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Pushkin. This
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is Talk Easy. I'm San Fragoso.
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Welcome to the show. Hey
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everyone, thank you for being here
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today. On the podcast, I'm sitting with writer,
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director, and actor Rod A. Blank.
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Her debut film, the forty year Old
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Version, just recently dropped on
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Netflix. It's a deeply autobiographical
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piece following a struggling
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playwright and professor who suddenly
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finds refuge in a different medium.
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Rap. He's a snippet from
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the trailer, any more thought on
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what kind of play do we want to write? Remember?
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If you put in nothing, it'll be nothing like
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your career. Remember
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this face. She was one of Spotlight Magazine's
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thirty under thirty playwrights to watch.
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We watch, But where'd you go? How
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are you? Archie tells me
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you're teaching how
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somebody who ain't had no real hip gonna tell me
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how to write a play? She ain't know. Tyler Perry, I
1:39
did win a thirty hunder thirty. Yes,
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it was quite a couple of years ago. What do I gotta do?
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Write a slave musical and all white
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play? This some bullshit?
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It rang a little inauthentic.
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I asked myself, did a black person really write
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this?
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This? Some fucking bullshit, bullshit
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think about me doing hip hop? Doing
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what to it? I want to make a mixtape
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about the forty year old woman's point of view.
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The forty year old version is of
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course a play on both The forty
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year Old Virgin and This Is Forty,
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both directed by Judd Apatau. It's
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an intentional reclamation on Rata's
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part, a way of creating space
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for black women to be as flawed, stunted,
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and vexed as the protagonist in those
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films, played by Steve Carrall and
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Paul Rudd, respectively. Here,
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Rata, playing the lead character, minds
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her own personal history to create
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a kind of archival piece, a
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document of both herself and her
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family in New York. We get into
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that during this conversation. We
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also discuss how the themes of this film
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are interconnected with her own experiences
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of working as an artist and teacher
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in New York. Success and failure,
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false starts in creative disappointments,
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boundless ambition met with debilitating
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rejection. This feeling that by
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age forty you have to have arrived
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at some we're substantial, This
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feeling that time is not on your side.
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During our talk we speak of the artists that inspired
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her and this film, and
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in turn, we've posted images
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and photos on our website in case
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you want a visual reference when talking about
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Carrie May Weems, Carrie James Marshall,
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and Roy DeCarava. You can follow
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along at www dot
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com, ecpod dot com,
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slash rata r
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A d h A. And
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now onto the show. Rota
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Blank, Hey Sam,
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how you doing. I'm okay,
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I'm okay. I'm finally admitting to myself my
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nerves are a little funky. We
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are having a driving premiere
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tonight in New York and the movie comes out
4:12
tomorrow. I'm just admitting
4:14
to myself that I do have some nerves. Before
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I was active, really cool, you know, I was acting
4:19
really too cool for school. But now I'm like,
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no, you're feeling something. Just
4:24
own it. What has it been like to release
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a movie in this strange,
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precarious moment. I
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don't know the full answer to that. I'll
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probably know by Sunday
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morning when everyone as
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a hold of it. But so
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far it's been I gotta
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say bittersweet. When the
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pandemic hit struck
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knocked us down, I was really
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in the space of like, what am I doing. Why
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am I calling myself a filmmaker? Like another
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black person got killed by police officer,
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you know, like I just didn't know if
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what I was doing made sense in
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the world. And then many other
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people went into hiding because
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we didn't have a choice, and I
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found myself watching lots
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and lots of content online. I
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watched High Maintenance again, I watched
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I watched a whole bunch of shit, and
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I had a profound appreciation for
5:22
what it is to tell a story, especially in
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times like this, because I know people
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say all the time like, oh,
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story and film art
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content, it really can suthe
5:34
the soul or create some kind of escape. But
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it did for me. A few months into the pandemic.
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I was like, okay, Like if this is what the work does
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for people, then maybe
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now is the time to put something out that makes
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people laugh or makes them introspective,
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contemplative, whatever, like look at their own life.
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Some people say that they are their
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spirits are lifted from the film, and so I'm like,
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okay, then, you know,
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I'm not much of an activist, but maybe the film
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can be my form of activism and just helping
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people feel better. So I wouldn't say I've
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had a full circle moment. We're still in
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a pandemic, you know. Again, My
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premiere is a drive in because we can't make
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any physical contact with each other, which is
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painful. I want to hug people. But I
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think I've come around to see
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like what a privileged position it is to be a
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storyteller in this time. So
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I want to go back to a different time. What
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did your life look like in New
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York City before you decided
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to make this film? Before
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that, I had gotten a screenwriting
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job, one of my first, and
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I was Oh, it was jubilance. It
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was like, oh wow, I have you know. As a teaching
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artist, I'm constantly telling kids like you can
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make you can really make a
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career out of writing. I promise you you can be
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a living, professional artist. And
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in that moment, I felt like, oh good, I'm not a liar
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because I've been accepted
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into the union. I'm getting a paycheck to
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write a script. And then I
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got fired off of that job. So
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I mean, this would have made for that nice little PSA
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where I go back to the school and say, hey, it's I
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don't know about those dreams because
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I just got fired for one of mine. Um
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no, I got fired
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off of that job, and I
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was devastated. You know, it was my first real
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professional screenwriting job
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and I got fired. But the beauty
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of the moment and my mom said this and
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she meant it. She said, you know, one day, you're gonna thank those
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people for firing you. And I'm
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really grateful that they did because it
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created the fuel behind the project. I
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started writing it as a web series, mainly
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because anyone can upload any
7:43
content, you know, as long as it's not considered
7:45
hazardous to one's eyes or health. And
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I was like, I'm going to write it, directed, starring
7:50
it, produce it in this way, I can't get fired,
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you know, Like I literally was just trying to take control
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of how my voice
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showed up in the world. So, yeah,
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I was working on this web series
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and it gave me this thing to do. Like
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I'm enjoy teaching,
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I love working with young people, but ultimately
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I want to be a writer and just found
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that between my plays not really
8:13
getting produced in a way that I thought that they would
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and getting fired off of that job, I just
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needed to do something that would kind of not
8:20
to sound like the character, but like to take my
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life back, to take my voice back. And that
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was the beginning of the forty year old version.
