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so you guys are pretty much stuck with us.

1:01

I've been praying, and I believe God has a

1:03

word. I'm gonna jump right into it. I'm

1:05

in Matthew twenty six, verse

1:08

sixty nine.

1:12

I'll be reading from the New King James version.

1:16

There's nothing nothing like a

1:18

word from God, and

1:21

this book is full of so many testimonies

1:24

of his consistency. Verse

1:27

sixty nine begins. It says, now Peter

1:30

sat outside in the courtyard, and

1:33

the servant girl came to him, saying,

1:36

you also were with Jesus

1:38

of Galilee. But he

1:40

denied it before them all, saying

1:42

I do not know what you're saying. And

1:45

when he had gone out to the gateway, another

1:48

girl saw him and said to those who

1:50

were there, this fellow also

1:52

was with Jesus of Nazareth.

1:56

But again he denied it with an oath,

1:58

I do not know the man. And

2:00

a little later those who stood by came

2:03

up and said to Peter, surely you are

2:05

one of them, for your speech

2:07

betrays you. Then he

2:10

began to curse and swear. You

2:12

gotta love Peter right, because you

2:15

just gotta have one disciple on your side

2:17

who just know. Okay. Then he began

2:19

to curse and swear, saying I do not

2:21

know that the man. Immediately

2:23

a rooster crowed, and Peter remembered

2:26

the word of Jesus, who had said

2:28

to him before the rooster crows,

2:31

you will deny me three times. So

2:33

he went out and wept bitterly.

2:37

For those of you who take notes, my subject

2:39

for today will be everything must

2:41

go. God,

2:43

we just asked that you would

2:45

breathe into this room. You

2:48

know, every person who came into this room,

2:51

every issue they're carrying, every

2:54

secret they're dealing with, every purpose,

2:56

gift, and talent you place down on the inside

2:59

of them. Only you know that. And

3:01

so God, I'm asking that you would use

3:03

this as a moment to stir up the

3:05

gifts that you place down on them, that

3:08

you would use this as a moment to bring

3:10

healing to broken hearts and healing

3:12

to their bodies and marriages and families.

3:15

Because only you can take what is

3:17

breaking us on the inside and turn it

3:19

around and allow it to be the

3:21

momentum we need to go after our

3:24

destiny like never before. So,

3:26

Spirit of the Living God, we make a demand

3:28

on the anointing that exists in this

3:31

room that it would breathe in here

3:33

like never before, that it would shake up

3:35

our stinking thinking and strongholds

3:37

would be broken and generational

3:40

curses would be broken. Because

3:42

that's the kind of God that I serve. And

3:44

I didn't come to have fun. I came

3:46

for radical change for my family's

3:49

family, for my community,

3:51

for everything connected to me. So

3:53

God, do that thing that you do when

3:55

you sit in a room in Jesus'

3:58

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5:55

three words outside of a store. Everything

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must go my spirit, I

6:02

felt to right then. It was like a flashback

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of the anointing. Makes my spirit

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leap because when I tell God that I need

6:09

to save money, I don't mean I don't need to spend

6:11

money. I mean that things need to be cheaper

6:13

so that I can buy them.

6:16

And I know He's able to do exceedingly

6:19

and abundantly. No sale,

6:21

I mean everything must go. There's a desperation

6:24

connected to everything. What you mean everything?

6:26

You mean like everything everything or like a little bit

6:28

of things. But no. I went into the store

6:30

and they said that everything must go.

6:34

And now that I own a store, I realize

6:36

that when I see that sign, it's

6:38

not just them trying to bless my spirit,

6:41

though it does that.

6:44

Actually, what it means is that there are new

6:47

products coming in, and

6:49

as a result of the new products coming

6:52

in, they have to get rid of the products that

6:54

are no longer profitable. So

6:56

they're trying to make space for what's

6:59

coming in that will ultimately have the

7:01

most profit for their stores. And

7:04

I love this, And I was thinking as I was dissecting

7:07

this text, that what if we

7:09

as believers, chose to live our

7:11

life with that mentality, If

7:14

we chose to live our life in such a way

7:17

that we assessed what was no longer

7:19

profitable for us, and

7:21

we decided that it had to leave

7:24

so that that which is profitable

7:26

could begin to inhabit our spirits.

