mean, yeah, I didn't.
47:52
Yeah. I had to tell her. I had to tell I
47:55
had to tell her. We had started this life,
47:57
we had gotten married and
48:00
and we were gonna have kids. And I couldn't
48:02
do it. I just I
48:04
couldn't do it. I couldn't
48:07
continue on living
48:10
in this crazy world, living in
48:12
my mind, living this lie. And
48:14
so I told her. I didn't get caught.
48:17
I told her. I told her everything. And
48:21
I was a mess. Oh. I was threw
48:23
up all the wine. I was like, yeah, Aaron
48:26
is ice fucking cold, sitting
48:28
on the couch, which was worse just looking
48:30
at me, watching me just
48:33
go through it, throwing up, puking.
48:35
I've ruined everything. If
48:38
it was a movie, you know, and
48:40
we're doing a scene, that director would cut and
48:43
be like, all right, Oliver, you're way over the
48:45
top. You got to bring it down
48:47
because you were way over the time. I was out
48:49
of my mind. Well, I was in I
48:52
think a state of shock. I was also angry. My
48:54
whole thing I had always said, and I said this to every
48:57
relationship I was ever in. You
48:59
know, we're human. It's fucking
49:02
you know, not easy no matter how in love
49:04
you are, everybody makes mistakes.
49:06
Like I get it, I get attraction, I got all that
49:08
kind of shit. But I was like, if
49:11
something ever happens, just tell
49:13
me so I don't hear it from someone
49:16
else. And I would do the same because
49:18
I feel like there's something to be said. When
49:21
you come and say
49:23
to the person I've done this, it's
49:27
different than a rumor, is different than other
49:29
people knowing. It's also saying I want you
49:31
to know from me, which in my mind,
49:34
getting caught means
49:36
you weren't done doing it, and
49:40
you know then you've got to pay the consequences and you're going
49:42
to have to be done. But when you're
49:44
coming forward, you're basically saying
49:46
I'm done, I don't want to do this anymore. I want you to know.
49:49
So that was always my like golden rule, and
49:52
I just didn't think it was going to actually happen.
49:55
And it was crazy. I
49:57
mean I remember in that hotel room,
49:59
I was like I turned into a little child. Remember,
50:01
I was like, Hey, I want to call my mom my, Mommy.
50:03
I was like I need my mommy, even though I
50:06
was the one who did all the horrible things,
50:08
like I need I needed love. I needed
50:10
someone to like hold me, you know what I mean.
50:12
It was selfish, but still I was
50:14
like I was just spinning and
50:16
like, oh my god. I just remember thinking
50:19
like I got fucking played
50:21
and I had no idea so separate
50:24
from jealousy or
50:26
the questions, like right away, in my
50:28
mind, I was just like, oh my
50:31
fucking god, like you played
50:33
me like I thought, you know, you
50:36
wouldn't do this or whatever, and it was I was so angry
50:39
and I literally said to you, you're
50:41
going to call my dad and tell them why we're getting
50:43
divorced after three months of marriage. Yeah,
50:46
it was then no, but
50:48
I just in my mind, I was like, so, we
50:50
we were driving home a rental
50:52
car. I left the car in Vegas because I couldn't
50:54
drive. We get up the next morning and I get a car to
50:57
take us because I was just in no shape. And
50:59
that car ride from LA to from Vegas
51:01
to LA was really crazy, and you
51:04
know, I was just crying and it was silent,
51:06
and I was just going through it and you
51:09
know, just thinking about
51:11
how I've just destroyed one of the great things
51:13
in my life. And
51:17
and then it happened, and for me, it
51:19
was the moment that I knew that things might be okay
51:22
because Aaron took my head
51:25
and she put it on her lap, and
51:27
then she just started stroking my hair because
51:30
she knew the kind of pain that I was
51:32
in and that's the kind of woman she is,
51:35
by the way, and that and that moment,
51:37
I was like, Okay, you know, I think we might
51:40
have a we might have a chance. And
51:43
then the work started home.
51:47
I will say, just for that moment in the car,
51:49
it's like, you know, I'm
51:53
very I
51:55
don't know, I'm just realistic and
51:58
like I know that there are women that would,
52:00
you know, never look back, and I respect
52:03
that. I think for me, the
52:06
biggest thing is like, you're madly in
52:08
love with someone. We were literally
52:10
on a high of trying to make a baby and coming off
52:13
of our honeymoon, and you don't
52:15
all of a sudden fall out of
52:17
love. I mean I didn't anyway,
52:19
So I was like, I still love this person.
