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the show notes. Good
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evening, and welcome
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to the Sleepy Bookshelf, where
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we put down our worries from the day
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and pick up a good book. I'm
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Elizabeth, your host. Thank
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you so much for being here this
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evening, because
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tonight we are
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continuing with Violette. But
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before we do, let's
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take a moment to
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prepare for a restful sleep.
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Wherever you are, notice
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how nice it feels to
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close your eyes after a long day.
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Begin to breathe steadily
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and evenly in
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through your nose and
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out through your mouth. With
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each breath, you
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are calming your body and
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mind. You
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are melting away the stresses of
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the day and
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slowing down, ready
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for sleep. Focus
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on where you are right
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now, and
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release any thoughts that might creep
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up about today or
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tomorrow. Always
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come back to
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your even breath. And
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when you're ready, Drift
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your focus to the sound of my
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voice as I recap
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our last episode. Madame
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Back asks Lucy to go
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into town to collect some
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fabrics and also take
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a basket of exotic fruits from
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the damn wall ravens, specifically
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to be placed in
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that lady's own hands. An
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old priest was just leaving
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the address as Lucy
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arrived and helped to
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convince the lady at the door to
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allow Lucy to see Madame War
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Ravens. Lucy
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waited in the barely
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furnished salon and
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an old woman eventually came to
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her, very short with
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a hunched back, but
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finally dressed in a
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brocade gown and dripping
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with jewelry. She
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rudely received Madame Back's
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gift and left abruptly.
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The priest invited Lucy to
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sit in a smaller salon
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to wait out the storm
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outside and told
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her a story about a
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young nun whose portrait
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hung on the wall. Justine
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Marie was the granddaughter
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of Madame War Ravens
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and was in love with a
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young man whose father died leaving
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him in debt. Justine's
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family wouldn't allow the marriage on
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account of this and
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so she took her vows instead but
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died young at the
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convent. Her
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father, a jeweller, fell
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into some bad business and
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also died, leaving the
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family destitute. Out
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of love for Justine Marie,
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the young man rescued
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her mother and
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grandmother and provided
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accommodations and food more
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than a loving son would do. Madame
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Warravens had never repaid
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the kindness and
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was the only member of the family
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still living. The
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young man in question was
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Monsieur Paul Emmanuel and
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the old priest, Per
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Cylus, who had helped
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Lucy on the night of
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her confession. And that is
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where we pick up tonight, with
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Madame Beck urging
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Lucy to forget the whole
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affair. So,
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just lie back and
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relax as I
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turn to the next pages of
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the web. Chapter
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35 Fraternity Oubliele
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Proffeso, forget
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the professors, so
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said Madame Beck. Madame
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Beck was a wise woman, but
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she should not have uttered those
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words. To do
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so was a mistake. At
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night she should have left me
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calm, not excited,
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indifferent, not
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interested, isolated.
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in my own estimation and
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that of others, not
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connected even in
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idea with this second
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person whom I was to forget.
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Forget him. They
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took a sage plan to make
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me forget him, the wise
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one, his head. They
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showed me how good he was. They
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made of my dear little man a
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stainless little hero. Then
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they had prated about his manner
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of loving. What
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means had I before this
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day of being certain
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whether he could love at all or
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not? I
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had known him jealous, suspicious.
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I had seen about
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him certain tendernesses, fitfulnesses,
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the softness
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which came like a warm air
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and a roof which passed
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like early dew, dried
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in the heat of his
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irritabilities. This
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was all I had seen. And
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there, Persilis
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and Modest Maria Beck, that
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these two wrought in concert I
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could not doubt, opened
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up the edictum of his heart,
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showed me one grand
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love. The
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child of this southern nature's
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youth, born so
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strong and perfect
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that it had laughed at death
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himself, despised
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his mean treatment of
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matter, clung
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to immortal spirit. and
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in victory and faith, had
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watched beside a tomb twenty
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years. This
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had been done not idly.
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This was not a mere hollow indulgence
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of sentiment. He
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had proven his fidelity by
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the consecration of his best
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energies to an unselfish purpose,
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and attested it by
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limitless personal sacrifices.
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For those once dear to her
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he prized, he
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had laid down vengeance and
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taken up a cross. Now,
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as for Justine Marie, I knew
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what she was as well as if I had
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seen her. I
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knew she was well enough. There
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were girls like her in Madam Beck
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School, Phlegmatics,
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pale, slow, inert,
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but kind-natured, neutral
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of evil, undistinguished
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for good. If
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she wore angels' wings, I
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knew whose poet fancy conferred them.
