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And welcome to another episode of Stuck My Mind
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podcast. I'm your host, w I z e, and my next guest is
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an entrepreneur, a men's coach, and the fearless host of the
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Nico Legan Show. Welcome to the show,
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Nico Legan. Hello. Oh, okay. Alright.
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Oh, that's great. Realize we're doing it live. So I'm like, I
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have a StreamYard account. I'm like, I'm gonna share this with my guy, you
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know, to to be part of the what's going on? Thanks for having me on,
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and I guess you can't fix stupid as you were saying it.
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Whoops. Oh, man. It happens. It happens. How you doing,
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brother, man? Life is interesting, man. It is.
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It is. Life is very, very, very, very interesting,
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with people online. And, man
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Yeah. Man, there's some people out there that
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you just can't help. Yeah. No. No. I I feel you. But,
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yo. Alright. So can you share a bit of your personal journey and and how
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it led you led you on your mission as a men's coach and
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an advocate for moderate masculinity? Man, where do you
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wanna go? Where do you wanna start with this? Because that start with start with
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the journey. Let's start with the journey because I I I've I've read up a
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little bit on your journey and everything. Former addict, former drug
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dealer. Let's let's start with them, man. What what what what
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what led you down that path? Lack of a father
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figure. You know, like most men look look at men
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throughout history. There's a good reason. You look at tribes, you look at societies, you
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look at any type of place where there was
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people hanging out under the same belief system.
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They always add rights of passages for men. Men
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are made. Boys are born, men are made. And men
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are made through trials and tribulations. And
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we all need this. It's like it's coded in our DNA when we're
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boys, men, and even as mature men, even today, I look up to
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people. There's certain men out there I'm gonna look up to. There's there's a
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guy I know I look up to. We always look for people
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that we can try to emulate, people that we believe are good people,
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good men. We're like, I wanna be like him. I wonder how he did it.
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How can I be like that guy? And when my dad left,
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not that he was extremely present prior to this, but when he left,
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that kinda left a void. And, you know, Steve Harvey, I should
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learn the quote, but I absolutely love what he says. But,
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basically, what he means is that when a father leaves, it
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leaves a hole in the soul of his son in his
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shape. So if the father leaves, there's a massive hole that
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needs to be filled. And what did I know at 14
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years old what a good man was? So I tried to fill that a hole
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with what I believe was a good man, but I had no idea what it
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was. So before you like, back then, I was a big
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fan of rap music, and I'm not talking about the the weak
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stuff that you hear today. Like, I'm talking about the gangsters, the guys that
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come that came from nothing, like the Wu Tang, the NOS, the Mobb Deep, the
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Tupac, the Biggie, the the guys that sold drugs that did a lot of bad
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things in order to get there. But when I looked at it, those guys had
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money. They had women. They had cars. They had success. They had fame. I'm like,
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man, those guys are doing something right. And as funny as it
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sounds to say this today, I wanted to be the 1st white rapper,
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and that was before Eminem was a thing. Right? So, technically, I
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wasn't that I wasn't that messed up. Like, it it was a
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possibility. I was never that great on Sondex. It was
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not going to happen, but the point in the matter is that I
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idolize the wrong people. And, you know, look at people today, there's
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no difference. Like, I just posted a video the other day about Britney Spears,
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about what I remember of Britney Spears in the eighties nineties.
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And I started looking, you know, her her
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target audience are are are young women between 16 to 25
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years old. You know how many followers she has all throughout her
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platform? A 100 50,000,000 followers.
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And if you look at what she was and what she looks like now, she's
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not a good role model. She is not a role model women young
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women should have. If you have kids which are women and they
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follow that woman, you need to explain to your kids that
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this is a woman that has issues, that she needs to deal with those issues.
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But we don't do that anymore. Like, we look at what the
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our idols are right now. We're looking at we're we're looking
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at famous people, famous actors. What did they know? Yeah.
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What did they know about real life? You look at us. Yeah. What did
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they know about real life? I I'm not saying that you
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look at an athlete. That guy dedicated a lot of his life, if not
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most of his life to get where he where he's at today. He's probably extremely
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disciplined, extremely trained. He's very focused on what
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needs to happen. Does that make him a good person? No. That that
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gives him good attributes that could make him a good person,
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but that doesn't make him a good person. How many of those guys spend most
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of their money helping others? Not a lot. There's some, but most of them
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don't because we're selfish. And that's exactly what I was. I was selfish. I
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didn't care about anybody else than myself. So everything I did was for my
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own little pleasure. And there was nobody there to teach me to
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say, listen, as a man, you need to be serving others.
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Because that's what men are supposed to do. If you look throughout history,
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men build societies in which their
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family can thrive in. Because nature's brutal.
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So let's build a wall between us and nature by creating societies where
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we can all participate and build a better place for our children and our
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wives. That's what men do. We we build, we protect,
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and we provide for them. But we don't teach that to our kids anymore
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because this is technically saying that there's gender rules. And
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how dare you say that there's gender rules. Right? But at the same
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time, 33 to 40% of young men right now are raised
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without their father in the house. Can a woman really teach a a
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boy how to become a how to become a man? They can't. It
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takes a man to teach a man to teach a boy how to become a
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man in the same way as a father can't teach his daughter how to become
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a woman. But he can make sure that he's surrounded that he surrounds
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her by women that are good women that can teach her. And the
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same is true for men. And this is what I lacked. My mother did not
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do that. My mother did not think about this, so my mother tried to play
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both roles. But what happens when you're trying to be the mother and the father
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at the same time? You mess up both. And that's
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what happened. And, you know, within the span of a year or so,
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I was dropping out of school. I was partying every day. I was a
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drug addict. I was drinking every day, which makes me an alcoholic.
