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When we put the achievement as the absolute
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pinnacle of who we are,
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and that's our happiness and our self worth,
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that's when we completely lose perspective. Welcome
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to the one you feed Throughout
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time, great thinkers have recognized the
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importance of the thoughts we have. Quotes
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like garbage in, garbage out, or
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you are what you think ring true,
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and yet for many of us, our thoughts
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don't strengthen or empower us. We
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tend toward negativity, self pity,
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jealousy, or fear. We see
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what we don't have instead of what we do.
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We think things that hold us back and dampen
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our spirit. But it's not just about
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thinking our actions matter. It
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takes conscious, consistent, and creative
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effort to make a life worth living. This
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podcast is about how other people keep
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themselves moving in the right direction, how
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they feed their good will. Thanks
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for joining us. Our guest on this episode
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is Claire Booth and entrepreneur, author,
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and speaker. She's the founder and
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CEO of market research firm
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Lux Insights, with two decades
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of experience serving some of the world's most
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recognized brands. Her book is
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The Achiever Fever Cure, How I
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learned to stop striving myself crazy.
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Hi Claire, Welcome to the show. Hi Eric,
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thanks for having me. I'm excited to have you
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on. Your book is called The Achiever Fever
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Cure, How I learned to stop striving
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myself crazy. And we will get into
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all the details of that shortly, but
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let's start like we always do, with the parable.
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There is a grandmother who's talking
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to her grandson and she says, in life,
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there are two wolves inside of us that are
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always at bad at all. One is a
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good wolf, which represents things like kindness
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and bravery and love, and the other
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is a bad wolf, which represents things
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like greed and hatred and fear. And
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the grandson stops and he thinks about
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it for a second, and he looks up at his grandmother
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says, well, grandmother, which one wins?
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And the grandmother says, the one you feed.
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So I'd like to start off by asking you
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what that parable means to you in your
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life and in the work that you do. So
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the first time I heard that parable was
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the first time I heard your show, and
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I was listening to it while I was hiking, because
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I often listened to podcasts while I hike, and
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I remember hearing that parable and hearing the last
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line, and it literally stopped me
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in my tracks, because
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only a couple of weeks previous
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had I started to become aware
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of this voice in my head, this
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really loud, negative, incessantly
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nagging voice in my head. And
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so when I heard the parable, that
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was my realization that it's
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not just me. There's other people that suffer
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from this and well, and in fact, here's a whole show
3:05
about it, here's a whole podcast about it,
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and so as as you know, this podcast
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has been a huge part of my personal
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self transformation. So once
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I became aware of this bad
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wolf, the first thing I wanted to do was
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just starve it out. I wanted to I wanted
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to just watch it die. But
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I soon realized it doesn't work that way.
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Having a good wolf necessarily
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means that we're going to have a bad wolf.
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You can't have one without the other. The concept
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of good needs the concept of bad um
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And so what I had to do
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was learn how to love my
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bad wolf, which was surprisingly
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easy because I started to realize
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how much that bad wolf and those
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feelings of fear and self doubt
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and worry had brought me
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success to that point in
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my life, And it was only when I
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learned to start loving and finding the gratitude
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for my bad wolf that I was able to
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start developing a relationship with my good
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wolf. The bad wolf had been
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so dominant up until that point
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that I didn't really have a relationship with my good
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wolf. So now my relationship
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with my good wolf basically means
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keeping my inner house clean. So,
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for example, when the bad wolf
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gets fed and it as
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it will, I just watch the
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feeding, so I try
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to step back. I don't try to resist
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it, I don't try to stop it, I don't necessarily
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try to talk myself out of it. I just become
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aware that, oh, this is happening right
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now. And as I watch,
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I become more aware of the words, more
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aware of the thoughts. That
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brings me into presence. And
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once I'm in presence, those feelings
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of gratitude and love, that kind
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of higher elevated states starts to emerge
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from that. Just to take the analogy
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a little further, I get regular
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reminders that I have overfed
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my bad wolf for so long, because
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sometimes he just kind of barfs up his food,
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Like when I least expect it just barfs
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it up. I don't think we've had that
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analogy before. So
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if I try ignore, you know, that
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kind of pile of puke, right and pretend
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it doesn't exist, then it really starts
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to smell awful, and I get myself into this
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emotional turmoil. UM. And
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so now what I do is again try to bring
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myself into presence and UM,
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give that bad wolf a bit of a compassionate
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pat on the head and say, oh, yeah, there
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you are and uh, and
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either get present or inquire into what
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prompted, for lack of the better word, puke
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in the first place. That's great. That is a new
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analogy. I'll give you that, and it's a
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good one. So let's go back a
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little ways to what got
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you to the point that you wrote a book
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called The achiever Fever Cure.
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Um. It's one I certainly relate with.