52:21
I am broken hearted, angry,
52:25
you know. I mean, there was just so many things swirling,
52:28
but I knew that
52:31
the reality of men
52:34
and women and monogamy. I'm
52:37
just very realistic, I guess,
52:39
and I you know, I
52:41
thought it was over. I mean, I knew in
52:43
my mind it's really really, really
52:45
hard to come back from uh,
52:49
you know, infidelity and earn
52:51
trust back. And I, you know, I was more
52:53
sad at that point. I think
52:55
I was angry and I was sad, and I just thought
52:58
we had something really fun and good and
53:00
he just couldn't he couldn't
53:02
do it, and that was like devastating,
53:06
right, But then you go, then you go deeper,
53:09
you know what I mean. And that's where you
53:11
I'll always say whenever I write you letters,
53:14
because I write her letters at least once a year,
53:16
handwritten letters. She's the most
53:18
evolved woman that I know, you
53:21
know, and this is one of the reasons why.
53:23
I mean, she's looking at things in a
53:25
bigger picture. Yes, she can be
53:27
reactionary. Why shouldn't she be, you
53:30
know. But when we got home, we
53:32
moved out, you know, we had our home,
53:34
but she moved in with a friend, Jackie. I
53:37
moved in with my parents. She didn't
53:39
want to be in that house, you know. Well,
53:41
there were so many questions when it started happening,
53:43
because it's not like that night you told
53:46
me everything that went on in those couple of years. It was like
53:48
you just were generalizing. Well, then we got
53:50
into therapy. I mean, we got in the therapy
53:52
and things came out because basically what I
53:54
thought was, you know, our
53:57
parents got involved, everyone was very
53:59
supportive around us. I knew,
54:01
you know this person,
54:04
you know, basically like you know, it came
54:06
down to this. Your mom looked at me and said, please
54:09
do not give up on him. If you can give
54:11
it a try in therapy to
54:13
work through something like this, please do it,
54:16
because he is going to
54:18
change for himself, whether
54:20
it's for you or not. And then she's
54:22
like, and then there's going to be someone else in her lives. And
54:24
I don't want anybody else in our lives.
54:27
I want you to be my daughter in law.
54:29
And I really think, well,
54:31
you know, should give it. You know, you
54:33
saw this as an act, you know, not
54:36
as a whole of you of who
54:38
I am. You know, I'm not a
54:40
bad, nefarious, disgusting, horrible
54:43
human being at the core. You know, this
54:45
was symptomatic of a lot of things
54:48
in my life. And it takes someone evolved like
54:50
you and someone like my mom who would
54:52
help you to understand that take
54:55
the journey, you know. And I think honestly
54:57
that's the problem, not just in relationships,
54:59
but not just in love relationships, but relationships
55:02
in general. We are so quick to throw
55:04
everything away now instead of really
55:06
take a thirty thousand foot view, look
55:09
at the whole person, and get
55:11
into the souls, get into the emotions,
55:13
get into a little bit of the psychology of who these
55:15
people are, and maybe understand
55:18
to then grow with or
55:20
at least give it an attempt, and then if
55:23
you can't, okay, right. But
55:25
I think also at that moment in time,
55:27
those couple weeks where I was still in shock
55:29
and you know, kind of just devastate
55:31
it was over. We didn't have kids, okay,
55:34
we didn't have a lot of years of marriage under
55:36
our belt. It was different. It was still very
55:39
fresh and very fun. And I mean,
55:42
you know, a part of it was we
55:44
were not bad, okay, so meaning
55:46
like we were still having fun together. We were
55:49
still having sex all the time. We were you
55:51
know, you had your own thing. It wasn't
55:53
like our relationship had deteriorated
55:56
or you know, we had grown
55:58
apart. I mean, those factors were
56:00
important. And then I think for me,
56:03
I said to you at that point in time, and
56:06
I guess this speaks to kind of being
56:08
evolved, And I said,
56:11
this is your opportunity to
56:13
go, because I
56:16
will love you for that decision as well,
56:18
meaning do not stay because
56:21
you feel guilty or like you should or
56:23
you don't want to lose me, like lose
56:26
me, like you
56:28
know what I'm saying. I remember sitting in Jen's office
56:30
and just saying, like I will still respect
56:32
you, Like, do not do this because you're scared to
56:34
lose me. Don't do this because like you think it's the
56:37
right thing, and your parents and my parents and everyone's
56:39
involved, Like it's okay
56:42
if you need to go, Like I understand
56:44
that, Like we're still young. You're
56:47
young, Like you know you've been so
56:49
honest and so eager to fix
56:51
this, but like, just make sure it's about fixing
56:54
you and not like saving
56:56
our relationship. And then
56:58
we had a week without each
57:00
other because it was just therapy, and I you
57:02
know, I think I really did think you
57:05
were going to do that, and I
57:08
thought maybe our story will reconnect one
57:10
day because I did believe
57:12
in us. But I knew you were young. I knew there was
57:14
so much that you still
57:16
needed to personally deal with from
57:19
your childhood and your father. I need all
57:21
of your ego and self worth and
57:23
it just it was a big undertaking.
