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Best career advice that I can give
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Don't ever attach
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yourself to a person , a place
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, a company , an organisation
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or a project . Attach yourself
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to a mission , a calling , a
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purpose . Only that's
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how you keep your power and your peace . It's
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worked pretty well for me thus far
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, and that was reposted on
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Instagram by Erica William Simon
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. The handle is at Miss
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E Will . Hello everybody
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and welcome to a brand new episode
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of the Toy Tools podcast . It's been a while . It's
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been a while . I've got to admit
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. It's been a few weeks and , to
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be honest with you , I need to take some time out
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because I was starting a new job , going
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perm , trying to figure out
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um , kind of like
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a new routine , and that
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you know doing my due diligence at work . I'm still doing
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my due diligence . We're three weeks in um
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and just you know , just getting used to
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the change of a perm , because it's a
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lot when you've been a contractor for seven years
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and now you're
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having to basically
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invest in
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one company where before you never
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really invested . Now I
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use the word invest because I think it's the best way to describe
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going perm but not
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invest in the way you think . I
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mean just focus on
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one role as opposed to
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having several other clients or
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just looking at the delivery aspect
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of working for a particular client . I think
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when you go perm , you're more
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involved in the fabric of the organisation
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. You are going to those town
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halls , you're looking at your objectives for
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the year're , definitely
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um , focusing
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on making sure that your due diligence
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is done on a periodic basis
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, as well as when you first start . You're
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getting to know your team . You need to figure
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out what the politics is and where
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you're positioning yourself and ultimately
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, working on your strategy about
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your career and where you want to go to , and
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that's a lot you know . So I
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took it a couple of weeks off
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and obviously in true form I
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take a few weeks off and a lot happens in in
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those times . But if you follow me on Instagram
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, I do kind of talk about certain
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things . I'm very active on Instagram more
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than any other social media platform
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, and that's because it's 24 hours
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on stories . It's easy , it's
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you know , it's just easy
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. Tiktok is probably the second most used social
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media platform that I use , but it's
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short bursts of toy
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talk , stuff , um . Snapchat
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I use less , but I need to
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actually use it more because I'm
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now saving a lot of the videos from instagram
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and I will be posting them on snapchat , and
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snapchat is the birthplace of the toy talks platform
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, so I will never not
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be on snapchat . I just need to commit
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myself to be on it more regularly . That
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being said , so
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I had a new role and , yeah
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, like it's , it's going okay . Um , I
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definitely really like my team
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. We're all really , really different , but
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it all works . My manager
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is really lovely . He's not based in the UK
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. He is coming over to the UK in two
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weeks time , so we're gonna have like a team meeting
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in person and we're going to dinner , which
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, again , is different
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for me . Number one , because it's not something
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I usually do , but different also because now I have a
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daughter , I'm a mum , so
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I feel like networking
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with my team or kind
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of doing these things means
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something different , even more so now that I'm a
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mum , because all I want to do is get back
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to my child . I'm not really interested in doing the dinner
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. However , I recognize as
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part of navigating , especially with
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the organisation I'm working for . It's
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important and
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the organisation I'm working for
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it's
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a very flexible culture , but
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you're still expected
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to show up
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. Show
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up okay , um , and navigating , from what I've seen , is going to require me to give a little
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of myself , obviously
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never giving enough of myself
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, but I'm pretty
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happy and everything I've I
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teach on the toy tools podcast is what I'm living
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and I always say to you
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, whether you're a contractor
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or perm , you need to know what your objectives are
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pretty early on . I've
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been here three weeks and I've asked every week
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for me and my boss to work through my objectives
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and I've just
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got . I've come in um
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, at the opening of um
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. What do you call it ? What
