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Welcome to the quit the quiet podcast. Quit
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the quiet is about quitting the quiet conditionings,
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holding you back. So you can develop a leadership
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lifestyle that is filled with clarity, confidence,
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and calm. I'm your host, Crystal
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Ajay. I'm Latina, a mom of
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two and a physician turned multi certified
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coach and meditation teacher. I'm
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also the CEO of the Missing Peace
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Coach, where I help women of color
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fully step into their leadership and become
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a powerful voice of influence. We
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need more leaders as women of color, and
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I want a front row seat. Let's
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get into the episode. Hello,
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hello. Welcome back to the podcast.
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Today is December 6th, 2023.
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And it's been a couple of weeks since I
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recorded an episode. I
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took an unexpected break. Um,
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There's been a few things going on in my personal
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life, but also, With
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the war in Gaza, it's taking
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a pretty heavy toll on me,
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and just today,
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I, the universe
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introduced me to the term genocide
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grief. Um, there
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was a video on Instagram that I came
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across, and once I saw that, I was
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like, oh. That's
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what I've been feeling and I really
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did not have the
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words or the language for it until
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I came across it and I'm like, Oh, this is what,
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this is what I'm experiencing. And it feels
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weird to say, but having
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that terminology has brought me some
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relief just to
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kind of communicate to myself like this
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is, this is normal. And there
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was also another video of like, I don't want to be
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a person that. Doesn't
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experience genocide grief when there
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genocide in my awareness. Like, I'm
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okay with being that person that experiences
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this kind of grief. And
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so I'm learning how to hold
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that and
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show up for my business.
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So, that's what this episode is about,
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is navigating your
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leadership in times of conflict.
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And you may not be
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a business owner, but if
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you're listening to this, you are a leader,
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whether that be in your home,
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in your community, or at your,
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um, place of employment. Or
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in your business, you are a leader and
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in times of extreme conflict,
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it's important to understand
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what personal leadership you are embodying.
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We want to navigate our personal leadership
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from a place of self empowerment
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and not self violence.
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And what do I mean by that? In
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order to truly be from a
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place of self empowerment and embody
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true personal leadership, we
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have to acknowledge and
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understand our own nervous system
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and what we can handle. Some
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stimulus, some forms
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of activism.
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When called upon can be a
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form of self violence if your nervous
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system is too sensitive for it. For
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example, for me,
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protesting is too overstimulating
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for me. I'm someone that I don't go to concerts.
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Um, I don't like
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packed clubs. There was one time
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where I met my now husband
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in a bar. We
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were supposed to meet up and there was way too many
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people and he had just
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shown up and I was like, I'm out I
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can't this I didn't tell him at the time.
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I was like, I'm just gonna leave. I'm gonna go home. But
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what was really happening was like I was too overstimulated.
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So for me, the
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call for protests is
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something I have to say no to
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because if I was to Participate
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in that, that would be a form of self violence, but
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me accepting that, me understanding
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that about myself is my form
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of personal leadership. There are other
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things that I can do that matches
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up with my nervous system, that
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I can match up my nervous system with
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my efforts to create the impact that I want.
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That's personal leadership, is to understand
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your nervous system and
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to acknowledge it and operate
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from a place of self empowerment
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and self acceptance, not from self violence,
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not from over extending ourselves
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to a point where we
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have to then do some serious
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self care and cocooning and
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it's like this, like. Huge
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waves of oscillation of this back and
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forth because we're constantly trying
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to be something that we're not. We're constantly
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trying to train our nervous system to be something
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that it's not. So
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navigating personal leadership while
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avoiding self violence
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is through acknowledging
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your nervous system. And matching
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up your efforts with your nervous system and
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know that there are different ways to ease suffering.
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There are different forms of activism.
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There's different ways to help.
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Now speaking directly about the
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war in Gaza, there are ways
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that we can make an
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impact. Calling
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our representatives, boycotting,
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amplifying voices. Donating.
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Those are ways that we can help ease
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suffering but also, alternatively,
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there are different ways to ease suffering in how we
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operate in our lives. How
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we interact with one another. How
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we accept people's differences. How we
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aim to understand different
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people. How we navigate
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conflict in our personal lives. How
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we handle our relationship with shame.
