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Chapter one, create from joy. I was
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talking to
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someone, they
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were just like, sometimes
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you just have like Daria energy. And
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I was like, yeah, I kinda
1:14
do, I'm like a black Daria. The
1:19
first blog post from my blog
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called Blaria, which stood for black Daria.
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When I stopped watching Grey's Anatomy,
1:27
Captain Heigl's character
1:30
Izzy had ghost sex
1:32
with Denny. And I was like, you know
1:34
what, I'm gonna bow out.
1:36
I'm gonna remove myself from this narrative,
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but you guys continue to collect the checks
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because good for you. So it's just like
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fun stuff like that.
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Writing for the sake of writing, following
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my gut on what
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I really enjoy doing.
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There's this myth that you can only create from pain
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or duress or stress. I
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always just try. to create
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from a joyful place.
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So much yummy, good, exciting
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stuff comes when you're excited
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and when you're happy. It
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doesn't mean that you are happy
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every day. No one's
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happy every day. But
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this is a thing that you do enjoy.
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Why not let the people who read what you
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write feel that joy?
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That stand-up comedian, writer,
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producer and actor Phoebe Robinson.
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And she's about to tell us the story of writing
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the essay collection, You Can't Touch My
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Hair and Other Things I Still Have to
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Explain. This is Phoebe's
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personal story about writing her debut
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essay collection.
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But her story reveals something you can
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apply to your own creative practice. To
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hone your unique creative voice,
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tap into what brings you joy and
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create from that place.
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As Phoebe takes us on the journey of creating
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You Can't Touch My Hair, you'll hear how
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she learns to own all parts of herself,
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the high and lowbrow. You'll
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also hear how she draws on the things that bring
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her the most joy in life, whether it's
3:26
her peloton bike or her obsession
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with the band U2.
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And you'll hear how writing from a place of
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joy allows Phoebe to explore
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complex issues in engaging
3:37
and unexpected ways.
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Here's what you need to know about Phoebe and
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You Can't Touch My Hair.
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You may know Phoebe as the co-creator
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and co-star of the hit podcast-turned-HBO
3:48
series, Two Dope Queens, and
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other critically acclaimed podcasts, including
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So Many White Guys and Black
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Fraser. She's published three books
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of essays. You Can't Touch My Hair.
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Everything's trash, but it's okay. And
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please don't sit on my bed in your outside
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clothes.
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As for You Can't Touch My Hair, it was
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published in 2016 by Plume,
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an imprint of Penguin Random
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House. It features 11 essays
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examining race, culture, and identity
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through the lens of Phoebe's own personal experience
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as a black woman in America. It
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was a New York Times bestseller and
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featured on O Magazine's 2016 reading list.
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Since its release, Phoebe started
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the production company Tiny Reparations,
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which is dedicated to publishing television
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and books that amplify women, people
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of color, and the LGBTQ
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community. I'm your guest
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host, Chris McLeod, and on this episode
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you'll hear original music composed for
4:47
prepared piano. For visuals
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while you're listening, go to sparkandfire.com.
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Every creative work you've ever loved
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has a hero's journey behind it, whether
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it's a book or a building, a
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film or a photograph.
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On this show, creators from different
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fields share their stories to
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fuel your creativity. From
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Wait What? and the BBC, this
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is Spark and Fire.
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Chapter 2.
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The Universe Sends Me A Sign
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This was like back when I was still on Facebook.
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I feel so old.
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I remember I posted the link
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of whatever the blog posts, and people comment,
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and blah blah blah. I was like, oh, this is
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so fun, and it's really nice that people
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are like,
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and be like, this is really funny. I
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was keeping it on a schedule. Like I got
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a file Monday, Wednesday,
6:08
Friday at this time for my readers, which
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was like a couple hundred at the time. It
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like wasn't anything remarkable.
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I told my manager at the
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time,
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I really think I have a book
6:26
in me. For me, it felt
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like the next natural progression.
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And she was just like not particularly supportive. She
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was like, well, you're not really famous. So
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like, I don't think you should be spending your time on that. Wednesday,
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October 1st, 2014.
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Dear Phoebe, I
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hope this finds you well. I'm a literate
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agent at Sterling Law and Literistic, a premier
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literary agency in Manhattan. I would love to speak
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with you about a possible book.
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Of course you may already have a literary
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agent, in which case I
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stand aside. One
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of the things about like being in entertainment
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is like you just always take the meeting.
