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Today on an all new episode
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of the Enneagram Journey.
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Yes, that's right! There's no going back now!
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I'm gonna talk to Tyler, I'm gonna make friends, I'm
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gonna be a normal boy!
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Yes, you are. You're finally
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going to be just like everybody else.
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What? Say that again. You're finally
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going to be just like everybody else. But
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I don't... I don't want
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to be like everybody else. What do
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you mean? I don't want to be
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like them. Like any other zero in this miserable
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town. Like my family. I won't do it.
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I don't want to be like any other person. I
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want to remain what I've always been. Superior,
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brilliant, special. Oh god,
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what was I thinking? I'm never going to
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lift the veil. Ever. Nobody will ever
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know the real me.
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My accent's back, by the way. It was a very dramatic
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moment.
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If you say so. Stay
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with me, oh,
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let's just breathe. Who's
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this guy? Bad. Hi
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all. Why are you here, Todd? Okay,
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let's get right to it, I guess. My
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name is Todd Packer and I am in recovery.
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I'm working the steps. I'm on step eight of
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Alcoholics Anonymous, step nine
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of Narcotics Anonymous. I'm here to make
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amends.
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I've been hard to deal with over the past
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years. Kind of a jerk. I
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know it. I don't need you to accept my apology,
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but I'd love it if you did. Packer, we
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accept. Actually,
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they have a specific way I need to do this,
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and I have to go through examples of stuff. Okay,
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uh, where to begin?
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Sorry. To
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forgive. Give is divine,
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so let's have a glass of wine
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And have makeup sex
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until the end of Time,
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time, time, time, time Time
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Oh, time!
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So, what'd you think? I
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mean, my God!
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Welcome to The Antigram Journey,
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your number one stop for a great antigram
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conversation with Antigram Godmother
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herself, Suzanne Stebel. My
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name is Joel, and today is a Q&A
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episode packed with questions about
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antigram fours, forgiveness and
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apologies, the withdrawing stance and
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getting things done, and a great vulnerable
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question about a six and a seven dealing
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with our past.
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Plug first, and it's a cool one. The
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Road Back to You has sold one million
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copies.
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Woo, yeah, way to go!
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Everyone here at LTM is just thrilled
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for Suzanne and for N. Varsity Press,
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and so we're going to celebrate. October
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20th, if you can be here in Dallas that
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Friday evening, we're going to have a party
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and record a live podcast
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at the Ivy Tavern in Dallas off
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of Lemon.
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The specific times and more information will be
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available on the LTM website, so check
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there, but for now, clear your night.
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Or, you know, clear your weekend for that matter and come
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and celebrate with the LTM community
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and other antigram enthusiasts. Friday,
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October 20th in Dallas. No,
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unfortunately, this will not be available online.
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Got to be there in person for this one. So
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congratulations, Suzanne, and congratulations
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to the million people who have made
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the choice to read that book. And
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now, congratulations to you, the listener,
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because now you get to hear this great episode. Thank
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you as always for listening. Thank you for supporting
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the podcast and LTM, and we
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hope to see you soon.
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We're having a good summer. I
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hope you are. We're busier
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than we usually are in summertime, and
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that's good too. We
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particularly enjoy doing podcasts
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that involve a variety of
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questions and an opportunity
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to answer some of your questions because
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so many of you have the same question. It helps
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when we can
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be faithful to our mission to help
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you with the things that you want to know. About
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the anagram and we're going to get to do
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some of that today which is super exciting
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for both of us.
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We like it and it's life-giving
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for us. I hope it is for you. All
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right, let's see here. Mrs. Ann,
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I have been following you for the better part of three years.
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I've read the road back to you, listened to you and Ian
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all the way through the launch. The
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only thing is I have not taken your course
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yet. I am struggling between a one
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and a two. Okay, the
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best help I can give you with that
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is this. Two's
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have self-talk.
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So that means when I leave here today
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to drive home,
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I'll be thinking about, I wish I'd answered
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that a little different or I think
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I'm going to talk to Joel about ways
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that we could combine these two things or
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something like that.
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And
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as a two, to be honest, I'm still
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carrying a little bit from yesterday of,
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did I do that well and should I have done this
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different or that different? That'll be my thought
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process.
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Ones have a similar
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process but it isn't
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self-talk and it isn't another person.
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It is what we call
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the critic who is
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the voice that ones begin to hear when
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they're children and they hear
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that voice until they
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die. And the
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reason we call it the critic is because
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it never complements you.
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you, you don't ever get an atta girl.
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It's means, it's
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mean, feels mean-spirited.
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It feels sounds angry.
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Why'd you do that? You should know better than
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that. Why can't you figure out the difference
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between ones and twos? Yours might sound like
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that. And so that,
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that feeling that
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you get from the
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critic creates
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shame if you're a two, and
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I don't have a critic, self-talk creates
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shame for me. The critic for
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you as a one, creates
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lots of anger that you don't
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know
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how to manage. And you don't know how
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to fight back. The critic
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probably means that you have trouble sleeping,
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that you feel exhausted
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from comparison, because you,
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you compare yourself to other people all the time. And
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if you're a one, you probably
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try to find people who aren't doing
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things perfectly. So
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you can for yourself, say
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to the critics, see they don't get it right every
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time either. That's what levels
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the playing field for you.
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When you move toward other people, if you're
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a one, it's because you want
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to correct something usually. If
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you're a two, it's
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always relational. And it's
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because you want to be helpful.
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You have anything to add to that? I
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don't have anything to add. I have a
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question to add on. I have a scenario with
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a lot of that. It's gonna make it personal now
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for me. Okay, great. So I'm
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a seven. When he's a one, we
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had a good healthy fight yesterday.
