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Pushkin. Welcome
0:43
to the show. This is Talk Easy. I'm Sanfordgos
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and thank you so much for being here. This week
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on the podcast, We're excited to have an Oscar winner
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in Roger Ross Williams. Williams
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is a documentary filmmaker whose
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career in storytelling began in the form
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of journalism. From nineteen eighty
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five onward, he produced investigative
1:02
segments for ABC News, NBC
1:04
News, MSNBC, BBC,
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and CNN. Basically, if
1:09
the network had a B or C in its title,
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Williams work for them. His
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ethos then was the same as it is now
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present the truth, no matter the cost.
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For Roger, whose childhood is so complex
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that I'll let him explain it in this episode, truth
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was and still is everything
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to him. In a world of uncertainty,
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Williams needed facts, some
1:32
small amount of honesty that made sense.
1:35
He eventually left journalism for cinema,
1:37
making a series of unique documentary
1:39
shorts that led him to Music by Prudence.
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The film is about disabled Africans
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who find meaning and joy in the music
1:47
they make, led by the titular Prudence.
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However, the short doc made front
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page headlines for all the wrong reasons.
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Upon accepting his award at the Oscars
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for Best Documentary Short, Williams
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was kanyate by a producer on the film, Eleanor
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Briquett. Mid speech, Williams
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is interrupted full stop. It
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has gone down as one of the most uncomfortable
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Oscar moments in the show's history. We
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dive into all that in the conversation you're about
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to hear. What's important to note,
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though, is that Williams moved on and
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made other projects. Most recently,
2:22
he's the director behind the Oscar nominated
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feature link documentary Life
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Animated. It's a moving story
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about an autistic child who discovers language
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through Disney films. Here's a clip
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from the trailer. We're
2:36
beginning to give up hope, and one day
2:38
we're watching the Disney animated movies
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and he says he doesn't
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want to grow up like Mowgli or
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Peter Pan, and
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all of a sudden it became clear to us he's
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using these movies to make
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sense of the world. He actually's living
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in our world. So at that
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point we begin for context. This
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conversation was recorded yesterday while
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Williams was on his exhaustive
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Oscar publicity were for the movie. All
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filmmakers who are trying to buy for
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a golden statue
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have to keep, you know, keep the momentum alive.
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And so it was good to finally sit
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down and I think get away from
3:23
some of the typical conversations you have
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when you have seven to twelve minutes with people
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and you're doing radio spots and you're on TV
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and you can't really dive into stuff in any real detail.
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And I think this one turned
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out well. Like I mentioned, we talked about
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the complexities and unusual
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nature of his childhood, the
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kerfuffle at the Oscars a few years
3:47
ago, and a lot more
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about being ambitious and
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aspiring to be more than what
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people are going to tell you to be. And
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I really hope you enjoyed this conversation. So
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finally here is Roger
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Ross Williams. Well,
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I talk about the idea of you seeing yourself
4:13
as an outsider. Is that is
4:15
that a fair characterization of yourself?
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Yeah? Absolutely? Um, Um,
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I've always been an outsider. I um
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grew up in a very
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religious community.
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Um my father actually
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was the head deacon in a church,
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and my family are all pastors, and
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um I was this uh um
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you know, closeted gay kid who
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couldn't what age? And I think we went
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over that the last time we spoke. But what age did
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you find yourself knowing
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like I'm interested in man? I
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think you know, birth birth,
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I think I always born. You got
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out and Roger was like, yeah, I don't, I don't want Yeah,
4:59
I mean you're you're you know. UM.
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It took me a while to accept it, but I knew
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always that I was,
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you know, attracted to men. So so
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so as long as early as
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I can remember being um, you
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know, like having being attracted
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to someone else, you know, that's
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what I was attracted. You remember the first person you were attracted
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to? Well, I
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kind of you know. That's funny because I was just
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back at my UM.
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I was back in my high school filming for this documentary
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I'm doing for CNN. UM,
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and I was going through the yearbook with
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and UM, and I saw there was this
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guy. I don't know if I can say his
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name. UM, let me say his first name. His
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name was Pete. And um
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I was totally in love with Pete, like
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I was like, um
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uh, and I remember Pete
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having no idea because you were like, you know, it
5:54
was a sixth grade and
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we were like holding hand, you know, you just hold
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hands with your friends. Like I don't know, they
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were like holding hands and hanging out.
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I mean we were hanging out by the river and we were holding
6:06
hands. And I was like, I was
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like in sixth grade,
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Yeah, that's like what twelve
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Yeah, I feel like that's like people
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kind of know what's going on at that point. Yeah.
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And I was totally in love with him and I
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would go home and I remember and I would draw
6:22
pictures of him. I would draw pictures
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of us like together, like as a
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as a as like a couple. I
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don't know if we were having sex in the pictures, but
6:30
like, um, I don't know what you know it
6:33
was, but it was it was sexual, there was. It definitely
6:35
was sexual for me. And um
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kid, he was a German
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kid. He's a white German
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kid, wrestler, German
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wrestler. I think the wrestling
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part played into Yeah, so that playing into a
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huge part of my fantasy. Um
6:53
And then I think he caught onto it because like
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he started distancing himself because I
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started people started becoming suspicious of
7:01
me, like they were like, he's
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not that good in sports, he's
7:06
he's he hangs around with girls
7:08
too much. Um, he's
7:11
like a mama's boy, you know,
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all those things. And then in my family they were
7:15
like I who would hear my like grandfather
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saying to my mother that boy's going
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to be a sissy if you don't lay off of him.
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You know, like you baby him too much.
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You know, why isn't he playing sports?
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What's wrong with him? He's not a man. Would
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your parents like try to force you into sports?
