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Welcome to the reload , where we help unconventional
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leaders craft the life they truly want by questioning
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the assumptions they have about how life works
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. My name is Sean and I'll be your
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host on this journey . As
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a performance coach and special operations combat
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veteran , I help high performing executives kick
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ass in their careers while connecting
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with deeply powerful insights that fuel their lives
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. So
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today's episode is
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very much in keeping
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with the last couple weeks episodes
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in that I
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don't know , for some reason I've been really connected to these kind
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of bite sized little morsels
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of coaching information
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, largely fueled by
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conversations that I've
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been having with clients
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of mine and
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, to be clear , I have a great deal
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of respect for my clients . I
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think that they are attempting generally to
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do pretty big things in the world , not that
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that is the only measure of respect
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for an individual , but
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they're attempting to do that while also
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really truly attempting to be good
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people , attempting to be
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better leaders , better
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humans , more compassionate
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, more patient , more understanding
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, more aware and
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it's that last piece , being more
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aware , being more conscious
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of how they show up in the world and the
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impact that they have in this world and
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on the people in their life . It's
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that last one that I want to talk about . Over
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the years of doing this , one of the things that I've noticed
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and I've noticed this with
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friends and family as well is
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that oftentimes
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, perhaps
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even most of the time , intelligence
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does not equal
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awareness or
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consciousness . And
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if I look back at the
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trend that I've seen , the
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clients of mine and I have made mention
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of this in the past , but it's been quite
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a while the clients of
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mine who are
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the most intelligent
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from an IQ perspective
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are
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often the ones who are least
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aware , who
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have the least
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amount of consciousness , and
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if I'm being brutally honest , I don't
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quite know why . And
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of course , we can throw
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all kinds of doubt onto this
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observation by saying well , sean , I mean
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, how big is your sample size ? Have
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you sampled thousands and thousands of
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people ? No , I haven't , quite
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honestly , but
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there has generally been this observation
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and it makes me curious what
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is it about people
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who are highly intelligent that
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causes them to be highly
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unaware ? Because
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I don't know , there's something about that that doesn't
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seem to sit right , at least not at first glance
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, because we like
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to believe well , if somebody's really smart , they
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should be able to figure things out , they
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should be able to see how different
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factors work
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together . They
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should be able to recognize the ramifications or
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consequences or , you know , third
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order after effects . And
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one of the things that I guess I
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don't know kind of stands out for me is that
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oftentimes and
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I do notice this occasionally with my wife
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, who is extremely
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smart and everyone
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that knows her says so is
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there's often a
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sense of assurance that
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they are
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the ones who are seeing the world
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correctly . And
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they , these smart people , are
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often building their careers
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and have often gotten
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to their position of authority by having
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quote , unquote the right answer
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. Now
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, the right answer might simply
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be a right answer , one among
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many , but oftentimes
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, when we have a course of
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performance over our
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lifetime , over our career , of
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being told yeah , that's right
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, you are right , you
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have the right answer , the right
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answer , not a right answer , because
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Bob and Sue each came up with their own right
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answers as well . But hey , we're
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just gonna go with yours because it's maybe the
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easiest to implement , or you
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socialized it correctly , or who knows
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what right . But this gravitation
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towards such and
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such person having the right
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answer , and
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so oftentimes with highly intelligent
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people , they have a very
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long , established , robust
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track record from
