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And for the record, I have
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questions before he's asking me them. All
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right, first question, Justin in love. How
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are you holding up? Ah,
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so I
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know that this question is in response
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to the attack on Amanda. It's literally
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like Sharknado, but just like with like
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black media. I hate the
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just, and I'm glad I can
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laugh about it. And I can laugh about
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it because I have a good psychiatrist and
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because I'm surrounded by people who know
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me and who are emotionally intelligent enough
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to be able to show me love.
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And also because of viewers like you.
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It's really, first of all, going viral is very surreal because
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it's like happening outside of you. It's like a very thing.
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We have a whole episode about it coming up, but I
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think that we've really gotten to a point where people
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just do not realize that they're dealing
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with real people when they deal with
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people that are on the internet or just people that have
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a certain level of visibility, celebrity. Like they just think that
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they're like not real people. And
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because of that, then they don't feel the need
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to treat them like humans. So
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if we put this in the context of
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Palestinians, the effort... And
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we can put this in the context of the Jewish people
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of the Holocaust in Germany. The
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effort to make their murder and
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their martyrdom, well, the
4:10
oppressor doesn't call it a martyrdom, but the effort
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to make their murders acceptable
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first began with dehumanizing them, referring to
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them as animals, referring to them as
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people without a love, without a culture,
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without a home, without a heart, even
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just the idea of Palestine and them
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trying to say that it was a
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valid invasion of Palestine that happened in
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1948. They tried to say
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that there was no culture there. There was nothing there.
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They civilized Palestine. All that is a lie. But
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that is a tool. It's a tactic.
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The dehumanization of people is a tactic
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that has been used on many scales
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to then make the degradation of
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them okay. Now
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on a much, much, much, much, much, much, much, much, much, much, much, much,
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much, much, definitively smaller scale. It's like, oh,
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well, if we just dehumanize these celebrities or
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whatever and make it like they're not valuable,
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they're not like alive human beings, then we
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can just say whatever the hell we want
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about them and we don't have to have
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a conscience about it. And once
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people decide that they don't need to
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have a conscience, they get wowed. The
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human being as an animal is really,
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really not okay. And
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we'll go to the ends of the earth if
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it lets itself in terms of wickedness. We've
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seen so many examples of this. So
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I just say that to say that you got to
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ask yourself how you interact on this internet and
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think about people's humanity. I'm doing
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okay because there's enough people around me in my
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circle that care about my humanity more than they
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care about my celebrity, et cetera, et cetera. And
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I've had to go through a lot in my
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life to learn that I need to put my
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humanity first before I care about any
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of that other shit either. So thank you for
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asking. Next
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question. What do you do
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when you feel hopeless? How do you center yourself
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and regain strength? You
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know, that's a really great question because I didn't have an
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answer for that before last week. I
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feel like what I would do when I was hopeless in the past. was
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just like hope for it to pass. And
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I didn't have like an active
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necessarily like measured
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or like strategic practice on
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how to deal with that. You
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know, again, like I'm fortunate that I have people
6:14
around me who I can talk to. So that
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becomes a part of that, but it really was
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something that I learned last week was that
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I really have to unplug. And the thing
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about unplugging is sometimes we think of unplugging
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as like, oh, I gotta go to vacation,
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right? Or I
6:29
gotta like change locations. But for
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the first time, maybe ever, I
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consciously just like put my
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brain on ice and
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just like watched movies and TV and ate
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snacks and
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let myself just be. And
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it proves to
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be very effective in
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allowing my brain the pause
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that it needed from being just
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in a loop around
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the madness. And sometimes it's
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around the hopelessness that we find our brain is in a
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loop, right? We keep going in a loop of trying to
7:04
figure out what a solution is and we can't find it
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and then it feels hopeless. You know,
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right now there's a hopelessness that I have
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just every day as it relates to not
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only what's going on in Gaza and in
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Congo and the Sudan, but the way the
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world is dealing with it. Just
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watching the mendacity, just
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the waterfall of fuckery that goes down on
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a daily basis. You're
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just like, what is this really where we are? And
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so there is a hopelessness around that that I definitely
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am still trying to deal with. I mean, I
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went on Lexapro, which I had never really
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considered going on medication for mental
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health before, but I have a
7:42
theory. I feel like
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we are in a world now that
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is so processed and
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is manufacturing so much that
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it is now also manufacturing hate. It
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literally creates hate out of thin air. And
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there's so much hurt and trauma that
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hasn't been dealt with and Baby,
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all that energy exists. Just so we're clear
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energy is a real thing It's like when
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you stand next to a piano and you
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can feel The sound of
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the piano hitting you that's energy When
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you in a room and someone walks in the room and it just rubs
8:18
you the wrong way That's energy now
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by the way that energy might be your energy The
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rub in the wrong way might be the fact that your energy
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is off So I just want to say that but energy is
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a real thing. We are combusting We are
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made of atoms y'all we are an
8:32
engine that is always combusting your heart beating is an
8:34
engine Like when you look at a car engine, it's
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the same shit as a body All
8:38
of these pieces need to work together to make this thing
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move So
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we are in a world Where
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the energy is so processed
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with hate and Mendacity and
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just negative things that some
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of our spirits literally can't
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process the energy It's
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like being diabetic and not being able to
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process sugar You need
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insulin to help you do that because you
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physically cannot I think
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some of us are ending up on
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meds because we spiritually cannot process the
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energy that is existing right now or that
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ever was existing and I
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think that's a real thing that I've had
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to admit to myself Like I simply just
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cannot process it my spirit my soul Cannot
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break it down in order to be
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something valuable to me. And so I need
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help You're
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out here hustling but you're also using
9:38
the McDonald's app to have your favorites
9:40
delivered to your door Next
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question on a bit of a ladder note How
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are you so fly and when and
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how did your love of bonobos begin?