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If her forehead shone luminous
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with the reflex of a halo,
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I knew in the fire
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of whose irids that circlet
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of holy flame had
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generation. Was
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I, then, to be frightened
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by Justine Marie? Was
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the picture of a pale,
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dead nun to rise an
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eternal barrier? And
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what of the charities which absorbed
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his Worldly goods? Who
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says his heart. Swoon.
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To virginity. Madam.
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Silas. You should
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not have suggested these questions.
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They were it once, the deepest
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puzzle. The strongest
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obstruction. And the
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keenest stimulus I had. Ever
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felt. So.
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We can nights and days.
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I fell asleep. By
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Dream. And I will
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come on these. Two
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questions. In
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the home, well step. Is
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no answer to them
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except. Where one.little
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man stood. More.
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Lax it under the had piece
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of a and it on a
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drag. Them within
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the guy ever sorry palliative.
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Much be in and.
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Know little noticed. Too
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that to to the real damage
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a. I did want to
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see him again. Felt
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is is knowing what I
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now knew his countenance. Would
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offer page more li
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head more interesting. Than ever.
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I felt a longing. To
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trace in it that imprinted
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that Senate is devoted miss.
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The sign says that. Hearts nightly
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half St. Louis chivalry
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which the priests narrative
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imputed to his nature.
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Kids become my Christian
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hero. Under
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that character I wanted to see him.
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know will this opportunity slow to
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favour. My
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new impressions underwent her test
12:06
the next day. Yes,
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I was granted an interview with my
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Christian hero. An
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interview not very heroic, all
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sentimental, or biblical,
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but lively enough in its way. About
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three o'clock of the afternoon,
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the peace of the first
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class, safely established
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as it seemed under
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the serene sway of Madame Beck,
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who, in appropriate
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persona, was
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giving one of her orderly
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and useful lessons. This
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peace, I say, suffered a
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sudden fracture by
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the wild imbus of
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a palietto. Nobody
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at the moment was quieter
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than myself, eased
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of responsibility by Madame Beck's
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cousins, soothed
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by her uniformed homes,
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pleased and edified with
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her clear exposition of
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the subject in hand, for
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she taught well. I
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said, bent over
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my depths, drawing,
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that is, copying an
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elaborate line engraving, tediously
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working up my copy
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to the finish of the
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original, for that was my
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practical notion of art. And
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strange to say, it took
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extreme pleasure in the labour,
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and could even produce curiously
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finical Chinese facsimiles
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of steel or metal. things
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about as valuable as so
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many great achievements in
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worsted work, but
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I thought pretty well of them in those
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days. What
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was the matter? My
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drawing, my pencils,
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my precious copy gathered
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into one crushed-up handful,
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perished from before my sight.
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I myself appeared to be shaken
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or emptied out of my chair, as
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a solitary and withered nutmeg
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might be emptied out of
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a spice box by
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an excited cook. At
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chair and my desk, seized
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by the wild pallet of,
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one under each sleeve were
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born afar. In
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a second I followed the furniture.
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In two minutes, they
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and I were fixed in the
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centre of the grand cell, a
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vast adjoining room, seldom
15:13
used, save for dancing
15:16
and choral singing lessons, fixed
15:20
with an emphasis which seems
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to prohibit the remotest hope
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of our ever being permitted to
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stir thence again. Having
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partially collected my scared
15:35
wits, I found
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myself in the presence of two men,
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gentlemen I suppose I should say.