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The achievement has been something that I have
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seen as both the good and the bad
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wolf in my own life, and so
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so I'm very interested in, um,
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how you did that. But let's set the stage
6:05
about what brought you to the point that
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you sort of embarked on this new journey
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of even trying to not
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be an achiever all the time. Right,
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So, being an achiever has
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been my identity for as long as I can possibly
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remember, and as a result,
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it's brought me all sorts of success in
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my business and athletics and
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and um so I never really thought to question
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it. What I didn't do
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was make the tie between being an achiever
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and these feelings of anxiety
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and depression and
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for me insomnia, um
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and and you experienced that
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enough that finally I started to see
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the pattern. And it
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got to the point where I was about five years
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into running my business, and
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you know, everything was going the way
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I wanted it to go. We were profitable,
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we were growing twenty percent a year. I was adding great
6:59
new employees. We were at in clients each
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year. You know, everything in my my life
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seemed good. But
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I was miserable because
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all of this was accompanied by this
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anxiety and beating myself up, and this
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constant worry and this needing to prove.
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And uh so, five years in,
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I had experienced this patterns so many times
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that I thought I'm gonna be at risk of
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being a liability to my own company
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if I don't do something. My employees need
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a confident, you know, a
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confident, strong leader. They don't need somebody
7:35
that's constantly beating themselves up. And
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so there came a point where I just had
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to hold up my hand and
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and say enough, I cannot live my
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life like this anymore. I I can't go days
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without sleep. There's got to
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be a better way, right And your business
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is market research. That's
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kind of what you do. And one of
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the things you did is part of this book, is you
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did some market research quote unquote
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on other high achievers, and
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I did. And one of the things that you
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found was that this anxiety,
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depression, insomnia was certainly
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not limited to you. A matter of fact,
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it was relatively prevalent in
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a lot of achievers. It
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was prevalent. Yeah. Um, So I
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did a survey of hundreds of other self reported
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achievers, and one of the questions
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I asked was, when was the last time you experienced
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insomnia? Are really bad sleep?
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And over a third of the of
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the achievers that I spoke to or that
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that did the survey, over a third said
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they had experienced insomnia that week
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alone. And then depression,
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you know, fift within the past six months,
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and anxiety within the
8:45
past couple of weeks, it was high.
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Yeah, yeah, And it's one of those things that
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I've noticed throughout my career
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that achievers don't want
8:54
to talk about. Right, you wrestle with us
8:57
if you're leading a company, Right, you
8:59
don't want to reject anxiety
9:01
about how the companies do into your employees.
9:04
You know, there's been more writing in the last few
9:06
years about the incidents of depression
9:08
among entrepreneurs how high it really
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is, because I think that part
9:13
of what achievers get
9:15
into they are seen as achievers,
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and often that's the image they feel
9:20
like they need to project, so they don't
9:22
acknowledge it to themselves, let alone
9:25
anyone else. Right, we don't
9:28
acknowledge it within ourselves
9:30
because it's so important to us for
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everyone to see us as strong and
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powerful and and on top of things
9:36
and in control of things. Um
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but the stats and my own experience show
9:41
that that's not the case at all, So we almost
9:43
double down on on trying
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to prove ourselves.
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Of my achievers say, they are trying to always
9:50
prove that they are the strong, confident,
9:53
powerful being, And
9:56
the ability to make oneself vulnerable
9:58
gets further and further us down and we know,
10:01
based on Burnet Brown and and uh
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speakers and writers like that, how much
10:06
strength there is in vulnerability.
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And this is starting to make its way into business
10:10
circles now, but it's still I mean,
10:12
it's still pretty quiet in terms of people
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actually doing it right. Absolutely,
10:17
I think it is still a thing there. So let's
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talk about achiever fever. What
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is it? Because, um,
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you didn't walk off and give up your business.
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You wrote a book, I mean, so you continued
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to achieve. What's the
10:31
difference between achieving and
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achiever fever. It's a good question.
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So achiever fever is the dark
10:39
side of achieving. There's nothing
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wrong with achieving. There's nothing wrong
10:43
with having goals and working hard
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and wanting to do your best. There's nothing wrong at all
10:48
with that. Achiever fever
10:50
is the dark side of achieving. It's when we tie
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our our happiness,
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our sense of self worth to
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our achievements and get
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away from seeing an achievement as
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just another point in time.
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So when we we put the achievement as
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the abstule, absolute pinnacle
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of who we are and
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thus our happiness and our self worth, that's
11:15
when we completely lose perspective and
11:17
we enter into this delusion, the
11:20
spell of if I'm not working
11:22
towards my achievement, then
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there's something very very wrong with me,
11:27
And it means I'm lazy. It means
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I'm weak, it means i'm ordinary
11:32
average, you know, it means I'm
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it means I'm dying or going
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backwards. And it's a real kind of polarity
11:40
in our thinking. So I
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continue to achieve in different aspects
11:45
of my life, but I don't have the fever
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now like I used to. Yeah, there's so many things
11:50
I think in what you said there.
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I think there's the tying of
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our self worth to what we achieve.
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You know, this very fundamental am
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what I do. Right.