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I was a thief. I was selling drugs to support a habit.
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Within 3 years, I lived by myself. And
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now all I did is that. I didn't care about anything else.
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All I did was party, sell
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drugs to support my habits. That's it. That was my life for almost 7
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years. Wow.
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But that's what happens when men are left without supervision. Like,
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back in the days, like, 20, I'm 41. So 27 years
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ago, this was not the norm. But
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today, you're talking about 33% to 40 percent of boys,
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depending on the study that you look at, are growing up with other fathers.
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And I'm not saying the father's left. I'm just saying that there's divorce rates.
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And 90% of the time that there's a divorce, the kids end up with the
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with the mother. And the father is extracted. Like, he he's not in a
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relationship or he sees them every now and then. Whenever she feels that they can
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that he can see his sons. So
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we're we're left in a situation that I'm not an exception anymore. I'm I'm starting
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to be what you
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you can find everything you're looking for online. But yet
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the knowledge, the understanding of what you should be looking for is not there
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anymore. So I imagine I only had access to a
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few things that I like that I thought was good with
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my very limited understanding. But imagine today, you take your phone,
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you can deep dive in anything you want, anything you want.
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So we also live in a society that
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we idolize sociopath. If
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you know a bit about psychology and you look at most CEOs of
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massive companies, they're sociopath. What's a sociopath? Somebody that lacks
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empathy. We don't teach empathy anymore. We just
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how many people have you heard in your life that are self made millionaire?
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Bullshit. There's not one. I don't believe for a second that there's somebody that's a
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self made millionaire. There's somebody somewhere that helped you out. You didn't do it
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alone, but that's how selfish we are. That's what we tell people. So instead
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of telling our sons to you should you should
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nurture relationships, You should surround yourself by great people,
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people you look up to that can teach you the ropes, that can show you
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what it is to be a man. We tell you to be selfish because you
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can do it alone without anybody else in your life, which we both know
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that's not true. We both know those are lies. And
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what happens when you do that, you end up like I was.
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And that and that's something, me and my nephew, we talk about this all the
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time is the lack of a village, is
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is the lack of of a community, and the lack
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of people building together. And and that's what they've taken away.
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They've taken away communities where people were like,
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growing up, I couldn't do like, in the neighborhood I grew up in, I
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couldn't do anything without my mother finding out by the time I got
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home. Seriously. Like, I and
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and and I would like, I'm 47 years old, so I come from a time
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where I come from a time that you come from where if you did
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something wrong like, on my in my in my neighborhood, if you did something wrong,
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it wasn't it wasn't crazy if you if the neighborhoods
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kinda took a whack at you too. Uh-huh. Yeah. It it
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was it was different. It was a different time. We respect our elders.
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It it was it was like I I know every time I seen someone
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that was a mother one of my mother's friends or whatever, it was like, oh,
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good good afternoon, missus so and so, whatever. We was very respectful.
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Mhmm. And and now it just seems that now we don't have
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that community aspect. Like, a lot of people don't even know their neighbor.
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They don't even communicate with their neighbor. They don't have no type of relationships with
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their neighbors. And, you know, the the African proverb that says
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that it takes a village to raise a a kid, and it's a
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100% true. I totally agree with you. And, you know, go even further
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than that. Look at the difference between living in the city and living outside the
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city. I spent most of my life I I come from a small town,
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then I spent 20 years in big cities, and then over the
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past 4 years, I spent 2 and a half of it in the middle of
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nowhere. And then I've been on the road exploring the US for
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almost 14 months now. So I'm used to going to small
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portions or the RV parks so that's always outside the city.
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I wouldn't trade living in the city for living in smaller
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communities any day of the week. Like, never gonna happen. The
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difference is night and day. People actually care.
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And once you understand psychology, it makes sense. Like, there's a there's a book that's
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called, tribal leadership, which is
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mostly for business people. But the the the aspect of it explains
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that over a 150 people in a company,
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your company starts fractioning itself.
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It starts breaking out into smaller tribe.
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And it's interesting because when you start to
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understand the reason why is you can only learn so many
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names. You can only deal with so many people in a day to day base
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that you you won't care for the outside of a 150 people,
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it's almost impossible for you to know so many people to have personal
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relationships with those people to a point that you care for them. So what happens?
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It fractions, and that's what big cities do. It's it's there's so
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many people altogether that you never take the time because you know it's
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not possible. Deep down in your head, you know that it's not possible for you
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to know everybody. So you don't know anybody. You and what happens
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when you don't know people? You don't care for them. What happens when you don't
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care for them? You're selfish. Because you don't have compassion, you're not kind, you
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don't you simply don't see the relationship between you and
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others. And, you know, we're
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basically all from the same place. We're all interconnected.
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And, you know, in Buddhism, they say that in order to
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know the world, know yourself. Start by
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knowing yourself, you will know the universe because we're all we're all connected.
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We're all part of the same whole. Very interesting when you think
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well, it's interesting in a way that this is not common sense anymore.
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It's not common knowledge anymore. To say that you need others in
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order to get better, that you get
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better by serving others, that you should lead
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by example, as Gandhi said,
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be the change in the world you wanna see. Life is
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not that complicated when you when you consider it. The day the day that I
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started taking accountability for my actions, the day I realized that I was
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not a good person, that I was a I was a thief. I heard a
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lot of people that I loved. I was selfish. I didn't care. I just didn't
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care. The day I realized that I was really an asshole, I'm
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like, ouch. This, this makes me a
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very bad person. I have two choices. I continue being the way I
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am. But now that I know, I can't. I'm
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I I I even though I did not
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care, now that I know, I have to care. I have
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to be better. I have to do something different. And that's where that's
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where it's it all stems from, accountability. Take
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accountability for your actions. Hell, like, hold yourself
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accountable for your actions because you chose them. You don't you
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don't choose the cards you're dealt. We're all born in a different situation,
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but the way you choose to play them, that's a 100% on you.