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One dark, the
15:47
other light. One
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having a stiff, half
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military air and wearing
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a braided sartou. The
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other partaking in garb and
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and bearing, more of
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the careless aspect of the student
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or artist class, both
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flourishing in full magnificence
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of mustaches, whiskers,
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and imperial. Monsieur
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Emmanuel stood a little
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apart from these. His
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countenance and eyes expressed
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a strong color. He
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held forth his hand with his
16:32
tribune gesture. Mademoiselle
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said he, your business
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is to prove to these gentlemen
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that I am no liar. You
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will answer, to the best of your
16:46
ability, such questions as
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they shall put. You
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will also write on such theme
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as they shall select. In
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their eyes, it appears, I hold
16:58
the position of an
17:00
unprincipled imposter. I
17:03
write essays, and
17:05
with deliberate forgery, sign
17:08
them to my people's names, and
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boast of them as their work. You
17:14
will disprove this charge. Grand
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ciel. Here
17:22
was the show trial, so
17:24
long of hated. Come
17:26
on me like a thunderclap. These
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two fine, braided,
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moustachioed, sneering
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personages were
17:39
none other than the dandy professors of
17:41
the college, Messiers
17:43
Boissek and Rochamont,
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a pair of cold-blooded fops
17:50
and pedants, skeptics
17:52
and scoffers. It
17:57
Seemed that Monsieur Paul had been
17:59
rashly gazbittingly. Something I had
18:01
written. Something he had never
18:03
once. Praise or even mentioned
18:05
in my hearing and
18:07
which I deemed forgotten.
18:12
The essay was not remarkable
18:14
toward. To me
18:17
seemed remarkable compared with the
18:19
average productions. A Foreign school
18:21
girls. In an English
18:23
establishment would have passed scarce
18:26
know test. This
18:28
is my second novel. Someones
18:30
has thought proper question. It's
18:32
genuine nets. Didn't sinewy
18:35
to cheat. I
18:37
was now to ban my testimony to.
18:39
The truth. And to be put.
18:41
To the To As bar
18:43
examination. A.
18:46
Memorable See in in seized.
18:51
They began with sex.
18:54
A dead blank. A
18:57
went on to French history. I
19:00
hardly knew mail Jose from
19:02
pheromones. They.
19:05
Tried mean various oddities.
19:08
And still only gotta shake
19:10
ahead. And an
19:12
unchanging. I. Do not know.
19:17
After and expressive pull
19:19
his they proceeded to
19:21
matters of general information
19:23
poaching. One or two subject
19:25
switch time he pretty well and
19:27
on which I had often reflected.
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Monsieur I man you. Wow!
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Who had hitherto steward looking
19:37
gone down to the Winter
19:39
Solstice? Brightened up
19:41
some month. He
19:43
thought I should now shame myself, at
19:45
least in a food. He.
19:48
Learned his era, balance
19:52
to the question sad
19:54
stops fast my mind
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selling like a rising
19:58
wow Ideas
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were there, but not
20:03
words. I
20:05
either could not or would not
20:07
speak. I'm not sure
20:09
which, partly. I think
20:11
my nerves had got wrong and
20:13
partly my humour was crossed. I
20:17
heard one of my examiners, heave
20:20
the braided Sertu whisper to
20:22
his co-professor, so she
20:25
is an idiot. Yes,
20:29
I thought, an idiot she
20:31
is, and always will
20:33
be for such as you. But
20:37
I suffered, suffered
20:39
cruelly. I
20:42
saw the damps gather on Monsieur
20:44
Paul's brow and his
20:47
eyes spoke a passionate yet
20:49
sad reproach. He
20:52
would not believe in my total
20:54
lack of popular cleverness. He
20:57
thought I could be prompted if I would.
21:02
At last, to relieve him, the
21:05
professors and myself, I
21:08
fammered out. I
21:11
hadn't been there. You had
21:13
better let me go. You
21:15
would get no good of me, does
21:17
he say? I'm
21:20
an idiot. I
21:24
wish I could have spoken with calm and
21:26
dignity, or I wish my
21:28
sense had sufficed to make me hold
21:30
my tong. That
21:33
traitor tong tripped, faltered.
21:38
Beholding the judges cast on the
21:40
sur manual, a
21:42
hard look of triumph, and
21:45
hearing the distressed tremor of my
21:47
own voice, I
21:49
burst in a fit of
21:51
choking tears. The
21:55
immersion was far more of
21:57
anger than grief, but I'd been a
21:59
man in so many ways. strong, they could have
22:01
challenged that pair on the spot.
22:04
But it was emotion, and I would
22:07
rather have been scourged than betray
22:09
it. The
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Incapables. Could
22:17
they not see at once the
22:19
crude hand of a novice in
22:21
that composition they had called a
22:23
forgery? The subject was classical.