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do you call it ? Bonus , bonus
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year ? You know where . Now
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they start looking at your deliverables . Are you
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hitting your objectives ? And
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then they'll start quantifying that with the percentage of bonus that you would basically
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be awarded . So I'm using this as a really good opportunity to get to know my boss
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, because I've really written . As a really good opportunity to get to know
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my boss because I've already written down a couple
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of things and have a few things in my mind
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about what my objectives are going to be , but
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allowing him to lead this because he's very much
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wanting to be in control of this whole thing . But
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we have to mutually agree what those objectives
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are and also I'm linking
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that into my job description and now I'm on
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the ground actually seeing the viability
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of actually achieving those objectives . So , working
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with him , um to
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come up with objectives
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although I have my own and I'll be sharing
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those with him and
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also um using
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bonus year to see how
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he sees me , you
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know , sometimes it's it's you're not always in
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a situation where you know you
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get to know someone really , really well
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because you go to the office every day and you can see
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the whites of their eyes . When you
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have a boss who maybe isn't in the same
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country as you or as myself
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, a hundred percent remote and
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building that relationship
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requires you to really observe
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and the due diligence has to be done quite
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rapidly because you're not
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getting to see the physical gestures
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, you're not seeing him with
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other people or her with other people
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and therefore you're arriving
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at an understanding of the character that you're
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working with is quite
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difficult if you don't allow yourself
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the opportunity and time to really observe in
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other situations . I've never been in
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a meeting with my boss and my other stakeholders
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, so I don't know if he's quite a confident
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person or if he's quite
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a forceful . I don't know these things , I just know that
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with me he's been very nice , very accommodating
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, but he's extremely busy . But but
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this how he does decides my
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bonus , how he quantifies the bonus
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, how he communicates my bonus is
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going to let me know a bit more about his character
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in terms of his employment integrity
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, and I feel like people don't talk about employment
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integrity enough . And employment integrity is
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something I have coined and it's
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about how people operate
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in their position of power and
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how they exercise their power , that power
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with junior members of staff , junior
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to them , because in my organisation
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I am senior but
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obviously he is a director and
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I could have been benched as well because
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, consultancy style , I
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could have been benched and I've been deployed onto a project
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and I've also been
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deployed onto another project . We're just
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waiting for that to come through . I also
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have a holiday coming up , so all
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of this is going to be really interesting to see how
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my boss deals with these things . You know
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how I'm , how am I gonna be covered
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when I'm not there , how
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, like I said , he handles
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the very nice what he , what he
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apportions to my bonus , so the percentage
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he gives me , and it would let
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me know a little more about him and
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how he views me and
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then understand strategically how to navigate
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in order to obtain what my personal
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career objectives are , because he's going to be
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fundamental to that . So
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, yeah , I think it's important that
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I share this , because no one exists
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is no one is exempt from the strategy
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of navigating work , irrespective of the position
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you hold . In fact , the more senior you
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are , the more political it becomes . And
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then it's also about leveraging your
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boss or senior members of staff to navigate
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the political aspects of the world
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of work and organization
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that you work in . I
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can't um open
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this podcast without
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discussing diane abbott . Now we
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all know what was what has occurred
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here in the UK and
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effectively the largest Tory
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donor is Frank Hester and
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he has an estimated wealth
8:55
of 415 million and
8:59
over the last two years he's donated
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10 million to the Tory
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party . He's also profited
9:05
, and he's
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profited by having been awarded
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some contracts
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. So 135 million
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of the NHS contracts were awarded to him between
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2019 and 2022 , which
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was at the height of the pandemic . So
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hopefully that
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gives you a flavour of
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the
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type of money and
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influence and wealth that we're talking about