57:26
But you were very, very adamant about doing it
57:28
together, and
57:32
so we started the journey of therapy,
57:34
which was great. Corse
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58:00
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58:10
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58:12
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59:03
here's how fucked up I was. My
59:05
therapist didn't even know what was
59:07
going on. Like I had my therapist,
59:09
but I wouldn't even tell him through these two years
59:12
what I was going through because that's I was so ashamed
59:14
of it. I was like, I don't want to. I was just it was horrible.
59:17
But the best was when Aaron made me call her dad,
59:21
you know, because he's old school. You know.
59:23
I was like, Brooks, you know, here's what happened,
59:25
and I told her everything. He is, what do you
59:27
mean? He goes, you told her you
59:29
didn't get caught, and I'm like, no,
59:32
I told her because I couldn't live with this,
59:34
and he goes, you weren't married when
59:36
he did any this? He said no, He's
59:38
like all right, he sounds
59:41
good to me. I'm like Jesus,
59:44
I mean, yeah, it's a little exaggeration, I
59:46
mean a little bit, but he was definitely. What he
59:49
said to me was, you know,
59:51
you guys have something special. I have men,
59:53
grown men that wouldn't have enough
59:56
courage, you know, or respect to
59:58
do what he did. You were not married
1:00:01
at the time, nothing went on in your own home. These
1:00:03
were isolated incidents. It wasn't a full
1:00:05
blown love affair of you
1:00:07
know, with one person. This was he
1:00:10
really broke it down and it is generational.
1:00:12
And you know, my dad was like, I'll support you whatever
1:00:14
you do. But you know, we
1:00:16
were there at your wedding and you know,
1:00:18
if you guys are going to give it a try, we support
1:00:21
that. And you know, and
1:00:23
I had them as such a model of
1:00:26
you know, they're just the best, and they're
1:00:28
and they're opposites, they're not perfect, but they
1:00:30
work and you know, they've been together
1:00:33
for one hundred and fifty years and
1:00:35
they've seen a lot and I've seen
1:00:37
it through their eyes of relationships and anyways,
1:00:41
I went in it with a very like
1:00:44
bleak outlook. I thought, it's
1:00:47
worth it. We're married. I love this
1:00:49
person. I'm going to try, but I don't think
1:00:51
it's going to work. And
1:00:53
I just didn't have my hopes up. I think, you know, infidelity
1:00:56
is really hard. I think trust. I said to you, I go,
1:00:58
look, you're going to probably do all this amazing work.
1:01:01
You might become the most honest, you
1:01:04
know, wonderful person
1:01:06
and partner. And I said, and I will probably
1:01:08
deteriorate and become jealous and insecure.
1:01:10
I don't want to be checking your phones
1:01:12
and not trusting you. It's an ugly,
1:01:15
dark place and it is it's
1:01:17
poison. And I didn't I've had
1:01:20
that feeling before. I didn't want that, and
1:01:22
I didn't want that to be the reason
1:01:24
we broke up in a few years because
1:01:27
I couldn't handle it and I
1:01:29
became insecure and all of those ugly
1:01:31
things that it can bring out. I didn't
1:01:33
want. That's not who I am. I've
1:01:36
done, you know, and been there, and it just is
1:01:39
not a police I wanted
1:01:41
to be. And so, you
1:01:43
know, we had a lot of stuff.
