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G'day humans, welcome
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to the safe space for dangerous ideas.
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The one, the only, Rich Roll! Oh,
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oh, oh, the crowd goes wild as
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Rich walks into the uncomfortable conversations
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arena. Athlete, activist,
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podcaster, guru, I ask him
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if he's a guru. You'll have to listen to the
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episode to find out his answer. Rich,
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if you don't know him, is
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one of the most influential people in the land
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of the pods. He's,
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well what is he? He's a best-selling
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author. That's how he first came
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to many people's attention because
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about a decade ago he
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published a memoir called Finding Ultra,
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Rejecting Middle Age, Becoming One of
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the World's Fittest Men, and Discovering
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Myself. So he's an ultra
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man,
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like these are, do you know ultra men competitions?
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They take a marathon and then like
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a super human, what do you call it, like iron man
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thing and then they go even further.
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The most difficult thing that you can
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do to the human body in
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the world. Three day long,
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hundreds and hundreds of kilometers of swimming
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and cycling and running. I mean just,
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to me, this is hell. This
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is the worst thing. If you gave me
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the choice of doing an ultra marathon or
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an ultra man competition and then,
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or you could kill me,
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I would think long
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and hard about which one. And they may
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even be the same outcome either way depending
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on my level of fitness. And what's interesting
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about Rich is he didn't get into this until he was in middle
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age. He
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was an entertainment lawyer, a drunk,
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like just skimming along, highly
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educated, went to Cornell and Stanford and
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you know, basically drank his life
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away in his twenties and then ate
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a lot in his thirties. And as he was
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about to turn 40, he was like, hmm, am
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I going to keep going?
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on this trajectory, he was like, no, I'm going to do the
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exact complete 100% opposite thing, and
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has now built a massive
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global empire of sort of rich
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role books and podcasts
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and recipes and ways of life. He's full
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on vegan. He is a lifestyle
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brand. I mean, if you don't know Rich, but you
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know Gwyneth Paltrow's
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Goop,
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that's an unkind analogy.
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That would be a very unkind analogy to make. And that's why
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I'm not going to make it right now. Nonetheless,
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that's probably all you need to know about Rich. If you don't know
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him, if you do know him, you know what an articulate
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and thoughtful person he is. And what
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an inspiring person he is. I mean, his podcast,
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the Rich Roll Podcast, which has now branched
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out from being just about wellness into being
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about all, I mean, interviewing people who
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are, who have interesting ideas about all
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spheres of human creativity and
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knowledge and understanding. It's
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a wonderful playground to dip yourself
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into. And I was super stoked to be able to
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sit down with Rich virtually,
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of course, and have this conversation.
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Hope you enjoy it with the one and only Rich Roll.
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I'm a little sidelined.
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Just
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chronic lower back problems, L4,
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L5, sciatic pain. I'm
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trying to sort it out right now. So haven't been
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able to do the running that I would
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prefer to be doing right now.
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Would prefer to be doing or
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feel like you ought to be doing? That's
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a very insightful question. I think
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I've let go of the ought to,
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should aspect of it. There
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is a part of it that I just
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love doing. And when I can't do
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it, I don't quite feel like myself.
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It's not really about performance
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goals anymore. It's just about the joy
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of doing it and I miss that
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part of it right now And where
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is the joy like at what point
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of the process is the joy?
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Well, I think yeah, I
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see I see like if I looked
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at your face when you're finishing an ultra marathon Where's
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you crossing the finish line? Your face does not look
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contented You
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know Fair enough like
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oh, I love running a marathon I'm like really because
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I've been at the finish line of marathons and not a single
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person looked happy well,
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I think there's a There's two different
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things happening here I think the day-to-day
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kind of training once you get past sort of
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getting into shape like decent
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shape for doing the thing There
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is a joyful
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Component to it That
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is very primal like just you alone
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on a trail Just the voice,
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you know The sound of the
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sound of your breath and just the silence
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and you know being alone with your thoughts
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it is kind of an active meditation
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and It just
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you know, it makes me like in the wit, you know,
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like finishing just a daily kind of training
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run Makes me feel
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like whole, you know, I don't know. I always
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finish those runs I feel more
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in my body and I feel clarity
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in my mind and I also am able
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to like problem solve and Relieve
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stress there's all these benefits, you
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know that I experienced as a result of that
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kind of endeavor of course doing
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a race like that is a different thing. It's a
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very difficult thing, but there's a satisfaction
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and a joy that comes with Completing
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something that perhaps you didn't think
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you were capable of doing that has a long-term
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impact Of course in the moment of doing
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it. It's not it's not joy
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in the conventional sense of how you
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would think of it, but in the aftermath
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of it, there's a there's a sense of accomplishment
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that I think is
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Quite beneficial. You know, I
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don't think like perpetually running
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ultra marathons is a recipe for
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longevity and optimal health. But
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it has its place. Yeah,
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I mean, I'm interested that you admit
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that joy is not present during
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the process, but the thing is
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worth having done. I mean, it's a bit like it.
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Yeah, or am I getting it wrong?
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No, I mean, you know, there's that thing of you
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sign up for something really hard that's
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scary enough that you take the preparation
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seriously. And then when you're, you know,
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on the starting line, there's butterflies and excitement.
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And then in the middle of it, as soon as it starts
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to get hard, you're cursing yourself and wondering
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like, why in the hell did I sign up for this?
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How can I get out of this? All of that kind
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of stuff. But I think, you know, that
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struggle, that kind of grappling,
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you know, with your own limitations
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and putting yourself intentionally in
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a difficult situation where there's no
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easy way out is how we grow,
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right? Yeah. And there is real
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value in that. And I'm not sure
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that society is appropriately
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configured around, you know,
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challenging ourselves in that way. Otherwise,
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we wouldn't see this explosion in
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not only marathons and triathlons,
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but like the whole ultra world. I mean, that started
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out as, you know, just a ragtag
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group of people
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who would pitch tents, you know,
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out in the woods to, you know, go
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run anonymously, you know,
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some race that no one's ever heard of and no one
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will ever hear of. And now, like
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it's kind of entered the popular
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zeitgeist or, you
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know, vocabulary of
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kind of things to sign up for. So, you
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know, to what do we account that?
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Right? Like people need that
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in their life as uncomfortable as
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it is because they're extracting
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some kind of value out of it.
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I mean, anything that's worth doing is
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probably.
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hard. Right. And so that process
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of you sign up for it, you're excited
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about it, then you reach the dark
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depth of the sole moment of
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the whole project, where you think, why the hell did I do this?
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And then you emerge victorious. And you're ultimately
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satisfied and exhausted. Like, that's the process
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of writing a book. That's the process of putting together
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a one man stand up show. That's the process
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of, of making a movie. That's
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the process of doing anything
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difficult. There's always the process,
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the actual doing of it is always
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full of moments that you dislike. But
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you think in aggregate, I mean, it's the process of having kids
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in a way, isn't it? So I wonder
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whether or not the rise in interest
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in ultra marathons and
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marathons is partly,
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I
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don't know, an easy sort of psychologically containable
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way to understand
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goals and a kind of almost a manageable
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goal in a way. I
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suppose, yeah, I mean, I think there is
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starting a startup, you know, it's easier than
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sure, it's, it's something
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that has a defined
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period in time, and it defines that
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can make it happen.
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It will end and you will either finish
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or not. And along the way, you're gonna be alive, you're gonna have
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to grapple, you
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know, with the dark, you know, recesses
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of the soul, and you're either going to come out
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on the other side of that, having, you know,
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you know, sort of proudly battled with
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it, or you will have faltered
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either way, you're going to learn something about yourself. And if
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sitting on the couch and just watching
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Netflix all day in your super
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comfy condo was a recipe to
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happiness, then, you know, we wouldn't
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see the kind of explosion
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in, you know, these sorts of events from
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Spartan to ultra marathons. Like, I do think
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that there is something missing
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that we're seeking that that speaks
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to what it is that that makes us human that's outside
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of the inception of the world. that
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are telling us that, you know, the fancy car or
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the new job or, you know, the kind of luxury
10:06
vacation is
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going to satisfy. And I find
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that very interesting. Like right now,
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the big thing is these dark retreats,
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right? Where
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you go and you lock yourself in a dark room for
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multiple days and you pay for that. Like,
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you know, where did that come from? I don't even
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know that case, tell me. You don't know about
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this? How have I missed the
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dark retreats? Oh, you haven't heard about this.
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So this became part of the kind of, you
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know, popular
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parlance because Aaron Rogers, who's a well-known
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NFL quarterback, decided
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that he was going to go into the dark room to try to
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figure out whether he was going to stay in
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the NFL for another year or not.
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And there's a couple places across the US,
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one in particular in Oregon, where
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yes, you go into this room for, I
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think it's like four days and
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they slide food once a day, you know, through this sort
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of little latch. So no light
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gets into the room and you're just alone with
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your thoughts. You know? It's
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a lot of fucking latch, Ridd. That's
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all right. I mean, that's what we
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do. I mean, worst. That's being
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paid. We are paying for solitary confinement, Josh.
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So from, you know, what
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do we extract from, you know, the
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rising popularity of this as a choice to
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how to spend our vacation time? I
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mean, I guess we extract the assumption that
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Gitmo should have been bigger. We should have expanded
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to more and more. Thanks,
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Paul. Jihadi's. Your
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new tourist destination. Exactly.
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An experiential vacation. Yeah, we were
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sending the wrong people there. We should
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have been sending aspirational
11:54
NFL, you know, quarterbacks who want
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to figure out what they're doing with their lives instead of
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our credit. That's
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amazing. So how long do you spend in one of these
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cells?
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I think the typical stay is four
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days. So I have a friend, Colin O'Brady, who's
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an adventure athlete who's done it.
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He's getting ready to go back in for a second
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time, I think. He did it recently
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and reported back to me how
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amazing it was, how revelatory it was
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just to be, you know, when you
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can't escape your mind. Josh, is
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there any scarier place to be? No,
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that's why I'm not going to be doing a dark room. So
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I mean, these
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are anyone who's done some
12:37
kind of silent meditation retreat,
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like I've been on your, you know, your five
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night Deepak Chopra, Southern California
12:44
thing where, you know, one of the
12:46
days nobody's talking to each other. And
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that alone is challenging enough. But at least you
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can see that there are other human beings in the world
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and sunlight.
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Like this, that
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could be, this could be psychologically dangerous
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to be in the dark for four days.
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Yeah, I would imagine
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that it's not for everybody.
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Amazing. I mean, it
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does make me wonder, just coming back
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to endurance, you know, the achievement
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and the benefits that people get from these
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extremely hard physical endurance
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events, whether now that you've
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done them,
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I mean, no one can accuse you of
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being lazy or given the
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number of ultra, ultra men championships that
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you've done. So when
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you do it, when you are now running
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purely recreationally, all
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of the things that you were saying you get from that, like
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you're alone with your thoughts and
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there's no sort of psychological
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input. There's just you and nature
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and the sounds and the breeze and
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a sort of sense of presence. Couldn't
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you get that by walking?
