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ladies, chicas, chicas. What up? What it
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do? What it do? We gonna make
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it do what it do, yeah, yeah.
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You and that song. Yeah, yeah. I
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love it. That's it. I love it.
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I'm Sam Sanders. I'm Saeed
1:14
Jones. And I'm Zach Stafford. And
1:16
you are listening to Vibe Check. This
1:28
week, we're talking about Gerard Carmichael's show on
1:30
Max, which Sam loves. Loves so much. Loves
1:33
it so much that he's being quoted in
1:35
articles about it. I know, Lord, I am.
1:38
And then the other person we want to talk about today
1:40
is JoJo Siwa. I know a lot of our listeners are
1:42
not 12 or 13. So
1:44
we'll break down who she is. But she
1:47
has really shaken the tables of the music
1:49
industry this week by saying that she's invented
1:51
a genre called gay pop, which
1:53
is a very confusing thing. Shaking the tables is a
1:55
stretch. She might have kicked one of the legs. Right.
1:58
She kicked one of the legs. I would say, you know, people used
2:01
to say like the worst thing would be to become like the main
2:03
character on Twitter. JoJo Siwa, it's
2:05
like she was the main character on TikTok. And
2:07
the problem with that is it's much more brutal
2:09
than Twitter. Oh, yeah. Those
2:11
stitch videos can get long. And the main character,
2:13
it goes on much longer. So I've been seeing
2:16
people, you know, and some people have
2:18
been dragging. Some people exact our spirits more calling
2:20
in JoJo Siwa's comments on like gay pop for
2:22
like over a week now. It's just like, woof.
2:25
Yeah. Woof. It's been a
2:27
lot. It's been a lie. what's
2:30
how do we say LGBTQ? My friend says,
2:32
Le Juba-tiqua. The Le Juba-tiqua community. Le Juba-tiqua.
2:34
Community. We're
2:37
going to take it even further and answer
2:39
an advice question that has been burning in
2:41
our inbox that we're very, very excited to
2:44
unleash. So before we do all of
2:46
that, I have one thing I want to announce. Drum
2:48
roll. You
2:51
will see across all of our social media handles
2:53
today that our first live show is being announced
2:55
today. It's for Los Angeles on July 14th and
2:57
it will be taking place at The Ford, which
2:59
if you don't know what The Ford is, it
3:02
is a beautiful venue that is the sister in
3:04
my mind to the Hollywood Bowl. They're across the
3:06
street from each other. Tickets are going on sale
3:08
May 14th, but I think you can check online
3:10
and start registering and figure out how you're going
3:13
to get there now. And
3:15
if you aren't in LA, don't worry. We have a
3:17
few more live show announcements coming soon. It's going to
3:19
be so fun. And my favorite part
3:21
of all of this is that when Saeed comes
3:23
to LA for this live show, he's going to
3:25
get to meet Wesley. Oh,
3:27
yeah. It's
3:30
time. I'm excited about that. Zach can attest. He's a
3:32
cute dog. He's so cute. He's very, very sweet. He's
3:35
very cuddly. Yeah. So
3:37
with that, how are we doing? How is
3:40
Wesley, Sam? What's going on in your world?
3:42
Wesley's working my nerves. He's definitely in his
3:44
terrible two-phase, just loud. So
3:47
my vibe with him is just like,
3:49
patience, patience, patience. Besides that, my
3:51
vibe right now is very
3:54
underwhelmed by one particular
3:56
movie. And it's got me feeling like we're going
3:58
to be in a different position. We're in
4:00
this rich cultural moment that
4:03
art could respond to, but
4:05
American art is not doing that. So
4:08
I saw Civil War this past
4:10
weekend, the Kirsten Dunst action
4:13
film in which modern day America falls
4:15
into Civil War. And I
4:17
wanted to believe in it. I wanted it to be good. And
4:19
I was expecting to have a
4:22
film experience similar to the one I had
4:24
seeing Zone of Interest, which
4:26
is a really powerful commentary on
4:28
our moment. Civil
4:30
War was not that. The whole
4:33
film, they avoided politics
4:35
so much, it was
4:37
just toothless. And it could have
4:40
been a discussion of how American politics falls
4:42
into a state of literal war,
4:45
but they avoided that and made
4:47
it one big commentary on the
4:49
ethics of war photography. And
4:51
it's like, baby, photographers didn't cause the war.
4:54
What are you doing here? There's a lesson here. And
4:57
I'm particularly feeling like the last several
4:59
years, a lot of American art hasn't
5:02
spoken to the moment. We have
5:04
to look to films like Zone of
5:06
Interest to really offer commentary on our
5:08
times. And American popular culture is just
5:10
missing that moment and not speaking to
5:12
it. Zach, you saw this as well,
5:14
right? Oh, yeah, I saw the
5:16
film. I was really excited to see it
5:18
because of all this hype. A24 is the
5:21
most expensive film they've ever done. And most
5:23
successful. And yeah, it has Kirsten Dunst in
5:25
it, who is my favorite. I can never
5:27
say her name correctly because I call her
5:29
Kiki, like we're girlfriends. And
5:32
I went being so excited. And then I watched
5:34
the film and I walked out so annoyed. There's
5:36
a lot of story issues. From
5:38
a story perspective, doesn't work
5:40
at all. The world that they've built doesn't
5:42
make sense, doesn't follow its own logic. And
5:44
then also, as a journalist, how they present
5:47
journalism, even in this moment in which America's
5:49
fallen, makes no sense. The one thing I'll
5:51
say is when you watch this movie, notice
5:53
how they're taking all these pictures and there's
5:55
a reporter there, but no one's writing any
5:57
notes. No one's filing anything. No one's sending
5:59
it. in the air, they're just like watching everything.
6:01
It's like, no, no, no, how this works
6:04
is like people submit. This is interesting because,
6:06
and I'm truly not trying to make a
6:08
pun, but I feel like the reception's actually
6:10
been very divided, which may be Alice Garland's
6:12
like, congratulations, you got the point. But,
6:15
you know, I have a friend who is
6:17
a photojournalist and she loved it. Her comments
6:19
was she loved Kristen Dunn's performance as a
6:21
wary war photographer and I think of a
6:23
woman photojournalist, she liked that. And then, you
6:25
know, Jamel Bui, who a lot of his
6:28
writing, and he's very interested in kind of,
6:30
I would say, the living legacy of in
6:32
particular, like, reconstruction in the Civil War and
6:34
how we live here in the United States.
6:36
He seemed to have really liked it too. I'm curious to see
6:39
it. I'm curious to see where I land. I
6:41
want my art to make me
6:43
question my place in things and
6:45
it's possible to leave Civil War if
6:48
you aren't a photojournalist to
6:51
think it's not talking about you. And
6:53
I want some of this work to
6:55
make me question myself and my role in
6:58
these structures and Civil War is not doing
7:00
that, whereas Zone of Interest does.
