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to the one you feed. Throughout
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time, great thinkers have recognized the
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importance of the thoughts we have, quotes
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like garbage in, garbage out,
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or you are what you think ring
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true, and yet for many of
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us, our thoughts don't strengthen or empower
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us. We tend toward negativity self
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pity, jealousy, or fear.
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We see what we don't have instead of what we
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do. We think things that hold us
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back and dampen our spirit. But
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consistent, and creative effort to make
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is about how other people keep themselves moving
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in the right direction, how they feed
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their good wolf. Thanks
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for joining us. Our guest on this episode
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is Tara Brock, an American psychologist
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and proponent of Buddhist meditation.
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She is a guiding teacher and founder of the
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Insight Meditation Community of Washington,
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d C. Brock also teaches about
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Buddhist meditation at centers for meditation
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in yoga in the United States and Europe,
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including Spirit Rock Meditation Center
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in Woodacre, California, the Crapolu
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Center, and the Omega Institute for
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Holistic Studies. Brock is an engaged
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Buddhist specializing in the application of Buddhist
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teachings to emotional healing. Her
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two thousand three book Radical Acceptance
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Embracing Your Life with the Heart of a Buddha
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focuses on the use of practices such as
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mindfulness for healing trauma. Her
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two thousand thirteen book True Refuge,
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Finding a Place of Freedom in your own awakened
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Heart, offers practices for tapping
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into inner peace and wisdom in the midst
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of difficulty. So this is a
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rerelease of one of our most popular
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and best episodes that
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now that I look at it is over two years
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old, so it's about time you're
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here it it's with the wonderful
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Tara Brock. And the reason we're doing
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a re release this week is
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because our dear friend
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Christopher, who
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does all the voiceovers and the amazing
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audio production and editing of
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this show, is getting married,
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Hi, Tara, Welcome to the show. It's
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lovely to be with you, Eric. I am
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very excited to have you on. I think I've been
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trying to arrange this for a while. When I started
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the show. You were one of the guests right away that I was
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like, I definitely want to get her on
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the show. You're you're writing and your teachings
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have been a big influence on
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me and on several people that I
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am close with. So I'm really happy to have you.
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Thank you, thank you. So let's start,
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like we always do, with the parable.
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There's a grandfather father who's talking with his grandson.
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He says, in life, there are two wolves
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inside of us that are always at battle. One
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is a good wolf, which represents things
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like kindness and bravery and love, and
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the other's a bad wolf, which represents things
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like greed and hatred and fear. And
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the grandson stops and he thinks about
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it for a second. He looks up at his grandfather and he says,
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well, grandfather, which one wins?
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And the grandfather says, the
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one you feed. So I'd like
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to start off by asking you what that
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parable means to you in your
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life and in the work that you do. And
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I know you know it because it was in one of your books.
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Yeah, it's a familiar one, and I
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remember it was coming out right after,
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uh, you know, the bombing
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of the World Trade Center and so on, and
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that was kind of one of the ones that was circulating.
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And I think what it means is
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that every one of us has the
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conditioning towards greed
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and aversion and aggression.
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You know, we all have that in our nervous system
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are kind of primitive limbit conditioning.
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And we also each one of us has
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this um evolving brain
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and evolving consciousness that's capable
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of um unfathomable
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amounts of loving and of creativity
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and of presence. And so the question
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is, um, do we get hijacked
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and is our life run by
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the fear parts? Are
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do we have more increasing access
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to our our our highest
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potential? And so the parable
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says it's whicheveryone you feed, And
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I would say that's partly accurate.
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And by that I mean it's
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really important to pay attention to
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and nourish our our hearts and
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to um bring to mind
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the goodness and other people and be
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very compassionate towards where they're suffering.
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And when the
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more primitive conditioning arises,
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which it does I think for every one of us every
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day, every single
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day. Yeah, when you have a judgment,
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that's a more primitive part of our conditioning.
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When that arises, it's not about starving
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that wolf. It's more about bringing
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that into our awareness
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with interest and with care. So
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when the fearful wolf appears. Not
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to make it bad, it's it's
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just a frightened part
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of ourselves. But to not be
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not buy into the narrative, not
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buy into the narrative that the only way
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that people will do what I want
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is if I threaten them, are if
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I judge them, or you know, not buy into
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the narrative. Watch that part of ourselves
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with interest and with care, so
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that we're not our identity
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doesn't get captured by it. Yeah,
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exactly. And I'd like to talk
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about clarifying that idea
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just a little bit, because in your work you talk
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a lot about being present with the emotions.
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You know, here is this situation, here is this emotion,
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being present with it and opening to
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it um at the same time. Also
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in in the Buddhist tradition and a lot of your
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work, we talk about the direction that we point
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our mind is going to be more
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of what we get. If we think more about hostility,
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we get more more hostility.
