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[CRANKING]
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ERIKA RANDALL: A and S.
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[REGISTER CHIMING]
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[MUSIC PLAYING]
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I imagine Rachel Suter standing on a cliff edge
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beside a small waterfall, preparing for her first dive
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into a glowing pool 30 feet below.
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The pool literally glows because Rachel performs her dives
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at the freshly renovated Casa Bonita restaurant in Denver.
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The way the water blends in and out of sapphire blue
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reminds her of her newest painting, exploring neurological degeneration, which reminds her
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in turn to finish her neuroscience homework before she can get to her next student body government
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meeting. I imagine she takes one second to recognize the wafting
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smell of tacos, the shouts at Black Bart's Cave,
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and her fellow performer in a gorilla costume,
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milling among the hundreds of patrons who have
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turned their attention to her.
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She takes a breath, counts back from three, and soars.
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[SPLASH]
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I can't imagine a more surprising person than Rachel.
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She crafts gorgeous visual art based on scientific systems
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and principles she explores in her neuroscience coursework.
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She guides the College of Arts and Sciences student body as vice president.
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She's a model, she dives, and I get the feeling these are just
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the obvious interests. As you will discover in today's episode,
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Rachel lives out the alchemy of anding with ease,
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but it's her unassuming, low-key, might I say quiet,
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fearlessness that's so disarming.
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Rachel seems like someone who can take on anything once she
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walks to the cliff edge, takes a breath,
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and counts back from three.
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On The Ampersand, we call this "bringing together
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of the impossible," "the alchemy of anding."
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Together, we'll hear stories of humans who imagine and create
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by colliding their interests.
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Rather than thinking of "and" as a simple conjunction
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in that conjunction junction kind of way, we will hear stories of people who see "and" as a verb, a way
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to speak the beautiful when you intentionally
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let the soft animal of your body love what it loves.
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As St. Mary Oliver asks, what is it you
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plan to do with your one wild and precious life?
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Oh, I love this question. When I'm mothering, creating, and collaborating,
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it reminds me to replace a singular idea of what I think I should become with a full sensory verb
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about experiencing.
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I'm Erika Randall.
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This is Rachel Suter on The Ampersand.
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[MUSIC PLAYING]
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RACHEL SUTER: When I was younger, I always wanted to dive, but I couldn't because I
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have pretty bad eczema. So I couldn't younger, but I was a competitive gymnast,
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and then following that, I did competitive dance.
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So, you know, just parallel sports, almost.
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And then senior year of high school,
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I just kind of decided like end of COVID, I'm really bored.
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I'm just going to give it a try, you know, just for fun?
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ERIKA RANDALL: Screw the eczema. There's oatmeal baths for that.
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RACHEL SUTER: So true. ERIKA RANDALL: Yeah. [LAUGHS] My kiddo has eczema.
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OK, so you're going to try it. RACHEL SUTER: Yes.
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ERIKA RANDALL: You're going to go in. RACHEL SUTER: Mm-hmm, and like, in the past,
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I had gone cliff diving with friends just at lakes
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and vacations and-- ERIKA RANDALL: See, again, you say
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that so casually-- in the past, I'd gone cliff diving.
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There isn't a world where I walk up to the edge of something actual and jump off of it.
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There was no fear for you there. RACHEL SUTER: Yeah, I have two brothers,
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and they're the type that they see a cliff,
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and they will jump off of it. And I just don't want to be left out of that, you know?
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So and then, yeah, just having the gymnastics background,
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having that. And the worst that could happen in gymnastics
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is you fall on a really hard surface, and that's really scary.
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But with diving, it's like you're falling on water,
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so there's only so much bad that could happen.
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And the hurt, it's going to hurt, but it won't last that long.
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And cliff diving, I don't go from too high,
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so the risk is minimal.
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But I think the most important thing
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is when I do like the one, two, three count,
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I have to trust myself that I'm going to go for it, you know?
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And it's like-- ERIKA RANDALL: Is that what you say literally every time--
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RACHEL SUTER: Yeah. ERIKA RANDALL: --you get to the edge? RACHEL SUTER: Yep.
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Yeah-- ERIKA RANDALL: OK, well, I want to hear it. Walk me through.
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RACHEL SUTER: Oh. ERIKA RANDALL: Put me in your body.
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RACHEL SUTER: Oh, man. Yeah, I think it's just a quick visualization of the dive.