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being an individual contributor , to
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eventually getting into positions of leadership , to
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eventually getting into top positions
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of leadership , all based on this
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notion that they have the
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right answer , that
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they see what others do not see
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, maybe even cannot
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see , and
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therefore they are the ones to guide
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the future course of the
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outfit , the organization , the
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company , the whatever . But
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in that there's
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this . I don't know this
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. If we wanna get into biblical references
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, there's this sort of tower of babble that
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we end up growing that eventually
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will fall , and
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it is because we're not actually aware
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. And
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when I think about some of the senior leaders that I've worked
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with , that lack of awareness
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often manifests itself
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as thinking that only
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they can come up with the
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right answer for the future , or the
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right course of action or the right strategic
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direction , and
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that they do not seriously
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consider that
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. Maybe they're wrong . Oftentimes
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they believe that their success is predicated
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on certain factors or certain characteristics
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, for instance their ability to grind
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, their
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ability to work harder than the next person . And
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again , who knows , maybe or
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maybe they were successful in spite
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of those characteristics , not
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because of them . And
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it's a I don't know , it's a mixed bag where
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it's a double-edged sword
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. A
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couple of weeks ago I talked about how it is that
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we maintain internal faith in
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the midst of external input
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, and
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that it's important to maintain internal faith
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. So
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then , what are we talking about this week , or am I going
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back on what I said a couple of weeks ago ? I
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don't think so , because I think a couple
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of weeks ago I did mention that , yeah
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, I think sometimes taking external
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input on board is actually quite important
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, but
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then again , maybe I am reversing
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myself so frustrating
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. We
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get to this place of trying to understand . Okay , how
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is it that we can really try to assess
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whether
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we are being unaware ? And
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oftentimes the only way that that really
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comes to the foreground , into a way that snaps
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into place for folks , is to come
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face to face or dive
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nose first into
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one's own blind spots
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, and
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very frequently , doing
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that is a painful process , because
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we often operate from a place of such
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assurance and inner
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confidence that we know what's going on , and
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it's only until we begin to have
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some external
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evidence
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, often
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characterized in the form of failure
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, that
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we begin to see oh
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, maybe this isn't working , maybe
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the thing about which I was so certain for so
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long is actually not
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the ticket , maybe it never
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was , or maybe I just find myself
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at a particular juncture in
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my life or my career where
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the things that used to be successful no
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longer are . And
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very frequently that is the space
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in which I operate with clients
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. Typically
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, they have gotten into a position
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of strategic leadership and
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they are beginning to recognize oh
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wow , it's
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not working . All my
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old ways of being or at
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least enough of them that it's
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a noticeable big deal are
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not working the way that they used to , and
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I don't know what to do because
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I'm so used to playing the same
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set of cards , but
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they don't seem to be working . So what
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can I do here ? How can I change ? What
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am I not seeing ? Because
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, ultimately , if we are highly intelligent
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but we are not aware , then
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it's incredibly
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likely that we're going to misapply
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our intelligence . We
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have a tremendous tool and we
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don't know how or
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where or when to apply
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it , because
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we're not really seeing the world as
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it is . One
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useful exercise that I think
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can help is actually to write
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down and physically write
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it out . Don't just think it , but
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physically write out . Where
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you have points of pride
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, where do you really
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truly pride yourself ? Oh , I
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really pride myself on being a good
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listener or I