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And I'm always interested in where's
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the balance between those things,
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what's the right way to tell I'm
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genuinely feeling and
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emotion, I'm going through what I what I
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need to go through, versus I'm telling
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myself a story or
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I'm taking a point of view that is painful
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and should be dropped. I think
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the way you asked that question, Eric actually
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points to a response,
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which is that if you're paying
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attention to the storyline
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of you know, the repeating stories of
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um, somebody else is wrong and bad
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or I'm wrong and bad, then
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you're just gonna be perpetuating
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the cycle. The words whatever, where
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thoughts are going through have a certain
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biochemistry, and we get stuck in that
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state. But if instead you
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actually come into the body
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and in a very
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unconditional and kind way open
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to the feelings and the energy and the body, then there's
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actual transformation. Then
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what happens is that there's a shift and awareness
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where you open into a larger
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sense of being and the emotions
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are currents in your ocean, but you're
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not identified with them. So I
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would say whenever there's a strong,
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sticky charged emotion, that's
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the time it's asking for attention.
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And one of a great sage once said
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that if you if there's one question you ask
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yourself, it's what am I unwilling
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to feel? And
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it's the raw, sticky, vulnerable
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stuff we're unwilling to feel, and it's in the moment
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that we become willing that it
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no longer has so much control. It's
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like the some and say that when you begin
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to name a fear and then touch into it,
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it's no longer controlling you. So
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I would say that that's a key
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element in healing and
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spiritual awakening.
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And sometimes it's described as
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you know, in the Ti bed and art,
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you see these animal headed goddesses
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that represent delusion and
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fear and hatred and so on,
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and you see them really at
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the gateway to the temple that you have
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to go through them to enter sacred
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space, and you see them around
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the circle of the mandala that you have to go through
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them to get really to the
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place of stillness and peace. So
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that's one key domain
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in spiritual life. But then there's another
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one, which is to be able
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to remember and visualize
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and pray for and turn
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towards the light. In
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other words, it's already there in us. This
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are awakened potential is already there. But
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there's a real value to remembering the goodness
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too on purpose, remembering
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what we love, remembering what we're grateful
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for, because we can get a habit we
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can get in this habit of being addicted to the
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suffering. So I think that's kind of what
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you're pointing to, and that balancing of
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yes, b with the difficult emotions, feel,
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feel them in your body, and take
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time each day to remember
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what you're grateful for, or when
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you see something beautiful, pause
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and savor it, because we don't take
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in really sometimes the goodness
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and the beauty. We tend to kind of skim
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over it. We're so busily on our way somewhere
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else. Yeah. I love
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that whole whole description of it's
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kind of not one or the other, it's it's
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it's both right exactly. And
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we had Rick Hanson on who
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I Know that you also know,
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and he you know, he talked a lot about that idea
10:56
of taking in the good. Positive thinking.
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Sometimes is is presented as a panacea
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for a lot of things, and that's not what this is. This
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is just choosing there is good
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there at any time. You don't have to make it
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up. It's that which gets
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the most of our attention if we can to place
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it there. And so I love what you're saying
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because and Rick talks about this a lot
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too. We do have our
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survival conditioning that negativity
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bias that gives us the habit
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of looking for what's wrong. And
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one of the things I've become aware of in the last
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decade or so is how often we're
11:32
in a mindset where we think we have a
11:34
problem, that there there's something
11:36
we need to solve or figure out, or
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there's something that's wrong about what's
11:41
happening right now and we need to change
11:43
it. And I have become
11:46
very aware that in
11:48
the moments that we stopped thinking of it
11:50
as a problem and just say, oh,
11:52
so this is what's happening. It's asking for
11:54
my attention. We actually
11:56
have a lot more access to creativity,
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to empathy, to a
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real vitality. So it's
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an interesting inquiry and I invite
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your listeners to consider this of
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you know, if right now there's
12:13
not a problem, really
12:15
watch the moment, like I
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mean, if there's really no problem, if there's nothing
12:20
wrong, and we can
12:22
get without a taste of freedom
12:27
to not add the negativity bias
12:29
in Yeah, that's such a powerful
12:31
idea. I was asked that question once
12:33
by a by a meditation teacher, like what
12:35
is here? You know, just pretend for a minute that
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nothing is wrong, and you may you may not believe
12:40
it, but just pretend that everything
12:42
is perfect right in this moment, you know, there's nothing
12:44
you have to do or solve. What is it like? And
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there is a you know, I had a pretty profound
12:49
experience in that moment when I kind of went whoa
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um, and I think that second thing is A
12:54
guest recently referred to our brains as a problem
12:57
factory, like if you know, once one is gone,
12:59
it just create it's another. And I've noticed
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that for myself. If I'm not if I'm not consciously
13:05
working on being more present and more aware,
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it's just I just go from one to the next and
13:10
I'll probably find one because that's
13:12
what my brain is used to doing, is
13:14
working on problems. Yeah, It's
13:16
almost like if we're not being vigilant
13:19
and you know, tossing around
13:21
a problem, we feel like there's something
13:23
that's going to blindside us. So we're
13:25
always you know, in that kind of defensive
13:28
mode, that sense
13:30
it around the corner, something is going to be
13:32
too much to handle. So
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it becomes very powerful when we challenge
13:37
that because in a way, if
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we're living all the time like around the corner,
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something's too much. We're not really
13:43
bringing our wholeheartedness
13:45
and our tenderness and our clarity
13:47
to what's right here. And so this
13:50
idea of coming back to the present
13:52
moment, you know that that being the
13:55
one of the solutions to to a lot
13:57
of what troubles us is
13:59
one of those things that is easy to
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say, um, but it's hard
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to do at least I found
14:06
certainly earlier and still sometimes
14:08
like I would come back to the present moment, but
14:11
there wouldn't I wouldn't know what was here, And then my brain
14:13
would be back in two seconds, and there I would be
14:15
again, and I would come back to the present moment and
14:18
again same thing. It's like, I'm here, but wait,
14:20
there's nothing compelling enough in this moment. Is
14:23
your perspective that that's really just a thing
14:25
of training, that the formal meditation
14:27
process and the formal process of awareness
14:30
allows us to come back to see
14:32
the deeper nuances in the present
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moment so that we're able to stay there longer. Yeah,
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I think you're saying in a really
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um powerful way. I'm one.