7:03
Yeah. And what I was saying, I don't think
7:05
this ruins anything. The whole conceit of
7:07
the movie is that they're in New York and
7:09
they're trying to get to D.C. before the Western
7:11
forces invade D.C. and take over the country. And
7:14
the whole goal is that they need to get an interview with
7:16
the President of the United States. And you
7:18
hear that conceit and you're like, oh, well, they must be
7:20
famous journalists, which they are, and they have special access. No,
7:23
they have no access. They're just going out trying to
7:25
get the real. So when it began that way, I
7:28
was like, this isn't realistic at all. This is not
7:30
how this works. So
7:32
anyway, how are you? My
7:35
vibe is so I was thinking
7:37
I had a moment yesterday where
7:40
I what I would say in
7:42
the past would be the
7:45
trimmer before an anxiety quake. I
7:48
was diagnosed with an anxiety disorder pretty early
7:50
in life. What I've
7:52
learned is that there will be these
7:54
little triggers that sometimes can be hours,
7:56
sometimes a couple of days before
7:59
things. anxiety really gets going.
8:03
And, you know, I've just, I've really struggled
8:05
with it. Anxiety has been nearly debilitating for
8:07
me at times where I just, I can't
8:10
function because I get so worked up. It's
8:12
like anxiety is spinning so fast. It just
8:14
shouts down any other thought process. But
8:17
particularly in the last few months, I've had
8:19
these moments where I've noticed a tremor. I've
8:21
had that thought and I've
8:23
been able to say no. Yeah.
8:28
The image I have in my head
8:31
is screaming in a room and
8:34
I just close the door. Yeah. And
8:37
it's, I don't try to justify why I'm
8:39
closing the door. I'll try to get myself,
8:41
you know, I'm just, I'm closing the door.
8:43
I'm closing the door. I love that. And
8:46
it's just taken so long to get to
8:48
this. And I, you know, and
8:50
I don't assume that it will always be this way.
8:52
I think it's more like I'm in a good season
8:54
with my anxiety. But, you know, and I'm sure many
8:57
of our listeners have similar experiences
8:59
with mental health. I think it's
9:01
so great when you have a
9:03
period where you can in real
9:05
time realize that your approach
9:07
to the circumstances has changed and like put yourself
9:09
on the back for it. I love that. Well,
9:11
and hearing you talk about this, it's
9:14
a thing that I've been thinking about and
9:16
trying to work through and do myself. It's
9:18
like when you reach those moments of stress,
9:20
anxiety, depression, whatever, how can you
9:22
look outside of yourself, see the
9:25
situation, and then kind of give
9:27
yourself a recommendation for how to proceed? I
9:29
had this moment last week in therapy where for
9:31
the last few months, I've been kind of fixated
9:33
on this one thing. And when I have downtime
9:35
or I'm bored or I'm lonely, I'll think about this
9:38
event and get mad about it. And
9:40
my therapist, Jonathan, bless you, love you, man.
9:43
He was like, you keep thinking about the event and
9:45
you get sad about the event and the thing, but
9:47
how about you get a little mad at your
9:49
brain for constantly going back there? And
9:52
how about next time it happens, you say, brain, why do you
9:54
keep doing that? And I say that
9:56
and all of a sudden, it's like I can walk away from
9:59
it. walk away from my
10:01
negative thoughts and I can see myself outside
10:03
of them. It's a little bit of like
10:05
third person behavior but like walking to yourself
10:07
can be really effective. I
10:09
think that's really interesting because the
10:11
other thing I've realized is
10:14
– this is very personal but so
10:16
much of my anxiety is connected to
10:18
not just like disappointing other people but
10:20
this deeply innate and I think it
10:22
actually will manifest in our conversation about
10:24
like Jojo Siwa and Gerard Carmichael. The
10:27
sense that there's a way
10:29
in which I could disappoint people in which I
10:31
would be permanently disinvited from the room. Yeah.
10:34
In which my invitation,
10:36
my ticket to get to
10:39
be admitted to civil
10:41
society is dependent on me being
10:43
useful, on me being liked, on
10:45
me being successful. And
10:47
so the other part of this is having to
10:49
get to the point where I realized that those
10:51
anxiety tremors are – and it's funny you mentioned
10:53
the past, Sam. They're past tense.
10:56
It's like a younger, less established
10:59
writer named Said Jones is like, oh, if I
11:01
don't write this in this way then I'm like,
11:04
no, no, no, we're good. We're good. So
11:06
it's interesting. Yeah, you have to develop like a sternness.
11:09
You got to talk to yourself and here's the
11:11
thing about rooms and being invited. There are other
11:13
rooms. There are other rooms and
11:15
what room do you want to be in and don't you have your own
11:17
room? I bet you do. Any who, Zach,
11:19
what's your vibe? Oh
11:21
my God. To build a
11:24
bridge off of Said Jones, I also
11:26
have been dealing with anxiety. But this
11:28
anxiety will surprise nobody because as everyone
11:30
knows, World War III, the nuclear
11:32
war is my big self-war. What
11:35
people and I can surprise everyone else, my
11:37
number two biggest anxiety in the world is
11:39
tax day. So both of these things intersectively
11:41
good. Baby, you better follow that extension. Extension
11:43
is an extension. I was just like, how
11:46
much money do I owe? Why am I
11:48
even paying this? If the world's about to
11:50
end, what's going on? It's not coming on
11:52
now. It's doing this, but I'm caring about
11:54
Uncle Sam. Is Zach saying I should have
11:56
to pay taxes given current events? Listen,
11:58
that's what I thought. And that's what I want
12:00
to share with our listeners today. So I went through that
12:02
dive. I was like, what happens if war does break out?
12:05
Do I not have to file on Monday? And guess what
12:07
listeners? They do have to file. They
12:09
have a manual they released in 1989,
12:11
just in case of nuclear war. You
12:13
can find this online. It is public
12:15
information. And that it says if in
12:17
the case of a nuclear event, taxes will get
12:20
delayed, but in 30 days, they
12:22
will be collecting them in the state's least
12:24
impacted that have the highest yield of tax
12:26
income. So this is what happens. This
12:29
is what happens in this world
12:31
is that taxes continue. The
12:33
only truth in this life are death
12:35
and taxes, baby. Death and
12:37
taxes. And then after death, it's taxes.
12:40
So I'm like, anyway, I've worked up.
12:42
I've been processing this for days and
12:44
now I've let it go. I
12:47
just love how your mind works. I love how your mind
12:49
works. Like you find
12:51
these portals for
12:53
discovery in the weakest. And
12:56
the anxiety will find a will away.
12:58
This is fine too, because I started
13:00
watching the series Fallout on Amazon Prime.
13:03
Zach recommended it. I'm really enjoyed it.