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really pride myself on being a good
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leader . Well , of course , then you'd
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have to define what good leader actually means
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and
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try to keep it succinct . Don't
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write yourself a novel , but
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some succinct bullet points about what good leader
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means , wherever
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it is that you pride yourself . I
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pride myself on standing up for the little guy
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, or on protecting
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my people , or on calling
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it the way it is Speaking
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truth to power , as some people like
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to say . Yeah
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, write all those points down that you think
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you you know areas where you're like , yeah , I'm
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good at that , I do that , that's me , I
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own that
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. And then begin the very challenging
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work of
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asking yourself and you might actually need
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to ask other people to be honest where
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you fall down on that . If
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you'd think you're such a great listener , ask
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people assuming
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that they're willing to tell you the truth if
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they would rate you as
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a really good listener . If
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you think that you are so good at speaking truth
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to power , try to
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discern where it is that perhaps you
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don't , but
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the very least not always . Where
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is it that you slide
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into ass covering behavior ? Where
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is it that you perhaps laugh
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at the boss's joke even
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when you didn't think it was really all that funny . Where
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is it that maybe
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you're not standing up for the convictions that you think
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you hold so dearly ? Because
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our points of pride , the
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areas in which we feel we have
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the most pride especially , we
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are self-justifying and think we have all
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kinds of evidence to substantiate
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the pride that we feel . Those
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areas are often the areas of
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our biggest blind spots . And
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if we can look into those areas , then
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we can begin to recognize
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where things are breaking down so
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that we can actually start to address
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the issue . Maybe
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it requires us to adopt a
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new way of thinking . Maybe it requires
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us to learn new tools . For
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my own experience , a
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lot of people think that I am pretty
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intelligent and
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I can guarantee you that I was one
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of the least aware people out
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there . I
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walked around probably still
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do but
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I used to walk around with a colossal
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chip on my shoulder thinking
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that I had the answer
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. No matter
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what it was that we were talking about . I
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could see your problem and I could let you
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know what it was and I would give you the solution
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you just need
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. If you listen to the show for any
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amount of time , you know how much I
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get riled up at that phrasing . You
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just need two dot dot dot
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and your problem will be solved . You
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are welcome . And
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I was in reality quite rigid
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and
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I was deeply unconscious
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of the effect that I was having on other
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people . I was so completely unaware
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of this control freak
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nature that I was putting
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on other people , probably
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the women that I was romantically involved with , and
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when that came to light it
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wasn't actually a
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crucible moment for myself
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. It was something that I was observing somebody
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else do . It
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was somebody very close to me and
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they used a certain mannerism
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that instantly hit
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a note of recognition in myself
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, because it was a mannerism that I have myself used
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on many occasions and
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for whatever reason I was in a particular
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place , mentally , emotionally
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, seeing that behavior
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, that mannerism demonstrated
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on another person All of
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a sudden snapped me into
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awareness , consciousness
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, and I had this instant replay
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of all these moments in my
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life where I had done a similar mannerism
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to women in my
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life , women that I cared
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about or at least told
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myself and told them I cared about and
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, to be fair , hopefully to myself , I
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did care about them . But
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there was an element inside of me , this control freak element
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that that so desperately
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needed to control and
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for some reason needed to control the women
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that I was dating , and
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to see it displayed by another person and
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then to have this instant recall
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of these various
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instances where I had done the same thing . It
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was this powerful
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splash of cold water on
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my psyche , on my sense