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I mean, if it's a forward dive or a backflip, not too much.
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It's pretty simple. But if it's more of like a twisty dive,
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just stepping through what my arms are going to do and whatnot, and then standing on the edge,
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marking my place in the water.
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And if it's a smaller pool, just making
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a plan for what I'm going to do underwater because you
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can flip out of it either way.
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And so choosing space and also choosing
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if I'm going to flip out of it right away or if it's safe enough to go and bounce off the bottom almost,
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which I can do it, pools like Casa Bonita,
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but I can't at cliff diving spots like Paradise Cove.
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So, yeah, just making a plan, going through it,
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and then just counting off, like one, two, three, go,
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and just trusting that on three, I would go.
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ERIKA RANDALL: Life lessons with Rachel Suter,
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making a plan, trusting it.
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One, two, three, go.
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OK, so is that what took you to interview at Casa Bonita,
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that just one, two, three, go, let's do this?
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RACHEL SUTER: Yeah. I mean, I didn't expect to get the job.
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So it was more of a, "I might as well."
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That would just be so cool.
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I have a dance background, so I have
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the performance aspect and-- ERIKA RANDALL: And had you been there
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as a kiddo if you're from the Springs? RACHEL SUTER: No, I'd heard all about it,
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but I had never actually been. ERIKA RANDALL: OK, so you heard the lore.
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RACHEL SUTER: Yes. ERIKA RANDALL: But you had never been and had the terrible taco
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salad with the pepto-bismol chaser. RACHEL SUTER: Never had it.
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ERIKA RANDALL: Never had it. And did you hear about how there used
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to be the electrical room at the bottom of the dive pool?
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RACHEL SUTER: They fixed that. ERIKA RANDALL: OK.
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[LAUGHS] RACHEL SUTER: It's all safe, yes, but--
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ERIKA RANDALL: And we know that you're sworn to secrecy because we're recording
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this in the land of June, and you're not-- right?
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And we will disclose nothing.
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Even though we will be speaking to the past
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because this will air later, we're
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still going to honor our contractual agreements because you're that kind of human.
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But you went to the interview. RACHEL SUTER: Yeah, so I ended up going because just so many
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of my friends and family had just been like,
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oh, you have to. You dive.
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You just have to do it. I was like, OK. ERIKA RANDALL: And I know that this has already
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been leaked that there can be multiple divers at a time
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through math, or is that just internet lore?
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Maybe Rachel can't say-- RACHEL SUTER: I don't know if I'm allowed to tell you that.
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ERIKA RANDALL: OK, I'm gonna wait. RACHEL SUTER: You're going to have to find out.
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ERIKA RANDALL: I can't wait. I'm so going to Casa Bonita to watch you dive.
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RACHEL SUTER: I can't wait. ERIKA RANDALL: I will wait in line. I will eat the hopefully better food.
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I will drink the goblets just to watch you,
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and then I will be an overly proud cheer mom.
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RACHEL SUTER: Aw. ERIKA RANDALL: It's going to be so great.
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So when we think about this pattern of success,
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this way that you set up the visualization, all
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of the things, does this show up for you in other ways in your life?
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Because on top of being now this enigmatic Casa Bonita diver,
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you are also a neuroscience student.
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You're also a visual artist. You are on student government.
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You are a leader in your community.
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You are one of the kindest humans I know.
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And, and, and, and then you tell me you model,
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and I just couldn't even put that part into the Rachel egg.
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Talk to me about if that method for getting to the edge
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and looking over, does that serve you in other spaces?
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RACHEL SUTER: Yeah, it's more of like, I'm young
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and I know that this is the time in my life
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where I will most be able to try new things
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and pursue different things and have no consequences if it
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doesn't work out. And so--
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ERIKA RANDALL: OK, wait a second. You really just have that freedom in your mind,
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like this is the time when I'm young.
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How good were your parents, or did they just
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never know if you were home? RACHEL SUTER: [LAUGHS] No, my parents are amazing.
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They-- very adventurous.
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Pushed us, my brothers and I, all to try new things
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and just be confident in what we're doing. ERIKA RANDALL: Did they throw you into the pool
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when you were a little kid with all your clothes on and see if you would drown?
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RACHEL SUTER: I don't know, but they might have. ERIKA RANDALL: They might.
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They were that parenting book. RACHEL SUTER: Yes.
