OK. Here you are. very unhappy and overweight or fat. So why are you keeping yourself at that weigh. On paper weighing less should be the easiest thing in the world. Just don't put so much food in your mouth. But you can't stop. Don't worry. Neither can anyone else. That's why millions of people weigh too much.
YOUR WEIGHT IS NOT YOUR PROBLEM. It is only a symptom of your problem!! Your problem is that you depend on food to make you feel better or stop from feeling bad. YOUR PROBLEM IS THAT YOU ARE TRYING TO SATISFY YOUR EMOTIONAL NEEDS WITH FOOD. Food never solves a thing. It just makes you overweight or fat. Learn how to stop using food to satisfy your emotional needs. Then you can weigh whatever you want. REALLY!! And it's all free. No need to pay anyone anything.