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when we talk about Tory donors , because Tory has several donors
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, but he is the highest
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um financially
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, the highest Tory donor . So
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Tory Hester has
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been accused of and
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ordinarily one would say allegedly
9:52
, but it's not really alleged , is it ? But
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for the purposes of being politically correct
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he has been accused
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of saying that Diane
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Abbott makes one
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hate all black women and
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that Diane Abbott
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should be shot
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. This is what is alleged that
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Frank Hester has said . Now
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this blew up in the media . It catapulted
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the conversation of race
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, the violence and recklessness
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of words , the inciting
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of hatred that's
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underpinned by racism , and
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it's really allowed us to see how
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politics operates like , what
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are the what , how . You
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know we're talking about diversity and culture
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and living here in the UK . I just want to
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add that diane abbott is a 70
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year old woman . She is the longest serving
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mp in black british politics
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. She has
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been through a lot
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like , we've seen a lot , and
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I do need to caveat all of this by also
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saying that diane abbott is currently
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suspended from the labour party um
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and she's been accused of anti-semitism
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. So all this is
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happening all at the same time . And
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kia starmer I've always had issues
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with kia starmer because I feel as though
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kia starmer
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is the labour party leader but behaves
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like a conservative . Keir Starmer
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is the Labour Party leader but behaves like a conservative
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. Instead
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of him to during the parliamentary questions . To Rishi Sunak , instead of Keir Starmer
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, whose member of his party has been verbally attacked and
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abused and discriminated against , instead
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of him to have called upon
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her , who had stood up 46
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times during the parliamentary question
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they were all talking about
11:49
her and she was there he
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didn't once turn around and say
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you know , my learning friend wishes to
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make a statement . From
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what we've heard from Diane Abbott , kiyosama
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hasn't reached out to her . What
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Kiyosama did in , in my opinion
12:05
, is use this to railroad his
12:08
political agenda , and
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he did not safeguard
12:13
the interest or safeguard
12:15
Diane Abbott and
12:17
and and . What he was
12:19
condemning , and rightfully
12:22
so , was what was said , but
12:24
it was all performative because
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we were literally watching the parliamentary
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questions . Diane abbott was there . Kia
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starman knew he . She was there . He didn't
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want to turn to her . You're
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trying to tell me . No one told him that she was there , standing
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up 40 . Do you know how many times ? 46
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times , how many minutes you must be standing up to
12:44
be standing 46 times ? And
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not one person asked her to speak
12:49
. Rishi
12:52
Sunak said
12:55
that Frank
12:58
Hester has apologised . So
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his apology if sincere , which
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, which was sincere
13:05
, should be accepted . Do
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you know how wild it is to tell a black
13:10
woman we
13:13
? You will be abused , you'll be
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discriminated against , you will
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be verbally assaulted and
13:19
if the person is sincere in their apology
13:21
, you should just accept it . Who
13:25
and what gives you the right to tell us what
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we should and should not accept ? How
13:30
dare you ? Frank
13:33
hester apologized
13:35
if his words were . I think I can't
13:37
remember his exact words , but he said
13:39
that he apologized if his words were offensive
13:42
. Can you imagine ? That is
13:44
very different to apologising for
13:46
the act of being discriminatory
13:48
and verbally abusive . He did
13:50
not take accountability , and that is the problem
13:53
. And that lack of accountability
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provides the licence for other
13:57
people to think it's okay to behave in that way
13:59
because there are no consequences . Ie
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the complete condemning
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of that behaviour . The
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policing of black women is
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violent . The assault
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and the verbal aggression
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and assault towards black women is very violent
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and this is why
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, if I feel
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as though I'm being treated in a disadvantageous
14:26
way , I'm gonna talk . I
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will never allow myself to be
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oppressed by anyone , and very
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least of all a white person and
14:35
very least of all a white man
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. It's not gonna happen and I've shared
14:40
with you a podcast episode called closet
14:42
racist , where I
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genuinely I genuinely feel as
14:47
though there are people out there , non-black
14:49
, who are
14:51
either intimidated by black women
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or see us as an easy target
14:55
for abuse . And
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this was an opportunity . What happened to diane
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abbott was an opportunity for non-black
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people to condemn the behaviour
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and unite in a single voice
15:07
of understanding that this cannot happen
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. This is no more different
15:11
to discriminating anyone for the race
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and colour of their skin and their gender . If
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Diane Abbott was a white man , he would not
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say it . If Diane Abbott was
15:23
any other race and and a man , frank
15:26
hester would not have said what he did . It's
15:29
inciting hatred , it's
15:31
inciting violence what he said
15:33
. It is now under police investigation
15:36
and I'm really interested to see the outcome of
15:38
that investigation because by the
15:40
principles of the law and
15:43
the definition of verbal assault inciting
15:45
racial hatred and discrimination , a
15:47
crime here has been committed . So
15:51
we're waiting
15:53
. But what was very evident is a lot of
15:55
the political commentators who were black were
15:57
called , and