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We had a fight and
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fighting is healthy. And, you
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know, we probably both could have done better at fighting
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healthier, whatever that would be called. Dad
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and I've been fighting for 30. eight
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years and we could still do it better.
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On and off. By the way, we, we
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don't fight all the
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time. Yeah. Yeah. I know. I know. Here's
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the things that I'm struggling with around this. I'm
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struggling because I didn't quite get
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the apology in the form that I would like
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it. If that matters. I'm
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also trying to use any Graham
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knowledge to inflate,
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like to make sense of what
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happened. And it does, but it doesn't make it easier
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for me to accept. Does that make sense? And
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I know things such as would rather be like
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right or in conflict, all the things. Yeah.
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But that's where I'm at. It's like, okay. So
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like I said, not a question. Just don't
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add to you. Yeah. All right. Well, first
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of all, when you have to ask to be
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apologized to in a more sincere
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way or in a different way or whatever, then
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that automatically takes
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a big bite out of the apology because
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you had to ask. You had to say, you
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know, that didn't really work for me. I didn't ask for
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an apology. I said, I was
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like the other day I was really wrong.
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I was like, today you were really
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wrong about this. And
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then later I got the,
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you know, her apology. Yeah.
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But did you tell her that
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it wasn't the apology you really were looking for?
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No, no, no, not yet.
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Got it. Or maybe never. Yeah, I wouldn't do it. But
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I would say, I, instead of asking
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for it to be different, I
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think what we have to say is, and I'm
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practicing this for me
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to hear it and accept it, which is what
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you're talking about.
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It would be helpful if ABC
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when dad apologizes to me, he does it immediately
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when he knows he's wrong and he owns, I'm
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wrong. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I did that.
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And that's supposed to wrap it up. And
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because of my two, of course, that doesn't, that
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doesn't wrap it up. So
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I
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have said to dad as recently
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as this week
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You just say you're sorry to end the
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conversation
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And I want you to say you're sorry because
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you're really sorry not to end the conversation
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But he lives with a verbal processor. So
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when I use any gram wisdom, I know he's trying
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to get me shut up. I
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Can say from 38 years of
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living then sorry with y'all does
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not in a conversation So
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if you need to reminder tell
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me yeah
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What you
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need to remember on the any
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gram wisdom side and on
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Whitney's side is
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That once she knows she owes
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you an apology She's also
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getting a whipping from the
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critic. That's that's why I said like I'm I've
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it's not all about just it's not all Joel
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Focused I'm trying to put this and and
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I know I bet she wanted a different apology when
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I said I messed up the other day Yeah, she
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probably want a different apology of some sort
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you know, it's just the the time
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of how much time do
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I dwell on it and Move
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on or do I do something different? I
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think you do something different because you all
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are Still young in marriage
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and young in fighting frankly. I
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Think you say I've
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been struggling with this since you apologized
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and I just I'm not asking for a new Different
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or bigger apology. I just want
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you to know how how it landed for
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me and if this
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one piece you could do differently
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then I
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would really be grateful in the future and
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Then you have to decide if you want to say to her
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And if there's something you'd like for me to do different
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and apologies Rising now would be a
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great time for you to tell me to I
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Think when people we love are really
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really really really wrong. I
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think you had four really sin there a verbal
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apology doesn't work anyway.
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It's the first step of
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what comes next or doesn't
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come next. You
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know that dad
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and I,
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when y'all were all little and
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we still do it sometimes, employed,
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you don't get to say I'm sorry you have to say
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will you forgive me
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because that's not
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as dismissive as I'm sorry
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and then it's a mutual situation. Kathy,
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I'm a 73 year old six in a
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loving relationship with a 76 year old nine.
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Any insights as to how to move forward
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we are both new to the anagram.
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Yes, read the path
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between us
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and get the study guide and do
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that together or are you leading
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a path between a study group
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and after the summer. Yeah,
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so once once school gets back in.
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Yeah, so watch for that. Joel leads a group
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online that will
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create for you a lot
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of topical. It's
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like topic sentences in
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a paragraph
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when you read that book together when you're new to the
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anagram. It'll give you something to think
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about and talk about and you do that and then
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you'll be reading about other numbers too and
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you can talk about that and all
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the stuff. That's what I would recommend. What about you,
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Joel?
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The thing that I love about it, the question, is
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that they're in their mid
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to latter 70s
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and so I think that is some big
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important piece of context that
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I think is the most important piece of it. Me too.
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So me talking or contributing
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something as a 30 something year old.
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I have in the last two
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years
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decided, I don't think you even know this,
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I've decided that when I'm hurt
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or angry or impatient
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or
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frustrated, I'm going
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to keep
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moving, but I'm going to breathe instead
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of talk.
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I'm going to wait
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a bit before I try to bring up thinking. I'm
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going to
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do what I'm already doing, but I'm going
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to do it
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methodically or mechanically. And
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while I'm doing all of that, I'm just, I'm
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literally taking in slow breaths and letting
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them out and taking in slow breaths
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and letting them out. And
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I'm saying less
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and therefore I have fewer regrets.
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And that's a positive and a negative. So
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one example is one that you'll appreciate. And
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that is that when I'm with somebody and I'm thinking,
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wow, I
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think I could help you with that. And
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how can I
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do more and give more? I'm
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breathing my way through that instead
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of saying those things. And
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part of it's because my calendar
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is so full that
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I don't have any room to just keep
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talking and keep.
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I mean one to one with people in
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elevators and
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with the server at the restaurant. Well,
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we
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in my Monday small group yesterday, um,
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the person who was sharing there
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in an anagram eight
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and they were talking about two twos in
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their lives, how
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all the, all the doing and
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all the giving that is
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for them unnecessary and
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counter productive
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for their relationship that they're like, I don't
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want, I need you to do this other
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thing. If they ask them a question,
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ask the two a question about something, then
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the two gives way more back than the
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answer to
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the, to the question. This is very
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shaming. I
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just want you to know that I wrote
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an email or a text, I think.