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So so how do you address those challenges and criticisms that come with
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your unapologetic unapologetic and your controversial
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approach to advocating for masculinity. How do I deal with it? Yeah. I'll
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be very blunt with you. Exactly like this. There you go. This is how I
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handle it. Two middle fingers right up in the air. Hey. Listen.
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I I don't do anything to piss people off. I don't I don't wake up
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in the morning and say, I will create some content today to really piss
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people off. That's not my intent. But at the same time, I'm not
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gonna tiptoe around your opinions or your feelings because they might get hurt
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or you might get triggered. That doesn't belong to me. But what I talk
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about, I feel it needs to be said. Like, we're talking about
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just before this. We're talking about a video about Trump that's saying that
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Biden's not gonna make it. You know what? I'm not a Republican, although people think
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I am. But I'm not a Republican. I'm not a Democrat. But when
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somebody says something right, I agree with it. When somebody says something
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wrong, I disagree with it. It doesn't matter to me that yesterday I agreed with
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him, and today I disagree with him. I don't know anybody I agree with a
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100%, and I never will. So what's the problem
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with that? How is that controversial to say that, you know what? Donald Trump is
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right when he says that. Oh, RFK said something else. I don't agree with a
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lot of things he says, but you know what? In that case, he's right. Bill
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Maher, same thing. I don't agree with 90% of what he says, but sometimes he's
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right. And when he is, I'll talk about it. I'll share it. I don't go
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out there to say on purpose, let's piss people off.
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But what's right is right. We we as men are supposed to be
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courageous. This is the number one thing. Every man out there should be courageous. If
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you're not courageous, that means you're not dependable. Because in a stress environment,
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in a in a stress situation, nobody knows how you're gonna react because you're not
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courageous. Somebody that's courageous is always gonna react the same way. Do
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what needs to get done when it needs to get done no matter the situation
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in which he finds himself in. But if you're not courageous, you're not
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we we can't know how you're gonna react. So your family can depend on
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you, your community can depend on you. And you're
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asking me how do I do it simply by being courageous. I know every
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single time I post something that a third to half of the comments are not
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gonna be good. Every time I open my phone, I turn my phone on and
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I I I sorry. I turn my apps on and I go check. I know
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for a fact that it's gonna be stuff insulting me left and right. That's fine.
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I don't care. It's my, I don't know if you
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believe in God, but I do. And I believe that God will always
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give me something I can handle, no matter what. I know what I'm supposed to
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do. I have purpose in this life to help others
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no matter what the consequences are. Like me or not, that's fine. I I
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will live my purpose no matter what it means. I don't have a relationship
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with my family because they don't like the way I am. I'm not gonna apologize
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for it. It doesn't belong to me. You don't agree with me? That's
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fine. That's okay. But at the
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same time, am I gonna stop sharing my opinions because people
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might not like it? I quit my corporate job that I could have stayed at
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for the rest of my life and makes 100 and 100 of 1000 every year,
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But I didn't like it because I couldn't share my opinion. So I'd
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rather I'd rather share my opinion and start from the
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beginning again, then just coast around for the rest
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of my life, keeping not standing up for anything, not being
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courageous, just letting people tell me what I should believe and
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live a life of I don't wanna say a
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mediocre life, but years ago, I read a
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study that the guys went around and they spoke to people that were
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dying on their deathbed. And they asked them, what are
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your biggest regrets? You know what the biggest regret is?
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Living a life that others expected of them and not living the life they wanted
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to live. Never. Since
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I read that, I'm like, hell no. Never gonna happen. I will live
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I'm a good person. Deep down, I'm a good man. I mean well.
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If everything that I do, I do it with good intentions.
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I follow my heart. So
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can you say that I'm doing wrong? No. I'm not.
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Plus the truth hurts. In a world where common
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sense is no longer common, the truth
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hurts. So am I surprised that people are calling me
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names or calling me this or calling me that? No. Because if they didn't, that
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means I wasn't going to have an I wasn't having an impact. The more
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people I hate, the more I know deep down they
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care. Because if they didn't care, you know what they would have done? They would
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have skipped forward. They just would have skipped they would have skipped to the next
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one, but they took the time. When somebody calls me name,
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you took time out of your day to stop,
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press comment, write a comment, type post, and I respond
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to most comments. And if you respond on top
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of it, you care. Because if you didn't, you would have skipped.
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So at the end of the day, you care. So I will engage with you.
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Makes sense. Definitely makes sense. I think so. Thank you. I
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appreciate that because in my head, it makes sense to you.
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So so what inspired you to write your book Purpose? How you
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how following your personal legend is the answer to your mid midlife crisis?
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Because I went through it. I I you know,
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back in 2020 when we all know what happened happened,
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I I was put in a situation because I refused to take
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the medication. I was threatened by my job that
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they would fire me. And in Canada, the restrictions were brutal.
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And, you know, when that happened, I I moved to
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the woods because I was a sales engineer. I was wearing a suit. I was
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in front of customers day in, day out. Right? So I needed to be in
20:57
the city where my customers were. But I had an investment house in the middle
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of nowhere. So when all of that got canceled, I'm like, okay. I can
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work remotely. I'll work from the middle of nowhere. So I literally lived
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imagine this for a second. The most Canadian thing you can imagine, log house,
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top of a mountain in the middle of the woods. That's where I lived.