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what was more disgusting is the way in which the media will weaponise black people who are skinfolk
16:13
but are not skinfolk , so skinfolk physically but in their minds they're still mentally
16:15
enslaved and having
16:17
the audacity to be
16:19
for hire , to
16:22
condemn Diane Abbott and talk about her
16:24
history or whatever . Whatever listen
16:27
, when , when an assault has happened
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, when , when something has happened I don't give
16:31
a damn whether diane
16:33
abbott was disrespectful
16:35
in the house of commons or whatever it is and
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I'm just giving an example here an act
16:40
has been committed that is racist
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, it is verbally violent
16:45
and incites a level of violence
16:47
that is incomprehensible , that
16:50
needs to be addressed , but
16:52
for some reason , we convolute
16:55
issues in this country to avoid addressing
16:57
the vulnerability that
16:59
is placed upon black women by
17:02
removing up , attempting
17:04
to remove our ability
17:07
to feel safe and feel
17:09
safe to be able to express ourselves and feels
17:11
this country is is
17:14
just unbelievable . I
17:17
want to give you an example . We're still staying on
17:19
the topic of diana , but here I'm going to give you an example
17:21
of something um
17:23
, every sunday we take our daughter swimming right
17:26
, and there's parents there with
17:28
their kids , you know , and you've got other parents
17:30
sitting on the sidelines and it's
17:32
really beautiful and there's like an age group and it's
17:34
actually a swimming school . So my daughter will grow
17:36
up in this swimming school . Yeah
17:38
, so I
17:41
was sitting there and I
17:43
can sit here and say , I
17:45
mean , okay , there's
17:48
probably four black people that attend , right
17:50
, the swim school . It's a very diverse swim
17:52
school , to be honest with you , but
17:55
the objective of the swim school is to get
17:57
the babies , you know , in
18:02
the water , get them to start using their bodies and understand how to swim and teach
18:05
them core skills . I believe swimming is a life skill . Yeah
18:07
, so
18:09
as I'm there , I
18:11
decided that I wanted to take pictures
18:13
of my daughter , because k is the one that goes
18:15
in the pool with our daughter . Our daughter is now 11
18:18
months . She started going swimming
18:21
at nine months . Um
18:23
, because it was just so difficult to get her into the
18:25
swim school , but , by the grace of god , I managed
18:27
to get her in the swim school . So so
18:32
, um , a
18:34
few weeks before , I did ask the swimming
18:36
instructor , the coach , can
18:38
I be taking pictures of my daughter ? And she
18:40
said , yeah , as long as it's of your daughter , there's
18:43
no problem . It's always nice to have the memories
18:45
. I said no problem , I'll make sure that if
18:47
I accidentally capture anybody else , I'll delete
18:49
it , but I will , you know , for me it's . You
18:51
know , I just want to take . So she goes , no problem . So
18:54
now we're in in a class and
18:56
this is probably my daughter's third or fourth class
18:58
. So as
19:00
case in with her , I say , it's okay , I'll bring
19:03
her closer . So I bend down and
19:06
as I'm about to take a picture , there is a man
19:08
that is also sitting on the side . Now , there's
19:10
a few parents on the side , but this one in particular
19:12
has a newborn baby in a car seat
19:15
and he is
19:17
a little bit close to me . His
19:20
wife , partner , concubine
19:23
, whoever she is and his son
19:25
are all the way on the other
19:27
side of the pool . So for me personally I don't
19:29
know why he's sitting there , because I don't see how he can see them
19:31
. But ah , should be . This is
19:33
a free country , see where you want . So
19:36
as I'm taking a picture of my daughter and I'm bending down
19:38
, this man says excuse
19:41
me , you're not supposed to be taking pictures
19:43
. You shouldn't be taking pictures . I
19:47
don't want you taking pictures . I says pardon . He
19:49
repeats himself . I
19:51
said what's your problem ? Before I could
19:54
say anything further , the swimming
19:56
coach comes over and
19:58
she says oh yeah , no , you're not supposed to be taking
20:00
pictures . I said excuse me , jenny , we've
20:02
had this conversation . And
20:05
she goes have we ? I said excuse me , jenny , we've had this conversation and she goes
20:07
, have we ? I said yeah , and the conversation went a little bit like I would like to be
20:09
taking pictures of my daughter and you encouraged
20:12
me that that would be a great idea for memories
20:14
, and you give me the parameters and the boundaries to take
20:16
those pictures . I said please
20:18
have a look at my phone . And she goes oh , that's
20:20
a lovely picture of your daughter . I said do you see anybody there ? She goes no , I
20:22
said that's because I was bending down to take those pictures of my daughter . She goes oh , that's a lovely
20:24
picture of your daughter . I said do you see anybody there ? She goes no , I said that's because I was bending down
20:26
to take those pictures of my daughter . She goes oh , there's nothing wrong with it . I
20:30
turned to the man with his baby
20:32
in the car seat . He's there rocking
20:35
it with his leg . I said , excuse me , you
20:37
don't get to police me . You know you
20:39
do not get to police me as a woman
20:42
or as a black woman . He goes oh
20:44
, here we go . I says I don't care , we're
20:46
going to go down that road . He
20:48
said , oh , he doesn't want anyone
20:50
taking pictures of his child . I said excuse me , your child and
20:53
your wife or your girlfriend or your concubine
20:55
are all the way on the other side . You
20:58
chose to sit here , so I want you to tell me how bending down
21:00
to take a picture of my child interferes with
21:02
taking a picture of your child . Tell me how
21:04
that makes sense . I said you know what it is . You're
21:06
a busybody and maybe
21:08
you don't have a voice in your house . You're coming here to command
21:10
somebody else . I said it's never gonna
21:12
be me . I said you see , today you've
21:15
picked the wrong one on the right day
21:17
. You don't want to respect the baby that you're rocking
21:19
here . Instead , it's me that you want to police
21:22
. That's not going to happen . I said maybe what
21:24
happened to diane abbott ? You think that all
21:26
black women must be treated like that ? It's not
21:28
going to happen . I said you don't get to command
21:30
me , you don't get to talk to me , you don't get
21:32
to control me , and if you don't like
21:34
what I'm doing , go make a formal complaint to the swim
21:36
school . But what you're not going to do is police
21:39
this black woman on this day or
21:41
any given day . Then
21:44
he was trying to say something and
21:46
I anyway I was just ignoring him and
21:48
then k obviously could see
21:51
my facial expressions and I speak with my
21:53
hands and he had our daughter
21:55
in his hand in his hands , still swimming
21:57
. He said is everything okay ? And
21:59
I said , yeah , everything's okay . This
22:01
, this man and his , his , his
22:03
baby car seat . He picks it up , walks
22:06
all the way to the other pool , other side of the
22:08
pool , to his wife I don't know what he's saying to her wife
22:10
, girlfriend , concubine , I don't know then
22:13
walks on the side , by the way over
22:16
to k , bends down and says , oh , there's no
22:18
problem . I said , excuse me , move
22:20
, move . Then
22:23
he comes and sits back . I said no , you're not sitting
22:25
there . I said because your job today
22:28
is to police a black woman , and it's this black
22:30
woman . You're not going to police and you're not sitting here . So
22:32
find where you're going to sit , but you're not sitting next to me
22:34
. You need to move . He
22:36
picked himself up and he walked out . He
22:40
walked out . I want
22:42
to say that I'm using a lot of passion to explain
22:44
what happened , because every time I think
22:46
about it I get irritated , but
22:51
I was very calm . I was very calm because I'm
22:53
very conscious that there's other kids there and
22:56
my daughter's there . However , I
22:58
have to defend myself where
23:01
anyone attempts to oppress me , especially
23:10
someone who attempts to oppress me because they think they
23:12
can . It's not gonna happen . His behavior till this day makes no
23:14
sense . When the swimming school had finished , there
23:16
was a lady , a white woman , and
23:19
she her husband is a as um
23:21
, a black man that comes to
23:23
the swim school as well , and they've got a little
23:25
boy , gorgeous little boy . So
23:28
, as as um , the swim school finishes
23:31
for the day . She comes over to
23:33
me . She says excuse me , why was that
23:35
man speaking to you like that ? I said , my dear , I don't
23:37
know she goes , but you were bending down
23:39
to take a picture of your child . If anyone should have the problem
23:41
, it should be me , but it was very obvious to me that
23:43
you were bent down . The only person you're going to be taking
23:45
a picture of is your child . Obvious to me that you're bent down
23:47
. The only person you're going to be taking a picture of is your child and , moreover , I don't have
23:50
any problem . You should be free to do what you
23:52
want . I says , my dear , this is called policing
23:54
black women 101 . And she goes
23:56
. Definitely , I can see that it's
23:59
not right and it's not acceptable and he has
24:01
no right to talk to you like that and if it happens again
24:03
I'll be saying something . I said thank you , thank
24:05
you for , and she goes . I just wanted to make sure you was okay
24:07
. Let you know that you haven't done anything wrong . I said I know I haven't
24:10
, but I appreciate the support , thank you
24:12
. When a white woman is
24:14
coming to a defense of a black woman
24:16
against a white man , you
24:18
don't fuck up . You don't fuck the
24:21
hell up . Yeah , you fucked
24:23
up . You
24:26
see , I feel like and funny
24:28
enough , or not so funny enough . That
24:30
was a week after what happened to diane abbott , so
24:32
that was still very fresh on my mind . It
24:35
was very fresh on my mind . A
24:38
lot of us , as black women , we were triggered
24:40
by that because what happened to diane abbott