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And just if we had a little interest in something,
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they would help us and support us and provide the materials
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to do those, which I really appreciate and I
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know not everybody has. And so I think that definitely has
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allowed me to become a better artist and interested in sciences because they
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allowed me to have those, yeah, resources as a kid.
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And so now that I have the freedom of my own time,
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I'm able to explore those.
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ERIKA RANDALL: Were science and art always married for you?
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Because when I look at your art first of all, it's astounding to me.
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RACHEL SUTER: Thank you. ERIKA RANDALL: I had seen the original piece that you shared
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with me with the viscous--
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this gesture of hands under the sternum and the heart
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dripping out of your cage. And then there were other things that showed up
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in your art, this perspective, detail, that kind of pencil
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sketch fury. Like, there's a quickness that also maybe is not
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showing how much time it takes.
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I mean, it's a lot of time. RACHEL SUTER: Yes, quite.
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And a project will take probably 15 more hours.
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It really depends. But the more time consuming part is the research and development
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portion. ERIKA RANDALL: Yes, and you can see that the science is in it.
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And the research is in the science. Yes, OK.
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RACHEL SUTER: Yeah, because a lot of my art does deal with scientific topics.
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A lot of times, I just don't even know what I want to do,
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and it starts with the research and just taking notes and deciding on a topic
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that I like and I'm passionate about. And so I'll continue doing research
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and start with little 1 inch by 1 inch thumbnail sketches
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of little ideas I could do. ERIKA RANDALL: Kind of storyboarding?
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RACHEL SUTER: Yeah, a little bit. ERIKA RANDALL: I felt that in the timeline,
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there were these little-- is it like that, those kind of rough sketches that show, oh,
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here's a spark that connects me to this idea?
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RACHEL SUTER: Yeah, my rough draft pages
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are quite a bit more chaotic than that.
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I can show you a few more. ERIKA RANDALL: OK, I do want you to show me.
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Show me a sketch because I want-- RACHEL SUTER: OK, yes, so it starts
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with just a lot of research and then thumbnail sketches.
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And then it almost becomes a conversation
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on the page of, oh, I like this idea, but not this.
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I'll show you the-- so here's for the project I showed you.
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And it started with the research. So it's a way to have a conversation with myself
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because I never know what it's going to be when I first start.
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And it goes through so many stages. And sometimes what I end up with is not even
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on the same topic as what I began with.
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ERIKA RANDALL: And are you starting-- so you're starting from the science.
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Is it the science that's been sparked to you in a class
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or just that you're reading about and that you're curious about?
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RACHEL SUTER: Ooh, it depends. In high school, junior year, I did
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an investigation of medical history,
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and so just research of the most prominent and influential
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moments throughout medical history. And then senior year, it was just
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a history of STEM and just important moments there.
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But so that was more just me researching on my own,
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but now a lot of my pieces, I try
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to correlate to neuroscience.
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And sometimes that relates really strongly to my classes.
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I mean, I haven't been to medical school
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or really pursued any of these scientific topics in depth,
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so I'm not trying to create a just completely realistic
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and to the science image. It's more of a interpretation.
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And yeah, so I've been leaning into that a lot more.
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ERIKA RANDALL: And it also feels educational. Like, when I looked at this, I thought,
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this is how you get younger folks stoked on science, right?
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Did that happen for you as a young person? Did you see something that was representative in that kind
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of internal, emotional, not necessarily technical, way,
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or is this just how your brain works? RACHEL SUTER: I don't know.
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I think it's just how it works. And I didn't start it off combining science and art.
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It was always, when I was younger, separate.
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And art was just my-- in my free time,
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I loved to do it, and not for any purpose, not for my career,
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but just because I love it. And I always planned on going to med school.
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So they sat in very separate boxes.
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And so it was in high school that I started combining them,
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and I was like, oh, this is cool, but they're still sitting in separate boxes.
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I'm still going to go to med school and keep art as just
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a for fun sort of thing.
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And then last semester, I discovered
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that medical illustration is a career. And--
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ERIKA RANDALL: And the anding happened. RACHEL SUTER: Yeah, and so suddenly these two things
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that I never thought that I could professionally
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combine for a career, I can.
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And I'm quite excited because I've been doing both my whole life, but not
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expecting to be able to. Yeah. ERIKA RANDALL: In separate glasses. And now this is what I'm talking about with this kind
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of unified egg, is it spills open,
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and then there's all of it inside.