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One teacher said, you know too. When asked
14:44
to describe the world. His response
14:46
was lost in thought and
14:50
we spent so many moments in
14:52
a virtual reality where
14:54
we're in some trance of thinking, we
14:56
don't actually have that much experience
14:59
staying in our sense is and
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if if you ask, if you ask
15:03
yourself, right this moment, how a where am I
15:06
right this moment? Of the energy inside
15:08
my hands, are my feet?
15:11
Are the feeling in my heart? It's like
15:13
for most of us were mostly in the
15:15
head and in our ideas of
15:18
the world. So the training really
15:20
of coming into the moment is coming
15:23
into our senses. So
15:25
if we can pause and start practicing
15:27
bringing the attention down into
15:29
the body and feel the throat and
15:32
the chests and the belly, and get the
15:34
knack of staying a bit more than
15:36
all the nuances of what we call presents
15:39
start coming alive because in the
15:41
space where we're not lost in thought,
15:44
really the light of awareness begins to shine
15:46
through. This
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is easier said than done. I think
16:19
that's one of the things that can be discouraging for
16:21
people is you can do it and then it's kind
16:23
of done, and then you feel like you have to keep doing it.
16:25
And you have a line that I love in
16:27
which you say that um meditation
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is a setup for feeling deficient unless
16:33
we respectfully acknowledge the strength
16:35
of our conditioning to race away
16:37
from presents. It's the truth. And
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one thing I've noticed is that the more we
16:42
have either trauma or major
16:45
wounding early on, the
16:47
more the strategy of dissociating
16:50
and leaving our body is pronounced.
16:53
So for those that have had that kind of really
16:55
difficult early childhood or whatever, it's
16:58
even harder. It's even harder
17:01
because the rawness feels
17:03
in the body, feels intolerable. So
17:06
it takes a tremendous
17:08
self compassion. I
17:11
probably rate self
17:13
compassion as the single
17:15
quality that most
17:17
can serve us, uh in
17:20
meditating and in getting
17:22
more intimate with each other and whatever
17:25
matters to us in our lives. Yeah,
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that is such an important piece. And I think
17:29
that recognition that this is
17:31
a really challenging endeavor and it
17:33
doesn't happen quickly and unfortunately,
17:36
right I think we all wish we had some silver bullet
17:38
to give that would be like, Okay, now everything is
17:40
better. But this constant coming back
17:42
to awareness into the moment into our body
17:45
can can take you know, a
17:47
great deal of time to to get better
17:49
at and I think it's so important because
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I hear people say all the time, well, I can't meditate,
17:54
I'm not any good at meditating it, And I'm
17:56
sure you hear that that also, it's
17:59
that recognized in that like, ay,
18:01
there isn't any goal and be that's
18:03
the human condition and it's okay, exactly
18:06
right. It really helps to
18:08
know that we're not alone in it, that coming
18:10
into the present moment is hard
18:13
for everyone, but it's also important
18:15
to know that it's really possible. One
18:17
of the challenges is if we've just been introduced
18:19
to one kind of meditation or another
18:22
that isn't a match for what
18:24
really is a good gateway for us,
18:27
then we can get discouraged. So when
18:29
I teach, I and I offer, you
18:31
know, I like hundreds and hundreds of
18:33
guided meditations, I offer a
18:35
lot of different gateways in because
18:37
for some people it's going to be through
18:40
a very gentle, repeated scanning
18:42
of the body, and for another person it
18:44
might be through a heart meditation
18:46
that helps us remember and trust
18:49
our own goodness. And yet for another person,
18:51
listening to sounds, just
18:54
just listening to sounds helps to quiet
18:56
the mind. And then for another person there's
18:59
a certain kind of breathing that actually
19:01
calms the nervous system and makes it easier
19:03
to quiet and collect and arrive.
19:06
So part of what I really
19:08
invite is experiment, experiment,
19:11
and trust that there's something in us that
19:13
wants to settle, and we will
19:15
if we find kind of the pathway
19:17
that's most of a match for us.
