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Two Making

1:36

Adjustments You

2:30

Okay Dracula

2:34

V for vampires Assuming

2:37

you mean count Dracula, I'll have

2:39

a novel I'd suggest subsection popular culture And

2:43

assuming he's behaving as I'd expect He is I'd

2:46

guess a DPHW of 7-4-7-5

2:53

I'd guess a DPHW of 7-4-7-5

2:58

Close 7-4-6-5 Okay

3:04

Frankenstein Assuming you mean the scientist,

3:06

not the monster I do Then

3:09

that'd be another resurrection

3:12

Possible subsections Obsession

3:16

Medical Pursuit And

3:22

Hmm Black

3:26

Hmm Blasphemy maybe

3:30

So that would make it 4-2-3-7 Um

3:36

Hmm Hmm

3:40

Now Um 5-3-3-7

3:47

Pass that here Yeah Yeah

3:52

This thing is enormous We can't possibly

3:54

be expected to just memorize all of it

4:00

they're turning pages all night. But

4:02

surely there's a system or something like what

4:05

does DPHW stand for? I

4:07

don't know if it stands for anything

4:09

it's just an arbitrary index you

4:11

just gain a sense for it after a while. But

4:14

someone came up with it meaning there was a

4:16

logic to it at some point. Sam. So if

4:18

we can just figure out what links similar cases

4:21

then we'd know what the system was based on. Sam! We

4:24

aren't here to decode the system

4:27

that's Colin's job and you've

4:29

seen what a delight it's made him. Just

4:32

try to learn your codes and process

4:34

your cases. But I'm never going to

4:36

learn all of this you've been here for

4:38

years and even you haven't managed it. And quit. No

4:41

one's making you work here. Right.

4:50

Listen Gwen I'm... Ahoy

4:54

hoy! Did you miss me? Was

4:57

it torture? Oh wait! I'm

4:59

sure the UK government found some way

5:01

to soldier on without me for three

5:05

and a half minutes. Whatever. Everything

5:08

good here? Enjoying playtime

5:10

with Auntie Gwen? Yeah

5:13

it's been fine. Cool.

5:16

We'll unpack that ominous silence later

5:19

but for now we should probably

5:21

get started. We still not

5:23

cleared your backlog. Sure. If

5:38

you're so concerned with backlog maybe being on

5:40

time would help. Hey

5:44

Gwen? Gwen?

5:48

Gwen? Time

5:52

isn't real. Shut

5:54

up. Hi

6:04

Am I coming through. Yes, but

6:06

those those video and I'd I'd

6:08

rather not censor case. That might

6:10

be something to die than two

6:13

later, but it's fine for now.

6:15

Great. I've gone

6:17

over the paperwork that Dr. Khan

6:19

sense over and there's quite a

6:21

lot to unpack. So I'm not

6:24

crazy. Of

6:26

course. I'm

6:29

not huge fan of that word the

6:31

best of times, but I am interested

6:33

in what makes you lead with that

6:35

the last guy use. The word delusions?

6:38

A Lot. That's not what. I

6:41

know what's real and I need you to

6:43

believe me. I

6:45

think I can do that. I

6:48

can try at least. And don't don't

6:50

do that and see the I don't

6:52

want your sympathy. I just want to

6:55

get this over with. Normally,

6:59

I'd caution against our attitudes.

7:02

But. I understand these are sessions

7:04

that a court ordered. So

7:06

the situation as. A little more

7:09

complicated. How

7:11

about we start with you design your

7:13

own accounts of what brought you here.

7:16

How. Does that sound of? Didn't

7:19

think we'd be going straight into it. We

7:21

don't have to see, don't want. To no, no,

7:24

no, that's that's fine. I'm. Just.

7:29

Not sure where to stop, you know? Take

7:32

your time. Since.

7:37

I've always hated the way

7:39

I looked. I'm

7:41

sure there's some deep trauma behind at the

7:44

it Sings on past, but it's a fact.

7:46

And like I can avoid thinking

7:48

about it. And a visual artists

7:50

who gets most of her work

7:52

from social media missions. That means

7:55

I'm spending four or five hours

7:57

a day on Instagram minimum on

7:59

that messes. After a while you

8:01

know like we all know it's fake

8:03

is all filters in photoshop and everyone.

