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This is the Memory Palace. I'm
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Nate DeMeo. This
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specimen was approximately 1.8 meters tall,
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weighing roughly 72 kilos. Hair
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was thick and brown in color at the time of
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observation, July of 1817, in a
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field of marsh grass located north northeast
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of Louisville, Kentucky. The specimen
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demonstrated keen eyesight and the capacity
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to move swiftly while maintaining a quiet,
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stealthy bearing so as best to track
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its prey.
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Its vocalizations, while infrequent in
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this environment, as again stealth was
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a vital component in its hunting strategy,
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was notable for its varied tone, pitch,
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and volume, and for its French
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accent, which was known
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to make the ladies swoon.
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So it was when the specimen, born
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Jean-Jacques Adubon on a plantation
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owned by his parents in Haiti in 1791, met Miss Lucy Bakewell
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at her parents' estate in Pennsylvania.
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He was 18, a year
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her senior, and had emigrated
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to the States the year before when
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he changed his name to the more American-sounding
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John James Audubon.
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And Lucy Bakewell had never met anyone like
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him before, with his long
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flowing hair, with the accent, and
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this fire, this thing
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in his eyes. She certainly
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hadn't seen that thing in the men in her own family,
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not
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in her stern patrician father, the
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English gentleman who preached the virtues of discipline,
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of a quiet home and quiet daughters, who
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once caught Lucy and her sisters weeping over
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the plight of doomed lovers in a romance novel,
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and then tossed it in the fire.
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This young visitor, this peculiar
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boy with the hair and the eyes and the Frenchman's
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charm, had life in him, the
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kind that is undeniable, especially
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when discovered by a 17 year old girl.
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especially when all she knows of love is what
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she had seen in her own home.
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And maybe she was only 17. But
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she was old enough to know how different that love
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looked than what she'd seen in that novel
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in the fire. Lucy
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Bakewell had been told all her life what
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sort of life she would lead as the daughter
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of a Bakewell, as the wife of some
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Bakewell-approved gentleman, as
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the mother of some acceptable number of hyphenated
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Bakewells. But
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a life with this Audubon boy, who
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knew where that would lead.
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So she fell hard. He
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did too. For his part, Audubon
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would write in letters, would have shouted to the heavens
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because he was a boy who would do things like shout
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to the heavens, that he fell
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in love with her in that first moment,
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there in the living room of her parents' home, when
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he
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knew, as he wrote, that his
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heart would follow every one of her footsteps.
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Father wasn't happy. But
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when was father ever happy? And
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Lucy and John James were married. And
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before long they were off to the wilds of Kentucky.
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And living a life of adventure, as promised
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by that thing in that boy's eyes. Lucy
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was happy to learn in those first years that
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John James was who he had seemed to be that day
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in the living room. He was impulsive
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and funny and bold, good
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in bed, we read in their letters. He
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loved dancing, he loved skating and
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music and nature and noise. And
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she loved him all the more for it. And
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perhaps more than anything she learned. He
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loved birds, would call out their
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names, would watch them in the swinging treetops
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for hours all day, would
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stalk them and hunt them and
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study the specimens he'd collect, and
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then thread thin wire through their bodies, and
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another through their tail feathers, and
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another up through their heads. They'd
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pin their bodies to a board just so, arranging
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the spread of their wings. the delicate
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lift of their beaks. And
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he would draw them.
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And the drawings, the drawings were phenomenal.
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They just were. And
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Lucy could judge. She was a bakewell,
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raised to be a lady, had gone to fine
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schools, had been to museums, had admired
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paintings and prints, poured over pictures
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in the fine volumes on the orderly shelves
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in her family's exemplary library. There
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was such life imbued
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in these dead berets. And
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they made her love him even more. And
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that love was useful to fuel their lives through
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hard times out in the frontier, in
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lonely days when John James was on his own, or
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rather out with his birds.
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The couple ran a general store in Louisville.
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It did fairly well for a while. And
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one day a Scotsman, well-heeled
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and high-collared, came in with something
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to sell instead of something to buy. His
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name was Alexander Wilson, and he was traveling
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America. Creating an ornithology,
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a comprehensive study of the new nation's birds.
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It would Mr. Audubon like to take a look at samples
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of the pictures of these birds Wilson had with
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him in a portfolio,
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and perhaps subscribed to the ornithology,
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and received copies of the work upon its completion.
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He had already sold many hundreds of dollars
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worth of subscriptions.
