PRE-THOUGHT NOTE:

#Confession: I have stopped listening to other podcasts. I know… I know… I'm confessing this even though this is a link to listen to a podcast. I can hear you now: "BUT! LN! HOW DO YOU EXPECT TO GET BETTER AT MAKING PODCASTS??!?"

 

#Tangent: I had this problem when I graduated from college- where I had to stop listening to music because all I would do is analyze it. (I-V-vi-iv)… Over and over again. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oOlDewpCfZQ

 

The same thing happened to me with podcasts. I can hear the script. I can hear the agony of stupid decisions of "Should we pause here? Should we have a bigger music swell here? What will this nuance of ____ convey to the listener? Should we use a different word here that is gooder than that other word?"

 

And you know what? I really hate all that. I dispised the naval gazing. I cringed at the thought: "is this creative enough? Is this conveying the message I want to convey?"

So I stopped.

And I've been SO MUCH HAPPIER with what I've been creating!

 

With that said- I don't want you to stop listening to my podcast :P If it's helpful for you- keep listening! But I've changed how I make it. It's more for me.

It's *MY* creative outlet.

I don't have an editor marking my scripts.

After November, I'm going to be switching to Reaper- so I don't even have to pay for audio software anymore.

I don't have people in the sidelines saying "eh… but this is how ____ does it! You should, too!"

Fuck that noise.

I'm done being like someone else.

It's using skills (my useless audio degree) that I don't get to use while fighting fire.

 

Oh.. Right… update: I'm a wildland fire fighter/disaster response girl now- and much happier because of it. For once- I have a 5-year plan!

And this summer, during downtime inbetween fires, I hope to get more chunks of my book done. I kinda need to- because my grandparents aren't getting younger- and they don't listen to podcasts, either.

 

So there ya go. THIS is the reason this podcast has taken so long.

This is the reason it's in a weird format. This is what I'm doing with my time.

 

 

 

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I’m currently obsessed with Hamilton the musical

And sometimes it’s usual

To be inspired by something beautiful

And potentially do-able…

So I’ve been going cuckoo

Trying to dream up something new

While I was on a fire-crew

 

And this may be useable…

 

I am currently in Grand Rapids, Minnesota

Where I need to fill my quota

Of classes for wild land fire-fighting—

but in truth, it’s kinda really boring.

 

And the girl in the next dorm packed like she was moving in.

Her bag un-thin, bulged like double chins,

Looked like she had rubbermaid bins,

All for some classes over 5 days,

At the end of may,

That was given high praise,

 

 

2 rolling bags,

A duvet with the american flag,

A month’s worth of rags,