13:07
So it's even funnier now. I'm a match of
13:09
these people. These bunkers still paying their taxes. A
13:13
hundred years after the nuclear apocalypse or
13:15
whatever. And when you watch that show,
13:17
they totally are still paying their taxes. They're still
13:19
very committed to the American project, even though it
13:21
failed. But anyway, well, we're done. Thank
13:23
you for hearing me out. My anxiety has passed
13:25
by talking about it. Well I
13:27
hope listeners, you enjoyed our therapy session
13:30
today. Before we get
13:32
into the episode, we want to thank all of
13:34
you for sending us the fan mail. And of
13:36
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But I am so excited because I've got
14:18
to say, lots going on in
14:20
the world. But we're gonna have a pretty
14:22
fun episode today. I think we're gonna have
14:24
a dare I say a Kiki. So let's
14:26
jump in, shall we? Let's jump.
14:29
Let's go. All
14:38
right, listeners, first up, we're gonna
14:41
talk about our dear baby gays.
14:43
And if you don't know that
14:46
term, dear, the stretch, you were
14:48
like our queer brothers and sisters. And
14:50
I was like, it's a community. Some people are just neighbors. All
14:54
my queer folk ain't my dear folk. Okay.
14:57
So we're gonna get through this. This
15:02
is the beginning to Wow. All right. So
15:04
as you can tell, we're talking about baby
15:06
gays, specifically to baby gays who have captured
15:08
our imaginations the past few weeks. Their names
15:10
are Jojo Siwa and Gerard Carmichael. These
15:13
two people are pretty famous and were
15:15
famous before they came out as queer.
15:18
Gerard came out in his Emmy award
15:20
winning documentary, one man show special called
15:22
Ruth annual, which I thought was stunning
15:24
and beautiful. He's now followed up with
15:26
that with a new show called the
15:28
Gerard Carmichael reality show, which I
15:30
will let Sam get to the describing that
15:33
in a minute. And then we have on
15:35
the other side of the table today, Jojo
15:37
Siwa, who is a young singer, songwriter, performer.
15:39
She became very famous from the show Dance
15:41
Moms. But she came out a few
15:43
years ago. And in the wake of that coming out, she has
15:45
rebranded herself as a pop star,
15:48
which makes sense. You know,
15:50
child stars do this a lot. Miley Cyrus
15:52
has done this. Olivia Rodrigo has done this.
15:54
This is very much par for the course.
15:56
However, very rarely have we had the crossover
15:58
of child star to openly queer. your pop
16:00
star who thinks that they've created pop
16:02
music for queer people because that just
16:04
is silly and she's facing a ton
16:06
of backlash. So today our segment is
16:08
really about these baby gays and these
16:10
decisions we're seeing inside the celebrity industrial
16:12
complex to come out and then monetize
16:14
it and expose a lot of truths
16:16
about yourself and I think we have
16:18
some advice on what to tell others
16:20
who are coming out on what not
16:22
to maybe do. Yeah. And
16:24
can I say one thing about baby gays? So
16:27
the thing about the term baby gays and really
16:29
it could be, you know, baby trans,
16:31
baby bi's, you know, it's a
16:33
general thing. My sense is that
16:36
gender and sexuality exist outside of
16:38
time. So when we say
16:40
baby gays, we're not necessarily referring to
16:42
young people. JoJo Siwa is, I think
16:44
it's just barely 21 but Thoreau Carmichael
16:47
is, I think in his late 30s. In
16:49
his late 30s, right? Yeah. You
16:51
could be a baby gay. I know some
16:54
baby gays in their 50s, for example. But
16:56
when we say that, we're simply talking to
16:58
someone who is stepping into this type of
17:00
sexual or gender expression pretty early on for
17:02
them. It's not about how old they are
17:04
and I think I actually said this last
17:06
week. The thing about that is there
17:09
can often be a conflation where like JoJo
17:11
Carmichael, you're like you're grown, you're an adult
17:13
but at the same time when it comes
17:15
to expressing their sexual identity, it's
17:18
kind of like they're a teenager again in weird
17:20
ways. So that's what we're pointing attention to. And
17:22
this is what we want to talk about. It's
17:24
not just that Gerard came out and JoJo came
17:26
out. In doing so, they
17:29
both kind of made spectacles of
17:31
themselves. Gerard has this reality
17:33
show that has been embarrassing
17:35
for himself and JoJo
17:37
has proclaimed herself the queen of
17:39
gay pop with a lackluster single
17:43
and some music and visuals and choreo
17:45
and costuming that has just been ridiculous.
17:47
So it's about that. It's like both
17:50
of these individuals trying to come into
17:52
their own as queer people but seemingly
17:56
embarrassing themselves in the process. I
18:00
love that you both set this up like
18:02
that because what you're getting at is, at
18:04
its most basic form, adolescence. We all go
18:06
through adolescence. And what we're talking about is
18:08
an identity adolescence. That you start becoming aware
18:11
of the body, your body, how it moves
18:13
through the world, what world it is in,
18:15
and you begin learning. And the issue, what
18:17
we're seeing play out at really fast paces
18:19
and at high scale, is baby gays are
18:21
coming out and think they know everything and
18:23
they don't. So let's zero in on JoJo
18:26
Siwa just for a moment. She
18:28
has been working since she was a child. Literally,
18:30
I think Saeed told me before this, she
18:32
started getting her hair dyed at two. Her
18:34
mother started dyeing her hair blonde when she
18:36
was two years old. And JoJo Siwa kind
18:38
of made it onto the screen at nine
18:41
years old, so my goodness. Yeah,
18:43
so young. So she had this huge
18:45
career. For years she ran Nickelodeon, like
18:47
was running that company and really has
18:49
made a ton of money. As
18:52
she's rebranded, people have been really accepting
18:54
of her surprisingly. Her audience is very
18:56
young. It was pretty
18:58
openly, she of course faced some backlash, but generally people
19:00
were really into it because her aesthetic
19:02
is so fun and campy and commercial
19:04
and child friendly. But she's now reimagining
19:06
herself. And in the midst of that,
19:08
she has now presented herself as a
19:10
gaga mixed with kiss, mixed with lots
19:12
of other things. This is the thing.
19:15
So some of the visuals are crazy.
19:17
There's one visual she had on some
19:19
red carpets recently where she looked like
19:21
she was out of the band Kiss.
19:24
The dark, metallic, sparkly look.
19:26
And she was asked what
19:28
the reference was there. And she
19:30
was asked about Kiss. She didn't even know who
19:33
they were. She didn't know who Kiss was, right?