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No, my mother was so I
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was a mama's boy. So so she was so Um,
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I wouldn't saying I wouldn't say she was accepting
7:40
of my sexuality, but she was. She
7:42
just kind of accepting me for
7:45
who I was. So she's like, he's not into sports,
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he's uh, he likes to
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read, and he likes to be alone and
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stay in his room and draw
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things and live in his own world. And
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your father, I didn't have a father.
8:02
Um. My mom was a single mother. I
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didn't find my father until I was um,
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only like maybe fifteen years ago.
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And this is really funny because the reason I
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found my father was because of Ron Suskine,
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the subject of Life Animated
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and the author of the book and Owen
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Saskinne's father. So, Ron,
8:24
who you've been friends with for a long time. Yeah,
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Ron and I were doing a show together
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called Life three
8:32
sixty, Interesting Life Animated Life
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three sixty and
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it was for PBS,
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produced by ABC. So we were
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working at ABC News
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producing a series and it was a
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one It was based kind of loosely based
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on this American life where we would take one
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topic and we would tell a number of different
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stories around a topic. And this one
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was family secrets. And
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my mother had been married and I
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had a brother, older brother, and sister, and she
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had an affair Herne the guy
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I thought with my father, we're not
9:10
getting along, and she had an affair
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with the head deacon of the church. And
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I was the product of that affair. And I
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was the only one who didn't know that it
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was the most open secret. The whole town knew
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that I was the head deacon's son, but
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I didn't know obviously growing up. And then my best
9:27
friend told me when I was like thirteen, like on this squil
9:29
like kind of on the playground, like like you
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know, your father's not your real father, your
9:34
father's um um deacon
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deacon Davis, and I was like, I
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didn't. I couldn't process this. So I went home and asked my mom
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and she's like, yeah, it's true. And
9:44
not only that, but he's been supporting
9:46
you your whole life secretly.
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And I mean, I'm just like
9:52
a dumbstruck but I mean, it's it's
9:54
an astonishing it's hard to process
9:56
that. It's hard to process that when you're
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a kid. It's hard to process that when you're an adult.
10:01
And it was and Ron's like, you
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need to find your
10:07
father and you to meet him
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and you need to talk to him, and
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uh, why don't you do one of the one
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Let's do an hour in family Secrets and we'll we'll
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do that. And I was like, wait, great, this is the way I can.
10:18
I can find my father and I don't have to emotionally
10:21
connect because I'm I have the cameras to protect
10:23
me and it's and it's for television,
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so I can be really fake. That didn't. That was so
10:27
stupid because I
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was emotionally emotional rack I
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cried a lot. The cameras did
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not protect me emotionally, and
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I um ended up having
10:40
this really sort of um
10:43
pretty pretty disastrous UM
10:45
experience. Yeah, but
10:47
it was a long time coming. I mean when you heard
10:49
that as a kid, I want to get back to
10:52
you as an adult reapproaching this. But
10:54
when you're hearing that at age thirteen, what
10:57
is your thought process? What? You
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go home? And your mom was like, yes, this
11:02
is what's been happening. Do you say, hey, why
11:05
why wasn't this public knowledge to me? Why
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didn't you sit me down and have this conversation? Um?
11:12
No, you know what you
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have to understand the environment
11:17
where I was living and my
11:19
mother, UM was a
11:22
m a maid, a domestic
11:24
servant, and she was
11:26
UM and she mostly cleaned
11:29
wealthy To me, they seemed wealthy
11:31
white people's homes and um,
11:34
and she worked in a fraternity house
11:36
at Lafayette College and cleaned
11:38
the frat house. That was that was that was an
11:40
ugly scene, you can imagine. And
11:42
um, and I would go with her to work and so
11:45
she But but in her community,
11:47
in her generation, she never graduated
11:49
from high school, and her generation,
11:52
the men were very abusive. You know, just
11:54
watch fences, you know, Um,
11:56
it was very August Wilson and so
11:59
so the men she
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described it, Yeah, the men
12:04
abused the women.
12:06
The women sort of put up with it. Everyone
12:08
had had affairs. They took
12:10
their pain that they She grew up in Charleston,
12:13
South Carolina, and they took
12:15
there and she left to go to Philadelphia
12:17
for better life, you know, in the north, and
12:19
she took her pain and they would
12:21
abuse each other emotionally. And
12:24
so I was around a lot of craziness
12:27
as a kid, but I never sort of real I
12:29
was like, these people are crazy. I can't connect to them.
12:31
I just want to go live in Paris. Paris
12:35
was my my escaped. I would
12:37
like create stories of me in Paris. I
12:39
don't know where that came from or how I got
12:41
that. Did your mom feel any guilt
12:43
at all? No,
12:46
you know, as a matter of fact, my mom was like, that's
12:49
just the way it is. That's just the way it is,
12:52
and you know, that's
12:54
the way we treated each other. And she
12:56
just told me once. I and
12:59
then but I see when I found out at thirteen,
13:01
I sort of followed it away. I couldn't handle
13:03
it, so I just forgot about it. Right. It
13:06
was one of those things you got angry about in the moment
13:09
and then sort of just moved on, went
13:11
back to and I only saw
13:13
him. I would see him
13:15
in so he went to a different church.
13:18
I was UM then my church, but
13:20
his his cousin, UM,
13:22
Reverend Davis. Reverend Fred Davis was
13:24
the pastor UM and
13:27
UM. I saw him once.