7:29

That means that we wouldn't just be okay

7:32

with our marriages being

7:34

less than what God has for them. We

7:36

would demand that we brought ourselves

7:39

into a consciousness of forgiveness.

7:41

We would demand that we couldn't be depressed

7:43

anymore because we realized that those

7:45

feelings and emotions are not

7:48

profitable for what God has for us.

7:50

And so what if we had an everything

7:52

must go mentality, anything that is

7:55

not profitable to who God has called

7:57

me to be has to move out of the way,

7:59

because because I am committed, I am

8:02

convinced that I must become

8:04

everything that God saw when he formed

8:06

me in my mother's womb. So search

8:08

me, oh God, and let me know what is

8:10

in me that is keeping me from laying

8:12

hold of why you have placed me on the

8:15

earth. But

8:17

the truth is that we wouldn't live our life like

8:19

that because most

8:21

of the time, we don't know what is not profitable

8:24

until we're in situations that bring it

8:26

out of us. For

8:29

instance, I didn't know that I was like

8:32

crazy until

8:35

I was in a bad relationship and

8:38

one night something had happened

8:40

no need for details here, and

8:43

I woke up and I was like, Wow, I'm about to be crazy.

8:45

I didn't even know that

8:47

that was in me until I was placed in

8:49

this situation, and I realized that

8:52

I could not afford to be in a

8:54

situation that brought crazy out

8:56

of me. It wasn't profitable for who

8:58

God has called me to be. So I had to make

9:00

some decisions about who I was willing

9:02

to connect with because I can

9:04

only have space for that which is profitable.

9:07

But I would have never known that unless I was

9:10

in that situation. So

9:12

God places us in situations

9:15

so that we can discover what is in us,

9:17

and it brings all of these issues

9:19

to the surface. And

9:21

when these issues come to the surface,

9:23

we can find ourselves like Peter

9:27

in this text. Now

9:29

it's important for us to realize that this is

9:31

not the Peter that we're used to seeing.

9:33

The Peter who had bold, audacious

9:36

faith to step out on the boat and dare

9:38

to walk on water. This isn't the Peter that

9:40

we see standing beside Jesus

9:42

side through everything. This is not the

9:44

Peter we see who who lost

9:47

everything and decided that he was going to follow

9:49

Jesus. This is not the Saint Peter

9:51

who was crazy over Jesus and would

9:53

have done anything. This is a Peter

9:56

who was lost his connection to

9:58

Jesus. He

10:00

was once walking with him. But

10:03

this turn of events that where Judas

10:06

betrayed him and now he has been arrested,

10:08

means that Peter lost his place.

10:11

He lost his position. If you

10:13

will, it feels like he lost his purpose.

10:16

What do you do when you feel like you've lost

10:19

the thing that makes you you? When

10:22

you feel like I used to define

10:25

myself as a mother, but now the

10:27

children are all grown up, and if I'm honest,

10:29

I don't really know who I am anymore. I

10:32

used to pride myself on having

10:34

this job, and I lost the job, and now

10:36

I don't even know who I am anymore.

10:39

It seemed like he lost his

10:41

connection to Jesus, like

10:44

he lost his purpose and the soul.

10:47

Now he's having to discover who he

10:49

is in the midst of chaos, because it's

10:51

not just that Jesus is gone,

10:54

it's that Jesus is under siege.

10:57

He's under attack, and

11:00

he didn't have anything to do

11:03

with how he ended up in the situation. And

11:05

that's what pains us more than anything.

11:07

When we put ourselves in certain situations,

11:10

it's often easier for us to understand

11:13

how we got there, But what do you do when

11:15

life does a number on you that you couldn't

11:17

help it. And now some kind of way,

11:20

my heart is broken and I'm paycheck

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11:24

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11:26

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11:29

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11:31

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has lost his place

13:30

and he's sitting outside

13:32

the courtyard waiting

13:34

to hear what's gonna happen with Jesus.

13:37

He's balancing these two possibilities,

13:41

and one is hope because he's

13:43

seen Jesus do miracle after

13:45

miracle. He's seen Jesus turn

13:47

the situation upside down, so there's

13:49

got to be a part of him that is wondering,

13:52

is this gonna be another one of those

13:54

moments where everyone counted him out but

13:56

Jesus comes out on the other side,

14:00

or the alternative is that he actually goes

14:02

to the cross and I lose him.