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As you're pitching projects to
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the predominantly white world of
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theater in New York, what did
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their criticism sound like? It
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was an odd kind of rejection because they tell
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me how much they loved the plays, like, oh my god,
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this is so good. And
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then they'd say, what else do you have, which
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is a no. You know what I mean, at least for that particular
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play. So and how did you handle that rejection?
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How I handle it? I guess I am the
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Taylor Swift of filmmaking. You
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know. I put that shit in a movie because
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I could not understand, like how
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in one breath someone could tell me something was so
9:05
good. And this is after I had
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success with my first and only major
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production. It was a play called Seed about
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this black social worker becomes
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obsessed with the welfare of a
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black genius from the projects and how
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this forty year old, single, childless
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professional woman and his young
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mother. People have compared it to Little
9:26
Man Tate or something like that. But set in Harlem. I
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had that play produced and people were like, oh
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my god, this is going to Broadway. This is it. I'm
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telling you, this is your moment, this is your breakthrough.
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Didn't happen like that at all. Didn't
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happen at all. But I would take these meetings
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after having that kind of success with
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these lit folks who
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I realized are like,
9:48
very enthusiastic about new talent, but don't
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have the power to green light
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a lot of things. I think they do their job is to
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kind of put stuff in front of the artistic directors,
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like the people who are going to make that decision. And
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they were always advocating for me, but I think
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they knew the spaces they were in,
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so they were kind of like, do you have something else?
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What else do you have? Because I want you
10:08
to win. So it was weird.
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Everyone says they loved this play, and yet it
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wasn't much real estate for my
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plays in New York theater. When
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you did eventually decide to write
10:19
this, it was originally intended
10:21
to be a ten episode web series.
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Yeah, I believe in the midst of shooting
10:26
the first two episodes, your
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mother passes away, and
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the passing of a
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mother is at the heart of this movie,
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and there are clear parallels
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between that character Rata and
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you Rata.
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Where were you at in that moment doing
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those two episodes as your
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mother passed. I was I
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was like in a very raw space
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anyway, because I
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was approaching forty and I
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think I felt like this project was my
11:06
way to break out. I'm approaching
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forty and this this is what I'm gonna do. You know. In my
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movie, the characters like I'm gonna
11:12
lose forty pounds for
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my fortieth and for me, it was
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like, I'm going to make
11:19
this a web
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series. I think I had just turned
11:23
forty, right because my mom and I have the
11:25
same birthday and we
11:27
got to celebrate our birthdays together. But
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yeah, I was like, oh, this is it. This is
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the thing. I'm gonna shoot this web series and
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I'll exercise these demons out of me. People
11:37
will see me as an artist. And then she passes away,
11:39
and it really did devastate my life. We've
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spent so much time together. We share
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the same birthday. My mom was my
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film buddy. You know, She's someone who I would go to
11:48
see everything from Tyler Perry to Dancer
11:50
in the Dark with, you know, like we
11:53
just film was our thing, and
11:56
so naturally I
11:59
had a small identity crisis.
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I just couldn't. I wasn't sure who
12:03
I was without her, and so
12:05
I just started to retreat into
12:07
myself and just going to a
12:09
ball pretty much trying to figure out
12:11
how I would move forward. At
12:14
one point, someone asked me to perform. You
12:16
know, I've done a lot of solo performance stuff, and they
12:18
were like, oh, you know, this is like two months later.
12:20
We'd love for you to do this thing, and the
12:22
work involved being characters and so and I just was
12:24
like, I can't do that. I can't I can't
12:26
be a character, I can't pretend. But I
12:29
did feel the impulse to perform. It
12:31
was almost like I felt my mom telling me, like, just
12:33
go out and perform, you'll feel better. And so that's
12:35
when I started performing as Rodams Prime. Because
12:38
with the web series, you know, the idea was like you'd
12:40
watch ten episodes and then there'd be this mixtape
12:42
that you could download for free that connected
12:44
to the narrative. And so I kind
12:47
of just put the web series aside,
12:49
kind of threw it out, and then just started performing as Rodama's
12:51
Prime. And it really was a Catharsis for me. It really
12:53
did very much like the film.
12:56
It really did get me through. It's
12:58
not a character. This really is just another
13:01
part of myself, and that part of
13:03
myself was not afraid to talk about
13:05
the loss, was not afraid to contemplate
13:08
her aid or having a younger lover.
13:11
You know. I have a fact girl
13:13
sex anthem called poke chops.