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And I stayed there for two and a half years. And for about a year
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and a half, I was by myself. And as an
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extrovert that normally had woke up at 3 or 4 o'clock in the
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morning, studied, went to the gym,
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went to work, taught martial arts. Those were my
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days. This is what I did day in, day out. Now I was in a
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situation with no distractions. I had my my 9 to 5 still, but but all
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the rest of the time I was by myself doing
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what? I had nobody around me. I built myself a gym,
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so, okay, I was exercising. But outside of that, I spent time alone with
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my dog. You tend to have a lot of
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time to reflect on yourself and reflect on
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what you've done. And considering I was in a situation where I was being threatened
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by my job, like, that was my career that I worked at for about
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20 years to get where I was, that were threatening me, this
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and that. If you don't do this, this is what's gonna happen. I'm like, okay.
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Cool. I don't control this. But what do I
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control? My reaction. Right? So what are my
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transferable skills? What can I do? It's no different. Most most
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people out there might not be faced with a job
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that's trying to fire you. But the feeling after a while,
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like, between 35 to 45, you will every man out there gets to a point
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where they start looking at what they they've accomplished. And
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and you know what? That's a fact that I'm halfway there. If you if
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you think that life expense, expectancy for a man is between
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72 and 80, that means as a 41 year old, I'm more than halfway
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there. I'm on the back 9 as I I like to play golf. I'm on
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the back 9. Coming back to the I'm coming I'm on my way back
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to, to putting my stuff in my car and calling it a day.
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Right? Yeah. You start to realize, you're like, what have I accomplished?
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What have I done? Have I helped others? Have I? Have I
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helped others? And then you start realizing that,
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man, I'm meant for more than just this. I'm meant for more than
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just a 9 to 5. If we take into consideration that the
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biggest regret is not living a life that
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you wanted to live, that puts it in perspective to me
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to say, maybe you, you know, spending time alone by
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myself is the best thing I've ever done because it gave me time to
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reflect. It gave me time to be bored. It gave me time to think. It
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gave me time to reevaluate everything
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that I thought was real to me. Because when you're just grinding,
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grinding, grinding, grinding, grinding, grinding, grinding, day in, day out, time
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flies. Next thing you know, you're 45 years old, you're like, ew, what the
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hell just happened? And most men don't have the
23:56
structure to say they don't have a man, an older guy to say, hey, bro,
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you gotta be careful, man. You gotta be careful because the
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next thing you know, you'll be 60. Now what are you gonna
24:08
do? That we don't have people around us to smack us on the shoulder and
24:11
say, bro, it's time for you to calm down a second. Sit
24:15
back and you know, if you were smart, you built a career, you built
24:19
knowledge. There's nothing stopping you for start doing it,
24:22
doing something else, something that's going to be more meaningful in your
24:26
life. Because, you know, purpose the book
24:30
Purpose I wrote for men 35 I like to think like, let's say, let's
24:34
say 40. Men around 40. I assume that if
24:37
you're at that point in your life, you had children, you provided
24:41
for them, you did the best that you could to be there for your children.
24:46
That means that for the first time in your life, because think about it, to
24:48
me there's 3 purposes. A boy becoming a man through rights of
24:52
passages, through more mature men teaching him how to do that. A man
24:56
becoming a good man, a man that's dependable, a man that's a protector,
24:59
that's a provider, a man that serves. And then once that guy has
25:03
served, he's been selfless for a long time. Now
25:07
he's like, okay. I'm at a point where my kids are taken care of, my
25:10
wife's taken care of, I have a career, I have skills, I have knowledge, I
25:14
have wisdom. What's the next step? What can I do to really leave an
25:17
impact on this planet? Whatever that means to you because we all have a different
25:21
path to follow. But that's the question. This is what
25:25
the middle life crisis is for a man, but we ridiculed it to a point
25:28
where men don't even wanna say it anymore. They don't even wanna
25:32
admit that they feel like shit that they're like, man. And and we're
25:36
talking guys have careers. We're talking brilliant guys, but at the the middle
25:39
of their soul, they're like, man, there has to be something more than this.
25:43
That can't be it. That just can't be it. That's
25:47
why the that's why I wrote the book. Because as I I went through it
25:50
and then I reflected over the past year and I'm like, man, there there
25:54
has to be men that are going through the exact same thing.
25:58
And what do you do? What do those men
26:02
do? Because that's the question. Right? Yeah. No. It
26:05
was for me, like like you said, I was
26:09
just going through the motion of life. I didn't have my purpose. I didn't know
26:13
what else. I didn't know what I was meant to do in in this world.
26:17
And, I got furloughed from my job, and
26:22
I was home doing
26:25
nothing, isolated from everybody because I live in the mountains in
26:28
Pennsylvania. Nice. So so it was it was
26:32
nothing much to do, and I started
26:36
podcasting Mhmm. And and
26:39
started having some wonderful conversations and started learning so much and
26:43
started developing skills, like editing
26:46
audio, video, all these different these different things that I didn't
26:50
know I was capable of doing. It's not it's not like I was I'm from
26:54
the media. No. I'm a I'm a table games dealer at a casino.
26:58
Nice. And and so but I had I've
27:02
had some life experiences. I was widowed at 31,
27:06
spent many years being self destructive, didn't care
27:09
about life. And it was just like I suffered one tragedy after another
27:13
after another. And I was lost for some for for quite a few
27:17
years, like, just drinking myself to a drunken stupid,
27:21
just just being self destructive. And
27:25
and one day, and I'm I'm not a religious
27:29
person. I don't follow a certain religion, but I am a believer. I do
27:32
believe in God. I I and so one day, I'm I'm
27:37
I'm going through all the struggles that I'm going through and everything, and
27:40
something speaks to me and says, this isn't your path. You're you're
27:44
better than this. You need to get you need to turn your life around.