24:43
is a reflection of sometimes what we experience
24:45
in the workplace where , um
24:47
, you're working , maybe in white dominated
24:50
industries , especially with the fragility of
24:52
some white men not all some
24:54
feeling that
24:56
they have the audacity and the power
24:59
and the , the courage
25:01
to speak down to us
25:03
and , basically
25:05
, a certain authority . That is quite
25:07
oppressive , least in microaggression
25:10
, the , the foundation of which is
25:12
racism , but they don't want to
25:15
have that conversation . As soon as you mention race
25:17
they , they jump , because
25:19
you are now starting to , you
25:21
know , pull the table on
25:24
, on on the the foundation
25:27
of what they are talking about . When you shake
25:29
the table and you question the motive
25:31
, if it wasn't that , he would have said
25:33
that's got nothing to do with it . I apologize
25:36
if you think it is , but it's not . He could
25:38
have , but he didn't . And
25:40
one thing with me I'm going to let you know now I
25:43
have been through so much that
25:45
when I utilize my money for
25:47
enjoyment , like swim school , nobody
25:50
is going to stop me from doing that . If
25:52
you don't like to see black women enjoying
25:55
in any form of enjoyment or
25:57
luxury , you have a problem
25:59
. But it's not my problem to diagnose
26:01
your problem and it's not . I'm never going
26:03
to allow you to cheat me out of my enjoyment
26:06
, because if I took it where
26:08
he wanted it to go , I would have
26:10
cheated myself out of enjoying my daughter's women
26:12
. No , I was very clear with
26:15
him and I was very direct and also
26:17
I told him you're not sitting here Because what
26:19
I don't want now is my behaviour to change
26:21
or for me to feel uncomfortable or awkward to take
26:23
pictures of my child because of the fragility
26:25
of this white man who wants to police me
26:27
, this black woman , on no
26:29
given day will ever that will be the case
26:32
. Now I
26:34
caveat that by saying and
26:36
I shouldn't , but I will , for purposes of
26:38
just saying it again . So it's clear this
26:41
is not my experience of every white man , this
26:44
isn't , but I have had experiences
26:47
that are negative with white men
26:49
. So this is why it's important for
26:52
us to gather in a safe space to have
26:54
this conversation , because it's important
26:56
, as black women , that we are revived
26:58
in confidence to challenge
27:00
microaggressions , and
27:02
that challenging microaggressions
27:04
is challenging the person who is exhibiting
27:06
a microaggression to demonstrate
27:09
to us that if they , if , if what
27:11
we are saying isn't what it is , then
27:13
they should correct us . They
27:16
should correct us . When you don't correct
27:18
me is because I've shaken the table and
27:21
taken off the blinds of
27:24
what you're doing and I've brought it to the light . I've taken
27:26
it out of the blinds of the darkness and brought it to the
27:28
light . So for me , I
27:31
couldn't understand how I'm bending down to take a picture
27:33
of my kid . Your
27:36
, your concubine and your son are
27:38
on the other side of the pool and you're choosing
27:40
to sit next to me . That was your first mistake
27:42
. Have you come to observe your your child
27:44
swimming ? Or have you come to observe this black
27:46
woman enjoying family time with her family
27:49
? You see
27:51
, when , as black women
27:53
, we speak up , they
27:55
don't like it and that's why they label it
27:57
as us being aggressive . Because , you see , if
27:59
you label us as something , then what you
28:01
do is you strong arm us into silence
28:04
. And what does silence do ? Silence
28:06
allows you to suffer in
28:08
silence , and when you suffer
28:10
in silence , you empower
28:13
the person who is
28:15
being the aggressor to continue
28:18
. That can't happen . You cannot
28:20
silence me because
28:22
I have been silent for a long
28:24
time and
28:26
when toyah talks happened , it wasn't a conscious
28:29
thing . It was me sharing my experiences
28:31
of the world of work and people gathering
28:33
and sharing their experiences and
28:35
understanding that , collectively , this
28:38
is a problem and we need to find a strategic
28:40
way in which to navigate the world of work and
28:43
life whilst not
28:45
losing our voice as
28:47
black women . It's really easy for us to
28:49
lose our voice when society
28:52
will blatantly show
28:54
you like a situation like diane
28:56
abbott and you become almost
28:58
disappointed in the
29:00
lack of accountability and
29:02
condemnation of that behavior exhibited
29:05
towards diane abbott . That in itself
29:08
can strong arm us into silence , but
29:10
it's not going to happen when
29:13
you see it , you must call it out , and
29:16
it's the way you call it out . So sometimes you might
29:18
call it out as making a statement
29:21
, you may call
29:23
it out by making it formal
29:25
, you may call
29:27
it out by challenging the situation
29:29
whilst you're in it and
29:31
you may call it out by using the system
29:34
to support you ie
29:37
, you know , making a formal complaint
29:39
to hr , if you'd like , or , in
29:42
extreme circumstances such as diane Abbott
29:44
, reporting it to the police . But
29:48
living in a society which
29:52
continues to disrespect
29:55
black women and
29:57
then uses some
30:00
of the croners , some
30:02
of the puppets
30:04
that label themselves
30:07
what's it ? Cultural
30:09
commentators that look like
30:11
us , they will use people that look like us to
30:14
abuse us . That
30:16
in itself is also violent . What
30:20
diane abbott endured was racism
30:23
, threats of violence
30:25
, discrimination on
30:27
the basis of her gender and
30:29
disrespect of the highest
30:32
order . So
30:35
when I see other black women who are MPs
30:37
, I salute you , because
30:39
I couldn't do it . I
30:42
couldn't do it . I
30:47
believe it's Diane Butler . I
30:49
think her first name is Diane Diane Butler . Basically
30:54
, during the pandemic parliamentary
30:57
question or just after
30:59
the pandemic , I believe , she
31:02
accused Boris
31:05
of lying to them , of
31:07
lying to the public . The
31:09
way she was reprimanded
31:12
by the house speaker . They
31:15
asked her to leave I believe only
31:18
now to turn around that boris had
31:21
been lying about certain things . The
31:23
way they humiliated that woman
31:25
in the house of common . Honestly
31:28
I was like girl , this
31:30
is too much . The
31:33
house speaker watched diana
31:36
, but stand up 46 times
31:38
46
31:41
. A white man that is . He's
31:43
a house speaker . He's
31:51
a house speaker . Listen , my thing is this I'm done with trying to find a level playing field
31:54
. We need equality . I , you know , I I support that , but
31:56
I understand that we're
31:58
a long way off . So now I'm into
32:00
strategy and using the system that was created
32:02
by them , or use the system against them
32:04
to cover myself and
32:06
look after and protect myself because I feel very exposed
32:09
. What happened to diane abbott
32:11
really triggered a lot of us black women because
32:14
we felt exposed . We can imagine ourselves being
32:16
her . We know that in certain situations
32:18
we have been a diane abbott where we've been
32:20
ignored . Where we've been violated verbally
32:22
, we've been disrespected , disregarded micro
32:24
, macro aggressions used as a weapon to control us . Where we've been disrespected , disregarded
32:27
micro-macroaggressions used as a weapon to control us . Where
32:29
we have been silenced
32:31
. Where we come
32:33
out and tell people our experience and they
32:35
try to make us feel as though it's
32:37
not that serious or if an apology
32:40
has been rendered , we should just accept it without
32:42
the accountability . It's
32:46
just not on . I've
32:52
worked in an organization before but I was so disrespecting on a call and I weaponized
32:54
those white tears that my white female
32:56
counterparts have shown me . And
32:58
there was another white man on the call and
33:01
I leveraged his ability and
33:03
his proximity to whiteness because our boss was
33:05
white to get him to
33:07
complain to my boss about
33:10
what had happened . But matt , the white
33:13
guy that had disrespected me , was spoken
33:15
to and honestly , that
33:17
that that um organization dealt with it
33:19
. Really well , I was very surprised they
33:22
dealt with it and I was a contractor , by the way . He
33:24
was instructed to render an apology
33:27
to me and the other guy me
33:29
. I was even confused . I said it was me that was disrespected
33:31
. What's the other guy got to do with it ? Obviously his , his
33:33
fragility , he said I he was
33:35
astonished on the call . So he had
33:37
this heightened sense of fight or flight . Ah
33:40
, these people use english grammar , or
33:42
me , I'll use this one . Fight or flight
33:44
, I will use that one . Yeah , I
33:46
was like ah , do
33:49
you know , to this very day , this man never
33:51
apologized . The guy that disrespected . He didn't
33:54
apologize , and the disrespect is when I was talking to
33:56
him , he was shouting . I told him to
33:58
shouting and then he's like taya , I'm gonna
34:00
let you know
34:03
who I am and and I don't need to come to you
34:05
and ask you what my contractual
34:08
position is , because I'm telling you that
34:11
I'm the stakeholder and , as far
34:13
as I'm concerned , I don't need anything from you
34:15
. Ah , the way he was talking , I said are
34:17
you a goblin ? What sort of ? Yeah
34:20
, what stupid . I
34:25
didn't care whether he apologized or not . I just wanted him
34:27
to put a notice that your
34:29
other senior managers now know that you're a thug
34:31
. So
34:33
you care about what your colleagues think
34:35
. And look at it , it was your fellow man
34:38
that went and snitched about your behavior towards
34:41
a black woman and towards him because
34:43
of his virginity . You know . I
34:45
just wanted it to be put on on record
34:48
that your behavior was deplorable . Whether
34:50
you apologize to me or not , I don't care . I
34:52
just needed him to know that it's never gonna be me and
34:55
you're not gonna get away with it . The way he was talking to me
34:57
thereafter ah , he was like um , you
35:00
know a puppy . Yeah
35:04
, he was like a puppy because he's embarrassed
35:06