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That's a moment of discovery.
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And did it happen like lightning bolt?
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Was it in a class? Was it with a professor? Was it a mentor who showed you this career?
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RACHEL SUTER: It was kind of all at once a little bit.
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My art professor, at the time, was like,
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you could make your career out of this. I had done a piece on neuroanatomy,
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and then my molecular biology professor was like, oh,
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did you know there's scientific art?
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And then I had also seen a video online of somebody getting
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their masters and just the illustrations
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that they had done, that they had gotten to sit in on surgeries and draw the steps and whatnot.
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ERIKA RANDALL: This is so 1800s.
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RACHEL SUTER: [LAUGHS] I know. It's so fun.
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ERIKA RANDALL: It's so fun, and it still is happening.
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Do you draw on this computer thing all the time?
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RACHEL SUTER: Not all the time.
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I usually more use my iPad for planning,
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but I do have some digital pieces in there.
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ERIKA RANDALL: But because it seems like you're working a lot with ink, pencil, like texture.
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Yeah, and so that's actually physical material
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in the luddite world, not technology.
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Oh, I love that there is a career that has been waiting for you.
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RACHEL SUTER: I do, too. ERIKA RANDALL: OK, so how does student government work
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in all this? How does this advocacy work happen?
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[LAUGHTER]
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RACHEL SUTER: That's like one of the separate things
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where I do all the other things, and I forget.
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I'm like, oh, yeah, I do that sometimes, you know?
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Yeah, I also joined student government
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my senior year of high school. Just why not?
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And I really enjoyed that. So then when I came here, I joined Arts and Sciences
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student government. At the time, it was less than it is now substantially, but--
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ERIKA RANDALL: Proud of that. RACHEL SUTER: Yeah.
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But yeah-- ERIKA RANDALL: But building student voice and advocacy,
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that's a big thing for you and this notion of really building
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your voice. What does future Rachel--
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does future Rachel have expectations of now Rachel, or is she pretty happy?
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She kind of likes the way--
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the mystery? RACHEL SUTER: Yeah, I don't know.
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ERIKA RANDALL: When you're looking to her, what do you see?
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RACHEL SUTER: I'm not really sure. I think it's like my outlook on my future has changed a lot
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recently, given drastic career choice doesn't-- you know,
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but so I don't really know.
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I think the most important thing I
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feel like when I think about looking back in the future is,
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I don't want to regret not having done something or not
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having done it well enough.
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Or yeah, I want to have tried a little bit of everything
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and just-- ERIKA RANDALL: How do you know what's well enough?
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I look at your work, and I mean, truly, I love it.
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I think about you on the cliff edge, and I'm stunned by it.
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Diving scores, are they in 10s? Does it go to 10?
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RACHEL SUTER: Yeah. ERIKA RANDALL: Yeah. What's well enough for-- is it like you got to be a nine?
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Like, what's a good score on the diveometer?
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RACHEL SUTER: Well, for diving in particular? ERIKA RANDALL: No, as a metaphor for Rachel looking at her life
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and thinking, ah, I've combined this, I've tried this,
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I've done this well enough.
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RACHEL SUTER: That's a good question. I think I like to do it to the best of my ability.
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And sometimes there's circumstances where I can't.
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And that is incredibly frustrating for me. ERIKA RANDALL: Belly-flop.
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Smack. RACHEL SUTER: Right. So it's more of just like making the most of it to my capacity
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and trying to accept if I can't, that's OK, too.
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And-- ERIKA RANDALL: You had really good parents.
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RACHEL SUTER: Yeah, I know. [LAUGHS] Yeah.
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ERIKA RANDALL: Yeah, and the fearless spirit
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that started as this tagalong third kid, two brothers,
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but you've cultivated it.
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I mean, you could look into like over a cliff
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or over the cliff of a body into the bloody parts
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and be totally fine, unlike Grassley, who told me
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a story that I won't air.
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I'll let him share it in an interview,
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but doesn't do so well with the blood.
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Yeah, and it came up even looking at one of your works
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because it's so viscous. For you, that, no fear?
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RACHEL SUTER: Mm-mm. Yeah, I've watched surgeries and whatnot.
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ERIKA RANDALL: Live in real-time? RACHEL SUTER: Oh, yeah.
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Oh, yeah. ERIKA RANDALL: Like, what?