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Oh, I got two great questions. How
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am I so fly? My mom is fly. Like
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my mom has always been like super duper stylish.
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That's really her thing. And then she always had
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me stylish. But then I was off the,
10:12
I had a tough road for a while there, y'all.
10:14
I was wearing platform sketches. I
10:18
just had every kind of kangal you can think of. I
10:21
mean, there was an awkward phase that
10:23
lasted far longer than it should have, far longer than
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it should have. But, you know, I
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would say around my thirties, I started to figure
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it out. And I had a
10:31
stylist tell me, you know, Amanda, you're an artist.
10:34
And I talk about this in my book, Small
10:36
Doses, available in
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hardback, paperback, and
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on audiobooks. I had a
10:43
stylist tell me, you know, Amanda, you're a
10:45
painter. And if you looked at your body as
10:48
the canvas, you
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would be able to style yourself.
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And that was something I had never considered.
10:56
Like I'm really, really good with color. So
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she was basically telling me, you're really good
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with color. You're a painter. You know how
11:02
to put color together. Like bring that together
11:04
in how you dress. And that just opened
11:06
up a whole world for me in terms
11:08
of like how I put style together. And
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it took some time. It took some time.
11:12
But now I really know what my style
11:14
is. My style is basically, can a
11:17
regular bitch pull this off? Like that's basically my style.
11:20
If it can't be pulled off by just anybody,
11:22
give it up. I want it. I'm
11:25
challenging myself. I just remember my friend, Mike Walker in
11:27
high school, he had these green Adidas and we all
11:30
just the clown, these green Adidas. Cause they were just
11:32
so big. Like his feet were so big. And we
11:34
were like, why did you buy these? He's like, because
11:36
they're so ugly. Look at how ugly these shoes are.
11:38
He's like, Amanda, these are the ugly issues ever. And
11:41
I just felt like, you know what? I can bring
11:43
joy to these ugly shoes. It's
11:45
a challenge. Sometimes I will literally buy something
11:47
because I'm just like, this is so ugly.
11:49
It deserves love. Like I wish, you
11:51
know, I wish I didn't do that with like
11:53
the spirit of niggas that day, but that's, you know,
11:56
it's a work in progress. Yikes. I'm
12:02
also just really relieved that as I've gotten older,
12:04
by the way, that my style has kept up with my aging.
12:07
I'm really relieved that I'm
12:09
not 42 and still like, why
12:11
can't I wear a poom, poom short? I'm
12:13
just really, really glad because I didn't
12:15
know what was going to happen. I don't know. Sometimes
12:17
we get to an age and we're like,
12:20
no, but I still want to. So I'm
12:22
really just relieved that I feel like my
12:24
style has matched my maturation process. So
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bonobos. So bonobos are one of the four great apes.
12:29
There are orangutans, there
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are chimps, there
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are gorillas, and there are
12:36
bonobos. Bonobos share 98.7% of our
12:38
DNA, just like chimpanzees. And
12:41
people know that I love bonobos because they talk
12:43
about bonobos on my internet all the time. I
12:46
fell in love with bonobos literally because I
12:48
just was brought to bonobos by
12:50
Mark Zuckerberg's internet. And
12:53
the Instagrams did a suggestion for me
12:55
because I used to follow some chimpanzee
12:57
sites like Tacoma and Lowirow
12:59
primates. And they brought
13:01
me to bonobos. And then when I started learning
13:03
more about bonobos from Lola Yobonobo, which is
13:05
the only conservation site for
13:07
bonobos, you can only find bonobos in the Democratic
13:10
Republic of Congo, by the way, that's the only
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place where they exist. And
13:14
so there's this conservation project. And what is
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so fascinating about bonobos is that they are
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a matriarchal community. Now you've seen
13:20
a lot about chimpanzees, you know, Jane
13:23
Goodall, et cetera, but you may not know a
13:25
lot about bonobos because, and this is a very
13:27
important fact that I think will also show why
13:29
I was so intrigued by it. When
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the colonizers came to Africa, they
13:34
also brought with them scientists
13:36
and anthropologists and archeologists, et
13:38
cetera. And the scientists
13:41
and anthropologists, they came across different animals. And
13:43
when they came across the chimpanzees and
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the bonobos, they were more connected
13:49
or they felt more intrigued by
13:51
the chimpanzees because they felt more
13:53
like their society. Well,
13:55
chimpanzees are a patriarchal society. They also have a
13:57
lot of rage, right? They have a lot of
13:59
rage. and the way they interact,
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they're very territorial. And it's no
14:04
shade to the chimpanzees, but it's very
14:06
obvious that, yes, a colonizer would look at
14:08
that and say, yeah, that feels like us.
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Which, by the way, is bonkers. Like, you looked at chimpanzees
14:13
and said, yeah, that feels like us. That should tell you
14:15
the problem with yes. But bonobos are
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matriarchal. And they were just like, ah, we're
14:20
not interested in that. Well, then,
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of course, it makes me more interested. Bonobos
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have literally evolved out of fighting.
14:29
They solved everything with sex. It's
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called a bonobo kiss. They literally scissor. When
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they are, like, in some type of tension, they scissor.