1:01:45
I mean, I remember sitting with our therapist and I
1:01:48
said, you don't have to do it right
1:01:50
this second, but we're going to meet here. Whatever
1:01:52
it was a few days later and you're going to tell me
1:01:55
every single detail
1:01:57
and thing that went on, and
1:01:59
the you know, Oliver's looking at me like a fucking deer
1:02:01
in headlights, and my therapist is like, who whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa.
1:02:03
I don't think this is a good idea. And
1:02:05
I looked at my therapist and I said, it's not your relationship,
1:02:09
it's mine. And I looked at Allie and I said, if you're
1:02:11
not up for it, I understand, but if
1:02:13
we are going to move forward, that's
1:02:15
what I need to know. For me, it
1:02:17
was who knew? And all these
1:02:19
people thought that I didn't fucking know, And that was
1:02:22
my therapy that I needed to work on,
1:02:24
right because the thing
1:02:27
therapist, I was ashamed. I was like, he knew,
1:02:30
and they're walking around and then these fucking
1:02:32
horrors, you know, we're walking around like, oh,
1:02:35
she has no idea, But I was with her person.
1:02:37
I mean all of that shit. That was
1:02:39
my issue and my problem, which of course
1:02:42
is not everybody is. And but for me
1:02:44
it was like, I don't want to find something else
1:02:47
out five years down the road and we bump
1:02:49
into somebody or something comes up.
1:02:52
I was all about, if we're doing this. We're
1:02:54
a team. Now. I want to know everything. I
1:02:58
want you to call all the
1:03:00
people and let them know that I know. And
1:03:04
I'm saying all I mean, it wasn't, you know, like a list
1:03:06
of twenty, but it was definitely a handful. And
1:03:10
I had a few, you know, kind of ultimatums
1:03:13
and I was like, if you're not okay with it, I understand,
1:03:15
but moving forward, that's what I need. And then you came back a
1:03:17
week later and you were like, I'm ready, and
1:03:20
I said, okay, here we go. And he told me things
1:03:23
that I definitely would never ever
1:03:25
have found out probably for like three lifetimes.
1:03:28
And that was definitely like
1:03:30
what did I What did I do? But
1:03:34
it just it made me
1:03:36
feel like I knew. It gave me the confidence to
1:03:38
say, okay, he was willing to share this shit with me,
1:03:40
and we could put it
1:03:42
behind us. And then there were no secrets.
1:03:44
There was no me
1:03:47
wondering, you know, oh my god, am I gonna run
1:03:49
run end of one? Who's gonna
1:03:51
know? All that shit got cleared up and then we had
1:03:56
then it just kind of rebuilt and it really
1:03:58
was the free and the post of our
1:04:00
relationship. But but you know, yes,
1:04:03
And I want to be clear, like you know, the
1:04:05
Aaron is, I
1:04:08
did a lot of work. I did work for myself,
1:04:10
meaning like if I
1:04:13
don't want to be this kind of a human being with or without
1:04:15
her, that's it. But for
1:04:17
her again talking about the evolution, for
1:04:19
her to be able to
1:04:23
take me back to create this
1:04:25
life, I mean pretty
1:04:27
much, I don't know what I would be. I
1:04:30
don't know what i'd be doing. I don't even know what to be without you,
1:04:34
I really don't. I don't know what would be
1:04:36
what my life would look like. And it's all
1:04:39
We're always working, you know, we got to make I
1:04:41
want to make that clear. It doesn't just end.
1:04:43
You're always working. You know, this is
1:04:45
a major mark on our
1:04:47
relationship and it's only made it better
1:04:50
and honest. And you know, yeah,
1:04:52
I feel like we had an innocence before. Sure,
1:04:55
and then you know, but then then there's differenterations.
