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Literally , in 10 days I'm gonna be flying to Oklahoma

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know , and then they come back a couple days

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there . Then I come back . Then I'm going

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to Puerto Rico In June I'm

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going on a trip with my boys this

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is a business trip to go to Quantum Leap Summit

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, without further ado , let's get right into this one . So

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in this episode , I

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want to share with you guys . I just want to be transparent on this

1:15

episode . I don't got nothing scripted for you guys

1:18

. I just want to be upfront . I feel

1:20

like an entrepreneurship and I talk about this all the time like

1:22

the journey . The dark side of entrepreneurship

1:24

never gets shared and you always look good from

1:26

the outside , especially if you don't know how many of

1:28

you guys follow me on my actual main IG , like the

1:31

John Mendez official one . But

1:33

it looks like I'm doing

1:35

amazing . It looks

1:38

like I'm doing so , so , so well

1:40

and I'm starting to make progress . I'm not going to stay

1:42

here and act like I'm not making progress . I'm starting to do

1:44

better for myself . I'm starting to actually make

1:46

some money . This past year I actually

1:48

made a decent amount of money

1:50

. It's like like

1:53

mentally , I've seen this one call and it is really resonated

1:55

with me and really resonated with

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you . It said it said that I

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stuck between , damn , I'm so

2:02

proud of myself and

2:04

like I'm not working hard enough and

2:06

that's kind of why I've been . I feel like I've been in this like limbo

2:09

state . I don't know what it is or why

2:11

it is , but I just feel like I haven't been as

2:13

productive . My discipline , my

2:15

motivation , has been down , but

2:17

normally when you have discipline , it doesn't

2:19

matter about your motivation , you still get the job done

2:21

. My discipline , I feel like it's been down as

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well , like I haven't been as active in

2:26

the gym , I haven't been as in shape

2:28

and it sucks because , like I

2:31

still have like shadow abs , like my abs aren't

2:33

, you know , like set like they used

2:35

to be , but like they're not . So there's

2:38

, you can still see , like the outlines . It's like not

2:40

out of shape , but like I'm out of shape

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and for my own standard , and

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it's just like man , I

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don't know . It's like I kind of have this

2:48

fog and I just haven't

2:51

been feeling like myself . I don't know , I can't really describe

2:53

it , I don't know what

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it is , but I haven't just been feeling like that

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fire that I normally have

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, that when I was like first getting into

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entrepreneurship and I was pushing like

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70 hours like I just haven't

3:06

had that fire for a few months . Now

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I feel like I don't know and I get like

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spurts where I say you know , I start banging

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out and doing a whole lot of stuff , and so it's kind

3:14

of hard and confusing because I get these into

3:16

these , like these modes where it's like you can just

3:18

bang out a whole lot and I don't

3:21

know about , like my body is trying to tell me my sleep

3:23

schedule has been absolutely horrible . Oh

3:25

my goodness , I've been struggling

3:28

to get my sleep schedule back in check . I haven't been journaling

3:30

right for a long

3:32

long time now and I haven't

3:34

been as disciplined on how I spend

3:37

my days , having been planning out my days in advance

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Like I like I used to . Just

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like man , I feel like everything's like crumbling up . I'm

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like I'm still getting stuff done Right

3:48

. It's not like I'm doing absolutely nothing . It's

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like you know , it's

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kind of been hard to kind of pick myself back

3:55

up Because I know I could be doing so much

3:57

more . I know I could be doing

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so much more . I know I could be working harder and people

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say that oh no , john , you're doing great . But it's like I

4:03

know me and I know what I'm capable

4:06

of and like this is definitely not the

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man . Like this is not all of it and I

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feel like if I was going all in like I

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could probably get so much more done . I could be so much

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more further I just been and it's

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like , and then knowing that I've been slacking

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just makes me feel like damn . Like I'm like oh

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, I don't got nothing going on . I

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don't know , this is more like a venting

4:25

session , but like this is the real . Like this

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is what happens when you get into entrepreneurship . Like

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it's not all . You know sunshine

4:33

and rainbows and you know laughs and giggles

4:35

and trips and flights and travel

4:37

or whatever . Like that's all cool and I was

4:39

great , but it's like man , there's a lot of time I spend questioning

4:41

to myself like yo , what the F is going

4:43

on . Like , like

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, what am I doing ? Like I remember , um

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, so during my challenge I probably talk more about

4:50

my challenge , my launch , because I said

4:52

they'd go pretty well , like there's one part of my

4:54

challenge was like they won , no one bought , and

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so I was trying to play in a hundred K launch

4:59

and they won , no one bought . A similar thing

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. Like I felt so depressed , like

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I hate saying that because I man

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, like I should never

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be feeling depressed Like ever and that's just

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my own personal belief Like I'm too optimistic

5:12

, I'm too positive to ever feel depressed and let myself get

5:15

. But like yo , I felt like , so

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like I felt like less of a man