19:20
Well, you lead me perfectly into the next
19:22
question, um, because I'm
19:24
one of those people that the breath doesn't
19:26
work, and that's what I tried year
19:29
after year after year, and you
19:31
know, never really
19:33
became a consistent meditator. And then when
19:35
I heard about sound and the body, all of a
19:37
sudden kind of everything changed. But
19:39
my questions, I agree. I think experimentation
19:42
is great. But what I don't have a good
19:44
handle on, and that I find myself wrestling
19:47
with, is Okay, I'm going to meditate today,
19:49
what am I gonna do? You know? Should
19:51
we pick the one that that we like
19:53
and just sort of stay on that path?
19:56
There is there some degree of trying
19:58
different ones. That's what I'm
20:01
you know, kind of kind of going through
20:03
now, is should I just keep doing the
20:05
same thing or there's several different approaches that I seem
20:07
to get results. With UM, and
20:09
it ends up being you know, I try and make that
20:11
decision before I go into meditation, obviously,
20:14
but sometimes I'm in the middle of meditation,
20:17
this isn't as good. Maybe I should be trying that kind or
20:19
that kind which is obviously profoundly
20:21
against the point. UM. Yeah,
20:23
So what are your thoughts on that. That's a that's
20:25
a great question. So to two levels
20:28
of response, And one is I've
20:30
now watched people over probably
20:32
four decades, um people
20:35
all different kinds of spiritual traditions
20:38
and meditations and so on. And
20:40
one thing I've noticed the difference between
20:42
people that really keep
20:45
on evolving and unfolding in a creative
20:47
way and those that either plateau out
20:50
or quit. It's not
20:52
it doesn't have anything to do with what particular
20:55
meditation or practice they're doing, whether
20:57
it's tai chi chi, gung zog
21:00
chans and whatever. It
21:02
has to do with UM staying
21:04
connected with a very sincere quality
21:07
of aspiration, really
21:10
sincere about waking up and
21:13
when somebody that's the longing.
21:15
There's a passion about truth, really
21:17
what's the nature of reality?
21:19
And there's a passion about loving
21:22
without holding back, like I just really
21:24
want this heart to be free that
21:27
and and there's a coming back again and
21:29
again to that aspiration. There's
21:31
a certain intuition then about
21:34
finding our ways to the practices
21:36
that serve. There's less
21:38
inclination to pull away from our practice
21:40
just because it's challenging. There's
21:43
less inclination to hop around
21:45
because we're restless, but there's less
21:47
inclination to stick with something out of duty
21:50
when we might be experimenting. So
21:52
it's really very individual. I
21:54
mean, if you're the kind of person that
21:57
is restless and it's going to it's kind of always needs
21:59
to sample something else on the menu,
22:01
then I'd encourage you to let some roots go
22:04
down and just gain some
22:07
real familiarity with some
22:10
meditation practice that you know
22:13
in some ways helping you become more present.
22:16
If, on the other hand, you're a person that that
22:18
doggedly just always stays with
22:21
one thing, or doesn't you know, just somebody
22:23
tells you something, you just keep doing it, take
22:26
up a chance and an experiment
22:29
um for you, it sounds like you know
22:31
you you might want to have a weave
22:33
that you do that includes
22:36
something that's you know is going
22:38
to keep on um. Letting
22:40
go of armoring around the heart, but also
22:42
bringing clarity and then keep
22:45
going deeper and deeper with that. Um
22:48
So it's it's it's always going to
22:50
be case by case, but there are some guidelines
22:53
that we can kind of stay alert to. The deepest
22:55
thing, though, is your intention. And
22:57
I really encourage us all to at
22:59
the beginning of every whether
23:01
it's an interview like this, are meditation,
23:04
sitting, or being with somebody, to
23:06
just remember what about
23:09
this really matters to me? Has
23:11
our heart is a compass, it will show us
23:13
where to go. Yeah, that's great
23:15
advice, and it's something I took from reading
23:18
your book again in preparation for this interview
23:20
that I don't think I had landed
23:22
on before, which is to set an intention
23:25
why am I? I find that helpful in keeping
23:27
a steady meditation practice for sure, is remembering
23:29
why am I doing this? You know, it's not
23:31
another chore on the list, It's there's a
23:33
reason that I'm I'm doing this. We will
23:36
not stay with meditation unless there's
23:38
a certain degree of fun and pleasure in it. For
23:40
us, it just won't work. If
23:42
you're grim, it just won't work. So I
23:45
know for myself, part of what's
23:47
going on is I really want to follow my
23:49
interests and an interest
23:52
not like conceptual, but I want
23:54
to stay where it feels alive. And
23:56
I also there has to be a certain amount of
23:58
pleasure in it, So weaving
24:00
in the heart practices UM really
24:02
bringing a live sensation and whatever
24:05
helps to feel us most vibrant in
24:07
it. UM play around because
24:10
humans don't keep doing things unless
24:12
they feel gratified. That's right. It's
24:14
that elephant and the writer analogy.
