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In a question, there's implied a correct
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you're fooling around to see what's
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Thanks for joining us. Our guest on this episode
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is Brian Tom O'Connor and actor,
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theater director, cabaret performer, and
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formerly depressed guy who stumbled
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onto the source of joy and happiness in the
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background of all experience. He is the
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author of the book Awareness Games.
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Playing with your Mind to Create Joy.
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And here's the interview with Brian Tom
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O'Connor. Hi, Brian, Welcome to the
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show. Eric, thanks for having me. I'm happy
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to have you on. You have a book called
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Awareness Games, Playing
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with your Mind to create Joy.
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I'm looking forward to getting into some
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of the different games that you have and and
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asking you a little bit more about why
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you think games are are a good approach.
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But let's start like we usually do with the
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parable. There's a grandfather
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who's talking with his grandson. He says, in life,
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there are two wolves inside of us that are always
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at battle. One is a good wolf,
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which represents things like kindness and
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bravery and love, and the
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other is a bad wolf, which represents
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things like greed and hatred and fear. My
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grandson stops and he thinks about it for a second.
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He looks up at his grandfather and he says, well, grandfather,
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which one wins? And the grandfather
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says, the one you feed. So
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I'd like to start off by asking you what
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that parable means to you in your life and
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in the work that you do. Yeah, I love
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that parable. I actually read it.
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I can't even remember where, but about a year
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ago I read it, and I
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remember as soon as I read it,
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I found tears welling up in my eyes.
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I found it so moving, and I wasn't
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sure why. I thought maybe it was
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because I was just moved by
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the idea of having such a wise
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and kind and clever grandfather,
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or maybe being a wise and clever and kind
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grandfather. Uh. And then
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I thought about it for a while, and
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Uh. I also realized that whenever I
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hear something with a ring of truth, I find
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that moving, and so that's part of
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it. And then you invited me to be on the
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show, and I thought about it some more in comparison
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to my book Awareness Games,
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and I realized that there's a metaphor
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in the book Uh that I
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think really applies to the parable,
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and it's uh, the metaphor of real
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reality versus virtual
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reality. And in
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virtual reality, it's not exactly
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the same, of course as putting on those virtual goggles,
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but it's kind of what we do when
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we're completely occupied
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in thoughts about
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the past and going over
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what happened in the past and worry or planning
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about the future, or having little conversations
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with other people in our minds. It's
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like putting on those virtual reality glasses
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and all of a sudden, we're not here
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now, We're not in what's actually
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happening at the present. And
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the opposite of that is something might call
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real reality, which is combination
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of a couple of things. It's just this
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that's happening here right now,
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all the things were aware of in our
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senses at this moment, and
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in addition to that, the
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actual noticing of the awareness
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that everything's appearing in And
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I find that that's where happiness
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is and that's where love is
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is in that real
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reality of noticing exactly
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just what's happening now and noticing
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the background awareness. And
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the reason is is that pure
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awareness as opposed to getting involved in the
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content of awareness is like,
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um, what's like a clear mirror that
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just reflects whatever is in front
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of it. It doesn't decide, Oh,
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I'm going to reflect this orange
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on the table, but I'm not going to reflect that banana.
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I don't like bananas. It doesn't do that. It accepts
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everything. And our awareness
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is like that already. It's not something
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we have to do, it's something we have to notice is
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happening. It's unconditionally
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accepting, and that is unconditional
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love, and that's happiness.
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So I find that the more time we spend
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in real reality, which is like the
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good wealth, the more that
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sense of acceptance and
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love kind of colors and flavors
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and perfumes the rest of our lives.
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And when we notice that
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we're in this virtual reality
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of worry and fear and
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trying to fix what's wrong, that
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that leads us astray. And when we're
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and then we're arguing with reality, and
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that's when things start to come
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up that you might associate with a bad wolf,
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like anger and fear, frustration,
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etcetera. So that was sort
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of my reaction to the parable excellent.