22:28
When Monsieur Paul dictated the trait
22:30
on which the essay was to
22:33
turn, I heard it
22:35
for the first time. The
22:37
matter was new to me. I
22:40
had no material for its treatment. But
22:44
I got books, read
22:46
up the facts, laboriously
22:49
constructed a skeleton out of
22:51
the dry bones of the reel, and
22:54
then clothed them, and
22:56
tried to breed them into
22:58
life. And in this last aim I
23:00
had pleasure. With
23:04
me it was a difficult and
23:06
anxious time till my facts were
23:09
found, selected, and
23:11
properly jointed. Nor
23:14
could I rest from research and
23:16
effort till I was
23:18
satisfied of correct anatomy. The
23:21
strength of my inward repugnance
23:23
to the idea of raw
23:26
or falsity sometimes
23:28
enabled me to shun
23:30
egregious blunders. But
23:33
the knowledge was not there in my
23:35
head, ready and
23:37
mellow. It
23:40
had not been sown in spring, grown
23:43
in summer, harvested
23:45
in autumn, and garnered
23:47
through winter. Whatever
23:50
I wanted I must go out and
23:53
gather fresh, glean
23:55
of wild herbs my lap for,
23:58
and shred them green. In a
24:00
pot. Matthew
24:04
Spicer can wash you know
24:07
didn't know to perceive as.
24:10
They mistook. My work for the work
24:12
of a bright scada. They
24:16
would not let me go. I
24:19
must sit down and right before them.
24:23
As I dipped my pen in
24:26
the in with the shaking hands
24:28
and surveys the white paper that
24:30
eyes past lying dead. And
24:32
days are slamming. One
24:35
of my churches began mint singly
24:38
to apologize for the pain he
24:40
caused. Reacting
24:43
zones cost of sauce We do not
24:45
want to watch you. Said.
24:48
He. Scored.
24:51
Gave me now as. Ionian
24:53
said. Dictate.
24:56
Miss you. Have
24:59
some more named his team. Team.
25:02
Injustice. Schumann
25:06
Justice. Because
25:08
I should make of it. Cold.
25:12
Abstraction on suggested
25:14
to. Me of One Inspiring
25:17
idea. And.
25:19
There stood issue. Emanuel.
25:22
Sad a soul and stern
25:24
as show up. And
25:27
that triumphed his accuse his.
25:31
These two I looked. I
25:34
was gathering my courage to tell
25:36
them that I would neither bright
25:39
know, speak another word for their
25:41
satisfaction. The esteem
25:43
did not seat. Know
25:45
that presents inspire me. and
25:48
isn't notwithstanding the weather's really
25:51
the shadow of doubt don't
25:53
miss your money while sauna
25:55
out raged that truth as
25:58
which they hadn't known hearts
26:00
themselves, the champions.
26:04
I meant to utter all this, I say, and
26:07
suddenly, a light
26:10
started on memory. Those
26:14
two faces, looking
26:17
out of the forest of long
26:19
hair, mustache and
26:21
whisker. Those
26:24
two cold, yet
26:26
bold, trustless,
26:28
yet presumptuous visitors,
26:32
were the same faces, the
26:34
very same that, projected
26:37
in full gaslight from behind
26:39
the pillars of a portico,
26:42
had half frightened me to
26:44
death on the night
26:46
of my desolate arrival in Valette. These
26:51
I felt morally certain,
26:54
were the very heroes who had
26:56
driven a friendless foreigner beyond
26:59
her reckoning and her strength, chased
27:02
her, breathless, over
27:05
a whole quarter of the town. Pious
27:10
Mentors, thought I, pure
27:13
guides for youth. If
27:16
human justice were what she ought to
27:19
be, you too would scarce hold your
27:21
present post or enjoy your
27:23
present credit. An
27:26
idea once seized, I
27:29
fell to work. Human
27:33
justice rushed before
27:35
me in novel guise, a
27:37
red, random bell-damn
27:40
with arms akimbo. I
27:43
saw her in her house, the
27:46
den of confusion. Servants
27:49
called to her for orders or help which
27:51
she did not give. Beggars
27:55
stood at her door waiting
27:57
and starving, Unnoticed.
28:01
Warm his children think
28:03
and quarrelsome cruel that
28:05
around half feet. And
28:08
yelled in her ears appeals
28:10
for notice. Sympathy.
28:13
Sure redress. The.
28:17
Honest woman cared for known as these
28:19
things. She
28:21
had a wound see to her own by
28:23
the fire. She
28:26
had our own solace in a
28:28
show, but. Pipe. In
28:31
bottle as Mrs. So
28:33
soothing Sarah. She
28:36
smoked. And she sit.