1:04:57
You know, down the road, boom, something else might happen,
1:04:59
nothing better, bad, But you know, you got to
1:05:01
check yourself and you were constantly
1:05:04
working, you know, not just from my standpoint,
1:05:07
but from each other's standpoint,
1:05:09
you know what I mean, Like, this is what
1:05:11
I'm feeling I don't like this, you don't
1:05:13
like that. I mean this,
1:05:15
this position, you know,
1:05:17
is by far the harder position
1:05:20
to be in. I mean I could literally
1:05:22
do my own podcast on it and
1:05:24
healing and forgiving, because for
1:05:27
years I forgave,
1:05:30
but I was still holding on to
1:05:32
so much and
1:05:34
I had this feeling of like, how
1:05:36
could you do that to me? How
1:05:39
could you? And it was those those things
1:05:41
that it took me a long time to get over. It was,
1:05:44
you know, a long time to kind of separate
1:05:46
that you could be in love with
1:05:48
me and have sex with another person
1:05:50
or whatever, because I
1:05:53
couldn't do that. So through therapy
1:05:55
you kind of realize just because it's
1:05:58
how you think or how you would work,
1:06:00
it doesn't mean that's the same for everybody
1:06:02
else. There is a difference
1:06:04
between love and sex. You know. I feel
1:06:06
like who was getting over
1:06:08
that kind of stuff? And then it was the forgiveness because I held
1:06:11
it over you for a long time too, even though
1:06:13
it was amazing I to have these like steps
1:06:15
backwards where there was anger and
1:06:17
resentment and darkness and
1:06:20
you know, and everything would be going great and then all of
1:06:22
a sudden you'd be like, oh what happened? Where did
1:06:24
you go? What? What's happening? And it was years
1:06:27
of getting through that and
1:06:29
rebuilding trust and you
1:06:31
know, it's it's definitely not
1:06:33
easy. I'm not going to say that, but and
1:06:36
every relationship is different, just I
1:06:39
mean all the details from your childhood
1:06:41
to your upbringings, to your past relationships
1:06:44
to where you are, you
1:06:46
know, all of it, your careers,
1:06:49
your things, I mean, all that kind of but
1:06:51
it was and I think I also learned
1:06:53
a lesson to understand
1:06:56
that, you know, just because the
1:06:58
fairy tale you know, worked for my
1:07:01
parents, and I felt very
1:07:03
deserving of it. You
1:07:06
know, it was this kind of all Rose's wedding
1:07:08
and we're gonna have babies and we're gonna be together forever.
1:07:11
It put a reality on the sense that like, no,
1:07:13
we're not, and you have to work at things
1:07:16
and always kind of you
1:07:19
know, show up and be
1:07:22
willing to evolve an ebb and
1:07:24
flow, and you know, you both have to
1:07:26
always want to be there. I remember this is going to sound
1:07:28
so corny, but I remember going to said,
1:07:31
you know, had some quote that her mom or dad
1:07:34
had always said to her, like you just
1:07:37
you both have to always want
1:07:39
to be there. Or work on it, or like you both
1:07:41
don't want to get divorced at the same time. That's
1:07:43
what it was. Something like that where even
1:07:46
if one of you is like ah, the
1:07:48
other one has to kind of pull for you or still
1:07:50
show you the reasons to still be there. And
1:07:55
and then I think we just got really
1:07:57
lucky with our chemistry because that's like something
1:08:00
I think is so much that. And then just you
1:08:02
know, just the constant work,
1:08:04
the constant communication, me trying
1:08:07
to come out of my shell. Well
1:08:09
we have yeah, you know, doing
1:08:11
my thing going to Hoffman, you
1:08:13
know, which I've talked about on this podcast, wanting
1:08:16
to be better, wanting to understand the root
1:08:18
of why I am the way I am and why
1:08:20
I do the things that I do. Yeah,
1:08:22
we still do, and you know, you do counseling together
1:08:25
and we did hardcore for a while. Now when
1:08:27
we need it, we'll get together and have a session. Because
1:08:30
we had about I would say ten years after
1:08:32
the wedding that was like amazing
1:08:34
and blissful. And then you know,
1:08:36
there was a moment in New orleansy
1:08:39
time that you kind of were starting to fall back
1:08:41
a little bit. There's no like
1:08:44
not even nothing close, not nothing even
1:08:46
physical close to what I was doing,
1:08:48
you know, one hundred years ago. But just you can
1:08:50
slip back, and you got to catch yourself, and you gotta
1:08:54
you know, I think here's the other thing. For me,
1:08:56
It was realizing, no matter
1:08:58
how much I love you,
1:09:00
you have to love yourself. And so I think
1:09:03
a lot of times those darker places,
1:09:05
whether it be in fidelity or drugs or
1:09:07
gambling or things or whatever,
1:09:10
these places that people go to are
1:09:13
so deeply rooted
1:09:15
and personal and have less to do with
1:09:17
the partner. And I'm
1:09:20
not saying some marriages it's like, hey, the partner could
1:09:22
suck. And a lot of people go and find
1:09:25
affection and love and you know,
1:09:27
things in other places. That's,
1:09:29
of course, you know, the classic reason
1:09:33
for it. They're finding something somewhere else. But
1:09:36
when things are good in a relationship
1:09:38
and your partner has
1:09:41
their own personal demons
1:09:43
or battles going on, it can sometimes have
1:09:46
nothing to do with you. And separating
1:09:48
that was really hard. I mean it
1:09:50
took a lot of work, and I think Elie's
1:09:52
like saved me, saved
1:09:55
our marriage. But keeping
1:09:57
that open line of communication and being vulnerable
1:10:00
it's the hardest thing to do. These days. But vulnerability,
1:10:04
it's just huge. I mean we can do a
1:10:06
whole podcast on that too. But
1:10:09
being willing to like talk about your fears and your
1:10:11
insecurities and your vulnerabilities and
1:10:14
it just is allowed, I think for a lot of growth.