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So let's dive a little deeper into that because
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you talk about I mean, the goal of
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the games that you have in this book is to become
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more aware. You you start off the book by saying,
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an infinite well of happiness and joy
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lies within each of us, and people
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from all cultures have been sending reports
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from there for thousands of years. I've
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stumbled upon it within me, So
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let's see if you can find it too. I
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bet we can all experience it if we know
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where to look and where not to look. It
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doesn't appear in the outside world. It
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doesn't appear in thoughts or concepts.
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It doesn't appear in anything you can give a name
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to, which makes it kind of tough to describe
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in words. You can
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sense it by shifting your
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point of view from the content
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of awareness to awareness
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itself. So elaborate a little bit
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more on that last sentence, because I think that's really
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important. Well, Basically, what
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we normally do is
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we think about objects in our
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awareness, the content of awareness.
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So that includes all of our senses,
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our sights and sounds, things that are
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happening, our emotions
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are bodily sensations, even our
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thoughts. These are objects,
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and these are the contents
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of our awareness. And if we
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stop and sort of take
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a little half step back and ask
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what are all these things appearing in
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or appearing too? And
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then we start to notice
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the awareness itself. It's awareness
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of awareness instead of awareness
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of just the contents. And when we
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do that and we
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let the contents be as they
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are, that's a big key. Just
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let it everything be as it is. With some practice
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and with some playing around, we start
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to find this well
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of happiness starting to rise
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up, because that's where it lives, in the background
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of awareness. Tell me a little bit more
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about why games.
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So you've written a book of a series of
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awareness games. Why
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do you think that games are an
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effective way to get
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to this awareness? Because mostly what we're presented
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with and we get into this kind of stuff is
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various meditative
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practices, typically from a
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spiritual tradition of one sort or
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the other. So talk to me about games.
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It's true. In meditative traditions are
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usually given a set of very specific instructions
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that you're to follow, and often there's a
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sense of whether you're doing it right or
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whether you're doing it wrong. In addition
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to that, there's an authority there
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who decides are you doing it
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right or you're doing it wrong, and we just sort of
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naturally give authority
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away. And in games,
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it's like experimenting with something.
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It's like taking a balloon and squeezing at
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one end and seeing if it comes out the other
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where our own authority. We're playing
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with our own minds, we're testing it,
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we're squeezing it. Also, I find
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that sometimes even
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with regular meditation, sometimes it works
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for me on one day and not another,
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or maybe one hour and not another. So
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there are actually a lot of games, even though
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they're all basically the same game designed
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to draw your attention to awareness itself,
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there's a lot of variety in it. So if
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one's not working for you, now you
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try another one, and if that's not working, you try
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another one, and then maybe tomorrow you go back to
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it. There's an example about how to play.
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It's sort of like experimenting. When
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I was a little kid, and I used
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to be in bed and I would be lying
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awake, and I would say
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to myself, what if there was nothing?
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And I found that if I kept
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asking myself what if there was nothing? I
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would get this feeling all over
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my body, this kind of weird pleasurable,
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odd feeling and then it would
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go away. And so I said to myself, Gee, that's
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that's why I want to investigate that. Let's
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see if I can get that back again. So
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I would play with asking these questions
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and imagining, well, if there was nothing,
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who would be there to notice the nothing?
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And it was that kind of sense of experimenting
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and playing with your own mind that
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kind of informed the games. Yeah, I love
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the approach you're taking because you you talk
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about that in order to get
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to this awareness, often
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we kind of have to sneak up on it, and
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and that our desire to find
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it, you know, we work so hard at it. You know, I'm
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going to meditate, you know, really all the
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time, and you know, because I'm looking for
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this thing. And you talk about
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in the book about how sometimes that very
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process can get in the way. Yes,
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and it absolutely can, because a lot of times
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we're actually trying to make something
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happen or trying to avoid something
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happening, and that's actually natural. And that
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was something that I found through trial and error,
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through experimentation. Like one time
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I was watching a video and interview
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and someone said, what if you made
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no effort at all, and
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I start to think, well, what if I made no effort? And
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then I just started to laugh, because first
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of all, trying not to make an effort
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is an effort, and so that was a kind of a funny paradox.