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of self and
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, quite honestly , it brought a massive amount
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of shame forward , because
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I saw the effect that that mannerism
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was having on this other
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person's partner . So
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, in real time , I'm watching this drama unfold
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and I'm getting to see
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both roles
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being displayed and
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I can see the control animal inside
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the one and then I can see
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the hurt in the other . And
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fuck me . That was
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such a powerful experience and
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it helped me see something that was oh
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so deeply misaligned . Because
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if you had asked me outright , I would
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have told you all day long for my entire
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life no , come on . No
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, no , I don't want to control people
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. I'm all about
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people being independent and autonomous
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. Strong , I'm
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strong , I believe that I'm strong
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, I believe that I'm independent and autonomous
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. But part of
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that control was
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my own weakness
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, my own inability
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to accept different
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ways of doing things . I
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had to convince myself that my way was the
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right way and
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you had better fall in line . And
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so that moment was
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such a blessed
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teaching moment even though there
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was a lot of pain that came with it Because
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it helped me snap into what
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was really happening . It
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helped me to sort of tear down the veil
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of self-deceit that
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I had been putting in front of my own eyes , trying
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to assuage my
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own ego no , no , no , no , you
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got it , you're doing it right , you're good , you're
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good , never
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mind that they're like unhappy and they leave no
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, no , no , no , that's their fault . So
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using our points of pride can
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be tremendously effective in
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helping us pinpoint areas
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for inquiry , areas
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for us to start digging , exploring
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, trying to understand . Huh yeah , what's
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going on here ? Why
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am I so invested in
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people acknowledging
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my authority or
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acquiescing
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to my way of doing things ? Am
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I really the only person that has
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a brain in this outfit ? Am
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I really the only person that can come up with good ideas
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about how the future should go , or where
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we should go into the future ? If
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so , what kind of organization have you built
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around yourself ? Now
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, that's a thorny question for a lot
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of my clients , because when they start to criticize
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their subordinates as
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not seeing what the
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right way forward is or having
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some other sort of deficiency . I
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often ask them who
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hired this person ? Oh
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well , I did , okay
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. Well , I mean , if
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they really truly are that deficient , why haven't
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you replaced them ? Or , more
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specifically not more specifically , but
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more pointedly if you're
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in charge , why are you not training
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them ? If they really truly are not connected
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with the vision , or their
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deficient in some sort of skill set
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, why are you not training them to be better
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? And
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, interestingly enough
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, some of those leaders
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have said well , that's not my place . At
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this point in their career , they should already have
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the skill set . In which
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case , why did you hire them ? Right , we
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go back to the beginning . But
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ultimately , I
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think that looking at our points of pride
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in order
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for us to really truly assess
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with as much openness
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and vulnerability as we can muster , helps
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us get to a place of awareness
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and consciousness , and
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there will most likely be times that
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it's not entirely clear . That example
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that I gave from my own experience , that
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was pretty clear and when
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I saw it playing out , there was something
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deep in my guts , deep
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in the belief center
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, that
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said , oh my
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God , I do that . And
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then I was able to recognize the look of hurt
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on the various women that
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I had unconsciously attempted
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to control . Control in
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subtle ways , and that
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was part of what made this so difficult to
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identify in the first place . My control
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was unconsciously expressed
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and it was subtle , little
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sort of biting comments , backhanded
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comments , nothing over
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, like you know you better not talk to that guy or
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whatever but
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just little things . But
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then when I saw it , there was that deep recognition
