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Content Warning. This episode
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discusses domestic violence. Assalamu Alaikum
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warahmatullahi wabarakatuh.
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It is your sister and friend, Adar, and
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you're listening to the
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Digital Sisterhood Podcast.
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Last week, AJ shared her journey
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in becoming a Muslim and then journeying
1:32
off to live in Saudi and then
1:35
falling into this incredible opportunity
1:37
to translate incredible Arabic books into
1:40
English for others to access,
1:42
one of them being the Quran. But
1:45
in the end of the podcast is a part I want you
1:47
to remember. AJ so
1:49
powerfully proclaimed. We
1:51
look up to somebody like, oh, I can't reach
1:54
that level. And I would just think people,
1:56
you don't know me. You don't know
1:58
what hardships I've gone through.
1:59
You don't know the trials that I've gone through.
2:02
You don't know anything about
2:04
me. You only know that I participated
2:07
in this project and that does not define
2:09
me as a person or as a Muslim.
2:11
And this had me thinking, right?
2:13
What did she mean? But before
2:16
we deep dive into that a little later,
2:19
let's take it back a little into a more exciting
2:21
time in AJ's story. Now, when Brother
2:23
Sunil-Iman decided to close down the bookstore for good,
2:27
AJ just couldn't let that happen. I mean, all
2:29
those books that were just laying there collecting
2:31
dust with no access
2:33
for people to, you know, get knowledge
2:36
from, it just was out of the question for AJ.
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Truth is, when AJ mustered up
2:40
the courage to ask him to inquire about his
2:42
bookstore, I'm not sure if she
2:44
believed he'd say yes to her because he had turned
2:47
on so many people. And
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I approached him and I just said, listen, Sunil-Iman, you've
2:51
known me for all of these years. You
2:53
know, I don't have the money to buy this company. I
2:56
had only $8,000 to my name.
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That was my life savings at
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the time. I said, I'll give you that. And then
3:01
over time, I will inshallah pay
3:03
you off, right? What
3:05
do you think? And so we came to
3:07
an agreement. When my nationality
3:10
came, you know, I applied because
3:13
you know that everything there, you have to have
3:16
permission to publish, right? And
3:18
so I was able to eventually secure
3:21
that and I reopened the bookstore.
3:24
Buying the bookstore from Brother Sunil-Iman was
3:26
the easiest part of A.J. story. When
3:28
A.J. inquired about the bookstore right away, she
3:30
approached the manager of the building and
3:33
made a deal to renovate the bookstore. She
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said to the building owner that she'd remodel everything
3:38
in exchange for a guarantee not
3:40
to raise the rent for five years.
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Hamdulilah, you know, the owner agreed. So
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now I have myself have
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two contracts, right? That
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I'm set in and
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we go to the Chamber of Commerce in Jeddah, we
3:55
hand in the paperwork, the contract, the agreement.
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So we think everything's on the go
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ahead.
4:00
Nobody informed me that
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even though everything had gone through legally
4:05
in Jeddah that there was a final step
4:08
of having to be approved by
4:10
a ministry in Riyadh
4:13
and when my paperwork got to Riyadh
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they rejected it. Oh no.
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And there was only two people
4:21
in the country higher than the
4:23
person that rejected it.
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Now you know that in Islam and
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I this was a shocker I had already signed these
4:30
contracts. I already had people
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working in the store to
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start the remodeling, create
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the bookshelves, the counter, custom build,
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all this stuff. So I can't just
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like back out of these things. Now
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we're talking about high officials.
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Here's me, I don't know anybody,
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how am I you know like there's no way for
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me to get to these high officials and try to fight
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this right.
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But I was so distraught and
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I happened to be out to lunch with a very close-knit
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you know group of my friends and I
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guess I was probably just in one of those moments
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like oh my god what have I done
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what am I gonna do. I was just
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venting
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and one of the my friends
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who was also a foreigner said well who
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is it who are these two people and
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I said well it's either minister so
5:22
or the king. Yeah like you
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know we're just
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gonna go knock on their door and
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one of my friends said
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well she happened to know somebody
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who knew that minister and I'm like
5:36
what like yeah.
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Eventually what happened is I was
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standing in my store still thinking that I
5:45
got to keep processing I got to find
5:47
a way to make this work and really putting trust
5:50
in a law maybe I was stupid but I didn't
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know what else to do I couldn't just stop I owed
5:54
these people all this money and I'm in
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these contracts right.
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So my friend had
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he went into the main store
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where there's windows, that's completely empty at
8:05
this time, to go make
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wudu.
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And when he did, he saw somebody approaching
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the store, this other guy, right? And
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so he recognized him as a former customer
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and went out and greeted him, and the customer's like, what's
8:17
going on here? And he said, oh
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well, Suleiman closed, and Sister Amitala
8:21
took over, and she doesn't have the
8:23
permission yet to open, so we're waiting,
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yada, yada, yada. And he says, well,
8:28
what's the problem? Now, unbeknownst
8:30
to us, this man also
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worked for someone in
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the department that we needed
8:38
to be cleared for the background check. Why, Allahu Akbar,
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no, no, no, no, no, no, this is Allah. Absolutely
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positively, the most
8:46
randomest day, but
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he could, wow, I'm speechless, I
8:52
don't even know what to say. What do you think I was?
8:54
You know, so Abedneen has this man
8:56
call me and ask me, what's the problem?
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And literally within days, permission
9:01
was granted. Allahu Akbar.
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So if you
9:05
don't consider those miracles, this
9:08
is Allah's intervention. No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, that
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is divine, this was Allah's project. You
9:13
were just merely a vehicle, you
9:16
were just a means, you're just on this
9:18
ride, but Alhamdulillah chose you
9:20
as a vehicle, you know, to make
9:22
things happen, because you know what, Allah uses
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you for khair.
9:26
It's a good thing, it's a very, very good thing, but
9:28
that is
9:29
unbelievable, that's actually unbelievable. So
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when you heard about this conversation, you were just like jaw
9:33
dropped, you're like, what? Absolutely,
9:37
and that's why I always said this is
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not our project, this is Allah's project.
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You know, I relate to that very
9:44
deeply, I feel like I feel that way about the podcast,
9:46
this podcast, because we started this in
9:48
our bedroom,
9:50
and then one year later and a half, 10 million
9:52
listeners. I don't know how, I
9:55
don't know how that, I don't know, like if you ask
9:57
Muna, she's right there, we can't tell
9:59
you. hope this happens,
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but all we know is that like
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this is a lost project. This is what
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a law wants. And our biggest
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concern is, is not messing it up. Really
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like our biggest concern is being
10:13
the best vehicle we could be.