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And then something relaxed and I
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really stopped making an effort, and
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I started to feel this sort
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of marvelous feeling where I
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was smiling so much I thought my face
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would break and that was great. And
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then a couple of days later I would say,
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well, let's see if I can recreate that, And
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it's this amazing paradox if
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what you're trying to do is recreate
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an experience that you've had before,
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or on the other hand, if you're trying to get rid
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of something you're having now, like an emotion
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you don't like, it doesn't work. You have to sort
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of allow everything to be as it is
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and just accept what's happening now,
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and then take that little step back
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to notice the pure background,
12:23
like the white space, like the the
12:25
white board instead of the instead of
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the lettering on it, or the blank page
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or the or the empty screen. It's
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tricky, and you have to play
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and you have to sort of hope that
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you might play around the well and hopes that you'll fall
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in. You also say something that I think
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is really interesting. You say, because you don't have to
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believe anything to play a game. If
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I try and teach you something, your mind
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runs it through the truth checker. Is it
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true? Is it not true? Is it a crock? With
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the game, it doesn't matter. The only thing that matters
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is what you find out for yourself while you're playing
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around. Yeah, that's so key because
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I found myself because I've certainly read
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a lot of spiritual books and talk
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to teachers and both psychological and
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spiritual and philosophical, and
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they would say these things that and my mind
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would say, no, wait, that can't be true. Wait
13:13
a minute, that's that's crazy. I mean if I
13:15
look at a tree and you say the tree
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isn't outside, it's in my head, you know, Wait a minute,
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I don't believe that. And what it did was it
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activated that little part of the
13:24
brain that's always on alert
13:27
for right or wrong or true and false, so that
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you can argue with it. And that's actually turns
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out that's not where happiness is.
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That's not actually helpful. It's
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totally great for figuring out how to get
13:38
to the airport on time, but it's totally
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not helpful in finding out where happiness
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lives inside you. So that's an interesting point
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that I think about, and I don't really know the
13:47
right way to frame the question exactly, but there
13:49
is this idea of that this aware
13:52
mind is the place to be. It's you know, it's where
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it's at, it's what's happening, it's where happiness
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is. And yet there's the other
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part of the mind that we need
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a great deal of the time to do
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a lot of the things that we do in the world.
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So what's your perspective on the balance
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there. Yeah, that's a really good question
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and a really good point. It reminds me of a famous quote
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I can't remember. It was probably einsteiner
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or I may be totally wrong, who said that the mind
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is an excellent servant but a poor master.
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You do need that part of the mind to accomplish
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tasks, and it's really great. And
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what I find is that when you take
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some time to notice
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the pure awareness that's already there
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and already happening, but we don't notice it's
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sort of been clouded over by all our thoughts
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we take a little time to do that, and
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then maybe we take another time, and you know,
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you can do it small moments,
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many times a day, or you can do it for longer
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periods. Once you do it
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often enough, you start to click
14:50
into it pretty easily, and
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then an odd thing happens. It
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actually colors when
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your mind does start to go into a day
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dream or us start to go into planning,
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there's some sort of perfume
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or some sort of feeling that's left
15:06
over that colors and resonates
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the rest of your life, so that when you are actually
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just doing things like going into a store
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and buying something from somebody, all
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of a sudden you realize that your relationship with that other
15:18
person is totally different, because there's
15:20
a kind of a friendliness and a warmth and a
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lovingness to your interactions
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that comes by surprise, even though
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in that moment you're not actually
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playing an awareness game. But it colors
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O'Connor, at the very heart
17:43
of all these games, they're all a
17:46
series of questions essentially, So
17:48
what is it about a question that
17:51
is so useful and why do
17:53
you call them awareness games
17:55
versus awareness questions? Well, that's
17:58
a good point because it's a good quesestions.