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Cause you just never know what's going to come of it.
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Go for the free bottle of water, that
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free bottle of Evian. It
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might be a waste of time, but it's good to meet someone. Right
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back, I was like so excited.
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It was so cute. I went to LA.
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We went to the Japanese restaurant.
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I was like not eating the sushi.
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Cause I was like, I just don't trust it. I
7:45
don't want to like get sick, blah, blah, blah. Cause
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I'm from the Midwest. Everything is well
7:50
done. Like even like, we just got to make
7:52
this lettuce well done for this salad.
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Like we just don't fucking trust anything. Yeah.
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Literally everyone was like, no,
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no, no. This
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book is irrelatable. Nobody
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wants to read books written by funny
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black women. Books written by
10:11
black female authors don't sell. So
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it was like all this rejection, which was crazy
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because again, it was 2015. Normally
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you just go, oh, it's just not the right
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fit. Both
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people are right. Just not together. It
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just felt like, sorry,
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but I think you guys are wrong. I
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think you guys are getting it.
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And because you're not getting it, you're saying
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it's not good rather than understanding
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it's a defect in your comprehension
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of what I'm trying to do. Even
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if someone else can't see it, I
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know that I have it. Capital
11:02
I, capital T. No,
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this book is going to be good and it's going
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to sell. I
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met with Kate, editor at Plume,
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which was the only imprint who was interested
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in the book. The
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advance that was offered was like peanuts,
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because, you know, I'm a
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debut author and it's like, I'm unproven, totally
11:32
good at it. We
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hit it off over the phone and
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then Kate and I, we had like our first like
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in-person meal.
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I pitched something like 35 essays.
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She was like, well, how long do you expect these essays to be? I
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was like, I don't know,
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five to eight pages. She
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was like,
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boo, we're writing a book.
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We got to pare down to the best of the best and
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you really have to sit and unpack these
12:04
things. She was like,
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this is great, this is great, we gotta cut this, we gotta
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cut this. All this like reconfiguring
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of things. I was like,
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that sounds great, cool.
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What have we got to do to get it right? I'm here
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to do the work, I'm ready to show up.
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And then I just hit the ground running, riding
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it. Chapter 4,
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A Little Help from Bono.
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How do you develop your unique creative
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voice?
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Own all parts of you, high
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and low. When
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I first started writing this book, I was like, you know, I'm not
12:45
like Trevor Noah. Him
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being biracial was like a fucking issue.
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I was like, I don't have anything that intense
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in my life.
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All the great writers, you know, they just all
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have their own
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juj, their own little vibe.
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Not to name
13:05
drop, but my friend
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Bono. We were hanging
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out one time and he was like,
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I know you like to act as
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though you're just lightweight.
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You're like not that deep, you're not
13:20
that smart, you're just a funny person. But he was like,
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you're a very smart person. There's more
13:24
there than like, you're letting on.
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Just sort of being like, own
13:29
all parts of you. The only
13:32
way that I'm ever going to have a chance is
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if I just sound the most like me.
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I was like, I can use these situations
13:43
of racial microaggressions
13:45
to sort of be able to talk about
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larger issues like respectability
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politics. And
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expectations that are
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placed on women,
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especially Black women of how
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they're supposed to be.
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to behave. Hilo
14:05
is how I would describe my writing. There's
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a lot of pop culture references, but
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there's also some smarty smarty pants
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stuff that's going on.
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My friend Hassan Minhaj likes
14:17
to say that I'm righteous and ratchet.
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That's how he just describes me. I
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kind of write to make myself laugh.
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I just like being ridiculous
14:33
and saying those things. I know
14:35
my brother's going to be like, oh
14:37
my God, he's going to go, it's funny,
14:39
but Jesus. You have to
14:41
say it like that. It's like,
14:44
I do, I do. I'm
14:47
unhinged when I write. That's why people
14:49
like it, I think.
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When Phoebe talks about writing, you can feel
14:57
the joy overflowing from inside
14:59
her,
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but it's more than making herself laugh.
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Phoebe uses her joy as a way
15:05
into talking about the issues that
15:07
are important to her.
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Chapter
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five, When I'm Stuck.
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For those days where you're sort of like, I
15:19
got to just acknowledge that today is hard. You're
15:25
not enjoying it. The computer's looking at
15:28
you like, why are you doing this to yourself? It's not that
15:30
deep. It doesn't mean that I can't do
15:32
it, but it just means that on today,
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it fucking sucks.