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Yeah, I guess you could. I think there's something about,
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you know, the the elevated heart
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rate in that aerobic zone. that
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seems to, you know, heighten
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the experience for me. And,
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you know, upon completion,
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feeling like you did, you know, kind of
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clear out the cobwebs in a way that like
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a walk doesn't achieve. And
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I'm just speaking, you know, for myself and
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my own experience. I mean, I think that,
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you know, the trick
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with
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endurance sport and
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perhaps even, you know, more acutely,
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ultra endurance sports is they
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can become addictive. Like
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they take so much time out of
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your life to prepare for. And,
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you know, I think that they are incredible
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reservoirs
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for developing a deeper connection
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with yourself and for a better sense
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of self-understanding. And also
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the, you know, kind of a steam
14:53
building of realizing that you're capable
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of accomplishing more than perhaps you realize
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that you were able to, that
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spills over into other areas of your life.
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But I also think you can get stuck in that
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paradigm or that modality. You
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know, and for me, it's, you know,
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I'm grateful that I was able to
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learn a lot from that world, but I don't feel
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the need to constantly compete
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to, you know, prove anything to
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myself or to anyone else. And I've
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kind of extracted what I needed to learn
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from that. And now I feel very
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nourished in kind of applying that
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to other areas of my life that,
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you know, provoke curiosity or
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that I'm interested in exploring. And
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I think when you realize like, hey, I didn't
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think I could do this in this other area, or
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I learned so much about myself,
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I didn't have exploring this subculture,
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where are the other areas of my life that
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I'm ignoring or perhaps, you
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know, in denial about, where if
15:56
I shined a light on them, you know, I could grow in
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other facets.
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of this lived experience.
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I mean, it's interesting that you use the word addiction because
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I do sometimes wonder when people are
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as obsessive as
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you are with something like this. I mean, I'm going
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to sort of be impolite enough to ask
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until later on. We know each other a bit
16:20
better. But since you mentioned it, I know that
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you've had your struggles with drugs and alcohol in your
16:25
20s. Are you just an addict
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who has swapped one low status
16:30
unhealthy addiction for a higher
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status healthier one? Yeah,
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I mean, I get that question a lot. And
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I think the sort of flippant response
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is to
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deny that reality. But I
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think it's
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worthy of recognizing that there are certainly
16:51
aspects of that. If you go to any
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Ironman race or
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ultra distance race, there are
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so many addicts in recovery.
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Lots of tattoos, lots of people
17:02
who built their lives back
17:05
up from some kind of some form
17:07
of broken state. And there
17:09
is a very specific allure
17:11
in the endurance world that
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plays on the mind of the recovering
17:17
addict because it's an opportunity to kind
17:20
of venture beyond the
17:22
limits, to go to that unknown place,
17:25
to leverage and experience
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to kind of go beyond like
17:32
what it feels like to be normal. And
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the addict is always looking for peak states
17:38
of consciousness, right? Like on some level,
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an
17:41
addict is
17:43
a seeker. Like they're looking for answers.
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They're just doing it in a very unhealthy
17:48
way. And I think
17:50
endurance sports provides a healthier
17:53
alternative to that, to explore
17:56
that inner experience of
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what it means to...
17:59
to touch up against a peak
18:02
experience or to take yourself beyond what
18:06
the normal person feels, but
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it can be addictive. And I'd be lying
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if I didn't say that that wasn't
18:13
part of the allure or that I haven't at
18:16
times had a
18:18
less than completely healthy relationship
18:21
with that sport.
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But I think that by
18:26
and large and on the whole, taking
18:30
the drug or taking the drink is always
18:32
kind of the backdoor
18:35
exit. It's the easy choice and strapping
18:37
on the running shoes, when it's dark
18:40
out and cold out and you don't wanna do
18:42
it is a hard choice and
18:44
it's a growth opportunity. So they
18:47
don't line up completely in that paradigm.
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No, of course, of course. You know what
18:54
else is a hard choice is locking
18:56
yourself in a dark fucking room for four days.
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I know, I know. That's also
19:02
on the hard list. And yet there's something
19:04
strangely,
19:05
that's such an interesting phenomenon. Now
19:07
that you opened that Pandora's box, I'm gonna have to go
19:09
down the rabbit hole and investigate that because
19:12
it's one of those things where it's a
19:14
hard choice to make initially, but
19:17
then the choice is sort of out of your hands.
19:20
Then the journey takes care of itself, almost
19:22
like doing acid or something. You know what I mean?
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But here's the thing, you're not locked in. You
19:26
can leave at any time. Well, of course, I mean, that
19:29
would be criminal probably. They
19:31
might choose. There
19:33
must be a strong disincentive. It must be like,
19:35
well, you've kind of, you pressed the emergency red button
19:38
and now you've failed something. I
19:40
don't like it now. Sure, but imagine
19:42
the
19:43
experience of not
19:45
knowing what time it is and not
19:47
even being quite sure what day it is.
19:50
Like how much longer do I
19:52
have to be in here? Is this day two
19:54
or day three? When I fell asleep,
19:56
did I fall asleep for an hour or 10 hours?
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Like it's a mind
20:01
from top to bottom. Absolutely. You
20:03
know, I was, I got a little sick
20:05
last week, just having kids
20:07
and you know, they bring it back from school or whatever. And so
20:09
I had a bit of a fever and I had a funny, a
20:12
funny tummy. And I had one of those nights where,
20:15
you know, when you're kind of tossing and turning and you're
20:17
hot and you swear you've got the cold sweats and you've
20:19
got the hot shivers a little bit and
20:21
you keep looking at the clock to see what time
20:24
it is. And you think it must be morning
20:26
by now. And the clock says 12, 0, 3 AM. And
20:29
you go, I can't believe I've
20:31
got another five hours until
20:33
I can get up. Like it must
20:35
just be like that,
20:37
but for 96 hours.
20:40
I don't know. I'm tempted. I'm tempted
20:42
to try it. You're gonna do it. You're gonna do it.
20:44
I can hear it in your voice. You should do
20:46
it together. You are. You
20:49
did luck. I wonder if you can like knock on
20:51
the wall to the guy in the cave, you
20:53
know, the next cave over. I
20:56
love it. I love the idea
20:58
that you're gonna be in Sydney in
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May and I'm gonna get a call and you'll be
21:02
like, hey, it's Rich. Do you wanna go and get
21:05
brunch? And I'll be like, sure. And when we get
21:07
there, I'll be like, I haven't seen this place. And
21:09
you'll be like, just
21:10
come through down this hallway. It's
21:12
just down the back. I'll be like, Rich, where are you taking
21:14
me? Where are you taking me, Rich? No, no, the brunch is
21:16
just back here and then slam. And
21:18
you and I are just in the dark room.
21:20
We've made arrangements for your kids.
21:22
I talked to your, you know, everybody
21:24
at the studio. You're fine.
21:27
I'm fine. You got your days cleared. Oh
21:30
my goodness. What were your
21:32
drugs of, you were talking about how easy it is to
21:34
like to drink. I mean, alcohol is such a mediocre
21:36
drug. God, it's boring. But were you into more
21:39
fun drugs when you were a drug addict? No,
21:41
you know, I was pretty much a purist,
21:43
to be honest, a throwback. That
21:46
was my thing. You know, I dabbled in
21:48
a few other things. I never tried cocaine.
21:51
I was terrified of it. I think I knew that
21:53
if I'd ever tried that, it would be
21:56
game over pretty quickly. So
21:59
my, you know,
21:59
My addiction story is pretty
22:02
conventional and tepid in that regard.
22:05
There's nothing super kind of sexy about
22:07
it. It was just
22:10
sort of a sad empathetic drunkard
22:12
story. Yeah, right. You're probably
22:14
lucky. You dodged a bullet on coke, I
22:16
would imagine. Yeah. Yeah,
22:19
because that can not be
22:21
pretty. We've all seen what that can
22:23
do.
22:24
Sure. I mean, I think I probably
22:27
would have loved it and it
22:29
either would have gotten me sober sooner or
22:32
it would have killed me or just reeked
22:35
exponentially more havoc in my life. But
22:38
it got dark enough for me to have
22:41
a reckoning and
22:42
change course. And I'm
22:45
very grateful for that. And did rehab work?
22:49
It did. I kind of came
22:51
in on the recommendation
22:53
of a judge and
22:56
the police and some
22:58
parents and some friends who thought
23:00
it would be wise that maybe I
23:02
should take a look at my habits. How
23:05
did you get involved in the role? Was this a driving
23:07
thing or what did you do? Yeah, I
23:09
mean, it was a slow decline for
23:11
many years. And then I moved to
23:13
Los Angeles and I got two DUIs
23:16
in rapid fire succession within
23:18
a period of, I
23:19
think they were like six weeks in between
23:21
both of them and
23:24
was facing two DUI charges,
23:27
jail time, like all kinds
23:29
of
23:30
pretty severe consequences. And
23:33
it's a long story, but one of the
23:35
cases got thrown out because they lost
23:37
the file, which was a crazy miracle
23:40
and ended
23:41
up getting charged with just one
23:44
DUI. But
23:46
that was enough. I mean, the second one that I got,
23:49
I got picked up in the first
23:51
one I rear ended in elderly
23:54
woman at like three in the morning at
23:56
an intersection. The
23:58
second one,
24:00
Six weeks later got picked
24:02
up in Beverly Hills driving the wrong way down
24:04
a one-way street. I blew like
24:06
two nine and two seven. You know, like
24:09
I was, you know, I was gone. Like big
24:11
time, like this is not like a, yeah,
24:13
it was serious. And the
24:16
one, the second one, the
24:18
cop who arrested me
24:20
knew my boss,
24:22
the partner in the law firm where I was an
24:24
associate, because my boss was representing
24:27
the police department in a number of cases.
24:30
And so my boss called me in on Monday morning
24:32
after I spent the weekend in jail and said, listen,
24:34
I got an interesting call over
24:36
the weekend. Like you're all fucked
24:38
up and you gotta sort this out.
24:42
And I wish I could tell you that I got sober immediately
24:44
and everything was rosy
24:46
after that. That's not what happened. It
24:49
was a
24:50
situation in which I guess I needed a
24:52
little bit more pain and to go to
24:54
a darker place. But ultimately,
24:56
you know, I was in enough
24:59
psychic
25:01
and emotional pain and
25:03
just a state of loneliness
25:06
in which, you know, I was alienated
25:08
from my family and just, you know, all
25:10
of my good friends had kind of fled for the hills.
25:12
And I realized that
25:15
the only way out was through and
25:17
decided I just woke up
25:20
one morning and it was a morning that wasn't that dissimilar
25:22
from so many other mornings that
25:24
I had woken up hungover, but
25:27
I just had a brief window of willingness to
25:29
do something different and
25:32
got myself to a rehab up
25:34
in Oregon where I thought I was just
25:36
gonna spin dry for a couple of weeks
25:39
and get back to my, you know, quote unquote,
25:41
very important job and ended up
25:43
instead staying for a hundred days. And
25:46
that really saved my life and created
25:48
a foundation of sobriety that, you
25:51
know, allowed me to kind of come back to Los
25:54
Angeles and build upon
25:56
and, you know, I really credit that to
25:58
saving my life.
26:00
That's amazing. How did you afford
26:02
it? I always wonder with rehab stool, these Americans
26:04
who are gonna rehab, like the recovery
26:07
process from addiction seems so much more prosaic
26:09
and arduous outside of the United States where
26:11
people just kind of muddle through and we don't have the same,
26:14
I guess, reliance on rehab centers as
26:17
there seems to be in America. Aren't they expensive? Who
26:19
pays for it?
