To overcome your feelings but rely on the truth, the basic question you have to ask yourself is: "Do you want the Lord?" Only when you turn to the Word of God, which is the only truth and will of God can your heart be changed. Then you will be able to enjoy a new living, so that real good works happen.Regeneration is the key towards having a life that can change from the heart of a slave to the heart of a son. Enter through the narrow gate and walk the narrow path to go back to the only Word of God. It is all about Christ life and Christ living. Believe in His promise, and carefully obey. Take joy in the obedience not the outcome. Cultivate the spiritual know-hows so that you may be Holy Spirit filled.Once your heart changes, teach and share with authority. Only Jesus gives the True Spirit of the Word. There is a difference between being convicted of sins and being convicted by God's love. The latter is the work of the Holy Spirit that will not go back.May you only rely on Christ, Holy Spirit, and may your life happen only for Evangelism.