8:05

Pretending that there's a real deal

8:08

stagnate. Of free, but because

8:10

you know that doesn't mean

8:12

you onions. And yeah, I

8:14

ended up in a pretty

8:16

stark place. And when

8:18

I turned thirty, I decided to do

8:21

something about stuff. But. Started

8:23

with my has grid out to make

8:25

my say slip longer that sources what

8:27

and then I took tell all my

8:29

older sister's clothes and stepped into my

8:31

savings to get myself a couple of

8:33

pairs of my own genes that didn't

8:35

make me look quite so much like

8:37

an overloaded ice cream cone and even

8:40

sold out for acute. Lbd for when I did

8:42

lose a bit of weight. Mum

8:44

said I was being of emphasis

8:46

but hangs off the now cause

8:48

I'm from most close do. Daria.

8:56

I'm sorry, sweat.

8:58

Where was I even giving yourself

9:00

some of a make over. Threats.

9:04

Yes, So. I'm stood

9:06

there in the bathrooms looking in

9:08

the mirror trying to say got

9:10

was missing and that's when I

9:12

decide I need a tattoo. I

9:14

had a couple of etti just

9:16

little things on my cinema risk

9:19

but I decided I needed something

9:21

fix something that really changed my

9:23

look so I sort of trolling

9:25

answer for tattooist. And

9:27

at first glance it looks like this

9:29

is huge about choice but more you

9:31

look the more you realize that the

9:33

most these Cycles designs and even those

9:35

who way too expensive for me. It

9:37

was actually when I was looking for

9:39

some inspiration for commission so I found

9:42

them. I was meant to be doing

9:44

a portrait for some scenario which seat

9:46

alchemists characters and it was when I

9:48

was researching the symbols and stuff that

9:50

I came across Think So it's like

9:52

think so but the Ss and of

9:54

the five you can look them up.

9:57

His I'm pretty popular these days. They

10:00

didn't have many followers back then, but

10:02

the designs were great and they offered

10:04

a massive discount if you agree to

10:06

photoshoot afterwards. I figured I'd nothing to

10:08

lose by reaching out so I got

10:10

on the site sealed in the about

10:12

me contact form and got an immediate

10:14

response and by see me into them

10:17

to just slipped and studios. I.

10:20

Actually heard the studio before I

10:22

sort of noxious dubstep was echoing

10:24

out the far end of a

10:26

cold one. When I turned the

10:28

corner I saw myself looking at

10:30

and see most influence has set

10:32

up imaginable. A huge purple neon

10:35

sign took up most of the

10:37

shop front with ink so written

10:39

in cause his sons by about

10:41

of ludicrously shoes because looking beyond

10:43

into the interior it seemed like

10:45

more the studio was dedicated to

10:48

bring like some photography given tattoos.

10:50

And sold himself. was. To

10:54

be honest, they were kind of

10:57

underwhelming. Not a lot sticks in

10:59

my mind. Acceptance: Ace for the

11:01

had an absolutely gorgeous florals substance

11:04

design running up her arm and

11:06

into the negatives so says it

11:08

is not ready to slither off

11:10

the skin and onto the tests.

11:13

They backing me over and we

11:15

chatted for a bit. It was

11:17

weird they didn't ask me about.

11:20

What design I want is? They just

11:22

kept pressing me about my nice about

11:24

why want to seeing. As

11:27

honest may be uncomfortably so, but

11:29

nothing really seem to grab them

11:31

until I told them what I

11:34

did for and the thing and

11:36

then they broke into this huge

11:38

grin and cried. The artist becomes

11:41

the canvas. A fourth of

11:43

apply the hit a button on the set

11:45

up and suddenly we were live streaming with

11:47

lox in my eyes and the on tight

11:49

around my shoulders. I don't remember much of

11:51

what they said to the as he was

11:53

but I just kept telling everyone how. Lucky

11:55

I was was they dragged me into

11:57

the chair and then suddenly they. It

12:00

back and before I knew what was

12:02

happening, I cried out in shock as

12:05

the needle hit my. Since they hadn't

12:07

discussed to design or anything, they just

12:09

started working on the inside of my

12:11

list for my drawing on. I

12:14

could feel panic start to rise

12:16

inside me. Bus home I could

12:18

do was to sit perfectly still.