28:38
And she enjoyed. Her paradise.
28:42
And whenever a cry of the
28:44
suffering so. Who's about to
28:46
pierce terriers? To kill me. My
28:50
jolly dame seized. The
28:52
Poco the house branch. They
28:56
ascend to whistle week. Wrong
28:59
in sickly. Chef
29:01
actually settled him. As
29:05
he was strong. Life and
29:07
He violent. She
29:09
only managed and plunged her
29:12
hand deep. Pouch I'm still
29:14
on the liberals shower of
29:16
sugar plums. Such
29:21
was the sketches Human
29:23
Justice scratched pretty. On
29:26
paper. Placed at service
29:28
system suis pas sack and the
29:30
whole shimmer. The
29:33
sewer man new, well rather take my
29:35
shoulder. Waiting,
29:38
no comment. A cat seats to
29:41
the tree and and we the
29:43
true. But
29:46
the school that day the show
29:48
and die again. Matt. Course
29:52
the meeting didn't know what
29:54
first run smooth but there's
29:56
a crow to pluck with
29:58
him that forced examine. could
30:01
not be immediately digested.
30:03
The crabbed dialogue terminated in
30:05
my being called, Un petite
30:09
mercuise et sonceux, a little
30:12
mocking and heartless, and
30:16
in Monsieur's temporary departure. Not
30:21
wishing him to go quite away,
30:23
only desiring that he should feel
30:25
that such a transport as he
30:28
had that day given way to
30:31
could not be indulged with perfect
30:33
impunity, I was
30:35
not sorry to see him soon
30:38
after gardening in the
30:40
Belsol. He
30:43
approached the glass door. I drew
30:47
near also. He spoke
30:49
of some flowers growing round it. By
30:54
and by, Monsieur laid down his spade.
30:58
By and by, he recommenced
31:00
conversation, passed
31:03
to other subjects, and
31:06
at last touched a point
31:08
of interest. Conscious
31:12
that his proceeding of that
31:14
day was specially open to a
31:17
charge of extravagance, Monsieur
31:20
Paul half apologized. He
31:23
half regretted, too, the fitfulness
31:26
of his moods at all
31:28
times, that
31:30
he hinted that some allowance ought to be
31:32
made for him. But,
31:36
said he, I cannot be
31:38
expected at your hands, Miss Lucie.
31:42
You know neither me, nor
31:44
my position, nor my
31:46
history. It's
31:49
history. I took
31:51
up the word at once. I
31:54
pursued the idea. No,
31:57
Monsieur, I rejoined.
32:00
Of course, as you say, I
32:02
know neither your history nor
32:04
your position nor your
32:07
sacrifices nor
32:10
any of your sorrows or
32:12
trials, or affections or
32:15
fidelities. Oh
32:17
no, I know nothing
32:19
about you. You
32:22
offer me altogether a stranger." There,
32:27
he murmured, arching his
32:30
brows in surprise. You
32:34
know, Monsieur, I only see you
32:36
in class. Sten,
32:39
dogmatic, hasty,
32:41
imperious. I
32:46
only hear of you in town as
32:48
active and willful, quick
32:50
to originate, hasty
32:52
to lead, and as you, but
32:54
slow to persuade and hard to
32:56
bend. A
33:00
man like you, without
33:02
ties, can have no
33:04
attachments, without
33:07
dependents, no duties.
33:11
All we with whom you come
33:14
in contact are machines which
33:16
you thrust here and there, inconsiderate
33:20
of their feelings. You
33:23
seek your recreations in public
33:27
by the light of the evening chandelier.
33:31
This school and yonder college are your
33:33
workshops where you fabricate
33:36
the wear called pupils. I
33:40
don't so much as know where you live. It
33:43
is natural to take it for granted that you
33:45
have no home and need
33:47
none. I
33:51
am judged, said he. Your
33:55
opinion of me is just what I thought
33:57
it was. For
33:59
you? I am neither a
34:01
man nor a Christian. You
34:04
see me void of affection
34:06
and religion, unattached
34:09
by friend or family, unpiloted
34:12
by principle or faith. It
34:17
is well, Mademoiselle, such
34:19
is our reward in this life. You
34:23
were a philosopher, Monsieur, a
34:26
cynic philosopher, and
34:29
I looked at his palatore of
34:31
which he straight away brushed a
34:33
dim sleeve with his hand, despising
34:37
the foibles of humanity above
34:40
its luxuries, independent
34:42
of its comforts. Evo,
34:46
Mademoiselle, you are
34:48
clean and cozy and horribly insensitive
34:50
to boot, but in
34:52
short, Monsieur, now I think that you
34:56
must live somewhere. Do
34:59
tell me where and what
35:01
establishment of servants do you keep? With
35:06
a fearful projection of the
35:08
underlap, implying an impetus of scorn,
35:10
the most decided, he
35:12
broke out. Y
35:17
viedre en trois. I live in a hole. A
35:20
in a better den, miss,
35:22
a cavern, where you would not put
35:24
your dainty nose. Once with
35:26
base shame of speaking the old
35:29
truth, I talked about my study in
35:32
that college. Now
35:34
know that this study is my all-abold.