13:15
That's p o K chops,
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you know. Like it was. It was where I was my
13:20
most vulnerable and exposed, but
13:22
also my most confident and
13:25
fearless. And so I really did
13:28
lean on Rottama's Prime and I just
13:30
would go out and perform like Joe's pub
13:32
different spaces around New York. And then I ended
13:34
up at the speaker Box Festival in Norway
13:37
doing the Rottomus Prime forty year
13:39
old version mixtape show. So it
13:41
went from this web series to this live cabaret
13:44
kind of a comedy solo
13:46
piece, you know. But it really
13:48
did get me through. I know people say that all the time,
13:50
but like it gave me
13:52
something to do with my body and my pain
13:55
and my grief by taking on, by
13:57
relenting, I just say to my alter
14:00
ego went on
14:02
mind to day, guess what I've seen
14:04
another need to talk about to stay on your
14:06
dan giving advice on how to wash my
14:08
ass, how to ship right, stay on the new
14:10
being path or pofies or fabric
14:13
can taste and of life. Matruly have bad
14:15
things to say about how to be a queen, how
14:17
to be pristine? Said t tree birls keep
14:20
up a john to clean has many many thoughts
14:22
flooding or herbias. Down with the meat,
14:24
up with the foliage, said white man is the devil
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black hand guard. But this nigga hotel ain't
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had no damn job. Spa all day, balking
14:31
into his laptop, making playing vegan
14:33
food as he flipped his dreadlocks, or in boys
14:36
m and mad black ademics having Facebook
14:38
fights with other prophetics, flapping
14:40
his gumbs between flipping tabs us or
14:42
from pehub, then back to his task. But save
14:45
the black coats, one posting the time before
14:47
a black corse. He ain't spent a dime wire
14:50
his dough tied up, absorb five
14:52
jees behind in childhood or old
14:54
back taxes, but henaxi or
14:57
fue trying to kick black backs and
14:59
educate the youth. But fuck fact checking the
15:01
truth, because that's just how them oats have to do educating
15:04
the youth, the fuck fat checking the truth
15:06
because that's just how them hotel too, Because
15:09
Yeah,
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when did you realize that you
15:18
were more comfortable being vulnerable
15:21
in your alter ego than
15:23
in yourself. I don't know. There's just something
15:25
about being on stage. Clearly,
15:27
it takes guts to be
15:29
on stage in front of people. It's
15:31
performance, and yet if this is possible,
15:34
it's stripped down like I do it myself. I don't
15:36
hire a director. I just kind of get on
15:38
stage and I'll have projections and I'll
15:40
have my DJ Jo
15:42
met Kinsey aka Jo Medicine,
15:44
and we'll just kind of vibe with the audience
15:47
and something about music and
15:49
songs you kind
15:51
of couched in something. It just felt
15:54
like a natural place to work through those
15:56
things. And I know that it
15:58
was a healing for me because talking
16:00
about those very things in a conversation with
16:02
friends meant crying, you know, but
16:04
being on stage, I mean I would let myself cry
16:06
there too, But being on stage I felt
16:09
just like a I
16:13
wouldn't say, a better version of myself, just
16:15
a more secure and confident you
16:17
know. Like when I took that on, it
16:19
was okay. Anything I said was okay.
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Guy, Remember being on stage of the show.
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And I have a song called If I Had a Dick, and
16:28
it kind of chronicles some of my I
16:31
don't know, my encounters with the patriarchy
16:33
and some of the writing rooms, and if
16:36
I can remember, it goes,
16:39
You'll stop interrupting me, bitch, and
16:41
stop talking over me, trick, You'll
16:43
stop acting like you to shit just because
16:46
your ass got a dick. And it was because
16:49
I'd be in a writing room with my
16:51
bros. We're all cool, and yet all of
16:53
a sudden, like when I go to talk, I'm constantly being interrupted
16:56
or I pitched something and the
16:58
room goes, but when a guy pitches it, it's like, oh
17:00
yeah, celebration. And so it's my way
17:02
of kind of encountering patriarchy.
17:05
And you know, those guys came to the
17:07
show, and I'm gonna
17:09
be like, yo, my favorite song is If I Had a Dick. I
17:11
was like, really, it's about you. Now. I didn't
17:13
say that, but I had a writer friend one
17:15
time, or a director friend. I was so frustrated
17:18
with like not getting ahead in
17:20
theater and wanting to like approach
17:23
the gatekeepers and complain and let
17:25
them know about themselves, and they would say put it into
17:27
work, and I was like, no, that's not But really,
17:30
like I kind of couldn't believe
17:32
that moment, Like I here, I am challenging
17:35
the sexism and
17:37
misogyny in the room in a song
17:39
and they don't even know it's
17:42
about them. I love these
17:44
guys, like I love them to death, but like
17:47
it was challenging for me. And it was in that moment
17:49
where, you know, when I went to Hollywood as a TV writer,
17:51
I really thought I'd be encountering a lot
17:53
of issues around race. And it wasn't that it
17:56
was about being a woman. It really was being
17:59
a woman in the room that's dominated
18:01
by men and wanting to just be
18:03
a writer, but sometimes being assigned the
18:05
tax to police the women characters
18:08
or police the queer acts, you know, like any
18:10
of the others and people into margins
18:12
my shop, it's a kind of
18:15
police and make sure that they were PC or whatever,
18:17
and I don't know it. It was
18:19
a very challenging experience for me being
18:22
one of few women in a predominantly male
18:24
room. And so that's what that song is about. It is
18:26
like I'm thinking of going to Hollywood and I'm going to be
18:29
challenged around racism,
18:31
but really it was just about sexism.