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And so I relate to what
10:18
you're saying so, so deeply. Wow,
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sorry. I'm just, I got to soak that in for a second.
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For 10 years, AJ
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was running her bookstore, okay,
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still translating, reading, adding
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bookstore to her bookstore collection. I mean, AJ was
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living essentially her best life. Okay.
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Until one day, one
10:37
day her child needed immediate
10:40
medical attention. And
10:42
what was supposed to be a temporary trip to the US,
10:45
unfortunately became a permanent one.
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I remember getting into the van
10:50
and looking back at the door. And
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I had this gut feeling
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that I would never walk back in it. I
10:58
thought, okay, it's good to bring the kids back now,
11:01
because you know, my daughter was a junior.
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And I thought, okay,
11:05
she can do June, junior
11:07
in her senior year. That means we'd be
11:09
residents. So when it came time to college, transition
11:12
to college, it would make it easier.
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But after I got here, nothing
11:17
went as planned. I had said to
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my sister and her husband,
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you know, we're coming back. We
11:23
plan to just stay with you guys
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for a couple weeks, I'll get a job. I'll
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move out, you know, we just appreciate a little
11:30
transition time.
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That transition lasted nine months.
11:35
Although this was my home
11:37
country, this was my home city, this
11:40
is everything I was familiar with. I
11:42
couldn't find a livable wage job.
11:44
I,
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you know, here I am in my early fifties.
11:47
And I've had all this experience running
11:50
my own businesses.
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But I ended up later going to
11:54
a career counselor who told me no
11:56
matter how much you've done, it's it was
11:58
your businesses
11:59
no one for them
12:02
to ask what kind of employee is she.
12:04
Also, because I had only done an AA
12:07
in school, which is, if I look back in life, probably
12:09
one of my biggest regrets. I
12:11
remember thinking at the time when I went to college
12:14
that I knew exactly what I wanted to do. I
12:16
wanted to own a business. So I said, why go to
12:18
a four-year college and learn philosophy
12:21
and French and all these subjects that I thought were
12:23
kind of unnecessary? When what
12:25
I want to do is business. So I went to business school
12:27
and got my degree in business and thought, boom,
12:30
I'm going to get my business started at 20.
12:33
So when I came back, it looks
12:35
like here's a 50-year-old woman with
12:37
an AA and what
12:40
does she have to show for it? I thought
12:42
I had a lot to show. I thought my experience
12:45
would show my capabilities, but
12:48
the reality turned out to be is that they look at
12:50
your degrees before anything else. And
12:52
they have a lot of automated systems now that
12:54
read the resumes. So I probably
12:56
just came up as a red flag. So I started
12:58
applying at places like Target
13:01
and, you know, Metro Mobility and
13:03
places like this, but nothing was even $15 an
13:05
hour. And here I am going, I have
13:07
to provide for two kids and myself, I'm $15
13:10
an hour? That's not even a livable
13:12
wage for a single parent, right? I
13:14
mean, I was still technically married, but part
13:16
of the agreement was that if I was going to stay behind
13:18
in America for a while, that I was going to have to start
13:21
working to pitch in.
13:22
I got to the point where I said, all
13:24
right, I'm just going to apply. So I'm thinking 18, 19, $20 an hour
13:26
is the minimum,
13:29
but I had to bring that standard down to 15 bucks.
13:33
And I applied anywhere for, I
13:36
put in over a hundred resumes
13:39
and only got a couple of interviews.
13:41
What was AJ supposed
13:44
to do? I mean, can you
13:46
imagine how demoralizing
13:48
that must have been for her to start from the bottom
13:51
at her age with all that
13:53
work experience, but nothing
13:55
counted? Imagine having
13:57
to start from scratch with children
13:59
who need you too. I
14:01
remember when I came across Agee's LinkedIn, when
14:04
I was first looking for her, I saw that she
14:06
had worked at a male-handedly place,
14:08
which meant that she worked at a physically demanding factory
14:11
job. And if I'm being honest,
14:13
I just couldn't believe my eyes. I honestly
14:15
couldn't believe what I was reading because I kept thinking,
14:17
how did a person who
14:20
owned this incredible bookstore, okay, translated
14:23
so many classical books for us to read and
14:26
contributed to the Ummah in such a large
14:28
way be the same person,
14:31
essentially struggling,
14:34
working at a factory job. I just could
14:36
not put two and two together.
14:39
At the time, you know, Agee was very, very fortunate
14:42
enough to have a sister that helped her during
14:44
that transition period back in February 2017.
14:47
Although Agee was like in complete survival mode
14:50
and was completely focused on seeing a float,
14:53
Agee struggled, man. She really,
14:56
really struggled. I
14:58
wasn't at the post office that long. It
15:00
was like from three in the
15:03
afternoon to one in the morning.
15:04
So this was not convenient at all
15:07
because my kids were coming home from school then.
15:09
Very tiring, you know, to work that night
15:12
shift. You come home, it's like you don't even
15:14
want to sleep before Federer because you know, if
15:16
you go to sleep now, you're so tired, you're not going to hear
15:18
the alarm. And
15:20
just the way that it worked when you went in there, if
15:22
you were a mail handler assistant, you
15:24
had to wait for somebody to be retired
15:27
or leave before you could start moving up into
15:29
the permanent positions. And there's
15:32
not a lot of turnover. So you
15:34
don't get the full benefits working
15:37
as an assistant, you know, they kind of limit you
15:39
to 30 some hours and so that you don't get,
15:41
you know, all this vacation time, you don't
15:43
get the full medical blah, blah, blah. So
15:46
it wasn't ideal.
15:47
And one of my co workers left and
15:49
went to a large
15:52
corporation that, you know, produces
15:54
food. And he's like, you're
15:56
never going to get anywhere.
15:58
Why don't you come out here? you know, the
16:00
pay's better. And I said, you
16:02
think I'm gonna drive 27 miles one way every
16:05
day to get out there? He said, just come
16:07
out and check it out. I think you'll be happy just
16:09
because the
16:10
income is good, the benefits are good. Well,
16:13
they have to make them
16:14
good because nobody would do those jobs otherwise.
16:18
The factory work is, I never
16:20
imagined myself again at that age, but you
16:22
do what you gotta do. So out
16:25
of curiosity, like what was the factory work? What was it like?
16:27
Describe us, like what is it like clocking in?