18:01
Yeah, did a good question exactly. The
18:04
question about questions is a good question.
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The difference between games and questions
18:08
is that in a question,
18:11
there's implied a correct answer, and
18:14
in games that's implied you're fooling
18:16
around to see what's there.
18:19
You're really just sort of messing
18:22
around inside your own mind
18:24
and poking it here and poking it there and seeing
18:26
what comes up. But one of the tools is questions,
18:29
like asking yourself the question
18:32
could I not be aware? Is
18:35
it actually possible to
18:37
not be aware and then just seeing
18:40
what comes up? And
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uh so it
18:45
really is a matter of giving
18:47
you the freedom
18:50
to look and play as opposed
18:52
to finding something correct. Yeah,
18:54
as I looked through the book and tried a couple
18:57
of the exercises, I really liked that sense
18:59
of playing as a game instead
19:02
of looking for something in particular.
19:04
And I think, and you say it yourself in the book,
19:06
that every one of the exercises sort of a variation
19:09
on three basic questions.
19:12
So maybe let's talk about those three questions,
19:15
and then maybe you could lead us through a
19:17
couple of the games and so that listeners
19:19
could get a little sense of what we're talking about. Okay,
19:22
sure, Yeah, So the three basic questions
19:25
that are just a series of
19:27
moving back and inside. And
19:29
so first you ask what's
19:32
in awareness? So basically
19:34
you're just noticing what's
19:37
appearing in awareness now, and that
19:39
includes everything that's
19:41
appearing to all of your sense perceptions,
19:44
sites, sounds, smells, etcetera.
19:46
That includes all the sensations that
19:48
are happening in your body, your kinness,
19:50
that extense of your body, your feeling of
19:53
your body against the chair or the floor,
19:55
the breeze on your face. It
19:58
also includes um any
20:00
emotions that may be going through right
20:02
now, or even thoughts. So
20:04
you're asking yourself, well, what's in awareness
20:07
now? And this is sort of what we
20:09
traditionally think of as mindfulness. Right, If
20:11
mindfulness done right, is that
20:14
awareness of everything that's in our
20:17
consciousness? That's right. I think it's very
20:19
related to that, and that's I think where you start.
20:21
And then you ask, well, what
20:24
is awareness? So you're
20:26
moving from the content to awareness
20:29
itself, and you're trying to look at
20:32
awareness. And one thing
20:34
that you might notice is that it's
20:37
the same awareness that a sound appears
20:40
in. Is the same awareness that a
20:42
thought appears in, or the
20:44
same awareness that an image appears
20:46
in, And so you start to
20:48
realize that even within you, it's
20:50
it's one thing. So
20:53
after progressing from what's in awareness
20:55
to what is awareness? The third
20:57
question is what is aware?
21:00
And that's very similar
21:02
to the classic self inquiry question
21:05
of who or what am I? So
21:08
you're realizing that, so what is
21:10
aware? Who or what is
21:12
it that is actually aware? And usually
21:14
you might say well I am well what
21:16
what am I? And that's
21:18
when you can start saying, well, I'm
21:20
aware of the body, is that what
21:23
awareness is, or is awareness separate
21:25
from it, And so it's
21:27
a little shift in identity
21:29
from the objects, including
21:32
your body, including your thoughts, including
21:34
your perceptions and sensations,
21:36
into the pure
21:38
background, or some have called
21:40
it the ground of being, or pure
21:42
subjectivity or just being.
21:45
This this sounds very simple,
21:48
this idea of switching from
21:50
the contents of consciousness
21:52
to what is consciousness. However,
21:55
for anybody who has tried it, it's a relatively
21:57
challenging endeavor. Sometimes it works,
22:00
sometimes it doesn't. And I think that's kind of
22:02
what you're driving at with a variety
22:04
of games, is that you can approach it
22:06
from a lot of different ways, a lot of different things, and
22:08
maybe some of them will trigger something.