1:10:18
I will say, and now we're here,
1:10:20
yeah, not perfect,
1:10:23
but perfectly together. That
1:10:27
sounds like Ellie with
1:10:30
three beautiful kids. Yep,
1:10:34
wow, so we went there. We
1:10:36
don't have to put it in. Yeah,
1:10:39
that's the where do we cut to? So
1:10:42
then we had our babies?
1:10:45
No, but you know, look there's a lot and
1:10:48
it's a lot. Maybe there's a part two
1:10:50
of this shit too where we actually talk about the
1:10:53
rest of our lives after that. I don't know.
1:10:55
You know it is our relationship
1:10:57
has never been better. We're twenty years
1:10:59
in. Sex is fucking
1:11:02
crazy. I mean, well, that's also vulnerability.
1:11:05
I think that's connection. That's like right,
1:11:07
going to places where the
1:11:10
intimacy level is
1:11:12
at places that it's never been. And it sounds
1:11:14
crazy because you hear those stories of I
1:11:17
used to think, like when people would say, oh, marriages
1:11:20
work, and I used to think, I don't want to be in a marriage
1:11:22
that's work. But you know what that
1:11:24
means like with the experience, and you
1:11:27
know, it's also just it's you
1:11:31
get to different places and there's just levels
1:11:33
of growth, I think. But you know, I
1:11:36
look at it too, and I think, you
1:11:38
know, back to people
1:11:41
or you know, I have friends or people we
1:11:43
meet and they're like, oh my god, you guys have the best
1:11:45
relationship or oh, that's I
1:11:48
want to be, you know, in a relationship like you
1:11:50
guys. And when I never shy
1:11:52
away from like pretending that it's perfect.
1:11:54
But right now it's pretty
1:11:57
fucking perfect, and it's pretty amazing
1:11:59
and so but always like we but
1:12:01
think about what I'm going through right now with my crazy
1:12:03
anxiety and shit, like I know, you know ya you
1:12:05
call it perfect, but you're having to deal with the psychopath,
1:12:08
you know what I mean, having panic attacks
1:12:11
and now I'm being disconnected and I'm trying to figure
1:12:13
out medication again. I mean, so yeah,
1:12:15
we're always trying to help out help each
1:12:17
other. Now. Aaron happens to be a fucking
1:12:19
angel sent down from heaven. She
1:12:22
doesn't have many things wrong. When
1:12:24
I say that there's I'm not being hyperbolic
1:12:27
in any way, like she might
1:12:29
have some anxiety over our kids, falling
1:12:31
down on the stairs or
1:12:34
getting hurt or whatever.
1:12:37
Motorcycles, right, those kinds of external
1:12:40
fears and stuff. But she's so
1:12:42
solidly made and
1:12:44
so solidly raised and
1:12:47
has such incredible perspective
1:12:49
on things, and that's why she's
1:12:51
so evolved, and that's why she's so loved
1:12:53
by every single human that she comes into contact
1:12:56
with. Its fucking crazy,
1:12:58
and that's why I'm so you
1:13:01
know, honestly, you know, I don't
1:13:03
know. And it was hard. It's hard.
1:13:05
It was hard for me post
1:13:08
going to Hoffmann to explain and express
1:13:11
the way that I could feel about you, because
1:13:14
again, that vulnerability would hurt, It would
1:13:16
feel like I want to crawl into a shell. It's scary,
1:13:19
but it's just the truth and not
1:13:21
saying that. You know, life will
1:13:23
never be perfect. We're always ebbing
1:13:26
and flowing, we're always hitting the bumps,
1:13:30
and it's just about taking
1:13:32
it in stride, really, you
1:13:35
know what I mean. Well, because we've also been pretty fucking
1:13:37
blessed. You know, it's like a
1:13:40
I love be healthy children.