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And it's all good. When they run
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across other clans of bonobos, they share their
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food. They don't fight them. They
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share their food. The
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mothers all share in caring for their
14:49
young. The boy bonobos, when
14:51
they grow up, they stay as a part
14:53
of the clan, but the women are still in charge. And
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they lead with love. And
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so that, to me, was just such
15:02
an incredibly intriguing and beautiful
15:04
fact because it really, once again, shows us
15:06
how we can learn from the animal kingdom
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versus oftentimes people try and use the animal
15:11
kingdom as a way to discriminate. And
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the other thing I want to point out about that, though, is
15:16
that I have this theory. Here's another
15:19
one of my theories. I have this
15:21
theory that if evolution is real, there's
15:24
folks that evolved from chimps and there's folks that evolved
15:26
from bonobos. Because I also feel there's
15:28
only two kinds of people. People who want power and people who want
15:30
peace. So
15:32
that's my theory. One day
15:34
I'll write a book of my theories. Love
15:38
that. But you can follow
15:40
Lola Ya Bonobo and you
15:42
can get involved and get in love with bonobos, too.
15:44
And there are bonobos here in America in a number
15:46
of zoos, right here in the San Diego Zoo
15:48
is one of them. Next
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question. Why do you think
15:55
a comedy scene in Grenada and wider
15:57
Caribbean is low to non-existent? I
16:00
think a comedy scene in Grenada and like
16:03
other Caribbean countries is low to non-existent because
16:05
literally everybody is funny Like
16:09
like in America like being funny is a
16:11
skill it's an art and in like the
16:13
colonial spaces like it's a skill and it's
16:15
an art in a way that it really
16:17
is like platformed
16:21
I Also think that
16:23
it comes out of the and this is
16:25
me just watching poetic But it
16:27
comes out of like the royal Tradition
16:30
of there being a jester like
16:32
there being somebody to perform for
16:34
the people not even the
16:36
people but to form for the royalty And so
16:39
I think like that has developed out in Western
16:41
society in a way that it hasn't
16:43
in the Caribbean like anti-colonial spaces that
16:46
I have like debunked You know those
16:48
traditions I will say though that I
16:50
come back to the fact that everyone
16:52
in Grenada is funny Even
16:55
if they're funny is like drive humor or
16:57
sarcasm like everybody got jokes It's like legit
16:59
a thing so like if you're a comedian
17:01
You're like, how do you perform for a
17:03
whole audience of funny people? Like
17:06
they look at it you like I got a better
17:08
job than that. So I think that's part of it
17:10
now Don't get me wrong I think that there is
17:12
a space for it because ultimately everybody want to laugh
17:14
and not everybody want to make people laugh Professionally, right?
17:17
But I do think that that's part of
17:19
the reason why is that and then the
17:21
third reason is because the Caribbean in general
17:24
Has always done a side-eye to the arts even
17:26
though they'd be the best at the arts like they'd
17:28
be so about making music So about making clothes so
17:30
about dance, but they'd be like that's not a career.
17:32
Let's not like a profession
17:35
You know, we just doing this and then the folks that
17:37
really be about it You better be about it about it
17:39
about it for it to be respected. So
17:41
I think that's part of it, too One
17:46
morning you just walk in with a bag
17:48
of everyone's faves from McDonald's drop it on
17:51
the counter and say Breakfast is on me.
17:53
Oh That's the power saving money
17:55
on the McDonald's app. Hope you can handle all
17:57
that How
18:03
do you stay creative and original in a world
18:06
that forces us to play it safe for survival?
18:09
I think one of the biggest ways that I stay creative
18:13
and original in a world that forces us
18:15
to fight for survival is I surround myself
18:17
with people who also feel like being creative
18:19
is a key part of their survival. You
18:23
know, once you are an artist, like you can't
18:25
just not make art. I think that that's something
18:28
that a lot of people who maybe don't consider
18:30
themselves artists can't necessarily relate to. But you know,
18:32
Herbie Hancock once told me, he was like, everybody's
18:34
an artist. And I said, Herbie, how do you
18:36
say that? He said, because
18:39
life requires creativity. Everybody
18:41
has to find a way and
18:43
it demands creativity. But
18:46
capitalism has really stunted that in
18:48
so many folks. Their creativity ends
18:50
up being wielded for just the
18:52
pursuit of dollars, which is not
18:54
oftentimes ethical or moral or principled.
18:57
And art ultimately is a
18:59
God gift. It is the making of something
19:01
from nothing. I believe everybody has
19:03
the capability to do that on a certain extent. And
19:05
even if you don't do it on a high level,
19:07
I believe everybody should engage in that to a
19:09
certain extent as a certain
19:12
meditative practice. And so for me,
19:14
it's a matter of life. Like I have to create
19:16
art. Like even no matter how shitty the world is,
19:18
I would have to create art. If I'm imprisoned, I'd
19:20
be like, can I have a piece of chalk? Because
19:23
I can't stab you with a piece of chalk. But can I have a
19:25
piece of chalk that you're on the wall? You know,
19:28
like I would still be writing poems. I
19:30
remember that to this day, the reason me
19:32
and yoga have never quite gelled was because
19:34
the original person who taught me yoga did
19:36
it in such like a contentious mind state
19:38
because we were doing yoga as a movement
19:40
class as soon as he purchased. And
19:43
I remember him asking me, what do you think about when you're
19:45
doing the yoga? And at that time I was a poet and
19:47
he asked me what I think about. And I said, all right,
19:49
poems in my head. And he was like, you're doing it wrong.
19:52
You're doing the yoga wrong. And I was like, is
19:54
that like a thing? Is that even possible? But
19:57
he just contextualized yoga for me as like this.