18:34
This shit is real. Something
18:37
that's at the heart of this film is a
18:39
line you said earlier, which is I
18:41
was approaching forty in the
18:43
midst of making this ten episode
18:45
web series, and
18:48
throughout this movie there is a constant
18:50
conversation around the act
18:52
of approaching forty. Yeah,
18:55
forty is really just an emblem for an
18:57
age, a time where you were meant
18:59
to feel secure, yeah,
19:01
or have arrived at the place that you had
19:03
hoped to arrive at. And in
19:06
the midst of you going to Hollywood
19:08
writing on shows like Empire and Spike
19:11
Ly She's gonna have It on Netflix, There's
19:13
a couple others in there. You're finding yourself
19:16
and trying to figure out where you would
19:18
like to land. Where
19:21
did you want to arrive and
19:25
is this movie that arrival?
19:28
I think so, I really do
19:31
you know? Writing for TV it's lucrative. It
19:33
got me through. I mean, I spent years. I
19:35
was the child of struggling artists, and I
19:38
lived that life for so long, and
19:40
so it was nice to have
19:42
benefits and to have a check.
19:45
You know, that direct deposit would go through
19:47
every week and it was like, whoa so
19:49
I had some security as a result of working
19:51
on the shows. But I was saying to someone
19:54
who was a former development executive of
19:56
mine. I was telling her like, it really was hard
19:58
for me to be in those rooms because I was sitting
20:00
on this thing that felt like a singular vision.
20:03
And the camaraderie, the fellowship
20:05
that I got from all of those writers from those different
20:07
rooms. I'm friends with the and I'll be friends with them
20:10
forever. And it was fun to be a part of a super
20:12
brain. But there was always
20:14
this kind of song in my head, so to
20:16
speak. You know, even though
20:18
I was playing with these other great artists
20:20
and storytellers, this thing was
20:22
almost haunting me. So making the film
20:25
was also like an exorcism. It was something I was
20:27
sitting on trying to say for
20:29
such a long time, and now
20:31
that it's out, I feel one thing
20:33
I can't say is I
20:35
can't say I'm not a director. I directed
20:38
a feature film. It marks
20:40
like this pivot or this I
20:42
guess coming out of
20:44
me as an artist to the world, Like
20:47
here's this thing that I
20:49
did. I completed it, It's finished.
20:51
You know, there's no turning back now. But like
20:54
it makes all the last year of
20:56
struggle and diversity so worth it because
20:59
I guess it just would take this long to get
21:01
here to say something like this.
21:04
I don't know what the thirty year old version would
21:06
have looked like, but I don't think it would have felt like this film.
21:09
There's this humor there, but there's
21:11
an intense emotion, you know, the loss, the grief,
21:14
the projection, all of that stuff. And I needed to
21:16
go through that to know how to
21:18
convey that in a film. And I say that
21:20
because I don't have training
21:22
in the space of academia. I did
21:25
have my one great film class
21:27
at City College with Professor Colson. Hi Professor
21:29
Colson, he's still there, But I really
21:31
didn't take a deep dive into the study of film
21:34
outside of my own curriculum, watching films
21:36
and reading screenplays and stuff like that. And
21:38
so the adversity gave me a story to tell.
21:40
The experience gave me the confidence
21:42
to tell that story. Well, for
21:45
many people, they're going to watch a film
21:47
over the past weekend and in the weeks ahead.
21:50
I think what people who are going to be curious about
21:52
is what this vision of New
21:54
York is to you and
21:56
where it comes from. Because your
21:58
mother was a cinephile, your dad was a
22:00
jazz drummer. There's a mix of
22:03
Quincy Jones music and tribe
22:05
called Quest and yeah, clearly
22:07
the influence of Royal the Cavra's photography,
22:10
and you have an amalgamation of
22:12
influences. So what is your
22:15
movie and what is its worldview to you?
22:17
Now? I feel like the movie
22:20
is like an archive of a black creative's
22:23
life, you know. Like again, I was raised
22:25
by two black artists who struggled
22:28
for years And I don't mean that in a
22:30
romantic way now, I mean like government
22:33
cheese and powdered milk, sometimes
22:35
squatting. It really was a struggle.
22:37
But my parents were just so creative in how
22:39
they raised us. So I'm hoping the
22:41
film is pays and homage to them. You
22:44
know. There's a scene at the end of the film,
22:47
and I don't think I'm spoiling anything, but
22:49
I finally get to my mom's apartment
22:52
and when I walk in, it's my dad's music playing
22:55
and my mom's artwork on the wall, and
22:57
my brother is there. So you're
23:00
in a fictitious version of
23:02
your mother's apartment. Your mom's
23:04
very real artwork is on the Wall. Yes,
23:06
your real brother is standing before.
23:09
Are you a non actor acting
23:11
with you? Yeah, your dad's music
23:14
is playing. You're making a movie for Netflix.
23:17
There are strangers and a
23:19
new family around you making this movie.
23:22
What is that moment like on those
23:24
days of shooting there, I
23:27
think if I thought too much about it, I
23:29
would have been completely overwhelmed
23:31
with emotion. It was a big deal that my
23:34
brother would be in the film with
23:36
me and could carry a scene like some people like, no,
23:38
really, no, who's the guy who's playing your brother? That's
23:40
my brother? Wait? Yeah, Okay,
23:42
he's good. All right, so he's great. Fine. I don't
23:44
want to get a big head. But it
23:47
was a big deal that we got to kind
23:49
of archive our family together.
