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Listeners welcome to another installment of Hey
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Sis of I Checked series where we
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are highlighting some amazing Black women for
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Black History Month and Women's History Month.
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And today I am so excited to
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share. My first conversation ends with somebody
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who is so near and dear to
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me that it's the only person I
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let sleep on my house and I'm
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out of town. or yeah, this fun
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fact a her name is Kimberley Drew
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Kimberly Drew you may also know as
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museum Mammy on Instagram and all social
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media. She's an author. Of books like
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Back Futures Bj Worth Them has been on
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the show before she's Us what art critic
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and she's a social media superstar. Beginning her
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career at the Met by really helping blaze
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trails of how the museum's do social media
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but also have a reckoning about what they
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collect and today of excited bring hard to
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the show because fun fact say Jones and
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I have a different group chat outside of
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vibe Check it it is with Kimberly True
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surprised him say this is. Not.
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A lot now now now because I
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have no further than that way where
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alert and out day I'm. amanda this
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episode begins with that t which
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everyone will enjoy. I'm texting right
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now. Added.
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I will share a little something from that
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group text. From that group text? With Kimberly.
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The Paul Mooney poem in my book, Alive,
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at the End of the World. I
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actually, and I don't do this often with
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friends, but Kimberly, we were up
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very early one morning. This was like
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summer of 2021. Zach
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was dead asleep. So it's like we're
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in the group text, but it's just
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me and Kimberly texting back and forth
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for an entire morning as she gave
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me feedback and helped me revise this
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poem and really took what was like
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an okay interesting idea to something that
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is much more challenging. And I just remember
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being so excited to get to do that.
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And then I was like, and Zach is gonna wake up
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in a few hours to like 75. Oh
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yeah, that's a lot. Story
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of my life with y'all. Story of my life
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with y'all. That's true. What is
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y'all's little group chat named? Oh, what's it called
2:58
right now, Said? Is it still
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called WandaVision? It
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began as WandaVision. Now it's
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LokiVision. LokiVision. LokiVision.
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Okay. Okay. So
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if I watch the right shows, I can get in this. If
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I watch WandaVision and Loki. I may maybe, you
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know. See, but I mean, to
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that point, this group chat
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started because of our shared love of
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WandaVision on Disney Plus, which
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then became about Loki and all of these things. So
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it's a really fun place where we do talk a
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lot about art and
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talking to each other. And it's a safe space for a side
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and I, but Kimberly is such a
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force of a person that we had our own
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group chat with her. But
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the thing that I do love and what we do
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talk about in our conversation, which is really
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healing to me. You know, I spoke to her literally
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the morning after she left my house and I came
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home, because when she comes to LA, she'll stay here
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a lot. And when I
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arrived that morning, she told me that she
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changed all the sheets in my house and
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made everything really clean because she wanted me
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to land softly. And that's the purpose of
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our chat. is about soft living and
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why we all need softness in our life.
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And Kimberly is just one of these people
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that has done so much with her life
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and accomplished so much, but has this commitment
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to softness and the politics of softness and
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taking care of yourself that I thought our
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listeners would love to hear more about it.
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So that's our chat today, which I'm excited
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to share with you. I love that. All
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right. Well, with that, everyone, I want to
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give you, Kimberly Drew, and give you some
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insights into why she, Saeed,
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and I have group chat together.
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Enjoy. And why Sam is not in it.
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I guess I'm not landing softly enough
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for that group chat. God damn. Leave
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it in, Shansa. They're gross
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landing. Wow. All
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right. This is the day I've been waiting for. This is
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the episode where Saeed wasn't there and then Sam was singing.
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And it's just actually just us. Like
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in my fantasy. It's me. It's seriously
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that. I'm hijacking Vibe Check for one
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week. Listen, this would be a dream
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of mine. I guess what I should
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say first, everyone, this is Kimberly Drew,
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a dear friend, a very
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good friend of mine, a lover of
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Vibe Check. But also fun fact
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is in a different universe, Vibe
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Check is actually hosted by Kimberly
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Drew, Zach Zafford, and Saeed Jones, because we
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have an even more ancient group chat together
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than the Vibe Check. Yes.
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Yes. Loki Vision. Can you tell people before we
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get into all of this? Because I think people
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are going to realize as we talk that we
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know each other very well and our lives are
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so connected in different ways. For instance, I arrived
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at my home today as you left last night
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because you were staying. We're like, we're
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just so together in so many ways. But for
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people to know, talk about our group chat with
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Saeed. Yes. And you know, it's so
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funny. I mean, I just have such a
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deep, deep, deep love and respect for both
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of your brains. And we
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were separately. you and
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me were in our car ride home
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from seeing Ava DuVernay's fantastic origin film.