12:21

I stopped being able to think

12:24

about anything at that point as

12:26

it was by far the worst

12:28

pain of my entire life. Vicious

12:30

shooting pains let up and down

12:33

my whole on from my chest,

12:35

my fingertips, every muscle snapped top

12:37

of massively and my back arched

12:39

on the test on wanted to

12:41

scream but I couldn't even breathe

12:44

as it it's not like thousands

12:46

of postings have reached my body

12:48

was mediocre jobs from see my

12:50

chest and in so. Tested

12:53

says he was completely and. I

12:57

must pasta. Because when I

12:59

opened my eyes think so was

13:02

at the other end of the

13:04

studio cleanings a bloody to. The

13:08

stream was over and I was

13:10

apparently forgotten. The

13:12

pain adult so. I

13:14

said to look down at my four. oh,

13:16

I'm expecting to see it as hazard and

13:18

bloody mess. Instead. Pristine

13:22

paint, brush design spans and the

13:24

interior of my elbow to the

13:26

as a side of my palm

13:28

slavery of colorful slow will persons

13:31

and twined with symbols I didn't

13:33

recognize this point. The pain I

13:35

twisted my on back and forth

13:37

to admire the work in those

13:40

symbols almost seems glitter in the

13:42

light. It was. It

13:45

was beautiful. Just.

13:47

As suddenly as the lights attendance they

13:50

were off and I was bundled towards

13:52

the exit. Know. Decrease know,

13:54

after cats. They said they had the

13:56

shots they needed and before I knew

13:58

it I was stood outside. As

14:01

an unsteady I considered going

14:03

back in but I'm tired

14:05

and said I just stumbled

14:08

back home my new tattoo

14:10

still completely exposed. Fuck

14:13

am I thought. I cleaned us moisturizer

14:15

and then covered it as best I

14:17

could. But. It

14:20

was already pristine. If it weren't for the

14:22

pain it, it could have been there for

14:24

weeks already. I

14:26

stood before the bathroom mirror and

14:29

looks myself over and. Also.

14:31

The first time I saw

14:34

someone interesting. Someone

14:36

I wanted to know. More about.

14:39

I went to that monitor that points

14:42

for the first time ever. I wanted

14:44

to attempt a self portrait, something real

14:46

and physical. I wanted to feel the

14:48

process in my hands and the oil

14:51

on my finger tips. On.

14:53

Works through the entire night with

14:55

a person like I hadn't felt

14:57

in years. It was sick. Slopes

14:59

of paint all over the room

15:01

with my hands, arms to say

15:03

some clothes were covered that when

15:05

I surveyed to finish what he

15:07

was spotless. Not only

15:09

that it was I saw

15:11

my best was a success

15:14

in gusto that left off

15:16

the canvas. I've.

15:18

Been calling myself and of this

15:20

for years that this was his

15:22

first time that I had celts.

15:25

It's. I

15:28

don't remember falling asleep and money didn't

15:30

wake up until last fall. in the

15:33

afternoon I was too tired and had

15:35

a pounding headache so long with my

15:37

throbbing on. but. Still

15:40

awoke with a smile because

15:42

when. I opened my eyes. My.

15:45

Own face was staring back. At

15:47

me and the first time. I.

15:49

Wasn't a seat. At

15:53

least. Not initially. As

15:57

I stared at though, I noticed that. Roster.

16:00

The Accurate it wasn't. Pass.

16:03

The i was still slightly wrong. the

16:05

angle of the smile was off and

16:07

so obviously the nose still wasn't quite

16:09

right looking. Around me I realize that

16:12

all of my tastes western out. And

16:14

to my niece has you and realized that

16:16

I would be signed to Sue. A quick

16:18

touch up. Nothing major to

16:21

see. a slight adjustments. To

16:23

the me. Despite the headaches,

16:25

my hunger and city to my painful

16:27

on I I began to take a

16:29

pilot nice to the left I just

16:31

a small tweaks. There was

16:33

a subtle change, barely noticeable, but

16:36

I knew I was making progress

16:38

because I could feel when the

16:40

nice scraped phone. When I went

16:42

into the bathroom to check. I

16:44

was pleased that the result. There

16:46

was no discoloration, no bleeding, no

16:49

damage. Told that the say somehow

16:51

My eyes was definitely more symmetrical.

