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Hello everyone , welcome to

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Thank you . Source , a podcast

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on emotional wellness , spiritual

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growth and self-empowerment . This

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is your host , alice Spring , and in

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today's episode , I would like to talk about

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how to exist within

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transition , within change

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, when you feel like you're in the in-between

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. How do you navigate that and

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how do you keep going ? So let's get right

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into it . So

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this episode is actually inspired

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by another podcast that I was listening to

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called Expanded by Tubi

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Magnetic . I owe a lot of

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my work to them and I will most likely

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refer to them a lot throughout

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this podcast , but

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they're an amazing team

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and they offer so much support and

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I really do owe

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so much of my healing to that program

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and to their podcast

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. So they were talking about this

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similar issue and Lacey

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Phillips , the founder of Tubi Magnetic , was

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talking about where you manifest

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from , whether it's an egoic

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manifestation or whether it's an authentic

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source manifestation , and

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so what I'd like to talk

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about is when

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you manifest from your ego , because

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I do think that there is a distinction between

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manifesting from

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a lower part of your ego

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versus manifesting from a higher

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part of your ego . So let

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me explain Right

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now , as I am pursuing this podcast

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, I am manifesting this

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through accessing

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my highest self and fulfilling

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my potential and my purpose , and

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my true joy and

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to be of service is really what

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I feel like I'm manifesting from . But there

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is a part within me that

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the ego has

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to keep pushing me . There is this

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sense of desire

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that , like , okay , where we've gotten

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to this point , where we've leveled

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up our self-worth enough for us to actually

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pursue this , we

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now have to maintain

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this energy . And so there is still

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a slight level of attachment

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towards keeping this

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vibration of a high self-worth

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, of sharing my message and

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being confident while doing it , because

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I can't let myself slip back

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, because it's not going

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to be fruitful to the process

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. And so there is a level

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of ego that's still there

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that I believe is helping

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me , and there is a level

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of ego that is still there

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that's not helping me , that I'm doing

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everything I can to shift away

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from . And so that part of the ego that I don't

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believe is helping me is the

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self-critical thoughts , the self-doubt

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, the self-sabotaging behavior

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, if that does ever come up . So those

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are all the things that want to keep me small

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, they want to keep me safe and

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they just don't want me to leave

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outside of my comfort zone . So

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I'm aware

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of when those thoughts come up and

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I shift my awareness from

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that to being like nope , that's

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no longer in alignment with where we're

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at . And it's

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taken so much time for me

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to , number one , be even aware of what

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those thoughts were Like . I didn't know I was

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self-sabotaging . I was really

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unaware that I had those tendencies

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and I knew I was self-critical

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and I knew that I had self-doubt

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. I didn't know that I had imposter

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syndrome . So that was something that came into

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my field that educated

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me and helped me

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work through some of the things that I was

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dealing with . But now

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I've done enough work where

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I've accessed enough of my self-worth

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to know what is coming from a low

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sense of self and what is coming from a high

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sense of self . So that took so much

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time , honestly . I mean honestly

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like the better part of a decade . When I

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say time , I mean girl , it took fucking

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time . And then

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the second part of it is actually

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gaining the courage to pursue

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this work and to go for my dreams

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. That's a whole other thing that also

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took that much time . I

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just wanted to make this distinction between

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how your ego can still

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be of service to your process . It's

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helping me maintain this vibration

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, like I'm staying on top of my

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meditations , my affirmations , like everything

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that I need to ingrain

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this sense of self-worth into

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me so that I can continue doing this work

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I am doing , and that is coming

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from a partially egoic place

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, because I am attached to this new level

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, this new vibration that I

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can't lose , you know . So

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I do think that it is helping me

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in the long run and I do

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think it's still helpful to remain detached

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to a certain degree . But

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if I wasn't attached , then I would just be

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like I don't care , I guess , whatever , I

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just won't do the podcast Like and it doesn't matter

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, or whatever you know , I would just like go

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and fully surrender and just live in a cave

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in the Himalayas like yogis

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. Do you know , if I was in full surrender , there

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is a part of my ego , though , that's still

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there , that knows I

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meant to do this work and it knows that it's

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meant for me to fulfill my potential

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and to be of service and to spread

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, spread the healing that I

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know will help others . Hopefully

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that can help you within

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your own manifestation journey , seeing