16:29
So I was on
16:32
a line, on a food production line,
16:34
and I started out doing where
16:36
like the wrapping of the products was. But
16:40
that's not the only thing you do. You
16:42
also, they close down the whole plant once a
16:44
month and you do a ceiling to floor
16:47
clean. So you're up there actually. Yeah,
16:50
you use the scissor lifts and you're
16:52
up there with brushes, you know, shaking
16:55
off all the flour from the pipes.
16:58
Yeah, so they have janitors for the everyday
17:00
stuff, like cleaning the bathrooms, but for cleaning
17:02
the factory, you take the ovens apart,
17:05
you take the freezers,
17:06
you defrost the big freezers.
17:09
It is hard, physical, you know,
17:12
very labor intensive work. Your
17:14
feet hurt, your back hurt, you know, it
17:17
wasn't a lot of fun. And I remember one time
17:19
in Ramadan, because you're on your line,
17:22
the breaks really have to be very coordinated.
17:25
And there were times in Ramadan that they
17:28
would schedule my break at one in the morning and
17:30
let's say fasting didn't start until five, but
17:33
I would literally have to start my fast at
17:35
one in the morning because I could
17:37
not get to the cafeteria. Of
17:39
course, there's no food and drink on the line. So
17:42
if I- So you were basically were fasting
17:44
since one, even though you're supposed to start at five, fast
17:46
at five. Yeah, yeah. So
17:48
you weren't eating. Oh my goodness, that's kind
17:50
of really, that's really harsh. I
17:52
mean, you'd be fasting for a really long time.
17:55
Yeah, you know, there were other times where they'd
17:57
take my break, you know, because they wrote-
18:00
people but I didn't have a choice in the matter
18:02
there's not a lot of people who can cover you because you
18:05
have to be trained on each section of
18:07
the line so you got the mixers
18:09
at the beginning of the line and then you got the people
18:11
on the ovens and you got the people doing the
18:14
wrapping you know end of
18:16
the line duh duh duh right so
18:18
I wasn't trained on all aspects of the line
18:20
but some other people were and so they would come
18:22
and cover you you know the people that had been there for a
18:24
long time but it had to go according to
18:27
everybody's breaks so it was really it
18:29
was exhausting
18:30
and then when I first started it was eight
18:32
hour shifts right and then after I was there for
18:34
a while the employees actually voted
18:37
to do 12-hour
18:39
shifts but then you were three days
18:41
one week and then four days the next week
18:43
but yeah so it was wow
18:46
you'd be working so many hours and then you'd come
18:48
home when your kids are waking
18:50
up yeah because at the factory I worked
18:53
over nights originally so we started
18:55
like 10
18:56
or 11 at night and got off at six
18:58
or seven in the morning you know my
19:00
kids should have been up and out the
19:02
door already and
19:04
I would come I would be driving
19:06
thank God my car has that automatic sensor
19:08
so that if I would start going over the lines I
19:11
would fall asleep coming home because it was 27 miles
19:13
away and I would drift off I would
19:16
open the windows I would turn on the radio
19:19
but I was so exhausted it was
19:21
even dangerous and you're
19:23
so tired and so busy with
19:25
surviving I started
19:28
not recognizing myself
19:31
you know here I had been this person
19:34
working in Dawa this person publishing
19:36
Islamic books you know this person
19:38
who was very regular about all of
19:41
my Ibadah and I just
19:44
started seeing it
19:45
was wearing
19:48
on my soul for that first year
19:50
of working the overnight shift I
19:53
would come home exhausted I would always
19:55
fall asleep but
19:58
four hours later my body
20:00
never ever ever adjusted to
20:03
sleeping in the day, even though
20:05
my room was completely blacked out. But
20:08
for over a year, I literally slept
20:10
four hours a day and
20:12
your body just isn't meant to do
20:14
that. And I think I just reached
20:17
a point of sheer exhaustion
20:19
and I remember standing
20:21
or more like I was
20:24
envisioning myself just standing
20:26
looking out the window and literally
20:28
feeling like
20:31
I was sliding down that proverbial robe
20:33
of Allah. And like
20:35
I was at the bottom
20:38
and holding on for dear life. You
20:41
know, Alhamdulillah that I never stopped praying.
20:43
I never took off my hijab. You know, I
20:46
never stopped fasting. I did all the requirements,
20:49
but I still felt like my heart in
20:51
many ways was empty.
20:53
You know, there was no time to go
20:55
to the masjid or to the helikas or to
20:58
like my life was just
21:01
so different. It
21:03
was survival mode and
21:05
it affected my man greatly. And
21:08
I felt almost like
21:11
hypocritical. I don't mean
21:13
that I was a hypocrite in that I didn't believe
21:15
or that I was against Islam anyway,
21:18
but I felt like I had
21:20
been one kind of person. And
21:22
now I was almost like I didn't recognize
21:25
myself like I was somebody else. I
21:27
was ashamed
21:28
because I felt like how can Allah be pleased
21:30
with me when I'm just barely
21:34
I'm just doing the bare minimum. And
21:37
I kept telling myself, I
21:39
know Allah. I know my
21:41
dean. So why
21:44
am I struggling? You know, Shaitan and
21:46
I thought that because I was a firm,
21:49
strong, practicing Muslim that Shaitan could never
21:51
get to me this intensely.
21:54
And it almost came to me as a shock, like
21:56
how can I have been such a practicing Muslim
21:59
and now be Shaitan?
21:59
struggling so greatly with my
22:02
Amen. Like I believed wholeheartedly,
22:06
but I was just wandering
22:09
blindly at the same time. And
22:11
I would tell myself like you have to,
22:14
this is why you have to keep going back to the sources
22:16
and be around good people and
22:19
go to the halakas or sit down with your
22:21
book or listen to the podcast
22:23
or whatever it is, you know.
22:26
We can't, because once you let
22:28
one thing slide, then
22:31
all the other things start disappearing
22:33
too.
22:35
And it's not to say that Allah, he's
22:38
always there for Toba, right? We
22:40
can never, if we slide, we can never let
22:42
it get
22:43
us down to the point that
22:45
we don't think that we can get back. And
22:49
we also know that Uman goes up
22:51
and down. But for me, it was like such
22:54
a drop down a mountain. It wasn't little baby
22:57
hills. It felt
22:59
like sliding
23:01
down a mountain. The
23:04
troubles for A.J. didn't end
23:06
there. Although things were looking
23:08
on the up and up again, especially after she
23:10
found our new apartment that fall,
23:14
her marriage fell apart. A.J.
23:16
and the father of her children decided to go their separate ways
23:19
and for the first time in a long
23:21
time, she was completely in this thing
23:23
called life alone.