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And one of the things I was saying about the consortium
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of the three of you is
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that you have such unique and
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deep rooted senses of self. And
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it plays so well as
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a listener and as a person who has
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really high expectations for you. And
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for anything that I intake. And so
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it is always a pleasure to tune in
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literally every week because I never know what
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I'm going to get into. I never know
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who I'm going to agree with or disagree
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with, which is a long way of saying
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that yes, me and Saeed have this incredible
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group chat that started out
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called WandaVision and then became
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LokiVision because we had to
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pivot alongside the good sisses
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at Marvel slash Disney. And
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it's been a really beautiful
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space to do this kind of like cultural
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work. You know, it's a funny thing
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about like what makes our creative class
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so annoying is that we are constantly
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in critical dialogue
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about these things. You know, it's not just what
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the listeners get. It's not just what our books
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are putting out. This is our breakfast, lunch and
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dinner. And one of the greatest
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privileges of my life, you know, to be able
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to work through these things, especially to
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be able to think through these things in
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relative private. And so
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I want to encourage everyone to take their hot
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takes to the group chat. Yeah,
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if there's one thing you take away from here in
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my voice. Yes, like work off
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the group. Also, like I'm so glad you
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said that because the reason why we created
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vibe check and then the reason why we're
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doing interviews and conversations with people like yourself,
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who by the way, everyone should know and
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remember, we only really do these conversations when
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they're our friends. There are people that we
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actually have a real relationship to because we
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want to really show folks when you have
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a space of love with someone, you can be
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daring and you can try things out and work
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things through with each other. And we do that
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very publicly. And we're going to do it now
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together, me and Kimberly, but vibe check is so
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much about You know what we'll be talking about
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the group chat What are the things that are really like
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hitting for me that aren't making sense and where do I
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have space to? Figure it out
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and you know, that's what a group chat is
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for everybody So to Kimberly's point find your group
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chat figure it out their group fat find your
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dinner party I was coalition building
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for lack of better phrasing last night with a group
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of friends and we were all just going through you
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know the complications of the world like
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working in creative field is Is
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so ashy right now for lack of better phrasing
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and it's like just this constant issue You don't
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know what to do and there needs to be
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this bomb And I think that that bomb is
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found in these these moments that help us better
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understand how to participate in the world at
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large You know, like I think
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we do ourselves a disservice when we expect
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ourselves to be Saviors or to be right
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all the time. Actually, we really are in
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a time that requires so much humility Especially
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as there are these like infrastructural changes
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around conversations of diversity or or
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thinking about whose voice really matters
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That also means for us internally. We need to
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figure out what the heck we want to say.
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Yeah Yeah, I agree
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so much and before we you know figure out what
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the heck we're gonna say today Conversation
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I have to do my check in with you
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because my check always begins with a vibe check
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So Kimberly drew what your vibe I
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know you've been waiting for that question forever Yes,
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yes, I went
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line dancing I wore cowboy boots every
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day last week like I was out
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dancing when I was in LA last
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week and One of my
9:30
friends grabbed me to join in
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on like a group dance and
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I panicked But
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then continue to like join in and feel
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the swing of it and get twisted around
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and like, you know It
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was infectious and so my vibe this
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week is a little bit of bravery and a
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little bit of click-clack and Revelry
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in this dance three like going through TSA the girls
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were living for my cowboy really The
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red and white ones some red gone II
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cowboy boots. We were walking
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out of origins and someone literally like ran out
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the door to tell Kimberly, I love your boots.
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I love them so much. They
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have butterflies on the back. They're wonderful. And also
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can we talk about line dancing? I grew up
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in Tennessee so I'm very familiar with the culture.
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It is the best way to dance together.
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It gives you, everyone has the same purpose.
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It's kind of like you have rules which
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is what I love the most and it's
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just fun to kind of do drag I
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think right? Yeah but it was funny okay
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quickly I didn't know that it
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was going to be like hoedown
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music. Like I think I went
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in thinking that I was getting like Chicago
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line stepping or something or
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like Philly social dancing and
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then it was like the best of
10:44
country music until they
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played choice of on. They played Rush.
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That's my girl. No they did one
10:52
of your girls. Oh yeah what if
10:54
your girl? Yeah and it was it was sexy
10:56
and there was like one Janet number and
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I was like okay I
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feel safe. I was like I can't do a dance
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I don't know and then also music I don't know
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and everybody you know girls get excited like people know
11:07
the dances it's the same thing that happens like in
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a bashments like you know the dancehall songs and like
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how to move your body. Anyway Zach what's your vibe?