26:20
Yeah, it's a situation
26:22
that's not
26:23
exactly covered by
26:25
insurance in the way that it should be. And
26:28
in my case, I cashed out my
26:30
meager 401k and then my
26:33
parents kind of matched that to
26:35
make it work. So
26:38
I was lucky in that regard. And I
26:40
had been in it because I got the nudge from
26:42
the judge and I was going to
26:44
AA meetings to get my court card signed, but
26:46
I wasn't doing it to get sober. I was doing
26:48
it to get people off my back. And
26:50
I needed a deeper kind of immersion
26:53
into,
26:53
I
26:56
needed to be extracted out of my life
26:58
in order to only focus on this. And
27:01
that's not to say that- You got the nudge from the judge. I
27:03
like that sociology. You got
27:05
the nudge from the judge. One
27:08
of many kind of annoying aphorisms
27:10
out of 12 step-in-law. I
27:12
think we should produce a reality television
27:14
show modeled off Judge Judy or Judge Joe
27:16
Brown where you play the judge and
27:19
it's called a nudge from the judge with ritual. And
27:21
it's people with addiction problems and you
27:23
come in and you go, you just got the
27:25
nudge from the judge and the person gets
27:27
into rehab.
27:30
I think it would be boring though because I would just send
27:32
everyone to rehab. Yeah.
27:35
I just enjoy a brandy once at Christmas,
27:37
once again. Rehab for you. You
27:39
got the nudge from the judge. And
27:42
well, I'm glad that all that worked.
27:44
What do you say to people who
27:46
are not in such a, also it's interesting you said
27:48
to your, just I just want to follow up, your friends
27:51
had abandoned you. Often
27:53
people who have drinking problems
27:56
are enabled by their social environment
27:58
and that becomes part of the problem.
27:59
Well, what would I do? How would
28:02
I have fun when I go
28:04
out all the time with all my other alcoholic buddies
28:06
who reinforce each other's drinking
28:08
habits if I was sober?
28:12
That wasn't the case for you? Yeah,
28:14
well, I think that's a case of what
28:16
we call lower companions, Josh. Like
28:19
as this disease progresses, there's
28:24
a certain kind of color
28:27
that the people that you hang
28:30
out with tend to become. It's
28:35
not that my friends abandoned me, they just
28:37
sort of slowly step
28:40
backward from you. And also
28:42
on top of that, like a big piece of
28:45
addiction is a deepening
28:47
of your kind of isolating from
28:49
the world because you know that your behavior
28:52
is not
28:53
kind of socially approved. And so you start
28:55
hanging out with people that aren't your friends,
28:57
but are the ones that will not
29:00
really call you out on your bullshit because
29:02
they're on your wavelength. So you start
29:04
hanging out with those people. And then
29:06
when those people start backing away from you,
29:08
you know, you're kind of going into a darker, an
29:12
even darker place. And so
29:15
my good friends were kind of unavailable
29:17
and I was hanging out with people that I wouldn't ordinarily
29:20
hang out with. And I was also isolating
29:23
and spending a lot of time alone in my apartment,
29:25
shrinking by myself, which is, you
29:28
know, for those of you out there, strong
29:30
and dish that you might have a problem and
29:33
just, you know, making decisions that
29:35
I just wouldn't ordinarily make.
29:38
And my parents being very clear
29:40
in
29:41
saying like, listen, we love you, but like,
29:43
we just can't stand by while you continue
29:46
to behave this way. If and when
29:49
you're ready to get sober, we love
29:51
you and we're here from you, but until then like
29:53
you're on your own with this
29:56
adventure that you're on.
29:57
And it turns out that was the right approach.
29:59
But
30:00
Yeah, I mean, that was very painful,
30:03
very painful. And so
30:06
at that dark, that darkest hour, I
30:09
felt desperately alone and realized
30:11
that I had to change.
30:14
But it's so
30:16
tricky because you don't
30:19
wanna let go of
30:25
this thing that has become your
30:28
best friend, even though you know intellectually
30:31
it's destroying your life. And
30:34
that's the confusing part of addiction
30:37
that makes it very difficult for like normal
30:39
people to understand. Like, why can't you just quit? Can't
30:41
you see the
30:43
damage that this is doing? But
30:47
it's not something
30:49
that resides in
30:52
the intellectual part of the mind. And
30:55
as they say, another kind of annoying aphorism
30:58
is that sobriety isn't for people
31:00
that need it, it's for people that want
31:03
it. And it's always bizarre,
31:06
like who's able to get sober and who
31:08
isn't? Like it's never who you
31:10
think.
31:11
And the people you think
31:14
have got a hold on it end up relapsing
31:16
and the people you think, oh, that guy's
31:18
never gonna make it, ends up putting together 20
31:21
years of sobriety. Like it's mystifying
31:23
still, I think this
31:26
disease. And I think the
31:28
fact that it's so mystifying creates
31:30
a lot of problems with normal people trying to
31:33
understand like how to solve it, especially
31:35
when you have a loved one who's
31:37
struggling. Like how do you help that person?
31:40
Do you stand on the sidelines
31:41
and let them hit bottom so that
31:43
they develop their own willingness?
31:45
Or do you intervene? And if you intervene,
31:48
how do you intervene in a way that's
31:50
gonna produce the desired
31:52
results?
31:54
Mm, it's so true because from the
31:57
outside what seems to be really,
32:00
reasonable or rational is to point out to
32:02
the person the ways in which their consumption
32:04
is unhealthy or problematic
32:07
and as you say when
32:09
the sober person
32:10
Says to the addict can't you why
32:12
don't you quit can't you see all of the problems that it's causing
32:15
in your life? They're inside the addict's head. They
32:17
go. Yeah, it's causing all of these fucking problems So
32:19
how do you expect me to deal with them except for with a
32:21
drink?
32:22
right, so they're
32:25
also You
32:27
want to have a drink if you are not coffee if I give your life
32:29
was yeah How am I gonna go
32:32
with this bladder drink? Yeah on the
32:34
one hand you're like
32:35
fuck off. I'm not hurting anyone Why
32:38
do you care leave me alone? This
32:40
is right, you know my thing not yours. So
32:42
stay away And on the other
32:44
hand, you know the the kind
32:47
of pain that this lifestyle
32:49
produces Means that you have
32:51
to keep using drugs or alcohol To
32:54
you know mask that pain because that
32:56
pain is so unbearable and it becomes this,
32:59
you know, sort of snowball rolling downhill
33:02
Yeah, that's interesting. Did you ever think were you
33:04
ever under the illusion that it was fun?
33:10
Well, it was fun for a long time
33:12
and I think that's the other piece that that people
33:14
don't really appreciate like What
33:17
was another again, I'm just gonna keep throwing
33:19
these annoying, you know kind of phrases that
33:21
you but like another one is it
33:24
works until it doesn't like it work, you
33:26
know, it works until it stops working and
33:28
the reason that you go on this
33:30
journey is because it does work
33:32
and
33:33
For a certain period of time.
33:36
It's fun and you feel great
33:38
and you're like, this is the answer to every
33:42
question You know in my
33:44
life like this is the solution to every
33:46
problem that
33:47
I didn't even know that I had I wish
33:49
I had discovered This sooner. I want to feel
33:51
like this all the time. I want to feel like this
33:53
all day long and so
33:56
that kind of cements
33:58
this relationship with
33:59
the substance that ultimately,
34:03
what you can't see at that time is that it will
34:05
turn on you. And in my case, it was a very
34:07
kind of progressive, degradation
34:12
of the things that I cared about in my life.
34:14
Like as somebody who, I was somebody,
34:17
Josh, who kind
34:19
of struggled academically and was kind of an insecure
34:22
kid who had difficulty making friends
34:24
and wasn't quite sure how to interact with
34:27
other human beings, shy,
34:29
kind of bookish. And
34:32
I went to a school that was all
34:34
about sports and football and all
34:36
of that. I never really figured
34:38
out how I could connect with other
34:40
people. And so I
34:43
had this like kind of profound
34:46
internal
34:50
confusion about life, thinking
34:53
that everyone else had this roadmap for
34:55
this
34:57
handbook for how to live that
34:59
I lacked. And I just was walking around confused.
35:03
At the same time, I did figure out, like
35:05
I became the swimmer and I excelled
35:08
academically. And so by the time
35:10
I graduated from high school, I'd gotten accepted
35:12
into all these fancy schools and I go off
35:14
to Stanford and I'm a
35:16
swimmer at Stanford and swimming at
35:18
Stanford is cool. Like, and so suddenly
35:21
I'm in the cool crowd for the first time and I
35:23
discover alcohol. And
35:26
it was like this warm blanket being
35:28
wrapped around me telling me that everything
35:30
was okay. And I felt
35:33
comfortable in my skin for the very first
35:36
time. And it was like this epiphany
35:38
experience that basically
35:41
kind of rooted in me, this
35:44
idea of wanting to feel like that all
35:46
the time. And I had a great time in college.
35:48
I had a lot of fun. I went to all the parties. I learned
35:50
how to be a social person.
35:53
I learned how to talk to a girl and like,
35:56
you know, dance or do all the things
35:58
that seemed like normal people
35:59
already knew how to do. And so on some level
36:02
it was like a teacher, but
36:05
it wasn't long before I didn't
36:08
really care about whether I showed up for
36:10
swim practice anymore, or
36:12
is it really all that important that I turn in this
36:14
paper on time? And
36:17
that's what's kind of insidious
36:20
about the whole thing is that it starts
36:23
very gradually. And I was functional
36:25
for a long time and ended up going to law school
36:28
and God knows how I graduated law
36:30
school, but I could keep it together
36:32
just enough,
36:33
but the more it progresses, the more you
36:35
bifurcate your life. And you have the life
36:37
that you live around other people, and then you have
36:40
this secret life that
36:42
you're ashamed of, that you're hiding from, that's
36:44
driving that kind of you
36:46
to further and further isolate
36:48
from other people. Until
36:51
those two worlds kind of come into
36:54
conflict
36:54
with each other, and that's when
36:57
chaos starts to kind of blossom
37:00
in various areas of your life. And
37:05
you can continue to be in denial
37:08
over that for a certain period of time until it
37:10
becomes so obvious
37:12
to everyone around you that you're forced
37:14
to confront it in a certain kind of way.
37:16
And either those are the moments in which you
37:19
have a decision, like, are you gonna deal with this and
37:21
rectify your life and get sober and choose
37:24
a new path for yourself,
37:24
or are you gonna say fuck
37:27
you to everybody and just
37:29
self-destruct? And I've been to
37:31
a lot of funerals and I've seen a lot of people
37:34
not able to make that leap or flirt
37:37
with sobriety or have
37:39
certain stints with sobriety but
37:41
are unable to maintain it because
37:43
they're not dealing
37:46
with the underlying kind of pain that
37:48
led them to that behavior in the first
37:50
place. And a lot
37:53
of people don't make it.
37:54
And die. And so I'm very
37:57
grateful that I was able to kind of come
37:59
out.
37:59
the other side of it. And when those chaos monkeys
38:02
showed up, will you, I mean, when
38:04
you say with the kind of, the
38:08
role of professional lawyer and
38:10
upstanding, highly educated
38:14
professional smashes into
38:16
the role of alcoholic, were you drinking
38:18
at work? Was that like bleeding into
38:20
your work life?