23:52
You know, this is before Netflix came along,
23:54
you know, I was. It was completely
23:57
independent financing through New Slate
23:59
Ventures, and these queer
24:01
black people came surrounded me
24:03
in the film and we're like, Okay, we're going to support
24:05
you. We're gonna find whatever it is that you need to make
24:07
this film. And then into Sundance and
24:09
Netflix saw that more
24:12
of a director's cut of the film than
24:15
when we came down the mountain. It was like, Okay,
24:17
I definitely from my six screenings, I learned
24:19
I needed to tighten certain things or whatever cut
24:21
a little bit off. But Netflix was very
24:23
supportive in it being
24:25
my film and it's still being my voice.
24:28
And I find like, you know, I
24:30
think what's going to happen in the next couple of years. It's like it's
24:32
going to be a real hub for independent cinema.
24:35
But yeah, like to get that kind of support
24:37
and not have Netflix say, well,
24:40
you know, we think you should cut it down in ninety minutes, or
24:42
maybe we don't need this, Like it still
24:44
is my raw film. You know,
24:46
it's still very much my voice. It's not perfect,
24:48
but it is perfectly me and
24:51
I hope black artists or any struggling artists
24:53
are inspired by it. But I also hope that it makes
24:55
people feel nostalgic. I'm being very
24:57
deliberate about black and white. Like one, I'm
24:59
retrofitting the film until like a time
25:01
when this story probably should have been told
25:04
thirty forty years ago. But also just
25:06
this idea of revisiting the idea of the
25:08
classic New Yor film at this time putting people of
25:10
color in it, you know what I mean. Not
25:12
to take away from Spike but like a black woman
25:14
being centered in the story where she is her,
25:17
you know, she's the storyteller of her life.
25:19
And then being deliberate about hip
25:21
hop culture, like wanting to
25:24
present it in a very vulnerable, sometimes
25:27
sophisticated, but cool tone.
25:30
You know, of black and white. There's not
25:32
that oversaturated color, it's not oversexualized,
25:34
it's not hype pipe hype. It really is just
25:36
more about a quieter version
25:39
of the culture. But being very deliberate
25:41
about those choices, and working very
25:43
closely with my DP Eric Bronco,
25:46
and getting a look and then in post,
25:48
you know, sitting with Nat Jenks and revisiting
25:51
Roy DeCarava's work and just looking
25:53
at how he captured this beautiful shades
25:56
of brown in shades of gray. I
25:58
just wanted it to look beautiful, and I
26:00
wanted it to feel like authentic.
26:03
And that has been one of the biggest compliments
26:05
I've gotten from people from New York. Is there like,
26:07
yep, that's my New York. And
26:09
you know, you don't sit down and say I want to write a film
26:12
that's going to heal people. But number
26:14
of people who are over forty, over fifty, over
26:16
sixty, they say that they see the film, and
26:18
it's the shot in the arm that they needed to
26:20
maybe dust off that graphic novel
26:23
they've been working on, or you
26:25
know, that gazebo they've been trying to build in
26:27
the backyard. I don't know, like I hope
26:29
it does that for people, in case anyone was
26:31
wondering, Rata's in New York right
26:33
now. So that's what the Sirens has doubt.
26:35
This is fitting. You made a film about in New
26:38
York. You're in New York. This podcast should have
26:40
some New York in it. Yeah. I think one
26:42
of the reasons why you have strangers
26:44
telling you, I'm going to finish my project.
26:47
I'm going to finish the gazebo, I'm going to do the
26:49
graphic novel is
26:51
because the film is a radical
26:53
act of self reflection and
26:57
you very literally do that in
26:59
the composition with the recurring
27:02
motif of shots in the mirror. Yeah, very
27:04
intentional. And there were two
27:06
in particular influences around
27:09
the mirror, and that was the work of
27:11
Carry Mayweams and
27:13
Carry James Marshall. What I love
27:15
about their work is, well, Carry Mayweams,
27:18
I feel like as a photographer, you know, she's often
27:20
using herself as a subject, and
27:22
the portraiture is like unapologetically
27:26
raw, vulnerable human naked,
27:28
and there are moments where she is looking at
27:30
her reflection in the mirror. But
27:33
also she, to me, is a reflection of
27:35
black womanhood that we just
27:37
don't see a whole lot unless it's
27:39
captured by black photographers. And it's just like
27:41
again, a very human, very vulnerable,
27:44
very soft, very subtle, very intense.
27:46
And then Carrie James Marshall. I
27:49
always call him the mirror because his
27:51
figures are like this opaque
27:54
blackness and it
27:56
kind of invites black people
27:58
to look at themselves. I know people will maybe
28:00
not think of that, but I consider him
28:03
the mirror because he creates that opportunity
28:05
to self reflect. But he also kind of just it's
28:07
like this archival of black life and
28:10
not black pain. Some of that
28:12
is in there, some of that reality
28:14
is in there, just historically, like what
28:16
black people have gone through in this country. But
28:19
there also is just this for someone
28:21
who's painting these charcoal black
28:23
figures, there's so much light. There's an
28:25
image that he has a picture of Harriet
28:27
Tubman and her husband, but
28:30
we've never seen Harriet Tubman in
28:32
that You know kind of visage
28:34
she's being held with love
28:37
and sweetness by her husband, and so Carrie,
28:39
James Marshall, him and Karamy Weims were
28:42
huge influences. And I just again, I wanted
28:44
the movie to be a mirror in some way reflecting
28:48
Black womanhood in a way that we hadn't seen.