12:03
There's also the
12:05
idea of I'll be happy when
12:09
when I achieve this, then I'll be happy. Everything
12:11
up till then is just me getting
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to that point. And what most of us
12:16
know, if we've had enough years
12:18
on this earth, is that we get
12:20
there and we're not really any happier.
12:22
Maybe we are for a day, a week,
12:25
depends, you know, three hours, and
12:28
then we just set the next goal. We
12:30
just how we get Now it's the next thing, and off
12:32
we go. It's this perpetual
12:35
I'll be happy when kind of thing.
12:37
And then the other thing that you sort of set
12:39
in there and you allude to in the book that uh,
12:41
you know, I'll just I'll bring up is
12:44
that we can do this with anything
12:47
if we tend to be achievers. It
12:49
doesn't tend to only be Oh, I'm
12:51
achiever at work. But at
12:53
least for me, it's always been, well, yes, I'm
12:55
achiever here, and then if I'm going to start
12:58
playing tennis, I have to be really
13:00
good at tennis. And you
13:03
know, if I'm going to meditate, I've really got
13:05
to be good at meditating. And it's
13:07
just everything gets swept up.
13:09
Right when I'm at my uh
13:12
let's say, less evolved mindset, it
13:14
sucks everything in for me. Well, what tends
13:16
to happen I find, at least in my experience
13:18
and the people that I talked to, is that
13:21
we tend to gravitate two things that
13:23
we are good at so that we can achieve
13:25
in them. Because you're right, it's not just work,
13:27
it's not just sports. It's anything else
13:30
that I put my mind to. I want to, you
13:32
know, I need to achieve at
13:34
it. So so much of what was interesting
13:37
to me previous, but I
13:39
didn't think I'd be very good at you
13:41
know, I let it fall by the wayside
13:43
um and just getting back to what you were talking about
13:45
earlier, this need to to to set the next
13:48
goal, because you're right that the elation
13:50
that comes from achievement can last anywhere
13:52
from ten seconds to thirty seconds.
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Throw a bottle of wine in there. It can last in the evening,
13:57
but the next day. It's not just setting the next
13:59
goal. Goal. The goal has got to be a
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little bit bigger, a little bit faster, a
14:04
little bit better, because now we're trying
14:06
to prove ourselves at the next level,
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and it it brings us into the cycle
14:11
of craving, right like we crave these
14:13
achievements because we're convinced that that's what's going to
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make us happy. And you know that when
14:17
we get into that craving mindset, we'll
14:20
never be happy. You know. It's it's we
14:22
will never get to where we think
14:25
we can be, and it's such a
14:27
limiting mindset. So when you embarked
14:30
on this journey, you engaged a guy
14:32
who is a climbing coach of yours to kind
14:34
of help you through this journey, and you had a line in there
14:36
I can't resist reading, which is this
14:38
is your husband would think I hired the dreaded
14:41
life coach, code for you can't
14:43
get your ship together, so pay a bunch of money
14:45
to someone else who can't get their shipped together,
14:48
which I thought was really funny, And
14:51
I guess in a way, I'm a life coach. So I read
14:53
it and laughed because I certain I've
14:55
always disliked that word because I think it has
14:57
that connotation. But you now use coach
15:00
is for a lot of your leaders in your business.
15:02
I do. Every leader in my business now
15:04
has their own personal coach. And
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I know um that those conversations
15:10
that happened between senior staff and coaches
15:12
are probably just as much personal as they are business.
15:15
In fact, they're probably more personal than they are business.
15:18
And back when I was really suffering
15:20
with achiever fever, the idea of having
15:23
a coach, the idea of having someone
15:25
to help me hold my hand, was
15:27
something I resisted so strongly because
15:30
I thought, how do I need somebody to show me how
15:32
to live my life? Like, surely
15:34
I'm better than that. And
15:36
and now I see the absolute
15:39
importance of a coach, you
15:41
know, any professional um
15:43
for that matter, because we limit
15:46
ourselves and the questions that we ask ourselves,
15:48
the stories that we're in, and if we don't
15:50
have a coach, you know, to question us
15:53
of poke holes into our stories or show us
15:55
that we're believing our own stories, you
15:57
know, we we hold ourselves back. So yeah,
16:00
on the coaching. So
16:25
let's talk about some of what you
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started to do to deal
16:30
with your achiever fever. And I
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feel like one of the first things was
16:35
you recognized the
16:37
inner critic or you also called it
16:40
the judge. The judge. Yeah,
16:42
And that was one of the first things that my coach
16:44
helped me to do, was to become aware
16:47
of this voice that I just accepted on autopilot
16:49
for so long. I thought of the voice the same
16:51
way I thought of any appendage on my body.
16:54
It was just it was just part
16:56
of me. In fact, it was me. The voice
16:58
was me. I could not imagine
17:00
ever uncoupling those things. And
17:03
um, So, once my coach had drawn
17:05
my attention to how loud
17:08
and dominant this voice was, um,
17:11
the first thing that I do that I did
17:13
was name it. And for me,
17:16
the judge was it just kind of fell
17:18
out of my mouth. I didn't even have to think too hard about it.