38:22
At the very end, yeah, at the very
38:24
end it was. I mean, not initially, but
38:28
when it got really dark and there's a whole
38:30
like kind of wedding, I got
38:33
married and it ended on the honeymoon story.
38:35
That's like a two hour soap opera
38:37
that like contributed
38:40
to, you know, the me
38:42
kind of, you know, really touching up
38:44
against, you know, the darkest aspects
38:46
of my story and ultimately
38:49
leading me to being the guy who's
38:51
on a leaving Las Vegas trajectory
38:55
of having a vodka tonic in the shower. Hiding
38:58
drinks throughout the day and believing
39:00
that I'm getting away with this and nobody
39:03
knowing about it. And,
39:05
you know, until like the whole kind of house of cards
39:08
topples on, you know, onto your
39:10
head and you're forced to really
39:12
get honest with yourself. It's
39:16
interesting that you say that it was fun until
39:19
it wasn't because I have a, I
39:22
went, have you heard of the Alan
39:25
Carr group of, organization,
39:28
they help people quit smoking and drinking and drugs,
39:31
but they take it to British organization
39:35
and like Richard Branson and then like
39:37
Anthony Hopkins and a bunch of top Brits that swear
39:39
by it, but it takes an opposite kind of view
39:42
to traditional 12 steps
39:44
in encouraging you to, and
39:46
that's how I stopped drinking a few years ago,
39:50
encouraging you to think
39:52
very closely and pay close attention
39:54
to what's actually happening when you're drinking
39:56
and how much of the fun actually
39:59
comes from the drinks. and how much of the fun
40:01
that
40:02
you associate with the drink is the drink piggybacking
40:04
on environments that are already
40:07
fun and piggybacking
40:09
on environments that are already not fun. And it's
40:13
interesting. It's like, I mean,
40:15
they're basically, their basic philosophy is that there
40:18
aren't alcoholics and non-alcoholics
40:21
that alcohol itself or any addictive substance
40:23
functions by
40:26
creating a narrative around it
40:28
that is full of bullshit
40:31
that we buy into from a pretty young age.
40:34
And then when we start consuming it socially
40:36
and culturally, it's close enough to the
40:38
truth to get its claws into us.
40:42
And it's only a one-way trajectory
40:44
really for everybody, but there
40:46
are enough pressures to avoid
40:49
having another drink that exists in most people's
40:51
lives that they can walk the tightrope of
40:55
addiction. But fundamentally, it is an addictive
40:57
substance that really only seems
41:00
like it's fun,
41:01
kind of because it's addictive.
41:03
And people who never drink, if
41:05
you're a Hindu or if you're a Muslim,
41:08
you don't go around a wedding wishing
41:10
you could, moaning about how you can't have
41:12
a drink the way that someone who drinks
41:14
who isn't allowed to have a drink does. The desire for
41:16
the drink is caused by the fact that you drink all the time.
41:19
And the moment you're not drinking all the time and you
41:21
realize that you don't need to be drinking all the time is
41:23
the moment that you're kind of free,
41:25
free from the desire to
41:27
drink as well. And so when I think
41:30
back about the fun of
41:32
alcohol, yes, it's a slight anesthetic. Yes,
41:35
it probably gave you some, it lowered
41:37
your inhibitions occasionally in terms of
41:39
dancing or talking to girls when you're in college
41:41
and feeling awkward.
41:44
That's fine. Lots of anesthetics
41:46
could probably do that.
41:47
But
41:49
what it really was, was it
41:51
was piggybacking on your
41:54
experience of coming out of your shell and
41:57
your
41:58
the natural experience.
41:59
that a lot of people have in their early 20s of
42:03
growing a pair of balls and realizing
42:05
that they can do things that they previously thought that they
42:07
can't and feeling confident in themselves
42:10
and beginning to feel like a
42:12
grownup.
42:13
And psychologically, alcohol
42:15
comes along for the ride there.
42:17
And that's probably the source of the illusion
42:20
of
42:20
fun. Does that any of
42:22
that land? Yeah, I
42:25
mean, I think there's a lot of wisdom
42:27
in that. I think that my
42:29
response to that would be that, well,
42:33
two things.
42:34
First of all, the longer I've
42:36
kind of been sober
42:40
and the more
42:42
kind of conversations that I have on
42:44
my podcast and just socially with
42:47
people in the addiction recovery
42:50
and kind of psychology, psychiatry
42:52
space, I've become more
42:54
convinced that addiction
42:58
lives on a much greater spectrum
43:00
than we tend to think of
43:03
it. Like we tend to think of addicts as people
43:05
that can't pull the needle out of their arm or
43:08
the drunk and the gutter and the paper bag and
43:11
all that kind of stuff. But I think
43:13
on some level as human beings, we're
43:16
all prone to various compulsive
43:19
behaviors, whether they're substance oriented
43:21
or not,
43:24
to which we lack
43:26
a certain level of control or agency. And
43:30
I think our phones have
43:32
been a great example
43:36
that have
43:38
taught us like how powerless we can
43:40
be at times over our own
43:43
impulses, movies like The Social
43:45
Dilemma, where we realize like these
43:48
slot machine kind of features
43:51
and the technology that's gone into these devices,
43:55
make us behave around our phones in a way
43:57
that we wouldn't otherwise, which.
43:59
makes us think like,
44:01
how much agency do I really have? Like what
44:03
is the difference between the
44:06
obsessive compulsive kind of relationship
44:09
that I have with technology
44:11
or social media versus
44:13
addiction? And I think
44:16
whether it's alcoholism or drug addiction
44:18
or gambling, there's
44:20
a whole other kind
44:23
of world that
44:25
falls into this addiction
44:29
conversation that
44:31
is less addressed. Like what
44:33
about the person who keeps getting into
44:35
the same kind of dysfunctional relationship
44:39
or the person that just, whatever,
44:41
as soon as they're standing in line or they have a moment
44:44
of boredom, they just
44:45
compulsively pull out their phone and go to
44:47
TikTok or whatever it is. Like
44:50
this is something that's bred
44:52
into us as human beings and
44:55
it can be relatively
44:57
benign or just mildly invasive into
44:59
the quality of our life, or it can be utterly
45:02
devastating and debilitating in the
45:04
context of somebody who just gambles
45:07
away all their money or who keeps
45:09
it to myself. Right, but I don't think
45:11
to locate the problem in
45:13
the somebody who's gambling away their money
45:15
or in a particular attribute of that person
45:17
as if they were born addicted to gambling
45:22
and they were just waiting, like the gambling monster
45:24
inside them was just waiting for the moment to
45:26
play the first slot machine. That is a
45:28
narrative that is popular among 12 step
45:32
types that is rejected by this
45:34
philosophy that I'm talking about, which says
45:36
that these things will
45:39
inevitably, if you allow them in every case,
45:42
lead to a catastrophic
45:44
outcome. It's just that we're all pretty
45:47
good at holding our shit together. What
45:50
happens when you pull your phone out of your pocket and you get a little
45:52
dopamine hit of noticing that there's a notification
45:54
or a like on something that you've posted or
45:56
seeing something interesting is
45:59
that you get the
45:59
little
46:00
dopamine hit and then the next time you're
46:03
waiting in line, you remember that dopamine
46:05
hit and you do it again and again and again and again and the
46:07
dopamine hit gets less and less and less. So you have
46:09
to do it more and more to get the same amount
46:11
of interest and innovation
46:14
and stimulation from your phone
46:16
and all of a sudden Instagram
46:18
seems a bit boring. So TikTok seems more interesting.
46:21
And you know, at some point, you
46:23
know, if you are not around other people,
46:25
porn will seem more interesting still or whatever
46:27
is increasingly addictive. I mean,
46:29
the there is only one trajectory in order to
46:32
maintain the same level of novelty
46:34
that the thing gave you in the first place and that
46:36
is to keep consuming it in
46:38
ever greater amounts. It's just that most of us have
46:40
duties that prevent us from
46:43
doing that. But once you notice that that's the
46:46
that's the game that the game is just
46:48
I mean, think about it with a heroin junkie
46:50
or a smoker or something. You have
46:53
the first one, it does
46:55
something for you. The second one does
46:57
a little bit less, the third one does a little bit less. And before
46:59
you know it, you're not quite sure why you're going
47:02
back for the cigarette because it's not giving you the head spin that
47:04
the first one did. But you
47:06
know that you feel a little bit uncomfortable without
47:08
it. And the cigarette is just
47:11
creating, I mean, the
47:13
permanent trough that you live in, which the
47:15
cigarette is then the solution to to bring you up to
47:17
feeling the way that non smokers feel all the time.
47:20
And when you're having a cigarette, you feel as good as non smokers
47:23
do all the time. But then as this as the nicotine
47:26
bleeds out of your system, you gradually
47:28
fall into a trough that your addiction to nicotine
47:30
is causing. And that as a model,
47:33
is basically just the way that addiction
47:36
works. And it works on all of us equally.
47:38
Some of us are just good enough
47:41
at distracting ourselves with our duties of work
47:43
and family and ambition and whatever that
47:45
we don't allow our our
47:48
usage to get to such a high level that the trough
47:50
becomes so deep that we can't
47:52
climb back out of it. Anyway, yeah,
47:54
no, I hear what you're saying. And I and
47:57
I would agree that these things always
47:59
move in.
47:59
one direction, which is increased
48:02
dosage as we acclimate to
48:05
the dose. It
48:09
never ends up in a good place. There
48:13
is that one singular path, but
48:16
I would add a ripple to that,
48:18
which is I do think that there are certain
48:21
people who are just
48:23
wired differently. Perhaps
48:25
that has to do with childhood trauma or
48:28
their genetic makeup. I
48:30
can't quite identify specifically
48:33
the nature of that, but I can tell you in my own
48:36
experience from the very first time
48:38
that I drank alcohol,
48:40
I know that my experience
48:42
and my relationship with that was different
48:45
from that of my peers. I
48:47
immediately was the guy who was
48:50
the last to lead the party, who was drinking
48:52
the half filled empties
48:54
with cigarette butts in them at the keg party,
48:57
doing all kinds of crazy shit that none
48:59
of my friends were doing. That
49:01
only continued to escalate. I
49:04
think there is something qualitatively different,
49:07
at least with respect to alcoholism,
49:09
where that substance
49:11
has a very different
49:13
impact qualitatively on
49:16
that type of individual that
49:20
it's a result that
49:24
is much more negative
49:26
than the person who's like, yeah, I binge drink too
49:29
much or once in a while I drink too much. I
49:33
would couch this in saying that I'm very
49:35
much a product of 12-step and that's
49:38
my indoctrination and that's what saved
49:40
my life. I know there's always these
49:42
new modalities and people are finding
49:45
new ways of looking at the nature
49:47
of this disease.
49:49
I call it a disease, some people
49:51
don't. And finding treatment
49:54
solutions in
49:56
psychedelic substances or in childhood
49:59
trauma.