28:50
You know, this isn't the hands on hip all
28:52
knowing Sassy. This is
28:55
a flawed person and sometimes
28:57
her reflection is obscured. You know, sometimes
29:00
it is, sometimes it isn't. But yeah,
29:02
those are my influences in terms of
29:04
where the mirrors show up in the film. Carrie
29:07
May Weims Kitchen Table series is
29:10
very much in alignment with what's
29:12
happening in this movie in
29:14
terms of the vulnerability, the
29:17
change that happens over time
29:19
within those photographs. For people who
29:21
haven't seen those before, you could google
29:23
that right now while you're listening to this
29:26
podcast. I'm so jealous of people who
29:28
haven't seen it before, because it's that thing when
29:30
you encounter something for the first time, you're
29:32
just like knocked down by it, So
29:35
you're in for a treat. At the heart of those photographs
29:38
and this film is
29:40
that woman that you're talking about full
29:43
of idiosyncrasies and complexities,
29:45
and there's an undercurrent of
29:47
a conversation in this movie about the
29:49
gatekeepers of whiteness and
29:52
theater that's explicit
29:54
on the surface of this movie, but also
29:57
works as a sort of meta conversation
29:59
about the film industry. Where
30:01
are you at? I've said this
30:04
before. I'm probably a very
30:06
very lazy activists, and
30:09
I'm a little nervous about I
30:11
have some autoimmunities, and so I
30:14
want to go out in protest, but I
30:16
sometimes can't make it out into the street. And
30:18
so I do feel though that the film
30:21
becomes my version of responding
30:23
to those things. You know, there
30:25
is this reckoning that's happened where
30:28
well meaning folks posted
30:30
their black Squares on ig talking
30:33
about BLM and Black Lives Matter and
30:35
George Floyd didn't deserve to die all this other
30:37
stuff. And then not long after
30:39
that, people who worked at that institution
30:41
were like, well, we'll hold on now, wait a minute, now, miss
30:44
black Square poster. You overlook
30:46
me three times for that promotion, and
30:49
you hired get another white man to do a job
30:51
that I'm more than qualified to do. And so
30:53
there was this reckoning that was happening that's
30:55
been happening now for the last couple of weeks. I
30:58
don't know if it's just a rash response.
31:00
I know that in theater a number
31:02
of black women have been put in positions of power,
31:04
you know, at the gates, so to speak, and
31:07
I know it is in response to the
31:09
racial recording that's happening now. How
31:11
deep it goes, I'm not so sure. There
31:13
is a movement of black,
31:15
brown, queer, Asian, Indigenous
31:18
theater artists who are calling
31:20
out the lack of inclusion, especially
31:23
in those power positions in theater. It's
31:25
the we See You movement where they're calling
31:27
out white American theater. I did
31:29
not get to sign that petition, but
31:31
I feel like the film is my signature, and so
31:33
I'm hoping that there's just more
31:35
conversations about why has it
31:38
been that way in theater, people
31:40
who are programming these main stages
31:42
at these theater Why is it
31:44
the same kind of person determines
31:46
what kind of black life, Asian life, queer
31:49
life shows up on that stage. I
31:51
hope that the film is a part of the conversation
31:54
on getting that shit right and just
31:56
creating more equity. The forty
31:59
year old version also plays on
32:01
the forty year old version and missus
32:03
forty is this your jud
32:06
Appatil disc track? I don't know if
32:08
it's a track, but I think I got a couple
32:10
of bars off in a battle, like you know,
32:12
we stepped in and I was like, yo, jut, what
32:15
the fuck saying what's up? You know what
32:17
I mean? Like, I don't know if it's a distract, but I'm
32:19
definitely saying, yo, jet I'm here it
32:22
is. It's like it's a moment where
32:25
I'm just saying, like, well, where's our version
32:27
of this story? Because we are self
32:29
deprecating comedic figures
32:31
in our own lives and stories. But
32:34
I always say I appropriated his movie title
32:36
and his running time, you know why not people
32:38
appropriate black culture all the damn
32:40
time, and his soul. It's just
32:42
a little reversal, but I respect
32:44
him, and he's kind of created, like or
32:46
he's led this uh cultural
32:49
shift in storytelling where there's like
32:51
a very flawed, contemplative,
32:56
goofy, self deprecating white
32:58
guy who's like I'm turning
33:00
forty, but I don't have my shit together, and
33:02
I'm like, yeah, well, Black Women
33:04
too. One of the films that also
33:07
inspired me was Losing Ground by
33:09
Kathleen Collins, and the reason
33:11
I love that film so much is on
33:14
surface this particular character. She's a philosophy
33:16
professor, she's married to a really interesting, eccentric
33:19
painter, you know, but she's having an
33:21
identity crisis. She doesn't know who the fuck
33:24
she is. She doesn't think she's interesting enough, she
33:26
doesn't know if she's happy. And I just feel
33:28
like you don't see us in
33:30
that position. We're usually all knowing.