17:20
And then the next thing I did was actually
17:23
find an image that described it. And
17:25
for me, it was just like this gnarled,
17:27
blackened tree stump. This, you
17:30
know, something that had been in a forest fire or something was just
17:32
bleak and dead. And once I
17:34
had a name and an image, I was
17:36
able to move that inner voice from the back
17:38
of my head right between my eyes where
17:41
I couldn't not see it, and
17:43
my awareness of it grew and grew and
17:45
grew until I learned how to start
17:47
disrupting it and questioning
17:49
it. And that was the game changer for me, was
17:51
realizing that that inner voice lied
17:54
to me, not through any fault of its own.
17:57
You know, it's it's it's evolved to keep
17:59
us safe and to protect us
18:02
um. And so it fills us
18:05
with fear and worry and self
18:07
doubt um, And so
18:09
I would just believe whatever that inner critic told
18:11
me to do on autopilot. And learning that it lied
18:15
with the game changer for me, and learning how to question
18:17
it a couple of different things there.
18:19
That leads me into a concept
18:21
you discussed in the book that I'm always so interested
18:24
in, which is what is this voice
18:26
that is talking to us all the time, because
18:29
most of us, if we stop, we noticed like it's
18:31
just going on on and on. I was on a
18:33
silent retreat recently and I just, you know,
18:36
nothing to do, but here the here the damn
18:38
thing, right, and I, you know, I walk away
18:40
just always sort of astounded, like if
18:42
I had a friend who talked
18:44
to me not only that negatively, but
18:47
just that boringly and repetitively
18:50
and and namely, I'd
18:52
be like I would I wouldn't like
18:55
four hours later, I would be like, I am never
18:57
hanging out with that person again.
19:00
But that's what we have going on
19:03
in our head. So let's talk about what
19:05
that thing is. You name
19:07
it the left brain interpreter.
19:10
Tell us a little bit more about
19:12
what is this narrative that's happening,
19:15
right. So that's that's not my name.
19:17
That's a name that comes from cognitive psychology,
19:20
the left brain interpreter, And it's the name
19:22
for that inner narrator
19:24
that, as you said, just goes on repeat. And
19:26
I love the way that you explain it, like it's so boring
19:30
and it says the same thing over and you're like, shut
19:32
up already. But it's called the left
19:35
brain interpreter, and it evolved,
19:38
um, you know, over the hundreds
19:40
of thousands of millennia of years to keep
19:43
us safe, and it's it is constantly
19:45
looking for threats. And
19:48
we live in a world where there's not really
19:51
a lot of threats anymore, Like, yeah, there's
19:53
some environmental wackiness going on, and maybe
19:55
some political wackiness going on, but in
19:57
terms of real threats, there's not much
19:59
out there are, so our left brand
20:01
interpreter tends to make them up. And
20:04
if it can't identify any obvious
20:07
threats, it will find those threats within
20:09
ourselves or or with other people.
20:11
So we start to look at other people as
20:13
as threats and if we can't find another people
20:16
will find it in ourselves. There's science
20:19
that explain how the left brand interpreter
20:21
works, and a science experiment
20:24
um that actually proves
20:27
that this left brain interpreter will
20:29
tell us lies because it
20:31
just bases itself
20:33
off the thoughts that we have, and when we
20:35
say things like oh, I'm you know, I'm
20:37
so depressed today everything is just kind of crappy,
20:40
it just will um narrate
20:43
our lives back to us with that same
20:45
theme. So we're stuck in that vicious
20:47
circle. Yeah, it's amazing because the studies
20:50
that you're referring to, among many other are
20:53
the famous split brain experiments,
20:55
right. And what it sort of shows
20:58
is that you know the science more more
21:00
and and a lot of spiritual traditions
21:02
tend to say that, you know what, there's
21:04
not this one self in there. There's actually
21:07
there's a lot of things going on in our brain
21:10
consciously, subconsciously, you
21:12
know. It's almost to think of it as a bunch of
21:14
different processes, right, And one
21:16
of those processes is this left brain
21:18
narrator who tries
21:21
to explain everything. That's
21:23
its primary job. I've also heard it referred to
21:25
as the press secretary. Right. It's trying
21:27
to explain everything. And what some
21:29
of these split brain studies show, and people
21:31
who have had their brain essentially
21:34
split in half to stop them from having seizures,
21:37
is that one half of the brain will decide to do
21:39
something. The other half of the brain,
21:42
that is, the left brain interpreter, has
21:44
no idea why that side of the brain decided
21:46
to do it, but it just immediately
21:49
makes up some crazy reason
21:52
that it is completely
21:54
unaware of. Right. And so
21:56
it's such an interesting thing to me that
21:59
that brain is just going along
22:01
trying to explain lots of stuff
22:03
that it simply can't explain. It
22:05
doesn't know, but it has to make a
22:08
coherent story out of it. It has
22:10
to like, for example, um, I
22:12
remember going into
22:14
my hotel room and I
22:16
told my team, look, don't call me, don't don't
22:19
text me. I want to have this private weekend
22:21
with my partner and uh,
22:23
you know, just let me know if there's an absolute
22:26
emergency. And that I remember getting into my hotel room
22:28
and looking across the room and seeing the
22:30
red light on the hotel room phone
22:33
lit up, and my
22:35
first thought was like, oh shit, something's
22:38
happened. You know, there's a cash flow thing,
22:40
like a client has freaked out, something
22:43
really bad has happened. And
22:45
my whole body was consumed with
22:48
that thought. Right it was, It was totally
22:50
true. In that moment, my stomach
22:52
sees, my hands clenched, my jaw
22:55
clenched, and I walked
22:57
over to the desk, feeling that's
23:00
rests you know, grow and grow and heighten
23:02
and heighten. And I leaned over the desk
23:04
and I saw that that red light indicated
23:07
that the phone was charging, so that nobody
23:10
had called. But had I not gone
23:12
over to factually ascertain why
23:14
that red light was on, I would have stayed
23:16
in that that that heightened, you
23:19
know, fearful state. And so
23:21
often in our lives we are in that
23:23
state, and we don't think
23:25
to actually check factually
23:28
whether what we believe is actually true.