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Oh no one has asked us back what
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our vibes are in this moment and that
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is amazing. Thank you for that. Thank you
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and this actually represents why I love Kimberly
11:24
Drew. My vibe is I'm
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feeling exhausted you know I've just been
11:28
traveling you're the only person I know
11:30
in my life that travels maybe
11:33
more than me and the thing about our
11:35
travel as you know is we try to
11:37
keep our life at home going too. We
11:39
don't take off work we're trying to do
11:41
the zoom we're trying to take the calls
11:44
we're meeting with people wherever we're
11:46
at and also planning for the things in
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the future and it's just really exhausting and
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I had a moment we were recording a
11:52
show this week right as we're beginning to
11:54
record I open up my travel mic and
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I'm at a hotel and
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you know our amazing producing team has like
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made sure I'm prepared and sent me everything and
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I don't have the right cord and we're about
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to start taping the show in minutes and I'm
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like running through the hotel and I'm begging the
12:09
front desk people who are wonderful at this hotel
12:12
and they were trying to help figure it out do
12:15
all this stuff and it was just so much chaos
12:17
and then when I told fight and Sam about all
12:19
this drama it's like goes girl we're not doing brain
12:21
surgery it's fine if you need to not be here
12:23
today you don't need to be here today but I
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was there and we worked through it and I think
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you know why I'm telling that story and this actually
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leads to our conversation today is you
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know I'm a hustler you're a
12:34
hustler we have been working so hard
12:37
in our lives for so long it's
12:39
due to our gender our sexuality our race
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all these things it also is about our
12:44
ambition and that we want bigness out of
12:46
our life but that wears on
12:48
you and there's moments in which like your body
12:50
just shuts down it needs
12:52
some rest and as I was
12:54
on my way home after doing the show
12:57
from a hotel then driving home you were staying at
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my house and you said something to me that really
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touched me and it's going to be the theme of
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the show today you said that you
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had done the laundry and
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that the bed sheets were done and prepped
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for me and Craig to come home because
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you wanted us to land softly and
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that is the conversation today is about how
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to land softly what a softness means so
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Kimberly to get us going when you sent that
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to me what did you mean what is soft
13:23
landing mean to you and why is it important
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to have softness in our lives right now yeah
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well before that I do want to
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say that it is really important to
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have these kinds of dialogues with your friends I think that
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that's the first soft landing because in the
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vastness of the world right not having
13:42
the cord one might not register as
13:44
an urgency and
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that urgency might not register against
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the landscape that you're dealing with
13:51
to be able to even understand what
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the stakes are to understand the stakes
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that we feel intergenerationally the angling towards
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perfection that I think exists in so many of
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us and feeling the tangibility of success and then
14:02
knowing that that cord can be the make or
14:04
break, even if it's not. But there's
14:06
so many metaphorical placements for what you're going
14:08
through and it's really such an honor to
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be able to have friends who intimately
14:13
know whatever their missing cord is. And
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I think for me, one of my missing cords is when
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someone stays in my house. Because
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I joke that I run like a youth hospital.
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But I'm like, y'all, please make
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the bed. Please don't
14:30
leave a dish. If the yoga mat
14:32
is out, leave the yoga mat out. These
14:35
things are laid with some intention. And
14:38
even the exact partner was like, I
14:41
can change the orientation of the bed because I know
14:43
you like to watch TV and bed. There's
14:46
so much that goes into these decisions
14:48
and how to make home safe, whether
14:50
you're in it or lending it to someone
14:52
else. And so I wanted to make sure
14:54
that I was taking that baton on and being able to
14:56
pass it back as I was leaving your space. I've
14:59
been just starting a book called
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Birthing Liberation, How Reproductive Justice Can
15:04
Set Us Free by Sabia
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Wade, the Black Dula. And
15:09
in the beginning of the book's introduction,
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Sabia speaks really eloquently
15:13
about grief and
15:16
liberation and how just to
15:18
lend to this conversation of softness, to
15:20
be on this journey of softness is to understand that there
15:22
is hardness, to be on this
15:24
conversation around freedom is to grieve the fact
15:27
that we're getting free from something. And
15:29
so when I'm thinking about softness or
15:31
self-care or these kinds of things, they
15:34
are particularly rigorous acts and
15:37
there's a lot of labor that
15:39
goes into the eloquence of it. Yeah.
15:43
It's become a viral trend too. This eloquence
15:45
has, I feel through its virality, become less
15:47
eloquent. And that's where I think this tension
15:49
is and where I would love to, through
15:52
the time that we have with each other,
15:54
really give people some material ways
15:56
to live a soft life and
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the productivity within that. And
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what I'm talking about is, you know, you go
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to TikTok, I think last I checked, there's over
16:04
like 700 million or billion views of the hashtag
16:06
softlife. You know, we don't know
16:09
exactly where the hashtag came from. Some
16:11
reports say it comes from Nigerian influencers
16:13
who really came to dominance on TikTok
16:15
and were kind of teaching us about
16:17
a softlife in Nigeria. Other
16:19
people just think it's a form of self-care that
16:21
white women have commodified in the US and stolen
16:23
from black people. But each
16:25
image of softlife that we see on the internet is
16:27
very much tied with like luxury too and about, you
16:30
know, boats and living in a nice place and
16:32
all of these things. So I guess Kimberly, when
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do you think of softlife and how it's been
16:36
portrayed on the internet? What comes to
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mind and what are the complications within that
16:40
representation of softlife that you see? Yeah,
16:43
I mean, I think one of the other
16:45
things that's important in our dynamic specifically is
16:47
our commitment to Dalulu energy. Yes. And
16:50
existing on our own little plane and
16:52
letting our Pisces placements run free. But
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it makes me think of my relationship to the term quiet
16:57
luxury, where I was just like,
16:59
oh yeah, it's like the things that like, you know what
17:01
it is because you really like that cashmere sweater and like
17:03
the people who know the cashmere sweater know the cashmere sweater,
17:05
not like this vilific, like
17:08
an indictment, a necessary indictment of a
17:11
particular class of people. I didn't know those
17:13
two things. And so I say that to say my definition
17:15
of softlife, from what I understand it, yeah,
17:17
is like, I don't want to start my
17:20
beef with the rest movement. Start the beef. Oh,
17:23
because the rest movement, like I
17:25
struggle a lot with it
17:28
because I think that there's a way to
17:30
have softness that is not encouraging everyone to
17:32
nap or encouraging everyone to
17:34
bathe like you should be bathing. But
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for me, when I think about the softlife, I
17:40
think about dance, I feel like the rhythm of
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it where it is building out
17:44
the choreography of your life such that you
17:46
can float through it. It
17:48
is the rigorous work of setting boundaries. It
17:51
is the rigorous work of committing
17:54
to your craft. That's
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what I think of when I think of softlife. I
17:58
don't think of people who are living. living
18:00
at a certain socioeconomic level and
18:02
therefore makes such things accessible. For
18:05
me, when I think about soft life, it is
18:07
really about having a really hard audit
18:09
of how you're doing things and orienting
18:12
them towards conditions that allow you
18:14
to float through them as best as you can.