19:59
things that I've just never been able to move
20:01
past but notice that even in yoga even in
20:03
the meditative space I was still trying to create
20:06
Because that's the natural place that I go in
20:08
a place of peace So
20:11
that's how and I think the other part of
20:13
it is that I think art is very healing
20:15
and a very and it can be used To
20:17
be very informative and it can
20:19
be used to activate So it has like so
20:21
many purposes particularly in a world that is so
20:23
full of ignorance and that is forcing us to
20:26
survive It has so many Restorative
20:29
and just positive purposes In
20:34
your voice next question What's
20:37
something you collect that you love to look at
20:39
that might surprise us Oh,
20:41
that's such a great question What's
20:44
something I collect that
20:46
I love to look at? That
20:50
might surprise you I
20:55
collect so many things I'm
20:59
not a hoarder. I am a collector And
21:03
once I like something I definitely be like about
21:05
it Which is why like my mom called
21:07
me the other day and was like do you still want these beanie babies?
21:10
Because they're just here collecting dust. I'm like,
21:12
no, they're still there being collected relax. Don't
21:14
touch my stuff I
21:16
would say something that I collect that you all Might
21:19
not know is I collect really cool pillows
21:22
That's been a thing. I know what it is. I collect chairs
21:26
If anybody comes to my house They
21:28
will see that there's mad places to
21:30
sit in my house AJ, I
21:32
don't know if you've ever noticed this he's like shaking
21:34
his head They're all
21:36
like different shapes and colors and some
21:38
of them are covered in different
21:40
colors I
21:43
love chairs I love chairs
21:45
and I saw on instagram one time this ball where
21:47
she Has just like all different like
21:49
mini chairs that she's collected from like doll houses
21:51
and stuff like that Listen
21:53
next home. I live in there's a chair wall coming
21:57
It's gonna be in like a guest bathroom or something, but
21:59
I just really love chairs. I don't even know where
22:01
this came from. I don't know why it is, but I
22:04
love me a chair, honey. And I will, I'm
22:07
constantly trying to look for more places to put
22:09
chairs. All right. There's a corner in
22:11
this room that if the camera wasn't there, there'd
22:14
be another chair. I love it. Next
22:20
question. What book would you recommend
22:22
to someone looking for inspiration and
22:24
power? The Alchemist without question. By
22:26
Paolo Coelho. Because the Alchemist is
22:29
a very simple read, but it's as deep as you
22:31
want it to be. And it is
22:33
always available to you no matter where you are in your
22:35
life. So what I mean
22:37
by that is that it's a text that's
22:40
an allegory. So because it's an allegory, it's
22:42
a story about life. But the
22:44
way that it's written, it's a story about
22:46
literally any time of your life. It's
22:49
just about when you're reading it, where your
22:51
head is at. I've read The Alchemist at
22:53
least five times. And every time I read
22:55
it, it's relevant and helps me
22:57
to contextualize, kind of like where I am,
22:59
where I'm going, what I'm doing. So it's
23:02
very interesting in that way. And
23:04
very just unique in that way as
23:06
it relates to texts. There's another
23:09
book by Paolo Coelho called The Warrior of Light,
23:11
which is not a narrative story like The Alchemist,
23:13
but it's like a collection of passages. Think
23:16
of like 48 Laws of Power, but like positive.
23:18
Like 48 Laws of Power is like literally like
23:20
this is how you trick the world. The Warrior
23:22
of Light is this is how you handle the
23:25
world that's trying to trick you. And
23:27
a homeboy of mine sent it to me
23:30
years back when I needed to remember that
23:33
I am a Warrior of Light. And so
23:35
those two books right there can really help
23:37
get you through. And they're
23:39
both by the same author, Paolo Coelho. Get
23:41
into it, y'all. Next
23:45
question, what is the memory that
23:48
makes you smile? Well, I'm writing my
23:50
new book right now, by the way, through the
23:52
bullshit. And so I'm having to do a lot
23:54
of memory searching because it's a memoir. I
23:56
call it a midlife memoir, because it will definitely be another
23:58
memoir at 80. when you'll really get the
24:00
tea, honey. So I've been
24:03
having to like go back in memory. So I've been
24:05
getting to do a lot of smiling because you're
24:07
just trying to think of different things. And one
24:09
of the stories in there is about just
24:12
my time in high school in
24:15
the performing arts magnet. And I'm not gonna like tell
24:17
the full tale of the story because I feel like
24:19
I want you to read it in the book, but
24:21
just reminiscing on just the
24:23
uniqueness of my Dr. Phillips High School experience.
24:26
Ah, DP! Ah,
24:28
DP! Always brings a smile
24:30
to my face. Like don't get me wrong, I mean,
24:32
I still had like my high school stuff, but I
24:34
think I was very, very lucky to have the high
24:36
school experience I did. And I just feel
24:38
like my class was like Harry's at Hogwarts. Like we were
24:40
just one of a kind, one of a kind. And shout
24:43
out to Brit Marling. Brit Marling who was in Mirth,
24:45
End of the World. She also is the creator of the OA. She
24:47
went to Dr. Phillips High School with me. And
24:50
I went to go see my husband from Insecure,
24:52
Waylon Marcus. He directed the remake of Don't Tell
24:54
Mom the Baby Sitters Dead for BET Plus. By
24:56
the way, he did such an incredible job. Please
24:59
make it your business to see that film. That
25:01
will bring a smile to your face. But
25:04
Jermaine Fowler was there. Shout out to Jermaine. And Jermaine was
25:06
in Mirth at the End of the World. And I was
25:08
like, yo, I really enjoyed the show. Also, Brit Marling and
25:10
I went to school together. He was like, oh, like college?
