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Welcome , welcome , welcome . This is Dr Eman
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Kaur , and each week we will bring you an
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important message as we explore
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how to detox toxic
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relationships . The aim of this podcast
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is for you to unlock your own
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inner knowing , your own inner
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greatness , so you can know how
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to heal from the impact of a toxic
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relationship , so you can get your life
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back on track and live your
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best life . After all , we
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are all worthy of loving our life
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. One
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of the major problems we
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encounter after toxic relationships
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is the ways we have to numb
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and manage our emotions
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. There are so many
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ways that we do this . Sometimes
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it's through emotional eating , sometimes
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it's alcohol . There are so
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many ways that we will do this
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because we just find
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it really hard to face up to the
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pain of what we've been through . There
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really is so much pain
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, and the real reason we're trying
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to do this is we're trying to hide
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and not feel those
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insecure feelings , the vulnerability
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which tapped into
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our triggers , and when we get
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triggered by the narcissist
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or anything else , we start
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to worry about how we're
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reacting . We start to worry
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about the triggers and how we feel
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and how we can be out of character
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. This then causes more trauma
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. So then trauma causes more
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trauma and that's the reason why it gets harder
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and harder to
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recover . As we get older , emotional
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eating becomes more exhausting , and
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it's really understandable , for example
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, if you are struggling with emotional
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eating , this will then
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create more trauma . When
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you're not able to do what you
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need to do because maybe
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you're not able , you don't have as much energy
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as you used to . It's
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a way of sabotaging our self
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. You're not able to
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do what you was always
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wanting to do and eventually you'll get into a position
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where you'll feel like you're
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not good enough . And then
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another way might be
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that you're not able to do what you were wanting
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to do is creating reactive
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abuse . So when
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the narcissist says something to you
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or when somebody else says something to you , the
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trauma gets triggered and
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you react out of
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character . So a lot of times you're
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not reacting , You're calm . You're
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maybe in the phone
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scenario where you're trying to appease them
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, or you're in freeze . You're trying
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not to react , you're trying to stay calm , stay
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calm , stay calm . And then all of
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a sudden you just blow up and
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it's out of character for you For
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instance , your partner's
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cheating and they won't give
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you the phone , and then the pain
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of that means that you've just overreacted
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. You've taken their phone and you've smashed
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it and that's totally out
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of character for you and you've never
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done anything like that before . But
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since it's a toxic relationship and now
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you're reacting in
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this way , you then start
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to feel like you're
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losing your head , you're losing who
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you are . So this is an example
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of how you've got the trauma and
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it's creating more trauma where
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you're then triggered . And
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because you're triggered and you're
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reacting out of character , that
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then creates more trauma
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for you . In the way , now you're
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judging yourself and perhaps
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you're reliving the way you
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reacted and you're trying to make sense of it
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and you're worried what will people think
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of you ? And then that
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trauma , that reaction , is
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then used against you . Maybe your
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children are taken away from you . Then
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there's more trauma because of
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the injustice of it all and it sounds
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a bit dramatic , but I talk
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to people that are dealing with these scenarios
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day in and day out , where
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they're even replaying how they've reacted
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over and over in the head . If
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you are going through a difficult scenario
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, you really need to heal your traumas
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so you don't get triggered . You
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need to look after yourself so
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you don't start to doubt who you
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are , you don't start to doubt
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the potential that you had . You don't
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start to doubt the dreams that you once had
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. Because of the deep pain
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that the narcissist has created
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for you , you're not going to be
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able to do what you wanted
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to do the main reason why
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you put on this surf to fulfill
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your dreams because of what's happened
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with the narcissist . If you do
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not want something you
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know , if you don't want all your dreams to be shattered
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because of this toxic relationship
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, you really need to look at how
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do you identify with yourself right now
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. What is your current identity
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and what is it that you want
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to fulfill in your future ? Do
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you even have a future vision anymore