19:35
She's released this single called Karma that she
19:38
performs all over the place. The
19:40
song is not good. And now folks are saying
19:42
that she stole it from somebody. There's a 10
19:44
year old version of this song recorded by somebody
19:46
else with the whole video. And
19:48
she's just been striking out. And I
19:50
think the most egregious iteration of her
19:53
outness right now is in an interview, she
19:55
said that she was creating quote,
19:58
gay pop. To which everyone. said,
20:00
girl, get in line. You aren't the first
20:02
person. It's even worse, because she was like
20:04
gay pop, you know, like K-pop, which I'm
20:06
like, well, K-pop. I have a lot of
20:08
problems with you, actually. And
20:11
what has been stunning about this moment is
20:13
usually when someone missteps, you know, like Sam
20:15
Smith, who has come out as
20:17
part of the community in various chapters of their
20:19
life, famously said that they were the first queer
20:22
person to win an Oscar, and they weren't, and
20:24
they were dragged for it. But this happens a
20:26
lot. People come out and they don't know their
20:28
history. However, what I'm seeing these days is
20:31
that celebrities are responding to JoJo Siwa,
20:33
specifically people like Tegan and Sarah. Tegan
20:35
and Sarah responded. Iconic queer musicians who
20:37
were like, what? Posting Tegan and
20:39
Sarah was like, we have been doing this forever.
20:41
So to my sisters, what do you make of
20:43
this, this kind of habit we're seeing happen in
20:45
real time where people don't see the shoulders that
20:47
they're arriving on? And what do we owe people
20:50
who came before us when we come out? Because
20:52
we're still, these are adolescent gay people. You know,
20:54
they may not know. So with JoJo Siwa in
20:56
particular, I think it's a little different from Gerard.
20:59
You know, JoJo Siwa came out when she was what, 18, 19? Yeah.
21:03
She's been on TV, and not just
21:05
TV, reality TV where her
21:07
mother was also a star,
21:10
which is to say also directly profiting. And
21:12
I think it's really important to think about,
21:15
we've learned a lot recently, like shows like
21:17
Quiet On Set, about child stars and their
21:19
relationships to their parents, you know, their sense
21:21
of the world outside of their little Hollywood
21:24
bubble. I think all of that's really significant.
21:26
So when JoJo Siwa
21:28
said something so misguided, like an ahistorical,
21:30
not just ahistorical, but an arrogantly ahistorical
21:32
comment, I said, well, why wouldn't she?
21:35
You know what I mean? You're 20 years old, you just came
21:37
out. The thing is, usually
21:40
when a sheltered, closeted, you know,
21:42
actual young person comes out, they're
21:45
making a fool of themselves in
21:47
front of their friends and family, in front
21:49
of their classmates, hopefully in front of a
21:51
counselor or a mentor. The
21:54
problem, and I do, I really, I have
21:56
deep empathy for JoJo Siwa, because as soon
21:58
as I started kind of... Learning about
22:00
her. I was like damn is there ever a
22:02
moment? She hasn't had a camera in front of
22:04
her Could you imagine? Having a camera
22:06
and having tick-tock and that kind like you said
22:09
Tegan and set that level of attention in
22:11
the first year of your Coming out
22:13
journey, of course, you're gonna make missteps.
22:15
How could you not the missteps are
22:17
in fact a vital part process it's
22:20
kind of like how boredom is linked to creativity,
22:22
but Yikes to
22:24
do it in front of cameras to do
22:26
it without people guiding you towards more productive
22:28
language. Oh, yeah so I Am
22:32
looking at Jojo Siwa and actually
22:34
seeing her having to do to
22:36
coming out She's
22:38
having to become an adult after
22:41
being a child star Absolutely process that's
22:43
hard and she's having to become queer
22:46
after not being out as queer and
22:49
Both of those things are hard But it
22:51
is especially hard for young women who have
22:53
been child stars to become
22:55
seen as fully adult
22:58
women I had a
23:00
conversation a while back with Ann
23:02
Powers NPR music critic We're
23:04
talking about Taylor Swift's newest album and why
23:06
still to this day some people see her
23:08
as a kid and Ann said
23:11
something to me that really stuck with me
23:13
She said for women pop stars who became
23:15
pop stars when they were young for
23:17
many consumers of their art
23:20
They will be girls until they have
23:22
children That is the only way
23:25
that a really young girl in the spotlight gets
23:27
to become a woman And
23:29
if you're Jojo Siwa and you're up
23:31
against that You're gonna fight and
23:33
fight and fight to be seen as a
23:36
woman knowing that like these rules of matriarchy
23:39
Kind of make you seem like less than and so
23:41
you have that step So she's already dealing
23:43
with that and on top of that you have to be coming
23:45
out in the midst of all this as well It's
23:48
really hard She has a double burden on her and
23:50
I think it would have been easier for her if
23:52
she were a man I think
23:54
that when you're doing it as a woman There's
23:57
just like you are literally holding two
24:00
pots of water at the same time. So
24:02
I really feel for her. I
24:04
also think that, to Saeed's point, there
24:07
used to be a time when you just
24:09
wouldn't see this. I think about my journey
24:11
of coming out, which took years. Thank God
24:13
it wasn't on camera. I was
24:16
a mess. I was a mess
24:18
and a half, and I had to have some really
24:20
close friends and family sit me down and help me get
24:22
myself together. And thank God no one was rolling on
24:24
that shit. And I feel bad
24:26
for people like Gerard and JoJo, who
24:29
have tied their coming out stories to their
24:31
livelihoods. What a tough spot to
24:33
be in. Yeah, and I would, to take it
24:35
to Gerard a bit as well, I think it's
24:37
something they both have in common. That again, I,
24:39
it's like, this word's overused
24:41
too much now, but I do cringe. I mean,
24:43
it is like, oh God. But you know, one
24:45
thing that I see often, and I certainly did
24:47
it myself, you know, coming out, babe, you don't
24:49
just come out. You're like sticking a rainbow on
24:51
everything. You know, I always say, and gay men
24:54
do this in particular, where they're like,
24:56
all of a sudden they're like, straight people, straight
24:58
people, this breeders. Like you're
25:00
just, any opportunity you can
25:02
like loudly announce your rejection
25:05
of the closet and the kind of culture
25:07
that closeted you, you take. And
25:10
so with both of them, I
25:13
understand like the expression in extremists.
25:16
And with Gerard, you know, and it's interesting,
25:18
like you were pointing out, like the kind of
25:20
unique gender dynamics for people who present as women.
25:23
For men, and I would say, especially for black men,
25:26
you know, we deal when we're coming
25:28
up with such rigidity. So much of
25:30
black manhood is kind of stand up
25:32
straight and tighten and fix it, you
25:34
know, like be stone, be almost inhuman,
25:36
nothing can faze you. This world is
25:38
tough for black men and you've got
25:40
to be tough in response. So though
25:42
you could not pay me to watch
25:44
his show, I think what
25:46
his version of JoJo Siwa's like,
25:49
ugh, ness, is the messiness, is
25:52
the stuff where we're like, this shouldn't be on TV.
25:54
Why are you showing this? Why do you have Tyler?