25:12
I was like, no, no, like high school, high school. Like
25:15
she used to write, give me a ride home in her
25:17
Volkswagen Bug. He emails her a
25:19
picture, a selfie of us, and she wrote him
25:21
back such a nice message. And she was like,
25:23
Amanda Steele's performance in High School were on another
25:25
level. He, yes! That's
25:27
me, honey. 4276 forever. So
25:31
that brings a smile to my face, to high school. Next
25:36
question. Is there ever a point where you will
25:39
become a professor? I doubt
25:41
it. You know, the thing about me is
25:43
that I really don't do well in institutionalized
25:45
spaces. I didn't realize how much of an
25:47
institution Hollywood was until I really made it.
25:49
And then it was like, oh, this is
25:51
just another institution. And your girl, it just
25:53
ain't cut for that. I'm just not cut
25:55
out. I'm too bohemian. I'm
25:57
too free. I'm too liberated. And I feel like the academic
25:59
space. is really that. Now, I guess there's a
26:01
version of which you can do some type of
26:03
adjunct professorship or whatever. But the reality is I don't
26:06
want nobody telling me nothing. And
26:08
I don't want nobody, I don't respect telling me nothing.
26:10
And that's the frustrating part about institutional. Institutions
26:13
oftentimes are people who are in a
26:16
position that feels like power, but that
26:18
isn't necessarily earned. You know,
26:20
they're not necessarily actually like valid or full
26:22
of merit. So you're having to take, that's
26:24
like why selling shows gets so frustrating because
26:26
you're sometimes pitching people who are like, I
26:29
don't even know you. I don't respect you.
26:31
Like you've never done anything that like makes
26:33
me regard or laud you. And here I'm
26:35
having to like pitch you my creativity. What
26:37
have you created? So I doubt
26:39
that you'll see me as a professor, but I do want
26:41
to continue to create, you know,
26:44
learning spaces of my own. Speaking
26:49
of Hollywood, this follower wants to know, do you
26:51
still have hope in the industry or do you
26:53
believe it's a lost cause? You
26:56
know what I always have hope in is creatives. I don't
26:58
have hope in the industry because the industry ain't about
27:00
creatives. The industry is about the industry, but
27:02
always have hope in creatives. We always find a way, you
27:05
know, we always find a way, we always make a way. And
27:07
ultimately, you know, we lean
27:10
on each other in
27:12
order to do that. And I
27:14
think that will always remain as
27:17
the cornerstone of where art is coming
27:19
from. These industries were built around the
27:21
art, not the other way around. That's
27:24
the word. You're
27:29
out here hustling, but you're also using
27:31
the McDonald's app to have your favorite
27:33
delivery to your door. That
27:35
hustling smarter or to
27:37
make delivery in the McDonald's app. Participate
27:40
in McDonald's. Next
27:46
question, what are five places in the world you haven't
27:48
been to but that you want to go? Oh,
27:50
I love a question like this. OK, I
27:53
would love to go to Bali. Never been to Bali.
27:55
I've literally never been to Asia. So I would love
27:57
to go to Bali. I'm just going to count this
27:59
as one. I would love to go to Bali,
28:01
Thailand, China. Like I would love to just
28:03
see Indonesia, Philippines, Vietnam. I'd love to just
28:05
see that part of the world. I
28:08
have never been to the Galapagos Islands and I
28:10
would love to go to the Galapagos. Y'all know
28:12
how I feel about animals. I would love to
28:14
go. I have never been to
28:16
the Congo. I would really love to go to the Congo,
28:18
not only to see the bonobos, but also to be
28:21
some part of helping, you know, the people
28:23
out there in the Congo, even if it's
28:26
just to capture content that can help amplify
28:28
what's going on in the Congo. I
28:30
would really like to see Petra. It's
28:33
in the Levant somewhere. So it's either like Lebanon,
28:35
Iran, et cetera, et cetera. But it's like this
28:37
ancient city and it is
28:39
just one of the most fascinating like
28:41
builds that humans have ever made. And
28:44
then two, because I'm going to give you six
28:46
instead of five, I really would love to go
28:48
to Sudan. Again, not just
28:51
because like there's humanitarian work to
28:53
be done there, but because it's
28:55
beautiful. Like there's so many places
28:57
in Sudan, man-made and nature-made that
28:59
are just incredible. And like what
29:01
happens is particularly
29:03
in Africa, places get just whittled
29:06
down to whatever war-torn conflict is
29:09
happening in that place. But that
29:11
oftentimes, instead of making people feel like that's what
29:13
needs to save that place, oftentimes
29:16
people like kind of are no longer looking at that
29:18
place as a place worthy of being saved. Like, oh
29:20
my gosh, it's just war-torn. And
29:23
we need to just once again, like elevate the
29:25
beauty of Africa and the fact that
29:27
the people of Africa, they deserve to live in
29:29
that beauty, in freedom. And the last place
29:31
I want to go is I want to go to Palestine. And
29:34
I hope with all of my
29:36
heart that on the
29:39
other side of this tyranny
29:41
and this degradation and just
29:43
degenerative behavior amongst human beings
29:45
that has led to a genocide, I hope
29:47
that the people of Palestine are given the
29:50
ability to self actualize and build their land.
29:52
And I hope that I get the opportunity
29:54
to come back there and help rebuild. How
30:00
was your experience as a child actor? Oh,
30:02
so y'all was watching the Nickelodeon. Some
30:05
people are asking about Dan. So
30:07
I never met Dan. I mean, he wasn't a part of
30:09
my experience. You know, my experience
30:12
as a child actor was actually rather positive.