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to all four of you children
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of mine
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yesterday with all this stuff about
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if you need more and I'm not meeting your
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needs, I'm sorry and I love you the most, I
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love you more than the work
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that I do and blah, blah, blah, blah, blah
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and I just erased
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it. I was gonna, but I was just thinking.
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I didn't get it. I was about to say, you did not
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send that to this child. No, I didn't send it to any
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of you because none of you are feeling
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that way. I just, it's
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just stuff I make up, really.
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All right, let me back up a little bit here.
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Do, do, do. There was a question
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up here. Give me one second. Let's stick with some relationship.
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Yeah, let's do, let's talk about how what a
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heyday you and Joey is a seven and eight would
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have had if I sent that email. So
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do you know what she's talking about? I don't know what
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she's talking about. She's tired.
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She's just tired. She was on Fox yesterday. She's
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really tired. That's
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right. That's it exactly. But what I'm telling
16:56
you is with breathing, I got
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to that myself
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and I don't usually breathe.
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I just keep doing,
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doing, doing, doing, doing, doing to manage
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my feelings.
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I never write out that email that you write. I
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think about it.
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Yeah. And I think about it, I think about it, but
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I don't do. The thinking just keeps going.
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And so I wonder, I'll be curious what,
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for each anagram number, what the slowing
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down and breathing,
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what centers of intelligence that affects and
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changes in at different times.
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Exactly.
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And I have a little list going. And the other thing
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I would tell you is that when
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I get as a two, when I get
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onto the roundabout,
17:39
when doing is dominant, I
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get busy enough that I don't know that I need to
17:45
get off.
17:46
I miss my exit.
17:48
I don't get my stuff done.
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Or you're like, I'm still driving. It's what you said
17:52
a second ago about the stopping and breathing, changing
17:54
the doing. That's right. And breathing
17:57
is a way to get to all three repressed
17:59
centers. You can breathe your way to feeling,
18:01
you can breathe your way to thinking, and you can breathe
18:03
your way to doing or stopping
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doing or doing something different.
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That's what I was about to say. Or breathe your way
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past or through regret and
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bad choices and bad decisions
18:16
that you have to walk back later because you didn't.
18:19
The physical toll
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that not breathing has taken
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on me, yes, has
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taken on me, I
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think is very tangible.
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Yeah, what's the name of that book we like about
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breathing? Breathe. That
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was the first thing that was two summers
18:36
ago. Yeah.
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Dad couldn't read
18:40
that without reading it out loud to me. Now
18:42
listen to this, but wait, listen to this. Listen
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to this. It's a yellow cover for
18:47
those of you who want to get it, and I'm pretty
18:49
sure the title is Breathe.
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That is the title, and I can find
18:53
it. It's fascinating.
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I'm a six, and I've been dating a four
19:01
for several years. One of the recurring
19:03
difficulties is navigating his
19:05
big sad feelings in ways that recognize
19:08
or see him, but don't make everything
19:10
about those feelings. Being other referenced,
19:13
being balanced with that is really hard.
19:16
One of the things that I say
19:20
to
19:21
people who are in relationship with fours,
19:24
don't get into
19:28
their stuff. Stand beside
19:30
it, observe it, care
19:33
about it, be compassionate
19:36
about it, but don't get in it
19:39
because once you get in it, it takes
19:41
you down, and that's what you're talking about. Relationally,
19:46
y'all are in a long-term relationship, so
19:49
I'm talking about day to day, hour to hour. Be
19:51
present to the sadness.
19:55
Respond sometimes
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verbally. to the sadness and
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then stand apart from that. And
20:05
remember, you can't change people.
20:08
The language of letting go, how many
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times do you think I've said these words? Melody
20:14
Beatty ought to send me, what's that
20:16
called? You need some residuals? Yeah,
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the language of letting go by
20:21
Melody Beatty, December 5th
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will really help you. So
20:26
order that book and read December 5th
20:29
every day for three months
20:32
and then keep it handy on your phone so
20:35
that you can
20:36
continue to accept that you can't change
20:39
a
20:40
fours way of dealing with
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life.
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And if you wanna be in a relationship, you have to be present
20:46
to it and don't get
20:48
in it. Keep with the number four.
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I'm gonna read a completely different question. This
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one's from an email
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and it's about an eight and a four.
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And so after the question, I'd love to hear
21:00
you talk to that
21:02
the solution or whatever
21:04
for the eight is different than
21:06
the six or the work to do.
21:10
So how their relationship with a textbook
21:12
eight and this person is a
21:14
four, a textbook four. Our
21:16
relationship has been incredible so far, lots of deep
21:18
discussions, introspection, laughing, but
21:21
we also do struggle to meet in the middle at times.
21:24
I've read this pairing can be very volatile. I
21:26
wanna do everything that is in my slash our power
21:28
to focus on making the relationship thrive
21:31
and he is equally as committed. What are
21:33
some things we can do to keep our relationship on
21:35
course without letting the emotional intensity
21:38
between us turn into something potentially
21:40
harmful to both of us?
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Okay, you have the opposite
21:46
problem in relationship. The
21:49
four brings too many feelings and
21:51
the eight doesn't bring enough.
21:53
And my guess is that
21:56
most difficulty is about that
21:58
emotional difference.
22:02
Eights have to learn
22:06
to
22:08
embrace the vulnerability
22:10
of allowing their feelings
22:13
to rise enough that they can name them
22:16
and share them. And
22:18
that they're not inclined to do that
22:21
if they're in relationship with the four and they're
22:24
just feelings falling on all the time. It's
22:26
like, I don't want any more of this. That's
22:28
what I know is I don't want more of this. The
22:31
things that you have in common are you both value
22:34
authenticity and honesty, which is why
22:36
you're having these great discussions. And
22:38
it's probably why you're in relationship with one
22:40
another. And here's the
22:43
most important thing that can
22:45
happen. I'm not clear on who's the
22:47
four and who's the eight, but it doesn't matter.