25:56
Why would you, this doesn't make sense, because I think
25:58
for him, it's entirely... It's
26:00
almost like a violent fighting
26:02
back of the pain that
26:04
he's been kind of privately dealing with. I
26:06
think it's his attempt to kind of let
26:09
it all hang out. I don't love seeing it.
26:12
I feel less sympathy for him than for Jojo.
26:15
It seems like Jojo Siwa is hurting no
26:17
one but herself. Gerard is hurting
26:19
the folks that he loves. So we've talked before
26:21
about how on this reality show, he had
26:24
previously confessed his romantic feelings to
26:26
his dear friend Tyler, the creator
26:28
via text message. Tyler ignored it
26:30
but then for his reality show, Gerard
26:32
brought it up again with Tyler on camera.
26:34
It felt pretty weird and mean. Tyler
26:36
even addressed it in his Coachella set
26:38
last weekend. There's been other
26:41
situations where Gerard is bringing over random
26:43
Grindr hookups and sucking their feet on
26:45
camera but this last episode felt really
26:47
cruel to me and it was not
26:49
about the sexuality. It was just about
26:51
him being a good friend. He
26:53
has a woman who he grew up with,
26:55
a childhood friend. They both wanted to
26:58
be famous when they got older. Gerard made it and
27:00
he said, if I ever make it, you can come
27:02
stay with me in LA and you can try to
27:04
audition as well and become famous. He brings
27:06
her out to his house and says, stay here while
27:08
you audition. From the start, he
27:10
drags her for being messy and it's kind
27:12
of mocking her while she's in his house.
27:16
Then he surprises her with what he
27:18
says is an apartment that he got for her
27:20
but he doesn't tell her that he only got
27:22
her the apartment for one month. He
27:25
plays this woman on camera and jokes about
27:27
it in a comedy sketch within the show
27:29
in front of an audience of strangers. That
27:32
is cruel and that is separate and apart
27:35
from whatever sexuality Gerard is. I
27:37
think that what's happening with Gerard
27:39
is two different things. There's
27:42
the phenomenon of Gerard trying to figure out how to
27:44
be a black gay man and there's a phenomenon of
27:46
Gerard not knowing how to be rich and famous and
27:49
just being an asshole to folks who love him
27:51
in the process. I have no sympathy
27:53
for that. I have none for it. Yeah.
27:56
Well, to wrap, I think we could talk about
27:58
this forever. I'd love to end on... A
28:00
really special viral moment that I love and
28:03
I will preface this with I am friends with
28:05
these people I'm about to refer to I love
28:07
that this happened between them and I think Gerard
28:09
and Jojo should listen to their words So
28:11
we're gonna play a quick clip here from Laverne
28:13
Cox meeting Dylan Mulvaney for the first time And
28:15
if you don't know who Dylan Mulvaney is she
28:18
is a huge TikTok star She famously dealt with
28:20
a Bud Light backlash that you probably saw where
28:22
she was on a can and it tanked the
28:24
sales of the company and it was very controversial
28:27
So this clip you're about to hear is
28:29
from her first meeting of Laverne Cox two months
28:31
before the Bud Light I'm about to walk up
28:33
to Laverne Cox with the Grammys. She's on my
28:35
vision board this year You were on my
28:37
2023 vision board and now I'm finally getting
28:39
a meet. It's only February I
28:42
was on your 2023 vision board.
28:44
You weren't. That's lovely. It's insane
28:46
that you're like So
28:49
much of your life Makes
28:51
you do things for yourself. Everything cannot
28:53
be for the public. They love it.
28:55
They love it, but everything cannot be
28:57
for them How
29:00
do you feel hearing that as people who've
29:02
had to navigate a private life in our
29:04
own careers I feel that's so true and
29:06
I feel like for Jojo that is the
29:08
advice that she needs I think
29:10
Gerard needs some more advice, which is don't
29:12
be an asshole Yeah, what also happened in this
29:14
last episode of his show Gerard's
29:17
best friend from childhood asked him to be
29:19
the best man for his wedding And
29:21
he was like everyone's getting their tuxedos from men's
29:23
warehouse. Go get it. Gerard doesn't go get it
29:25
He shows up the day of the wedding with
29:27
the Tom Ford tux Doesn't
29:29
fit the I'm like wardrobe so
29:31
he leaves to go get the right tux and misses
29:33
the wedding And this is all on the
29:35
show just like cruel. So for me, it's like
29:38
Gerard Don't be an asshole to the
29:40
people who were there for you from the start
29:42
and that is separate from your sexuality Just be
29:44
nice to your people, you know, well, let's
29:46
say we have two modes of baby gay here Bring
29:50
us home for the people on
29:52
the Jojo Siwa journey. Here's what I
29:55
would say the public Will
29:57
take any and everything you give They
30:00
will just eat it up, eat it up, eat it up, whether
30:02
or not it is to your benefit or not. Now,
30:05
granted, the problem is when you've been in
30:07
the closet, of course, part
30:09
of your expression is going to tap into
30:11
the freedom that you don't have to hide
30:14
things anymore. Jojosea has spent 18, 19, 20
30:17
years of her life suppressing what she
30:20
wants to express, but you're going to
30:22
have to learn to discern. And
30:24
that's only going to come from people in your
30:26
close circle who can help you do that. TikTok
30:28
will not. To the people on the Gerard Carmichael
30:30
journey, I would say, let's think
30:33
about Tony Morrison's advice. Tony Morrison
30:35
said, the function of racism is
30:37
distraction. I think some people
30:39
get so distracted by their struggles with
30:41
sexuality that they forget about the rest
30:43
of their moral development. And
30:46
it sounds like for Gerard,
30:49
dealing with coming out of the closet is the least
30:51
of his worries. He needs to learn how to be
30:53
a person. He needs to learn how to
30:55
be a human. Yeah. Yeah. He's
30:57
surrounded by people who love him, black people who love him
30:59
and have been with him from the beginning. And he's just
31:01
mean to them. Treat him like this. I also would say
31:03
both of them just need a measure of time. Not
31:06
everything you do has to be on a camera the next day. Right.
31:10
Yeah. And my final note on this is I
31:12
think Gerard for me, and even Jojo in some ways, but mostly
31:14
Gerard for me reminds me that the magical
31:16
thing about coming out is that is a person's
31:18
moment in which they begin to tell their truth.
31:20
But it's also a moment in which they begin
31:22
to learn how to accept love that they've been
31:24
rejecting. A love for themselves, a love for other
31:26
people because they haven't been allowed to be themselves.
31:29
And I think when people are coming out, there
31:31
is the identity part of this. There's also the
31:33
feelings part of this. How do I
31:35
now get hugged in a way that feels good? How
31:37
do I get loved in a way that feels good?