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RACHEL SUTER: When I was a freshman in high school,
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I shadowed an anesthesiologist for a day
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and saw a lot of surgeries there. And then last summer, I did an internship in Greece
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and just got to watch surgeries for a month.
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ERIKA RANDALL: What's the coolest surgery you saw?
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RACHEL SUTER: Ooh. I would say probably just craziest
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is like the hip replacements and the crazy orthopedic--
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ERIKA RANDALL: Do you know about my hip situation?
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RACHEL SUTER: No. ERIKA RANDALL: I had a total hip reconstruction with four screws
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like Wolverine-style. I want to show you.
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RACHEL SUTER: Yes, please. ERIKA RANDALL: OK, I have x-rays. RACHEL SUTER: Yay.
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ERIKA RANDALL: I love that you're excited. Most people, I'm like, can I text you this?
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They're like, no. [LAUGHS] So you saw a replacement
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or a reconstruction of a hip? RACHEL SUTER: Replacement.
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I saw lots. ERIKA RANDALL: You saw lots?
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RACHEL SUTER: Yeah. ERIKA RANDALL: I want a drawing of that.
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RACHEL SUTER: I did sketch one of the surgeries.
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I have it somewhere. I actually-- yes, I do, I do.
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And in Greece, their rules are a little bit different.
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And so one of the doctors-- ERIKA RANDALL: Is that why you went there?
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RACHEL SUTER: No, I had no idea. I just wanted to go to Greece.
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ERIKA RANDALL: Smart. Why not? Cliff diving, and you found that so fast.
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Whoa, this is totally court-- I don't know what you call the court stenographer.
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It's not-- RACHEL SUTER: I don't either. ERIKA RANDALL: Wow.
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I love even how the surgeon looking on
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is holding their hands. Can you talk to me about hands?
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Because they come up a lot, both in your work and just the way
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you use them to make it.
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Are they an important focus for you? RACHEL SUTER: I don't mean them to be,
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but they do just appear in a lot of my work.
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And I think it's like almost a way
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to describe human nature or just emotion without having
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to do a portrait. It feels less on the nose for me a little bit.
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ERIKA RANDALL: Yeah, the way the hands operate in the moment.
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RACHEL SUTER: Yeah, and I love drawing them and painting them.
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It's just fun, but yeah, just, I think it, a lot of times,
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fits into the story that I'm trying to tell.
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So it ends up in a lot of my work, even though I don't mean to have a series of hands.
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ERIKA RANDALL: No, and it doesn't feel like a series of hands.
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It just feels important. Are you a natural reflector?
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It seems so in your art. And so in that natural reflection,
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is that part of the planning? Is that part of the visualizing, that backwards to go forward?
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RACHEL SUTER: Yeah, especially in the pieces and art pieces
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that are a little bit more like self portrait or reflective
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of my own feelings and thoughts and desires and whatnot.
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Those that are more scientific, a little bit less
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and it's a little bit more factually driven. And so it's really fun getting to do a little bit of each.
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ERIKA RANDALL: Do you ever feel like you're doing too much?
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RACHEL SUTER: Yeah, sometimes.
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But I wouldn't want to stop doing
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any of the things I'm doing, and it's
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been hard to learn to take a step back sometimes.
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But-- ERIKA RANDALL: What are your signs that say, step back?
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Is it like when--
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what is does too much look like for you? So we talked about kind of like what does success look like,
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but what is too much, too many, all the things at once?
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How do you know? What does your brain tell you when
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it blows out the back of your head in that beautiful drawing?
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RACHEL SUTER: It's kind of when I
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start enjoying the time without those things
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more than the time I'm spending with them.
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And yeah, like when I'm sitting and looking
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at a task or responsibility I have and dreading it, you know?
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And I could be dreading that because of something else
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that's pressing on me, or it's just like that task is no longer that fulfilling to me.
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And so, the fact that I have that freedom
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to then step away from those things is really nice.
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ERIKA RANDALL: But it is. It's kind of that dread that is your cue.
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Like, ooh, Rachel, get back in the game.
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RACHEL SUTER: Yep. ERIKA RANDALL: Yep, and then one, two, three, go.
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RACHEL SUTER: Yep, yeah.
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Yeah, I originally majored in art, just as a way--
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because I know I'm a busy person. I need to fill my time, or I just
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don't feel like as, I guess, fulfilled.