35:38
My chamber is there
35:40
in my drawing room. As
35:45
for my establishment of servants,
35:47
mimicking my voice. Re-number
35:52
ten dies voilà. His
35:56
grimness. spread
36:01
close under my eyes his ten
36:03
fingers. I
36:07
like my boots, pursuity
36:10
savagely. I brush
36:13
my palidot. No,
36:15
monsieur, it's too
36:17
plain. You never do
36:19
that, with my
36:21
parenthesis. I
36:24
make my bed and my housework. I
36:28
seek my dinner in a restaurant. My
36:31
supper takes care of itself. A
36:34
past base, laborious
36:37
and loveless, nights,
36:40
long and lonely. I
36:43
am ferocious and bearded
36:45
and monkish, and
36:48
nothing now living in this world loves me,
36:51
except some old arts worn
36:54
like my own, and
36:56
some few beings impoverished,
37:00
suffering, poor in
37:02
birth and in spirit, whom
37:04
the kingdoms of this world own
37:06
not. A
37:09
too-oomer will and testament not
37:12
to be disputed as bequeathed
37:15
the kingdom of heaven. I
37:17
am, monsieur, but I
37:20
know. What
37:22
do you know? Many
37:24
things I very early believe yet, not
37:27
me, Lucy. I know that
37:29
you have a pleasant old house,
37:32
in a pleasant old square of the Basque.
37:36
Why don't you go and live there? Eh,
37:41
muttered he again. I liked
37:44
it much, monsieur, with
37:47
the steps ascending to
37:49
the door, the
37:51
grey flags in front, the
37:54
nodding trees behind, real
37:57
trees or shrubs. Trees
38:01
dark, high and
38:03
of old growth, and
38:06
the boudoir a retoir. You
38:09
should make that room your study. She's
38:12
so quiet and solemn." He
38:17
eyed me closely. He
38:20
half smiled, half
38:22
colored. Well,
38:26
did you pick up all that? We
38:29
told you. He asked.
38:33
Nobody told me. Did
38:37
I dream it, Monsieur, do you think? Can
38:41
I enter into your visions? Can
38:45
I guess a woman's waking thoughts,
38:48
much less a sleeping fantasy? If
38:52
I dreamt it, I
38:54
saw in my dream human beings
38:57
as well as a house. I
39:01
saw a priest, old,
39:05
bent and grey, and
39:08
a domestic, old
39:11
too, and picturesque.
39:16
And a lady, splendid but
39:18
strange. Her
39:20
head would scarce reach to my elbow. Her
39:24
magnificence might ransom a duke.