31:39
And you need time to figure that out. And Gerard,
31:41
when I watch a show, I'm seeing someone struggling. In
31:43
real time. You know, in real time, it's an
31:45
opportunity to be loved and having never let himself
31:47
be loved before. And that's a very
31:49
tenuous situation to find yourself in. So
31:52
I wish love to these people. Good luck
31:54
on your journey. Stay our long and we'll
31:56
be here. Put the cameras down,
31:58
kids. Put the cameras down. you when I
32:00
got moving from lack everything sounds like abundance
32:03
everything sounds like a bun yeah but it isn't whoo
32:06
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32:09
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34:46
Anonymous. Here we go. I'm a
34:48
queer man in my mid-20s and have
34:50
been seeing a guy for almost six
34:53
months now. And during this time,
34:55
I found myself falling for him hard. He
34:58
checks all the boxes in terms of how I
35:00
would want to be treated in a relationship. And
35:02
he really goes out of his way to show
35:04
me that he likes and cares about me. He
35:07
ended a long-term relationship within the past
35:09
year and has talked about not being
35:11
ready for a relationship yet, which makes
35:13
sense and is something I
35:15
respect. All right, well, between the
35:17
two of us, he is great about showing me
35:19
that I am a priority to him, but
35:23
he rejects the notion that we are
35:25
functioning as a relationship and
35:27
has introduced me as his friend when
35:30
meeting people he knows in public. While
35:33
we have had conversations about being
35:35
romantically exclusive and sexually
35:37
open, which would be ideal for
35:39
me, this person says in parenthesis,
35:42
he's resistant to commit to romantic
35:44
exclusivity, arguing that since we
35:46
aren't dating, he is not at a place
35:48
to cut off other people he feels he
35:50
has connections with. Now I'm
35:52
in the position of where I sometimes feel like
35:54
I'm being strung along, with no real idea of
35:57
whether this will lead anywhere or whether
35:59
he expects me to... to be an option
36:01
among an undefined number of other
36:03
options for perpetuity. How
36:05
would you all read this situation? Am I
36:07
a clown if I continue to see him?
36:11
I'm triggered. Go ahead, Zach. Go ahead.
36:13
Go ahead. I'm triggered. I
36:15
think all of us have been in this situation. So
36:18
I think from reading this from my
36:20
position of having gone through this, you
36:22
know, this person has told you exactly
36:24
where they stand with all of this
36:26
and they've said they don't want exclusivity,
36:28
they don't want this to be a
36:30
solo thing, they're open to other people
36:33
and I think you have your answer there. You
36:35
also have the answer to what you need too.
36:37
You want something that isn't this. So I don't
36:39
think it's for me not too complicated. I think
36:41
what gets complicated is staying in a situation
36:43
which we would call this a situationship where
36:46
things are vague, they're not what you want
36:48
and you are expressing that or when you are
36:50
expressing it, your partner isn't, you know, affirming it,
36:52
receiving it or in your case it sounds like
36:55
they're saying, love that for you, not for me
36:57
but if you're going to be around me, this
36:59
is what I need to get through this. So
37:01
I think it's like you're not done
37:03
for doing this. I think it's just they're
37:05
telling you what they want and you're not really taking
37:07
it the hard time. It's not dumb but
37:09
it's like that love song, fools rush in. Yeah, I mean, yeah.
37:11
Yeah, fools rush in, yeah. I
37:13
as soon as I read
37:16
this letter, my first thought was, oh, I
37:19
feel really bad for this person because
37:21
they feel stuck. Feeling
37:23
stuck is hard. Feeling
37:25
stuck sucks and to hear this letter
37:27
writer also say, I feel like a
37:29
clown for feeling stuck, oh, that broke
37:31
my heart. So first I want to
37:33
say, you're not wrong to feel this
37:36
way. Do not beat yourself up over
37:38
these feelings. It is totally appropriate six
37:40
months in to want to have a
37:42
defined relationship conversation. Some people say you
37:44
can have it as early as three months in. So I'd say
37:46
first, don't beat yourself up for feeling
37:48
how you feel and for feeling stuck and
37:51
then two, what do you do when
37:53
you feel stuck? A thing I try to
37:55
ask myself when I feel stuck. Instead
37:57
of just saying, I'm stuck in the mud. to
38:00
myself, is it mud or is
38:02
it clay? Is it built to
38:04
wash off of me or is it
38:06
a thing that I can mold and make something out
38:08
of and build something productive out of it? And
38:11
the only way to figure out if it's mud
38:13
or clay is to really be
38:15
open and honest about how you feel
38:17
and what you want and to say
38:19
it out loud and verbalize it to
38:21
yourself and to the other person. And
38:24
once you do that, then you can
38:26
answer some questions. Is
38:28
it time to get out of this mud, rinse off
38:30
and move on or is there
38:32
some clay here that I can build something with?
38:35
But you only know that and you can
38:37
only answer that question once you're really, really
38:39
honest about what you want and what he
38:41
wants. Verbalize it. Write
38:44
down how you feel. A good exercise is
38:46
to even write down what you want in
38:48
a partner. Write down what
38:50
you want in a partner. And if this
38:53
person is not giving you the
38:55
things on that list, that's a tell. For
38:58
starters, you cannot feel mad at yourself
39:00
for feeling stuck in the mud. The
39:02
only thing that you have to do
39:04
is find some way forward and figure
39:06
out what's mud and what's clay. And
39:09
it might be that you find your
39:11
clay and build something without this guy,
39:14
but that's fine. But to start, you
39:16
have to own your feelings and not
39:18
be ashamed of them. You are not
39:20
a clown. You're just stuck. I
39:22
said this actually before we started recording, but
39:24
this letter writer says like I'm in my
39:27
mid-20s and I'm like, listen, who
39:29
is in their mid-20s or has been in
39:31
their mid-20s and hasn't six months into being
39:33
with someone, found themselves in this situation. I
39:36
said, you haven't lived, you haven't loved and
39:38
you haven't looked if you haven't found yourself
39:40
in this dilemma. And I think that's not
39:42
a joke. It's important to acknowledge that this
39:45
is very natural. And I do
39:47
feel that there is a call and
39:49
response between our two conversations today, because
39:51
like I was saying with Joja Siwa
39:53
and Gerard Carmichael, one of the challenges,
39:55
particularly for queer people, is
39:58
much of our first few... experience
40:00
our first few years and this could be
40:02
about friendship, this could be about the kinds
40:04
of places we start to party and this
40:06
can certainly be about the kinds of people
40:09
we hook up and start having relationships with
40:11
is that we're responding to lack. Many of
40:13
us didn't get to go to
40:15
prom with our boyfriends. We didn't
40:17
get to exchange cute little Valentine
40:19
cards with people of the same gender
40:22
we have crushes with. That's happening more
40:24
now but more times than not many
40:26
of us are playing catch-up and so
40:28
it's like you may be in your
40:30
mid-20s but damn you might as well
40:32
be 14 or 15 and so the
40:34
fumblings I think make perfect sense
40:37
and I think they are a part of the process.