33:32
With Sassy, we're pained,
33:34
you know, we're going through something. Whenever, in
33:37
a lot of times black story, our
33:40
pain is the conflict. The conflicts are not
33:42
about like, oh God, do I want to move to Paris or
33:44
do I want to you know, like I see more and
33:47
more of that, but we could have more
33:49
introspective stories. But her film to
33:52
me was her version of This Is forty. It
33:54
wasn't as much of a comedy it
33:56
it was more avant guard, but very interesting
33:59
film about this person looking
34:01
in her interiors and not having to
34:03
have this terrible, horrific
34:06
thing happening plot for her to be an interesting
34:09
moving character. In Losing Ground,
34:11
the lead character, which is a woman, a
34:13
teacher, like you mentioned, is a little bit rudderless.
34:17
She's married to a painter played
34:19
by Bill Gunn, who's eccentric
34:21
and vibrant and loud and completely
34:23
dominates every room he's in. Often
34:26
to the dutchment to their relationship, that
34:28
film is an act of investigation
34:30
into self. It's an act of trying
34:33
to find out who the hell I am
34:35
in this moment and who I want to be. Yeah,
34:38
your film is very much in conversation
34:40
with that. But for the rat outside
34:43
of the movie, like the lead character
34:45
of Losing ground, what did you find
34:47
at the end of this film. I've
34:49
found at the end of this film, you
34:53
know, a way to still
34:55
confront the grief of losing
34:57
my mom. And I
35:00
feel like I found
35:02
a second family in the
35:05
people who helped me to make the film. You
35:08
know, it is a very tense experience
35:10
being on set, you know, sometimes
35:13
twelve hour days and sometimes
35:15
we either losing light or time
35:18
or resources. And to see
35:20
everyone pulled together. There were a lot
35:23
of native New Yorkers working on the film, and
35:25
so there was this investment to pull
35:28
together to show our version of New York. And I
35:31
walk away from the film really fortified. We
35:33
all really made it happen, and
35:35
this identity as a struggling artist,
35:38
it has to change. It has changed.
35:41
This has been such a big part of my family,
35:44
you know, as artists in New York, that's just who
35:46
we've been. And now I
35:49
feel like there may be some more opportunities
35:51
to tell story again. And it's a very privileged
35:53
position to be in. Whereas before
35:56
when people would ask me questions about story,
35:58
the curiosity was about how I could meet
36:01
their vision. Now I feel like
36:03
there's a curiosity about mine. At
36:06
the end of the day, I really did We
36:08
really did get to create a love
36:10
letter to my city. And I
36:12
think I didn't say this before, but I meant
36:14
to say that that's also part of the black and
36:17
white of it, is like really trying to preserve and
36:19
hold you the city in a place
36:22
that was such a special time for me. Some
36:25
people watch the film and they're like, oh, it took place in the nineties,
36:27
right, And no, it takes place
36:29
kind of now, But there
36:31
was something about that time in New York
36:34
where like it wasn't so clean and it
36:36
wasn't so this is a weird thing to
36:38
say, ravaged by gentrification,
36:41
and it makes me feel nostalgic
36:44
about New York. Some days it's
36:46
a love letter and sometimes it's a Dear John
36:48
letter because I don't know that I
36:50
personally will get to experience that
36:53
New York ever again. In the New
36:55
York of a bygone era, you
36:57
grew up within an artist community,
36:59
jazz musicians, activist thinkers. They
37:02
would stay up with your mom and dad
37:05
until three in the morning, smoking
37:07
a little bit of weed, a little that rote,
37:09
a little joint here and there, just enough to keep
37:12
going. Yes, And they would keep
37:14
going and going and talking and
37:16
figuring out who they were in their
37:18
twenties. And your younger
37:20
self was around that community.
37:23
Yes. As we leave this
37:26
conversation, when you look back
37:28
at that younger self adjacent to
37:30
those artists and now you are,
37:33
can you believe that you're here? No?
37:36
I can't. You know what I'll
37:38
say about myself in comparison to those
37:40
artists, because I do feel like the movie
37:43
asked the question, like what is success? I
37:46
don't know that I'm necessarily more successful
37:49
than them. I definitely may be more visible
37:51
than some of them, But I think the film
37:54
is about this woman who has to rejigger
37:56
her idea of what success is she's
37:58
been focusing on this thing and focusing on this
38:01
picture of success, and if she would just turn her head
38:03
to the left, she'd see that these kids love her, This
38:05
guy loves her. Her best friend will go to the ends
38:07
of the earth for her. So I have a higher
38:09
profile than maybe some of those artists. But
38:11
the thing that I
38:14
realize is sometimes
38:17
all of those artists needed was just some resources.
38:19
I mean, they created a community out of dilapidated
38:22
loss and storefronts, you know, and there
38:24
was a richness there. There was a wealth there,
38:27
you know that. I'm like the idea
38:29
of having to pick up a phone to
38:31
call someone, like not texting or maybe
38:34
the phone was off, you had to go by there and yell up, hey,
38:36
Rashid, you know. But that little
38:38
girl who was privy to all of
38:40
those conversations and rap
38:43
sessions as my dad would call them, and jam
38:46
sessions and laughing and pontificating
38:49
and arguing like that
38:51
has become my life's blood. That has become
38:54
these important kernels in my storytelling,
38:56
because a lot of times my story
38:59
is about just relationships and people kind
39:01
of confronting each other and also questioning like what
39:03
we share the same skin color, do we have an
39:05
obligation to each other, you know, And
39:08
also conversation of selling out now
39:11
that my work has kind of permeated a certain
39:13
space. It's like I was
39:15
talking about it with my therapists this week, about
39:18
my shifting identity from
39:20
the struggling artists to the more successful artists.
39:22
But that little girl, she
39:25
can't believe it, because I think,
39:27
like most kids, you might take things for granted.