23:31
Right. And when you said earlier, you know that
23:33
left brain interpreter will say I'm so depressed,
23:36
right, and then off will trigger these things.
23:38
And I have started to really
23:40
notice that phenomenon in me.
23:43
It will say I'm so depressed, or
23:45
another one that happens, my back hurts
23:47
so bad, and then from there it'll be like, I
23:49
don't know if I can take it? How long can I Everything
23:52
hurts? I mean, it's just and if I
23:54
stop and go, well, hang on a second, like,
23:57
how do I know I'm depressed? Right?
23:59
How I actually know I'm depressed?
24:02
Or how do I know my back hurts? What
24:04
does my back feel like? I almost
24:07
suddenly realized, particularly with the back,
24:09
that it doesn't hurt that bad, that
24:12
there was this automatic sensation
24:14
that arises, and then
24:16
all of a sudden, that left brain interpreter takes
24:19
off. My back hurts so
24:21
bad, Poor me, I can't stake everything
24:23
hurts. What am I gonna do? I'm I just
24:25
I'm like, whoa hold, honest, I'm like, it's
24:28
really interesting. So let's talk
24:30
about a big piece for you
24:33
that you said of dealing with the inner critic. The
24:35
judge will start to question those thoughts
24:37
because noticing them is very
24:40
important, right, Not resisting
24:42
them is very important, which
24:45
is tough sometimes but critical, And so
24:47
is checking them for veracity,
24:51
right, like actually checking them
24:53
to see if they are true. Um,
24:55
you know, I often think it's it's you know, it
24:58
makes sense to like allow the thought
25:00
the emotion to be, not not forcing
25:02
it away, but then actually take a look
25:04
at it pretty closely. So talk
25:07
to me about how that worked for you. Well,
25:09
I think the first thing is to
25:11
actually understand that you
25:14
are believing a thought. You got
25:16
to identify what that thought is. And
25:19
the way that I do that is it will creep up
25:21
in my body, something will go tight and
25:24
I will fall out of that ease state,
25:27
and that's my queue to know that, Okay, I'm
25:29
I'm believing something. I'm I'm I'm caught
25:31
with this thought. And often what I used
25:33
to do was whenever I felt in that state.
25:36
Um, I thought, you know, well, this is uncomfortable
25:38
and I want to be comfortable, so let's
25:41
go and eat something, or let's go and drink something,
25:43
or let's fall asleep or watch something on Netflix,
25:45
anything to have to deal with this thought, which
25:48
of course never worked at all because
25:51
I would just take that thought into the eating, of the drinking,
25:53
the Netflix, and then it would be doubly bad.
25:56
So by identifying it and writing it
25:58
down, what I then learned to do
26:00
was inquire into it. And the way that I
26:02
learned to do that was through this woman,
26:04
Byron Katie, and
26:07
she has the system of self inquiry
26:10
called the Work and you can find
26:12
that online the work dot com. She's very free
26:14
and open with it. Yeah, there's also
26:16
a previous episode of US with Byron
26:19
Katie if listeners, if you want to look for that
26:21
where I interviewed her son
26:23
way I couldn't encourage listeners
26:26
to do. Yeah, go and find that episode.