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Why is it important to float through things?
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Because I think hustle culture is so dominant
18:22
still to this day. I would say especially
18:24
for millennials, Gen Z, I'm not one, so
18:26
I can't speak for them, but
18:29
my millennial class, we beat ourselves up
18:31
for not owning homes yet, not
18:33
hitting certain life points that our parents did. So
18:35
we think, oh, I've got to work harder. I've
18:37
got to start a side hustle. I've got to
18:39
start a business. And then we
18:42
just stress ourselves out and run ourselves into burnout.
18:44
And burnout is a real thing. It's a
18:46
real medical thing. People can lose any
18:48
energy or ability to care about what
18:50
they used to care about because of
18:53
over exertion. So I guess
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my question is, why is
18:57
it important to learn how to move through life
18:59
with some softness and float through it? And what
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does that look like? Yeah, I don't think
19:03
that we have to live in a world
19:05
in which we always delay pleasure. I
19:08
think that that's it. From a very
19:10
young age, I've always been really
19:12
about really seeing the harvest of
19:15
my seeds. I don't
19:17
understand, I have to wait until this set of
19:19
point in my life when I can actually enjoy
19:21
it. I'm like, I want to work and
19:23
enjoy. I want to work and enjoy. I want to have the best
19:25
meals now. I don't feel
19:27
like I have to fight or whatever that is
19:29
within my own reach. Playing
19:32
the long game, I don't understand. And
19:34
less and less, because we are in
19:36
this moment of such excruciating violence, there
19:39
isn't really an incentive to delaying
19:41
the pleasure, of course, within
19:43
lens of equitable thinking and trying
19:45
to make sure that your pursuit of the
19:48
softness for yourself doesn't discount the lived experience
19:50
of others, which is important. I'm like, I'm such
19:52
a black woman having to say it like that. You know what I mean?
19:55
Yeah, I think that there is a shift that
19:57
I would like to see more. I
19:59
love a softness. Oi have the schools were like.
20:02
This is the easy thing to accomplish and I'm gonna
20:04
get myself a little tree that the sure. I
20:06
love that song Goals of An Effect of
20:08
Back With Me So when did you learn
20:10
how to take care of yourself with this
20:12
way? Because when I first met you. Forget
20:15
how we met exactly but I remember the
20:17
first time I knew who you are was
20:19
do your work on social media through museum
20:21
and mean you're incredible work advocating for a
20:23
black people in the art world. Them each
20:26
a black artists were being treated act of
20:28
bleach. There's such a huge fan and and
20:30
I met you and you were even better
20:32
in person than I experienced by I knew
20:34
at that time this was years ago. You
20:36
a lot going on. You're working on a
20:38
buck. Black futures Another bucks this is. But
20:41
I know about arts. You had many jobs,
20:43
You were just a reflection of myself. But
20:45
within that reflects and I saw oh, you must be
20:47
stressed out X must be tough. Was it tough back
20:49
then And when did you learn how to take better
20:52
care of yourself? At took one
20:54
little mental breakdown. And that
20:56
is a giant with lime. Well, a
20:58
mental breakdown to do like the first.
21:00
Round of like maybe I should change things
21:02
and then a second one. To
21:04
really sit me down? I mean, you
21:06
witnessed me through this reckoning that I
21:08
lost. So many friends and was
21:10
in this moment where I just
21:13
hadn't had nothing to give and
21:15
I felt very much like. All.
21:17
The things I had worked for were being taken
21:19
away from me and I think that that's especially
21:22
where my desire. And. My I guess
21:24
more security and being like I'm gonna see my
21:26
flowers I'm gonna see my own flowers now because.
21:29
It's like you end up in
21:31
these systems. That. Would
21:33
rather you beat dead. To
21:35
be taking these systems and which
21:37
you are seen. As a visitor,
21:40
no matter how long you have been
21:42
present. I've been working in my industry
21:44
for a decade and still have these.
21:46
Constant reminders of how I am. A Visitor
21:48
and service. And.
21:50
I think the only autonomy that I do have
21:52
is the hours in my day and how I
21:55
spend them. And how I'm able
21:57
to reorient them. And how am able
21:59
to better as. For myself, what
22:01
success actually looks like. Because.
22:04
I feel like often times. There.
22:06
Are ways in which people's imaginations
22:09
of us are so limited. A.
22:12
You know you know the numbers are people, are
22:14
like, your goal is this and as like you
22:16
have no idea the vastness. Of what
22:18
I I see for myself and that
22:20
that might be something soft which is
22:22
something I often say to you is
22:25
that Zoc you hold such incredible soft
22:27
power amongst so many of our brilliant
22:29
peers who are like drive it home.