27:48
And and and after that after I after that, I
27:52
went, sought sought help, started speaking to a counselor
27:55
to deal with my grief and everything that I've been through and just
27:59
started changing my mindset. Stop focusing on and
28:03
on on being angry all the
28:06
time over some things that I had no control over Mhmm.
28:10
And and and started focusing more on
28:14
what what am what am I supposed to be? What am I supposed to do?
28:16
What am I here for? And I started getting into
28:20
self development. I got back into self development and
28:24
just changed my mindset and started focusing on on living
28:28
being a better being a good man. And when I started doing
28:32
that, things started falling in place. I I I met my wife that I'm with
28:36
now, started just things just
28:39
started going in a much better
28:43
direction. And it it took me
28:48
to really face the grief that I was
28:52
dealing with and and face everything that was just the
28:55
anger issues. Mhmm. Because my
28:59
I hence, like, it was crazy because I lose my wife in 08.
29:04
09, I reunite with my father that I haven't I haven't seen
29:08
in 25 years. Didn't know nothing
29:12
about him. Reunite with
29:15
him. I go see him Father's Day weekend
29:20
of 09. I get there Friday.
29:24
I I forgive him. We we we say y'all peace and all
29:28
everything. The next morning, he passes away.
29:32
That's a beautiful thing, man. So it was like
29:35
I'm like so I'm going through I'm I'm just not 1 year removed from losing
29:39
my wife to reunite with my dad only to lose him the next
29:42
day. And so I'm like,
29:48
why me? Why am I such a bad person that all this is happening to
29:51
me? And then late a few years later, I realized
29:55
that if God
29:59
didn't believe I was strong enough to handle these situations,
30:03
he wouldn't have put this the the he wouldn't have put this on me. You're
30:06
banging on. Yeah. If he didn't think I could deal with this
30:10
and deal with these struggles and deal with then he it it wouldn't have been
30:13
put on me. God will never get give you something you
30:17
can't handle. Yeah. That doesn't mean he's not gonna push you to the
30:21
extreme, that he's not gonna kick you to your knees and say, you know
30:24
what, bro? Let's go. On the contrary, that he will do
30:28
that, but it's never more than you can handle. You can
30:32
always, always handle it. Yeah. Like I said, I'm not a
30:35
religious person, but I am a spiritual person. I do believe in God. I believe
30:39
I do believe I have a purpose, and and and
30:43
being able to to do my podcast and express myself and have
30:47
these conversations and have people come tell tell their stories.
30:50
Mhmm. It's been it's
30:54
been amazing because when I get those messages from people, they're like, yo,
30:58
this episode I heard from you, thank you. Mhmm.
31:01
Or this episode over here, man, oh, man. It was really great
31:05
conversation. And it's those comments that I'm like,
31:08
okay. If I impacted one person's life, I am doing
31:12
the right thing because it's a ripple effect. You don't know what kind of
31:16
effect that person's gonna have on someone else. How
31:20
do you change the world? One man at a time. Mhmm. How
31:23
do you change the world? One community at a time. One
31:27
man changes one community, one community ends up changing the world.
31:31
It's it's very simple when you think about it,
31:34
but it means you need to embrace something greater
31:38
than yourself. And, you know,
31:41
you you look at today, I'm not somebody that believes in depression. I don't think
31:45
depression is real. I think depression's a cop out. And the reason I say this
31:49
is have you ever met somebody that has purpose that's
31:53
depressed? Have you ever met somebody
31:57
that's depressed that has purpose? So,
32:01
you know, a man a man's life without purpose is meaningless.
32:06
No doubt they're gonna be depressed because they don't know why they're here. Yeah.
32:09
Is there something more torturing for your mind
32:14
than not knowing where you belong, not knowing why you're here?
32:17
And and take even further than that. Imagine that you believe with
32:21
all your soul that you don't belong.
32:25
Not that you don't know because it escalates. Right? You can
32:29
be convinced that you have no reasons to be here.
32:33
Like, look at what happened with your father. You lose your you lose your wife
32:36
in 0 8, then in 0 9, you meet your father after 25 years and
32:39
then he dies. There's 2 ways you can see this. You
32:43
can see it as, man, god's punishing me.
32:47
What did I do wrong? It's his fault. What an asshole. That guy
32:50
that there there's no such thing as a loving God. I'm the living proof and
32:54
say, screw you, man. I don't like you and get away from
32:57
me. Or you can understand that you gave your
33:01
father probably the best gift you could have given him. That the only reason he
33:04
died the day after is because he was at peace. So
33:08
there's this is really where being mindful of
33:12
what's going on, like, around you understanding that there's no
33:16
such thing as coincidences. Everything happens for a reason. The only reason
33:19
you don't understand why is because you're not taking the time to understand
33:23
it. Or it's possible that you're not supposed to understand that
33:27
you do not possess all the knowledge. Like, I say this all the time where
33:30
human beings, we play checkers. God plays chess.
33:34
We have no idea what all the moves are. We have no idea
33:38
that our suffering right now is to build us in order to produce
33:42
something better 10 years from now. Because pain and suffering are the
33:46
greatest of teachers. Nobody changes because everything's going well in their
33:49
lives. People change when they hit rock bottom, when
33:53
continuing to do the same thing is no longer an option because they arts
33:57
too much. This is when people change. When you're
34:01
you know, Einstein described insanity as doing the same thing
34:04
over and over and over again expecting a different result. This is what
34:08
happens when somebody changes. When when there's really deep rooted change
34:11
in someone is because they're so much in pain
34:15
that they don't have a choice. It's no longer an option. You need to change
34:19
because you cannot take it anymore. And your two choices
34:22
are put a bullet through your head, or just admit that if your
34:26
life sucks, it's your fault. That happiness is not a
34:30
goal, is not a destination. It's a mindset. You choose
34:34
to be happy. You choose to see good things in your life. Because guess what?