13:30
I only went up to him once in church. He was
13:32
he was a singer. He sang in the choir here. So
13:34
you would see him at Mass. Yeah,
13:37
regularly when we would go
13:39
to his church to sing. I was in the choir and
13:42
he was a singer and he was so we'd go to his
13:44
church and we would sing. And I went up to him once
13:47
and he gave me um
13:49
a twenty dollars bill, which I thought,
13:51
which was really weird to me because I was like, oh,
13:54
he gave me a twenty dollar bill because I'm his kid,
13:57
and he just gave him and it was It
13:59
was so weird, and I just never
14:01
thought about it again until I
14:04
did the piece at PBS, and that twenty
14:06
dollar bill became symbolic of like a
14:08
lot of things. Right, And
14:11
what age did you do the piece at Pbsum,
14:15
This was fifteen years ago, so
14:18
I was, you know, thirties, and
14:21
I was So you left this story
14:23
in this chapter, or rather this part
14:25
of your life kind
14:27
of hidden or behind you for fifteen years. Yeah,
14:31
I left it hidden and I but
14:34
the thing is that when I
14:36
graduated from high school, he had
14:38
two kids around my
14:40
age who went to the same school
14:43
as me. But I didn't. I didn't. I
14:45
didn't know they were my half brothers and sisters. They
14:47
knew because there was a whole big
14:50
confrontation in his family when his
14:53
wife found out that he had fathered a
14:56
child and that the child lives
14:58
in close proximity, and the Reverend
15:02
Fred Davis the was called
15:04
in to mediate and I when I
15:06
made this short, I go
15:08
back to the church and night and he goes. I was
15:10
called in the night she found out and
15:13
he was like on
15:15
his knees saying it was not my kid,
15:18
and he was and um and he
15:20
goes. But everyone knew you were his kid.
15:22
You know. My mother wasn't
15:25
seeing anyone else like they they
15:27
and he would I would still see each other.
15:30
So he asked her to run
15:33
away with him, UM to New
15:35
York City, to Brooklyn. And Um
15:37
at what age I was,
15:40
I was, Um, I was
15:43
young, I mean I was you know. Her
15:45
and my um stepfather got
15:48
divorced pretty pretty much when
15:50
I was born. Sure Um
15:53
so she was a single mom, and he asked
15:55
her to run away with her and she said no, she couldn't
15:57
break up his family, and she refused,
16:00
so he ran away with one of the young
16:02
girls in the choir and they they
16:04
were still together when I when I
16:06
met him whenever, thirty years
16:08
later and a trailer. He
16:11
lived in a trailer in Georgia, in um
16:13
Albany, Georgia, and I
16:16
went to the And it's funny because there's
16:19
so many layers to this because Camera
16:21
Person, which is a film that's um
16:23
by kJ Um, I called
16:26
Kjum Kristin Johnson
16:29
Um. She was shooting, she was filmed
16:31
this piece. So she's was encouraging
16:33
me. She's I was like, I couldn't go into the
16:35
trailer. I was nervous in kJ you know, like if watch
16:37
Camera Person and you see like that, you
16:40
know that. And she was like my conscience,
16:42
she was like, you can do this, and
16:45
and I went in and I met him,
16:47
and it was amazing because we took a road trip
16:50
to meet my brother, my half brother,
16:52
and sister m who had
16:54
assembled forty members of
16:56
the family with a banner saying
16:58
welcome our brother Roger,
17:01
and they all assembled to have a
17:03
huge reunion around me, Um,
17:06
being the newest member of the family. And
17:09
this was all very overwhelming, and
17:11
they said, you know, this was the story
17:13
of the Black family. You know, people kids,
17:15
people turn up, they have family unions
17:17
every people turn up all the time. They
17:20
just show up and welcome. And
17:22
we knew about you when we were in high school.
17:24
We confronted her dad. Um, you
17:27
know, we knew that you existed. They had reached
17:29
out to me and I didn't return to their calls
17:31
because I couldn't handle it right. So
17:33
it was this one. They have a family. Everyone
17:37
has passed away, my
17:39
half brother and sister. When
17:42
I've found my father, UM,
17:46
I went to the to his cousin,
17:48
the Reverend Davis, who's the leader this the
17:50
sort of religious leader of our town. And
17:53
he said, Um, the
17:55
kids couldn't take um the
17:57
betrayal. And so your
18:00
brother, your half brother hit the
18:02
bottle, and your half sister hit
18:04
the Bible. And my brother
18:07
was an alcoholic who died of alcoholism,
18:09
and my half sister was
18:12
a pastor, a minister who died
18:14
of cancer. Um recently. And uh.
18:18
And when I found my father,
18:20
he said to me now
18:22
that you found me. There's only one reason why I allowed
18:25
you to come and film his nuts, because I
18:27
want money from you. I need
18:29
money and you need to pay
18:31
me money. And I
18:33
was like, I thought you wanted to see me because
18:35
I'm your son, and he's like, no,
18:38
I want you to support me and um,
18:41
and so I went outside and cried. And
18:43
then UM. He got into
18:45
a car accident a few months later and he
18:48
was on his deathbed and they, my
18:50
half brothers, said call him.
18:52
He wants to talk to you. And I called him and
18:54
he said all the things he can out muster
18:57
the words, will send money. And
18:59
that was the last words that he spoke
19:02
to me, and then he died. I
19:07
know, it's like, you can't make this stuff up. Yeah,
19:11
how do you move on from that? I've
19:14
never was, um, emotionally
19:18
connected to my father. Um,
19:21
I never felt anything.
19:23
I just felt like my mother was my mother
19:25
and father and UM it
19:27
didn't really you
19:29
know, I can detach emotionally, yeah,
19:32
but but I wonder you
19:34
still felt the absence. Oh
19:36
yeah, I think that's
19:38
um part of my journey.