22:10
In My experience certainly is that
22:14
the same question doesn't get me to the same
22:16
place. The very first time we had lock Kelly on
22:18
the show, Um whose work sounds very
22:20
similar to yours in a lot of ways, and
22:22
lock Kelly has this question of you
22:24
know, what would be here right now if
22:27
you had no problem at all? And for
22:29
me that was the first time he said that was a
22:31
really profound moment. But it doesn't
22:33
work, you know, I can't get
22:35
back to that same place by asking myself
22:38
that same question again, which is why
22:40
again, I like the idea of the
22:42
games. So let's let's
22:44
maybe walk through a couple of them, and
22:46
maybe you can tell us, you know how
22:49
what a couple of them are and how you do with them.
22:52
One of the games is pretty simple.
22:54
It's there's actually a pair of games
22:57
called future fishing and
22:59
pass catching. And this is just to help give
23:02
you an idea of thoughts
23:04
about the past and the future that are going
23:06
through your head. And it's just helping you by
23:09
giving a little bit of a visual image
23:11
to it. And so in future
23:13
fishing, basically you're
23:16
just letting your mind wander. You're
23:18
gonna let it go where it will, and
23:20
it will. It'll just wander. And
23:23
then you think of your mind as a stream that
23:25
passes in front of you. So
23:27
you imagine you're fishing in the stream,
23:29
but instead of fish, what you're fishing for
23:32
our thoughts about the future. So
23:34
I thought about the future comes you just catch
23:37
it on your reel. You're reel
23:39
it in, you pull it out of the stream. Maybe
23:42
you put it in a little box or a basket
23:44
beside you on the shore, and then the
23:46
game is just to see if you
23:48
can allow whatever flows through
23:50
the stream. And whenever you see a thought about the
23:52
future, you just catch it. You pull it
23:54
out, put it in the box, and
23:57
see if it's possible to clear the stream
23:59
of thoughts about the future. It may be
24:01
possible, it may not be, but it it
24:04
really helps highlight that there
24:06
is another option other than just thinking
24:08
about the future. And my experience
24:11
with what happens is I do some of these things.
24:13
It's similar to what happens in meditation, which
24:15
is I start doing that and then the next
24:17
thing, I know, you know, who knows where my brain
24:19
has gone. Um, and so I come back
24:22
to the game, so to speak. The visualization.
24:24
So it sounds like you're kind of talking about visualizing
24:27
something in this case, yes, in this case,
24:29
so you're using a visualization to kind of help
24:31
you along to focus
24:34
on the thoughts about the future.
24:36
And so in the way that you see it, am I
24:38
actually like spending a fair amount
24:40
of time really trying to see the river and
24:43
the fish and and all that. I'm just kind of
24:45
curious how you do some of these things. I know there's
24:47
probably not a right answer, So well,
24:50
it does depend on each individual person.
24:52
The way I do it, though, it's pretty simple. I don't really
24:55
work too hard at it. I
24:57
try and sounds like I
25:00
think, I like Chris couldn't
25:03
resist. I haven't gotten a good Chris
25:05
joking lately, so I'm glad I could
25:08
afford one here. Yeah.
25:10
I try to use the least effort
25:12
possible. So if I can imagine myself
25:14
sitting on a stream,
25:16
or imagine my mind is the stream,
25:19
and if I thought about the future comes
25:21
like I have an appointment tomorrow, but it's
25:24
going to be too close to another appointment. What am I going
25:26
to do about it? You just snag it. You
25:28
just imagine that thought biting on
25:30
your hook and you reel it in, you put
25:33
it away, and then you just let the stream wander
25:35
again and you play. And
25:37
the thing is, it's not something
25:39
that you do necessarily for
25:42
a long time, because a lot of times
25:44
I'll sit down in one session and I'll play a bunch
25:46
of different games. I'll try one, say oh,
25:49
that's not really quite doing it for me today.