49:59
therapy, et cetera. And I even
50:02
had, you know, to speak
50:04
to your earlier point, this friend
50:06
of mine, Andy Ramage on the podcast a while back,
50:08
and he started this thing. He's a British guy, he started
50:10
this thing called One Year No Beer. It's
50:13
basically for normal people who
50:16
are like, you know what, like my job, I
50:18
have to go out, I have to socialize, I have to go entertain
50:20
clients, and I have to drink, and I'm just
50:22
tired of it, and I'm sick of feeling like
50:25
shit the next day, but
50:27
I just feel like I have to do it, or, you
50:29
know, it's just part of my social environment,
50:32
like how do I step out of that? And he
50:34
created this really amazing movement
50:36
that empowered a lot of people, continues
50:38
to empower a lot of people to
50:41
liberate themselves from the shackles
50:43
of that kind of thing. And I think
50:45
that that is,
50:47
you know, sort of socially, at
50:49
least in the United States, I don't know what
50:51
it's like in Australia, young
50:54
people are not
50:55
drinking in the way that young people were drinking
50:58
when I was in my 20s. Like I think there's,
51:00
I think alcohol on some level has fallen out of
51:02
disfavor, and maybe it's been supplanted
51:05
by other drugs, I don't know, I'm an old man now,
51:07
but. I believe
51:09
there is a different. I think there is a different I do enjoy a reefer from time
51:11
to time, there is some reefer men. They do,
51:13
yeah, yeah, yeah, a little bit. Yeah,
51:16
and I don't wanna be misunderstood, that
51:18
nothing that I said is inconsistent with the
51:21
proposition that there is also a variety of
51:24
human reactions to these
51:25
substances, right? And I'm not,
51:27
I don't want to be understood as saying that these
51:30
things are always gonna lead to calamity for everybody.
51:32
Clearly they don't, for the vast majority of people, people
51:34
think that they're managing them. The point
51:36
is what is the nature of
51:39
the
51:39
relationship between a homo
51:41
sapien or a mammal and a thing
51:44
that functions in this way. And you know, sugar
51:46
functions in the same way. But anything
51:48
that is giving you this kind of
51:50
hit in diminishing returns
51:52
has the same dynamic. Some people are more susceptible
51:55
to it than others. But what
51:57
I found liberating about Alan Kars
51:59
way of looking.
51:59
at the world. He's dead now, so I don't know why I'm talking
52:02
about him. But this model, rather than 12 steps,
52:05
was I
52:06
didn't have to, it didn't have to
52:08
be a problem with me. I wasn't broken.
52:10
It wasn't a,
52:13
and I mean,
52:15
you are the master here, and I am a mere
52:18
sensei in terms of the
52:20
level of alcoholism that we're talking about.
52:22
I didn't get to those kinds of depths. And maybe
52:25
if I had, then 12 steps would have
52:27
worked more effectively. But
52:30
I just remember thinking, so there's this
52:32
thing in my brain that says it would like a drink.
52:34
But the great thing is,
52:36
that thing doesn't
52:38
have any hands and legs, and it doesn't
52:40
have any money. So I don't have to give it
52:43
the drink that I want, actually, you know?
52:45
It's that function of drinking. Of course, I
52:47
think that I'm a drinker. Of course, a drinker would think that
52:49
they want to drink. But how liberating to know
52:51
that that's just, that's the game. That's
52:54
the game that the substance plays with you,
52:56
with everybody. Sure. That's the trick.
52:58
Anyway, so that's, I just thought that was interesting.
53:01
I mean, this also, when
53:02
you're talking about, oh, the
53:04
one year no beer,
53:06
and like, how would I go through life if
53:08
I wasn't drinking? And the
53:11
amount of nonsensical bullshit
53:13
that people's brains, our brains throw up
53:15
when we're thinking about, oh, but how would
53:18
I go out to dinner if I wasn't going to have a glass of wine?
53:20
How would I go out to the bar if I
53:22
wasn't going to drink with friends? And then
53:24
when you're not drinking, you just go, well, I just either
53:26
have a zero beer or I have a soda water, I have
53:29
whatever else I want. It's totally
53:31
fine. I have a Diet Coke. Well, you probably,
53:33
do you drink a, you wouldn't drink a fake
53:36
sweetener?
53:37
You know, sparkling
53:39
water, I'm good with that. Like, you know,
53:41
I don't know. I mean, I think the point
53:44
that you're trying to make though is,
53:46
we get caught up in our head
53:49
in this obsessive way
53:51
about how we're being perceived
53:53
by others. And once you kind
53:55
of step outside of that and you're like,
53:57
well, I went to the thing and I had my...
53:59
my Diet Coke or my sparkling water and
54:02
no one gave a shit because we
54:04
underestimate the extent to which people are self
54:06
obsessed, like they don't care. And
54:09
they're not thinking about themselves.
54:12
And we do think that the substance is giving us a lot
54:14
more fun than it is. That's the funny thing.
54:16
Like I did a month without booze a few
54:18
years ago and I had someone else was paying for
54:20
a business class flight from Sydney to LA. And
54:23
I was thinking 15 hours in
54:25
business class with all that free booze, and
54:27
I'm not gonna have a single sip. Like what a miserable
54:29
experience that's gonna be. I'm gonna
54:32
get to the lounge at the airport with all
54:34
the free booze. And I'm not gonna have a single drink.
54:36
It's gonna be misery. A lounge without booze
54:39
is just a room. I mean, all of a sudden I'm just
54:41
in a room, you know, whereas it's
54:43
a playground of pleasure and plenty when I can
54:45
have as many bourbon and coke as I want. But
54:48
of course, at the other end of the flight, I was like, oh, that
54:50
was great.
54:51
That was cool. That was really nice. I got to watch,
54:53
I got to read more than I would have. I got
54:55
to pay more attention to the movies and
54:57
enjoy them
54:58
more. It was completely illusory.
55:01
Which I want to bring this round to veganism
55:03
and to eating meat into the difficulty of
55:06
shaking that habit as well.
55:09
I don't know if you
55:10
heard Sam Harris name-checked
55:12
you in a recent chat that I had
55:15
with him. Have a listen.
55:17
Should you avoid any factory-farmed
55:19
products? Yeah, I mean, my answer here
55:21
won't satisfy
55:23
certainly any vegan. I
55:26
was vegetarian for six years and
55:28
then for another, I
55:31
don't know, I think a year after, some many
55:33
years after that. Every time I've been
55:35
a vegetarian, I feel like I've been
55:38
less healthy. Now you're
55:40
going to hear from all the vegetarians and vegans who
55:43
will
55:43
tell me I'm an idiot and that there's obviously
55:46
a straightforwardly healthy way to do both of those
55:48
things. That may be the case, but
55:51
the truth is, apart from a few
55:53
vegans who seem to have made
55:56
their veganism truly a full-time
55:58
job,
55:59
in the habit of seeing lots of vegans who
56:02
seem especially healthy. I just
56:05
honestly, you vegans have a problem if
56:08
you think you're advertising abundant good
56:10
health to everyone and
56:12
it's just readily apparent because I see
56:15
a lot of vegans who look like they're
56:17
suffering from their veganism. And
56:20
so it's, you know,
56:22
I leave Rich Roll out of this. But
56:25
if you watch Rich Roll videos, you just
56:27
see how much time and attention goes into him getting
56:29
his
56:29
nutrition. What do you make of that,
56:32
Rich? Oh,
56:36
Sam, I love you, Sam.
56:40
Yeah, how do I, so interesting.
56:44
I
56:45
mean, first of all, you know, I
56:48
have, you know, a relationship with
56:50
Sam, I have tons of respect for
56:52
Sam. I see him socially from time
56:54
to time, him and Annika, I
56:56
would consider not good friends,
56:59
but you know, sort of good
57:01
social acquaintances. And it's
57:03
funny because
57:06
that's
57:07
such a skewed
57:09
perspective. When I hear that
57:12
from my lived experience, I
57:15
don't know where he gets the idea
57:17
that I've made veganism my
57:20
full-time job. Like at this point, I've been
57:22
doing it, I've been
57:24
vegan for 16 years.
57:28
And it's so rote
57:30
for me now that it
57:32
doesn't feel like an inconvenience
57:34
in the least, let alone a full-time
57:37
occupation. Right. But that's because you're
57:39
a vegan. I mean, this is the same. I'm making it.
57:41
I got it. Yes. It's when the people on the outside
57:44
of the glass and the people who are inside the room,
57:47
the person who has not quit alcohol,
57:49
it seems unimaginably complicated
57:51
and difficult to navigate life without
57:53
drinking. And
57:55
to the person who's done it, it's completely easy.
57:57
And but I think there's a similar.
57:59
dynamic happening with
58:02
eating meat. And I mean, I don't play you Sam
58:04
in order to troll you or Sam. I play Sam
58:06
because he's articulating what I think is a very widespread
58:09
view that I must say I succumb
58:11
to myself where I go, you know,
58:13
I spent nine months not eating meat.
58:16
When I was in LA, I was pescatarian.
58:19
I put on a bit of weight. I was eating way too many carbs.
58:21
I wasn't doing it right. And
58:23
eventually I thought, Oh, look, I'll come back to this when
58:25
I figure it out, but I didn't subsequently
58:28
figure it out. So then I made a pact with myself
58:30
about not eating factory farmed meat and only
58:32
eating organic meat and not eating
58:34
meat when I'm at restaurants, but you know, eating
58:36
it and blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. And it becomes
58:38
like the self bargaining that was happening when
58:41
I was trying to avoid quitting alcohol and being like,
58:43
okay, I'll only drink on weekends. I'm only
58:45
going to have five drinks at a time, you know, whatever that
58:47
those rules might be. So
58:50
what are we missing?
58:51
I think that we
58:54
tend to overcomplicate
58:56
it in our minds. I've been
58:58
on an evolution with this.
59:01
At first it was about
59:04
losing weight and vanity. And
59:06
now it's become much more about the
59:08
broader concerns around sustainable
59:11
agriculture and animal suffering
59:14
and the like. And I've always,
59:16
but I've always kept it very simple, Josh,
59:19
like on some level eating, eating
59:22
plant-based is really
59:25
like popper food. Like I keep it basic,
59:27
like I eat tons of beans and lentils and
59:29
I eat veggie burritos and I
59:31
eat big salads. You know,
59:34
I benefit from the fact that my wife is a phenomenal
59:36
cook and she makes marvelous
59:39
meals, but you know, I also travel
59:42
a lot and I've been all over the world and
59:44
I don't spend a lot of time
59:46
prepping meals or, you know,
59:48
doing any of that. Like I've always
59:50
figured it out and that doesn't mean that I've
59:53
been
59:53
perfect in that regard, but
59:56
I still, you know, I'm 56, I feel good
59:59
in my body. I work out
1:00:01
and I'm able to maintain or
1:00:03
build muscle mass. Like it hasn't impaired
1:00:06
me in any particular way.