23:26
But A.J. wasn't the type to believe
23:29
in doing life alone. Okay. A.J.
23:31
wasn't that type of girl. A.J. was a hopeless
23:33
romantic. And so
23:35
A.J. met a guy online that
23:38
was like no other man she had ever met before.
23:41
He really sparked that joy back into her life
23:43
after a long slumber of life's ebbs
23:45
and flows.
23:47
He would read Islamic books with her, go hiking
23:49
with her, show her the kind
23:52
of love she's always prayed for. To
23:54
be honest, but it sounds like what we all prayed for. The problem
23:58
was he lived in another state. Which
24:00
meant that she had to pack up once again To
24:03
take a leap on love So
24:07
we had gotten married before I moved like
24:09
I had gone down there we had gotten married I came back
24:11
and You know the whole time
24:14
I was looking for a job. I didn't want to go
24:16
till I had a job there right,
24:19
and then at one point I
24:20
actually went to visit and and
24:24
Rented an apartment there thinking that
24:27
would be easier for potential
24:30
Employers to see that I'm
24:32
established there, right? So
24:35
that's what I did But
24:38
so when we had first gotten married he Said
24:41
that he was living with
24:44
a brother in his family and You
24:47
know like if I sent things
24:49
in the mail I Would
24:51
send him to this address and
24:54
I remember him saying don't put
24:56
your return address on
24:58
the package and
25:00
I said why I said I just don't want anybody
25:02
in my business. I'm living in other people's houses. I
25:05
don't want them in my business and So
25:08
even though it struck me as kind of weird. I didn't see
25:10
it as a red flag. It should have been a red flag
25:14
Okay, so picture this close
25:16
your eyes on the morning of
25:18
the first day of the rest of their lives AJ's
25:20
Prince Charming Dries down
25:22
in his carriage to pick up his princess
25:25
to move across the stage to finally
25:27
be with each other Cuz long distance
25:30
just wasn't cutting it for them. And how
25:32
could it for these star-crossed lovers?
25:35
right but
25:37
wait on The day
25:39
of their move AJ started to
25:41
notice something I'm gonna
25:43
just say it AJ started
25:45
to see Massive their
25:48
danger here. Do not look away
25:51
bloody bloody
25:54
bright red
25:56
flags There
25:59
were red flags from the very beginning. And
26:01
it's not that I was choosing them
26:04
to ignore them. I just, if I go
26:06
back now, I see that that's what it was. Like
26:08
the evening that I left Minnesota,
26:11
packed up the U-Haul to go.
26:13
And my family literally lived eight
26:16
blocks away.
26:18
And he told me, we don't have time to go say goodbye to them.
26:20
Wow. He wouldn't let
26:22
me bring my microwave. He wouldn't let me
26:25
bring my weights that were my dad's. He
26:28
wouldn't let me bring a cooler that belonged to my
26:30
dad. Like he was stripping me
26:32
of,
26:32
and it didn't make any sense.
26:35
I'm like,
26:36
you have enough stuff. It's too full.
26:38
You don't need to bring anything else.
26:40
And I'm thinking, what? Here
26:42
I am. I had given up my apartment.
26:46
I had given up my job. So
26:48
what can
26:50
I do in this moment? And he said, well, if you really
26:52
wanna go see your family, then just catch
26:54
up with me. And I'm like, I don't
26:56
even know. I'm traveling across the country. How
26:59
am I gonna just catch up with you?
27:01
Wow. And so I'm
27:04
standing there going, part
27:07
of myself is saying, you shouldn't
27:09
be going.
27:10
And the other part is saying, how can you not go?
27:13
All of your stuff is packed up and
27:15
he must just be tired. And
27:18
so you want your newlyweds, you
27:21
want your marriage to be good. And so you
27:23
just ignore things.
27:25
If you see that somebody's getting upset,
27:28
you don't wanna rock the boat. But literally
27:31
the whole trip down there, he tortured me psychologically.
27:35
He stopped on, made me stop on the side of the highway
27:37
at one point and just
27:39
was screaming at me for no
27:41
reason. He told me that he was,
27:44
he said, you're tired. You can't take, you can't
27:46
drive straight through, but I can because I road
27:48
trip a lot. And he forced
27:50
me
27:51
to stay by myself on
27:53
the side of the road and told me that
27:56
I couldn't come. And
27:58
I'm thinking what kind of husband. does that.
28:01
What do you mean you couldn't come? What does that mean leaving your side
28:03
of the road? I understand. He said it wasn't he was
28:05
trying to tell me it wasn't safe for me to keep driving
28:08
because you know it's a long trip and this
28:11
was probably the 15 hour mark
28:13
or 14 hour mark and he just said I
28:16
worry about you driving. Because
28:18
see he was driving a van that
28:20
I had purchased with the U-Hull
28:23
on the back and I was driving my
28:25
car. Hmm.
28:26
And so he was trying to say that
28:28
it was for my safety and I'm thinking
28:30
but you can't just leave me here on the
28:33
side of the road. So I don't understand.
28:36
I don't get it Avatola. Was he gonna let you stay
28:38
there sleep there in your car? He told me he told
28:41
me I had to stay there and sleep. And
28:43
he was gonna go. Yeah
28:44
so of course this is a major
28:46
red flag and I'm thinking what what
28:49
is going on with him. And
28:52
now I'm halfway across the country. We
28:54
had already I had already rented the apartment.
28:57
But this is the first time you guys are moving in like you're you're packing
28:59
up you're going you know like this is where you guys are gonna begin
29:01
your chapter and this is how he starts
29:03
the chapter. That's insane. And you
29:06
know what's crazy you probably felt like am I
29:08
overthinking this?
29:10
Maybe he doesn't you know mean it that way you
29:12
know because you you know when you go through something
29:15
the reality of what you're seeing you almost cannot
29:17
accept
29:18
because it would just be too much
29:21
to accept feeling wise. Yeah
29:23
it's like a shock. Yeah it's a
29:25
shock and in it and it's like almost survival
29:28
as well. It's like if you let those feelings of I
29:30
think I'm making the greatest mistake of my life right
29:32
now
29:33
you couldn't handle that in that moment. So
29:35
what you do instead is you tell yourself okay you try to make
29:38
excuses. When somebody just said
29:40
I'm sorry I was having an awful day let me
29:42
make it up to you know you just you
29:45
have a hope that because there
29:47
seemed to be so I've been talking about
29:49
all the negative things right but there was also this
29:52
other side that seemed to be sincere
29:55
and you know playful and fun
29:58
and and I thought you know we'll see
29:59
have struggling at work or
30:02
whatever it might be like, just give
30:04
them some time do some Dawa,
30:06
you know, figure it's a new relationship.