now , isn't he ? He thought that was a call of just three
35:08
of us there . No , I brought it to the lights and
35:10
this is what I'm saying about bringing things to
35:12
the light and understanding strategically how to do
35:14
certain things . Apologies , they don't really do
35:16
much for me . It's changed behavior , but
35:19
your inability to render an apology shows
35:21
me that your ego is so
35:24
damn fragile that rendering an apology
35:26
makes you feel like you're weak . That
35:28
tells me more about you than it does about
35:30
anything else , and that's cool . But
35:32
the idea for him of apologising
35:35
and apologising to a woman better
35:37
yet a black woman he couldn't do it
35:39
, and this is how
35:41
we are in the workplace . So
35:45
Diane Abbott and what
35:47
she went through was utterly deplorable
35:50
. It was , it was disgusting
35:52
, it was just shocking
35:55
. And I know
35:57
for a lot of us we close our eyes and we remember
35:59
a situation where we've had
36:02
an adjacent feeling to what she could possibly be
36:04
feeling , but also recognizing
36:06
that what happens in politics usually finds
36:08
its way into life and that
36:11
almost shock that
36:13
this could happen on such a public scale and
36:16
what is the consequences ? What
36:19
are the police gonna do ? The
36:21
labour party are effectively her employer and
36:23
they haven't got her back . She
36:26
was literally in a situation where she
36:28
could talk about the effects of what happened , what
36:30
her belief is of what happened
36:32
. She was not even given a voice
36:34
to speak . They ignored her . They
36:37
ignored her . How many
36:39
of us have felt ignored or feeling
36:41
ignored in our workplaces where
36:43
you know that your voice is there but nothing is coming
36:45
out , there's no sound . That's crazy to me
36:47
and this is why I
36:50
will continue to advocate for us as
36:52
black women , advocate for myself in
36:54
my situations and also advise
36:57
you guys , teach you guys , give you guidance
36:59
of how to advocate for yourself when you find yourself
37:01
in certain predicaments that are
37:03
driven by the prejudice of people
37:05
who do not want to see black women be successful
37:08
, prosper or be happy . I will always
37:10
, always have to provide
37:12
an opportunity to share so
37:14
that , as black women , we can find the confidence
37:17
and the courage and the reassurance to go in the world
37:19
of work or go out in life and
37:21
use our voice . Grammar
37:24
, grammar . I
37:27
remember my first day at secondary school . My
37:30
dad had taken me . My dad was so proud , he was so happy
37:32
, and we was in assembly
37:35
and we had our
37:37
head teacher was mr shipley . Uh
37:40
, no , was it mr shipley ? Yes
37:42
, it was mr shipley , and
37:44
in the assembly he introduced himself
37:47
and he said I want everyone to stand up and repeat
37:49
after me education
37:52
, education , education
37:55
. And I think it was . Tony Bleda
37:57
said that as well . Well , mr
37:59
Shipley was a Labour supporter and
38:01
my dad was passionate . My dad made me repeat
38:04
it and I was thinking what the hell
38:06
? But you know when
38:08
I look back what that said to me . You
38:11
have to learn the ways of the land
38:13
in which you live . You
38:16
need to educate yourself
38:18
about
38:21
where you are , where you work
38:23
. Due diligence is an education
38:25
. You need to
38:27
be a subject matter expert . Read
38:29
around your subject education
38:32
. You need to understand
38:34
the ecosystem and where you work
38:37
. Education . You
38:39
need to be clued up to
38:41
what micro and macro aggressions
38:43
look like . Education . You
38:46
need to understand how
38:49
you are going to package
38:51
yourself . Education and
38:54
you need to open your mind
38:56
to learning education
38:59
. That's what that meant to me at
39:01
the age of 13 and now being 39
39:04
, that is what I I remember was
39:06
the beginning stage
39:08
of my formal education
39:11
into education and
39:13
the life of education , ie the
39:16
life we're living now . There
39:20
is a reason why they don't teach
39:22
us about mortgages , loans
39:24
, credit investment
39:26
. There
39:33
is a reason Brokerage accounts . You know they
39:35
don't teach us these things and if they're teaching them , they're not teaching
39:37
them in inner city schools , honey , where
39:39
I came from . It's
39:42
a form of control by
39:44
removing the access to
39:47
knowledge which will educate you
39:49
into the decisions you will make . There's
39:51
a reason why we are not taught these things
39:53
. Do
39:56
you think if I had a podcast back when I
39:58
was in my 20s ah , me
40:01
, me , what I suffer , I do
40:03
, me who has suffered
40:05
in the hands of people it
40:08
would have been a rap for everybody . Ah
40:11
, but
40:13
here we are , learning
40:15
from our mistakes , being students
40:18
of life and allowing ourselves
40:20
to be educated , and also
40:22
being students and learning from other people's
40:24
situation . Mistakes and winnings
40:26
that's what's important
40:28
. So
40:30
the question I ask in any situation
40:33
that happens is what have you learnt
40:35
from it ? So what's happened with Diane Abbott
40:37
? What did you learn ? I'll
40:40
go first . I
40:42
learnt that I have
40:44
a duty to myself , and now to
40:47
my daughter , to advocate
40:49
for myself in situations
40:52
that make me uncomfortable , because
40:55
in that swim school I felt uncomfortable Because
40:58
something so simple was made to
41:00
feel like it was wrong . I
41:04
also learned that you can stand
41:07
up 46 times and
41:09
people will ignore you sometimes
41:12
you have to use your ability
41:14
to use your voice and your platform to
41:16
advocate for yourself . You have
41:18
to use the tools around you to
41:21
be able to use your voice . Diane
41:24
Abbott played the political game
41:26
too unpopular opinion
41:28
. She could have done a
41:30
um instagram live
41:32
. She could have used social media , because right
41:34
now she has nothing to lose , and
41:37
she could have shared with us , number
41:40
one , what was said . How did she come
41:42
to know it was said , how it
41:44
made her feel and what she expects
41:46
from her , the Labour leader , keir Starmer
41:49
, and put him on a high jump . But
41:54
maybe she's just tired . These
41:57
several years in politics has possibly made
41:59
her tired and she probably thinks you know what ? I
42:02
can only give what I can give . I've done my best . Maybe
42:05
that's it , but I
42:07
wish you know . I know that there
42:09
was a rally in Hackney Is
42:11
it Hackney West ? I can't remember , but in Hackney
42:13
, which is her constituents
42:15
, and they really like , oh , they protested
42:18
for her . They really lifted
42:21
her on their shoulders . But even
42:23
then , when she was given the mic , I felt
42:25
like her answers were so political , the things she
42:27
said were so odd , like
42:32
I feel like she never really said what she really wanted to
42:34
say , and I feel like Diane Abbott , keir Starmer
42:37
, don't want you in the Labour Party , no more . You're still suspended
42:39
to this day and
42:41
I feel like what do you have to lose ? Because
42:44
there's other black women like myself and several
42:46
of us here that are looking to you
42:48
to almost advise
42:51
us and to teach
42:53
us what you have learned through this situation
42:55
and give us a
42:58
window to what this situation
43:00
actually is and means . But
43:02
I feel like maybe you feel like that's not your
43:04
job and that's cool , but
43:06
I want to hear from because I still don't feel
43:08
like we really heard from diana . But if I'm honest
43:10
, what
43:13
do you learn from that situation ? How
43:16
can you better improve yourself to
43:18
place yourself in a situation whereby you
43:21
can better handle difficult situations or uncomfortable
43:24
situations ? Because , as black women , I'd
43:26
like to . I'd you know , you know it is . I'd
43:28
like to just exist without
43:30
feeling policed or
43:33
without being made to feel uncomfortable , and this
43:35
is the reason why I opened my mouth at swim school
43:37
. There's
43:39
some situations that happen where I'm just like , oh , not today
43:41
, but because
43:44
of what's happened with diana . But I feel like what
43:46
happens in politics will find its way into life usually
43:48
and you have to nip it in the bud
43:51
to let them know now when you put on
43:53
your tv , you're not going to come and live EastEnders
43:55
out here , mate , absolutely not . Also
43:59
as well . I want to just mention
44:02
very briefly , because I know that Celebrity
44:04
Boob Brother has finished now
44:06
, but Louis Walsh and ZZ Mills . Louis
44:09
Walsh , within the first 48 hours
44:11
of entering the Big Brother house
44:13
and he met ZZ Mills . He was in
44:15
the diary room and he nominated
44:17
ZZ Mills to
44:20
be evicted from the Big Brother
44:22
house and his reason was that she's
44:24
sure of herself and she's full of herself
44:26
. And
44:32
his reason was is that she's sure of herself and she's
44:35
full of herself ? He
44:37
said that she thinks that she's famous
44:40
but nobody knows who she is
44:42
. And blah , blah , blah . I always say
44:44
to you that being a subject
44:47
matter expert is your superpower . The
44:50
reason I say that is the
44:52
confidence you gain from
44:55
knowing something well , leveraging
44:58
it to navigate the world of work and earn
45:00
yourself more money in senior positions
45:02
is what makes people like Louis
45:04
Walsh uncomfortable , because
45:07
he's been conditioned to think either
45:09
only him or people that look like him
45:11
have
45:13
access to that . His
45:16
inflated self-importance comes
45:18
from being
45:21
affirmed by society that
45:24
he is important and no one else is , or
45:28
people that look like him are more important
45:30
than when
45:33
I heard that , I thought there
45:35
it is . When
45:38
a black woman is confident , she's
45:41
labelled arrogant . When
45:44
a black woman speaks up
45:46
, she's called confrontational
45:49
. Sassy is sometimes
45:51
what they use because it's on the cusp
45:53
. When
45:56
they meet an educated black woman , they
45:59
will ask us to prove that education
46:01
because , as black women , we couldn't possibly
46:03
educate ourselves enough to
46:06
find ourselves in this position . So how did we get