1:00:08
And I think in Sam's case, to speak
1:00:11
to that, I think that he is burdened
1:00:13
by a sense of ethical dilemma
1:00:20
because I think that he would like to
1:00:22
be vegan. And as he's spoken
1:00:25
about in his podcast, he
1:00:28
knows that issuing animal products
1:00:30
is the ethical choice to make. And
1:00:33
for some reason, he hasn't been able to do
1:00:35
it in a way where he feels like he's being
1:00:38
sustained in a healthy way. I've
1:00:40
offered
1:00:41
to help him. I'd be happy to help
1:00:43
him figure that out. Perhaps
1:00:45
he's genetically wired in a way where
1:00:47
it's not working for him. I can't speak to that. All
1:00:49
I can tell you is that I feel good
1:00:51
in my body. And as
1:00:54
long as I continue to feel good and my blood
1:00:56
work is fine and all of that, I'm gonna continue
1:00:58
to do it. But I also think we're in this weird
1:01:02
time right now where for
1:01:04
many years, decades ago, if you
1:01:06
wanted to eat vegan or plant-based,
1:01:09
there weren't really any
1:01:12
options that were at
1:01:14
least tasty from a culinary
1:01:17
perspective. You had to be a kind
1:01:19
of granola person in order to make it
1:01:21
work. And now we're
1:01:23
in this situation where there's all these
1:01:26
vegan alternatives, meat and dairy
1:01:28
analogs, and
1:01:30
a lot of the food companies have figured out
1:01:32
how to make certain products, if
1:01:35
not taste exactly like their
1:01:38
meat and dairy versions,
1:01:41
close enough, but
1:01:42
these foods are highly processed. And so you can
1:01:44
delude yourself into thinking like, oh, I'm eating
1:01:46
vegan, I'm healthy, but you're
1:01:48
really not
1:01:49
in any better of a position than you
1:01:51
would be if you were eating the real
1:01:54
thing. So it's never been easier
1:01:56
to be an unhealthy vegan person.
1:01:59
And so you kind of have to go back to the
1:02:02
basics, like are the foods that you're eating like
1:02:04
real food, whole foods? And
1:02:08
I think that takes it, that adds an
1:02:10
added layer of like
1:02:12
maybe complexity or confusion,
1:02:15
but it's actually pretty cheap to eat this way.
1:02:18
And I'm pretty content eating
1:02:21
these types of foods all the time. Go
1:02:23
ahead. It is interesting that you say, I mean,
1:02:25
I'm just thinking about the wide
1:02:28
availability of vegan foods and the fact that
1:02:30
you can go into a restaurant or
1:02:32
a cafe in any big
1:02:34
city in the, at least in the Anglo
1:02:36
world.
1:02:37
And you can say,
1:02:40
you're a vegan and they'll have an option for you.
1:02:43
And that didn't used to be the case, of course. But
1:02:47
I mean,
1:02:47
you can go and coach Sam Harris all you like,
1:02:49
but you can't coach the other several
1:02:52
billion people who think like
1:02:54
him and me who feel like, okay,
1:02:57
well,
1:02:57
rich people says it's easy, but when rich
1:02:59
goes to Italy and he's in
1:03:01
a little denominazione,
1:03:04
like village where they do things
1:03:06
the same way that they have done things for centuries
1:03:09
or millennia even, and
1:03:11
that involves cheeses and
1:03:13
that involves, you know, milk
1:03:16
products and dairy and honey and
1:03:18
things like that, what does he do? That
1:03:20
does sound like it would be hard. And it sounds
1:03:23
like to me, you would be missing something. It sounds to me
1:03:25
like I would very much be missing something if I was on a
1:03:27
road trip in France and I couldn't eat any cheese or
1:03:29
if I was on a road trip in Italy and I couldn't
1:03:31
eat any
1:03:32
prosciutto. Yeah.
1:03:34
I mean, I think that goes
1:03:36
back to your earlier point about not
1:03:38
being able to drink on your, you
1:03:40
know, business class flight from Sydney
1:03:43
to LA. And
1:03:45
I think I've gotten so much out of this lifestyle
1:03:47
that I don't look at it from that kind of martyred
1:03:51
perspective. And you
1:03:53
know, I've just found that
1:03:55
I've always managed to find a way and even if
1:03:58
I'm in Italy in some village. I
1:04:00
can get some form of gnocchi
1:04:04
or a pasta that's not made
1:04:06
with eggs or something like that.
1:04:08
Like I just never, I've never really,
1:04:11
like it's not always the most convenient,
1:04:13
but it's never been so burdensome where
1:04:15
I thought, this isn't worth it
1:04:17
or it's too difficult. And
1:04:20
my health is benefited from it. And I've
1:04:23
done it in a way where
1:04:25
it doesn't monopolize my life, it's not my
1:04:27
full-time job. And when Sam
1:04:29
talks about like, if you watch the
1:04:31
videos that Rich Roll makes, you realize it's
1:04:33
his full-time job. I'm not sure which videos he's
1:04:36
talking about. Like most of the videos that
1:04:38
I post are me sitting
1:04:40
in a chair talking to somebody in my
1:04:42
podcast. So. Yeah,
1:04:45
but he can see that deep inside,
1:04:47
you're tormented by your lack of people. Yeah,
1:04:49
I guess, I guess. I
1:04:52
mean, look, I'm sure it's easy. It's just,
1:04:54
it is one of those
1:04:55
things where like, you know,
1:04:57
I've tried. Sure, but you
1:04:59
have our mutual friend, Asher, I'm
1:05:01
sure would be happy to help you because he's
1:05:03
all about it. True, that's true.
1:05:06
Yeah, Asher is a TV, a popular TV
1:05:08
host, the host of The Bachelor. And let me just say
1:05:11
to, you know, put a kind of button
1:05:13
on this, Josh. You
1:05:15
know, I
1:05:16
made a promise to myself that
1:05:19
when I started this lifestyle,
1:05:22
that I would not be,
1:05:24
you know, overly dogmatic
1:05:27
about it. And should I start
1:05:29
to, you know, suffer health
1:05:32
wise in any way that I would,
1:05:34
you know, be objective about
1:05:36
the whole thing and give myself permission
1:05:38
to change course or pivot. And,
1:05:41
you know, that just hasn't
1:05:43
happened. And I would say that when we
1:05:45
look at food systems
1:05:48
and we look at the food that we're eating,
1:05:50
there's personal health. And I
1:05:52
think, you know, at
1:05:54
least, you know, in America, it's like, it's
1:05:56
all about like me and how I feel. Like,
1:05:58
do I feel good? Do I not feel good?
1:05:59
And that's important, of course, we
1:06:02
all wanna be healthy. I found that
1:06:04
eating a whole food plant-based diet has
1:06:07
given me the sustenance that I need,
1:06:09
such that it's powered me through athletic
1:06:12
endurance challenges that most people
1:06:15
are not interested in and will never
1:06:17
push themselves through. So
1:06:20
it satisfies the category of being
1:06:22
enough to,
1:06:24
you know,
1:06:26
make me the athlete that I aspire
1:06:29
to be. But beyond
1:06:31
that, I think it's important for all
1:06:33
of us to consider our
1:06:35
food choices and our consumer choices
1:06:37
more broadly in the context of how
1:06:39
they're affecting others, the planet,
1:06:42
et cetera. And a whole food
1:06:44
plant-based diet not only allows
1:06:46
you to avoid the processed foods
1:06:49
and other foods that are contributing
1:06:52
to unnecessary suffering and human
1:06:54
health in the form of the rise of all
1:06:56
of these, you know, chronic lifestyle
1:06:59
diseases that are debilitating millions of people
1:07:01
across the world in the
1:07:03
form of diabetes and
1:07:05
obesity and all these sorts of things. These
1:07:07
are illnesses of processed food.
1:07:10
These are not illnesses of eating animal products per
1:07:12
se. I mean, you know, Joe Rogan will,
1:07:14
you know, be able to eat as many animal products
1:07:16
and be fit and healthy
1:07:19
too, right?
1:07:20
Yeah, but I think that there's a
1:07:22
longer conversation that's probably
1:07:25
better had with nutritionists
1:07:27
and doctors and scientists around
1:07:29
the impact of excessive saturated
1:07:32
fat intake
1:07:34
into your diet, et cetera, that are contributing
1:07:37
to heart disease, et cetera. And so, you know,
1:07:39
I'm- But you can get a lot of saturated fat from coconut
1:07:41
milk or whatever substitutes you might
1:07:43
be using. Yeah, it's different.
1:07:45
Or, you know, I don't want to get too sidetracked
1:07:47
on that. But like, my saturated
1:07:50
fat intake is so much lower. And
1:07:52
then again, just to get into the, then
1:07:56
there's the environmental concerns, like the impact
1:07:58
of the, you know, that we're making
1:08:00
and how are these foods made and where are they coming from
1:08:03
and what is that doing to our environment? And
1:08:06
to opt out of this factory
1:08:09
farming insanity that
1:08:11
is creating all of this suffering
1:08:14
for no other reason than perhaps a karmic
1:08:17
reason. So not participate
1:08:20
in that is something
1:08:22
that
1:08:25
I feel good about. And it's not that eating plant-based
1:08:27
obviates you from harm or anything like
1:08:30
that. I'm not trying to overstate the case, but
1:08:34
we vote with our dollar and we do that with the
1:08:36
food that we eat and the other products that
1:08:38
we, the companies that
1:08:40
we patronize.
1:08:42
Yeah, I think it's insightful to notice
1:08:45
the analogy between
1:08:47
the Italian or French road trip
1:08:51
and the business class flight
1:08:54
because I do, I
1:08:57
hadn't really thought about that before, but I
1:08:59
myself do when I think about
1:09:02
being,
1:09:03
becoming vegetarian,
1:09:05
think about that one great steak that
1:09:10
I have once or twice a year at some fancy
1:09:12
restaurant or that incredible meal that I
1:09:14
have on the Greek islands where they're bringing
1:09:16
me sardines and burrata
1:09:19
and fresh tomatoes and whatever
1:09:21
else it might be. But
1:09:24
the fear of losing
1:09:27
that is not a good justification for
1:09:29
having eaten ground beef in my
1:09:31
tacos last night instead of just having beans.
1:09:34
You know what I mean? It's the same thing when you're
1:09:36
considering, yeah. It's
1:09:39
not, it's no- I'm talking about drinking
1:09:41
booze every single day because I might wanna
1:09:43
have a glass of champagne at my daughter's wedding
1:09:46
in 20 years.
1:09:47
Exactly, it's exactly the same
1:09:49
thing. Like when somebody's getting sober
1:09:52
and they say, in nine months, I
1:09:54
have to go to this bachelor party in Vegas,
1:09:56
how am I ever gonna get through that without drinking?
1:09:59
Or I'm- I'm going to go to Italy when I retire and
1:10:02
I want to be able to eat X, Y, and Z. Yeah,
1:10:05
but what are you eating today? What are you eating tomorrow?
1:10:07
Like that's, you know, it's like instead of focusing
1:10:11
on
1:10:11
peak experiences and the outer edges of, you know,
1:10:19
these possible experiences that you
1:10:21
want to have in your life, like let's focus
1:10:23
on the day in and the day out.
1:10:25
Yeah, and cross that bridge when you come from it, you
1:10:29
know, you may not want it. I mean, now I wouldn't, I
1:10:31
would previously have thought I can't drive
1:10:33
around the South of France without, you know, drinking
1:10:36
red wine with each meal as well. But now
1:10:38
I do that and that's not a problem at all.