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or have you given up on it ? You
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see , if your present trauma
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is killing you , it's literally
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destroying all the opportunities that you
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have as well , and
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then you start to give up all the happiness
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and the potential for happiness . You start
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to give up on the potential happiness , and
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that's where we the future
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depends on our ability
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to deal with the trauma , because
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trauma basically creates barriers
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, barriers to creating
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relationships , love , joy , happiness
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, peace . Well
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, we can't experience that , and that's all
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because of the impact of trauma , and
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sometimes we want
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to move forward for a better
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future , but the biggest
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issue is that we no longer even
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know what we want , because
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we can't see a future like we once did
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, and this is because part of the brain
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called the hippocampus starts
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to shrink . This
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is a big thing , so the
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best thing you can do is make a
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decision , just make a decision
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that you're going to start on
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a journey so that you can see
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beyond the struggle that you're currently
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in , despite not not
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knowing if it's possible or anything like
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that , and we have to accept
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this in the beginning , that it's not going to be easy
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and we're going to have to put a lot of effort
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in to actually Find
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who you are again , because
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you've got to try and get your hippocampus
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back to where it was , you
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know , and initially you
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are going to have to put more effort in . It's like very
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much like a train . You know a train
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starts off slow and then you start to speed
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up , but you have to invest more energy
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, more time , more money , more
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Focus in something
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to start . And once you get going
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and you start to uncover
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the pain and you look at
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all the emotions , the mindset you
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start speeding up towards what it is that
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you want , and then you look at taking
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care of you . If
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we can't take care of ourself , who
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can we take care of ? You
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are the most important person
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in your life . Without you , there is nothing
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, you can't experience anything , and
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the transformation
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is what happens within
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your own mind During
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a toxic relationship . You
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, you realize that you hadn't
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been acknowledged . And
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the issue is you weren't
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just acknowledged , you weren't just not
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acknowledged and heard and seen by
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the narcissist . You yourself
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stop to acknowledge and see and hear
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yourself . That's
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why we lose our confidence
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, because we're not seeing
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who we are . The
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only thing we have is our own word
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for ourself . Can you trust
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in yourself ? Can you take care of yourself
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? Because a lot of the times we say
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things and the reason why
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it doesn't happen is because we don't believe
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what we say . We don't really
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believe in ourself anymore . We're
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saying things to the people outside
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of ourselves , but inside we're
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constantly letting ourself down . We don't even
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believe . Like you know , I'm not
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going to eat that cake or I'm
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going to stand up for myself next time , but
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you don't do it . And then what happens
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over time is we learn to , we
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lose trust with our own word , what
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we say , and the person you
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need to trust the most when it
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comes to doing what you need to do is
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yourself . You might have said
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I'm going to leave them , and
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then you break that trials
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. It's about
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making sure you're compassionate
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and supporting yourself . Don't
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tell yourself I'm going to leave them
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. Tell yourself I'm willing
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to see myself , hear myself
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and be there for myself . That
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is something that you can do . Don't
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put yourself in a scenario where
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your you break
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that trust with yourself , where you feel
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like you're letting yourself down , where
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you call yourself Things
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like a fool and things like that , where
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you don't feel like you can trust yourself
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, because that's how the narcissist
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takes us away from everything that
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we have , because it's breaking
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that connection to who we are . Make
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a different kind of commitment to yourself where you're
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saying I am going to
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Take care of myself to
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the best of my ability right now , you know
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. So you start to look and like
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the person that you are . Start off small
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. Don't make huge promises
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that you think that you're going to break . That's
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what's really hurting you right now
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. If you say to yourself I'm not going
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to allow this to happen , and then you do , then
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you start judging yourself and devaluing
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yourself , and that's the problem
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. That's the real problem . The
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real problem is the devaluation
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that you have within yourself , and
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that's what happens when you don't trust
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you . You start