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inside that yes , this
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is the thing that I also do and
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it felt true that
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I was doing this behavior . But
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there are times when it may not be that stark
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and
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that process it generally is more
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difficult because we're not sure
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. Do I do this ? Is
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it really fully on my shoulders ? Does
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the other party not have any responsibility
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in this as well ? Notice , I didn't say fault
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. Fault
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is very much , and I've done an episode on this that
23:47
you can search for . I don't remember which one it is but
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the difference between fault and responsibility
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. Fault
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is backward looking and it's
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really just based
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on retribution . I feel emotionally
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upset and I wanna blame
24:03
it on somebody . Responsibility
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is forward looking . Hey , we
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had a problem . We don't want
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that problem to reoccur . How
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do we address this ? What
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part do I own ? What part do you own
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? How are we going to improve the
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process or the relationship or the
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whatever ? So
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, in these moments or these
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aspects of ourself , our
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psyche , our soul , our spirit
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, whatever you wanna call it where we're unsure
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how much of it we own , a
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lot of times it does take conversation , really
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hashing things out with the other party . First
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off observing hey , this
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seems to be the circumstance in which
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we are operating . Do we agree
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that we're
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facing these factors ? I
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don't know , maybe there's a lot of arguing , or maybe
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I don't know , maybe there's a big project at
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work and there are multiple
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departments that have a
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contribution and it's bogging down
25:09
somewhere . And
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so , first off , we have to agree that
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we're facing the conditions that we all think we're
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facing . Are we agreeing
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on reality , which
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I'm laughing because so
25:25
frequently , especially if I coach multiple people
25:27
on the same team , as I've mentioned in other
25:29
episodes , there are so
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frequently times when
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people come out of the same meeting and then
25:36
they end up talking to me about it in their respective
25:38
sessions individually and
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they have vastly different
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experiences or accountings
25:47
of what happened in the same meeting , and
25:50
so it's not a given that everyone agrees on
25:52
what reality is , even though that
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seems very counterintuitive . It's
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like well , it's reality , ah , it's
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our perception of reality , and
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we tend to look at the world through our own lenses . And
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so , first off , we have to come to some sort of common agreement
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on okay , what
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is the truth of our reality
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? What was the
26:15
original agreement on ? Who owned what in
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a process and who was supposed to deliver
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what ? That's a big chunk
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of work all by itself , and
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it gets cloudy when
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it comes to family or friendship or
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romantic relationships , because quite
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frequently there is not some sort of clear delineation
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of okay , well , this department owns this and this team
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owns that , and then , together
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with all of our various inputs , we're gonna be able to accomplish
26:41
this process . But
26:43
in either case , we have to get to some sort of
26:45
common ground on what is actually
26:47
happening and
26:49
then , from there , begin to start to inquire
26:52
around . Okay
26:54
, why do we end
26:56
up in fights all the time ? Where
27:01
is it that one or both of us , or all of
27:03
us , are unable to really
27:06
speak objectively I
27:09
mean as much as humans can about
27:12
a charged topic without
27:14
getting defensive ? Can
27:16
we actually stay focused on the issue
27:18
instead of immediately
27:21
associating our own individual
27:24
sense of worth and validation
27:26
with
27:29
whatever is happening on the outside , which
27:33
is a whole nother body of work . But
27:40
if you are able to get to a place of actually
27:42
really truly being aware of
27:45
your own individual sense of worth and validation
27:48
and , one by one , delving into and then illuminating
27:50
your blind spots from
27:54
what I've seen play out in my life and the lives
27:57
of my clients , there is tremendous benefit
27:59
in terms of how effectively
28:01
and how powerfully you
28:03
navigate your world and
28:07
what it feels like and
28:09
that's another funny thing . So many of my clients are these
28:11
like really serious types who
28:14
kick ass and take names and really
28:16
get a lot of shit done . And yeah
28:18
, that's great , that's awesome . But
28:20
what's interesting is they often at least when I first start
28:22
working with them they sort of look down their nose
28:24
about feeling Don't talk to me about
28:26
feelings , sean , I've
28:29
got things to do . But
28:33
then we start to get into the touchy-feely
28:36
side of coaching and they start to tell me that their
28:38
life doesn't feel good . Yeah
28:41
, they're accomplishing a lot , but it doesn't feel good
28:44
. They
28:46
have a resume that's a mile long , all
28:49
kinds of trophies and accomplishments , and
28:51
yet they feel unhappy , they
28:54
feel overwhelmed , they feel like they
28:56
have the weight of the world on their shoulders . They're
29:02
not connected to a sense of joy . Now
29:06
, don't confuse it . I'm not talking about being
29:09
entertained , but
29:13
joy that
29:15
our life can actually feel
29:18
joyous while we do serious
29:21
work to accomplish
29:23
fulfilling things . And
29:31
becoming more aware , becoming more conscious
29:34
of how we show up
29:36
and the impacts that we have , helps
29:40
us be more effective , helps us achieve
29:42
more fulfillment , helps
29:46
us do all of that with
29:49
a greater sense of joy
29:51
and ease , and
29:55
it takes generally a lot of work to get there , but
30:01
I think things worth having
30:03
are worth
30:06
putting the work in for . Anyways
30:12
, hopefully this episode helped
30:15
you Again
30:17
. The exercise , in case you
30:19
want to take it on yourself , is to write
30:21
down the points of pride that you
30:23
possess and
30:26
then start digging for the blind
30:28
spots behind
30:30
those points of pride . Some
30:33
of it is going to be internal exploration
30:35
and probably some of it's going to involve talking
30:38
with others , and
30:43
if you cannot get anyone to tell
30:45
you something critical
30:47
, they
30:50
will not criticize you , and
30:52
if you are in a position of power over them , then
30:56
there is a really good chance that they are
30:58
too afraid to tell you the truth
31:00
and that should
31:03
be illuminating all by itself . If
31:08
you're enjoying the show , on
31:11
that prickly
31:13
note , if you are enjoying the show
31:15
for some odd reason , I
31:18
would love it if you would like subscribe
31:20
, follow , thumbs up that thing and
31:22
, of course , share
31:25
it with other people who are equally unaware or
31:30
don't . Totally up to you . But
31:32
until next time , take care of each other .
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