30:09
Sometimes you got to work out. You
30:11
know, you got to get to know somebody better. Whatever
30:14
was going through my head, you know, try
30:17
I guess I wanted it to work and
30:19
I thought I could make it work. Stop
30:22
right there. Okay, stop right there. Don't move. Don't
30:24
even breathe. Okay. You good sis
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30:29
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30:32
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30:39
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30:41
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31:47
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I don't know what to tell you.
31:55
AJ settled into life. She
31:57
starts work, moves into the house
31:59
that you got with her. Man, right,
32:01
classic, happily ever after.
32:04
Now, AJ's fairy tale quickly
32:08
turned into a complete nightmare.
32:11
What AJ thought was a bad day turned
32:14
out to be a pattern of violence throughout their
32:16
relationship. And on one terrifying
32:19
night, AJ finds
32:21
herself sitting on the bed and
32:23
her husband standing
32:25
over her with a bat. I
32:29
was actually sitting on a mattress on the floor.
32:32
He had picked up a bat
32:34
and literally said to me, I
32:37
could beat you bloody and leave you here to die and
32:39
nobody would ever know. So
32:43
that put the fear in me. I
32:46
said, this could be it. This
32:49
could be the end of my time.
32:53
And I just
32:55
stood up in his face, afraid, so
32:57
afraid. But
33:01
I said, if that's what you're gonna do,
33:04
I said, a shadow on Layla, halalah, if
33:06
that's what you're gonna do, you know who you're gonna
33:08
answer to. And
33:12
I know I was taking a risk doing
33:15
that because it could have aggravated
33:17
him more. Thankfully,
33:21
by Allah's mercy, he backed
33:24
off. But that wasn't the day I
33:26
left. That's
33:28
the day I knew I had to leave.
33:31
But you have to remember that I
33:33
left my home. I only had
33:37
some personal effects
33:39
with me. I had some kitchen
33:41
things, pots, pans, whatever. And in
33:43
my mind,
33:45
all I could think of was, I have
33:47
to find a way to escape this apartment, but
33:50
I need to take my stuff with me. I have nothing
33:52
in life except these boxes
33:54
of stuff. I
33:58
have nothing. and I'd have to
34:00
start over with nothing. So
34:03
things started to get really bad
34:05
for AJ, okay? She started to notice
34:08
odd things would happen,
34:10
that he would disappear, like he would legit
34:12
disappear, and some nights he wouldn't even
34:14
come home to sleep. One
34:17
day, AJ just had enough. Remember
34:20
that address he had her sending
34:22
packages to? She had a
34:24
nagging feeling that it was more than just strangers
34:27
he stayed with. And so she decided to
34:29
investigate further. Who
34:31
gets married and then their husband always has
34:34
excuses of why they're not around, and they take
34:36
off for a few days, or just
34:39
when you start hearing these excuses, things just don't
34:41
add up. But I knew that address,
34:45
and I actually sent somebody to the house,
34:47
because here I am working, but I knew
34:50
somebody who had
34:52
an opportunity during the
34:54
day to drive by, and
34:56
I asked her, drive by and tell
34:58
me what you see. And
35:01
my van was there, and she
35:03
recorded it, and then I had
35:05
a friend who actually started putting
35:07
pieces together, and
35:10
searched for the address, and found who
35:13
the owner was, and it was, I
35:15
mean, I knew the name of the wife,
35:18
but I was lied to.
35:20
They were still married, not divorced. When
35:23
AJ's coworker confirmed that
35:26
her car was indeed in the driveway,
35:29
AJ decided to check it out herself on that
35:31
night, where he was supposedly working
35:33
late. And the car, the
35:36
car, just like our coworker reported, was
35:38
parked again in that driveway. That's
35:41
when AJ, in an impulsive reaction,
35:44
decided to confront him when he got home that
35:46
morning. And when I tell you,
35:49
things hit the fan, things
35:52
hit the fan.
35:55
I confronted him, and I said,
35:58
you know, I went over to the hotel. her house,
36:01
you know, my vehicle was there.
36:04
Like he was driving a van
36:07
that I had purchased.
36:08
I mean, I was so stressed out at this point
36:10
because I was in fear. I didn't know how I was
36:12
gonna get away. All I wanted to do was
36:15
go get a pickup and you know, put
36:17
my stuff in it and put it in storage and go find a place
36:19
to live, right? But
36:21
I was always so afraid of him showing up
36:24
and being alone.
36:26
And I was actually in
36:28
the living room where the door
36:30
exited the apartment because I knew I was
36:32
gonna have to run.
36:34
So I ran and he was screaming at
36:36
me and I got in my car
36:38
and I called
36:40
my boss
36:42
because she actually turned out to be a really
36:44
cool lady and she knew what was going on. And
36:48
I told her, you need to call the police. I can't even call
36:50
the police. You know, I want you to record this
36:53
conversation because
36:55
it was just screaming, screaming.
36:57
I mean, he was enraged and
37:00
I was so afraid. And you know, the police
37:02
came and my boss actually called.
37:05
I was working in a school. She called the principal
37:07
of the school
37:08
and said, we need to
37:10
get AJ out of here. And so they came,
37:13
her husband came. So we had three vehicles and
37:15
we just packed up and he ended up, he
37:18
ran, you know, he left when the police came.
37:20
Not only that, they ended up calling because
37:23
we had nowhere to take my stuff. So
37:25
they actually called the district office. So
37:28
first of all, this was COVID times, right? So the school
37:30
was pretty much empty. And
37:32
they actually called the district
37:35
like the mental health services or something like
37:37
that. And they just said, can
37:40
we please bring her stuff and put it in
37:42
a storage room in the school? I mean, cause that's not
37:44
protocol. You know, they don't usually allow
37:46
somebody to do a favor like
37:48
that. It was a crisis,
37:51
you know? And see, the thing is, is
37:53
that he was following us
37:55
in this
37:57
truck that he was driving. And so,
38:00
We called the police
38:02
because we were like, he's stalking us. We
38:04
didn't want him to know where we were going.
38:07
And so we called the police and when the police came,
38:09
then he broke off from the
38:12
three vehicles. And
38:14
so the police pulled him over and he said
38:18
the junk that he said, like that was just his
38:20
hangout house. And he admitted
38:22
to them that he was married and lived somewhere else.