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how the ego might keep you

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limited , but also seeing how the ego

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might help you push

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through and push

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through the uncomfortability and leave

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your comfort zone and really pursue

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the things that you know your soul is

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asking for you to do . Another

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thing TBM likes to talk about is

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jumping off the cliff , and

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they do everything that

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they can to help prepare you to

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jump off this cliff , like raising your self-worth

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. And , let's say , you are pursuing a career , like

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I am , finding a bridge job and finding

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and having an FU fund . So

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it's like six to 12 months where

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you can have all of your bills

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covered so that you can pursue this

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with confidence and that you're not worried about

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your finances during that time . Jumping

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off the cliff , though , for me as a highly

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sensitive person , can be so overwhelming

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and so dysregulating to me that

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I need to . Instead

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of just making this huge

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jump , it's like just expanding

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my comfort zone ever so slightly

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and then reaffirming

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to my nervous system that it's safe to be one

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step outside of my comfort zone , and then

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, with each step , I'm expanding and expanding

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and expanding so much until I

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finally do have the courage and faith

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to make that final jump . And

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so , by the time I get to that final jump , it's

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not going to feel like I'm free falling off of

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a cliff . It's going to feel like I've

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built the muscles , I've built the

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trust and awareness to be able

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to say to myself okay , I've

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survived all of these little

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jumps in the past , like , I have

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enough trust and confidence with myself that

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I can make this last final jump into doing

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what it is that I want to do and to doing

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my passion project . Hopefully

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that's another perspective that can

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help you as well when

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you're thinking about really going

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for something . Maybe

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going for it immediately

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is just too jarring

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to your nervous system , and then that's

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why you have to retreat and that's why all

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this self doubt comes in and all of this like

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shame and programming comes in , because

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your nervous system just isn't

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ready yet and so we have to take

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baby steps to get there . And

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I think that that is more

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helpful to me than

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to just fully jumping off the cliff

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and having to be in full surrender , because

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that's just not . It's

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just too dis-regulating

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for me , like I can't handle it , and

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so reminding yourself to take

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baby steps along the way and

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, whenever you can , find

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a way to step out of your comfort zone

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just a little bit and even make it a routine

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to step out of your comfort zone , and when you

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start getting comfortable with being uncomfortable

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, that's when you'll really be able

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to expand past all of your

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limits and soon enough

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you'll find yourself at a completely different

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space in your life and you're like , wow , like I used

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to be scared of this , and now I'm doing this

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like a pro , I'm doing this with

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ease and grace , like , and I didn't

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even realize that I've come this far until

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you really reflect and look back and

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I think that it's really with those , those baby

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steps and those little leap frogs , rather

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than than a full , full

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cliff dive into open water

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, a

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huge part of the process , I think

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, is a combination of effort

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and trust , and

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so what that means

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to me is like knowing

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and trusting that I meant to do

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something greater than just working in nine

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to five . I know that

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I meant to share

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a message . I know that I meant

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to heal through my voice . I did

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always know that

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I was meant to teach , and

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so there's

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that trust there , there's that knowing , that

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intuition , that pull from the

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universe and from my soul , but

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it's not going to come to me if

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I don't take

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the effort and show up , and

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it has taken so

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much internal work and so much reflection

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, dark nights of the soul

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and many

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peaks as well , many high moments

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as well , that have helped me

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come into this space of high

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self-worth for me to be able to actually pursue

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this and regulating my nervous system enough

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to help me understand that it

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is safe to fully step into this role as a

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teacher and healer . But it is

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still taking a lot of energy

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, time and my resources

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to be able to show up in a way that

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I can show the universe

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and myself that I'm serious

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about this , that , like this is what I want

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and I'm not fucking around

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. Like I have

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to show it with my actions , and that's

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also my word of the year

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for 2024 is action . I

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get really caught up in analysis , paralysis

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and procrastination and overwhelmed

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with perfectionism , and so taking

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action has been a notoriously

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difficult thing to do

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for me in my past . A lot of self-doubt

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creeps up , and so I just

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have to push myself to doing

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things , and this is

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definitely it . So this is

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a process , or this is the result

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, of me taking action

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, being scared , shitless and

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doing it anyways , overcoming

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my overthinking and

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and all of that , and so

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that takes a lot of effort , like it's scary

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, but so far

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the universe has been showing