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I'm a part of Pelotonnish, this
15:41
Pelotonnish nation. I
15:44
have the bike and I have the treadmill.
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I did this bootcamp today. In the
15:49
last four minutes,
15:51
I was so gassed. I
15:53
was like, holy shit.
15:55
I know I'm strong, but it just that next
15:57
like 7% was just like, oh, my God.
16:00
Oh my God, this is like so much. I
16:02
gotta take breaks, I gotta stop, okay, this is really
16:04
fucking hard. With writing,
16:06
there are those days where you're sort of like,
16:09
I'm just gonna power through it. I'll
16:11
just sit at my desk for 10 hours
16:13
a day and I'll just make it work. That
16:18
is counterproductive.
16:22
Give yourself permission to be like, it's
16:24
not happening today.
16:26
I'm just gonna step away and say that today
16:28
is not the day.
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And I will try again tomorrow.
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The discipline of always showing
16:35
up will make up for those days
16:37
where you're like, oh, I can't. Give
16:41
yourself some grace. You can't beat
16:43
yourself up. You
16:46
can't. I'm
17:00
just gonna keep going.
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Chapter six, writing the essay,
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my nine not so guilty pleasures.
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That's the essay where I ranked the
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members of YouTube
17:21
in order of who I would like smash. Ha,
17:24
ha, ha, ha, ha. And
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my parents had to read that. But
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I wrote that essay, it was pure fun
17:37
because I'm a person who does
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not believe in guilty pleasures.
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I hate when people are like, oh, like rom
17:44
coms are my guilty pleasure. It's like, no,
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you want to see a story in which people
17:49
fall in love and everything works out.
17:52
Everybody wants that because it's not how life is.
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So it's not guilty. It's a great pleasure to have.
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I have a close friend of mine. He
18:00
just got a Peloton, and I was like, oh my God, this is so
18:02
amazing. He like ate pizza,
18:04
blah, blah, blah. And he was like, and now I gotta
18:06
like make that up by
18:09
exercising.
18:12
And I was like, there is no making up.
18:14
There's no making up. You wanted pizza,
18:17
so you had the pizza.
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It can't be like, I'm being
18:21
air quotes, bad eating
18:23
this food, and then exercise is
18:25
gonna make me air quotes good again. It's
18:28
like, you've always been good. Just
18:32
eat what you wanna eat within
18:34
reason, and then work
18:36
out within reason. You
18:39
know how everyone was like, oh, The Rock, they'll like
18:41
post this like cheat meal days,
18:43
and it'll be like 30 pancakes,
18:46
and then he'll like go to the gym. I'm
18:49
like, guys, that's
18:51
fucking insane. If
18:55
a woman was doing that, it would be labeled
18:58
disordered eating. Just
19:00
have four pancakes. You
19:04
don't need 30. And
19:06
then you're gonna go work out at like 10 o'clock
19:08
at night for two hours. Like this is, life
19:11
is too short.
19:15
And he always assigns so much negativity
19:19
to the things that we enjoy, which
19:21
I find so startling
19:23
and
19:24
backwards. At
19:29
the end, I really wanted to be like, okay, I share my
19:31
not so guilty pleasures. Now, like
19:33
think about what yours are. If it's
19:35
not harming anyone, just
19:37
do the things that you enjoy. Remove
19:40
the value judgments. Don't feel guilt.
19:42
Don't feel shame. It's
19:45
okay to feel good. Chapter
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seven, writing the essay, uppity. People
20:02
talked about respectability politics for
20:04
years. And so it's like, if you're going
20:06
to address it, like what is the way that you
20:08
could do it that is going to engage
20:11
people?
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The first story, so I'm shooting this web
20:15
series. Where
20:17
are we shooting? In fucking Jersey? We're
20:20
all just like trying to get
20:22
speaking parts and like free bagels
20:24
to do a web series. We're
20:28
like going over the line and just,
20:30
you know, a
20:32
white person feeling like they can use a
20:34
racially charged word to describe
20:37
you in front of everyone.
20:39
He called me uppity.
20:42
This is a microaggressions, that's the worst thing
20:45
that you could be called. He probably
20:47
does not even really know
20:51
that
20:51
that is not the word to be using.
20:54
If you have a reaction to this, you're
20:56
going to be the crazy one. So
20:59
you just better pretend like,
21:01
okay, he said that and it's fine
21:04
because I'm a professional because then if not, then
21:06
I'm like the angry black person here. Another
21:10
black
21:11
comic would say like to the right
21:13
of me, we just did that like black
21:15
person communication, like did this shit really
21:17
just happen? Yes, this shit really just happened.