24:17
The writer is your conscious brain and it's
24:19
trying to direct things, and the elephant is your emotional
24:21
side. And you know, the elephant is only
24:23
going to go where the writer wants it to go, so long
24:25
if it doesn't want to go right, you get
24:28
you got to get the elephant engaged in the game.
24:30
And that's the emotional piece of it, the reward
24:32
and the enjoyment and the feeling
24:35
of satisfaction exactly. So
24:37
one of the things that I wanted to explore a little
24:39
bit more is there's this idea
24:42
we talked about it right out of the gate, about dropping
24:44
into the body, about feeling our emotions,
24:47
UM, dealing with difficult emotions.
24:49
But a lot of people that I know and
24:52
myself firmly included
24:54
in this camp. Depression is
24:56
one of the things that we that I
24:58
tend to wrestle with more. And I get this question
25:01
from listeners of a fair amount, which is,
25:03
I don't feel much of anything, So what am I dropping
25:06
into? I don't have a strong emotion.
25:08
I'm working with. What I've basically got is
25:11
numbness. And I drop into my body and I
25:13
pay attention to my hand and honestly doesn't feel like
25:15
there's much going on there. What's the way that
25:17
we work with with that in
25:20
order to deal with that condition
25:22
or that situation. I'm really glad you brought
25:24
up depression because I've had many
25:26
people say, you know, I'm either that
25:28
I try to get in touch with it and it's a numb
25:31
are. When I can get in touch with it, I
25:33
sink and it's like it's just like an endless,
25:36
endless sinking downward. It's like it
25:38
doesn't if there's no real insight
25:40
or anything refreshing that comes out of it, I just
25:42
feel more depressed. So there's
25:45
a few things, you know, and for
25:47
all of us, the
25:50
deepest place of transformation
25:52
is when there's just pure awareness.
25:55
Awareness is what wakes us up,
25:57
and there are all these different
26:00
skillful means that help
26:02
us to be um positioned
26:05
in a way that we can be more aware
26:08
and for depression, the skillful
26:10
means really often have to do
26:12
with exercising and engaging
26:15
our body and mind with uh
26:17
nature, with the elements
26:19
and with other people. Getting enough sleep
26:21
and then being physically and
26:24
emotionally engage is a skillful
26:26
means if there's depression,
26:28
to activate enough so then as
26:31
you bring the attention inward,
26:34
you actually can connect with the aliveness.
26:36
Yep. I think that's such good advice. And
26:39
I think for me it's that
26:41
active movement and nature that are the
26:43
two best antidepressants I know
26:46
me to to anti anxiety too.
26:48
Yeah, And of course the challenge that
26:51
can make depressions at your monster is that
26:53
it's that the energy to do anything is so
26:55
lacking. It's like this sort of catch twenty two,
26:57
like if I, if you do something, you'll feel better,
26:59
but I can't. You know, I don't have the energy.
27:02
And so for me, I think over the years it's
27:04
become a I've made it into
27:06
just sort of a habit that like
27:09
when I start to feel that way, like I just I
27:11
have learned to propel myself
27:14
into motion. Um, depression
27:16
hates a moving target. Is the is the saying
27:18
I love. It's a very good saying, and
27:21
it helps to have other people, um,
27:23
you know, on the team with you. In other
27:25
words, sometimes whether it's having a running
27:27
partner or walking partner or whatever, UM
27:30
engagement. Depression needs
27:32
engagement, and it needs one other thing,
27:34
which is it needs uh to
27:37
be forgiven, because
27:39
we whether it's depression or shame or
27:41
whatever, we take it personally like
27:44
it's my depression or my fear.
27:46
And then that brings more of a sense of something's
27:49
wrong with me, which actually deepens the cycle.
27:52
So to add to engagement, commit
27:56
and this I'm speaking to all of us, commit
27:58
to truly forgiving
28:00
the presence of the
28:03
difficult emotion. It's
28:05
not our fault. It's like depression
28:07
is not our fault. It whether
28:10
it's genetic or epigenetic having
28:12
to do with early childhood stuff
28:14
or the culture, it's
28:16
just not like we you know, got born
28:18
and pressed the button saying this is the motion I wanted
28:21
to be living with. You know, we didn't
28:23
choose it. And so there's
28:25
something about forgiveness. It actually creates
28:27
space. Like I'll often I
28:30
do it with anger. You know, I have anger
28:32
will come up and I'll have this idea of, oh, I
28:34
shouldn't be angry. I mean, it's not a spiritual,
28:37
you know, feeling. And one of the first things
28:39
I'll do is go, okay, forgiven,
28:41
forgiven. I send that message
28:44
into the anger like it's it's just
28:46
another weather system. It's
28:48
coming, just like the outer weather. And
28:50
when I forgive the anger, I'm
28:53
not so identified with it, and I can then
28:55
just feel it as sensations and not believe
28:57
the dialogue that goes with it,
28:59
and it comes and it goes in a much
29:01
more wholesome way. So forgive
29:04
the depression. Yeah, I think that's
29:06
such a big one and such an important one, and the
29:08
parable of the I don't know if it's a parable, but the Buddhist
29:11
teaching of the second Arrow is um
29:13
one that I talked about on the show all the time, because
29:15
it's that I'm feeling bad about feeling bad
29:18
that we can actually work with, right, Like, it's
29:20
very hard to not feel depressed, right, there's
29:22
things we can do, but I do feel like we
29:24
have more control over what we layer
29:27
on top of that, you know, the and
29:29
you talk about this in your book, and it kind of leads
29:31
into that next question, which is your first
29:33
book was really about um accepting
29:36
ourselves the way we are and the suffering that
29:38
that that happens to ourselves, and your second book
29:40
is more a little bit about, Hey, there's going
29:42
to be suffering out in the world, that's
29:44
an inevitable fact, you know, or or
29:46
pain that comes in from the outside world.