30:14
I mean, my brother and me, we only
30:16
did one season. The cast and the staff
30:18
were very black. I was lucky
30:21
enough to be shooting like, I'm not even
30:23
exaggerating, six minutes from my house. So
30:25
I also had a certain like, comfort
30:27
just in proximity to home. And I
30:30
was 12, but I was always a
30:33
very elevated child, I guess to
30:35
say. So I was 12 going on
30:37
like 18 in terms of like
30:39
my awareness of my surroundings. And
30:42
my mother would have to drop me off
30:44
and go to work. So other people's
30:46
parents got to stay there all day. I didn't
30:48
have that luxury. But I was
30:50
also a well-behaved kid. Like I knew that
30:53
I didn't want nobody to call on my mom. You
30:56
know, and I also was not just a well-behaved kid, but
30:58
I also knew, even at that
31:00
age, I just knew the measure of what I was getting
31:02
the opportunity to do. So I wasn't going to try and
31:04
screw that up either. But I didn't
31:06
have like, when I was on my brother and me
31:08
in particular, like I didn't have any negative experiences with
31:10
Nickelodeon. There was this one like, dude that was racist
31:13
or whatever. And but all of us would just be
31:15
like, get the fuck out of here, Joel. But
31:17
my mom always reminds me that there was a
31:19
time where the director was having one-on-ones with all
31:21
the parents because the kids were apparently out of
31:23
control. And so then my mom came
31:25
in and he was like, oh, Amanda's dream. There's nothing for
31:27
us to talk about. That's
31:30
why when y'all be like, oh, Amanda feels difficult to work with.
31:32
I ain't never been difficult to work with even when I was
31:34
12. I'm difficult to work
31:36
with because I demand excellence. And
31:38
I'm not very sweet about it. That's
31:40
why I'm difficult to work with. I also demand you
31:42
to do the thing you said you
31:45
was going to do like on paper that I signed on.
31:47
But that's a whole other conversation. I'd be trying to be
31:49
sweeter about it though I do because I know that that's
31:51
a human necessity. So I do be trying. But sometimes you
31:54
go don't got it. You go don't got it. I
31:56
do remember one time though, where I was doing a commercial and they
31:58
tried to stuff my bra. Yes,
32:01
child. They were like,
32:03
yeah, like, let's just like, suck
32:05
your bra. And I was like, I don't
32:08
know how to do that. I was 15. And
32:10
so she was like, you know, okay. So then
32:13
I immediately went until my mom and then my
32:15
mom was like, boof, then you just add my
32:17
child and stop her bra. By the way, this
32:19
is for like an industrial commercial
32:22
for the USDA. But I don't know
32:24
why like the farmers need me to
32:26
have tissue titties. Okay. So weird stuff
32:31
like that happens. I think also people just
32:33
get over comfortable with kids on set and
32:36
kids, we're there being professionals. So they
32:38
adultify us. And so
32:40
that's why it's so important to have a
32:42
parent or guardian or representative that is making
32:44
sure that that is not going too far.
32:46
And it's so disheartening to see real
32:50
concrete 4k evidence of
32:52
people like Amanda Bynes and Ariana Grande not
32:54
having the people there that needed to be
32:56
doing that. Agreed. What
33:01
are you going to do just for yourself and your
33:03
joy today? Eat
33:05
cheese. I'm
33:08
going to have the last of my
33:10
cheese, my Dubliner cheese sticks, and then I have to
33:12
go on a break because I'd be doing too much.
33:14
So I'm going to have to not have cheese for
33:16
the rest of the month. But y'all, I'm going to
33:18
savor every nibble of that cheese stick.
33:20
I know some of y'all are like, really? That's the best you
33:22
could do? Yes, because I
33:24
am very busy. But
33:28
I've been thinking about that cheese stick all day. As
33:32
I look for the next question, I just want
33:34
to say your fans and supporters are really riding
33:36
for you. Everyone is like, I just want to
33:38
check in. Are you okay? No question. I love
33:40
you. So your love, just know
33:43
that we got your back. Thanks
33:45
y'all. As an only
33:47
child and as like a
33:50
geek, a late bloomer,
33:54
someone who was bullied for
33:56
various reasons. I would be bullied for all
33:59
kinds of reasons. I don't like
34:01
you. You talk white. I don't like you.
34:03
You like skin. I don't like
34:05
you. You think you're smarter than everybody else. You're
34:07
an encyclopedia." And I'd be like, what's
34:10
the answer?
34:13
So that was like my formative years. Those are the things
34:15
that I would be bullied for. So to
34:17
then grow up as an adult and then like,
34:19
I don't even know what I'm being bullied for
34:21
in this case, if I'm being perfectly honest. I just don't
34:23
even know because they can't even get their act together. They
34:26
can't even get on the same page about what the issue
34:28
is. It's just basically like,
34:30
we don't like her tone. But
34:32
I just feel like, what's my tone?
34:34
I mean, and there's so many people who are
34:36
fine with my tone and love the tone and
34:38
feel empowered by the tone. So it's also a
34:40
measure of ego when people feel like, well, my
34:42
version of this is the version that matters. But
34:44
I will say that it really,
34:47
as that person who has always kind of
34:50
been in this space of having a target,
34:52
it really feels just really, really, it's like
34:54
a really big deal to feel supported in
34:56
this way. I've never been supported in this
34:58
way in my life. And
35:00
it's not a small thing. You're
35:07
out here hustling, but you're also using
35:09
the McDonald's app to have your favorite
35:11
delivered to your door. That's
35:13
hustling smarter or to
35:15
make delivery in the McDonald's app. Next
35:24
question, what inspired Smart, Funny and Black? I
35:26
went to a show and loved it, curious
35:28
about the journey. Okay,
35:31
so let's begin way back 2014. I
35:35
was doing a lot of shows at the Stan comedy
35:37
club. I was doing a lot of stand up at
35:39
the Stan comedy club. And they offered me a show
35:41
on the weekends, basically where they're just like, Hey, like
35:43
you can have a time slot on the weekend where you
35:45
can do your own show and have your own audience and
35:47
take money off the door, etc. So I
35:50
said, cool. They were located in like at the
35:52
time, they were located in like the 20s and like
35:54
the financial kind of Chelsea financial district,
35:56
a lot of like the white boys who do
35:58
coke district. So I was like, I want to
36:00
be able to bring a different kind of audience here, you
36:02
know, like a smart like funny black audience You know what?