21:20
Ain't that a bitch? Yes, a bitch. And
21:22
so we just had that like conversation with our eyeballs.
21:25
I remember telling like a PA
21:27
what happened. I was like, this is just like fucked up. And I'm
21:30
like, I don't know why he's
21:32
treating me like this. Not cool. So
21:34
she was like, I'll talk to him. So then he like
21:36
wanted to call me and talk about it. And
21:39
I didn't pick up because I was like, on my way to
21:41
somewhere, he left me this like
21:44
voicemail that I was just like,
21:47
my God, this
21:49
is becoming like about his feelings.
21:52
And I texted her, I was like, I don't need to call him back.
21:54
We don't need to talk about this. I was like, I'm really
21:57
uninterested in this narrative. Like, I
21:59
just wouldn't move.
21:59
want me not
22:02
giving the reaction that is
22:06
expected in those situations through
22:09
those folks for a loop.
22:13
You can't control what people say
22:15
to you, but you can control how you
22:17
react to it. I had to
22:19
sort of figure out what
22:22
kind of person I was going to be in
22:24
this business. Am
22:27
I going to let people's perception
22:29
of me defy me
22:31
or am I going to say they don't know me at all?
22:34
They can have whatever perception they want of me,
22:36
go forth, keep having it, but I know
22:39
who I am, what I am, what my worth
22:42
is, and how
22:45
I view myself.
22:49
It just really made me sort
22:52
of have a little more
22:54
self-confidence. Chapter 8,
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The Cover.
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What if you don't see eye to eye with your collaborators?
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Pitch your vision from a place of joy.
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So Plume is great. Love
23:20
him so much. Love and light. I love, I love, I
23:22
love, I love. Just saying. I love, I love, I love.
23:25
But they were like, hey, um,
23:27
quick quash. Can
23:29
we just take one of like your
23:32
pictures off your Facebook to make
23:35
it the cover?
23:36
And I was like,
23:38
would you ask Stephen King that or
23:40
would you spend the like $300 to fucking shoot
23:43
this cover? I didn't say that. That's
23:45
what I thought. But I was like, I don't think that makes sense.
23:47
Let's not be cheap here.
23:51
I was like, I just love album
23:53
covers that are just of people's faces.
23:55
Like Phil Collins, Adele,
23:58
you know, just like a tight shadow of a face. I was like,
24:00
I just love that. I
24:03
was like, I already have a photographer, Mindy Tucker, who
24:06
is renowned in
24:08
the state of comedy seen as
24:10
just one of the top photographers. And
24:13
then this wig, that's
24:15
like some cheapy wig that was like,
24:18
20 bucks,
24:22
maybe 30. So
24:24
I was like, okay, we're just gonna do face. Curly
24:27
wig, we got, you can't touch
24:29
my hair and I'm
24:31
gonna be giving like a no-nonsense
24:34
look.
24:35
That's what we should do. And
24:38
then we're like, okay. Cause obviously
24:40
that's like very easy to shoot. It
24:44
just worked. I think it's so fun for the
24:47
book. I think it captures your
24:49
eye if you're in Barnes and Noble. I
24:51
just love
24:52
that cover so much. So,
24:54
so much. Ah. I
24:59
love how Phoebe's tone changes when
25:02
she starts talking about her favorite album covers.
25:05
In a frustrating moment, she's choosing
25:07
to turn to what brings her joy.
25:12
Chapter nine,
25:13
out in the world.
25:18
Robert and Kate called
25:20
me, tried to be
25:23
like, well,
25:25
you know, Phoebe, we
25:27
got some information in and I was
25:30
like, ah, no, no, no, you're not gonna
25:32
try to raise my blood pressure.
25:35
What is going on? And
25:41
they were like, you made the New York Times best
25:43
sellers list. Oh
25:45
my God. I can't, like
25:48
I was just freaking out. I was like, this is happening on my first
25:50
book. It's so crazy. It's so exciting.
25:53
Granny from ear to ear.
26:02
I was in LA on set
26:05
and I saw like a
26:08
number I didn't recognize.
26:12
And I just was like, I'm just going to
26:14
set this to silent because I
26:16
owe student
26:19
loans and some credit cards. I don't want to have
26:21
to like answer and put on like my
26:24
talking about money in front of white people voice. So
26:27
I just was like, I'm going to ignore this call.