22:50
The most important thing that can happen
22:53
is for
22:55
the eight to say
22:57
to the four and mean it.
22:59
I'm no longer going to try to make you
23:01
happy. Now
23:03
that doesn't mean that they didn't want the four to be happy.
23:06
It means their tendency
23:09
as eight when fours are
23:12
even when they're melancholy, but for sure
23:14
when they're really sad is to make
23:17
you happy. And you don't want to be happy if
23:19
you're the four. So you can't get there. You
23:21
just want to stay in where you are in
23:23
these deep feelings until you work them through. And
23:26
so the eight feels like a failure, which they're not accustomed
23:28
to when they can't make you happy. If
23:31
you take that out of the mix,
23:33
you still have this great relationship,
23:36
but it doesn't involve the
23:38
eight wanting something for the four that the four
23:40
doesn't want. Maybe this
23:43
one will be a four podcast. Like we're going to
23:45
stick with four stuff. Okay.
23:47
This is an I'm a four looking for a new job.
23:50
As you can imagine, this process brings out all
23:53
of my big emotions and the characteristics
23:55
of my number. It's easy for the
23:57
feelings of rejection, envy, self criticism
23:59
to become
23:59
all consuming. So how do I
24:02
as a four allow myself to have my feelings
24:05
around looking forward
24:07
and getting a new job but not be
24:09
consumed by them? There
24:12
are two things that would be
24:15
directly tied to your bringing
24:17
up doing that will make a
24:19
difference in this process for you.
24:23
So you've got to recognize
24:26
that you are doing
24:27
repressed and that
24:29
you tend to just keep going and
24:32
going and going with all of this thinking that
24:35
about the things that you put in the email
24:37
about getting a job all the shame all
24:40
the comparison all the envy all those
24:42
things
24:43
going over that over and over and over by
24:46
supporting your feelings with thinking and
24:48
not doing anything is not helpful.
24:51
So you have to bring
24:53
up doing
24:54
and that means that you
24:57
need to fill your day with doing
25:00
things that interest you and that
25:02
are helping you to find a new
25:04
job
25:05
doing
25:06
not wishing I had that job not
25:10
critiquing yourself over and over for your interview
25:12
from the job you didn't get none of that doing
25:15
something.
25:16
The second thing that happens is
25:19
for two threes and fours shame is
25:21
the default emotion.
25:23
I mean you are feeling dominant and thinking
25:26
supports feeling and you're doing repressed and
25:29
what you have to do with that thinking is
25:31
that's how you fight your shame.
25:33
You got to control the shame or this
25:35
is just going to be a weapon for you the whole time and
25:38
one of the ways you can control shame is
25:41
by productive thinking. There's
25:43
no reason for me to feel shame about this. Seventeen
25:47
people applied for that job and somebody
25:49
else had more experience than I do. That's productive
25:51
thinking as opposed to man
25:54
that was the one I really wanted. I
25:56
didn't get it because I'm just not very good
25:58
at what I do.
25:59
never going to get the job I want. That's non-productive
26:02
thinking. So that's the difference. Control
26:05
your shame with productive thinking and
26:07
you got to do, do, do.
26:10
And my guess is your response to my answer
26:12
is yuck,
26:13
ugh. But
26:15
I'm sorry, it's true.
26:18
Most hard things are yuck and ugh. So
26:21
what if both partners are in the withdrawing
26:23
stance? So this person
26:26
looks like it's a five and a nine.
26:29
So we often can't get stuff done.
26:32
Decisions, house renovation, future
26:34
plans. How
26:36
do we get moving?
26:39
I think you need to spend some time talking
26:41
with each other about maybe
26:44
making a list on butcher
26:46
paper or on a small whiteboard
26:49
that you'll both see a lot of
26:52
things we must do.
26:56
The problem with a nine is they're doing something
26:58
all the time. It's just not the things that need to
27:00
be done. And the problem with a five
27:03
is that you're planning the things
27:05
that need to be done but you're not doing them.
27:07
So together if you make
27:10
a list of the things that must
27:12
be done and then you
27:14
put a
27:16
target date on
27:19
those things being completed.
27:21
And then you take an honest look
27:23
at that
27:24
every three or four days together and
27:30
recognize what isn't getting
27:32
done. And then one of you has to say I'll
27:34
take responsibility for this one. But
27:37
it needs to be a
27:39
nine in healthy doing or
27:41
a five in healthy doing because you
27:43
don't need more.
27:45
Well, I'll do something but I won't
27:47
probably get that done from the nine and
27:49
you sure don't need more planning from
27:51
the five. It's never
27:53
really a matter of withdrawing stance people
27:56
not knowing what to do.
27:57
It's a matter of wanting to
27:59
do what
27:59
needs to be done. That's always true. You're
28:03
too as people know. Allie is a
28:06
two and it's I
28:08
find it hard to have a close friend who
28:11
is a four. I'm
28:12
so externally focused and she is so
28:14
internally focused. I find it hard because
28:16
it feels like everything is on her time
28:19
when we connect when we get deep or whatnot is on
28:21
her time. What
28:23
are your thoughts on that? Well
28:25
fours play hard
28:28
to get and
28:29
they do it intuitively rather than
28:31
intentionally and it's because
28:34
that's one of the ways that they can prove
28:36
to themselves that you really
28:38
want to be in a relationship with them.
28:41
So with that in mind and
28:43
that is part of the baseline
28:46
that you're going to work from.