29:49
But how do we deal
29:51
with that in the most skillful way? And
29:54
that's one of the things I love about the
29:56
Buddhist teachings is it really normalizes
29:59
for me things are not going to
30:01
be going well in life, like difficult
30:03
things happen. That's part of being human.
30:05
And to your point, it's not our fault and it's not our
30:07
you know, it's not a failure. But what are some of the
30:09
more skillful means we can use in
30:12
you know, when when life presents this with things
30:14
that we really wish it wouldn't. Yeah,
30:17
No, it's a it's a powerful question. And that
30:19
is why I wrote True Refuge. I
30:21
had in my own life, Um, I
30:23
got really sick and the spiral
30:26
of sickness went on and on, so I was going
30:28
pretty downhill, and that's an example
30:31
of okay, stuff happens,
30:33
and um, you know, I went from being very very
30:35
athletic to not being able to even
30:37
walk up a slight incline. I
30:39
am now much much better than I was,
30:41
but for about eight years I didn't know what
30:44
was going to happen. And what that
30:46
did was it forced me to find a way to
30:48
get my arms around sickness,
30:51
death, dying. At the same time
30:53
I lost both parents and you know, so all
30:55
the encounters and
30:58
the teachings both in Buddhism, and I
31:00
think it's really all the perennial teachings
31:03
UM basically point us
31:05
towards finding the
31:07
awareness and heart that's really
31:09
timeless. It's it's it's
31:11
accessible to each of us that
31:14
helps us to rest in something large enough
31:16
so we have room for the waves. And
31:19
that can sound abstract, and yet
31:21
if you've been with somebody that's dying
31:25
and you've sensed how the
31:27
only thing that's big enough for that dying
31:30
is the loving that's there. That's
31:32
the only thing that allows It still hurts,
31:35
but there's space for it. And
31:37
that's the way it is with everything, that
31:39
there are things that are still going to hurt us
31:41
tremendously But if we find
31:44
access to that what I sometimes
31:46
think of as the fearless heart, the heart
31:48
that is big enough for fear, the
31:51
big enough for the losses and the grief, then
31:53
we have a way to take refuge away,
31:55
to come home to beingness
31:58
that can move through things with a
32:00
sense of tenderness and open heartedness
32:03
and grace even when it's really
32:05
really difficult. That's the essential
32:08
message and true refuge my second
32:10
book, And really how to then find
32:12
our way to that timeless heart? How
32:14
do we become president
32:17
enough and open enough and courageous
32:19
enough to really be with the life. That's year.
32:51
I'm going to ask a question that I don't think
32:54
there's really an answer for, but I'm always I'm
32:56
fascinated by it, and I find more and more people
32:59
asking me this question. Um,
33:01
so, which is what
33:04
is the meaning of life?
33:08
Or why are we here? Or
33:10
and and I'm just curious to get your your
33:13
take on that. I don't actually believe you have
33:15
the answer. Um. If you do, though, I'm very
33:17
excited to hear it. Um.
33:21
You know, that's not the kind of question I
33:23
pose in my own inquir'es.
33:26
I don't pose the why questions
33:30
so much. You know why are we here or
33:32
whatever? But a similar
33:35
question is what matters the
33:37
most to me? Are
33:39
to ask and
33:41
and that that has a similar feeling
33:43
tone to it, And I could say, I
33:45
could say, you know for myself
33:47
what matters and sometimes
33:50
debscribed as the two wings of awareness
33:53
that we really need both to be free. What
33:55
matters is deeply understanding
33:58
truth or understand reality, not
34:01
not like in a mental way,
34:03
but a lived way. And and
34:05
the other side of that is loving
34:08
fully. And so if
34:10
I had to say, what's our purpose or anything,
34:12
it's to love fully, to totally
34:14
inhabit are
34:17
being in a way that we um
34:19
feel are belonging to all other beings
34:22
and can express that, really
34:24
express that authentically in
34:26
the way we live our lives. And do you
34:28
think that you don't think about
34:30
and ask those questions because you have an
34:33
experience of being alive that
34:35
feels meaningful. The word meaning
34:38
sometimes trips me and others
34:40
up because it has it's a cognitive word.