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to devalue yourself , and that's
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when the narcissist is completely one , because
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not only are they taking you through the devaluation
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Cycle , they're letting you do it to yourself
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Over and over again . So
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you need to approach yourself differently
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. You need to approach life differently
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than you had before . Don't
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give up before you've even started
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. Allow yourself To
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, step by step , get back up
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. Otherwise it's exhausting if
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you make promises that you're not
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able to do by yourself . So
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the process is trust
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yourself first , even if it's small . And
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once you start on this journey , once
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you start making that commitment to yourself Not
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just through the therapy that you do it
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will become a lifestyle for you
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where you start to believe in you
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again and then you're
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doing the emotional , the psychological
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and spiritual work to
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actually become a new person . If you
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get support To actually
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heal yourself on top of that , you
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literally turn into a different person
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, and that is what I want for you
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for 2024 . If you start
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doing this , you will start to experience
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joy again and when you've been
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for a toxic relationship , we
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have to accept there's emotional , psychological
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and spiritual Alignment
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. That needs to happen . We're
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not aligned anymore , we
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haven't got a holistic approach to
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healing and we need to be
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aligned again so you start to feel connected
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back to you , so
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that you can trust yourself , so you can
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know yourself again , and
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with that Comes an immense
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sense of confidence . If
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you know you are going to be
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there for you emotionally and you're not
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going to just stuff those emotions down and
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pretend they're not happening , you will get
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a strong mindset . If
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you've got a strong mindset but you feel emotionally
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out of control , your nervous system
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will get triggered and you will not feel
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confident and you will not feel you can trust
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yourself and you will call yourself
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things like oh , how did I allow this
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to happen ? If you work on
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the areas that are out
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of alignment , looking at yourself
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in a holistic way , then
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Alignment is powerful
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and your quality of life will be
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off the charts . So you need
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to do a recce . Have a look at your
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life right now . Where are you ? What
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is it that needs aligning ? Is it your emotions
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? Is it your nervous system ? You know
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what is it that you're out of sync
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. Oh , don't just stuff it down and
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think your mindset can override
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everything . It's not how it works . You
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need to align everything so
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everything just flows . You
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see , then you'll realize that you're
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not broken . But actually
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, all these processes
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, all these experiences that , if you have
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been through , allowing
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you to see the beauty in
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you moving forward , you see , trauma
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happens when we're not seen , heard and understood
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for what we , what we earn , who we are
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. You are deserved to be loved
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, and when you're not loved in the way
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that you deserve , it
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hurts . So take a moment , how
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often on a daily basis
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are you not heard and seen
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for who you truly are ? How
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often are you pretending that you're
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okay when you're not ? How often
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do you have to numb yourself ? Know
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that this pain will just accumulate
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. More and more pain occurs and
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then we have to numb . We have to
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. There's no other way . And that's
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when we get into our unhealthy
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habits that will actually jeopardize
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everything . We might start
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to procrastinate self-sabotage
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, drink more , take drugs
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, shop more . We'll
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find ways of numbing
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because we
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can't deal with
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success anymore . If
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you have a lot of trauma , you
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will find ways of self sabotaging
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and breaking everything down so
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that you are no longer successful because
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you're not in alignment . You're
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subconscious . It isn't like you are allowed
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to have what it is that you want . You're
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allowed to have love
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. Then we can't
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deal with being seen and heard and understood
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. Let me give you an example of that . Have
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you ever seen lots of famous
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people ? They're highly successful
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and yet they committed suicide or they've
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got an addiction problem ? It's
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because they've numbed so much pain
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that they can't enjoy their success
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, the very thing they were desperate
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, they worked so hard for in life they would
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have done anything for . The
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trauma that they haven't healed
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is actually living , stopping
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them from actually enjoying and living
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the greatest moments in
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their life . When we have trauma
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, we have
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to deal with the stress
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so that we can
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move forward
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. We're not made to
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handle the high levels of