26:28
For sure. I had the privilege of going
26:30
to UM the Nine Day School,
26:33
the School for the Work, which is where I learned
26:35
how to do the work. And just quickly
26:37
to paraphrase how it works is it's
26:40
taking that stressful thought asking
26:42
ourselves is that true? And
26:45
usually that first response will be yeah,
26:47
Yeah, of course that's true, because it's
26:49
just a natural kind of habit, like, yeah,
26:51
of course I believe what I say. But
26:53
then we say, is that
26:56
absolutely true? And
26:59
I add to that, in a court of law,
27:01
can I say
27:03
that that is true? And usually
27:06
in that question I can find something
27:08
just a sliver of a
27:10
doubt, and that is enough
27:13
to start shedding some like to let some light
27:15
in. I think of that Leonard Cohen line,
27:18
there's a crack in everything that that's how
27:20
the light gets in. We have to find that crack,
27:22
and that question alone helps us identify
27:25
that crack. And then the third question
27:27
is, um, how do you react what
27:29
happens when you believe the thought? Which
27:32
is a really easy question to answer, right Like, I'm
27:34
if I'm believing the thought that I've done a bad job
27:36
on a presentation, I'll think, oh,
27:38
well, I feel like I didn't try hard enough, and I feel
27:41
like I'm being judged, and i feel like I'm gonna lose that client,
27:43
and I feel like really angry with myself, And it's
27:45
really easy to answer that question. And
27:47
then the next question is who would
27:49
you be without that thought,
27:53
and that can be a very difficult question to answer
27:56
because you're so hooked onto that thought. And if it's
27:58
really difficult to answer, it just shows
28:00
you how in that thought
28:03
you are. And when you're in that thought,
28:05
you can't see anything
28:07
else. You are completely blinded. So
28:09
then you answer that question and you realize
28:12
as you answer it, how at
28:14
peace and happy and and um,
28:16
you know, full of joy you could be if you weren't
28:19
believing that thought. Now
28:21
you can't magically like let
28:23
that thought go. There's no kind of magic that
28:25
allows you to do that. And so Byron
28:28
Katie gives us these three turnarounds
28:30
where we take that thought and flip it
28:33
to the opposite to the other. And once we start
28:35
working that thought through different lenses,
28:38
um, usually we get to a place where it's like
28:41
that thought is like a complete lie. What
28:43
was I thinking? And there has
28:45
been nothing that I've done the work on thus
28:47
far that I wasn't able to find
28:49
some kind of cracking And
28:51
Byron Katie argues, there's really nothing out
28:54
there they won't completely dissipate once
28:56
you do the work on it. Yeah,
29:30
you were doing interviews for your book, and I think you asked
29:32
me, what do you think of Byron Katie, and I said, I actually
29:35
think it's a very useful framework. It's sort
29:37
of like cognitive behavioral
29:39
therapy in certain ways. It's a it's a structured
29:41
method of of inquiring
29:43
into our thoughts. Um. My question
29:46
for you is, sometimes
29:48
it seems that thought
29:50
causes emotion, and
29:53
if it's a thought that's driving, it's nice to unwind
29:55
the thought. But a lot of other times it
29:57
seems like emotion just spring
30:00
out of, you know, out of
30:02
something that you can't really
30:05
identify. Do you have a method
30:07
of working with when or does that
30:09
even happen for you where it's like,
30:11
well, I'm feeling this and I can I'm
30:14
not even sure I can find a thought for
30:16
it, or I can see the
30:18
thought and I know it's not true, and I still feel
30:20
terrible. That is something that I'm continuing
30:23
to learn to do, which is to drop into
30:25
my body to feel that
30:27
emotion as opposed to staying
30:30
up in my head and trying to tackle it through
30:32
you know, what is the thought, doing the work on it, doing
30:34
that kind of surgical, precise thinking on it. Learning
30:38
to identify an emotion requires
30:41
an ability to just kind of dropped down into
30:43
one's body. And often we think we've identified
30:46
that emotion, only to find
30:48
that there is another emotion behind
30:51
it. And for me, whenever
30:53
I the way that I know I'm
30:56
an emotional state as I'll feel it in my
30:58
body, right, I've learned to under stand
31:00
the difference between mechanical pain, so pain
31:02
that's come through, uh,
31:04
you know, if I've if I've worked out too hard that day,
31:06
or if i haven't eaten properly or you
31:08
know, that kind of mechanical pain. Most of the
31:11
pain I feel is emotional. So
31:13
when my toes curl up when I'm in traffic,
31:16
or you know, my lower back starts
31:18
to hurt if I think that somebody's not listening
31:21
to me or whatever the cases, um,
31:23
and I'll drop into that and really
31:26
just kind of be with that pain and
31:28
see what emotion comes up in my chest.
31:31
And I've learned not to take
31:34
that first emotion you know, I'll
31:36
be able to identify it, but I've I've come to understand
31:38
there's usually an emotion underneath
31:41
that, and for me, the emotion underneath that
31:43
tends to be fear mhm. And
31:46
once I've identified that as fear, then
31:48
I can say, well, what is it that I'm fearful
31:51
of, and then I can do
31:53
the work on it. As you learned the work,
31:55
you also learned about cognitive
31:58
biases. And there
32:00
is We've talked on the show a bunch about them,
32:02
but there's one I don't know that we've talked about
32:04
before. So I wanted to touch it, and it
32:06
was the power of the default. Tell
32:08
me what that is. So the power
32:11
of the default. The way that I know cognitive
32:13
biases is through my work and market
32:15
research, you
32:17
know, twenty years like my the past
32:20
two decades of my career is trying to understand
32:22
human behavior, which is really ironic
32:24
when you think about it, because here I am with two decades
32:27
of experience and I can't understand my own behavior.