39:29
She wore a gown, bright
39:31
as la piece la zulie, a
39:36
shawl worth a thousand francs. She
39:40
was decked with ornaments so
39:42
brilliant I never saw any with
39:45
such a beautiful sparkle. But
39:49
her figure looked as if it had been broken in
39:51
two, and bent double. She
39:56
seemed also to have outlived the
39:58
common years of humanity. and
40:01
have attained those which are only
40:03
labour and sorrow. She
40:07
was become morose, almost
40:11
malevolent. Yet
40:14
somebody, it appears, cared
40:17
for her in her infirmities. She
40:22
forgave her trespasses, hoping
40:25
to have his trespasses
40:27
forgiven. They
40:31
lived together, these three people, the
40:34
mistress, chaplain, the
40:37
servant, all
40:39
rolled, all feeble,
40:43
all sheltered under one
40:46
kind wing. He
40:51
covered with his hand the upper part of
40:53
his face, but
40:55
did not conceal his mouth where
40:58
I saw hovering an expression
41:00
I liked. I
41:04
see you have entered into my secret, said
41:08
he. How
41:10
was he done? So
41:13
I told him how, the commission
41:15
on which I had been sent,
41:18
the storm which had detained me,
41:22
the abruptness of the lady, the kindness
41:25
of the priest. As
41:29
I sat waiting for the rain to cease, Per
41:32
Cylus whiled away the time with a
41:35
story. I
41:37
said, the story. What
41:41
story? Per Cylus
41:43
is no romances? Shall
41:47
I tell Mr. The Tale? Yes,
41:52
begin at the beginning. Let
41:55
me some of Miss Lucy's French, a
41:58
bastard or a worst. don't
42:00
much care which. Let
42:03
us have a good wagner
42:05
of barbarisms and a bounteous
42:07
dose of an
42:09
insular accent. Monsieur
42:13
is not going to be gratified by
42:15
a tale of ambitious proportions, the
42:17
spectacle of the narrator sticking
42:20
fast in the midst. But
42:23
I will tell him the title. The
42:28
priest's pupil. Barf,
42:31
said he, the swarthy
42:33
slush again dying his dark
42:36
cheek. The
42:38
good old father could not have chosen
42:40
a worse subject. This
42:42
is weak point. Barf, but
42:45
what of the priest's pupil? Many
42:49
things. You
42:52
may as well define what things I
42:54
mean to know. There
42:57
was the pupil's youth, the
43:00
pupil's manhood, his
43:03
avarice, his ingratitude,
43:06
his implacability, his inconsistency.
43:12
Such bad people, Monsieur. So
43:16
thankless, cold-hearted,
43:18
unshivalrous, unforgiving,
43:21
the priest said
43:23
he taking a cigar. Eppui,
43:29
I pursued. He
43:32
underwent calamities which one did
43:34
not pity. Bored
43:37
them in a spirit one did not admire.
43:41
Endured wrongs for which one felt
43:43
no sympathy. Finally,
43:47
took the unchristian revenge of
43:49
heaping coals of fire on
43:51
his adversary's head. You
43:56
have not told me on, said
43:58
he. really all
44:00
I think, have
44:02
indicated the heads of Per
44:04
Cylus's chapters. You
44:08
have forgotten one, that
44:10
which touched on the people's lack of
44:12
affection, on his head,
44:15
cold, monkish heart.
44:19
True. I
44:21
remember now. Per
44:23
Cylus did say that his vocation was
44:25
almost that of a priest,
44:29
that his life was considered consecrated.
44:34
By what bonds or duties? By
44:38
the ties of the past and
44:41
the charities of the present. You
44:45
have the Zuol situation?
44:50
I have now told Mr. Orel that was told me. Some
44:56
meditative minutes passed. Now
45:02
Mademoiselle Lucie, look
45:04
at me. And
45:07
with that truth which I
45:09
believe you never knowing leave
45:11
related, answer
45:13
me one question. Raise
45:16
your hands. Rest
45:18
them on mine. Have
45:20
no hesitation. Fear
45:23
not to trust me. I
45:26
am a man to be trusted. I
45:29
raised my eyes. Knowing
45:34
me. So rarely know.