28:47
The next reality is that
28:49
one of the reasons it's hard for you to be in a relationship with
28:52
a four is because you feel
28:54
your feelings and you feel the four's
28:57
feelings and that is a
28:59
lot. That's a lot of feelings. So
29:02
what you have to do with those do
29:04
with those feelings is
29:06
turn them into
29:09
thinking,
29:10
productive thinking
29:12
and then turn that into
29:14
ways of
29:15
allowing
29:19
yourself to have better boundaries
29:22
and self-care would include that
29:25
sometimes you want to say
29:27
when and where we're going to go do something
29:29
and you need to keep stepping out
29:31
and if they say oh Tuesday's
29:34
not good for me I rather do Sunday afternoon.
29:37
You need to be in a position to say well
29:40
could you make Tuesday work for me this
29:42
time? We often do things
29:44
on your schedule something very gentle
29:47
but something that points out what's happening because when
29:49
fours get into their
29:52
average or below average fourness
29:55
they're not aware of how they're affecting other people.
29:57
They're only aware of how everything affects
29:59
them.
30:01
Let's talk about parenting a 5.
30:03
My
30:06
daughter is a 5. She is 9 years old. She
30:09
asks 1 million questions.
30:10
How can I curb many of the seemingly
30:13
unnecessary questions while still allowing for her curiosity?
30:16
She wants to know every detail about all of our lives,
30:18
even the things that aren't relevant to her. And
30:21
she gets upset when plans change and she
30:23
struggles with flexibility.
30:24
I would appreciate any insight.
30:27
She's 9. She's
30:32
probably not a 5.
30:34
That sounds very much like a 6.
30:38
It's very difficult to assign
30:41
numbers to children. So
30:43
I want to say that first. I don't
30:45
do it unless it's my
30:47
grandchildren. You know, I
30:50
do some of it and I've been right and I've been wrong.
30:53
So I would like for you to consider that
30:55
your daughter might be a 6 because 6's are
30:57
the ones who ask so many
31:00
questions. Fives
31:02
generally don't want to have that much conversation,
31:04
frankly.
31:06
Now if they're asking
31:08
a question about how was your day and what did you do today
31:10
and where did you go and all that, those are 6 questions.
31:14
If they're asking you questions
31:16
about
31:19
how do bread machines work? Like
31:21
how can you put flour in a machine
31:24
with these other things and come out with a loaf of bread?
31:26
How does that happen? Now that's a question
31:29
a 5 would ask about an inanimate
31:31
object that they're trying to figure out
31:33
how it works.
31:35
6 is the way they build relationships
31:37
with other people is by wanting to know the
31:40
minutia of what you did today
31:42
and how it went and oh, well, where
31:44
do you buy groceries? I like to go there
31:46
too because they display the fruit so
31:48
beautifully. But I found that the bakery
31:51
is better at this. All of that kind of conversation
31:53
with 6's is relationship building.
31:57
and
32:00
that sounds so much like my childhood struggles. There
32:02
you go. Yeah. I
32:05
bet you got a six. And she could
32:07
be an introverted six, anaphobic
32:09
six, which would make it look more five-ish. I
32:13
don't know necessarily the numbers of my
32:15
kids. I've got guesses. Sure. We
32:17
keep, we hold it all loosely. Yeah.
32:20
The question is more important than the,
32:22
the kid's anneagram number. Exactly.
32:25
So just, especially, this
32:27
is a perfect example. And they asked
32:29
the right question. Yes. So
32:32
let's just remove that. They said,
32:34
my kid's a five. And let's remove
32:36
the age. That doesn't matter. They asked, how can
32:39
I, I'm struggling with this. And
32:42
that's what so many people,
32:44
the best questions you receive at workshops
32:47
are, here is the scenario.
32:50
How can I adjust myself
32:52
in the
32:54
scenario instead of, here's the scenario.
32:57
How can I get my daughter to pump the
32:59
brakes on the damn questions?
33:00
So glad you brought me back
33:02
to that. Here's the thing
33:04
you can do with a nine-year-old and you should, you
33:07
could, almost
33:08
said should, start doing that now.
33:11
And one of the things
33:13
you can do is say,
33:15
you know, I have so much to think about
33:17
today.
33:18
And I know you have a lot of questions about
33:20
that. Would you sit there for just a minute and
33:23
think about the three most important questions you
33:25
have? And I'll answer those three, but
33:27
I don't have time to answer more than that. That
33:29
way you're not being dismissive. You're not saying
33:32
your questions are not important. And
33:34
you're giving her a little time instead
33:36
of a lot of time.
33:38
I've joked about this in the past and the
33:40
joke has been, you know, that Google
33:44
co-parents with me.
33:45
So we have, for
33:48
different reasons, in most of the rooms of the
33:50
house, we have the little Google minis that just tucked
33:52
away in a corner. It's nice, it plays music
33:55
throughout the house. It's all that stuff. But
33:57
also I love, they
33:58
forget about it sometimes.
34:00
But you know, a kid will, especially when you're in
34:02
the middle of making dinner
34:04
and talking to Whitney, you know, hearing
34:06
about Whitney's day and doing things and in comes
34:09
kids like, how do you spell this? Ask
34:11
Google. Ask Google. Google,
34:13
how do you spell this? Or...
34:14
That's what dad does with me. Sorry,
34:18
just saying. That's
34:21
the truth. That's the truth.
34:25
But I just, you know, the, I
34:28
love the idea of, I can answer, I've
34:30
got time, I love you so much and I can answer
34:32
three. And these other questions are
34:34
important to you. Let's figure out a way for you
34:36
to find those answers as well. And
34:39
there's just all sorts of solutions out
34:41
there.
34:41
Another solution is,
34:43
we just have been talking about that for about
34:46
five minutes. How many
34:48
of those questions did you already know the answer
34:50
to?