38:25
And
38:25
I don't know what he told them about me. So
38:27
then of course the police came to interview me and
38:31
they wouldn't do anything about it because he hadn't actually
38:33
harmed me.
38:34
And the janitor happened to be
38:37
the only one at school at that time.
38:39
And so the janitor saw everything and I
38:41
just approached him and I said,
38:44
just please promise me that
38:46
you didn't see any of this. Don't
38:48
tell anybody. And that guy was
38:51
just so like, he
38:54
walked me out to the parking lot every single
38:56
day after that, after I left, he said,
38:58
he's a big cockroach. That was his
39:00
description. So
39:03
the janitor kind of became my protector.
39:05
He wouldn't let me walk out to my car because he was
39:07
afraid
39:08
that he could be stalking me. And I
39:11
literally was watching my rear view mirror everywhere
39:13
I went, not knowing if
39:15
him or his wife or
39:18
wife's kids or anybody, he
39:20
could have sent anybody after me.
39:22
And thankfully I knew somebody.
39:25
So I actually reached out
39:27
to her the first day and said, I have nowhere to go.
39:29
Otherwise I'm gonna be sleeping in the mountains. And
39:32
so she said, one of the people in
39:34
her house was gonna be gone for the weekend
39:36
and I could come just for the weekend. But then I had to
39:38
figure out what to do after that. And amazingly,
39:41
one of my coworkers
39:43
went home and told her husband and
39:46
they welcomed me to come to their house. So
39:48
Allah opened the door. So I
39:50
was at their house for probably three,
39:53
four, five weeks. I really don't remember. I
39:56
know that I was there longer than I expected to.
39:59
I mean, I was.
42:00
He'd be at work and I'd be on the
42:02
phone with him for hours. We'd be reading Islamic
42:05
books together. It was a
42:07
load of quote unquote fun. You
42:09
know, we went hiking and road
42:12
trips and
42:14
you know, I was just like,
42:16
I can't believe that Allah blessed me with a man
42:18
like this
42:19
in the beginning. Right. But
42:21
it was all a front. But after I moved down
42:23
there, he couldn't keep up the secret anymore.
42:27
SubhanAllah. It must have
42:29
been like and that was like
42:31
that was the first time you had, you know,
42:34
got back on a horse and finding love. And when
42:36
you did, it just was nothing like what
42:38
you imagined. I felt like I
42:41
was losing my mind because I started
42:44
seeing the red flags. Right. I started
42:46
seeing the controlling abusive behavior.
42:49
And you just think to yourself, like,
42:53
what is this? You start
42:55
thinking you're crazy. Mm hmm.
42:57
Like why I
43:00
always wondered why did abused
43:03
women stay with their abusers? I could
43:05
never understand that. But
43:08
you are so trapped, especially
43:11
because I had no family there. I
43:13
only know knew a few people.
43:16
I had really nowhere to go. I didn't
43:18
know that Allah was going to open a door and that my co-worker, you
43:21
know, there was really only two people. Who
43:24
knew in the school, my immediate boss
43:27
and the one co-worker that we had, we just clicked. And
43:30
I entrusted her and she knew what
43:32
was going on. The one who offered
43:34
me her home.
43:36
But I really was so
43:38
alone in the world. I didn't know where to go. I
43:41
didn't have a lot of money. I didn't
43:43
even really know the city yet.
43:45
I didn't know my way around. And all I could
43:47
think of is I can't walk out of here with
43:50
just the clothes on my back. At least, you know,
43:52
how am I going to just replace
43:55
the few things that I do have?
43:58
Imagine how much more.
43:59
things would have been difficult for AJ has
44:02
she had not had the people to help her. When
44:05
you really deep her situation
44:07
you can't help but marvel at Allah
44:09
SWT. The
44:11
reality is her husband was her
44:13
only family. In a city she
44:16
had never lived in before barely knowing
44:18
its people, barely even know how to get
44:20
around the city and her husband
44:22
was a willy, he was her protector. He
44:26
was supposed to be a source of rahmah and love. But
44:28
look he turned on her and
44:31
she had no one. But
44:33
look how Allah sent help through
44:36
her boss, through her friend,
44:38
her co-worker, even a janitor.
44:41
Because the truth is your
44:44
willy can abandon you. But
44:46
Al-Willie the helper
44:49
would never abandon you. And
44:51
if you know who Al-Willie is you
44:53
know he's also the disposer of affairs.
44:57
And let me tell you how he handled hers
44:59
in the best way.
45:01
One day
45:03
AJ gets a call from an old boss
45:05
back in Minnesota
45:06
to offer her a job offering
45:09
her the same position with
45:12
higher pay. But
45:14
going back to Minnesota meant she
45:17
had to choose homelessness again because
45:19
what's there? She left everything.
45:21
There's nothing there for her. And
45:23
although it was difficult, AJ
45:26
prayed that
45:27
Allah would see her through.
45:30
I never in my life imagined
45:33
that in my 50s I would be homeless.
45:37
Allah again was merciful that
45:39
a person opened
45:41
their door to me. You know somebody
45:43
I knew again but not super
45:45
well. But enough
45:48
that they were they knew that I didn't have
45:50
anywhere to go. And said
45:53
until you get on your feet you can stay here.
45:57
So I'm you know in this woman's
45:59
basement. going, I got to
46:01
make a move. I can't let this time keep
46:03
going, going, going again. It was only supposed to probably
46:06
be a few weeks and turned into, you know, probably
46:08
three, four months. I don't remember how long I had
46:10
to have been at least three.
46:12
I just said to myself one day.
46:15
I wonder if I'd qualify for a house
46:17
loan.
46:18
Never really believing in my soul
46:20
that
46:21
I would.
46:23
So I applied on a Friday to an Islamic
46:25
mortgage company. I got the answer
46:27
the same day.
46:29
Okay. Yeah, you would apply. You would, you
46:31
would qualify for whatever
46:33
amount of money. I met
46:37
a realtor on Saturday, spent
46:40
the whole day Saturday afternoon, noon,
46:42
going through the listings,
46:46
picked out four places to go visit
46:48
on Sunday with her. And
46:51
the three that were at the top of my list, when
46:53
I actually got to the properties, they
46:56
were no way for whatever reason. And
46:59
so the fourth house was a house that I
47:01
really wasn't that that interested
47:04
in it, because it was, was a little
47:06
bit bigger than what I wanted, but it was
47:08
still within the price range
47:10
and I walked into the house. I
47:12
got halfway through it. I turned around, my sister
47:14
was with me and I said, this is my house.