26:32
And then I was in a pitch
26:34
meeting. The phone call happened
26:36
again. I listened to the
26:39
voicemail. A
26:42
voicemail
26:43
from all the pros. And
26:47
I was like, you sent
26:49
her the voicemail? I
26:55
got out of this meeting. I was like, let me call back. I said,
26:57
call back and this dude answers. And
27:00
I'm like, who this? And
27:05
he's like, who is this? I
27:10
didn't have my mind together. I was like
27:12
being aggressive with men on the phone. Like I was
27:14
just not, I was out here acting wild.
27:18
Oprah got on, just said such lovely
27:20
things to me and so nice. And
27:23
she got it in the way
27:25
that I intended it. Got the
27:27
celebration of black girlhood. Got
27:29
the celebration of being a feminist.
27:36
I'm a believer that like the book is mine
27:38
until
27:39
it's out in the world and then it's everyone
27:41
bringing their perspective to
27:43
the book. And that is like what makes the final product.
27:47
And like people got it.
27:53
All those like publishers
27:55
who said that no one would get it
27:58
and like it's not relatable. The
28:03
truth is, you
28:06
don't really fucking know.
28:19
Chapter 10, What the Book Means
28:22
to Me Now.
28:25
Whenever I get the question like, what do you hope for people
28:27
to take away from your book, I'm like, I don't
28:30
know. I just want it to
28:32
entertain me.
28:35
I want to feel good and have fun because
28:37
this stuff is too hard to do otherwise,
28:40
I think. You
28:43
can tell there was a lot of joy in the writing
28:45
of the book. Nothing
28:48
feels belabored. It doesn't feel like
28:50
a burden. It feels like, oh, this is a person
28:52
who sat down and really
28:54
wanted to write this today. Just
29:04
do this stuff that you really love and that
29:07
authenticity will just spread
29:09
out when people
29:11
get it. I
29:37
want to thank Phoebe for sharing her story with
29:39
us, and I want to thank you for listening. I
29:41
hope you heard things you can bring into your own work.
29:44
It might be how Phoebe started out writing
29:46
blog posts that made her laugh and
29:48
followed her love of writing from there.
29:51
Or maybe it's how she reframed
29:53
the idea of guilty pleasures and that it's
29:55
okay to feel good.
29:56
And in fact, our work is better if we
29:59
feel good.
30:00
Or maybe it's how, when she was frustrated
30:02
with her imprint, Phoebe chose to tap
30:04
into what brought her joy.
30:06
And in the process, created her dream
30:08
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30:10
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30:44
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30:50
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30:58
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31:13
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31:16
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31:17
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31:19
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31:22
and Charlie Meneses.
31:26
Double hand
31:40
It's messy! It's messy,
31:42
it's messy, I'm seeing things everywhere,
31:45
and I'm just like... like I saw this play
31:48
three weeks ago so it's... why do I still
31:50
have the playbill on my desk?
31:52
And then if I'm stressed out I have
31:54
this little thing that's really cute that I found on Amazon
31:57
and it's a little llama that I can just...
31:59
squeeze. If
32:02
I ever get stuck and I'm just like it's okay then
32:04
you're stuck just squeeze squeeze and you'll
32:06
come up with an idea and it's got
32:08
a couple little like wear and tears in it but I love
32:11
it it's so cute.
32:13
I think I named him Eddie. So
32:17
this is Eddie the Llama but
32:20
I had Eddie the Llama
32:22
sitting next to oh what did I
32:24
do with it?
32:27
There's a picture of me and Bono. Where
32:32
did I put the picture of me and Bono?
32:36
But usually I had to hide
32:38
it yesterday but usually I have the picture of Bono and
32:41
I just together
32:43
as you know good friends.
32:46
Yeah when you squeeze Eddie like
32:48
parts of his body just sort of like bulge
32:51
out and it's so cute and so
32:53
fun and I used to need it more
32:55
but I feel like you know through therapy
32:58
and my life coach I'm less stressed
33:00
and I'm more just like
33:02
listen bitch if someone's causing you stress
33:04
then you just kick them the fuck out like you
33:09
don't need to squeeze Eddie just tell them that although
33:12
I am I am mildly
33:14
panicking about where this picture
33:16
of
33:17
I'm trying to be so cool but I'm like where's
33:19
this picture of Bono and I? It's okay it's
33:22
okay.
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