46:08
here ? As
46:10
black women , we have a duty to
46:15
rise and soar , because
46:18
being oppressed or to continue
46:20
to be oppressed is not an option . If
46:24
you want to attain true success and
46:27
define success as what it means
46:29
to you , you have to allow yourself
46:32
the opportunity to be
46:34
the best in class at what you do . Where
46:38
I'm currently working , I am the only
46:40
black woman on the team . Now
46:43
, it's a diverse organization
46:45
, but I am the only black woman on my team
46:47
and
46:51
I don't remember
46:53
it or it doesn't come to my
46:55
mind . It's just
46:57
something that I'm aware of because , as black
46:59
women , we're hyper aware of our environment
47:01
, aren't we , and how
47:03
we and what masks
47:05
we're putting on , but
47:09
I've been
47:11
put in the deep end really
47:14
and truly . When you start somewhere new , you
47:16
should be benched . And
47:18
then consultancy environment . You should be
47:20
benched at least for a week or two , as
47:23
you were climatized to your environment . But
47:25
I wasn't . I was
47:27
deployed . I
47:30
don't do procurement . I find it really
47:32
boring . I can't stand it . To be
47:34
honest , but
47:37
every time and everywhere I worked , I
47:39
always found myself in a procurement team doing
47:41
commercial contracts . So
47:44
in I'm about
47:46
to say 1998
47:49
, in 2017
47:51
, 2018 , I decided to do my
47:53
level four sips in procurement and supply . It
47:58
was the best thing I ever did , the hardest
48:00
as well , because it was going back into education
48:03
after having my master's for several
48:05
years . It was a lot and balancing that
48:07
with work , but it was
48:09
, for me , a great opportunity for
48:11
me to do . I had nothing else to
48:13
do apart from work and stuff and I was figuring
48:15
life out . So why not ? And
48:19
one of the reasons I did it is because , in order
48:21
to kind of be good at what I did
48:23
, I needed to understand the steps that happened before
48:25
in the procurement cycle . So what better than to educate
48:28
myself through formal education
48:30
? Do
48:32
you know where I've been deployed before
48:35
we get to the bulk of what I need to do . I have
48:37
to . I'm involved now in the procurement cycle
48:39
and
48:41
I'm having to add value
48:43
from day one . Do
48:47
you know that my boss had
48:49
a meeting with
48:52
one of my key stakeholders ? Now , as part
48:54
of my due diligence , I know who my key stakeholders
48:56
are . I have a very good relationship with them . They're
48:59
very inclusive , I must say . They make
49:01
me feel part of the team . They introduce
49:03
me , they ask me for my opinion . They're lovely . They're
49:05
really really nice people and very learned
49:08
, very educated . They are , you
49:10
know , best in class at what they do . Anyway
49:13
, one of our key stakeholders went to my manager
49:15
um , my boss had a conversation
49:18
because obviously we need to
49:20
know pipeline and stuff , and
49:23
he said toy is brilliant
49:25
, she's a team
49:27
player and
49:29
she is uh , she really
49:31
thinks things through , she doesn't just talk
49:34
for the sake of it , and
49:36
she's added so much value and
49:39
I'm really looking forward to working with her going forward
49:41
. You
49:45
know , for me , when
49:47
my boss came back to tell me which I thought was
49:49
lovely because he didn't have to do , you know
49:51
what I picked from that . It's
49:54
really important to read around your subject matter
49:56
. So if you're still
49:58
figuring out a career , whatever
50:00
you land on , you need to
50:02
read around what you do . You need to do further
50:05
education , further learning . When
50:09
you go somewhere new or even if
50:11
you're an existing place now , you
50:14
need to know who are your influential
50:16
stakeholders , who
50:18
are the ones that have influence
50:21
, and you need to find
50:23
a way to work with them . Remember
50:25
, I didn't say you have to find a way to like them . That's not
50:27
what I said . I said you have to find a way to like
50:29
them . That's not what I said . I said you have to find
50:32
a way to work with them . You may not like me
50:34
, but you're gonna respect me . I've
50:38
spent a lot of time understanding or trying
50:40
to figure out how to navigate , formulating
50:43
strategies to be able to obtain
50:46
certain things , to be able to do my work , and this is
50:48
where , as black women , we will
50:50
excel if we allow
50:52
ourselves to do the due diligence required
50:54
to navigate successfully . Before
50:58
I close this podcast episode , I
51:02
want to end with this statement you
51:05
need to bet on yourself . You need to bet on yourself
51:07
because if you don't bet on yourself , nobody . You need to bet
51:09
on yourself Because if you don't bet
51:11
on yourself , nobody else is going to do it . Betting
51:15
on yourself is you need
51:17
to know that you are
51:20
worthy . If
51:22
you don't believe in your worthiness , no
51:24
one else is going to believe it . Imposter
51:27
syndrome is real . I suffer from imposter
51:30
syndrome sometimes , even where I'm at now . Do
51:32
you think I haven't had times where I'm like , oh
51:34
my god , I'm working with these amazing minds
51:36
like you know . Am
51:38
I gonna get found out that I'm not as advanced
51:40
as them ? Actually , no , I may
51:43
not be as advanced as them , but I deserve to be
51:45
here and I'm gonna learn from every one of
51:47
these people so that one day
51:49
I'm on par with every one of them . I
51:52
think that imposter syndrome in moderation
51:54
is quite humbling , but
51:57
the key word is moderation . So
52:03
there's a singer called Ray and
52:06
she left her label Polydor
52:09
and went independent and she shared that how
52:11
she felt as though she wasn't
52:13
. You know , they
52:15
didn't really believe in who she was
52:17
as an artist and they downplayed
52:20
her . She was like
52:22
a lot of her music was shelved
52:24
. She was writing for other people but she wasn't
52:26
actually getting what she needed from the label
52:28
. She was made to feel that if she left
52:30
, her career would be over . She
52:34
had the most Brit
52:36
nominations and Brit wins in
52:39
the Brit Awards this year . She
52:42
has successfully paved
52:44
the way for herself as a singer and
52:47
now I know her to be a songwriter . What
52:50
I learnt from Ray is if you bet on
52:52
yourself , you are always going to win . You
52:56
can't expect other people to bet on you if
52:58
you don't have the self-confidence in yourself to know
53:00
that you deserve . There's
53:03
an episode at the beginning of the podcast
53:05
series called your manager is not the key to your
53:07
success . That's because
53:09
you are the key to your success . You
53:12
have to know that you're worthy and you're
53:15
good enough and be in a continuous
53:17
cycle of learning
53:19
, because that's the only way . I
53:23
have a dilemma that I want
53:25
to quickly read before
53:28
my battery dies . What
53:30
is it with apple phones and the battery
53:32
life ? Like , seriously , oh
53:34
, maybe a new phone is coming out me . I
53:36
need some headphones . I want to get them headphones , but
53:39
I'm waiting for new colors anyway . Sorry , I digress
53:42
. Let me read the dilemma , so
53:45
it's entitled dilemma . Hello
53:48
, toy , I hope you're . My greetings to
53:50
you and your family . I have a dilemma
53:52
which I wish
53:54
to seek advice on . I started a
53:56
role as a deputy head teacher
53:58
in a brand new school . I decided to
54:00
take the leap and apply with only three years of teaching
54:03
experience
54:05
. I have done some locum
54:08
work with this school and aware of how the school
54:11
runs . I started some
54:14
months ago and the team are predominantly black
54:16
, just two white colleagues . Okay
54:22
, since
54:24
I started I've got really bad vibes from
54:26
two junior members of staff . I
54:28
decided to keep my distance from these two . The
54:36
two then became very disrespectful and tried to undermine me . I'll give you an example
54:38
. One questioned why I delegated her a specific task . I did say to her
54:41
you will do it and that's all . Her
54:43
friend then jumped in and asked me is
54:45
that necessary ? I ignored both and
54:48
walked away . These two ladies were
54:50
, who are African and much older
54:52
than me , again tried to be disrespectful
54:55
, questioning why I've delegated them
54:57
tasks , making excuses as to why they couldn't
54:59
do it . I was firm and said you
55:01
will do it . Another
55:04
day , one came storming in saying it's
55:06
not nice that you've done what
55:08
you've done . I said to her you can
55:10
raise your concerns with management and I cut
55:12
her off . She then reported me
55:14
that I'm picking on her the
55:16
cheek of it . I then messaged
55:18
my manager stating how concerned I
55:20
was with the two ladies behaviour . My manager
55:23
is afraid of them . She is white . She
55:25
asked me if I discussed it , if
55:29
I wanted to discuss it . I said no . She
55:31
then said they want your job and feel threatened
55:33
because before I came they
55:35
were doing my role for free . I
55:37
stated that it's not my concern . Their behavior
55:40
won't be tolerated and is inappropriate . My
55:42
manager said I should deal with it and
55:44
speak to them on my own , which I don't
55:46
think is appropriate . I left it . All
55:49
this I have documented again
55:51
. One was very disrespectful during a team
55:53
meeting . I reported this to the manager , stating
55:55
I'd like to have a meeting with the three of
55:57
us to discuss her behaviour . I did follow
55:59
up with this in an email . I
56:02
was told I would have the
56:04
meeting the next day , and this was three
56:06
weeks ago . The meeting hasn't happened . I
56:08
have been told by several people . These
56:11
two ladies have been constantly downgrading
56:14
me , stating I'm no good at the job . I
56:16
wish to remain professional , but I need to deal with
56:18
these two ladies once and for all . I'm not
56:20
on probation . I'm not on probation
56:23
past that . I am new and
56:25
I have training to undertake
56:27
. These ladies are going on
56:29
every single training you can think
56:32
of beyond their role , trying to compete
56:34
with me . These two ladies
56:36
are now doing my role , but for free . They