25:51
Let's just let's let's try another one. And
25:53
you play around and then you see one and it
25:55
sort of catches you and you say, oh, that's
25:57
really good, Like slippery Mind
26:00
is another one that one seems to
26:02
be really fun and good for
26:04
for extended amount of times. When
26:07
I was a kid, I grew up in New Rochelle in Westchester,
26:09
and there was this amusement park called
26:11
Rye Playland, and
26:13
it had this fabulous funhouse with a
26:16
hall of mirrors. And this was this great old
26:18
Art deco amusement park,
26:20
and it had this little thing and it was
26:22
a disc. It was a very
26:24
smooth, polished metal disc, and
26:26
all the kids would sit on the disc and
26:28
then it would start spinning, and the idea
26:31
was to try and stay on the disc, but
26:33
the centrifugal force would just push
26:36
you off and you would just slide
26:38
right off the disk. And some kids
26:40
were successful in staying on the disc.
26:42
But we all suspected that there were a little
26:45
screws located
26:47
here and there, and I think that some guy
26:49
controlling it could put a little tiny
26:52
jolt of electricity through it and shock you
26:54
and make you shift your position so that the friction
26:56
of your clothes released you and you
26:58
went sliding right off. So
27:00
when I was thinking about that, I thought, oh, that would be so much
27:02
fun to make a game out of that and awareness
27:05
game. So in Slippery Mind, you just
27:07
imagine your mind is a very
27:09
slippery, smooth surface, no
27:12
walls, no fences, and
27:14
nothing to hold onto its circular
27:16
surface. And you imagine
27:19
your minds that way, and when a thought comes
27:21
in, it can't say it's it can't
27:23
stay it's too slippery. It just slides
27:26
out the other side. And
27:28
so sometimes the thought will come in, it'll
27:31
circle for a little while. And
27:33
so if you notice this thought circling
27:35
and you can you can do something like you can
27:38
tilt the disc a little one make it
27:40
slide off, or you can send it a little
27:43
jolt of electricity or nudget to slide
27:45
off. And this is something that I
27:48
don't know. I find I can sit and play this
27:50
for quite a while. And what
27:53
happens is you don't get engaged
27:55
in the thoughts. They don't take over.
27:57
They don't say, hey, let's get
28:00
involved in me as a thought, and
28:02
let's think about it, and let's ruminate
28:04
over it and examine it. It It just there, it is,
28:07
okay, let's just send it out the other side. So
28:11
it's just kind of a fun way of doing that. Do
28:38
you do these games in addition to
28:40
a formal sitting meditation practice,
28:43
or in place of or I
28:46
think that it can be either. It can
28:48
be complimentary to a formal sitting
28:51
meditation practice. I often sit
28:53
in meditation. I like guided
28:55
meditations. I think they're great. I think lock
28:57
Kelly has some great ones. Rupert's
29:00
Spira is a wonderful guided
29:02
meditation guy. I do listen to those.
29:05
But I found out early on
29:07
that I wasn't the type of guy
29:09
who had this impeccable discipline
29:12
to say, Okay, at eight thirty, I'm going to
29:14
sit and do this meditation for half an hour.
29:17
And and I knew that wouldn't
29:19
happen. I mean, I try it, it might
29:21
work for a week or two, and it would go away.
29:24
And I just despaired. I thought, well, you
29:26
know, this is the way I am.
29:29
I don't think I can change this. And then of
29:31
a sudden I realized, well, I don't have to change
29:33
it, because I was determined to find
29:36
a way out of depression and
29:38
to find where happiness is. And and then
29:40
I said, well, wait a minute, maybe I don't
29:43
have to do that. Maybe I can just
29:45
play myself on my own terms, at
29:47
my own time, whenever it occurs to me
29:49
whenever I feel like it, And
29:52
so I think that there's a little freedom
29:54
that you get when you think about it as games
29:56
that you can play whenever you want to. But
29:59
I know lot of people who have meditation practices
30:02
who love the book and who play the games in addition
30:04
as well. How many different games
30:06
are there in the book? You know, I can't remember
30:08
it, probably about seventy. I'm
30:11
always bad with numbers.