34:42
So for me, Matt, what matters
34:45
is more uh mattering,
34:48
what I long for, what what my
34:50
heart cares about, has
34:52
a more visceral experience
34:55
than meaning, which is a little more mental.
34:57
So maybe just that I'm going at it with a
34:59
more eminent quality of inquiry.
35:02
I'm not sure. Yeah, I
35:04
like that word matter, because the the analogy
35:07
I've been thinking about lately is, you
35:10
know, intellectually, I'll never have any idea
35:12
why this is and what's happening, and
35:14
and I could never intellectually convince you
35:16
of, you know, why something was important.
35:18
But if I walked out my door right now and I saw
35:20
a dog laying in front of me suffering, I
35:23
would know your word that it mattered
35:26
that dog not suffer. I could never
35:28
explain it intellectually. There would be no way
35:31
I could be like, well, you could be like, well, there's billions
35:33
of dogs. I mean, we could go through the whole, you know, but
35:35
you could never talk me out of in that moment
35:39
that that dog suffering mattered. And
35:41
for me, that was a big turning point when
35:43
I went, oh, I'm never going to answer
35:45
this question intellectually, I'm
35:47
never going to get there. But I can
35:49
feel kind of and I think it's exactly what you
35:52
just said in a more eloquent way than I had been
35:54
saying. It is that what matters is
35:56
what connects us to those bigger things, and it's
35:58
a felt sense, not in
36:01
intellectual sets. And the reason I asked you if
36:03
you thought you didn't ask those questions
36:06
is that the more I have moved
36:08
into that part of my life and in that
36:10
way, the less I've had those questions
36:12
also. And I'm just kind of curious because I
36:14
do get them, you know, from people. I'm sure you do
36:16
too, and it's it's a genuine
36:19
yearning, but it seems to come up less
36:21
in people who are truly engaged
36:23
in life in a deeper way. Well,
36:26
that's why when I get a conceptual
36:28
question, I reframe it in
36:31
a way that allows a person to discover
36:33
what is true for them in a more
36:36
visceral way. And that's why I shift
36:38
the word meaning to matters. Yeah, that makes
36:40
a lot of sense. You use the word
36:43
trance a lot. You talked about different
36:45
types of trances, but let's talk about what
36:47
what you mean in the use of that word in general.
36:50
When I talk about trance, I'm talking
36:52
about a kind of narrow, distorted,
36:54
contorted uh experience
36:57
of reality and it and it
36:59
narrows because we're there's
37:01
an overlay of mental
37:04
conceptual you know, words,
37:06
ideas, interpretations, and
37:09
um so to step
37:11
out of a trance means to step out of our
37:14
mental interpretations and into reality,
37:16
back into our bodies and our hearts and what we're
37:18
directly experiencing. And the biggest
37:20
way we have a trance in our lives, the
37:23
most immediate, is that we move
37:25
around with an ongoing storyline about
37:28
moa, about who I am, what I need
37:30
to do, what's wrong with me? What what's
37:32
going to make a difference, and so on. We it's
37:35
like our world is very narrowed
37:37
into this self conscious, self
37:40
centered narrative, and
37:42
it's not that we're bad for it.
37:44
It's more that it's just keeping us from
37:46
a much more mysterious and vibrant
37:49
experience of being this so
37:52
the way out of trance is just to recognize,
37:54
oh, okay, I'm living right
37:56
now in a thought realm,
37:59
you know, and thoughts are like a map. We
38:01
need them. In other words, it's it's what
38:03
allows humans to be the most dominant species
38:05
on planet Earth. It's you know, surviving
38:08
and thriving and so on. We
38:10
need them. But if that's
38:12
the end of development, then we're stuck in a
38:14
conceptual world. There's a further evolution
38:17
beyond a self living inside
38:19
thoughts and that's a self that's actually
38:22
awake and awareness. Yeah. I like the
38:24
way that you have addressed it before, because
38:26
I hear a lot of Buddhist teaching saying that the sense
38:28
of a separate self is an illusion,
38:31
and I like the way that you sort of describe
38:33
it as well, it's not exactly an
38:35
illusion, but it's only it's a very
38:37
small part of the picture. It's a very limited
38:40
way of viewing it, because I think when
38:42
people hear it's an illusion, they go, well, it
38:44
feels so real. And I like that
38:46
instead of saying what it is,
38:49
giving a context of it is as it's
38:51
not the only way to view reality. One
38:53
of the phrases that I find
38:55
most valuable when you think of um,
38:58
let's say I have a story about my elf
39:00
and then I'm falling short and I say
39:02
to somebody, well, if you're believing that is
39:04
really is that belief really true?