34:38
You might be happy this morning and be pissed at night. That's life.
34:41
That's life. And it's a it's
34:45
a state of mind. And you can't build that state of
34:49
mind if you don't take accountability for who you are, for what you are and
34:52
what you should become. So to me hearing that I never got the chance
34:56
to speak to my father. Like when he left I saw him in a handful
34:59
of time. He died when I was 29. And I wish I would have sat
35:03
down with him. I wish I would have taken the time to just go see
35:07
him even if it was just for one day, just to say no
35:10
judgment, no nothing. I'm not pissed at him for leaving. I'm
35:14
not. It's you know? I'm not I don't know the whole story. Yeah. I
35:18
know what my mother told me, but when's the last time you
35:21
heard somebody hold a 100% of the facts? Never. It's
35:25
always the way they perceive it, and then he asked the other person.
35:29
It's a different way. And, you know, I look at the relationship that I
35:33
have with my mother now, and I can see how she could have made his
35:36
life extremely difficult to see us. Am I apologizing for
35:39
him? No. Because he was a coward. But
35:43
does that mean he he did not deserve to be loved by his son? Does
35:47
that need does that mean that he couldn't have been there for
35:50
his son? I don't believe that anybody's too far gone to be
35:54
saved. I don't think that you know, there's
35:58
situations where it's gonna be very rough, but
36:03
look at you. 25 years later, do you know how much hate he must have
36:07
had for himself to have done that? And after a while, it's just
36:10
he's so it's so normal to him to be in pain that he just takes
36:14
it. It doesn't hurt enough, but he just takes it. That's what the comfort
36:17
zone is. Right? But yet chances are
36:21
you gave him peace before he died. That's a
36:25
that's beautiful, bro. Like, really, that's that's super cool, like, from a third
36:29
party. He's I'm talking as a third party. I'm not saying it was cool to
36:32
you, but to me No. No. It it it was it was it was
36:36
like that and it's crazy because, my brother from
36:39
from from his from from my father's side, he's
36:43
he he called it. He said he told my younger brother, he says when
36:47
when when dad sees will, he he's gonna he's
36:50
gonna move on. Because he was sick already. He was and his
36:54
thing was, I'm I'm gonna die, and I'm never gonna see my son again. Mhmm.
36:58
I'm never gonna be able to tell my son how much I love him. And
37:01
and so when when I was and I had and the crazy thing was I
37:05
had already forgiven him years prior. Mhmm. And
37:08
so to to really sit down
37:12
with him and tell him, like, listen. It's okay. I'm I'm fine.
37:16
I'm it's it's legit. Like,
37:20
I I I'm no longer angry with you. We can build something
37:23
from here on out. And so to to
37:27
have that closure in a way was it
37:31
was something that was it was really
37:35
at at the moment, at that time, I wasn't looking at it that way. I
37:38
was Oh, okay. It was more it was more why
37:42
me? Why why why does god hate me so much? And
37:45
but years later, after
37:49
when when I got out of my own head and got out of the clouds
37:52
and and really started wanting to live,
37:56
it it it was that, okay.
38:00
Yeah. He we got closure. I was able to tell him,
38:04
I forgive you for for everything that I've been
38:07
through and and not having you in my life for the last so being able
38:11
to to express that to him and and let
38:14
him know that it was we were good we were on good terms.
38:18
And so now I realize, yes, it was it was
38:22
a it was a special moment.
38:26
And, you know, it this is why God is so beautiful when it comes to
38:30
this. He gave you an opportunity to
38:34
have closure. Mhmm. This is something I will never
38:37
have. I will never have that type of closure with my biological dad. It's never
38:41
gonna happen. But at the same time, the fact that he left
38:45
and left out a hole has given me purpose.
38:49
I do this. I wouldn't be doing what I'm doing right now
38:53
if I hadn't been through it. So at
38:56
the same this is why I can't be pissed at my dad. I'm not mad
39:00
at him. I'm not men, if I if I meet him in heaven, it'll be
39:04
all hugging. I'll give him a handshake. I'll hug him and that'll be the end
39:07
of it. Because at the end of the day, my life purpose is based on
39:11
helping men because he left. So as much as he did it
39:15
in the wrong way, the effect
39:19
again, we play checkers, God plays chess. You think that's a
39:22
coincidence? No. There's a reason why he left. I might never know it or
39:26
maybe it's as simple as saying that my purpose in life is
39:30
so much greater than having my father in my life. It could be as
39:33
simple as that because I needed that hurt in order to learn and become the
39:37
man that I am today. And you're absolutely right. And and and it's crazy because
39:41
someone asked me, do you grant all the loss and everything that's happened in your life?
39:49
And I said no. My my answer to them
39:53
was no. I said, I wouldn't wish it upon anyone else.
39:57
Seriously, I said I wouldn't wish it upon anyone else, But, no,
40:01
I don't regret anything that's happened in my life because it's made me who I
40:04
am. This is this was the path that was chosen for me.
40:09
And and like like we said before, he won't give me
40:12
anything I can't like, I can't if I can't he wouldn't
40:16
burden me with something that I couldn't carry. This is where it's beautiful when you start accepting those things. Yeah. When
40:24
you start accepting that you know, we're so arrogant
40:28
when we believe that God is punishing us. We're so arrogant because
40:32
we claim to understand everything. Yet it does not
40:36
belong to us. It does not belong to you. It does not belong to me.