30:13
Four. No, I know it's
30:15
it's more than four. There's
30:18
more than four and less than it's
30:20
a good range. Well. Another thing about
30:23
games is that you know, my background
30:25
is in theater, and my
30:28
mom was an actress and a
30:31
teacher, and she specialized in
30:33
teaching theater to kids,
30:35
and she taught us something
30:37
called theater games. And they
30:39
were invented by a woman from Chicago named
30:41
Violens Bowen, who was very
30:44
instrumental in starting the Second
30:46
City Theater group in Chicago and Improvisational
30:49
Theater. And these were these were games that
30:51
you did in rehearsal for
30:53
plays, and that
30:56
also influenced the
30:59
idea of awareness games,
31:01
of using a playful
31:03
way of arriving at something as opposed
31:05
to an effortful, hard
31:08
working way of arriving at something. I
31:10
love the approach of it as a way
31:12
to augment or, you know, in some
31:14
cases, in place of a
31:16
meditation technique, because I really do think
31:19
there is a lot to be said for
31:21
the over seriousness sometimes
31:24
of some of this stuff, and anything that
31:26
can help with a lighter hearted approach
31:28
I think is almost always
31:30
good medicine. Yeah, I think so too.
31:32
But also I know that my personality
31:34
is such that I respond better
31:37
to lighthearted things, whereas other people
31:39
may may respond better to very
31:41
serious things, and then another book might
31:43
work for them, Yep, exactly. So one
31:45
of the things that I have found when I am dealing
31:48
with this idea of trying not to be
31:50
so focused on the contents of my thoughts
31:53
is that once I'm emotionally
31:56
stirred up to a certain extent, that
31:58
seems near impossible. And
32:00
so I was just kind of curious, what are your thoughts
32:02
on that, and what is the role of emotion
32:05
in this, because one of the questions I'm always exploring
32:08
on this show is trying to strike the balance
32:10
between what I would call sort of a spiritual
32:12
bypass where you just you get rid of
32:14
emotions anyway you can you let them slide
32:16
right out of the slippery mind versus actually
32:19
being more present to them. So I'm just interested in your
32:21
thoughts on that topic in general. I agree,
32:23
and that was one of my thoughts about the good
32:26
and the bad wolf, like do you starve
32:28
the bad wolf? And and you really
32:30
can't, because if these emotions
32:32
come and you just sort of stifle them,
32:35
they're gonna, they're gonna, they're
32:37
gonna form a little eddie inside you and they're
32:39
never gonna leave. But when you are loose
32:42
enough and relaxed enough and non resistant
32:44
enough that when an emotion comes you can let
32:47
it come, it actually flows
32:50
through you to the other side. And this
32:52
is gonna happen when you do any kind
32:54
of approach like this, even
32:56
as playful a one as this, emotions
32:59
are gonna come up. At one of the games
33:01
that I have called include Include Include
33:03
addresses that when you have really tough emotions,
33:06
and what you really need to do is
33:09
you notice the emotion, and
33:11
you notice the awareness
33:14
that it's appearing in and you don't try
33:16
to change the emotion. You allow to be there,
33:19
but you include everything
33:21
else. You include the sounds,
33:24
You include the feeling of your body. You include
33:26
more and more and more, and you just include,
33:28
include, include everything that's in awareness.
33:31
And what happens is that that emotion
33:34
becomes instead of something that
33:37
overtakes you and becomes you and
33:39
becomes everything. It's just really
33:41
one small corner of what's in awareness
33:44
right now. I love that idea. You're broadening
33:46
your awareness and trying
33:49
to be less myopic. Well,
33:51
Brian, thank you so much for taking the time
33:53
to come on the show. I enjoyed the book. I'm
33:55
looking forward to trying more of
33:58
the different exercises as I go on. I'm glad
34:00
to have more than one or two at
34:02
my disposal to to kind of play around
34:04
with. I'm happy to have the book. Great.
34:07
Well, it's a pleasure to talk to you. Eric. Excellent.
34:09
Well, take care. Thank you very much.
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