56:38
are being used to fill a gap and feel
56:41
they are something they are not , that's
56:43
like . What's ironic is both ladies recently
56:45
interviewed for my role elsewhere at multiple
56:47
schools , and both were rejected . God
56:50
don't like ugly , laugh out . I
56:52
have all that's um transpired
56:54
in my burn folder . I now only speak to these
56:57
ladies if I have to , other than when I
56:59
will pass them um . When
57:01
I see them , I'd like advice
57:03
on what to do next . Sorry for the long story . I wanted
57:05
to give you context to the story . Okay
57:10
, you
57:14
are a deputy head teacher
57:16
of a school . Can we just give you your
57:18
flowers just
57:25
because they're skin folk ? Honey , don't
57:28
mean nothing . And
57:31
I say don't mean nothing because
57:34
if you're placing emphasis that they're your
57:36
fellow black women , these are your fellow black
57:38
women that are disrespecting you , undermining
57:40
you and effectively questioning why you've been given
57:42
the job . They're actually poison
57:44
. They're seeping poison into the
57:46
minds of other people who are watching
57:49
them seemingly get away with the behaviour they're
57:51
exhibiting . And you
57:53
don't want a mutiny on your hands , because what
57:56
is it that happens in politics ? A vote of no confidence
57:58
. That's what you don't want . This
58:01
is the advice I will give you . You
58:04
have to use your position to your advantage
58:06
. My love , you are
58:08
a deputy , a teacher , so
58:11
that means that you're not just managing the school , you're
58:13
managing the staff members . You
58:16
have to use the policies that you have
58:18
to deal with these women . Every
58:22
interaction that is verbal must
58:24
be followed up in writing , and you know this
58:26
. Come on , if you've got a burn folder
58:28
then . I know you listen to the podcast , you know all of this
58:31
. I think
58:33
that if you have enough evidence in your burn
58:35
folder , I think that you
58:37
should use the hr
58:40
system , because obviously I don't know how hr works in
58:42
schools , but I think that you
58:44
need to pull them up for misconduct . If
58:48
their behavior can be evidenced
58:50
, then you need to , because
58:52
what the message is , what that you're sending to the other
58:54
members of staff is insubordination
58:57
, disrespect and a disregard
59:00
for your authority
59:03
will not be tolerated because
59:06
they've taken it to an extreme . Now . If
59:10
they're doing your job for free , how
59:12
long do you think it's going to be before you don't even have
59:15
a job ? Sis , when
59:18
we talk about safeguarding , we have to safeguard our career
59:20
. You have to protect it , and
59:24
I need you to remove the
59:26
fact that they're black women , because
59:28
it doesn't mean much to them for
59:32
the fact that they're black women , because it doesn't mean
59:34
much to them . I've
59:37
worked in a place before where somebody had interviewed for the job , who had been
59:39
working there for a long time , didn't get it . I came in and she made it her sole mission
59:41
to make sure I lose that job . She even complained
59:44
about me that I was bullying her . How
59:47
can somebody who is giving up their time to train
59:49
you be bullying you ? Simply
59:51
because I asked her if she had completed
59:53
a piece of work that I had given her ? She
59:56
said that I said it in front of people . Well , am
59:58
I going to say it in secret ? My
1:00:03
boss came to talk to me about it . I said don't
1:00:05
talk to me about this . This is rubbish . If
1:00:07
she has a problem , she should make
1:00:09
a formal complaint against me . But what I'm
1:00:11
not going to have is a smear campaign because
1:00:14
it's it's leaving poison everywhere
1:00:16
. I don't want it . Do
1:00:19
you know that when you do
1:00:21
things to the children of god with
1:00:24
clean hands ? When
1:00:27
god said , vengeance is his , the ancestors
1:00:29
said oh yeah , hmm . When
1:00:32
our team was taken over by a new manager
1:00:35
, what do you think is going to happen ? Redundancies
1:00:38
. And guess who was on top of the list of the
1:00:40
redundancies ? The very same lady
1:00:42
that I was training that accused me of bullying
1:00:45
that one . Do you know
1:00:47
that this girl came to confess to me ? She asked me if she could
1:00:49
speak to me in private . Do you
1:00:51
know that this girl came to confess to me ? She asked me if I
1:00:53
could , she can speak to me in private . This is where she apologized
1:00:55
for how she's treating me , that it's not me that she's angry
1:00:57
with , it's the organization . And she applied
1:01:00
for my job . She didn't get it and then I came to do
1:01:02
the job and now she's my admin
1:01:04
assistant that she felt disrespected . I
1:01:06
said but I didn't disrespect you , I wasn't involved . I wasn't here
1:01:08
, darling , it's nothing to do with me . Then
1:01:10
she went on to start crying that she's now being made redundant
1:01:13
. Can I put in a word for her ? Absolutely
1:01:16
. I told her I can't put in a word for you because I wasn't involved
1:01:18
in the redundancy and also , as well
1:01:20
, you know you made a
1:01:22
complaint against me to the boss
1:01:24
. I was bullying you . You
1:01:26
didn't formalize it , but I'm
1:01:29
not sure . Are you gonna retract that statement
1:01:32
that you made ? She's actually gonna retract it . I'll
1:01:34
say thank you . Can
1:01:36
you imagine that's a fellow black woman
1:01:38
just like me ? Sometimes
1:01:41
you have to challenge the system you work
1:01:43
in by using the system you work in
1:01:45
. I think that it's high
1:01:47
time that you exercise your ability
1:01:49
to be a deputy headteacher and
1:01:51
show the headteacher how it's done , because
1:01:54
she doesn't want to do it , because she's scared of them
1:01:56
, so you
1:01:58
do it . Show her what it is to be
1:02:00
a headteacher . You've got a burn folder
1:02:02
. Do you think that you're here to collect burn folders just so
1:02:04
you can look at it ? I tell people all the time , collecting
1:02:08
a burn folder is not just to look inside to make
1:02:10
sure there's things in there . That burn
1:02:12
folder is an
1:02:14
evidence of continuous
1:02:18
behaviour that makes
1:02:20
your job difficult . That can
1:02:22
be used to support any
1:02:24
accusation that you make as
1:02:27
a result of their bad behaviour , so
1:02:29
use it . You
1:02:36
make as a result of their bad behaviour , so use it . If you listen to Closet Racist
1:02:38
, I even outlined a complaint that I made . That's how you should do it . It should
1:02:40
be a very organised
1:02:42
succinct . That's how
1:02:44
you do it . They
1:02:47
need to be reprimanded for their behaviour , even
1:02:49
if it's a formal warning on their record . They're
1:02:52
interviewing everywhere . They didn't get the job . So
1:02:55
what do you think they're going to do ? Come back and see you and smile
1:02:57
. They're going to be angry and laying more poison
1:02:59
. So , my dear , you've
1:03:02
got something to do . Get busy , sis . Let
1:03:05
us know the outcome and I hope
1:03:07
that you'll continue to build
1:03:09
that burn folder , but now you're going to use it . Now it's
1:03:12
time to use that burn folder . Keep us updated
1:03:14
and again , remember
1:03:16
who you are . You are a deputy
1:03:18
head teacher , whether
1:03:21
you've been training for three years , four years , whatever
1:03:23
, they believe that you are a safe pair of hands
1:03:25
and that you can do the job . This is your first
1:03:27
task . This is your
1:03:29
first big deputy head
1:03:31
teacher task . It's
1:03:33
called human resources . The
1:03:36
people that are being resourced have
1:03:40
fallen short of an expectation
1:03:42
of what's required to do the job . Now
1:03:45
is your opportunity to get
1:03:48
them in line . Now is your opportunity
1:03:50
to get them in line . If you would like to follow me on
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1:03:57
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1:04:00
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1:04:02
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1:04:04
one word . If
1:04:08
you have a work-related dilemma
1:04:10
or a life-related dilemma , email me In the subject box
1:04:12
. Write us a dilemma . Dilemma . Keep it short , brief and straight to the
1:04:14
point . Hello at toyotalkscom . Of course , you know that we have
1:04:17
the masterclasses on the toyotalkscom
1:04:20
website . Good , yeah , and
1:04:23
start investing in yourself , okay
1:04:25
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1:04:27
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1:04:33
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1:04:39
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ranking of the podcasts and
1:04:46
I really appreciate you all listening and
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supporting . I do have some pre-recorded
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episodes that I've pre-recorded a
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few months ago , so I'll be editing them and
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uploading those as well , because the messagings are
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pertinent and I know
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that you will want to listen
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. But I want to thank each and every one of you for your
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support , your love , your
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positivity , your DMs
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, your comments that you leave
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on the podcast platforms that you listen to
1:05:12
. It's very much appreciated . Your group
1:05:14
chats . Thank you , take
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care of yourself and each other and make
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sure you take your vitamins . My
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name is toyah washington and you
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have been listening to the toyah
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talks podcast .
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