45:37
All my untickidance. All
45:41
my responsibilities. Having
45:44
long known my faults. Can
45:48
you and I still be friends? If
45:52
Monsieur wants a friend in me, I
45:55
shall be glad to have a friend
45:57
in him. But
46:00
a close friend, I mean. Intimate
46:03
and real. Kindred
46:05
in all but blood. Will
46:09
Miss Lucy be the sister
46:11
of a very poor, fatterd,
46:14
bell-doned, encumbered man? Could
46:19
not answer him in words, yet
46:22
I suppose I did answer him. She
46:26
took my hand which found comfort in
46:28
the shelter of his. His
46:31
friendship was not a doubtful,
46:34
wavering benefit. Cold,
46:38
distant hope. A
46:41
sentiment so brittle as not to bear
46:43
the weight of a finger. It
46:47
once felt, or thought
46:49
I felt, its support. Like
46:52
a act of some rock. When
46:56
I dog of friendship, I mean true
46:59
friendship. He
47:01
repeated emphatically. And
47:04
I could hardly believe that words so
47:06
earnest had blessed my ear. I
47:10
could hardly credit the reality of
47:12
that kind, anxious
47:14
look he gave. If
47:19
he really wished for my confidence
47:21
and regard, and really
47:23
would give me his, why it
47:26
seemed to me that life could offer
47:28
nothing more or better. In
47:32
that case, I was become strong
47:35
and rich. In
47:38
a moment, I was made
47:40
substantially happy. To
47:44
ascertain the fact, to fix
47:46
and seal it, I asked. Is
47:50
Miss Year quite serious? Does
47:53
he really think he needs me, and
47:55
can take an interest in me as
47:58
a sister? For
48:00
surely, surely, said
48:03
he, a lonely
48:05
man like me who has no sister, must
48:09
be but too glad to find
48:11
in some woman's heart a sister's
48:13
pure affection. And
48:17
there I rely on Monsieur's
48:19
regard. There I speak to him when
48:21
I am so inclined. My
48:24
little sister must make our own
48:26
experiment, said he. I will
48:29
give no promises. She
48:32
must ease and try her wayward brother
48:34
until she has drilled him into what
48:37
she wishes. After
48:39
all, he is no inductile
48:41
material in some hands. While
48:46
he spoke, the tone
48:48
of his voice, the light of
48:50
his now affectionate eye, gave
48:53
me such a pleasure as certainly
48:55
I have never felt. I
48:59
envied no girl her lover, no
49:02
bride her bridegroom, no wife
49:06
her husband. I
49:08
was content with this, my
49:11
voluntary, self-offering friend.
49:15
If he would but prove reliable, and
49:18
he looked reliable, what
49:21
beyond his friendship could I ever cover?
49:26
But if all melted like a dream
49:28
as once
49:31
before had
49:33
happened. "'Dessedonk?
49:35
What is it?' said he,
49:38
as this thought threw its weight on my
49:41
heart, its shadow
49:43
on my countenance. I
49:47
told him, and after a
49:50
moment's pause and a thoughtful smile,
49:53
he showed me how an equal fear, lest
49:56
I should weary of him, man
49:59
of moods." so difficult
50:01
and fitful, but haunted
50:03
his mind for more than one day
50:05
or one month. On
50:09
hearing this, a quiet
50:12
courage cheered me. I
50:15
ventured a word of reassurance. That
50:20
word was not only tolerated,
50:22
its repetition was courted. He
50:26
grew quite happy, strangely
50:28
happy, in making him
50:31
secure, content, tranquil.
50:38
Yesterday I could not have believed
50:40
that Earth held or
50:42
life afforded moments like
50:44
the few I was now passing. At
50:49
countless times, it had
50:51
been my lot to watch
50:53
apprehended sorrow close darkly
50:55
in, but
50:58
to see unhoped-for happiness
51:00
take form, find
51:03
place, and grow more
51:05
real as the seconds sped was
51:08
indeed a new experience. Lucy,
51:14
sad Monsieur Paul, speaking
51:16
low and still holding my
51:18
hands. Did
51:21
you see a picture in the boudoir of the
51:23
old house? It
51:25
did, a picture painted on a
51:27
panel, the portrait of
51:29
a nun. Yes,
51:33
you heard our history. Yes.
51:37
You remember what we saw that night
51:39
in the B I
51:57
shall never forget it. nor
52:01
will you fancy, pursued
52:03
he, at a saint
52:06
in heaven perturbed herself with
52:08
rivalries of earth. Protestants
52:11
are really superstitious. These
52:14
morbid fancies will not beset you." I
52:18
know not what to think of this matter, but
52:22
I believe it a perfectly natural
52:24
solution of this seeming mystery will
52:27
one day be arrived at. Doubtless,
52:31
doubtless. Besides
52:33
no good living woman, much less
52:35
a pure, happy spirit, would
52:39
trouble armadine like ours. N'il
52:41
d'afre. I could answer. Fifine,
52:48
Beck, Burstyn, Rosie
52:51
and abrupt, calling out that I
52:53
was wanted. Her
52:55
mother was going into town to call
52:58
on some English family who had
53:00
applied for a prospectus.
53:02
My services were needed as interpreter. The
53:07
interruption was not unseasonable. Sufficient
53:11
for the day is always
53:13
the evil. For
53:15
this hour, its good
53:17
sufficed. Yet
53:20
I should like to have asked
53:22
Monsieur Paul whether the morbid fancies
53:25
against which he warned
53:27
me wrought In his
53:29
own brain. You
56:30
You You
57:30
You you
58:30
you you
59:30
you you
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