16:54

It's looked so much. Better.

16:58

But not quite. Process.

17:02

I should have stopped him. I should have

17:04

taken a break. I should have called my

17:07

mom, put everything away, and going outside for.

17:10

The power within my hands. I

17:12

could finally make myself. Persists.

17:17

They. Were small tweaks of first giving

17:19

a fresh dust of pain each

17:21

time I slightly length and my

17:23

fingers and be my ears and

17:25

this more delicate straighten my nose

17:28

and three angles. My cheekbones tapered

17:30

my chin, slimmed my waist and

17:32

increase my best A narrowed my

17:34

frame, links in my legs, adjust

17:36

my cause and send my wrists

17:38

own shorten my seats. I mean

17:40

nothing much really. But.

17:43

It was when I reworked my shoulders that

17:45

I ran into a problem. As

17:48

my brush and nice made their

17:51

alterations, the tattoo on my arm

17:53

began to leak. Not

17:56

after my skin but along

17:58

my upper on spreading. and

18:01

flowing its rivers of color into the

18:03

new contours I was creating. And the

18:05

tattoo, of course, was the only thing

18:07

so far that was actually perfect. So

18:10

I had to work around it as best I could. I

18:14

worked solidly for days.

18:18

Each time I slipped the knife into my

18:20

skin and reshaped it, I got just

18:22

that little bit closer to perfection. Each

18:26

time I had to make more

18:28

and more compromises around the spreading

18:30

tattoo. It

18:33

was close, though. So

18:35

close. It was

18:37

almost there. That wholeness

18:40

you only feel when

18:42

the canvas is finally

18:44

complete. I

18:47

just couldn't bridge the gap. Each

18:51

time I would fix up one spot, only

18:53

for two others to come undone. And

18:56

the whole time the tattoo just kept

18:58

spreading and spreading and my

19:01

masterpiece just kept receding.

19:06

That was when my housemate Sarah got

19:09

back from visiting her parents. I

19:11

lost track of time and didn't

19:13

realize her trip was already over. I

19:16

had hoped that I could show off my new look to her

19:18

when it was finished, but I never got the

19:20

chance. She walked in

19:22

the door just as I was finalizing my mouth, so

19:24

I couldn't say anything. If

19:27

I could, I'm sure I could have been able

19:29

to explain and make her understand. Instead, she started

19:32

screaming. And

19:35

when I made reassuring noises and reached out to

19:37

her, she backed away. I

19:41

did manage to hold her for a moment,

19:43

but the work I'd done on

19:45

my hands the day before meant that I couldn't really grip

19:47

her. That

19:50

was when she punched me. I'm

19:53

sure she was just surprised, but

19:56

still heartbreaking. Her

19:59

Hand went right in the eye. right into my

20:01

cheeks and undies. Days of work and the way

20:03

she carried on. You would think that was her

20:05

face she left off. Anyway,

20:07

I'm sure you've read the rest in the

20:10

court reports. When the ambulance came

20:12

so told them I tried to kill myself

20:14

with some as said she found in my

20:16

art supplies. They put me on suicide watch

20:18

and Sony agree to release me when I

20:20

agree to attend counseling. I

20:23

haven't made any more, just been since then. Just

20:26

waiting for inspiration, I guess.

20:32

See. Quite

20:35

a story. Use him

20:37

for leave me. Either I didn't

20:39

say that I would however

20:41

like task you directly. Did

20:45

you try to harm. Yourself with us. it.

20:49

Of course not. And

20:51

never wanted to hurt myself. I just wanted

20:53

to be. Success.

20:58

That skipped. If I

21:00

wanted to pay the canvas reduced happened time.