1:10:40
And am I missing something? I guess
1:10:43
culturally I'm missing out on the culture of
1:10:45
French wine drinking, but that's not something
1:10:47
that I value in my life at the moment. So I don't
1:10:49
miss it. I mean, I think that just to wrap up
1:10:52
on this point, the point that Sam is
1:10:55
making about the PR
1:10:57
is that there are people like you
1:11:00
and like my friend, Asha, who's also a prominent
1:11:02
Australian vegan who look fantastic,
1:11:04
who like obviously
1:11:06
have their shit together physically
1:11:09
and are in peak form. And
1:11:12
then there's the kind of gray,
1:11:15
pale, nose ring, dreadlocked 22
1:11:20
year old girl vegan who is not doing
1:11:22
the publicity any favors. And
1:11:25
I mean,
1:11:27
does he have a point there? Or is that, because
1:11:30
there is some kind of
1:11:32
publicity problem
1:11:34
with veganism. Yeah,
1:11:37
I would at a tipping point where
1:11:39
morally everybody, morally anybody
1:11:42
who thinks it through understands
1:11:44
that
1:11:45
this is probably the easiest example
1:11:47
of something that we're all doing that in a hundred
1:11:49
years time, people are gonna look back on and go, I
1:11:51
can't believe that people thought that that was okay to
1:11:53
do the way that factory farming functions.
1:11:56
Sure. Yeah, I mean. So I
1:11:58
think where we have this. this cognitive
1:12:01
dissonance and maybe part of the impediment
1:12:03
is a preconception
1:12:05
that we have about what veganism entails
1:12:08
and does to our bodies.
1:12:10
Yeah, I mean, I think that's an
1:12:12
astute observation. Certainly,
1:12:16
factory farming universally, it's
1:12:19
a bipartisan issue. We're
1:12:22
all in favor of the eradication
1:12:25
of factory farming. And I think
1:12:27
that deep down, nobody likes
1:12:29
the idea that animals have to suffer for
1:12:32
our food, but we've made this decision
1:12:34
that it's sort
1:12:37
of an unfortunate necessity
1:12:39
for human health. And when somebody
1:12:42
steps outside of that and says, actually,
1:12:44
you
1:12:45
don't have to do that at all and you can
1:12:47
be healthy, that
1:12:49
is either sort of
1:12:52
received welcome in a welcome
1:12:55
way by a certain small sector
1:12:57
of the population and another
1:13:00
perhaps larger
1:13:01
swath of the world will
1:13:04
be threatened by that because that is
1:13:07
a challenge to their value set and it
1:13:09
requires them to look inward and question
1:13:12
this assumption that they've made that
1:13:15
eating animals is a necessity,
1:13:17
which obviates any kind of ethical
1:13:20
considerations around that. So
1:13:22
that becomes a sticky wicket, I think. And
1:13:24
then to your point around publicity,
1:13:28
I think that vegans are often
1:13:31
their own
1:13:31
worst publicists and there's a real
1:13:33
problem within the movement in terms
1:13:36
of how this lifestyle is
1:13:38
communicated and advocated
1:13:41
in that
1:13:43
it's inherently a lifestyle that's
1:13:46
about compassion.
1:13:48
And yet there's sort
1:13:50
of an acerbic tone
1:13:52
of judgment and condescension
1:13:55
that is levied from
1:13:57
certain aspects of that community at other.
1:13:59
that is not helpful. And
1:14:02
I also think within the vegan plant-based
1:14:05
community, there's a lot of infighting
1:14:08
and argumentation about how
1:14:10
to communicate the benefits of this
1:14:12
lifestyle or what's important and what's
1:14:14
not that hinders
1:14:18
the progress of it and alienates,
1:14:22
many, many people out there. And
1:14:24
there's an interesting parallel between, at
1:14:26
least in the United States, democratic
1:14:31
and Republican politics
1:14:34
in the way they mirror each
1:14:36
other, in the sense that like, vegans
1:14:39
are sort of like Democrats, they're always fighting
1:14:41
with each other, they're arguing about what their
1:14:43
talking points are. The
1:14:45
right wing,
1:14:47
they've got it all in lockstep, they're
1:14:49
always on point with what they're saying, and
1:14:51
that would mimic the more kind of carnivore,
1:14:53
paleo perspective when
1:14:56
it comes to diet. And so I think the
1:14:58
infighting within the plant-based community
1:15:01
and the different factions
1:15:03
and perspectives
1:15:07
end up at
1:15:09
times, alienating people
1:15:11
who might be curious about
1:15:13
it otherwise. And so I've thought a lot about
1:15:16
how to be the best advocate for this lifestyle.
1:15:19
And I've really abandoned trying
1:15:21
to convince anybody that they
1:15:23
should do what I do. Like I'm not in the business
1:15:26
of trying to convince people that
1:15:28
they should live their life or eat the way that
1:15:30
I do. And that's very much
1:15:32
an
1:15:33
outgrowth of what
1:15:36
I've learned in 12-step. Like in
1:15:38
12-step, you don't tell people what
1:15:40
to do, you don't give them advice, you
1:15:42
share your experience. So I'm happy
1:15:44
to share my experience, if that's
1:15:46
meaningful to somebody else and they can
1:15:49
extract something from that that's beneficial
1:15:51
to them, that's fantastic.
1:15:53
If somebody asks me about why I eat
1:15:55
the way that I eat or what it does
1:15:58
for me or doesn't do for me, happy to talk to you.
1:15:59
about it, but I don't stand in judgment
1:16:02
of anybody else's choices. I'm
1:16:04
not taking anyone else's inventory. I
1:16:07
would much prefer to just
1:16:09
pursue my
1:16:12
life and try to live
1:16:14
well and be a lighthouse,
1:16:17
to just stand in my strength and attract
1:16:19
people who are vibrating
1:16:22
on my wavelength and are
1:16:24
possibly receptive to what I have to
1:16:26
say. But I'm not out there banging
1:16:29
any kind of drum. That's just not the way
1:16:31
to win a war of ideas from my perspective. Be
1:16:37
the change you want to see in the world,
1:16:39
as Ghandi said. Yeah, just go out and live
1:16:41
a kick-ass life and be like an example
1:16:44
for other people. As I'm trying to think through
1:16:46
what's working and what works and what doesn't
1:16:48
work on someone like
1:16:51
me, I would regard myself as being the cohort
1:16:53
that's most winnable.
1:16:54
The cohort that
1:16:57
is basically sold
1:17:00
on the morality of it. What
1:17:02
derails me sometimes is the
1:17:05
number of arguments, as
1:17:07
you just said from the vegan side,
1:17:10
some of which are of varying quality.
1:17:13
And our brains will naturally
1:17:16
latch onto the weakest argument
1:17:18
and then try to take that one down and then
1:17:21
feel like we've done a good job of dismissing all the
1:17:23
arguments because we've dismissed the weakest
1:17:25
one. So it happened just a
1:17:27
moment ago when you were talking about all the
1:17:30
health problems from eating too much saturated
1:17:32
fat. I
1:17:34
smell a rat there and I go, well, hang on.
1:17:37
What you're actually talking about is the overconsumption
1:17:39
of processed food and
1:17:41
having too much saturated fat and not enough lean
1:17:44
protein, all of which are manageable within
1:17:46
the context of a healthy carnivorous,
1:17:49
omnivorous diet. And then
1:17:51
I think, well, because I've made that distinction, therefore
1:17:53
I can skip merrily on my
1:17:56
way and not worry about the other arguments
1:17:58
for veganism that I regard as being more
1:18:00
sound, which are the more kind of Peter Singer
1:18:03
based moral arguments about whether
1:18:05
or not we've reached a stage of human
1:18:08
conscious evolution that makes it untenable
1:18:11
for us to treat other sentient
1:18:13
creatures in simply
1:18:16
as objects of our own use anymore.
1:18:21
And yeah, if there was a clarity, I think if there
1:18:23
was a clarity of messaging around
1:18:26
the moral question,
1:18:29
then maybe that would be clearer. I don't know. I want
1:18:32
to get to first
1:18:36
date questions, which I will pepper at
1:18:38
you in a kind of a Rorschach
1:18:41
test of random questions and you could just
1:18:43
say the first thing that comes into your mind. But before we
1:18:45
get to those,
1:18:48
I'm just interested in
1:18:51
what you think of your
1:18:52
goals and role as being
1:18:54
at the moment. Like are you an athlete?
1:18:56
Are you an activist? Are you an interviewer? Are
1:18:58
you a guru? You were just talking
1:19:01
about people vibrating on your wavelength.
1:19:03
Like what is the...
1:19:05
What is patrol at this point? Definitely
1:19:08
not a guru. Definitely not a guru. Yeah,
1:19:10
I mean, it's
1:19:13
a curious question. I try
1:19:16
not to
1:19:19
overly identify in any kind
1:19:21
of particular silo. I
1:19:25
am athletic. I'm not competing
1:19:28
as an athlete right now. Does that make
1:19:31
me an athlete? Does it not? I'm
1:19:33
not sure. All I can tell you is that
1:19:37
in terms of goals,
1:19:40
there are certainly creative
1:19:42
projects that I'm trying to realize right now,
1:19:45
but I'm not the person who's
1:19:47
like, I'm doing all of this to work
1:19:49
towards this ultimate thing.
1:19:51
I have my eyes on this
1:19:54
prize off in the distance. I just feel
1:19:57
so incredibly grateful.
1:20:00
to be able to do
1:20:03
what I get to do every day, which is like
1:20:06
have amazing conversations with fascinating
1:20:08
people who inspire me and educate
1:20:11
me in different ways. And of
1:20:13
course we all want our platforms to grow
1:20:16
and reach more people. And
1:20:18
my ego will get caught up in that as much
1:20:20
as the next person. But
1:20:22
the truth of the matter Josh is that like
1:20:25
if it was lights out tomorrow, like it
1:20:28
was a life well lived. Like I'm just, I'm
1:20:30
so nourished in what I get to do today.
1:20:32
And so like sort of, you know, sort
1:20:34
of semi-shocked that
1:20:37
I get to do this thing and support my family
1:20:39
in doing it, that it doesn't
1:20:42
necessarily need to be anything more than
1:20:44
what it is right now. And in terms of like
1:20:47
how people perceive me as
1:20:49
an athlete, as a podcaster, as
1:20:51
an author, or whatever it is, that's
1:20:54
their business. Like I try to not
1:20:56
get caught up in what that might
1:20:58
look like. I guess, you know, in
1:21:00
terms of the amount of time that I spend on certain
1:21:02
things, I'm probably most
1:21:05
appropriately labeled as a podcaster because
1:21:07
that's how I invest most of my time.
1:21:10
But I'm working on a new book and I would
1:21:12
like to do a race at some point in the future
1:21:14
if I can get my back sorted out. And I've
1:21:17
got four kids and I have
1:21:21
the privilege of being able to do lots
1:21:23
of different things and be
1:21:25
exposed to many different interesting
1:21:28
experiences. And I look at it
1:21:30
all as, you know, the real
1:21:32
privilege, I guess, in all of this, I guess, what
1:21:35
I'm
1:21:35
driving at is I'm in this unbelievable
1:21:37
position where I get to choose how
1:21:39
to invest my curiosity. And, you
1:21:42
know, that is a gift that not many
1:21:44
people
1:21:45
get in their life and
1:21:47
I'm very aware of that. And so how I
1:21:50
choose to deploy that curiosity is
1:21:52
something that I, you know, take very
1:21:54
seriously. And right now it's
1:21:57
podcasting and this book thing. And, you
1:21:59
know, we'll see. where that goes, but I
1:22:01
don't get caught up in five-year plans or
1:22:03
10-year plans or anything like that. I'd
1:22:05
be curious how you think about that. Five-year
1:22:09
plans and 10-year plans?
1:22:12
You're like, what is your goal? Where
1:22:14
do you see yourself in five years? Where
1:22:17
are you taking all of this, Josh?
1:22:19
You know what I mean?