32:29
But anyway I can now at least um.
32:32
But remembering that uh,
32:35
people's brain activity is not
32:37
based on rational thought. It's based on all
32:40
sorts of weird filters and norms
32:42
and and um and cognitive biases
32:45
and so this particular bias, and there's hundreds
32:47
of them, but this particular bias. The power of
32:49
the default is when we default
32:52
back to behavior or habits
32:55
that are just so ingrained we don't think
32:57
to question them. So for
32:59
example, UM, my
33:01
default thought was
33:04
wine will take my
33:07
pain away. Wine at the end of the day
33:09
after a long day of work is gonna
33:11
make me feel better. That's its job in life.
33:15
And so getting home and grabbing
33:17
that glass of wine, um, which
33:19
would have been fine if it had just been one glass, but
33:21
often, you know, you have dinner and that becomes
33:23
to wine two glasses, and then oh well, we may as
33:26
well finish this bottle off so it doesn't go bad. And
33:28
whatever else you want to tell yourself. That
33:30
was just that was my routine. Um.
33:33
And once I started to understand
33:35
the power of the default, I looked at different aspects
33:38
of my life and thought, what behavior
33:40
and my defaulting to that
33:43
don't really work for me anymore.
33:46
And back then, UM, I didn't
33:48
see wine as something that
33:50
was distracting me from dealing
33:53
with painful thoughts. I saw it as something
33:55
that was giving me extra calories. So
33:57
that was the key reason, you know,
33:59
a few years ago, why I identified wine
34:01
as a default behavior that I wanted to change
34:05
and so rather them then rip all the wine out
34:07
of my fridge and force myself to drink
34:09
tap water. When I got home, I
34:11
put new beverages into the fridge, so you
34:14
know, kombucha or diet
34:16
sodas or or um you know, Stevia
34:18
based type stuff, So that I knew
34:20
that my natural bias was
34:22
to put my hand into the fridge because it was usually
34:25
white wine that I drank put my hand on the fridge,
34:27
but this time I just grabbed something else other
34:29
than wine. UM. But it wasn't until I understood
34:31
the power of the default that I was able to see
34:33
that that was just default behavior, it wasn't truth.
34:37
And and now I don't I don't drink
34:39
at all. Actually now I stopped in December, which
34:41
is just kind of a new interesting practice for me,
34:43
and when I'm still learning about
34:46
UM. But I realized now that not drinking
34:49
is helping keep me
34:52
in that awareness,
34:55
you know, it like just just taking
34:58
myself out of the awareness for this simple
35:00
you know, for the for the hangover
35:03
that it often leads to, or saying something really
35:05
stupid to somebody. It's just not worth it. I'll
35:07
take the awareness. Thanks. So it's
35:09
just something I'm playing with. I don't know if it's a forever thing,
35:11
but it's working for me right now. So it's been about
35:13
seven months then, so that's not a it's
35:16
not a short period of time to do it by
35:18
any straight It's not. No, it's not. It's
35:20
funny. I noticed the other day there's a book called
35:22
Sober Curious.
35:25
It's not just me. Yeah, no, it's
35:28
not. It's not. Yeah, yeah, I
35:30
I know more and more. I'm not a millennial im gen X,
35:32
but I know more and more millennials. I think the
35:34
numbers among millennials are um
35:36
uh, you know, not not drinking
35:39
or wanting to see what life is like without alcohol.
35:41
It's it's becoming a thing. I
35:43
think we've grown up with a narrative that says
35:46
like, well, if you're alcoholic, you need to stop.
35:48
But if you're not alcoholics, so what right?
35:50
And I think that this speaks
35:53
to a growing awareness, which is a
35:55
good awareness that there are certainly stages
35:57
along the way. And we've had Catherine
36:00
Gray on a couple of times, and she wrote a book
36:02
I cannot remember the name of it, The Surprising
36:05
Joy of being Sober, perhaps something like
36:07
that you should read it, you would
36:09
love it. Um. But she says,
36:12
here's a simple question, would your life be
36:14
better if you weren't drinking. That's it. You
36:16
don't have to get into and do
36:18
I have a problem? Am I drinking too much? Would
36:21
your life be better if you weren't? And And I
36:23
thought that was such a powerful way of
36:25
just sort of looking at that thing very
36:27
simply without any of the cultural baggage
36:30
that comes with addiction and sobriety
36:32
and abstinence and all of that stuff. Yeah,
36:35
there seems that seems a very useful
36:37
question. I was just talking about it this weekend
36:39
with friends of mine, and we were talking about
36:42
how drinking and talking is just default
36:44
adult behavior when you get
36:46
together, Like what else do you do
36:49
besides have a glass of wine in your hand and talk?
36:51
Like we never did that as kids, you know, kids sitting
36:53
around with a glass of kool aid and just shooting
36:55
the ship like no, And
36:58
so what would we be doing if we didn't alcohol
37:00
in our hands? What what would these social occasions
37:02
look like? Just an interesting thought experiment.