22:31
With such force and. You're
22:33
just like I'm working my butt
22:35
off and throwing myself around the
22:38
planet for these meetings. Advocating for
22:40
ideas, advocating for people, But.
22:42
Doing it with. Such. Grace
22:44
and thoughtfulness in I Like.
22:46
I've never and are dynamic, ever, ever ever
22:49
felt like I had at it myself. Ever.
22:52
How. I love doing that, which is like
22:54
rare. You know that? Does. Snow
22:56
and I'd love to actually go deeper
22:59
into that because I was in Utah
23:01
and when of crags friends are deprived
23:03
is an ex mormon feminist writer and
23:05
she's really wonderful and I think he
23:07
was quoting her and she said you
23:10
know Symon in it he is not
23:12
about kind of the stereotypes a thing
23:14
of it worth about like you know
23:16
a hyper sexuality submission all these things
23:19
she said it's about attraction it saying
23:21
some in in it about. Like.
23:23
A softness that allows you to pull people
23:25
would and attract people. And I guess that
23:27
leaves me to the question of like soft
23:29
power Of what does that mean When you
23:31
say that we say i have of power,
23:33
you have soft power. What's what does that
23:35
look like and why is that actually may
23:37
be better than this hyper masculine power we
23:39
see play out of work environments where people
23:41
feel if they have to dominate they have
23:44
to control. They have to exert harm onto
23:46
others to when. I. Think it
23:48
starts first as a commitment to what
23:50
you're doing. Being. committed
23:52
also means listening being committed also means
23:54
understanding that sicilian in the case of
23:56
the intersection of both of our works
23:58
are entering into law Long-standing institutions and
24:01
I think we both intimately understand that
24:03
they have existed for a reason as
24:05
they do and so starting in with
24:07
questions As opposed to a very okay. This is
24:10
my shade for Gen Z It's
24:13
not about like radical immediate change,
24:16
but really thinking about how to Sit
24:19
within something and think through Collaboratively
24:21
how to make lasting change that for me.
24:24
I think is a soft power
24:26
power move Where
24:28
you are there in collaboration? But
24:31
you still have your goal you're maintaining your morals But you're
24:33
not coming in and like setting the thing on fire
24:36
Because I think that that's also how you build trust which
24:38
I also see in the realm of soft power, too And
24:41
then also I think in your case It's
24:44
just the diversity of things
24:46
where some people make the
24:48
choice to be really concentrated in one direction
24:51
one vector one trajectory of their career
24:53
and and Both of
24:55
us are just very thirsty for capital
24:57
C culture Mm-hmm and being
24:59
within that kind of multiplicity
25:03
It softens you because you're tenderized because
25:05
you're not building yourself as like express
25:07
expert in one thing Yeah,
25:09
and it does take a lot of beating like for
25:12
me It's like I'm between art and fashion two of
25:14
the most exclusive industries period Yeah They
25:16
have tenderized me and I and I find that
25:18
my life my quality of life is better when
25:20
I approach them both with a
25:22
softness Listeners
25:24
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right, we are back, and we are jumping right
26:28
back into this conversation with Kimberly Drew. There was
26:30
a recent article in
26:32
essence.com, I think, and the title is, Here's
26:35
Why Black Women Are Rejecting the Strong
26:37
Woman Trope and Living a Soft Life. And
26:40
you just mentioned that you operate two
26:43
very hard, rough industries, fashion
26:46
and art, and fashion is just, I
26:49
don't know, I don't know what to say. I don't
26:51
know what to say. I don't know what to say. Fashion and
26:53
art, and fashion is just, I love going
26:55
to fashion shows with you because you are my softness
26:57
and my protection there, because it is not a soft
26:59
place to be. But I know
27:01
for you as a black woman, as a queer
27:03
person, coming in with softness is not what people
27:06
are used to. Talk about
27:08
that experience, and how you've softened
27:10
yourself within an industry that wanted
27:12
to harden you, and
27:14
still found the successes that you wanted through all
27:17
this. I
27:19
just wanna stay in it. I think it
27:21
reverts back to what I was saying before. It's like,
27:23
I love what I do. And I
27:25
think it's weird when you do the thing that is
27:28
a part of life, you know what I'm saying? I'm
27:30
not selling Salesforce, you know what I mean? I
27:32
work in the industry of aesthetics and
27:35
in culture. I'm not gonna turn my
27:37
back on culture. So I have to
27:39
find a hospitable place to exist within
27:42
it. And I think one
27:44
of my dear friends, Marcellus Armstrong, who is
27:46
a super talented artist, the day that
27:48
we met, we were interns at the incredible
27:50
Studio Museum in Harlem. And he was
27:53
like, we're gonna do this forever, and we're gonna
27:55
be friends forever. And that's
27:57
just been my guiding principle, where it's like, to the
27:59
best of my. I want to maintain
28:01
these relationships and have as
28:03
real of relationships as possible like me and you
28:05
Zach Ran a lot about the
28:07
fake ones, you know Where it's like you actually
28:09
don't care how I'm doing and and if you
28:11
don't care how I'm doing I prefer you not ask me
28:14
like if you see me say what's up But like
28:17
we don't have to engage deeper than that. We
28:19
don't have to pretend it's more than it is But
28:22
I think you know if people actively avoid me because
28:24
I want to look I'm gonna be at the club I'm
28:26
ask you how you doing? Like you
28:28
know like if you want to talk about you know What's
28:30
going on in here here and there like I
28:32
would I'm so much more concerned with those things and I
28:34
think that's my particular Soft
28:36
superpower is like I really
28:38
do want to have great conversation I