1:22:24
My answer is easier
1:22:26
to the question that I actually asked you rather
1:22:29
than the one that you've turned it into, in the sense
1:22:31
of what are you up to?
1:22:35
I'm up to having conversations
1:22:37
that help people feel
1:22:40
a bit more sane in
1:22:42
the world and that move things
1:22:44
forward in a way that's constructive
1:22:47
and that avoids mischaracterization
1:22:50
of people's ideas and that creates
1:22:52
a stronger and more robust
1:22:55
demos in which we can have conversations
1:22:58
and figure out problems and create
1:23:02
solutions to the
1:23:05
shared problems that we face rather than squabbling
1:23:07
with each other over irrelevant things
1:23:10
or over misunderstandings about
1:23:12
each other's positions. I'm on a mission against
1:23:15
tribalism and identitarianism
1:23:18
and in favor of the greatest amount
1:23:20
of compassion and intellectual
1:23:22
empathy as well as emotional empathy that
1:23:25
we can muster to come together
1:23:29
and
1:23:30
understand each other and be well informed about
1:23:32
the world. So that is for me a very
1:23:34
simple box in which I can sit and then
1:23:37
the questions about exactly where I will
1:23:39
be in five or ten years all
1:23:42
stem from that in a way that I feel
1:23:44
is more consistent for me than if I
1:23:46
was running ultra marathons and doing a podcast
1:23:49
and being an activist, if you know what I mean.
1:23:51
Yeah, no, I get that. I get that. Let's
1:23:54
talk
1:23:55
about first. Let's do first eight questions. I
1:23:57
want it. We've only scratched the surface. I mean,
1:23:59
I'm I'm not, I have a bazillion other
1:24:01
questions that I could ask you about your
1:24:04
life and everything that's going on in the world. We haven't even
1:24:06
touched on like, you know, culture wars
1:24:08
stuff or anything like that. But what is, what
1:24:10
is getting, what's happening now
1:24:12
that in 20 years, people will look
1:24:15
back on and laugh about.
1:24:17
Laugh about or, or be
1:24:20
surprised. Like,
1:24:23
like, find humor, humorous, you think? No,
1:24:26
you can take it either way.
1:24:28
Like either shake your head and disbelief
1:24:30
or have a chuckle.
1:24:33
Yeah, that's
1:24:35
a tough one. Well, I think, I think certainly,
1:24:38
you know, and this is my, you
1:24:40
know, I'm going to be Mr. Vegan guy, like the
1:24:42
idea that we eat animals, you know, I
1:24:44
think in maybe not 20 years, but
1:24:47
perhaps in 50 years, people will look
1:24:49
back and wonder, young
1:24:51
people will wonder like, wait, you actually
1:24:53
raised these animals and slaughtered them or,
1:24:56
you know, all of that. That's how you got your food.
1:24:58
I think that will seem weird with
1:25:01
the advent of, of, you
1:25:03
know, the cultured meat movement, which is
1:25:05
well underway right now. So I think
1:25:07
that's certainly a possibility. I
1:25:10
mean, my hope is that
1:25:12
the institution of democracy,
1:25:14
at least in the United States, will survive
1:25:17
this strange moment that we find ourselves
1:25:20
in and perhaps we'll look back on
1:25:22
this time curiously
1:25:25
as a, as a very strange
1:25:27
moment in, in our history.
1:25:30
And that, you know, the ship will be
1:25:32
sufficiently righted and we'll be able
1:25:35
to restore some level
1:25:37
of confidence in institutions
1:25:39
and find our way back to reasoned
1:25:42
civil discourse. But
1:25:45
I don't know. I think that that could go either way.
1:25:48
Yeah. Would you rather live
1:25:50
full-time in an RV
1:25:52
or full-time on a sailboat?
1:26:02
Probably an RV, because I don't know
1:26:04
how to sail right now. Although I love the water.
1:26:06
If I knew how to sail, I'd probably say a sailboat.
1:26:09
I think we can teach you how to sail. I think we can teach
1:26:11
you how to sail. If I knew how
1:26:13
to sail, I'd probably say a sailboat. I
1:26:16
think that's within the realm of your ability. I'm not gonna
1:26:18
put you on the sailboat today and
1:26:20
like keep you there for, and you're not allowed to
1:26:22
dock or learn. I think you'll
1:26:24
have some- I think
1:26:25
the ports of call for the sailboat are
1:26:28
much more intriguing and exotic
1:26:30
than like the RV, kind
1:26:33
of like place where you sleep, you
1:26:35
pull over off the side of the highway to sleep. So
1:26:37
I think sailing sounds a little
1:26:39
bit sexy or more inspiring. Yeah,
1:26:42
what's a cool place that you haven't been to that you
1:26:44
wanna go to?
1:26:47
Japan.
1:26:50
My 19 year old daughter just got back from three
1:26:53
weeks in Japan with her boyfriend.
1:26:56
Changed her life. I've always wanted to visit
1:26:59
and have yet to go there. What's
1:27:02
the worst movie you've seen?
1:27:06
I love me a bad movie. Like
1:27:09
Bad Bad or like So Bad It's
1:27:11
Good? I think, no, I don't think
1:27:13
this means So Bad It's Good. I'm usually
1:27:15
asking for like the least enjoyable film,
1:27:18
not one that's so mad like him. Oh
1:27:20
man, I'm
1:27:21
gonna have to really think about
1:27:23
that.
1:27:25
I see a lot of movies. Well, what's
1:27:27
a recent one that you walked out of going, oh,
1:27:29
that was a dud.
1:27:37
Oh man, am I really gonna say this on a podcast?
1:27:44
I did not enjoy Avatar. Oh,
1:27:47
there's a second one. Wow.
1:27:50
And I know the Cameron's and
1:27:53
so I feel bad and I feel like
1:27:56
the themes of the movie I appreciate,
1:27:59
but I had a really hard time.
1:27:59
hard time with
1:28:01
the CGI nature of
1:28:04
everything. And I'm not a Marvel guy. Well,
1:28:06
he is an entirely CGI film. Are you aware of this
1:28:08
going on? Did you know that it was like
1:28:10
four hours? Yes, I did
1:28:13
know that. I don't. What is
1:28:15
this? I thought I was gonna get real flying
1:28:17
animals.
1:28:18
I don't like the
1:28:20
3D glasses experience
1:28:23
and where everything just looks
1:28:25
so
1:28:26
not real. It takes me out
1:28:29
of the narrative and it made it impossible for
1:28:31
me to enjoy the movie.
1:28:35
That's so interesting. Because I was so distracted by
1:28:37
the rest of it. Were you expecting
1:28:40
to enjoy it? I
1:28:44
went in with, I
1:28:47
tried to go in with as blank a
1:28:49
slate as possible, but no, I wasn't
1:28:51
expecting it to be amazing.
1:28:53
But I
1:28:55
struggled with that. I was expecting it to
1:28:57
be so bored.
1:28:58
I just caught it just before
1:29:00
I was about to go off in the theaters. I was like,
1:29:02
if I'm ever gonna see it, I have to see it on a
1:29:05
gigantic screen in 3D. So let's
1:29:07
go and do it. And I was like, I don't wanna sit through
1:29:10
the flying blue things. And
1:29:13
I'm like, oh my goodness. I don't wanna spend three
1:29:15
hours. So I'm looking at my watch after two
1:29:17
hours going. I'm only halfway through.
1:29:20
And I loved it. I didn't get bored at all. You did? Yeah.
1:29:23
It was interesting. But I think it's because I
1:29:25
had such low expectations. I was like, it
1:29:27
wasn't boring.
1:29:28
It was really impressive.
1:29:30
It was, I liked the story.
1:29:33
I liked the big flying things. It was
1:29:35
like being on a little ride.
1:29:37
I thought it was great. I didn't like TAR.
1:29:41
Oh man. I thought TAR was the best
1:29:43
movie of the year. Wow.
1:29:46
I think
1:29:48
in five or 10 years, we'll be looking back
1:29:51
and really having a different
1:29:53
perspective on that movie. I thought that movie was
1:29:55
brilliant.
1:29:57
It may have been also that I saw it later.
1:30:00
and I was kind of tired. And
1:30:03
I saw it a second time, I
1:30:05
enjoyed it even more the second time. You went back?
1:30:08
Yeah, I love tar.
1:30:10
Wow, you're a glutton for
1:30:14
punishment. That's incredible. I encourage
1:30:16
you to go back and- There is absolutely
1:30:19
no- When you feel fresh. I will ever watch
1:30:21
that movie again. I'm not gonna, I couldn't
1:30:23
even, I wouldn't be able to sit through
1:30:25
the 13 minute long musical
1:30:27
credit sequence at the beginning that they forced you to sit
1:30:29
through. Like this is some 1942 melodrama before
1:30:33
you even get to anything happening in the movie. I'd walk
1:30:35
out within 90 seconds. You know that
1:30:38
there was a, there's
1:30:40
a purposeful meaning behind that. I'm
1:30:43
sure there is.
1:30:44
What's the purposeful meaning?
1:30:46
I think it speaks to, one
1:30:50
of the themes of the movie is,
1:30:52
is putting to the test the lie
1:30:55
or the idea of the, the
1:30:59
sole genius, the self
1:31:01
invented genius who stands
1:31:03
apart from the rest of humanity.
1:31:05
And I think Todd Field in making this movie
1:31:08
was saying, not only is
1:31:11
Lydia tar, not
1:31:14
the sort of genius
1:31:16
fabricated character that
1:31:18
she, she's a product of her own self
1:31:21
creation. Like her stature
1:31:22
and sort of passion in
1:31:29
that world is the result of so
1:31:31
many people behind the scenes, all of the
1:31:33
musicians, all of these people that helped
1:31:35
to create the
1:31:38
work
1:31:38
that makes her the
1:31:41
person that she is in that world. Similarly,
1:31:44
Todd Field right up front in making this
1:31:46
movie is saying, look at how
1:31:48
many people it takes to make a movie like this, just
1:31:50
because my name as the director is
1:31:54
front and center on this whole thing. Let's be
1:31:56
clear at the very beginning, like I
1:31:58
want you to appreciate. like the thousands
1:32:00
of people that contribute to, you know,
1:32:03
a work such as this. And I thought that that
1:32:06
was a cool creative way
1:32:08
of like, of like, you know, basically,
1:32:12
exploring that, that theme that plays
1:32:14
out over the course of that film. That
1:32:17
is one interpretation. I like
1:32:19
that one. The alternative interpretation
1:32:21
is it's a way to virtue
1:32:23
signal to audiences about how creative
1:32:26
and important this movie is. And
1:32:28
that he's going to force you to... I will grant
1:32:30
you there's a level of self-importance in it. Exactly.
1:32:33
Strap yourself in because this is an epic, which
1:32:35
is going shooting for the stars, and he's going to win all the
1:32:37
Oscars. Just sit there and endure
1:32:40
these five minutes before I start
1:32:42
pulling my pants down and showing you
1:32:44
my dick. It's like, okay, we get
1:32:46
it, Todd. We get it. You're being
1:32:48
very, very fierce. That Berlin
1:32:50
apartment was pretty dope, though. It
1:32:52
was. It was a lovely apartment. I loved that. What's
1:32:56
the worst advice that someone's given you, Rich?
1:33:07
That's a tough one. I think
1:33:11
I would say... G'day,
1:33:16
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