39:06
And they say, well, it feels really true. It feels like I'm
39:09
deficient, I'm defective failure. So
39:11
the phrase I like is real but
39:13
not true. And the
39:15
reason I like that phrase is that the
39:17
belief I'm deficient, I'm defective,
39:21
it's a real story in our minds, and
39:23
it feels real in our body, So it's real
39:25
in that way. It's it's happening, the
39:27
thoughts happening, the feelings are happening. It's
39:30
real, but it's not the truth of
39:32
existence. In other words, it's not
39:35
that that's what's actually the
39:37
living reality. In other
39:39
words, it's just an idea in our mind and a feeling
39:41
in our body. And to begin to
39:44
get that opens up a little
39:46
space so we can sense there's something bigger
39:50
and maybe more living
39:52
reality than our belief about ourselves.
39:55
It helps us to shake some of the most limiting
39:58
experiences that really they
40:00
bring suffering in our lives. That's really
40:02
powerful. I love that one. I had
40:04
not heard that before, and I think that is a very
40:07
useful tool. We're nearing the
40:09
end of our time here. But I want to
40:11
ask you. You say that we all have
40:13
our own ways of distancing
40:16
ourselves from reality or going into
40:19
trance or you know, call it, whichever of these
40:21
things are. We all have our own ways for
40:23
doing that that are that are kind of individual, but
40:25
that the process of waking up is
40:27
universal. Can you tell me a little bit more
40:30
about that? And then I'd like to maybe circle
40:32
it back to some of our earlier conversation around
40:34
how for each of us, some of the things on
40:36
the path, they're going to be different, you know, some of
40:38
its individualized. So what's universal and what
40:40
parts are kind of ours to tailor
40:43
to what we need. We all have strategies
40:46
of trying to control things. You
40:48
know, every one of us comes. I sometimes think of
40:50
it like, um, we come into this
40:53
world and conditions are
40:55
not always cooperative. So we have you know, parents
40:57
that might not see us for who we are, might not give
41:00
us unconditional love. We have a culture
41:02
that's addictive and violence, so we all put
41:04
on a space suit. We all are
41:06
trying to navigate best as we can, and
41:08
the space suit is our ego control
41:11
systems to defend ourselves, to appear
41:13
good, to try to produce
41:15
sometimes to pretend something so others
41:18
don't attack us too. We
41:20
have addictive qualities to numb
41:22
and tooth, So we all have our strategies
41:24
and they're all ways of trying to control
41:27
things so we don't have to feel bad, so we
41:29
can feel more comfortable. So
41:31
it's universal that we have ways
41:34
of leaving the present moment,
41:37
and there's all sorts of particulars on
41:39
your strategies versus mind. Some people
41:42
are more have withdrawing strategies and others
41:44
are more aggressive. They're all space
41:46
suits strategies. But the universal
41:49
is that when we have those
41:51
strategies, we get identified with
41:53
the strategies, with our ego
41:55
control system, and we forget
41:58
who's looking through the mask. We
42:01
forget the consciousness right
42:03
now that's listening to these words, and
42:05
we forget the tenderness
42:07
and the heart that's really that really
42:09
cares about living and loving. So
42:12
there's a forgetting, and that's universal.
42:16
If they're suffering, it's because you've
42:18
forgotten really who you are. You're
42:21
identified with a more limited
42:24
version of being with the space suit
42:26
cell. And so the way
42:28
back first is just to
42:30
begin to notice how that's happening. Okay,
42:33
so what happens when I feel threatened? Just
42:35
to begin to notice our strategies
42:38
without judging them, just to notice.
42:41
And and the very
42:43
simple, you know, strategy
42:46
for coming back is just to name what we
42:48
notice, okay, defending afraid,
42:52
you know, often obsessions, Just
42:54
to name it and then just very
42:56
gently kind of invite ourselves back
42:58
into the moment, into the body, into
43:00
the heart. That's kind of a universal
43:03
of noticing the way we strategically
43:06
dissociated and gently bringing
43:09
ourselves back. Another
43:11
universal is that this is
43:13
from the Bodhist for path, you know, the
43:15
path of the awakening being is
43:18
it has to be with compassion. So
43:20
one of the things I teach most regularly
43:24
is when you're suffering, just to put your hand
43:26
on your heart and offers
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some message of kindness inwardly,
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because in the moment that there's a gesture
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of kindness, even if it's just the intention
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to be kind something, and the
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armoring of the separate self begins to
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soften, and we begin to get a little
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more of a taste of who we are beyond
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that that space itself.
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We begin to sense the purity
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of our hearts and trust that a little more.
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So. Those are two examples of
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the ways of coming back that our universal
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to notice the strategy, come back
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into the bouddy and feel what's right here,
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and to bring a gesture of kindness to that
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moment. I think that's a beautiful
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place for us to wrap up
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the interview. Tara, thank you so
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much again. I encourage everybody to
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check out your talks and your books and everything
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You've been a genuine inspiration to
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me and I've I've really gotten a lot out of this conversation,
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and so have I. Eric. You're wonderful to
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talk to. I love your inquiry and thank you
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for what you're offering. I feel like you're offering
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something that really invites others into this
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whole stream of waking up. So
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many blessings. Also,
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Okay, take care of all right you do?
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Bye bye.
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You can learn more about Tara Brock and this
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podcast at one you feed dot net.
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