34:51
And then here's what you start teaching and
34:53
it won't matter what number she is, but here's what you start
34:55
teaching. I trust you
34:58
and I trust how you think. And
35:01
I wonder if you're checking the answers
35:03
that you have in your head with me or if you're
35:06
really asking me a question about
35:08
something that you don't know. Let's
35:11
not assume that the kids are six. Right. That's
35:14
a good... But let's also,
35:16
let's pretend that the kids are six.
35:18
Yep. And that as a hearing adult
35:21
sixes talk about the inter-committee
35:23
and using people as adults,
35:27
as sound boards essentially of
35:29
just, hey, asking a question,
35:31
but I really am looking for confirmation
35:34
of the thing I believe, then how
35:36
do you
35:36
parent that as a child? I mean, I'm sorry.
35:39
Yes, in a child. Yes. And so what you do
35:41
is you say, what do you think the answer is?
35:44
And then they'll tell you maybe.
35:46
And then you say, well, why
35:48
don't you think about it for a while? And if you don't know the answer
35:50
by bedtime, then I'll answer it. And
35:53
then you keep, you're affirming
35:56
their independence and
35:58
their ability, but...
35:59
careful with it
36:01
and don't do that too much because
36:03
assuming that they might be a six,
36:06
that she might be a six,
36:08
you want to recognize that
36:10
she's relationship building with you.
36:13
That's her way of connecting.
36:16
All right. The subject of this
36:18
question is energy level of an anagram
36:21
nine
36:21
and it's a little bit longer. So I'll do my best to
36:24
read it. Well, I'm an anagram
36:26
nine. I'm a mom to two young kids. They're
36:29
four and one. They're ages. I
36:31
work full time as a manager at a software company
36:34
and due to my husband's job right now, I'm
36:36
in a season where a lot of the caretaking and
36:39
home management tasks fall to me. My
36:41
plate is full and I consistently feel pretty
36:43
disappointed in the amount of energy
36:45
I have to get the minimum requirements done
36:47
in a day. I look like a spaced out
36:50
zombie by dinnertime.
36:51
I've heard you talk about the low energy level of nines
36:53
before. Do you have any recommendations
36:56
for how to make peace with that reality and
36:58
also somehow tap into more energy
37:00
or access a different way to get stuff
37:03
done for me and my family in a healthy way?
37:06
You cannot get it done
37:09
unless you write it down
37:11
and prioritize it
37:13
or have your husband help you prioritize
37:15
it.
37:17
And
37:19
then you have to be honest and say, I think
37:21
I can do
37:22
this and this and this, but I can't do this. I can't
37:24
do this too. So
37:26
then you are from
37:28
a thinking position,
37:30
boundaried in a healthy way
37:33
saying to your partner in life,
37:35
I can handle
37:38
dinner. I
37:39
can't handle breakfast. What should we
37:41
do? Instead
37:43
of what should I do?
37:45
And the big projects that have
37:47
to get done. You prioritize
37:49
which ones have to be done during this season.
37:52
And if they don't have to be done, take them off the list
37:56
and put an asterisk by the
37:58
things that you will feel.
37:59
guilty about
38:02
if they don't get done
38:04
daily or
38:07
if they're weekly things or whatever because
38:09
you can't carry guilt too
38:13
and you're gonna have to take some time for yourself
38:16
the only way that nines can fill up is
38:18
with a long time now I realize
38:20
that everything I've suggested requires
38:22
time and energy and commitment
38:25
from your husband to do that and
38:27
I have
38:28
I think I've had a four-year-old and a one-year-old
38:31
at the same time
38:32
I have I maybe I've
38:34
gotten close and I
38:37
get it about having kids
38:39
who have lots of needs I
38:42
had a before I was married before
38:44
I ever had children I had a
38:46
relationship with a family at the school
38:48
where I taught she was the counselor
38:50
there and they had nine children
38:53
and
38:53
they did a lot
38:56
of the work on the weekend
38:58
for the whole week like everything
39:00
they cooked they doubled
39:02
and they put half in the freezer they
39:04
I mean they just did it and so
39:06
if there's a day where you can work really
39:09
hard all day long to make the other six
39:11
days easier try that plan
39:15
I'm gonna read this question it's from Courtney so
39:17
it's not from me it's from okay wait a minute I want
39:20
to finish and say that one more thing about the previous
39:22
one and don't
39:26
consider it a failure
39:28
any day of the week when you
39:30
don't feel like you got everything done
39:33
be sure that you put the four-year-old and the one-year-old
39:36
ahead of
39:38
picking up toys or folding
39:40
the laundry just right or
39:43
all the little things yeah
39:46
now I'm through
39:48
okay
39:50
I'm a seven and was recently engaged to
39:52
a six I'm much healthier now but
39:54
struggled in the past with addictive tendencies
39:57
relationships and alcohol the more
39:59
I shared with him
39:59
the
40:00
six the more my
40:03
past choices fueled his fear of a future together
40:05
thoughts on how to heal
40:07
moving forward
40:09
I was engaged it says I
40:11
was recently engaged to a six so I think
40:14
I think it is a present engagement uh-huh correct
40:18
we are no longer together okay so
40:20
there we go nevermind no longer together okay
40:24
Courtney I'm sorry
40:26
and
40:29
that might not be a bad thing
40:33
and it doesn't have anything to do with any gram numbers
40:35
it it's not always a
40:37
terrible thing for relationships to
40:41
be healthy enough that you know it isn't gonna work
40:43
before you marry and
40:46
it might be a really sad thing
40:48
for you and that's why I'm saying I'm sorry
40:51
now let me talk about the
40:54
future and
40:56
Joel you need to chime in with this please
40:58
but there is no way to
41:00
have a relationship be healthy
41:03
if you don't have enough
41:06
trust to tell the truth
41:09
about addictive behavior and problems
41:11
with addiction you
41:14
just have to do that
41:16
and if that's scary for people then
41:19
you have to give them all the information
41:22
that you can so
41:23
that they
41:25
have a full field of
41:28
opportunity to
41:30
alleviate their fear
41:32
themselves
41:34
that will be difficult
41:36
with sixes because
41:39
if you've heard me teach you
41:41
know that I use anxiety in place of
41:43
fear even though fear is the word
41:45
from ancient any gram work because
41:49
anxiety is about possible future
41:51
events and six is
41:53
fear is about possible
41:55
future events so it's really anxiety
41:58
they handle fear
41:59
really well.