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me that my effort is

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being rewarded in the

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smallest of ways possible

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. It's just little pings

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that you'll get from the universe , little like

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twinkles , little winks that you'll get

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, that it's like I see you source

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. I know that that

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was a little confirmation for

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me and I'm gonna continue doing this

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. It'll just be even like me

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talking to someone and they're like you should

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start a podcast , and so it'll just be

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like wow , okay , so that was definitely confirmation

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that you're doing the right thing , that you're on the right

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path and that people

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want to listen to you , that you have

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something valuable to say , and that has

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been a difficult process for me to come to

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. It's like overcoming that imposter

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syndrome like who am I ? Why

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should I step into a healer and teacher

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role ? Who would even listen to me and why

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is my voice important ? And

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if that ever is a thought , I

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just remember that I

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have such a bigger mission

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here and I just

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I just then tune into

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my inner child . Actually , honestly , what

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I do is I'm like , okay , well , why are

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you scared ? What is it that you need

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that I'm neglecting right now ? Do

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you need food , do you need water , do you need

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a nice bath ? Like , do you need to go outside

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and play a little bit ? Like , what is it

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that you actually need ? Because that fear

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might also be telling you that you're neglecting

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a certain part of yourself , that you're neglecting

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some of your needs . And

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so I

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like to tune into my inner child when I

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do have those self-doubt thoughts

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come up , but anytime

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I have in the recent , in

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the recent past , I've gained

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the strength recently to

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be able to shift my perspective and being

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like , no like , I'm aware that that thought

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is no longer serving me . What is the opposite

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of that thought ? And that thought

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is actually where I'm meant to go

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, and when I am able to make

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that connection and make that switch , I

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instantly feel like an

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expansion within my heart . I instantly

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start to see within my posture that

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I'm standing taller , standing more broadly

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and really taking up space , not being

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afraid to really show

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up and be seen . That's another fear

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that I've really had to overcome

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with this whole process . But

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through me sharing my story , I just

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hope to be an

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expander and an inspiration

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for anyone listening that that

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it takes time , that it does take

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effort , unfortunately , but

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it is met with the universe

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. How you show up is how the universe will show up

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for you . It is a reflection

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, it is a mirror . Everything that you do does not

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go unseen by the universe and

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your efforts will be rewarded

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, even if it doesn't look like that

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. Now it's just so important to

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have that trust , which is that second part

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of the effort , and the trust knowing

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that things will come back full circle

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and knowing that your efforts aren't being wasted

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. That

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is also patience and time

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. It is a muscle that you have to build within

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yourself to

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be strong enough to have that trust . But

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hopefully with community , hopefully with this podcast

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, hopefully with my message , you can

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see that it is possible and

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that if it is happening

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to me , someone who's just a random average

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person , it

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can happen to you too , who's probably also

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just a random average person

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. But I

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do believe that miracles happen every

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day . I know that might be really cheesy , but

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I say that I manifest

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many and massive miracles every

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single day . Like a mini miracle

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is it can literally be

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just you waking up or just a little synchronicity

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, and I'll always notate it

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in my journal at the end of the day Like I had

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a mini miracle today . This and this happened

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. It was so amazing , like I'm so grateful , thank

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you , source , and just really recognizing

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everything that God is giving

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us in that day . And then there are massive miracles

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, like just the larger

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things that you're really calling in , that happen

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, or maybe unexpected things that happen and

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you're like , holy shit , I'm totally blindsided

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. This was amazing and I

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can't believe that just happened and there's

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so much magic in our

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lives . It's really up to us

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to see the beauty

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in every day and I know that

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if you're in like a dark place , it can be difficult

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to hear such a message , but

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life is cyclical . It does wax

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and wane and we do always

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have peaks and valleys that we'll experience

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. And it's

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important to remember these messages

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, especially if you're in a dark place . Like

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I don't hope that you're in a dark place

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, but I hope that this message does get

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to someone who is in a dark place and

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that this message can be a glisten

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of a little sparkle in their

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darkness and reminding them

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that there is hope and that there is a silver

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lining somewhere . It's up to

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you to see it and only

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you can choose to see the

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good in your life and choose to

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continue attracting those positive

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things and though that gratitude

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within yourself and within the

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people around you and your community and

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just everything in your life . So

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I hope that was helpful . Thank

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you for joining me in this episode

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either way I love you so much

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and with that

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I say thank you . Source .