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Oh,
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would he?
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So here is Audubon, having
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spent the past several years of
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his life doing one very specific thing, and
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into his general store, wanders
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perhaps the only other man in North America
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who had been doing that same thing. John's
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eyes went wide. And
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then he looked at the drawings, and went
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wider still. He
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declined to subscribe.
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That night, John and Lucy must
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have tittered like plovers. But
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Wilson's work sucked,
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like completely.
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His drawings were cartoonish.
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Even if you were just turning to it as a work of scientific
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reference, the proportions were all wrong.
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The colors, the lay of the feathers, the
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shape of the claws were just wrong. In
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autobons, autobons were
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art. These weren't merely
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specimens replicated for
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study. These were creatures
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reanimated, honored.
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Moments in time not merely captured,
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but created and perfected,
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and populated with living things, bodies
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with substance, with agency,
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eyes with a keen intelligence that was their
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own, that was avian. A creature
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met on its own terms, with respect,
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with wonder. That's what Lucy had seen
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there on the page, there in
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her husband. And she loved
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her husband, and he loved her, make no
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mistake. In reading their recollections
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of this time in Kentucky, of young
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people in a young country, skinny
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dipping in the Ohio River, raising
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young children, Lucy at home playing
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her piano, John James and his element,
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out with the birds, painting and dreaming.
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You don't doubt for a moment that things were good
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for a while. But
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John James's business failed. Many
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did then. The economy was bad for everyone.
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But John James did his family no favors.
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Bad move after bad move landed Audubon
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in debtors prison, and then bankruptcy.
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And they had to sell everything. The store,
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their home, Lucy's piano.
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It was terrible. And
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their daughter, just two years old, died
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shortly thereafter. Another
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daughter died too, just
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seven months old.
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And they had nothing but their
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two sons, and their grief, and
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their love, and his
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art. And they remembered
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that day when the Scotsman came in with his birds
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that were nothing like Audubon's, nothing like
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Bird's, and remembered his book.
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and that people had bought it despite that. And
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they came up with a plan, a dream
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really. John James would set
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out to paint the birds of America, each
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one. He would hunt them and pin
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them and pose them and paint them, each
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one life sized. In
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a book unlike any the world had ever seen.
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And he would return with riches, a
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return on the investment of Lucy's devotion.
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He would do that. And if she would just
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keep faith in him. And
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of course she could. This man had
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this thing in his eyes, had
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it still. John
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James Audubon went off to paint his birds, down
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to Louisiana. He took to the woods.
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The couple wrote passionate letters back and forth
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about how Lucy and the kids missed him but were making
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do. Lucy worked as a tutor
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in exchange for room and board in a wealthy
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family's home. They had very little
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but faith in John James's work. She
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would tell him that.
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How her faith in him kept her going.
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How she'd be there for him until
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they could be together.
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Meanwhile, he was scraping by drawing chalk
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portraits of wealthy men and women. He'd
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write to Lucy of how his own faith was growing.
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How his work was improving. He
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wrote to her of his experiences out there on his
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own and artists out in the world. About
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a wealthy patroness who would invite him into her parlor
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to paint her in the nude. And weren't
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these experiences he was having just wonderful?
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Still, Lucy supported him and
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said she would wait for him and bear
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the hardships of raising two boys on her
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own with little more than a roof over their heads.
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In on and on that went for years. He
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writing to her about his adventures and his
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art. And she writing to him
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about her love. And
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of unpaid bills. And a life
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that no longer felt like the adventure promised in
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that boy's eyes years before.
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But much more lay ahead for John James.
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In his adventures.
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took him to England, to Liverpool, where
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people took one look at this man with his long
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hair, his frontiersman's clothes
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and this thing in his eyes, and were smitten
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in their way. Within weeks of arriving
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in a new nation with no contacts, no
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introductions, he was showing in
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the biggest gallery in town. He was being
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whined and dined and introduced to
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engravers and investors. Within
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months it was clear that the whole plan was going
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to pay off, that the dream was going
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to come true. He would write to
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Lucy
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about his extraordinary success. He'd
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sent copies of invitations he'd received
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to fabulous parties. He'd
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say he couldn't wait for her to join him there. And
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she'd write back of her pleasure and his success,
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and how she just needed to tie
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up a few loose ends at home, collect
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a few debts owed to her from her music students
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so she could pay her way to England.