40:39
I cannot choose most of the situations in which I find myself
40:43
in. But you know what I choose? The way I the way I react to
40:47
it. Mhmm. The way I choose to see them, that's mine. That
40:50
belongs to me. To try to see the good in things,
40:54
I'm an optimist. At the end of the day, I'm an optimist. If I see
40:58
a situation, I will try to see what was the good out of that
41:01
situation. Because, again, if you understand and admit
41:05
and accept that pain and suffering are the greatest teachers,
41:09
that means that if you're if you're meant
41:13
to learn, you're gonna have to suffer. So, basically, if God
41:17
loves you and wants you to become a better person, he will make you
41:21
suffer. Not enough to destroy you, just enough
41:25
because, again, we said it multiple times, just enough to what he knows you
41:28
can take because he knows the person you're gonna become
41:33
outside, like, once that you've gone through it is
41:37
gonna be exponentially better than what you were before. And this is the
41:40
key. How many times in your life can you think of all the
41:44
of how many times in your life have you been in the situation where you're,
41:47
man, I don't know how I'm gonna make it out of this. It's so bad
41:50
right now. It could be financially, it could be emotionally, it could be
41:54
whatever. It could be literal physical pain and say I'll never get through
41:57
this. At the moment, it seems impossible, but then
42:01
you get through it. And if you're self aware, you'll take the
42:05
time to reflect on it and say, man. If I had to go through this
42:09
again right now, it'd be a breeze because I know what to expect. I've been
42:12
there before. I know I I know what it is. I know what to
42:16
expect, and I'm way stronger than I was now. And
42:19
maybe it's not physically. Maybe you lost something, but mentally you
42:23
are. And this is the beautiful thing. This is where life is so freaking
42:27
beautiful. When you start understanding that
42:30
there's no such thing as a coincidence, God will not give you more
42:34
than you can handle, and you going through it will
42:38
make you better. Absolutely.
42:42
It's simple. Yeah. No. It's great. Life is simple, man.
42:46
I'm not saying it's easy. No. It's beautiful. Simple and easy
42:50
are not the same thing at all. There's a massive difference
42:54
between the 2. But life is simple.
42:58
Very hard. Not easy at all, but extremely simple.
43:02
Yeah. It it is. It's but like you said, it's not
43:05
easy. It's definitely not easy, going through
43:09
the stuff we go through in life. But it's it's it's again, it's how
43:13
you respond to it. It's like you said before, it's how you have no
43:17
control over everything, but it's how you respond to it is how you can
43:21
it's what you control. Bruce Lee said, don't wish for an
43:25
easy life. Wish for the will to go
43:28
through a hard one. I'm bastardizing his quote, but
43:32
let's say that that's those are the words. That's what he meant. It's something similar
43:36
to that. Yeah. He's Chinese, so he didn't know how to speak English. Right? No.
43:39
I'm just kidding. But you you know what I'm saying. It's don't wish for an
43:43
easy life. There's nothing to be learned out of an easy life.
43:47
And I believe I I I know for a fact that we're
43:50
here to learn. What was the what would be the
43:54
point? What would be the point of us living if the the
43:57
the whole goal wasn't to come here to learn? Experience it. To
44:01
be better. You know, when
44:05
I I read, I'm a big fan of mythology, and
44:09
I read Egyptian mythology. And they were
44:12
explaining how in their belief
44:16
system when they face God in order to go to heaven,
44:20
God will take their heart and put it on a scale. And if that
44:24
scale and on the other side of the scale is a feather. If your heart
44:27
is lighter is lighter than the feather, you're accepted in hell. What
44:31
does that you're accepted in heaven. What does that mean?
44:35
You don't have any remorse. You've lived a good life. You've done more good than
44:39
bad. Your heart will be lighter than a feather. And this
44:43
is I think about this all the time. I the day I meet my
44:46
maker, I wanna be able to tell to look at him in the eyes and
44:49
tell him I've done more good than bad.
44:55
How simpler can it be to live your life by those standards to say
44:58
that I will help others, I'll be compassionate,
45:02
I'll be kind, I'll be there to serve. I'll
45:05
lead by example. I'll try to be better. I'm
45:09
broken. My father was broken. Your father was broken. You're broken.
45:14
And you know what? It doesn't matter, I will still try. I
45:18
will still try knowing that I'm a sinner. I'll still
45:21
try knowing that I'm broken inside, that there's things that are never
45:25
gonna be okay, but I can deal with them. I can be better.
45:30
The easiest thing was to give up. Oh, yeah. The
45:34
easiest thing was for for me to give up in my own life, and
45:38
but that's not that's not what I was here for. That, again, that's not what
45:42
my purpose was was it was I had to experience what I
45:46
went through so that I'm so that I could have
45:49
this experience, so that I can come on to the podcast and and
45:53
discuss what I went through and and and
45:57
my struggles and how I've overcome those
46:00
struggles and and turned my life around. It's it's
46:04
just and to have you come on and tell your story and and
46:08
everything you've been through to come out where you're at
46:11
now, This this was this was meant to happen. This this
46:15
interview was was supposed to happen. This
46:19
was supposed to happen so we can come out and share this message that
46:23
and and one of the things you talk about is that men be are
46:26
under attack, and we are. Mhmm. We are. Look look at a
46:30
lot of the situations where, Jonathan
46:34
Majors, he's going through some legal stuff right now
46:37
where his girlfriend accused him of of abuse,
46:41
and it comes out that she was the one who's the abuser. She was the
46:45
one that hit him, but yet
46:49
they arrested her, decided not to
46:52
press charges, and sealed the documents,
46:57
and yet he's going to trial.