36:05
I'm gonna just call it a show smart funny and black
36:08
So I hit up Mark Lamont Hill because
36:10
y'all don't know but Mark Lamont Hill is
36:12
actually hilarious And I was like,
36:14
do you want to like partner with me in doing
36:16
this comedy show? So we actually started
36:18
smart funny and black together just as
36:21
a showcase of smart funny black comics
36:23
also because As I
36:26
got more involved in comedy because I started doing
36:28
comedy in 2013 as a
36:30
stand-up as I got more involved I
36:32
saw that basically there was like you're either
36:34
a black comic in the style of comic view or
36:37
You're a black comic that performs for white people But
36:40
there's like so many comics in the middle
36:42
that aren't black in the style
36:45
of comic view but I also want to perform for
36:47
black people and I just
36:49
felt like we needed our space for like
36:51
that kind of comedy like kind of like,
36:53
you know Intellectual black comics, you know more
36:55
like leaning on clever versus necessarily like the
36:57
physical side of things, etc And
36:59
so that was also what the goal was to create a
37:01
space for that particular kind of comedy And so you just
37:03
call it smart funny and black and you know exactly what
37:05
it is. So we did that and then When
37:09
I moved to LA mark has had a lot going
37:11
on. So we kind of just like drifted apart and
37:14
When I moved to LA the thing that was always
37:16
happening in LA with comedy was called comedy with a
37:18
catch and Everybody would have a show that
37:20
was like some type of like format
37:22
So I remember there was one that was like
37:25
strip comedy and like every joke you tell if
37:27
people don't laugh You got to strip something then
37:29
there was like a WWE comedy and it was
37:31
like wrestler like on the wrestling format Like everybody
37:33
had something that was comedy with a catch So
37:37
then I just remember one Saturday afternoon. It
37:39
just like came to me and I was
37:41
like I Feel like
37:43
I should bring smart funny and black Back
37:46
because I hadn't been doing it in LA But
37:49
I was like, I feel like I should rebrand smart funny
37:51
and black But like in like this comedy with a catch
37:53
format and I remember telling my mom I distinctly remember saying
37:55
to my mom like I really feel like maybe it should
37:57
be a game show and she was like I
38:00
don't know. And I was like, no, this time you're wrong. I think
38:02
that's what it needs to be. And
38:04
it started from there. So I just started kind
38:06
of ideating around what that would be. Then I
38:08
had a workshop in my house. I literally like
38:10
invited my friends over and had a workshop where
38:12
we workshopped Smart, Funny and Black as a show.
38:15
And then it just, it evolved from there. And
38:17
I started doing it in the back of this
38:20
comic book store called Nerd Melt. And
38:22
we did that for a year every month.
38:25
I sold it to TruTV and I got it back
38:27
because they were racist. They literally said to me, we
38:29
just want to make sure we're not doing a show
38:31
only for black people. They literally
38:33
suggested that I have Michael Rappaport do
38:35
the intros to the games so that their
38:37
audience would feel more comfortable seeing a white
38:39
person. Look where
38:41
Michael Rappaport is now. Chaa. Exactly.
38:45
The stories write themselves at this point. Yes, they
38:47
do. Yes, they do. And if people really
38:49
listen to my stories, I am very detailed.
38:52
Like when people listen to my stories and say she's always
38:54
complaining or she's always the problem, you're just not listening. Cause
38:57
I'm detailed and I will tell you where I was wrong. But
39:00
maybe I wasn't wrong in this one. Not in this
39:02
one. Some
39:06
people are wanting a little bit of
39:08
advice for family stuff. So one person
39:10
asked, how do you deal with a
39:12
loved one or a partner's family posting
39:15
anti-immigrant or racist rhetoric? Well,
39:17
how does your partner deal with it? It's a real question. Cause
39:21
that's not really for you to deal with. But if
39:23
your partner is co-signing it or not really like about
39:26
it, and then they expect you
39:28
to be around them, that becomes a real issue for me.