40:39
You're not a clown, you're
40:41
a person on a journey and
40:44
the other thing is I think responding
40:46
to lack also means that especially
40:49
early on but maybe later on too
40:52
relationships that aren't directly
40:54
painful, abusive or
40:56
frustrating can read as good.
41:01
There's a difference between good and good enough.
41:04
I think this person is in one of those
41:06
situations I've been there. I think
41:09
the three of us all have been there
41:11
where you're in a relationship that's good enough
41:14
but the tension, the sense of feeling
41:16
stuck is actually your consciousness
41:18
beginning to tell you but is
41:20
this good? Is this actually what
41:22
you want or is this just
41:25
nice or is this just better
41:27
than all the shit you've been
41:29
used to? I think Zach is
41:31
very right. This person
41:34
has been very direct with you. I
41:37
feel like a lot of our letters, we get
41:39
a lot of gas lighting, we
41:41
get a lot of obfuscation and
41:43
stuff like that too. This
41:45
person's credit, I think he's actually been
41:47
pretty clear about what he
41:49
wants now. I want to say
41:53
the way I would probably hit a
41:55
person if I've been with them
41:57
for six months and then they called me. friend
42:03
the way I would go to jail
42:05
that day like that's that's really frustrating
42:07
and painful but aside that like this
42:09
person has been very clear so I
42:11
would say maybe it's time for you to
42:13
respond to that clarity. If he's painted a picture
42:16
and you don't like what you're seeing recognize
42:18
your picture. I also think
42:20
that every time we
42:22
get a letter asking for advice part of
42:25
my answer is read that letter
42:27
to the person you're talking about. You always say
42:29
that. Listen and I'm gonna tell you why. Dear
42:32
writer I want you to read this
42:34
line to him. Now I'm in
42:36
the position where I sometimes feel like I'm being
42:38
strung along with no real idea of whether this
42:40
will lead anywhere or whether you expect me to
42:43
be an option among a number of
42:45
people into perpetuity. Say that to him and see
42:47
what he says. Say it to him
42:49
to his face see what he says and see how you
42:51
feel and let that guide
42:54
you but you cannot continue to
42:57
act like your emotions aren't
42:59
worthwhile or aren't valid. You aren't a
43:02
clown. It's real. Yeah. Feeling this way
43:04
is real. And my personal
43:06
advice that I would give to this person
43:08
because I related to this so much. My
43:10
early 20s mid-20s were so much of this
43:12
vagueness of pursuing someone who obviously
43:14
wasn't available or even told me they weren't available
43:17
but I was hoping if I was good enough
43:19
if I was fabulous enough if I was fun
43:21
enough they would change their mind and they never
43:23
changed their mind or they didn't change
43:25
it fast enough maybe years later they did. And
43:28
what I would say is you know take the very
43:30
you know Sex and City talks with us all the
43:32
time. A man's are treating you like this. Treat him
43:34
similarly back. Go date other people. Don't stop living
43:36
your life. You know you're not getting your
43:38
body's telling you you need more so go
43:40
find that more. You have agency in this.
43:43
You can go find abundance somewhere else and
43:45
you know if that person comes back great.
43:47
That happens to many of us. I've had
43:49
it happen where someone's like slight bulb you
43:51
are actually what I wanted. I'm now ready
43:53
but right now they're not ready. So accept
43:55
it and move and you keep moving and
43:57
that's going to do that. Someone told me.
44:00
wants someone much smarter than me and I forget who it is or
44:02
if I read it somewhere. But they
44:04
said in matters of the heart, the
44:07
only yes is an enthusiastic yes.
44:10
If they cannot give you an enthusiastic
44:12
yes, an enthusiastic I want you, just
44:14
a no. If he can't
44:16
say it's you, but it's all
44:18
these over here too, that's not a yes. It's
44:20
not even a maybe. That's a
44:22
just you're in the queue. You want an enthusiastic
44:24
yes and if he can't give you that, go
44:27
find it somewhere else. It's also kind of amazing
44:29
how and this can be true
44:31
for different types of relationships, but especially like
44:33
an intense romantic relationship. There's this way I
44:35
think of kind of disappearing the
44:37
rest of the world. Like you really do
44:40
kind of you can begin to forget your
44:42
options. You kind of forget what it was
44:44
like before you were what you know, it's
44:46
just it's like the horizon kind of disappears
44:48
and and you're right in this
44:50
letter is interesting. This person knows like he's out
44:53
there dating and seeing other people and so I
44:55
would say like you can too. Like
44:57
before you get to the option that you're like
44:59
here it is. Here's the ultimatum. Maybe
45:01
you just go on a few other
45:03
dates, have a few other hookups and
45:05
just kind of recalibrate yourself
45:07
because part of what's going on here
45:09
and I did cut out the sentence.
45:11
It's like this person said, listen, I'm
45:13
getting so much of what I want
45:15
from this person. I'm just not getting
45:18
the commitment aspect. So I'm like maybe
45:20
you recalibrate a little bit and you're
45:22
like, you know what? I move you
45:24
to peg two instead of peg one.
45:26
Here's my question though. This letter
45:28
writer is so hung up over this
45:30
person. If they tried to go
45:33
out and be a freak and hook up one night, could they
45:35
even do it in earnest or they just be out there
45:37
stumbling? I kind of feel like does this
45:39
person need a little bit of closure with
45:41
this before they can even dabble elsewhere? I
45:45
would hate for this person to feel a
45:47
pressure to go out, hook
45:49
up and then they're miserable the whole time because they're
45:52
thinking about this. Is there a
45:54
way for them to get some clarity from this first
45:56
before they go out? I guess
45:58
it depends. I mean to me. If
46:00
I'm being very honest, I feel like if this person
46:02
were to as you said read the
46:04
letter or just presented like will you or won't
46:06
You I think this person's their partner is gonna
46:09
say I won't I've been clear that I won't
46:11
yes So maybe before we get to that step
46:14
I just know me in that
46:16
position when I've been caught up with someone knowing it can't
46:18
be but I'm still caught up and I try to go
46:20
dabble elsewhere and all I think about is them. You know,
46:22
well, I'm just saying Maybe
46:24
before we get to what could become
46:26
the yes Yes, this or that
46:28
kind of option where it's I think pretty clear this
46:30
person would walk away from them to be honest You
46:33
know, maybe you can see if you can recalibrate,
46:35
you know your vibe with them That's possible because
46:37
that's what y'all said you wanted to do in
46:39
the first place to be clear That's the other
46:42
thing if you have
46:44
a direct conversation with someone and then they're
46:46
honoring the conversation that you had and then
46:48
you begin to melt differently It's kind of
46:50
like well, he's doing what y'all said you
46:53
wanted to do honey. So yeah. Yeah, he
46:55
can't really yeah Yeah, also stop calling yourself
46:57
a clown for having feelings. Oh my god,
46:59
not a clown. Yeah Yeah,
47:02
you know, maybe you are a clown but when
47:04
it comes to a relationship, we're all at the
47:06
circus You know what I mean? Like it's there's
47:08
something that we have to About
47:11
sex hookups relationships, whatever you want
47:13
to call all of this that is foolish. It's
47:15
not It's not our most
47:18
Self-actualized self there's such vulnerability there's confusing
47:20
and the other thing is you don't
47:22
get to like have rehearsals
47:24
for these conversations and interactions What happens kind
47:26
of happens and so yeah, you feel silly
47:28
just don't beat yourself up for it. Just
47:30
say we're all clown Yeah, we're all clown.