14:05

I like to call this the intersection of

14:07

hope and hell. It's

14:10

where depending on what happens

14:12

here, it's either going to be the best

14:15

of times or it's going to be

14:17

the worst of times. And

14:19

so Peter is sitting at this intersection,

14:22

and he's disconnected from who we used

14:24

to be. And I feel

14:26

like that happens to so many of us in

14:28

the process of life. We get disconnected

14:31

from who we used to be. But

14:34

I realized that what looked like something that

14:36

the enemy was doing, what

14:38

looked like something the enemy was doing, was actually

14:40

God creating a promotion

14:43

for Peter and for Jesus, God

14:46

help me. Sometimes

14:49

we blame too many things on the devil. Anytime

14:54

our world starts getting shaken up, we start

14:56

to think, the enemy is doing this, Why

14:58

is the devil after why

15:00

is this happening to me, not recognizing

15:02

that it is actually the divine setup

15:05

that God will use to promote us to the next

15:07

dimension. Because

15:09

at the same time that Jesus

15:11

was bringing to the surface that which was unprofitable

15:14

in Peter, Jesus was also losing

15:17

that which was no longer profitable for

15:19

him, and that was his flesh. So that we could ultimately

15:21

have the Holy Spirit, and if he was gonna

15:24

lose his flesh, that means that we would need a Church

15:26

of the Living God. And he had already designated

15:28

Peter to do that. So what looked like

15:30

hell was actually promotion. It was just

15:33

he couldn't tell in the midst of it. It

15:35

wasn't that Jesus was gone. It was just that

15:37

he had moved. And if you've ever had

15:39

Jesus move on you, then you know, like I

15:41

know that it's not that he's out of touch. It's

15:43

just that he's asking me to come up a little

15:46

bit higher. I didn't move. I just

15:48

did all that I could do on this level.

15:50

And if we're gonna go to the next level, you're

15:52

gonna have to change the way you think, and

15:54

you're gonna have to change the way you act.

15:57

I didn't move.

15:57

I just want to see if you'll pressin. I

16:00

just want to see if you've got enough hunger for the thing

16:02

you're praying for, because you're praying

16:04

for a level and a dimension that you

16:06

can't handle in your current form. But

16:08

if I move out the way and make you hungry,

16:10

you'll become the person worthy.

16:12

Of the miracle you're praying for. I

16:15

didn't leave. I just moved.

16:22

I just moved because

16:25

only the desperate can get it on this level,

16:28

Only those who are hungry enough can get

16:30

it on this level. You want to be a world

16:33

changer or you want to make friends, because if

16:35

you're going to be a world changer, you're gonna

16:37

have to be willing to shed a few things that

16:39

you don't need. You can't be a people

16:41

pleaser and a kingdom establisher

16:43

at the same time. So God, if I

16:45

gotta go at this thing by myself, I'm

16:48

with it now. Yeah,

16:57

that just answered what you were going through.

17:01

You've been wondering where Jesus is in

17:03

the midst of it, and Jesus is saying, where are

17:05

you? Where are you? Do you want me to

17:07

come to you or do you want to come to me? I've

17:09

come down as low as I can go.

17:11

From this point, You're going to have to come on

17:13

up. And when you get to this next dimension,

17:16

you'll see why you had to go through all the hell

17:18

that you went through. And this moment it

17:20

doesn't make sense to Peter, But when he gets

17:22

on the other side, he's going to see

17:24

that he had to allow Jesus to move.

17:26

So that Jesus could move, it

17:32

don't make sense in the car,

17:36

so that the Holy Spirit could come, so

17:39

that he couldn't just be accessible to

17:41

Peter, but he could be accessible to us.

17:45

And so Peter is yet

17:48

learning what we know now, and

17:51

as he's waiting and trying

17:53

to determine what's going to happen to Jesus,

17:55

he's just sitting outside of the courtyard.

17:59

Because when life is going as you anticipated,

18:02

you don't always move. You just sit

18:07

Because I don't know what to do anymore. I've

18:10

been sitting where

18:14

the divorce left me. I've

18:17

been sitting where

18:20

I buried my parent. I've just been sitting

18:23

here trying to figure

18:25

out what's next for me. I've just been sitting.