19:42
I think that rejection is probably
19:45
what drives me as a
19:47
filmmaker, as an artist. I
19:50
think that I'm constantly trying
19:52
to prove myself so like I
19:54
you know, even you know, because
19:57
one person said they
19:59
don't want you. Yeah, but
20:02
isn't that what? And that's why that's
20:04
the theme in my work. That's why Prudence,
20:08
my first my first film,
20:11
Music by Prudence was
20:13
about a severely disabled girl
20:16
who without arms or without
20:19
legs or use of her arms, who lived
20:21
like an animal because her family rejected her because
20:24
disability is considered witchcraft in Zimbabwe,
20:26
where she lived, and she lived on the floor like
20:28
an animal. She didn't think she was human until
20:31
she was rescued by a school who cleaned
20:33
her up, put her in a wheelchair and she
20:37
started singing and they and she
20:39
had this incredible singing voice, and she
20:43
realizes that she
20:45
can lift herself out of this sort of
20:48
um by fooms through art, through her music.
20:50
And I just was blown away
20:52
by that story. And we went all
20:54
the way to you know, the Oscars, you know,
20:56
I say, we went through the three os Oscars
20:59
Obama. She performed for Obama and was
21:01
on Oprah.
21:07
Do you think of this that
21:09
happened in your family and in
21:11
your childhood is a reason why
21:14
um, you emotionally
21:16
detach often. Yeah,
21:19
I do. Um. By
21:21
the way, I'm making a big assumption and I
21:24
don't know you very well, but
21:27
but it's an assumption based on our limited
21:30
interaction and an interview I
21:32
heard you do with Elvis Mitchell you have
21:34
known for a long time. Oh yeah, and who
21:36
pointed out that, um,
21:39
you do it a little a bit of a distancing act.
21:43
Elvis knows me well, um, and
21:46
UM, I do. Though I will
21:48
say You've been terribly forthright with
21:50
me and not terribly I
21:53
think it's good. This is a new
21:55
the new Roger. You know, this is a new
21:57
way of um, I mean
22:00
communicating and I I'm like, um,
22:02
I'm you know, trying to be more in
22:04
touch with this this stuff
22:07
because I know that I'm like driven to will
22:09
call me too ambitious, and I've always been called
22:11
overly ambitious, which is like,
22:13
I think it's like kind of I was like, is that like kind of
22:15
racing? It's a race. It's
22:17
it's like it's like, yeah, race racist.
22:20
I know many times people have told
22:22
me that I'm too ambitious, almost
22:24
never, and it's
22:26
not because I'm not trying hard enough. We're working
22:29
hard enough. I get called out for
22:31
being too ambitious all the time?
22:33
Who's telling you that? Though other
22:36
filmmakers say that, um,
22:39
I one of my I remember I
22:42
was working for um TV
22:44
Nation for Michael Moore on his television show
22:46
and I and I was an associate
22:48
producer and I pitched story and got
22:50
um he accepted it, and I was
22:53
gonna I was gonna produce a Michael Moore
22:55
segment, which is a big deal. And I remember
22:57
the other associate producers they were like, they
22:59
were like, he's like such a somebody
23:01
actually told me a brown noser. But
23:05
they were like, he's too ambitious. He's all
23:07
my career, every single step of
23:10
the way. And whenever someone tells me I'm too ambitious,
23:12
I just get more ambitious. But what
23:14
else are you supposed to do? I'm
23:18
I am you know, yeah, yeah, become
23:20
sluggish and it's interested. Yeah
23:22
exactly exactly. But you sidestep
23:25
the comment about me thinking perhaps
23:28
so you emotionally detached fairly
23:30
often I wouldn't. I
23:32
mean, you know, probably
23:36
a lot of the time. That's
23:39
changing. I mean I would say when I
23:41
was younger, I was very emotionally detached.
23:43
I think you know, now
23:46
I'm married, I had you know, I
23:48
cried more at my wedding than anyone,
23:50
like publicly and in every speech. And
23:53
you know, I was like crying because
23:55
you were happy. Yeah.
23:57
Yeah, it's like a mate wedding. I would think
24:00
weddings were cheesy things. Like I was like weddings.
24:02
I mean, I have a wed I own a wedding
24:04
venue. You know, so we my gasper
24:07
and my husband and I we actually throw
24:09
weddings for a living. Um.
24:12
You know, he mostly runs that though, Um,
24:14
But I weddings
24:17
are beautiful things because it's like everyone who
24:19
you love is in one place and
24:21
you're celebrating love and it's
24:23
just like a beautiful thing. And I was like
24:26
an emotional wreck. And
24:28
that's a good thing though. That's amazing thing
24:30
was that when you when you got married and
24:33
had someone that you decided this would be your
24:35
partner. I'm assuming you guys will be together
24:38
for a while forever. I
24:40
hope in divorce rates and California
24:43
are high. Yeah. I live in New York,
24:45
so probably just as high in New York. But
24:48
let's let's assume you're gonna be together forever. I
24:50
don't know what the gay divorce rates are, Roger,
24:54
I don't know that. I don't. I only
24:56
know my parents and and the straight divorce
24:58
I'm familiar with that. Uma
25:01
gay rates may be different. You're right, I
25:03
don't know. There's probably enough data
25:05
out there. It's not because it's just and
25:08
are married. I will probably be revoked any day now.
25:10
Anyway, that's
25:13
not gonna happen. Let's let's
25:16
be positive you're gonna stay together. On
25:19
that day, did you feel like
25:22
that was the affirmation you needed in
25:26
terms of feeling valued? Yeah,
25:30
that was that
25:33
day was I always say it was like one of the greatest
25:35
days of my life. Yes, Um, I
25:39
did feel valued, and I did
25:41
feel that I had
25:44
so much love and support
25:46
around me, and I was like realizing
25:49
that and that's why I was crying so much. That's
25:51
a good feeling. Yeah.