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And so I knew that going into college and originally wanting to go to med school,
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I was like, only going to major in neuroscience.
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And then I decided. I was like, I'm going to need to structure
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in some time in my day intentionally
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for the things I love. And so that's pretty much the only reason
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I majored in art as well, was so that I could be forced to--
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ERIKA RANDALL: Hold that space. RACHEL SUTER: Yes, hold that space.
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ERIKA RANDALL: For the thing you loved while you did this other thing that you were going to do.
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RACHEL SUTER: Right. ERIKA RANDALL: Yeah. RACHEL SUTER: Which I also adore neuroscience, but yeah,
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it was just like, I think sometimes I
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have to also schedule in space for the things that
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are important to me. And so it's exciting that that worked out really
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well with art. And yeah.
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ERIKA RANDALL: And do you feel a loss in letting go of the Dr. Rachel part,
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or do you feel just full gain as they come together?
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RACHEL SUTER: A little bit of loss, but the more I sit with it, the more I realize is that like,
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I'm more fascinated by the learning aspect of it
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and just my fascination of the human body,
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but actually being a practitioner and doctor, that
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is less appealing. It's more that I just want to know, you know?
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And so this new career, it's like I can make a career out
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of always doing art and always learning.
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I will always be learning something new, which
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is quite exciting for me, and my days won't be redundant.
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And the other exciting thing is that I can have a career where
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I get to listen to audiobooks. And that is a big thing for me.
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ERIKA RANDALL: So while you're drawing, you're listening to a different story?
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RACHEL SUTER: Yes. ERIKA RANDALL: [LAUGHS]
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RACHEL SUTER: Yeah, I can't do art if there's not like a--
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ERIKA RANDALL: So you're not in the research of the heart.
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You're listening to Michelle Obama's memoir?
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RACHEL SUTER: Well, the research part, that's-- ERIKA RANDALL: It's already happened.
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It's done. RACHEL SUTER: The research part, I'm accompanied
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by classical music, you know? I love classical, so that's where I get that.
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But once I'm into the process and it's just
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painting for 15 hours, it's like, I
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don't want to sit with my thoughts for quite that long,
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you know? ERIKA RANDALL: So what's the last thing you painted, and what audiobook were you listening to?
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RACHEL SUTER: Oh, I just finished a painting of the Flatiron as like a grad gift,
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and I was listening to a book called The Name of the Wind.
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I just finished it yesterday, and it was really, really good.
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But it's so fun because sometimes I can look back at a painting or a drawing
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and see and think of exactly where I was in the book
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when I was doing that detail or-- you know?
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So it's kind of fun. ERIKA RANDALL: I can't believe those things converge
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in your world. I want to hear another drawing and another book
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that you listen to. RACHEL SUTER: Oh, uh-- ERIKA RANDALL: Because it seems like you catalog them in a way.
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RACHEL SUTER: Yeah, a little bit. I'm trying to think.
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I think this one, I was watching a TV show. Unusual for me.
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ERIKA RANDALL: But not Gray's Anatomy. RACHEL SUTER: No, it was Peaky Blinders.
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ERIKA RANDALL: The hip surgery and Peaky Blinders.
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RACHEL SUTER: Yes. [LAUGHTER] ERIKA RANDALL: This is some excellent anding.
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Give me another one. I could do this all day. RACHEL SUTER: Oh, man, the one with the rib cage
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and the visceral heart, I was listening to just an epic fantasy called The Way of Kings.
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ERIKA RANDALL: Love. RACHEL SUTER: Yeah, it was--
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ERIKA RANDALL: This triangulation is so up my alley.
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OK, more. RACHEL SUTER: Oh, goodness.
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I'm trying to think of pieces right now. ERIKA RANDALL: OK, what about the Morse code?
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Because I love the Morse code one.
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What were you listening to?
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RACHEL SUTER: Ooh.
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I did that like 3 and 1/2 years ago.
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I don't know if I can remember. But a fun fact about that painting,
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like the Morse code in it, it's like the history of Morse code,
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but in Morse code. ERIKA RANDALL: Shut the front door.
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RACHEL SUTER: Isn't that so fun? ERIKA RANDALL: That's why I'm talking about the egg.
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You are one faberge egg inside of another,
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all these little nesting eggs.
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So the Morse code in the painting is saying something.