37:05
Well, as somebody who doesn't drink for
37:08
very important reasons, I'm happy
37:11
to see more adults not drinking because it is
37:13
sort of the default behavior, and you just, you
37:15
know, sometimes you feel like I'm just the odd person
37:17
out here all the time. But and
37:19
that's why finding people that are also
37:22
uh sober is really helpful if you're trying
37:24
not to drink all the time. Anyway, that was
37:27
a slight distraction. So I want
37:29
to get back to the
37:31
concept of worry. And
37:33
I'm just gonna read something you wrote because I thought this
37:35
was so good and I just experienced it. This
37:38
feeling of worry had been my normal for
37:40
so long that I would even worry about worrying
37:42
on vacations. I would worry about how much
37:44
time I had left, anxious to make the remaining
37:47
days worry free. Then I would recognize
37:49
that, being consumed by the worry, I wouldn't enjoy
37:51
the actual vacation. Then I would worry
37:54
about not enjoying it, and then worry
37:56
about worrying about not enjoying
37:58
it, which makes me laugh. I was recently
38:00
on vacation. I get myself into the like how many
38:02
days left, how many days left? How soon
38:05
you know, and the same thing, I'm like, Oh,
38:07
the vacation's half over. So I start worrying about
38:09
the vacation being half I mean, that's that's no good.
38:12
I just had a wonderful vacation anyway,
38:14
Um, I just thought that was so instructive
38:17
of the way worry works. It just
38:19
consumes us. It consumed me um.
38:23
And so that was not something that
38:25
happened on every second vacation. That was something
38:27
that happened on every vacation. You
38:30
know. I left the house and within two hours,
38:32
you know, my first thought was like, did I turn the stove off?
38:35
Did I turn the stove off? Oh? Great, I'm worrying already
38:37
about this vacation. Oh. I thought, this is gonna
38:39
be a different vacation. And then I, you know, kind
38:41
of go down into that vicious spirals.
38:44
And then I'd wake up and I'd be happy because
38:46
I was on vacation, and then I would search my mind
38:49
for like, oh, wait a second, I'm missing something. There's something I
38:51
should be worried right that, Yes,
38:53
I only have four more days left. And then it would kick
38:55
back in and yeah, it
38:57
was exhausting. What are some of your tools
39:00
for working with worry worry?
39:03
I think of all the things that I've learned
39:05
to do, not worrying
39:08
is a big one. And
39:11
I mean if I added up all the hours of my life
39:13
that I that I used to worry, I who
39:16
knows how many it would be like way too many
39:18
to even look at. UM. And worry
39:21
is something that I have let go
39:23
of because um,
39:26
and I don't mean a d percent. But let's say if
39:28
I was a warrior a hundred percent of the time, I'm a warrior
39:31
maybe maybe
39:34
five percent of the time. Now it is
39:38
achievement. Wait
39:40
a second, I couldn't resist
39:44
And this isn't um. This
39:47
is something that's kind of developed
39:49
itself because
39:51
I'm used to pulling
39:54
myself back to being present and
39:56
I have a number of ways of doing that. And
39:59
whenever I see whenever I catch
40:01
myself veering into that worry stage,
40:04
I my first thought is, there's
40:07
nothing I can do about
40:10
that, because I don't have any control
40:13
over any of that. All I can
40:15
control is what is how I react
40:17
to what's in front of me right here, right now. And
40:20
that thought is enough for me to
40:22
let the worry go. So it's
40:24
no longer, and it's it's hours
40:27
of my life. Hours of my life that
40:29
I get back, both when I'm asleep or
40:31
trying to get to sleep and during my day
40:34
that I can now pour into things
40:36
that I find really fulfilling and inspiring
40:39
and engaging. UM.
40:41
You know, So when people ask me, if I
40:43
lose my achiever fever, does that mean I won't
40:45
perform anymore? Does that mean I'll lose my lose
40:47
my competitive spirit. And the only
40:50
thing that we lose when we lose our achiever
40:52
fever is worry,
40:55
self doubt and fear, and
40:58
losing that worry has allowed
41:00
me to gain so much
41:03
more. Yep, that's wonderful. Well,
41:05
we are at time here all of a sudden,
41:08
um, so you and I are going to continue a
41:10
conversation in the post show conversation.
41:13
I think we'll talk about some more of the practices
41:15
that you did, and uh, we'll explore
41:17
a line that I loved, which is I could see these
41:19
things as irritating or I could see them as practice.
41:22
And that's a wonderful line. So we're gonna explore
41:24
that in the post show conversation. Listeners
41:26
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41:29
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41:36
thank you so much for coming on the
41:38
show. It was a pleasure.
41:40
It was a pleasure to have you on and talk to you. I
41:42
really enjoyed the book. I got to give a
41:44
blurb for it, which was kind of fun. So I'm
41:47
happy to have happy you have gotten
41:49
us to finally have this conversation. So
41:51
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