5:19

that day , like that

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whole Monday I just didn't want to get out of

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bed , I didn't want to show my face

5:25

right , like , and then Tuesday

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I didn't even want to like show my face either

5:30

. But like , by Wednesday , like Tuesday

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, I was so like ashamed and embarrassed

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that I pretty much like

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I started learning something new . I

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love learning , so whenever I learn and get something new , it's

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like it helps distract me , helps me get my mind off of

5:43

what the current thing is on . So

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I started learning something new just to distract

5:47

myself and try to move on from it . But , like in

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entrepreneurship , you got to look at the ugly , like

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the ugly , that's where all the lessons is . So

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it's like on Wednesday I started

5:56

rewatching the tape see what I did wrong , see

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where I could have been improved , and it sucked Like

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that's like rewatching yourself

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fail over and over again

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, like I flopped oh D and I actually

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I had so much like at

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stake there it hurt a lot

6:12

for it not to go the way I wanted

6:14

. There's all lessons , right

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, it's all lessons , all lessons . And then on top of

6:18

that , on that Friday I knew I

6:21

had to go meet with my mentor , jason , and

6:23

then I have to explain to him why

6:25

the summit flop and then relive it all over again

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and it's like man

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, for a while I just feel like I

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haven't been doing this much , I

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haven't been as consistent , I haven't been getting

6:36

the results I expected , as I'm

6:38

making progress , but to say that I know I could

6:40

be doing so much and it just kind of

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sucks being competitive and like I mean

6:44

, I'm not afraid to lose or fail . I feel

6:46

countless times in this journey , man

6:52

and this stuff I think I usually thought , I usually just share

6:54

to myself , like I keep to myself Not

6:57

too many people that you can talk

6:59

to about it . I got like my best friend , that's about it I'm

7:02

not sure you have to talk to . That's

7:05

about it for the most part . Aside from that , like

7:08

Too many people on

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this journey at this age that

7:13

you can just go and chop it up . Well , that's why a lot of

7:15

my people that connected to it Usually all

7:17

my networks connections because most

7:20

people don't really get into entrepreneurship that much at this

7:22

age and there are entrepreneurs out there

7:24

.

7:24

They're not entrepreneurs , it's just a little harder to find .

7:26

I saw it . It is , but like they get

7:28

lonely sometimes Because , like the people

7:31

you want around you , you hope that

7:33

they kind of understand . But they'll never be able to really

7:35

understand this , and so if you

7:37

never really have to come see , it's like

7:39

how to just force to go through

7:41

a lot of this on

7:44

your own . I mean , that's the

7:46

path I want to sign up for , right . That's the path

7:48

I signed up for I'm

7:50

not too hard pressed about it because , like I Know

7:53

, this is just like a season that I have to get

7:55

through like man . This season sucks like

7:58

. This season

8:00

really . So I'm laughing because you know

8:02

I kind of laugh to break the awkwardness

8:05

in the science . It's I've been

8:07

in the state which is that I haven't

8:09

been doing the things I know I should be doing . I

8:12

just been avoiding them and almost

8:14

feel like I'm reverting back

8:16

into the light . Oh , I don't know if I'm just keep burnt

8:18

out . I don't . I genuinely don't

8:21

really know what it is , but it's

8:23

like I haven't been feeling like myself at all

8:25

. But , as said , I

8:28

know no one cares , especially

8:30

that as a man in this world , if you like , you just say the work

8:32

just must get done , but your goals

8:34

don't care about how you feel . Your goals

8:37

don't care but what you have been on in

8:39

your life at that point in time , only

8:42

thing that matters is is the

8:44

work getting done , and I feel like

8:46

the work hasn't . I've been stacking

8:48

up and procrastinating . I've been putting off

8:50

things that I know I should be doing and

8:53

this side I'm gonna

8:55

get back into it . I gotta snap myself back

8:57

into it . I'm not sure how exactly I would do

8:59

it yet for life . I

9:01

just want to come on here . I said I don't really have anything scripted

9:04

for this episode . I'm kind of just venting on a mic . You

9:07

just kind of thought like Entrepreneurship

9:09

isn't all fun and games . Like you know

9:12

, it sucks , like genuinely

9:14

sucks a lot of the time . And

9:17

then I have my you know my five seconds of fame . I go

9:19

speak on the stage , I go do a challenge , I go , you

9:21

know , get a new client and it's like , oh , shoot

9:23

, this what I'm here for . But , like man , that's so

9:25

much about entrepreneurship just sucks , especially

9:29

like being a solo business owner , like

9:31

man , and

9:34

it really like it's

9:37

a toll on your mentally . Your

9:39

brain doesn't stop , like you're always thinking

9:41

you never shut off , you

9:43

can never escape . It's almost like constant

9:46

torture , like your mind will never

9:48

go back to the way that I used to be and

9:50

there's a quote that says ignorance

9:52

is bliss , and like , as I

9:54

start having an older life , that coaches

9:57

become so much more true Because

10:00

, like , the more you learn , the more you realize how

10:02

much you don't act . And then , like

10:04

you add in the business , it's like now

10:06

there's people relying on you , people that are counting

10:08

on you , people you know gave you money and

10:11

expect the transformation , expect the result that

10:13

you have to deliver on and then on top of

10:15

that , like I have a video editor Now , it's also never

10:17

lying on me and in the future I'll have more

10:19

people rely on me , right ?