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RACHEL SUTER: Yeah, so I've forgotten it by now,
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but at the time, I learned Morse code so then I could put my research into the painting.
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It was a good time. ERIKA RANDALL: Snaps to that, Rachel.
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That's amazing. OK, it's time.
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It's time. It's time. It's time for the Quick and Dirty.
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I look to producer Tim Grassley to see if my internal clock is right.
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This is a game show where you cannot lose,
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and it is you against yourself. RACHEL SUTER: Oh, man.
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ERIKA RANDALL: One, two, three, go. RACHEL SUTER: All right.
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ERIKA RANDALL: OK, your next and art piece.
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What are you working on that you're anding?
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RACHEL SUTER: I want to do a little bit more figure drawing,
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but integrating anatomy into it, and so just, I
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guess, learning about both in the same vein.
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I'm taking both figure drawing and anatomy lab next semester,
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so I look forward to combining those. ERIKA RANDALL: Fantastic.
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Two or three art materials that you would have to have on a desert island?
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RACHEL SUTER: The really cheap $0.50 BIC pens.
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I love those. Oh, my gosh, one of my favorite art materials, and some paper
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and watercolors. ERIKA RANDALL: OK, your diving theme song with and in it.
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Are you ever diving with a song in your head,
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or are you just on the one, two, three? RACHEL SUTER: It's really the last song I listened to,
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and it plays on repeat for two hours until I can listen to a new one.
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ERIKA RANDALL: So what was that? Any of them that have and in it?
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RACHEL SUTER: Oh, man.
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I don't know. ERIKA RANDALL: You can even say like, in an island in the sun,
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that Weezer song that has and in island.
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RACHEL SUTER: Well, the problem is, I listen to a lot of classical music.
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ERIKA RANDALL: Classical, OK, so like Beethoven and Bach?
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RACHEL SUTER: Yes, I'll say-- ERIKA RANDALL: That's also not a problem.
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I do, too. RACHEL SUTER: Yeah, I love it.
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Oh, my gosh. I'm forgetting all of the composers I love.
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ERIKA RANDALL: Chopin and Schubert? RACHEL SUTER: Yeah, I like a little bit more modern.
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I don't know how to pronounce his name too well.
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It's like Ludovico Einaudi, Einaudi,
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something like that-- excellent. And who does the--
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oh, I like Vivaldi. ERIKA RANDALL: OK, we can't be mad about Vivaldi.
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OK, the best way to spend a Boulder afternoon
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with your roomies. RACHEL SUTER: By the creek, I think.
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And yeah, by the creek and just with them
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and present, I suppose.
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ERIKA RANDALL: By the creek with them and present.
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I love that. An and-er you admire?
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RACHEL SUTER: Ooh, there's a neuroscientist.
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His name is Oliver Sacks, and he kind of integrates both this--
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he has this ability to put all these intense scientific
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and neuroscientific concepts and combine it
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with psychology and linguistics, and then
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is able to perfectly portray it to an audience that
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has no idea what he would be talking about otherwise.
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ERIKA RANDALL: So no jargon, just sharing it forward.
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I love that. All right, speaking of sharing forward,
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you're giving a graduation speech.
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You're sending folks off into their next.
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How would you begin? And may you always have warm pockets.
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So start with your-- what would your--
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RACHEL SUTER: Oh, my goodness. I don't know.
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ERIKA RANDALL: No wrong answers. RACHEL SUTER: See, I gave my high school graduation speech,
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and I sat on this question for probably--
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ERIKA RANDALL: Of course you did. RACHEL SUTER: --days.
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ERIKA RANDALL: Yeah, but now, now you know so much more.
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Now you're a diver at Casa Bonita.
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RACHEL SUTER: I think I would say, why not?
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You know? You're like, you're looking at something.
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You're wondering if you should. Why not?
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[MUSIC PLAYING]
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ERIKA RANDALL: That was Rachel Suter on The Ampersand.
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To witness some of Rachel's incredible art, see our show notes.
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The Ampersand is a production of the College of Arts and Sciences at the University of Colorado,
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Boulder. It is written and produced by me, Erika Randall,
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and Tim Grassley. If there are people you'd like us to interview
29:29
on The Ampersand, do please email us
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at [email protected] Our theme music
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was composed and performed by Nelson Walker. And the episodes are recorded at Interplay Recording
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in Boulder, Colorado.
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I'm Erika Randall, and this is The Ampersand.
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