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And he'd write back and it seemed like he didn't
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want her there at all. No
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explanation, just that now wasn't
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the right time. But
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oh, he had to tell her about
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the lords and the ladies, and
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how into him they all were. How he
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was wearing silk stockings and shaving every
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morning and looking good and she
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would wait for a letter. Wait
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for months. Just
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what did he mean now wasn't the right time. Why
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wouldn't it be the right time to be together? When
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would it be the right time if not this? And
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back and forth they went, she increasingly
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frustrated. He increasingly
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increasing in wealth and
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fame and ego. But
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also in worry.
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Worry that he had pushed Lucy too
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far, that he had stretched her
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patience too thin, had tested
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her faith one time too many.
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He instructed his engraver to leave his
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signature off one of his prints, to
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put Lucy's name there instead, as
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a sign that the art wouldn't exist without
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her, that he wouldn't be who he was
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without her.
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But he still seemed to be in no rush to be
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with her, as Lucy would point
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out in her letters back, objecting
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to his plan to take another 16 years to
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finish Birds of America, objecting
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to his condescension. For how
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must it have felt for Lucy to
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know that the world was seeing in your partner
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what you had seen in those very first moments
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in your father's parlor long ago, and
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be stuck as a border in a Louisiana
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backwater,
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parsing out meaning from missives sent
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months before?
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John James Audubon wondered the same
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thing. At 41
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years old, having sold
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thousands upon thousands of dollars in pictures
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of birds, to libraries and
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lords and ladies, and the king
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and queen of England themselves, he
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had seen his dreams realized, but
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realized he was about to lose his wife. So
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he rushed home, in so
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much as a trip across an ocean, across
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the thousand miles of wilderness, down the Ohio
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River, down the Mississippi River, through
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the Louisiana bayou, can
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be considered rushing. But
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the last bit, the last bit
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was
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rushing flat out, on a borrowed
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horse, to his wife's barroom,
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where he found her teaching piano, and
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called out her name from the doorway, and
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they fell into each other's arms, and
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vowed never to be apart again. And
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that, for the most part, turned
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out to be so. She
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traveled with him to England and back again, resuming
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the life of adventure promised those years ago,
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the life that Lucy had to put on pause, while
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John James lived his. But
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their shared adventure didn't last much longer, first
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as eyesight went. And
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he couldn't draw anymore, but worse,
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his mind went too, and his
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memory, some form of. dementia,
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Alzheimer's, people think now. That
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thing in his eyes, that fire,
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that life, was
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gone years before he died, one morning
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in New York, on his way out
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to look for birds. Lucy
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lived without him for 21 years, 21 more years. In
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those 21 years she taught, one
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of her sons lost all their money, the
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other son was in a accident, and she
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spent three years by his side until he died. She
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sold John James' paintings, she
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had to, in the plates from which
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they printed the Birds of America. The
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word people use when speaking of Lucy Bakewell
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Audubon in these last years before her death
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is destitute. And
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that word seems fair. She
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died at 87 years old, in
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a bed in the home of her brother, on
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a June day in 1874.
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Perhaps not the worst place to end a life, but
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a hard place to end a story. So
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let's take Lucy Bakewell and
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John James Audubon
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and reposition them, and
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lift their chins just so. Let's
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strip away the background, the
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bedroom in their brother's home. Let's
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choose a setting from another time, before
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the hardship, and the Alzheimer's,
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and the broken promises. And
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let's place them in a wagon, heading
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west toward the frontier, toward
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the unknown, Lucy's
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father's home receding in the distance. A
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young couple, newly married, in
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a new nation, with
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a smile on her face, and
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this thing in his eyes.
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This
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episode was originally released
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in 2015. It's produced
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by me. The show currently gets
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research systems from Eliza McGraw. It
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is a proud member of Radiotopia, a network
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of
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individually owned and operated independent
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podcasts from PRX, a not-for-profit
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public media company. I
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was hoping to have a new episode done.
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In fact, I was getting really close to
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a new episode and then I contracted
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COVID. And I don't have
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it in me this week. So
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I really like that one and you'll
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have a new episode before too long. Thanks for hanging
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in with me. I am doing fine. COVID
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is weird and I'm sure I'll
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be well fine. I'm sure I'll
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be well soon. See? COVID brand. Anyway,
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I hope you're enjoying your summer
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and new episodes are coming right down
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the pike.
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Thanks for your patience. Take
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care.
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you you
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you you
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you you
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you
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