28:41
really would rather that then you
28:43
feel like you have to edit or have to shrink Because
28:46
it is the robustness of who you are as
28:48
to why you're in this room in the first
28:50
place, baby. Yeah. Yeah Yeah, whoo
28:52
This is like church for me and everything
28:55
for saying is actually giving me language to
28:58
Understand what I just went through so to
29:00
share You know and I
29:02
said this on the show in one of the
29:04
episodes before this experience at Sundance this past year
29:06
was very Complicated because a lot of incredible inclusion
29:08
in films a lot of our friends were in
29:10
movies They're you know queer people trans folks of
29:12
color all getting their their shine and I loved
29:15
it I love being there for them however the
29:17
audiences did not look like them at all and
29:19
people when you walk through them as You
29:21
know queer body people as black people they were not nice
29:24
to us at all and it was very confusing to me
29:26
and The real point
29:28
I want to make is as I was going through all
29:30
this I felt my soft power activate and I kept
29:32
thinking oh I don't want to go to that party
29:34
because I don't want to have to be fake the
29:36
people who aren't gonna be nice to Me. Oh, I
29:38
don't want to go to that dinner I don't want
29:40
to have to have shallow conversations because I want deepness
29:42
there and so I'm
29:44
sharing all this and as you're saying this and I'm realizing
29:46
that like softness is Not only kind
29:48
of like a mode of being in these spaces
29:51
But it's also a way just to keep through
29:53
yourself alive because a lot of these things do
29:56
destroy you Do you relate to that feeling? Yeah,
29:58
and the only thing I'll add Because
30:00
I think this is also true is that we
30:02
work our butts off like I work my butt
30:04
off So that I don't have to go to the
30:06
vein things that don't feel good. Yeah I'm
30:09
like I will write the heck out of
30:11
this essay I will you
30:13
know like take 5 a.m. Calls from your couch or just
30:16
in the background of the zoom Because
30:18
it's like if I can't speak for myself
30:20
as a person who is a deeply sensitive
30:22
person I have to let my work speak
30:24
for me and I know that
30:26
that's like can sometimes be the trade-off But I
30:29
was listening to you talk through that story
30:31
of like what it means to have this
30:33
engagement with culture And then
30:35
see that that's not what people actually mean
30:37
I mean we're in this moment now where
30:39
people want to talk retroactively about genocide But
30:42
we're in the middle of one like it's
30:44
just you know we have to ground ourselves
30:47
We really do have to ground ourselves and
30:49
not treat everything Like this
30:51
third space and understand that these things actually
30:53
do impact us and affect us like how
30:55
are you is it real? Genuine question was
30:57
coming out of my mouth, and if you
30:59
say fine, and you mean fine. That's fine
31:02
But don't say fine and not mean fine Why
31:09
You're very much like me what you say say what you
31:11
mean type of tea Yeah, just
31:13
like say it with your chest which holds
31:15
your heart like that's okay Yeah, that's okay,
31:17
and I might not be that avenue for
31:19
it, and that's okay, too But
31:21
I sure as hell Hope anybody
31:24
who's listening is able to access
31:26
their avenue for it and to
31:28
understand that those friendships are equally
31:30
powerful You know I
31:32
think one of the biggest heartbreaks that I have
31:35
is when you think that someone's your friend And
31:37
then you realize that it's like this weird like power
31:39
play, and you're like no We're just homies like
31:42
I don't actually want anything from you.
31:44
Yeah. I really don't I really don't Yeah,
31:48
I think what you're saying just now reminds me of
31:50
a definition I've held for friendship for many many many
31:52
years is that to be my friend or for me
31:54
to be friends with someone is to Love and support
31:57
them through anything that they do in the day. I
31:59
can't do that is the day that
32:01
we have to have a conversation that I'm not being
32:03
a good friend. And I think that softness is saying
32:06
be however, arrive however, say what you
32:08
need and I'm always going to show up
32:10
the same way with you in the day
32:12
that we don't. We're not friends
32:15
and that's okay and that's a part of life
32:17
but we have to have an understanding that friendship
32:19
has to be a place where you
32:21
can let it all go. And I feel like a lot of
32:23
us out here have friendships that aren't that way. Yeah,
32:25
especially your kind. I'll be like, y'all,
32:27
I was so worried about the gay
32:29
men in my life. I was like,
32:31
what's happening on that side? There is
32:34
a mess, a war. A
32:36
war inside. And I think it's also
32:38
grace. I think more than even
32:40
soft life, it's like a graceful life. It's
32:43
like just provide grace
32:46
if you can. What a
32:48
tremendous resource that you cannot buy is
32:50
grace. Amen. So
32:53
far, I think we've been doing a
32:55
good job of talking about softness, how it applies, how
32:58
you can carry it, how you move through it. And
33:01
I hope people are picking up and getting inspired in ways in
33:03
which they can activate it in their own life. But
33:05
this brings me to something that you posted on
33:08
Instagram that I want to read. You
33:10
wrote on January 1st of this year, 2023
33:12
was the year I learned how to respect
33:14
myself. 2023 was the year
33:17
I listened to myself for some of the first times
33:19
in my life. I took to-do
33:21
lists personally. I let myself set goals. I
33:23
let myself discipline myself, not in the sense
33:25
of self-legilation, but in the sense of a
33:28
sharpening. At 33, I
33:30
have needed these years to learn to
33:32
trust, trust that my desires are enough,
33:34
trust that external validation will never slap
33:37
as hard as being truly satisfied with
33:39
the sharpness of your own oyster knife.