39:30
And it was my mom who put those
39:32
first seeds of storytelling in me. When I was eight
39:34
years old. I had read this story to her
39:36
that I'd written, and we were always encouraged to
39:38
write stories, to perform, to act, but that
39:40
was how we played. That was like our religious practice,
39:43
you know. So I wasn't thinking of it as a career,
39:45
but I read the story to her about this black
39:48
family that is tied of all the isms
39:50
on the planet, and they
39:52
erect this spaceship and they fly
39:54
to this distant planet where they're the only inhabitants,
39:57
and for a while they love the peace,
39:59
they love the solitude, but then they cannot
40:02
take the peace and solitude and
40:04
they need as flawed as humans
40:06
are, they need humanity. So they put
40:08
that ship back together ship ship.
40:12
They put the spaceship back together and fly back to Earth.
40:15
And I remember reading it to my mom and she had tears
40:17
in her eyes, and I was like, what is The First
40:19
thing she said was, oh, my god, you see black people in the
40:21
future. That was the first thing she said. And then the second
40:23
thing she said was you going to be a great writer one day.
40:25
And so I think at the time I was just like,
40:27
Oh, she's just saying that. That's just what people say.
40:30
Now, looking back, I realized, like, she
40:33
is the engine to this journey.
40:36
She's the person who sat me down
40:38
and showed me great films and encouraged
40:40
me to write my own stories. And so
40:43
I've been thinking about that little girl a lot, because
40:45
she honestly would not be here if it weren't
40:47
for that my parents. You
40:50
know, that struggle and that community of artist
40:52
that I was raised in. Yesterday
40:55
was the anniversary of your mother's
40:57
passing. This is
40:59
a woman that you describe as a centophile.
41:01
She was the engine to your own creativity.
41:04
You grew up watching movies with her. Yep,
41:07
what do you think she would say about
41:09
this film coming out now? I
41:11
think she would love it. I think she would laugh. She
41:14
was one of the funniest people. She turned
41:16
me on to George Carlin
41:19
and Lenny Bruce and mom's
41:22
madly Richard Pryor. I think
41:24
she would have a good time, and I think that she you
41:27
know, my mom was a teaching artist for thirty
41:29
years, and so even though I was one
41:31
of those teenagers who was a little embarrassed by
41:34
squatting living with artists,
41:37
needing government assistance or whatever, I
41:39
ended up becoming a teaching artist just
41:41
like her. So I think she would look at and be like, mmmm,
41:43
see, see, I told you it's
41:46
a good way to supplement your career as an artist,
41:48
and sure enough it did. And not only did teaching
41:51
create a way for me to eat, but you see
41:53
the kids in the film, you
41:55
know, they're at amalgam of all of the amazing
41:57
young people I met over the years. It
41:59
gave me a story to tell. So I think
42:02
that she would laugh at that, like, mmm,
42:05
you're trying not to be me, and yet you're
42:07
taking on so much of my tendencies.
42:10
And I think she'd be really proud, you know, because
42:12
she was a cinophile and
42:14
film was a huge pastime for her, so
42:17
for her daughter to grow into
42:19
a filmmaker, a director. I know she'd
42:21
be really proud, and that's why I post things because
42:23
honestly, I'm a little embarrassed by the attention.
42:26
But I know that she was here, she'd
42:28
be on Facebook posting stuff,
42:30
calling me though, asking me how to post
42:32
shit? You know, that's how do you? Okay?
42:34
But if I wanted to send it to just ten people,
42:37
how do I you know? So I know
42:39
that she's with me in this moment, and I
42:41
think she's really proud of me and my brother
42:43
and my kind of archiving our family
42:45
history. Well, I'm so glad you did that
42:48
act of archiving because it resulted
42:50
in a really special movie, and
42:52
you should be proud. I'm sure you are. Thank
42:54
you, Sam Rod a Blank. It was an absolute
42:56
pleasure to have you here. Same here, I
42:58
mean a real full circle moment because
43:01
I've been listening over the last
43:03
few years and I think that your podcast
43:05
is really special, really is more than talk.
43:08
It's like soul investigation, and
43:10
I feel really honored to be here to be
43:12
a guest on your show. We'll do a part two with
43:14
the next movie. We should thank
43:18
you so much, Sam be well, and
43:41
that's our show. Special thanks this
43:43
week to Eric Lure's Ashton
43:46
Peanut and Jill Jurich. Rota's
43:48
debut film, The forty year old
43:50
version is now available to stream
43:53
on Netflix. To learn more
43:55
about Miss Blank, visit our site
43:57
at www dot com easypod
44:00
dot com. And if you're new to the show,
44:02
I'd recommend some past conversations
44:05
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44:08
Rock, sand Gay, Ted Danson,
44:11
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44:31
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always, this show is made by a
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Village. Our executive producer Jannick
44:38
Sobravo, illustrations by Christia
44:40
Chenoi, Associate producer Nikki Spina.
44:43
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44:45
Our assistant editors are David Harding, Najng
44:48
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44:51
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44:53
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44:58
Simmons. Graphics by Derek
45:00
Gaberzak and Ethan Seneca,
45:02
and the show is produced by Caroline
45:04
Reebok. I'm Sam Fragoso.
45:07
Thank you for listening to talk you see. We'll
45:10
be back this coming Sunday with Doctor
45:12
Corn Now West. Until
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then, stay safe and
45:18
so on. M
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