47:32
Yeah Well, we're gonna leave
47:35
it there for now But listener,
47:37
I mean, you know if this
47:39
advice helps and you you try it out
47:41
and you want to follow up I would love to hear
47:43
a follow-up letter. I'm just saying Anyway,
47:45
we'll take a break for now and we'll be
47:48
right back with recommendations I want
47:50
a follow-up video of this person in the
47:52
club getting their life Taking shots
47:54
off our dude didn't want them to go to the club I
48:00
did this whole conversation about people not exposing
48:02
vulnerable moments of the life. It's just for
48:04
us. It's just for the aunties. It's
48:07
just for the aunties. Listen, once you read
48:09
this man fulfilled, you go to the club,
48:11
you videotape it, and show us proof of
48:13
life. Show us proof of life. Hey,
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all to share? Some things happen as
50:11
keep our vibes right this week. Some
50:13
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50:16
I love suit So I have news
50:18
but if you follow me on Instagram
50:20
you probably already know this news. but
50:22
strangely of the show I got to
50:24
produce step from Iran probably two years
50:26
ago. This allow our wilde is now
50:28
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in San Francisco on Thursday and her.
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like bad though that gets and then I'm
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at if you're not in some Cisco I
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June fifth it opens in our lay at
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the Amundsen Theater downtown arm and these will
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be the biggest houses the friendships of the
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plate as Omaha Lava oh god I love
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that are basically so much. As. Good.
51:07
So. We. Should share in the show
51:09
notes. I actually interviewed Michael are Jackson all
51:11
about that musical? He did my vulture so
51:13
intuit sent out like a point to share
51:15
his his insights on the music at that
51:18
really influenced the shower. Pretty phenomenal. He is
51:20
a bit awkward Amos man and itself sign
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ups honey it's as he will let you
51:24
know about Tori Amos one assist other the
51:26
I was another month following Michael are just
51:29
sit on Instagram of i don't know if
51:31
on other types of social media see about
51:33
is whether or not the law. okay well
51:35
I like this a lot next because he's.
51:37
He's thoughtful and I think you know we
51:40
thought this time around but a provocateur and
51:42
and when as a provocateur I mean he's
51:44
he's given you some to think about. You
51:46
probably will always agree with it, but it's
51:48
thought for an idol like people who do
51:50
with well and he does that well. as
51:53
other are inside what's erectus
51:55
weeks my recommendation this week
51:57
is a poem from the
51:59
best american Poetry 2023. I
52:02
was thinking about something Ada Limon said where
52:04
she was saying, you know, for new or
52:07
newer poetry listeners, you know, you can find
52:09
anthologies so that you can see a diversity
52:11
of work from different poets, different styles. And
52:13
every year there is a collection put out.
52:16
You can find it at any bookstore, the
52:18
best American poetry. And so they bring in
52:20
a guest editor and they select, you know,
52:22
a bunch of poems from different people. The
52:25
poem I picked, and actually I'll be frank, I didn't
52:27
actually like a lot of the poems in this book,
52:33
but I love this poem. It's by
52:35
Jeffrey Young. And I just want to say at
52:37
the back of the book, they have little notes
52:39
on the background. And he said that this poem
52:41
was inspired by a conversation he had in the
52:44
1970s. I love the idea that a turn
52:46
of phrase you heard in the 1970s could
52:48
inspire a poem in 2023. Okay, it's titled
52:51
parallel bars, which you know,
52:53
the gymnastics, it's like the
52:55
parallel bars. It
52:58
gets bad and then it gets worse. And
53:00
then the bottom falls out. But then it
53:02
gets better. Even great, you think. You're
53:05
there. And then it goes sour, totally
53:08
alone. But it
53:11
comes back. New breath, friends
53:13
again. It's the best it's been in
53:15
months. Really clicking. It's heaven. And then
53:18
just when you think it's about to stay heaven,
53:21
it gets bad. And then it gets
53:23
worse. And then the bottom falls out.
53:26
Will it ever get better? And then
53:28
it does. It's even great. You blink an
53:30
eye and it goes sour, vicious,
53:33
destructive. But it comes
53:35
back again. New breath, friends again.
53:37
It's the best it's been in months.
53:40
Really clicking. It's heaven. And then just
53:42
about the time you think it's going
53:44
to stay heaven. That
53:47
poem is parallel bars by Jeffrey Young. I
53:49
love it. If you think of parallel bars
53:52
where the gymnastics gets on and you're kind of doing loops
53:54
ups and down, it's like language
53:56
is mimicking a visual, you know, a
53:59
visual. image. Pretty
54:01
fun. It says the Calais. Yeah.
54:03
I love it. Sam,
54:05
what's your recommendation? My
54:07
recommendation is a novel I'm knee-deep
54:10
in right now that I'm thoroughly
54:12
enjoying called The Town of Babylon
54:14
by Alejandro Varela and it is
54:16
just delightful. Long story
54:18
short, it's all about a child of
54:20
immigrants raised in what seemed like a
54:22
suburb of New York City. He
54:25
leaves, becomes an academic, comes
54:27
home for his 20-year high school reunion
54:30
and all of the old stuff from
54:32
his high school life comes back including
54:34
a former lover. But it
54:36
also tells a
54:38
story of immigration and how communities
54:40
change over time and who
54:43
was welcome and who was not. It's
54:45
written so beautifully and it's kind
54:47
of wonderful in this way that
54:50
the author never names the place but you feel
54:52
the place and it's like you could be there.
54:55
It's wonderfully written. I can't put it down. I
54:57
read it to fall asleep at night and I
54:59
stay up way too long reading it. I
55:02
think you'll like it, dear listeners. I plus
55:04
one, Sam's recommendation, it's a wonderful book. I got
55:06
to meet the author a year or so ago
55:08
when I was writing a piece for the New
55:11
York Times and he was interviewed in it about
55:13
Fire Island because he loves it. He lives there.
55:15
He lives in Fire Island. Alrighty,
55:17
listeners, let us know what's keeping
55:19
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55:21
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55:23
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