33:42
And it's this word sharpening that I
33:44
loved and Nora, who produces the show, also loved,
33:47
and she's the one that flagged this to me.
33:50
And I want to hear what you mean
33:52
by that and how that lives within a
33:54
soft life. Because even though the words we're
33:56
using there, softness, sharpness, are a contradiction. But
33:58
I see very clearly. your friend how this
34:00
exists, but tell us in your own words. Yeah,
34:03
I appreciate that. I mean, it's also just
34:05
like, because language is fun, right? Like I
34:07
have an oddly like poet brain, even though
34:10
I don't do that, which is why I
34:12
love vibe checks. Oh my God. I love
34:14
you guys so much. I love you. Oh,
34:17
it makes me sick. The way
34:19
that I like in my house, like talking back to the
34:21
podcast, it makes no sense. But yes,
34:23
I think it is about these kind of
34:26
guardrails. It's almost like existing, not like in
34:28
a bubble in a fully
34:30
delusional way. But understanding
34:32
like, there's only so much
34:34
that we can control and hold. And that
34:37
within that, we can say you did a
34:39
good job, bitch. Like, you can say that
34:42
to yourself. Like, we're in this moment
34:44
Oscar moment, award season moment, blah,
34:46
blah, like you have to know that
34:48
your performance was good. Like, that's, I think one
34:50
of the most like difficult things of watching
34:52
America for error talk to Kevin Costner's at the
34:54
Golden Globes was like this weird
34:57
wanting of confirmation from him. I think it
34:59
was Kevin Costner. It was like this weird
35:01
wanting of confirmation from him about the
35:03
monologue. And she's like, are you going to say my
35:06
monologue back to me? It's like, girl, you knew the
35:08
monologue was the best to your ability. And if you
35:10
don't know that, that's such a better use of your
35:12
energy than whatever's happening right now. Like we cannot
35:14
wait for these external confirmations. We cannot, you know,
35:17
be the gold you want to hold to quote
35:19
the launch. And so that's I think what it
35:21
is for me because within this
35:23
context of the internet, within this kind of
35:25
cultural moment, it is so
35:27
awful. The way that compare and despair runs
35:30
rampant in
35:32
our own homes. Like
35:34
the way that we punish ourselves
35:37
should be studied. And I don't know if generations ahead
35:39
of us did this. I don't know what it looks
35:41
like for Gen Z or Gen Alpha or whatever the
35:43
newest ones are. But you have to build in these
35:45
safeguards. You have to be able to look at yourself
35:48
and say you did the best you could with what
35:50
you had. And you have to know that if
35:52
you don't know that, then that's your work. You
35:55
bringing up America for error also in with everything
35:57
else you just said, makes me think of me.
36:00
did you see the clip of her where she thinks herself. Wait, with
36:02
her and her wife? No, no,
36:05
that's the other part of this. No, Nisi.
36:09
I was like, I saw the skinny dip video. I
36:12
saw her in her, with her better
36:14
half in a jacuzzi. I mean, we do love this.
36:16
Kimberly and I send a lot of Nisi Nash content
36:18
to each other. But what I'm talking about is when
36:20
she won her Emmy and she said, I wanna
36:22
thank myself. Cause I did this, I put in
36:24
the work there. Is that kind of what sharpness is
36:27
to you? Is that moment of being like, no, I
36:29
did it. I'm not gonna act
36:31
coy about this. And that's the only business
36:33
I wanna stand on. Like
36:35
my business is the only business I
36:37
truly feel like I can stand on. You know
36:39
what I'm saying? Like, I
36:41
love that. I love that. You have to be
36:43
able to do that. You have to, and I think that
36:46
is soft power. That is feminine power. And that's
36:48
what I think I want people to walk away
36:50
from this conversation on softness is that to
36:52
soften yourself is not to let go of yourself
36:54
or to make yourself submissive or to forget yourself.
36:56
It's to say, I'm like, to
36:59
Beyonce, I'm comfortable in my skin. Like I'm
37:01
here, all parts of me, all vulnerable parts
37:03
of me are good. Every part of me
37:05
is great. And from that place, I can
37:07
sharpen myself. I can direct myself and all
37:09
these things exist at once. And it doesn't
37:11
have to be this really hard life. We
37:14
should aim for softness at the
37:16
end of the day. Especially to like two people who
37:18
are interested in cultural production or people who are coming to
37:20
this because they're in the art world, they wanna get in
37:22
the art world, whatever. Like you have
37:24
to find the ways in which you derive pleasure in
37:26
this journey to what it is that you are hoping
37:29
to accomplish. Because if you are
37:31
stepping so far outside of yourself to get in it,
37:33
do you want to be there in the first place?