47:18
Now the market at the time, it was
47:20
kind of a hot market, right? And the realtor told
47:23
me that, um, she actually stayed
47:25
after we left to see how many people came
47:27
to tour it.
47:29
She said, there's a lot of interest in this house. And if you
47:31
want to get it, you need to offer more than the listing.
47:34
And I said, I
47:35
can't, it is at the very top
47:37
of my budget.
47:39
And if it's meant for me, I'll get it. And if
47:41
it's not, I won't, but I will not offer
47:43
a penny more. Cause I can barely
47:45
offer what it is. I made the
47:47
offer. They accepted it
47:49
on Monday. I got a, I
47:53
got a house in like three days. Allahu
47:58
Akbar.
49:59
I was very comfortable when
50:02
I lived in Saudi Arabia And
50:04
then to come back here and like so
50:06
when I moved in my house, I
50:08
had no money for furniture but
50:11
there was an organization for
50:14
women who had been abused and So
50:18
they brought me furniture so nothing in my house matches
50:21
it's all used it's all whatever
50:25
but I'm so grateful
50:29
You know and you kind of feel again you feel like
50:31
oh My god, you
50:33
know like I hate asking anybody
50:35
for anything I never want to
50:37
feel indebted to another human being but you
50:39
have to get over that because Allah
50:41
provides Wow,
50:43
Allah, you know to see your story
50:45
and like full from beginning to end, you
50:47
know, it reminds me It's like subhanAllah. We're
50:49
going to be
50:50
tested until the day we
50:52
meet Allah like forever You might do something
50:55
really great then you'll go through another difficult
50:57
moment Then you'll be fine again, then you go to a different moment.
51:00
You'll be fine again, and then you go through another thing again
51:02
It's like that's what this life is about,
51:04
you know, is that we're gonna be tested but
51:07
how many of us are going to return? back
51:10
right and and I also want
51:13
to say
51:14
For people that really have slid
51:17
like really far Mm-hmm.
51:20
It doesn't it doesn't matter. It's
51:22
past
51:24
What matters is now and
51:26
in the future? so
51:28
if you've quit praying if you've started
51:32
using Intoxicants if you've
51:35
slept with somebody you shouldn't have slept with whatever
51:38
it is no matter don't think that
51:40
I
51:41
can't repent because you can
51:43
and Even
51:45
if you can't just
51:47
give up some of the bad things you're doing
51:50
Always always pray and you may feel
51:53
hypocritical in doing that, but that's the way
51:56
That you will turn back to Allah. I remember
51:58
so let's go back to
52:01
the sister whose husband Abu Bilal that
52:03
passed away. You know, she
52:05
was a scholar as well. And
52:08
she always told her children that, especially
52:10
as they grew up and went off to college in
52:12
other countries and knew the fitna
52:14
and all of that. And she just
52:16
told him,
52:18
it doesn't matter if
52:20
you struggle and face fitna, but never,
52:22
ever, ever give up your Salah. That's
52:26
really what kept me going. And like I said,
52:28
I felt all, you know,
52:30
like I was losing my faith, but
52:32
I never gave up the basic
52:35
principles. Just never give up the basic
52:37
principles. You can't expect yourself to change
52:39
overnight.
52:40
You know, Shaitan's happy.
52:42
He got you to go do those things.
52:46
But
52:47
this is the way to fight him.
52:48
Get back to the Salah.
52:50
The part that fascinates me about Abatullah
52:53
Betelley's story is that she
52:56
had did this incredible thing. She
53:00
had translated the Quran that we all
53:02
know and love, her translations, the
53:04
work that she did with Muhammad and Mary
53:06
Kennedy. And the
53:09
daunting part about it is that you just think,
53:11
okay, that's the story, right? When
53:14
we interviewed Abatullah, I thought that was a story.
53:17
I was like, that was it? You know, she did it. Like, it's
53:19
also her experience. But to hear about her afterlife,
53:22
coming back to America,
53:24
struggling to make ends
53:27
meet, you know, dealing with
53:29
the fear of homelessness, while also
53:31
being a single mom, I'm just
53:34
like thinking how could a person who did something like
53:36
this so big and
53:38
so beneficial to the Ummah could
53:41
be the same person that was struggling
53:43
like that? But like, it just
53:46
blew my mind. Like this contrast
53:48
of it. I was like, oh my God, Surpranullah. Like our life
53:50
is a lot longer than we imagined, you
53:53
know, you might do something really big. A
53:55
lot of my stuff I might, you know, give you an opportunity
53:57
to do something so massive.
53:59
It's like your journey doesn't end there. Your
54:02
journey ends when you die. Like it's just,
54:05
it's continuously going. Allah is always going
54:07
to test you. Like you're going to do something
54:10
and the thing that you did, he's going to test you with
54:12
and then you're going to be tested again. You get tested, be tested again.
54:14
And you might be 17. You've done like a million
54:16
things. You've overcome for a million
54:19
things. And it's just like, wow, like
54:21
all of these small moments are so
54:24
just a short part of her life. It's
54:26
like a small chapter of her life.
54:29
And it's like it also makes me reflect on the
54:31
beauty of like, what
54:33
is her whole story going to look like for Allah? You
54:37
know, what else is Allah going
54:39
to do? What, not even, you know what's interesting? What
54:42
if, you know, to us, she
54:44
did such a huge thing for the Ummah, but
54:47
imagine Allah Subhana Alayhi Wasallam loves her for something else
54:49
more. You know, like it just, it
54:52
makes you reflect on like, maybe it was
54:54
the way that she held onto the rope of Allah
54:57
that is so large in the sight of Allah. You
55:00
know, maybe it was those moments where she
55:02
was just trying to provide for her family,
55:05
even though she just kept sleeping in her car wherever
55:07
she could,
55:09
you know, but still holding
55:11
tight to her deen is what Allah
55:13
loved most. You know, in
55:15
my eyes, I'm like, wow, you know, I was
55:17
looking at more of a bit of a, like,
55:20
what is the biggest thing she did? But you know, sometimes I think
55:22
the smallest things in life
55:24
might mean more to Allah
55:27
because it shows how devoted we were when
55:29
things were bad. You know what I'm
55:31
saying? I'm to Allah, Baitley's, you know, when she tries to think
55:33
things were up for her then.
55:35
But like, it's really what attracted me to looking
55:37
at her and to find her as a person was when
55:39
things were bad, who is she?
55:42
Who is she when she was down bad? Who
55:45
is she when no one checked for her? Who
55:47
is she when she's just driving hours
55:49
back and forth by herself to
55:52
provide for her children? Who is she then?