1:13:42
You know, it's like if you can be on solid
1:13:46
ground and pretty connected
1:13:48
and in a good place for when the real stuff happens,
1:13:51
you know, like whatever it might be your anxiety
1:13:53
or you know, sickness and
1:13:55
families or whatever down the road.
1:13:57
It's like and
1:14:00
you know, I think it's with age comes, you know,
1:14:02
or experience and age all of that kind
1:14:04
of stuff. There's you just you do see
1:14:06
things differently, and it isn't just about yourself.
1:14:09
It is such a partnership, so
1:14:13
you know, and it's also about raising these kids
1:14:15
and being a team there.
1:14:18
It does. It gives you this different
1:14:20
element. We could do a whole parenting
1:14:22
podcast. Yes, okay, I
1:14:25
guess you're hungry. I
1:14:27
have a headache. Hungry
1:14:30
and a headache. How do you feel about talking
1:14:32
about all this? I mean, I guess I
1:14:34
feel fine. It's so a
1:14:36
part of us and I'm
1:14:39
sure I could be very judged. And you know, for
1:14:41
a long time I had so much to
1:14:44
be judged of me. Oh god,
1:14:46
yeah, I forgot annihilated right now.
1:14:49
No, but people are going to be like, how could you stay with him? How could
1:14:51
you do that? Da? Da da da? I mean I had so
1:14:54
much insecurity around that and people saying
1:14:56
like, oh, well of course you stayed with him, or you
1:14:58
know, oh you once a cheater,
1:15:00
always a cheater, And you know, I mean, there's so many
1:15:03
like judgments and things going around,
1:15:05
but you know, it's a part
1:15:07
of us. We were very young, it was it
1:15:09
feels like a lifetime ago, and I'm
1:15:12
happy we went through it then, and
1:15:15
you kind of wanted to face a lot of things
1:15:17
way back then. You know. I think
1:15:19
a lot of people probably carry shit around
1:15:22
and don't know why they do the things
1:15:24
that they're doing, and they don't like it. And
1:15:26
that was you and getting into
1:15:28
finding out why you were doing it when you had
1:15:30
something that you treasured and loved and everything was
1:15:32
so great, but behind closed doors
1:15:34
there was this, you know,
1:15:36
all of it. Yeah, I mean, I'm okay
1:15:39
with it, and I love I'm
1:15:41
scared you are, everyone
1:15:45
be nice. I'm
1:15:47
also just somebody when I'm always an open
1:15:50
book. Everyone knows that. But just like you know,
1:15:52
it's a big part of my life. Yeah,
1:15:54
I guess I could say I'm ashamed of but then I
1:15:57
honestly, I don't know what I would be without that, you
1:16:00
know what I mean, because it could have come out later and
1:16:03
I might not have been in a place. I just could
1:16:05
have been down the road. You could have had children general,
1:16:08
you know, But there's a
1:16:10
lot of factors play into it. I also am probably
1:16:12
one of the most least like judgmental
1:16:15
people in the world, and especially
1:16:17
after becoming a mom, you
1:16:19
know, in this day and age of social media
1:16:22
and just all of it. I'm kind of like, you
1:16:25
know, if you don't have something nice to say, don't say it.
1:16:27
And I think there should be respect
1:16:30
for everybody's path and it may not be
1:16:32
yours. You might not agree with it, and
1:16:35
that's okay, you know, and you don't
1:16:38
know other people's stories. That's the other thing.
1:16:40
You know. It's like there's so many lessons to
1:16:42
be learned, you know. We're so quick to kind
1:16:44
of you know, judge or
1:16:46
assume or you
1:16:48
know, label.
1:16:51
Oh time, and then our biggest son
1:16:53
comes in, be comes our teenager
1:16:57
part two. Okay, that was our son Wilders
1:17:00
tucked in. We're
1:17:03
still doing with the kids, all
1:17:06
right, Okay. I think that's good wrapping
1:17:09
it up. Wow, laid
1:17:11
it all out there, from
1:17:13
acting class to therapy. I
1:17:16
know. So now twenty
1:17:19
years in hope,
1:17:22
we still hope we're still together. On the podcast
1:17:24
airs, I don't know, you never know,
1:17:28
all right, I Love you. Sibling
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