21:17

Problems. Know

21:20

oh good. To

21:25

it's just over. A

21:29

How on earth do you cove listening to

21:31

all the stuff? Neither of you seem bothered

21:33

by any of it. Oh, I see you

21:35

want to know how to handle reading and

21:38

listening to all of it. Yes, the secret

21:40

of the Steel Trap mind which keeps me

21:42

stoic in the face of atrocities that would

21:44

drive. Alyssa Wilson Madness. And

21:47

sees. To

21:49

stop paying attention, Don't look at me

21:51

like thought I'm serious, I just skimmed

21:53

the case. the key words and if

21:55

is a talker. I hit play and

21:58

get on with other words. Then

22:00

when it's don't being creepy, I

22:02

process it and move on. You

22:04

never going to keep up if

22:06

you keep actually taking it all.

22:08

A sister says the wave without

22:10

being drawn in. Of

22:13

what if something comes up for you

22:15

know might be true love about Martha.

22:17

Plus we're kind of specifically paid some

22:19

not care your body washed, how to

22:21

tell. That's how.

22:26

On right, the sooner you accept

22:28

it the happy a you'll be

22:30

sure. That's.

22:44

Why we're are so upset.

22:48

Okay, With. our

23:55

have a record I

24:00

don't care! Do

24:02

you mind your care? Maybe

24:04

I do. I'm not

24:06

a big fan of the two-hearted bitches. Jot your needs

24:08

so much. I can't do

24:10

it with a jot. You've got a full

24:13

page. You can use it with

24:15

the young person who cares. It will give you a

24:17

single ounce of respect. Ah.

24:20

You're not never going to happen. Please. Still,

24:24

I do reckon you've got the wrong edge of the

24:26

stick. Lena's invited to have another

24:28

sound issue to give us all the business.

24:31

Would you say so? Alice.

24:53

Alice! Ow! What?

24:56

Oh, jib. Well,

24:59

hello. What's got you calling so late?

25:01

No, not busy.

25:04

I'm at work, so... Yeah,

25:06

what's up? Right.

25:12

How is the crowd? Sounds like

25:15

a solid gig. That's no way to talk to your big

25:17

sister. Disgraceful. So

25:20

is the tour actually on the cards this time, or... Cool.

25:24

And presumably, now there's proper interest, they're

25:26

going to ditch you for someone who can, you know,

25:28

play an instrument. And that's the way you can get

25:31

your big sister. You can get your big sister. You

25:34

can get your big sister. You

25:36

can get your big sister. You can get your

25:38

big sister. You can get your

25:41

big sister. You can get

25:43

your big sister. Aw,

25:46

you always say the sweetest things. Uh,

25:57

yeah? That should be fun.

26:00

Fine. It'll need

26:02

to be after the twenty eight. The always

26:04

stops payday. Okay,

26:08

no worries, Me:

26:14

Listen, I've probably should go and actually do

26:16

so more x It will be super

26:18

awkward if I got fired when you just

26:20

on the cost of becoming a drug addled

26:22

rock star. Yeah,

26:25

no worries, I. Thought

26:28

the lighter. Say. Hi to trusted for me.

26:32

Thousand or so. He's good. He's

26:35

still playing with I'm A Bullet

26:37

First in Sebastian, god knows that

26:39

broke up years ago. It was

26:41

a new group. Dredge him

26:43

and ah, it's a pretty decent well.

26:45

I'm glad he's doing well. As far

26:47

as brothers go, you could have done

26:50

worse. He has his moments. For

26:53

stop. The Madness

26:56

Institute. You looking

26:58

the job? zip already over. It's

27:00

nothing just a bit about gum

27:02

research research. Some. Tell

27:04

me this isn't linked to an easy

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cases. It's just something that came up

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on Mothers' Day. I've been trying to

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get it out of my head. Most

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try harder. It's fine. Honestly, I'm on

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top of my caseload and it's not

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that's been what's the problem. I

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wasn't messing with you earlier. You

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do need to compartmentalize for this

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job. Like a box. In

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your head and at the end of the

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shifty job at present in the and hit

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the incinerate books in okay you do not

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want to be thinking about this stuff outside

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of here. It's not good for you. Have

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seen people go we had before

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now and let me guess I'm

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weird enough already. I'm serious. Some.

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Alright, Thanks.

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