25:53
I don't mean that he like replaced your
25:55
father or anything like that. I just mean someone
25:58
who's in close proximity to you, and on
26:00
a day to day you had that now
26:02
that you didn't have previously. Yeah,
26:05
it seems like that would be a reason
26:07
to cry. Yeah, yeah, there's
26:09
a long time coming. Yeah,
26:11
So now I understand why you know, and
26:13
now I love wedding. So now and what
26:16
I used to be. I was so jaded, and I would
26:18
go up. We have a wedding every Saturday at
26:20
our barn and Roxbury
26:22
Barn and upstate New York and
26:24
and I would you know. And now I go up
26:26
and I see all these people crying and joyful,
26:28
and I'm like, this is wonderful energy, this is
26:30
great. Would you consider
26:32
yourself someone who's positive? I'm
26:35
very positive. Yeah, I think I'm well,
26:37
I mean to a to an extent,
26:39
I'm I'm I'm pretty positive.
26:42
I'm pretty you know what it is, I'm
26:44
like childlike, I'm like a big kid.
26:46
Like I don't really you're
26:48
a I'm a I'm a baby. I don't feel
26:51
mature. I don't feel like an I don't feel like
26:53
an adult. I don't feel like you
26:55
know, I feel like, what about in this conversation? Do
26:57
you feel like a baby sort
26:59
of? Really? You see, you're much mature
27:01
than I am. I
27:05
swear, yeah, he's on my show, but trust
27:07
me that I don't think that's true. I
27:09
don't know. I've I have this
27:12
sort of childlike enthusiasm
27:14
for things, and I
27:16
think that's a good thing. Like I don't
27:19
really want to grow up. Always say like I'm like,
27:21
you know, that's why people ask me what's your
27:23
favorite Disney film? Yeah, ask me said, I'm like, I wasn't
27:25
really into Disney, but if I
27:27
had, it would probably be like Peter Pan because
27:30
I don't want to grow up either. Does the enthusiasm
27:33
for things or ideas
27:35
translate to enthusiasm for people? Yeah,
27:39
it depends on you know, I
27:42
get really enthusiastic about
27:46
when I'm making a film about
27:49
the subjects in
27:52
the film. Yeah,
27:54
and there are and I yeah, I get
27:57
you know, I get Yes, I get enthusiastic
27:59
about about people, ideas,
28:02
places. Has the work
28:05
back to that idea of affirmation?
28:07
Has the work you've done this far or feel
28:10
like when you look
28:12
back on it and the films you made,
28:15
do you feel validated
28:19
by them or the responses to them?
28:21
Do the responses validate your
28:23
experiences? Um?
28:26
For you as like a documentary filmmaker
28:28
at large, you know,
28:31
yes and no, it's for me
28:34
it's never enough. It's like a bottomless
28:36
pit that UM felt
28:38
so like, you know, so like when I want
28:41
the Oscar from Music Prudence, It's
28:43
like, that's great, you want an Oscar.
28:45
It's really exciting, But it was it was a duck short.
28:47
So it's just a short sure, and
28:50
then like let's before we move on,
28:52
let's not let's not gloss
28:54
over what happened there. And the
28:57
winner is music
29:02
by Prudence Roger, Ross Williams
29:05
and Eleanor Burkett. This
29:16
is amazing. Two
29:19
years ago when I got on an airplane
29:21
and went to Zimbabwe, I never imagine mess
29:23
wildest dreams that I'd end up here. This
29:26
is so exciting,
29:31
the classic thing you world
29:33
in which I wanted to finally get into this with
29:35
you and square it forever so you
29:37
never have to talk about this again and we'll link it to
29:39
everyone who interviews you in the future. Yeah,
29:42
about what happened? Good? Can
29:44
we do that? Um? Yeah?
29:47
Do you have faith in me that it's gonna be okay? Yeah?
29:50
Yeah, faith in you? I faith in you. It's um yeah
29:52
yeah. As much as I can, I can talk about
29:54
and don't break any legal boundaries.
29:56
Yes, So tell me what
29:58
happened there? UM,
30:01
I don't know. It was a situation of someone that that
30:03
that who was this woman? For one, Uh,
30:06
it was a neighbor who UM
30:09
lived in was a fulbright
30:12
and taught in in in Zimbabwe,
30:14
and UM I was looking for stories in Africa.
30:17
So she's like, you know, I know
30:19
this I heard of about. She gave me like a bunch
30:21
of story ideas, like she just sent
30:23
me. She's a journalists, so she sent me a bunch of story dudes.
30:25
And and I was like, oh,
30:28
this one sounds interesting. So I wrote to the
30:30
school and um,
30:33
and they sent me um
30:36
a mini DV tape of Prudence a
30:39
little interview they did um and
30:41
uh and her singing, and I
30:43
started crying watching the so
30:46
you know I'm connect. I see I started
30:49
crying and that the barometer
30:51
from when you like something, you start crying. Yeah,
30:54
okay, yeah, because I cried a
30:56
Life animated too when when Ron was
30:58
pitching me the idea. So I started crying and
31:01
um and I was like, oh my god. So I wrote
31:03
to the school and they started this dialogue. But then
31:06
I was like, oh wait a Zimbabwe. How am I going to
31:08
shoot there? So I um,
31:10
I went to um uh
31:12
this woman and his name might
31:14
will still not be said and
31:17
and I said, um that the name
31:19
is easily found online and
31:22
also can be searched as a video on YouTube,
31:24
and um
31:26
and I said, um,
31:29
I need how am I going to shoot in Zimbabwe,
31:32
and I like, it's it's illegal to
31:34
to to shoot in Zimbabwe. The Times
31:37
reporter was arrested and um and
31:39
um we came up with a plan to circum
31:42
yeah and um and so
31:45
yeah that's how that's how that started.
31:47
But then that relationship,
31:52
you know, sort of by
31:54
the time we sort of got through the
31:56
shooting and got to the editing phase,
31:58
it was sort of done. It was sort of
32:01
broken. What was the problem, Um,
32:04
just not different visions or I
32:07
don't know if it was different so much. I
32:09
don't know if different visions or it was it
32:12
was um, you know, I
32:14
don't want to say exactly, but um,
32:16
okay, well was it like a temperament thing? Yeah,
32:20
yes, yes, let's say that. The
32:23
one thing I'm confused about here, here's
32:25
my genuine confusion. It's not about controversy
32:28
at all. It's um her
32:31
description of it. When I watched the video yesterday,
32:33
I rewatched it. Um,
32:36
I'm not a fan of her. I'll put that on the record.