37:36
Like there is just not enough reward
37:38
on the other side. You have to find your
37:41
why and your how, and
37:43
you have to keep those things sustainable. It's
37:45
a non-negotiable. There's no cheat code
37:47
on that. Because you will
37:49
get to the top of your industry or what someone
37:51
else has told you at the top of your
37:53
industry and be fucking miserable and not be able
37:55
to look at yourself in the mirror. Miserable, miserable.
37:58
And people will eat you a lot. because
38:00
you can smell like a shark in the water
38:02
that misery. And people will drag
38:04
you and walk you like a dog. Yeah,
38:07
that is the truth. I was speaking with
38:09
a dear friend, Jeddah Jai Jenkins. He's a
38:11
really wonderful writer, memoirs. And he said to
38:13
me, I had to let go
38:15
of the check boxes of my life many years
38:17
ago. And we were sitting in
38:19
a park catching up. And he'd
38:22
mentioned, you know, as a writer, his dream was to
38:24
be in the New York Times bestseller list. He got
38:26
there. And I know many people like this. They get
38:28
there or they get that award. And they stand up
38:30
there and it feels so hollow because they've built their
38:33
whole life towards this one goal. And when they arrive,
38:35
they're in their body and their body just holds
38:37
nothing. And it's just so
38:39
external and it's awful. It's awful. And
38:42
I feel like you are a person when you say
38:44
these things to me. I'm like, yeah, that's right. You
38:46
have done some amazing things. You've seen the most amazing
38:48
things. You've been to all the shows. You've worn all
38:50
the clothes. But you still have such a great sense
38:52
of like yourself and making sure that Kimberly is good
38:54
and Kimberly is filling herself up. Yeah, I just haven't
38:57
been a silly, goofy time. Yes. Which
38:59
is our other big boss. It's like, I'm going to a silly,
39:02
goofy time. Like I remember I went to Salone,
39:04
which is this incredible design festival in Milan. I
39:06
cried every day because you have
39:09
to leave yourself open to the magic. Like
39:11
you have to know you have to know
39:13
that your true power is when you are
39:15
able to take a moment and truly look
39:17
up and feel something like you
39:19
can take on your own time the time to
39:21
feel and not be at the
39:23
beck and call. Like I could have run my little
39:25
ass around Milan, but instead, I looked at a little
39:28
chair and I cried a little bit. And
39:31
that was beautiful. And that's my prerogative,
39:33
you know. Oh,
39:36
I love this. Well, before I let you
39:38
go, because you are such an expert in
39:40
arts and fashion in the world and thinking
39:42
of beauty, I want to ask you about
39:45
beauty itself and like, how do you find
39:47
beauty in things and what does beauty look
39:49
like to you? Because I think
39:51
people have this obsession with it being, you know, in
39:54
a certain box, a certain way. But what's your advice
39:56
for people to find the beauty in their own lives?
39:59
I think beauty. is one of the most
40:01
vulnerable concepts in our
40:03
lives. I think about the
40:06
violence that people who are traditionally
40:08
beautiful might feel, you know,
40:10
like you feel hunted for. You
40:12
feel like your beauty is something that I mean, Zach,
40:15
we talked about this all the time in your
40:17
beauty. I'm like, how are you doing, baby?
40:19
Because I have watched people hit on you
40:21
in ways that are like to jail, to
40:23
jail, to jail. And I don't even feel it. I'm
40:27
like, baby, when we did South By, I was like, Zach,
40:29
are you good? Anyway, but
40:32
to be succinct, beauty is a
40:34
very precious thing and should be
40:37
coveted. And your definition of beauty
40:39
is something that I think will take
40:41
a lifetime to define. But I think for me,
40:43
I'm a person who tries to stay open to
40:46
abundant definitions of things like beauty
40:49
without trying to kill it because like I said, it is
40:51
a hunted and often
40:53
vilified commodity. Yeah, because
40:55
it's soft and it's feminine. It's soft,
40:57
it's supple. But yet, yeah,
41:00
but yet we're all trying to grasp it or
41:02
hold it. So it's just, it's complicated.
41:05
Well, Kimberly, I love this. You have to come back.
41:07
This is like just been the joy of my life
41:09
having you here. And I'm just so excited that I
41:11
have you in my life in so many ways and
41:13
that you can be in this space too. So thank
41:16
you for that. Thank you. And
41:18
then thanks to the listeners for continuing to
41:20
be Vibers. I don't know if we're called Vibers. I
41:22
don't know. We haven't given that a name.
41:26
But yeah, I think what you guys do is such a
41:29
beautiful, speaking of beautiful thing, in
41:31
a soft part of my morning. And so Mad
41:33
Probs, Mad Respect and so much love.
41:36
I love you. Thank you. Listeners,
41:43
thank you for tuning into this week's episode of
41:46
Vibe Check. If you love the show and want
41:48
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41:56
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41:59
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42:01
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42:04
at Stitcher and Brandon Sharp from Agenda
42:06
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42:08
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42:10
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42:22
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42:24
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42:43
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42:45
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