39:31
Cause it's like, it's one thing if your partner is like,
39:33
oh, you know, I don't really rock with them. But it's
39:36
like, if you see them doing that and then now I've
39:38
got to come and like spend time with them and then
39:40
you're going to expect me to be polite, maybe we got
39:42
issues. We got, we're not on the same page. Cause one
39:44
thing about me is I'm not going to be polite if
39:46
they are that type of low character, low vibrational person. So
39:49
it's not going to happen. Are
39:53
you still planning to get yourself a new trampoline as
39:55
a joy source? I
39:59
really want to, but I just. I feel like my setup here
40:01
is not conducive to one. So
40:03
we'll see. I have some life moves that
40:05
I'm working on that may make it for
40:07
a better place and better space. Another
40:12
person asks, who would you like to work with in the
40:14
future? Who would I
40:16
like to work with in the future? You
40:20
know, Ray Angry is a producer that
40:22
produced, niggas got me fucked up. He
40:25
works a lot with the roots. He produces a lot with the roots. And
40:28
I would love for us to just actually do a full
40:30
album. We've like tinkered and toyed with the idea before, but
40:32
then it just kind of fades away. But like, I would
40:34
love for us to do like a full album. Ebro
40:37
be on my head about doing an album. He's like, you
40:39
got bops. You got bops. You've
40:41
been doing these bops on the internet. I'm like,
40:43
I do got bops. So that's something that would
40:45
be really dope. And Mobetta Woo was
40:47
the musical that I wrote with Chris Bowers, who
40:49
was an incredible scorer. He scored Bridgerton, he scored
40:51
the origin, he scored Green Book. And I would
40:54
just love for us to do Mobetta Woo again,
40:56
but like for real, for real, you know, like
40:58
as a stage run. But
41:00
to be perfectly honest right now, I'm just really focusing
41:02
on the Amanda Seals ecosystem of it all. I've done
41:04
a lot of work with a lot of people and
41:06
I've had a lot of great experiences. I
41:08
just think I'm leaning
41:10
into like, what does it look
41:13
like if I'm the North star in
41:15
this particular galaxy? And I think once
41:18
I really lock that down, I'll feel
41:20
more inclined again to step outside and
41:22
collab. Do
41:26
you have a ritual or daily practice that brings you joy? Do I have a
41:28
ritual or daily practice that brings me joy?
41:34
It's like weird, like I don't like when others break my
41:37
routine, but I break my routines all the time. I used
41:39
to have a regimen for three months that
41:42
I would do on a regular basis where I would
41:44
wake up every morning, I would stretch, I would do
41:47
a headstand for three and a half minutes. I would go into sauna
41:49
for 20 minutes, I would do a regular workout for three and
41:51
a half minutes. I would go into sauna for 20 minutes
41:53
and then I would take a cold shower. And
41:55
I did this for three months as a healing practice after
41:58
I was essayed. And... I
42:00
wouldn't say that necessarily brought me joy, but it did bring
42:02
me peace. I would say a
42:05
daily practice that I have that brings me joy.
42:07
I really love studying Arabic on Duolingo.
42:10
Like really, like I enjoy it a lot. Like
42:13
one of the things I always encourage people to do is
42:15
like to impress yourself. Like it's consistent. Like
42:17
as adults, we need to continue learning and we
42:20
need to continue impressing ourselves. And it's like, it
42:22
does both in one, well-felt suit. Like
42:24
it's so cool to be able to look at written Arabic
42:26
and not just look at swiggles. I'm like, Oh, like I
42:28
don't know what it means, but I know what that's a.
42:31
And sometimes I do know what it means. I'm like, Oh
42:33
my God. Well, I'd. That
42:36
says, I, that
42:38
means I. Oh,
42:41
while I just man and in the eyes woman. Okay.
42:44
Bilingual. Listen, I'd be
42:47
trying a little something since then. What
42:52
land, sea and air animal would you be? What
42:55
land, sea and air animal would I be?
42:59
Big fan of the otter. I'm
43:01
a dolphin. Oh, no question. I'm a dolphin.
43:04
They smart as heck. You know, they're fun. They're
43:06
sexual. They're playful. They be swimming. I'm
43:09
obsessed with the ocean. I'm out here.
43:13
I'm a dolphin or I mean,
43:15
obviously I'm a. I
43:20
mean, you know, I can't be a CEO, but
43:22
y'all could be a member of the seal squad.
43:25
So make sure you subscribe to my patreon. And
43:27
again, like we do this essentially every week on
43:29
the bonus episode of small doses podcast. You guys
43:31
can be in the live asking questions in real
43:33
time. And even if you can't be there, you
43:35
still get access to the episode. So that's
43:37
been a really good squad members. So shout out to all
43:39
my seals. Whenever you see me pause on Instagram and I
43:41
put a picture of seals and it says my people, that's
43:44
because my name is Amanda seals. The amount of times you
43:46
will have been like, Oh my God, I'm just getting that
43:48
today. It's hilarious. I
44:00
really appreciate these questions. They're so
44:02
thoughtful. They're so indicative of just how
44:04
unique of an audience I have
44:06
been able to grow with you guys
44:08
being so compassionate and insightful and
44:11
kind, right? And kind, you
44:13
know? When I feel like when
44:15
my people go ham and support me, like they
44:17
don't be, they don't just
44:19
be in the comments trolling and being mean. Like
44:22
they're gonna hit you with intellect. They're gonna like
44:24
break down like your argument and show you how
44:26
it's like false. Like that's my supporters. When I
44:28
see other people's supporters, I'm
44:31
like just so you know your supporters are just mean
44:33
and dumb. And that is not it, honey. You don't
44:35
want them out here representing you. I don't want nobody
44:37
ever being out there being mean and dumb in my
44:39
name. Do not do it in my honor, baby. It
44:42
is not it. We are noble. We are classy. We
44:44
are loving. That's what we do. So we will correct
44:46
folks. Now if they come out, they face, you know,
44:50
do what you gotta do. But don't ever feel
44:52
like I'm wanting y'all to support me in that
44:54
way. No, no, no, no, no. We up here.
44:58
You know, we're on a high vibration. It's not just a
45:00
big ol' ol' high. We just, we're
45:02
gonna have a dimension, baby. That's where we at. I
45:04
thank y'all so much. It was very clear that you
45:07
all are in that dimension in these questions. And I
45:09
hope that I met the comments. I hope I met
45:11
the answers at the same level. And
45:13
that's it. But I'm fine.
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