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Do we want to continue to shame others into
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action? Do
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we want to keep doing that? I
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see this plastered all
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over social media of shaming
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one another into action. To
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me, now for me
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I'm in the camp that emotions are information,
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emotions are data. Emotions
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at the essential root. They
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are neutral. They are information
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that is being communicated with us. It is an energy
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being communicated within our body. But
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to use shame as a form
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of stimulus for action,
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I'm not sure that is the
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most fruitful way
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to get someone to step
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into action. There are other way more
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useful emotions to get someone to step
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into action, and I don't think shame is
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one of them. Shame is not
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helpful for anyone's nervous system.
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It's just more poison. So
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that is one way that we can ease
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suffering by examining how we perpetuate
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shame in our lives. What
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this time has shown
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me, this past, like, six
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weeks, six, eight weeks, has shown me
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the value of giving myself space.
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Giving myself space to operate
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for my own understanding
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and desire
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to be, to let myself
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be how I need to be, to let myself
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process what I need to process. To
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not have to prove myself to other people,
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or to compare my efforts to other
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people. To not have to do anything
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other than how I want to be. To
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give my space, myself space, to
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figure that all out. And
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to process what I need to process. That,
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to me, is my personal leadership. Truly
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understanding that space
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is one of my core values. Being
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able to give myself space
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to work towards finding
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language from my experience
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and to give myself A
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witness to allow my experience
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to be witnessed by myself and to
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others, to friends, to my husband,
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to give myself the space to let
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what needs to come up instead
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of shaming myself for what I think
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or for the things I'm, I'm not
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doing, letting myself
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put language that I experience
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and give it a witness has
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been. Um, one
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of the most pivotal
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moments for me in
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2023, or maybe even in my life.
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I feel like this is foundational work,
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like yes, there's
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more obvious ways to
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be a leader, but I
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think what's really Not
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touched upon enough is personal
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leadership within ourselves. Because
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until we truly understand
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ourselves, we won't
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be able to understand another. Until
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we really learn how to listen to ourselves,
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how to listen to our body, how to listen to our
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emotions, how to listen to
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The activations, the sensations,
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the tingling, the pressure, the constriction
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in our throat. How to really listen
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to what's happening with ourselves, we will not
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be able to hear the other person. And
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that is what's causing this
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avalanche of
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atrocities in the world.
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Is we can't hear the other person.
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We can't understand them. We can't accept
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their differences. Because
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we don't know how to do that for ourselves.
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Really and truly, This
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work is so important. This
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is foundational. This
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is leadership. There
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are different ways to ease suffering in
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the world, and this is one way. That
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we can do so for ourselves, for our
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family, for our community. We
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have to remind ourselves of this.
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To focus on the things that
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we can do, that
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we can control. We can control
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our personal leadership. We
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can take ownership of that and flourish
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from that place. Versus,
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versus the way we've been conditioned
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to live, to shame ourselves into what
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we should be doing, to comparing ourselves,
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to perpetuating self violence against,
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to put ourselves in a position that our nervous
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system completely does
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not want to or can't handle. And
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then spins us into cycles of
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recovery and back and forth, and then
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it starts all over again. remind
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yourself of your personal leadership. Get
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connected with your values.
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What's important to you? What do you stand
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by? What do you wanna be proud of? What's important
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to you? What do you need to acknowledge for yourself?
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What gives you the space to
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truly honor who you are? What,
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what value gives you? The
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absolute pleasure to be
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you. You
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are your personal leadership. You
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are what the world needs. You
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are the voice that your community
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needs, but you need
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to understand who
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you are as someone who embodies their personal
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leadership. Personal
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leadership is not loud, but
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it's foundational.. Defining
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that for yourself. Stepping
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into what that is for yourself.
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That's your personal leadership. That's
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what the world needs. And
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for me, it's really understanding
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that and living
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by that I'm doing the best I can.
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Each day, I'm doing the best I can. This
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is the best I have to offer, and I stand
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by that. We can all
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learn how to do that. This is the best that
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I can do. This is who I am, this is
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what I stand for, and this is what I have to offer.
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And let that be your
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foundation. Let that
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be your foundation of how
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you live your life in this season. How
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you navigate your personal leadership in times
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of conflict. Okay,
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I would love to hear from you. Please send me a message.
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I'll leave my email in the
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show notes and I'll see you on the
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next episode. Take care.
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