32:39
I don't I don't like or
32:41
she she gives out. But
32:43
something she said struck me. It didn't ring true
32:45
with what I know about you. When my experience
32:48
with you. Is that she
32:51
said you didn't talk for years.
32:54
She said you didn't talk from from the
32:56
project ending to like there
32:58
was a lawsuit, and then at
33:00
the Oscars you were sitting next to each other. And
33:03
even now you won't even say her name. I
33:06
don't even know her name. But
33:08
that seemed that didn't
33:10
fit with my idea of you. Was
33:12
there a reason you wouldn't it was is
33:15
the silence true for one? Well? No,
33:17
after after the um break,
33:20
there was no communication, um
33:23
uh. And there was a lawsuit. And after
33:26
the break, yes there was, there wasn't communication
33:28
on either part, but that was that was
33:30
um You know, the lawsuit was between many
33:33
different parties HBO and different
33:35
people, so it was um uh. And
33:37
that was sort of early into the editing
33:39
stage, so there was so I edited, went
33:42
through the whole edit of the film and
33:44
and everything before I even um
33:47
had that moment and you didn't want her input
33:49
on that. No, there was a
33:51
total break. There was a we
33:54
were not working together. And she said that
33:56
she said hi to you. She would say hi to you, and
33:58
you would just like ignore, that's
34:01
that's not true, that's not true. No, I
34:03
just can't that's that to me? That this is actually
34:05
where it comes from. Its like I don't see
34:08
that on kindness and you Oh no,
34:10
no, no, no, that's not that's that's
34:12
that's not true, you know. Um.
34:14
For me, I have to um,
34:18
I have to talk and communicate
34:21
and I want to have like an amazing working
34:24
relationship with everyone
34:27
who's we're working together on a project,
34:29
and these films are hard and
34:31
if, um, if I can't have
34:34
that, if there's if someone is difficult
34:36
or challenging in any way, UM, I
34:39
there's a certain point where I can't. I'm like,
34:41
I can't, I'm done. Doesn't compute,
34:43
it doesn't work, It doesn't work for me. Did
34:46
you see her coming down when
34:49
you were standing on stage giving your
34:51
speech. Did you see
34:53
her walking towards the stage? No,
34:56
because it's no not. I didn't
34:58
see her until the moment
35:01
she came up to the mic
35:03
and said, let the woman speak. I
35:06
that moment is so overwhelming. You
35:09
can imagine too, Um, you
35:12
it's it's so overwhelming,
35:15
and and and and I was so excited,
35:18
literally I was excited. So I was running
35:21
and cheering and high fiving people
35:24
because I because I had bonded with all these
35:26
people all week who had been on this journey with me,
35:28
the other filmmakers and
35:30
and and they were all so happy because
35:32
they were saying to me, the other filmmakers
35:34
were saying to me, you know, I know that I would
35:36
supposed to be rooting for myself, but I really want
35:38
you to win, you know, Like it was so great. We
35:41
had such a great you know, you know, the the
35:43
the other short filmmakers and
35:45
and so so we were I was high
35:47
fiving. Then I was nning down the aisle and
35:49
like I was like whoa. I was like and
35:52
um. And then it was like shock
35:55
because we because we had already you know, there
35:57
had been a when you do
36:00
the um uh
36:02
nominees lunch, which she wasn't at.
36:05
Actually they say you should
36:07
pick one. You have to pick one person and usually
36:09
the director to accept the
36:11
award and ask you have forty
36:14
seconds um uh, So
36:16
don't start thanking a lot of you know, they tell you
36:18
they go through all that with everyone,
36:21
with all the nominees. That's part of the nominees lunch,
36:23
so you know, um,
36:25
obviously it was the director and
36:28
then there's a lot of pr people and they're like, don't
36:30
worry about a thing. We have this all under
36:32
control. You know, they re assure you guys
36:34
like I don't know you, guys, I
36:36
don't know you. Probably they didn't know that woman.
36:39
Yeah, I'll say
36:41
the things you don't want to say. I don't worry. I got I
36:43
got your backgate, Roger, so
36:46
you. I mean, the moment is significant
36:49
um to me. The publicity
36:51
around it and the attention and
36:54
drew to
36:56
me is absurd, unnecessary
37:00
and illuminates nothing at all. M
37:04
What I think is significant is the emotional weight
37:07
behind working or
37:09
something for a long time and
37:11
then have someone literally
37:14
at the moment in which you are accepting this
37:17
honor this award.
37:19
And yes it's arbitrary, it's a fucking statue,
37:23
but I mean something, we
37:25
place value in things. That's how we've always done.
37:28
It's devastating. It is
37:30
devastating, and no
37:33
one could really understand how
37:36
devastating it was because people are like,
37:39
you just want an oscar, it doesn't matter.
37:42
But there was something so
37:44
devastating to me about it. And I was
37:46
in tears that
37:49
whole really kind of like that whole
37:51
night. I was in shock, and I was
37:53
in tears, and I was I
37:56
celebrated. Did you cry in front of her. No,
38:00
I was in shock. And
38:02
then, um, did you exchange any words with
38:04
her after that? No, when you go backstage
38:06
and you have to do press interviews
38:09
and the press interviews in these rooms
38:11
like the foreign press, in all these different press rooms.
38:13
But they're not watching the show, so
38:16
they didn't know what happened, so they didn't ask us one
38:18
question. I was like, how can this be?