55:55
When she was facing the fear of homelessness
55:57
in the face, who is she
55:59
then? And then that really
56:02
just makes me
56:04
look at her and just say, wow, I
56:09
want to be that kind of Muslim. That
56:12
no matter how large the things
56:15
I do or what other
56:17
people think of me, forget about what I do, what other
56:19
people think of me, the kind of person I am,
56:22
I hope that the moments that nobody sees
56:25
and only Allah knows is
56:28
what counts the most. That's
56:31
what really counts. It's the
56:33
stuff that people don't know.
56:35
It's the stuff that people don't know. I'm
56:39
getting chills thinking about it, but it really is the stuff
56:42
that people don't know. It's
56:44
those moments where you're crying alone
56:47
and you're pleading with Allah or you're struggling.
56:49
It's just people just know about it. The only person
56:51
I know is Allah
56:52
and who you are in those moments where nobody's looking.
56:57
It's the most powerful. This
57:00
episode is brought to you by Beautiful
57:02
Light Studios. Want to give a shout
57:04
out to producer Muhnishah Amal,
57:07
assistant producers Nima Haroun
57:09
Ikhwaya Vazid, graphic designer for
57:11
the one and only Wasimah Farah, and
57:13
to our marketing extraordinary Sosam Dallahi. Thank
57:16
you, Sis! I'll see you
57:18
guys next week in your ears,
57:21
in your speakers, telling you a good
57:23
story.
57:25
Wait a minute, wait a minute, wait a minute.
57:27
I got news for y'all. Don't,
57:29
don't, don't hang up. Don't leave me. Just
57:31
one second. Give me one minute. I have
57:33
incredible news. I
57:36
would like to announce that the
57:38
Digital Story Podcast, okay,
57:40
has been nominated for a
57:43
shorty award in the arts and
57:45
culture category. Okay, this
57:48
is a big deal. This is such a big deal.
57:50
Congratulations everyone to Beautiful Light Studios,
57:53
to the Digital Story team, to
57:55
you the listeners. Congratulations. This
57:57
is yours as well. This is a big W. We
57:59
have become a finalist. I think
58:01
there's six people who've been moved
58:04
to the next round finals in
58:06
the final round and now the jury's gonna vote
58:09
who wins the category. Now if you don't know what
58:11
a Shorty Awards is it's basically like the
58:13
MTV Awards podcasting.
58:17
Maybe even Oscars I don't know but it's a big
58:19
deal and I don't know how
58:22
many Muslims,
58:24
Muslim podcasts, I don't apologize
58:26
Muslim podcast, Muslim women, Muslim
58:28
women of color podcasts has ever won
58:31
the award never mind like been
58:33
nominated like I don't know I don't know we were
58:35
supposed to do we're actually gonna do our research but I don't I've
58:37
never heard of it so if there if there
58:39
is something out there that won then big tooth but
58:41
this is a big deal too for us Hamdulillah
58:44
and I'm so excited
58:47
to just even be nominated this is so insane
58:50
to me because it's only just
58:52
more clear how big
58:54
TDS is becoming how
58:57
massive we're becoming how mainstream we're becoming
58:59
and literally all we talk about
59:02
is Allah
59:03
the as
59:06
vibes like we just our faith
59:08
are just so unapologetically and
59:10
just without filter and here we are like
59:13
competing with the Game of Thrones podcast
59:15
competing with you know other podcasts
59:17
in big productions like Warner Bros, Apple
59:20
Originals, Audibles are you kidding me? Armistice
59:22
podcast is going
59:24
neck and neck with the Game of Thrones podcast. First of all this
59:26
is insane it's insane you should all
59:29
be proud of yourselves if you're listening you deserve a tap
59:31
on your back for listening and for being attentive
59:33
and for engaging bro like Hamdulillah
59:36
will lie Allah truly deserves all praise
59:39
and the way that like this podcast
59:41
Allah Mibaddik is just reaching
59:44
new levels that no other
59:46
pocket has ever done before is
59:49
truly something to reflect and marvel at
59:52
Allah Allah deserves all praise I
59:55
want to invite you guys to vote for us we also have
59:58
the opportunity of winning an award
59:59
It's called the Audient Honorary
1:00:02
Award. Not the actual award winning
1:00:04
for the category. The juries have to judge
1:00:06
for that. But we do an opportunity to win an
1:00:09
award as a, I guess like,
1:00:11
an Audience Impact
1:00:13
Award. Like, how, you know, engage our audience
1:00:15
is. So if you guys can get to vote for us. And
1:00:18
I guess depending on who has the most votes
1:00:20
wins. And I know all, like, million
1:00:22
of you
1:00:23
guys, okay. I don't
1:00:26
even know how many, at this point, how many listeners there are. There
1:00:28
are so many. If every single one of you guys
1:00:30
voted, we would literally just blow
1:00:33
the roof off the house. You
1:00:35
know, like literally, it would
1:00:37
shock everyone. And I want
1:00:39
to invite you guys to vote for us. If you go to our link tree,
1:00:42
okay, if you go to our Instagram, go to our link tree, or
1:00:44
even in a, if you're listening
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to our podcast or Spotify, if you go
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into the description, we'll have the link there for you guys to
1:00:50
vote for us. Or you can go on our Instagram,
1:00:52
check our link tree. It's
1:00:53
the first link that you see
1:00:55
that says vote for us. You can vote for us as many times as you
1:00:57
like. We
1:00:59
need to vote in by April 26, okay. Go
1:01:02
crazy. Go get your family to vote. Get
1:01:04
everybody to vote because, wow,
1:01:07
TDS, yes. It needs to be loud
1:01:09
and proud. Everybody needs to know we are unapologetically
1:01:11
Muslim, and we out here big, okay. So
1:01:15
go ahead and vote. Get your mama to vote. Get
1:01:17
your auntie to vote. Get your neighbor to vote. Get everybody
1:01:19
to vote. Everybody has to come out and vote for
1:01:22
the
1:01:22
culture. Vote for the culture because it's iconic,
1:01:24
man. It's iconic. And
1:01:28
again, congratulations to
1:01:30
Beautiful Light House, Beautiful Light Studios,
1:01:33
the digital story team, and to you, the listeners.
1:01:36
Y'all did this. Allah did this. Hamdulillah.
1:01:39
And he deserves all praise. So go ahead and vote. And
1:01:42
let's see Hamdulillah. Let's see inshallah. Hopefully we
1:01:44
can beat our games with our hearts. Hopefully inshallah.
1:01:47
But anyway, JazakAllah. Okay, guys. Saamalikum.
1:01:49
Love you.
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