47:02
Or what How is that possible? You know, look. In
47:05
Canada, if let's say my girlfriend and I are in my house, the house that's
47:08
under my name that I paid for, but she lives with me. Let's say that's
47:11
the situation. She starts hitting me. I'm a big
47:15
guy, and I fight myself not to do anything.
47:18
I just restrain her. I call the police. The police comes. Do you know who
47:22
they take out? Me. That's the law in
47:25
Canada. I'm automatically taken out of
47:29
my own place because, technically, I'm the violent one
47:33
even though that's not the case. Wow. But that's how
47:37
it works. So, you know,
47:40
this is a a whole different topic, but we live in
47:44
a society today that good men are taken for granted. And I'm not saying Major
47:48
is a good man. I don't know him. Yeah. Yeah. But what I'm saying is
47:52
women are taking men for granted. Men women have have the
47:56
audacity and the privilege to say that they don't need men.
47:59
Yet, what who's who who do they call
48:03
when they need help? A man. Often,
48:07
a big man with a gun. Who do they need when their house is on
48:10
fire? A man. Who fixes their car? Men. Who fixes their plumbing?
48:14
Men. Who does who picks up their garbage? Men. Who
48:18
fixes the house that they live in? Men. Who build a society in which they
48:22
live that they can be so privileged that they they can show so much
48:25
arrogance and say that they don't need men. Men.
48:29
So this is we're so disconnected. And I'm not trying to blame women here. I'm
48:33
just saying that we're so far disconnected from each other. It makes
48:37
0 sense. 0 zero zero sense that now
48:41
we're to a point where if a woman says something,
48:44
men needs to be extremely careful. Because if she says that it's true,
48:48
you're gonna be crucified before you ever enter court.
48:53
And this is what's happening with majors. Mhmm. So this is
48:57
this to me makes no sense. How can you be crucified by public opinion?
49:01
But this is the life that this is where we live in. And I
49:05
feel bad for young men out there. I really, really feel bad for them because
49:09
they're not, they don't have a lot of options.
49:13
They have to be extremely careful. Man, I remember years ago, I
49:17
was on a date with a girl that I've seen multiple times. We we had
49:20
become, like, personal, intimate, if you will.
49:24
Yeah. And she's at my place. And for some reason, there
49:27
was alcohol involved. I don't really drink anymore because some of those situations
49:31
are uncontrollable. But that was a bad situation,
49:35
so I just asked her to leave. I'm just like, you know what? This is
49:38
crap. Well, I'm not dealing with this. Please leave. I
49:42
had I took my phone out, and I started recording. I made sure I
49:46
called an Uber that was under my name to make sure that if the police
49:50
ever showed up, somebody I could track it on my phone to say
49:54
I put her in that in that driver. That
49:57
driver will attest that she was okay. He dropped her home. But I
50:01
recorded the whole thing just because of what you see going on.
50:05
Mhmm. It's so dangerous for men. I feel.
50:09
But how insane is that? It should it shouldn't
50:13
have come down to that. Abs absolutely. But the way society is
50:16
now, you have to protect yourself. If you're a man, you need to be
50:20
smart. Yeah. You really, really need to be smart. Some predicaments like that.
50:23
Absolutely. And it's it's unfortunate because 40 years ago is not
50:27
something we needed to think about. Mhmm. So we're
50:31
again, it comes down to awareness. As we were talking earlier, you need
50:35
to be very aware of yourself, your actions, who you
50:39
allow around yourself. You are you are the sum
50:42
of the 5 people closest to you. You are.
50:46
If you have toxic people around you, chances are your life is gonna
50:50
be toxic. So don't
50:53
allow people that you know shouldn't be there because they're hot and you like to
50:57
sleep with them. But,
51:01
Nico, man, this has been a wonderful conversation, brother, man. I've
51:04
times the time flies when you're having some great conversation, man. Like, we're
51:08
almost we're almost up to an hour, man. It's this
51:12
has been great. But now you get the solo screen where you get to plug
51:15
away, let everybody know where they can find your book. Yeah. Yeah. It's the the
51:20
your show, everything. Nicholagan.com.
51:23
Under resources, you can find my book purpose.
51:27
I I had a great guy do the narration, and
51:31
don't pay for it. You don't need to go to Amazon and pay for it.
51:33
You can have it for free on my website. I'm giving it away. You can
51:37
find all my social media there. You can find all the appearances that I'm doing
51:40
on podcast because I'm doing a bunch of them right now. But if you wanna
51:44
stay up to date to what I'm doing, just name the social media I'm on
51:47
it. I'm on, like, 8 different social media that I post on every day. So
51:54
Alright, man. Thank you so much for being a guest, man. I greatly appreciate
51:57
it. Thanks for having me on, man. Oh, definitely. Definitely, man.
52:01
But don't leave just yet. Let me close out the show, and, me and you
52:04
chat a little bit more often. Man. No worries. But,
52:08
let me just close it out right quick. Yeah, man. Alright,
52:12
man. That was a great show. Shout out to everybody who tuned in. Latina and
52:15
Cali, thank you for leaving all those comments. Greatly appreciate it.
52:20
Big shout out to my RealWise fan, Papi j, Brandy j. Love you
52:23
guys. Big shout out to the boss lady. Love you and appreciate you,
52:26
baby. And as always, a big, big shout out to all the essential
52:30
workers out there. God bless y'all. Be safe. You know
52:34
how your boy, Wise, does it? Peace
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