38:21
How can they organize? How can they not
38:24
be watching it on their computers. They're all sitting
38:26
there, like a hundred of them with their laptops open
38:28
in a room. No one has a live stream. No,
38:30
they're not paying attention. They're writing. I know what they're
38:32
doing. No one asked us any questions about it. No one
38:35
even know until after So that not until
38:37
my phone rang and it was like, I
38:40
don't know Salon or whoever it was, and I
38:42
and I was talking to them that I um
38:45
that I realized that, you know, And
38:47
then and then and then even
38:49
then didn't quite sort
38:51
of register with me until the next morning,
38:54
when um, I think it was the Ryan
38:57
Seacrest show woke me up and said,
38:59
um, And its funny because it was an old friend of mine who
39:01
was He's like a press of the Ryan Strict Show and his because
39:03
like, you're the biggest story
39:05
of the Oscars. You gotta you gotta come on the show tonight.
39:08
And then I was like and then all hell broke
39:10
loose. It was like because then every my I
39:12
was like, how do all these people get my cell phone number? Was
39:14
kind of crazy. And then then all of
39:16
a sudden and all the pr people marketing
39:19
from HBO then get involved, and it's a
39:21
big call in a strategy, you know, and
39:23
it's like You're in the middle of this storm. And then
39:25
it was crazy because I
39:27
was like, I remember,
39:30
I had a m I had a meeting
39:32
at CIA that next
39:35
day. Um. And also
39:37
I don't know if you saw, but the New York Times was trailing
39:40
me that night. So there was an article in the style
39:42
section me holding the oscar saying Roger
39:44
Ross Williams has arrived and
39:46
and I was arriving at the Governor's Ball with Prudence,
39:49
and the next day I was going to
39:51
go and CIA was near the
39:53
hotel we were staying at and I was just
39:55
gonna walkum, and
39:58
they were like you can't. The hotel people
40:00
were like, you can't walk, And I was like why they're like, there's
40:02
tons of papara There was tons of
40:04
paparazzi and TMC and they
40:07
were all and the thing think about the papa
40:09
razzi, which is which I'm which is so
40:11
interesting, is they're so nice. So
40:13
they were like, Roger, how do you Roger?
40:16
Hey, Hi, Hey, hey hi Roger,
40:19
how do you feel? And I was looking for any
40:21
kind of like you know, like the press
40:23
people like you can't talk to them. You get
40:25
in the car, don't talk to the pr don't
40:27
talk to them. The paparazzi. It was like it
40:29
was so such an interesting It was like
40:31
a little tiny peek into the window
40:34
of celebrity. Right. I
40:36
imagine no documentary short filmmaker
40:39
has had that experience, No,
40:41
no, And you know, it
40:44
put me on the map in such a big way because
40:47
everyone wanted to talk about
40:49
it. Um you know, I'm I'm talking
40:51
like the funders and everyone
40:53
knew and people you know, I mean, that's
40:56
how my next film got made because a
40:58
major funder came up to me. A people
41:00
invited me to like you know, like retreats
41:02
and stuff. So I was at a retreat and someone
41:05
came up and said I was at the oscars,
41:07
and I saw what happened handled that so
41:09
well, and what are you working on next? And
41:12
that's how God loved Youganda started,
41:16
Does it feel like that was pity?
41:20
I felt no. I didn't feel like it was pity. I felt
41:22
like it was like, are they capitalizing on the
41:24
media circus? I don't know
41:27
if that was it as much as
41:29
they recognize me and they
41:31
were like, you
41:34
know, there's an incredible
41:36
amount of pressure, and
41:38
anyone you would have. I
41:41
was very much aware that
41:43
a billion people were watching, and I was
41:45
like, hold
41:47
it together, hold
41:50
your own and bring it back to Prudence in the
41:52
end. Got you've got to somehow final
41:54
way to jump in there, and that's what you do, bring it back to Prudence.
41:57
Because I had arranged for the cameras
41:59
to I wanted to bring Prudence to the stage if we won,
42:01
and I arranged for the cameras to be there filming
42:04
Prudence. And so I
42:06
had talked to the producers. I got their
42:08
earl to make sure the camera was set
42:11
up, that they had the right shot and so that Prudence
42:13
it would cut the Prince and so they got to cut
42:15
to Prudence. And I
42:17
think that that, you know, I
42:19
was getting so many like industry wise,
42:21
these people were like, Wow, that was
42:24
amazing, how you handle that. Wow,
42:26
you're increasing. It was just great. I was
42:28
getting all this attention and
42:31
now you're going back. I'm going
42:33
back, which is you
42:35
know again, yeah
42:38
and again. I wanted to get
42:40
back there to prove
42:43
something because I didn't get to make that
42:45
speech. And so I for
42:48
me, I was like, I'm
42:50
gonna get back there someday and
42:52
I'm gonna get to talk and um
42:55
and no one's gonna run up and interrupt
42:57
me. I'm gonna change
43:00
by my producer, Julie
43:02
Goldman is like the
43:04
most amazing price, Like she's the best producer.
43:07
Like I went to the best
43:09
producer in the documentary world. Truly,
43:12
every I said of it to everyone, who's the best producer
43:14
working today in documentary? I said,
43:17
Julie Goldman, Julie Goldman, ju McLeman. Everyone
43:19
told me that. And then so I went to Goldman. I was like,
43:21
I want to work with you. I want to work with the best. She's like, oh,
43:23
I don't know, I don't know what happened up there. And I
43:25
was like and I was like, um, you
43:27
know, and She's like it we were
43:30
on our fourth film together, two
43:33
shorts, two features, and
43:36
it's been like a dream and like and
43:40
I've had the most incredible creative
43:44
working experience with everyone
43:46
I've worked with now and I'm
43:49
like, Wow, this is what it's
43:51
like at another level, right, you
43:53
know. I was just that was my first film. I didn't know
43:55
anything. It's the people saying
43:58
you're too ambitious. This
44:00
woman interrupted you min speech. You
44:03
said, no, I'm not gonna
44:05
let this be the thing that people remember me by.