42:02
It's hard when you have a complex
42:04
past
42:06
to keep a dependent
42:08
number one, two, or six from
42:12
worrying about possible
42:14
future events.
42:16
It's a very complex issue and
42:18
it doesn't have an easy answer.
42:21
And I think any
42:24
groundwork done
42:26
with the next person who
42:28
becomes your potential partner
42:31
in life
42:33
will help get past some of those
42:37
questions and hurdles before you
42:39
get too deep in the relationship.
42:41
You think that's all good advice, Joel?
42:45
I think so. I
42:46
can just give some shared experience. I wouldn't
42:48
call any
42:49
of what I'm about to say advice and I shouldn't be
42:52
giving advice. I was
42:54
married to a six and
42:59
we would have gotten divorced anyway at
43:01
some point anyway. So that's not a...
43:03
they said like, oh man, if we had done something different
43:06
around this one thing or around my
43:08
alcoholism or around her
43:11
whatever, it
43:12
was what it was. And
43:15
two wonderful children have come from
43:17
that and
43:19
life is great. And we co-parent
43:21
together, etc. And
43:23
not all relationships are supposed to last forever.
43:25
I'm sorry I interrupted, but they're not. And
43:29
I'd say, I don't know what
43:31
Courtney's experience was as we
43:34
tried to, you know, as things came to light
43:37
and so on, as we tried to reconcile
43:39
it,
43:40
she the six wanted more
43:43
or not wanted, needed and demanded
43:45
more control. And so
43:48
as anxiety went up, control
43:51
went up and, you know, and I'm a seven
43:53
and
43:54
that's just that. Got
43:56
to work. So it doesn't
43:58
work. So then fast forward.
43:59
however many years and
44:02
I meet Whitney
44:04
so still dependent stance
44:07
you know you said I want to get the words right
44:09
did
44:10
you do much the
44:12
more I shared you know about
44:15
the past choices the more it fueled the
44:17
fear of the future well within
44:21
like the first two weeks
44:23
I kind of we date one
44:25
hey I'm an alcoholic
44:27
date for a
44:29
suicide survivor date
44:32
eight I've been to prison like
44:35
got it all and I still remember
44:37
saying the last thing that we had gone somewhere
44:39
like to spend time with her friends for the weekend
44:43
and we had just the best time and her friends
44:45
liked me everything was just really really
44:47
great and we were both quite smitten and so
44:49
on and I remember we're driving back
44:51
to Dallas it was probably like an hour and a half drive
44:54
and we're both just so getting happy I was
44:57
like listen I'm I'm so sorry I have to
44:59
do this I've got I've got one last I don't
45:01
remember which one it was yeah one last
45:03
skeleton that's got to come out of the closet
45:05
and I swear you've been so great so far
45:07
through these others yeah and and this is that
45:10
and then it you
45:11
know and then it goes back to the
45:13
four mantras I think yep so
45:15
if there was any advice it'd be that
45:17
it's not my advice it's a repeating of showing
45:20
up paying attention telling the truth
45:23
and then not being attached to the results and
45:25
I think if you know if Whitney had
45:28
said if I'd done those first three and
45:30
then Whitney you've been like this has
45:32
been great you've got a little bit too much yeah
45:35
for me and whatever then if I had
45:40
let that shame me or
45:42
affect my future going forward then
45:44
I dropped the ball on number four being attached the
45:46
results that's right
45:48
I think you're very brave
45:51
that I would just say that I
45:53
think you're very brave and I think you intuitively
45:56
did the right things and I think
45:58
you're gonna end up in a really
45:59
relationship with somebody who
46:02
loves you like Whitney, loves Joel.
46:04
And
46:06
let me just say this,
46:08
everybody has stuff.
46:11
Everybody has stuff. Not everybody
46:13
tells it. And if
46:16
you don't, then five, six,
46:18
seven, you know, they say seven year
46:20
seven is a hard year for marriages. It's
46:22
because that's when all the stuff starts to show up
46:24
that you didn't tell
46:26
and that you didn't share. And
46:29
I don't know anybody who's not addicted
46:31
to something. I don't know anybody
46:34
who's not addicted to something.
46:37
It's just that some things
46:39
are called out
46:41
in public ways that
46:44
the public has attached shame to.
46:46
And
46:47
addiction is one of them.
46:50
I would rather be in
46:52
a relationship with somebody who's either done
46:54
a lot
46:54
of work or somebody
46:56
who's done 12 step work. People
46:59
that I teach who have,
47:01
who are sober
47:03
and who have done the program to get sober
47:06
are so smart and so teachable
47:08
and so relatable. It's
47:11
quite something. And I'm guessing, Courtney,
47:14
that
47:14
that's you and that it was
47:17
just the
47:18
fear of the thing, not the
47:20
fear of you in relationship to the thing
47:23
that cost you the relationship.
47:26
We've said it before on a podcast or somewhere,
47:29
just the blessing that people
47:31
who have an obvious addiction, how
47:33
that is such a blessing versus
47:36
the people that don't have the
47:38
big taboo addictions, the
47:40
struggle that they have.