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stress and trauma that we
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have endured in toxic relationships
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, no matter how strong you are and I know you're
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very strong and you might
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believe that I should be strong enough
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to deal with it myself why , why
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should you ? Why should your body
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have to be able to deal with
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this ? Why should your mindset have to be
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able to deal with this ? You think
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that you have to figure it out and keep going because
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you want to get results in your life . You
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want to keep doing this , but it's
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killing you . Struggling
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is not healing . You
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have to find other ways of
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healing and it's not
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in alcohol , it's not in
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drugs , it's not in those things
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that you need to numb . Of course alcohol
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, you know , whatever it is , that you do in small
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doses is fine , but
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don't use it . If you're finding that
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is your way of numbing , it's
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just because you're not dealing with past issues
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. So you have to change your present
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situation and so
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that you can feel happiness
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and joy in your future
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. Your body keeps
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score of everything . Every
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time the narcissist abused you
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and you didn't say anything , you
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stored that stress in your
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body . And I'm not saying that you
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should say something to a narcissist , because you have
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to think about your safety . And
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then you've got all these other
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stresses on top of that , that normal life
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. Maybe you've had a stressful
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project that you've been dealing with
17:22
, or some other things happening where
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your children are struggling in some way
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, or you've had a miscarriage , or you can't
17:28
stop life from happening , or
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somebody's passed away that you really love , so
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you're grieving as well . Your
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body will release stress and
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your mind and your emotions are under
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that kind of stress . We
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need to learn how to deal with our issues
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, the lies , the hurts and the layers
17:48
of pain that the narcissist
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has put us through . And
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the thing is , the narcissist has trained
17:55
us that we have to be perfect
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at everything . So can you understand
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the stress that you've been through ? How
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many times have you been criticized
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or blamed or shamed for everything ? Do
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you can't get anything right or you're wrong
18:08
? They make you feel like you're wrong and
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they tell you that you're not doing enough
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for them or you don't love them enough , that
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you're unreasonable or unrealistic , that
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you're not doing enough for them , that you
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are the one with the issue you've got , the one with the
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trauma . You have got so much
18:24
that you've coped with , and
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the narcissist hasn't been responsible for anything
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, not one thing . Just
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think about the trauma that you're dealing with on a day-to-day
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level because of this . It's huge and
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it's affecting now everything you're
18:40
doing . Life isn't perfect
18:43
, and having standards for
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yourself that are so high , and
18:47
some in a really unhealthy way , means
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there's no room for mistakes anymore
18:52
and you might be telling yourself you're a failure
18:54
or because you've not been able to succeed
18:57
at this relationship , then
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you have to connect with that pain of
19:02
feeling like a failure , because
19:04
there is where the goodness
19:06
is , because that is where you can
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get to how you have been conditioned
19:10
that way and release it and heal it
19:13
. Otherwise , you will feel like
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you're failing all the time
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and you're blaming yourself all the
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time on a subconscious level
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. What we have
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to do is actually get to our core
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beliefs that we have , because that
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is what our identity is and how
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we live our life and how we see ourselves
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. Right now , if we can't
19:35
move forward and let go , it's
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because there's a core belief that
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you believe that you can't do it . Underneath
19:43
something , you might have a core emotional
19:46
wound where you feel so
19:48
vulnerable and hurt that you
19:50
don't feel you can trust yourself
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anymore . We're afraid
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that we won't be seen , heard
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and understood and I'll ask
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you take a moment
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today . Watch people around
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you , you know . Just take a
20:05
moment . Go to a coffee shop and
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just watch everyone and
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look at people and
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see . Every single person wants
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to be seen , heard and understood . If
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there's a person driving an expensive
20:19
car , why , why
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, what is it they want to be seen
20:24
. If it's that woman that's wearing
20:26
a beautiful handbag . They want to be
20:28
seen , heard and they
20:31
want to be acknowledged . This
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is innate . Are
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you seeing and hearing
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you ? Are
20:39
you giving yourself the time ? If
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there is core trauma at
20:44
core within you
20:46
, are you seeing it , hearing it
20:48
and being with it , allowing
20:51
yourself to move through that so
20:53
that you can let it go and you can
20:56
allow yourself to shine bright ? If
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you never stop and examine your
21:01
trauma subconsciously
21:03
, it will run your life and
21:05
it can destroy you . The
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best thing you can do is actually
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acknowledge it and bring it to
21:12
the conscious level and then
21:14
you become
21:16
in control rather than the trauma
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becomes in control . And if
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you're looking to heal from your
21:23
core trauma , then please do look
21:25
at the resources section . I have
21:27
an incredible program is four
21:29
months and by 2024
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you're going to be in 2024 you're going to be a completely
21:34
different person . You're going
21:37
to be living more through you
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rather than your , your trauma being
21:42
in control of you . And if that
21:44
is something you want and you're serious and
21:46
you don't want your trauma being in control
21:48
of you anymore , then please do look
21:50
at the resources section and start
21:53
being compassionate and loving towards
21:55
yourself about what you can do
21:59
. Give yourself commitments
22:01
so that you can learn to trust yourself
22:03
. And if you really want to trust yourself
22:05
moving forward , then please do look at
22:07
the resources section . Till next
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time , keep being loving to yourself
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