44:08
And I'm gonna work harder to get back there. In
44:11
the face of rejection or in the face
44:13
of something being taken away. This
44:17
is your go to response. That's
44:20
who I am. I Like, you
44:22
knock me down, I get back up and fight
44:24
harder. I've had to do that my
44:26
whole life. That's that's just that
44:29
is who I am. And
44:32
to come back in the feature category,
44:35
you know. But I'm gonna be back with the best
44:37
picture. I'm telling you, mark
44:39
my words. Um,
44:42
I just keep getting back up. I mean
44:44
I had to do that my whole life growing
44:46
up. I had to I had to ignore
44:48
the surroundings. I had to gnore the cards
44:51
I was dealt, and I had to fight and overcome
44:53
things. And I'm and I continue
44:56
and people are like, oh yeah, yeah, yeah,
44:58
yeah, yeah, I've heard that story or that story
45:01
overcoming. Um, but
45:03
that's my story and that's that
45:06
was my reality. And I'm gonna and then no matter
45:08
how many times people ca call me too ambitious
45:11
or um uh you
45:13
know, um oh
45:15
you know, yeah, he's he, I'm
45:18
out. I'm out here for a year, you
45:20
know, go into festivals and
45:22
meeting people and campaigning and screening and
45:25
and I and I
45:27
I do that because I have that drive. I have
45:29
that like little boy like Roger, a little
45:32
rejected boy like saying, don't
45:35
look past me. Do you think you'll be happy
45:37
if you win. I
45:40
will be very happy if I win, but
45:43
I will immediately start working on the next
45:45
goal, which would be to
45:47
win Best Picture. It could be another
45:50
seven years, but if
45:52
I lose, I will um dust
45:55
myself off and get back up and keep. You
45:57
know, we're all to be nominated, you know, every
46:01
level you get to. So when you to be nominated,
46:04
especially in this year and these
46:07
you know, an amazing slate of film Holmes
46:09
UM nominated. UM is an incredible
46:12
honor. I know that sounds like cheesy but that's like,
46:14
but like it really is. And I just wanted
46:17
to get nominated
46:21
and I was an honor you know, everything
46:23
was a shortlist. I was like, I just want
46:25
to be a shortlist and if I get the shortlist, I don't
46:27
need anything else. I don't need to be nominated. Then you get to
46:29
know, and then you're like, then you get nominated, I
46:31
just want to and then you I'm sorry, so of course you
46:34
want to win. Maybe you'd be lying if you said you didn't
46:36
want to win. But if I don't win, UM,
46:39
that's not gonna stop me. I'm not gonna you
46:41
know, I'm gonna keep making films
46:43
and I'm gonna keep telling the stories that
46:45
I think are important to tell. Yeah,
46:49
and um, and I think if
46:51
you tell stories you you personally
46:54
are passionate about that, you are connected
46:56
to that you that you cannot
46:59
only thing you can do is tell those stories.
47:01
Then you're gonna always win because
47:03
people will see that, people will understand
47:06
stand that, and that is
47:08
something that I, um
47:10
will always do. I know we have to go so
47:13
all all I wanted to say, you just
47:15
give a big eye roll. I know it's I
47:17
know, my publicist is it's okay, rushing
47:20
me out. I UM, I just want
47:22
you to know that whatever happens in
47:24
two the two weeks, it's yeah, it's like ten
47:27
days from now. Uh.
47:30
I hope you feel valued, man. Yeah.
47:34
I don't mean to get too emotional, but I
47:36
I hope you feel however
47:38
it shapes out. You don't
47:40
need the statute to
47:43
remind you that you're worth something. Yeah,
47:45
and I think that's
47:47
significant. Yeah, well, thank
47:49
you. And I I realize I do,
47:52
and I realize that, and I um
47:54
and uh, I'm okay. Now,
47:56
I'm okay. You know I'll
47:59
be okay regardless. Okay, good. Thank
48:02
you so much for coming on the show. Yeah, absolutely,
48:10
well. There it is special. Thanks to Teresa
48:12
di Martino and the folks at the Orchard, Margaret
48:15
Gordon and Rebecca Fisher. Also
48:17
Disney for letting us record in
48:19
some makeshift employee
48:22
type library. I don't know what it was, but it
48:24
was very comfortable, and we thank you for
48:26
letting us recording episode of the podcast.
48:29
There. You can watch Roger's latest
48:31
film, Life Animated over on Amazon
48:33
Prime Now, and if all goes well,
48:36
you may see Roger on your television the night of
48:38
the Oscars Sunday, February twenty
48:40
sixth, accepting a golden statue
48:47
people people
48:50
who need. If
48:54
you enjoy today's episode at Roger, you may
48:56
enjoy past conversations with documentarians
48:59
like Margaret Brown, Steve James,
49:01
or Bill and Turner Ross smart
49:04
insightful filmmakers working today. Also,
49:07
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49:09
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49:12
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49:17
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49:19
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49:21
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49:23
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49:26
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49:30
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49:33
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49:35
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49:38
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49:46
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49:48
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50:00
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50:03
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50:05
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50:07
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50:11
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50:16
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50:20
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50:32
You may be one of the first people
50:35
to come on the show that has also listened
50:38
to the show in the past. I
50:40
love the show. Yeah, well you
50:42
were, I don't know you're You're
50:45
such a good interview I mean, like you just you
50:48
just delve, delve so deep
50:51
into um into
50:53
people's lives and their stories and their creative
50:55
process and it's just like and
50:57
I'm not even a podcast listener, Like I'll
50:59
listen to a lot of podcasts, and I just Amy
51:02
now addicted.
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