47:41
Well, I will say this for anyone who
47:44
hasn't read it to read Breathing Underwater by
47:46
Richard Rohr. I mean, shopping
47:50
is an addiction that is supported
47:53
with credit limits that people can't handle.
47:56
And that gets results because
47:58
other people say,
47:59
Oh, I love your new dress. I love your
48:02
new haircut. I love your new handbag.
48:04
I love your new stuff. Uh,
48:07
there's a lot of affirmation for some
48:09
addiction
48:10
eating disorders. There's affirmation
48:13
on one side from our culture and shame
48:15
on the other. Oh, that's all I was going to say. Oh good. Thank
48:17
you so much. It was just about, it's,
48:20
it is a shame that society,
48:23
this isn't, sorry, this is a small tangent
48:25
society dictates what addictions
48:28
are. Okay. Right now. So,
48:30
you know, AA, the way it started, it wasn't okay
48:32
to be an alcoholic. That's why it had to be anonymous.
48:35
That's all these things. Now
48:37
it's,
48:38
I mean, still, it's not a good thing to be an alcoholic,
48:40
but it's not a,
48:42
there's not as much shame tied to that. But now there's
48:44
new things that are tied, that
48:46
shame is tied to. And that society is like, it's
48:49
not, it's okay to be an alcoholic now. And
48:51
it's around us everywhere, but it's not okay
48:53
to be a sex addict. That's right.
48:55
And I had an occasion,
48:58
years ago within the last 10
49:00
years to try to find
49:03
gamblers anonymous for people
49:06
who are struggling with gram gambling,
49:08
man, they're hidden.
49:10
The, the, two
49:12
on this side of the DFW Metroplex, right?
49:15
Which is crazy. It's
49:18
interesting to me that it,
49:21
it happens
49:23
in the 1950s, sixties, seventies
49:26
in back rooms.
49:27
And now I was watching something
49:30
on TV the other day. And if I
49:32
wanted to bet on
49:33
who was going to win, I could do it with my phone.
49:36
It's like, really? Yeah, not in
49:38
Texas. Unfortunately, fortunately,
49:40
unfortunately, depending on how you look at it, uh,
49:43
I saw an interview or replay of
49:45
an interview with Dave Chappelle recently. And
49:47
people don't,
49:49
LTM does not endorse nor oppose Dave
49:51
Chappelle. Like this is me just talking about this interview,
49:54
but
49:54
I thought it was so interesting. He talked about, um,
49:57
minorities and dark colored people. were
50:00
addicted to crack. And that was
50:02
a bit, it was a crack, that was just,
50:04
you know, it was terrible, it was awful, those crack
50:06
heads, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. And
50:09
now that it's in the white community
50:11
with opioids and
50:13
with pills, that it's different, that there's a lot
50:15
more
50:17
compassion and understanding and
50:19
we've gotta come up with solutions, that
50:21
it, and it was just so, I think context
50:24
is just
50:25
so important when we're talking about these things as well.
50:27
It's very important and I think
50:30
almost everything
50:31
supports
50:33
addiction
50:36
of one kind or another.
50:37
That's not true. I think there are
50:40
many, many, many cultural things in
50:43
our culture in the West and
50:45
in a Metroplex like the Dallas Fort Worth Metroplex
50:48
that support certain
50:50
addictions. Doing
50:52
some 12 step work on any
50:55
level about anything makes
50:58
everything else in your
51:00
spiritual life easier to do. It's
51:02
just another tool that makes
51:05
everything, that works with everything else. Absolutely.
51:07
So even if you don't think you're,
51:09
even if you're not struggling, if you don't think
51:11
you're struggling, if you still wanna
51:13
crack a blue book and just
51:15
add that tool, it's a great tool to
51:17
add.
51:18
I agree with that and I'm
51:20
codependent and
51:23
I have all the gifts for that as a two and
51:25
if you're a two, you do too. And
51:28
it can feel so, some of
51:31
our addictions can
51:33
feel so great.
51:35
Codependency can feel like
51:37
Jesus and that's,
51:41
it's tricky, tricky.
51:43
We are up against it time wise. Thank
51:45
you all who joined us on Good
51:48
Size Group that joined us here and
51:50
we're actually just gonna kinda reset in a moment
51:53
and we're gonna be live on the table recording
51:55
an episode of the Antigram Training Podcast
51:58
titled Going Back to School. or back to school
52:00
or something along those lines with
52:03
Joey and Billy Shoey. I heard the door just opened
52:05
there. So we're
52:07
going to be over there. If you,
52:09
if you have not joined
52:11
the table, I think it's a great
52:13
price point for everything that's on there. Um,
52:15
and you can cancel it immediately if you don't like it. Uh,
52:18
but a lot of, but a lot of great
52:20
stuff and we're going to be over there in
52:23
five, six, seven minutes, uh,
52:26
for an episode of the Andy Graham journey podcast.
52:28
I got to say one more thing. And that
52:30
is, uh, that I'm in recovery. I'm
52:32
not just a codependent hanging out here trying to
52:34
make codependent choices and 12 steps
52:37
are the way that I found
52:39
my way.
52:40
So
52:41
don't be,
52:43
don't shy away
52:44
from doing work on
52:47
whatever has the potential to be an addiction
52:50
that's, uh,
52:52
causes trouble for you.
52:54
Thanks for being with us. What? That was a lively
52:57
Q and a, I had a great time. Thank
52:59
you.
53:00
Thank you guys.
53:03
Thank you for listening. Here's a preview
53:05
of the next episode of the Enya Graham dream.
53:10
Say that again. I think there's
53:12
a chance that we are all struggling
53:15
to understand something
53:17
things that often
53:20
precede our questions.
53:23
Meaning
53:24
I think we're walking around struggling
53:28
and we don't even know what the questions are.
53:32
And we're not inclined to ask questions.
53:35
We're far more inclined to make statements.
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