10:21

It's just like man it really

10:23

plays a lot on you , man .

10:24

It's hard . You said you could never escape it . I've

10:27

been on my phone a whole lot more to it

10:30

, just kind of just scrolling my honesty

10:32

, almost just trying to know my brain , just

10:34

so I get a skate for a moment . But

10:36

then I always I know like , hey , if I don't

10:38

get anything done , if I don't show up and I

10:40

won't get any money , like I'm not gonna grow

10:43

. Look how I just want to

10:45

write right now . It's kind

10:47

of which is where I'm at . Just want to come on here , be transparent

10:49

, talk about like the entrepreneurship

10:52

. It's in all fun and games , man , I'll

10:56

take this over . Working for someone , you

10:58

know , every day of the week , I've never working

11:00

for nobody . I mean , I technically work for my

11:02

clients . I guess you could say like a transfer , like an

11:04

employer , screw that . I'm never

11:06

working for nobody , ever again . If I

11:08

don't care what I gotta do , I'll find out , I'll

11:10

find , I figure out a way . I'll do

11:13

. You know , I'll figure something out . I ain't

11:15

going back and I can't work nobody , I

11:17

gotta be my own boss and this is this stuff

11:19

you sign up for . Like I said , you know

11:21

, I feel like a lot of times you

11:24

people get into entrepreneurship they

11:27

sign it out of line and I realize , like what

11:29

this gay whole game is about . Like with this whole game

11:31

, actually , until this I there's

11:35

a lot like . The peaks are good , the peaks are high

11:37

, right , higher than you could ever imagine , but also

11:40

the valleys , the low points , excited man

11:42

, they get dark , get real dark Sometimes

11:45

, but I say this is what I signed up for , so I can't

11:47

complain about that much and that's what I'm

11:49

complaining at all . I said these are just thoughts

11:51

that I usually share with myself , but like I figured if

11:53

you were sharing Something else , mainly

11:55

so you guys kind of feel like I'm just in . Like

11:57

, if you're currently going on this journey

11:59

and like you're in the thick of

12:01

it right now , you're in that stage . It's like

12:04

it's dark man . Say

12:06

no , you're not alone . Like there's

12:08

a ton of us out there . If you are

12:10

looking to get into entrepreneurship

12:12

, right , just know what

12:15

you're signing up for . I just said I'm having

12:17

a blast , don't get me wrong . Like I'm about to travel

12:19

. Literally in a Today's

12:21

, the day I'm recording this right now is the

12:23

night . Literally in 10 days I'm

12:25

flying to Oklahoma to report for TV

12:27

show , like you know , and

12:29

then they come back a couple days after

12:31

that . Now I'm flying out to Miami to speak down there . Then

12:34

I come back . Then I'm going to Puerto Rico

12:36

, right , then I , you know , in June

12:38

I'm going on , you know , on a trip with

12:40

my boys . This is a business trip , not a front

12:43

like a personal trip . I'm tripping my

12:45

boys to go to quantum leap

12:47

Summit right , it gets to see , you know , spend

12:49

a day with a billionaire and learn , like I'm

12:51

doing things that most people could , at this age

12:53

Especially , I don't like only dream

12:55

of right and I'm still in the beginning

12:57

stages . I'm not as that , I'm not a pretty

13:00

shot at , but I'm working , starting

13:02

to get recognized , people start to notice me , but

13:05

at the same time , like I'm in

13:08

stress , like I've

13:10

been stressed , like you

13:12

know I spend . If it doesn't help that I've been losing sleep

13:14

. So it's like now I'm just stressed

13:16

and tired and I need to

13:18

find a way to get back at my energies up . Man , get

13:20

my testosterone , love , get back to like freaking

13:23

, impeccable me . Like you

13:25

know that Freakin , untouchable , invincible

13:28

me . I can just do anything . But

13:31

man , I love rambling . That's

13:33

all for this episode . I said I

13:35

just wanted to be transparent with you guys and share with you guys like

13:37

what's kind of been going on . It's that I haven't been feeling like

13:39

myself , but it's just for a season now

13:43

. Next , I think I got

13:45

some fire series . You got playing I

13:47

think one of the series that Is

13:49

gonna be super beneficial I'm gonna share with you guys . I

13:52

got into public speaking and having able to

13:54

speak in front of hundreds Only

13:56

22 . So that's all for this

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episode . I'll catch you guys in the next

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