18:28

I just been sitting. We went through this issue

18:30

in our marriage, and I know we need to move on,

18:33

but I don't know how to move on. So I've just

18:35

been sitting in this bitterness. I've just

18:37

been sitting in this anger. I'm trying

18:39

to let it go, but I can't go. I've just been

18:41

sitting in it. I got a problem. I have

18:43

an addiction, but the addiction has me If

18:46

I'm being honest, and I've just been sitting

18:48

and it's time for me to move. And when you

18:50

don't move, God sends things to move you.

18:57

So he brings the servant girl to Peter

19:00

and says, weren't you weren't

19:02

you the one with Jesus? And

19:04

Peter goes, I don't even know what you're saying,

19:08

because you can become so disconnected

19:10

from who you used to be that

19:13

when someone reminds you of how you

19:15

used to believe it, you can't even comprehend

19:17

it. I know who

19:19

you're talking about, but that's not me

19:22

anymore. Like when

19:24

someone asks you to pray for them

19:27

at a time that you need prayer yourself, and

19:31

you want to pray, and you want to press in the

19:33

way that you used to, but you can't even connect

19:35

to that part of yourself anymore. I

19:37

don't even know what you're saying. Have you ever

19:39

had someone speak to the person

19:41

you used to be? In God not knowing that you're

19:43

struggling with the pain of where you are right

19:46

now. But

19:48

He always sends a reminder to us,

19:52

And this reminder comes through a servant girl.

19:54

She acts, weren't you with him? And he denies

19:57

it. He says, I don't even understand what

19:59

you're saying, and so he moves out of the way.

20:01

Because that's what we do. We try to move

20:03

further away from the people who

20:06

hold us to who we used to be. In

20:08

God. I

20:10

know that's an uncomfortable notion

20:12

for us to consider, but the reality

20:15

is that right now Jesus is

20:17

on a mission. He's

20:19

on a mission to get Peter back to the

20:21

person who received a word from him, even

20:24

when the word was something that he didn't like.

20:27

Because if I can get Peter back to the

20:29

word that he was going to deny me, then

20:31

I could get Peter back into the frame of mind

20:34

he was in when he received the word and thought

20:36

it was impossible. Because if

20:38

I can get him back to that word, I can remind him

20:40

how he used to have faith that God

20:42

could do the impossible, that he could

20:44

push back darkness in his life. And I hear

20:46

God saying that you came to a

20:48

church service, but he came to give you

20:51

a reminder that I'm trying to get

20:53

you back to the person you used to be.

20:55

I know we always.

20:56

Want to move forward and press towards the

20:58

market. I'm not saying that any if those things

21:00

aren't true. I'm just saying that sometimes

21:02

you have to press towards the mark with the heart

21:05

pressure that you used to have when you first got

21:07

saved. Remember when you first found out

21:09

who God was for real? Remember

21:11

how you were on fire and He didn't have to

21:13

do anything for you. All he had

21:15

to do was wake you up in the morning and you would

21:17

wake up with worship down in your

21:20

heart. And now if he doesn't give you the

21:22

car, and he doesn't give you the job, then

21:24

you're depressed. But remember when you used

21:26

to be on fire and used to say, God, if you don't

21:28

do anything other than what you've already

21:30

done for me, that's more than enough.

21:33

God. If I don't have another zero in

21:35

my bank.

21:35

Account, but I can still access

21:37

to the presence of.

21:38

God, that's more than enough for me.

21:41

God.

21:41

If you don't do anything else in my career,

21:43

but you allow me to still be in this earth,

21:46

that's more than enough for me. I

21:50

want to go back to the person who needed

21:52

you and didn't just treat

21:54

you like an accessory

21:58

for my cute little life. Gift

22:05

giving is something I love to do, but

22:07

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used to need God,

23:29

like like I can't do this

23:31

thing called life without you, like

23:35

like I needed I thought I needed a man,

23:37

and then I thought, really, what I need is God.

23:39

And what God gave me was more than a man.

23:41

He gave me this whole, beautiful life

23:43

and anointing. And so it taught me that

23:46

when I seek the Kingdom of God, that he

23:48

will really will add all those other

23:50

things to me. And sometimes we get

23:52

so comfortable in our little Christian

23:54

lives that we cease to

23:56

stop needing God. And

24:01

so they're trying to get Peter back back

24:04

to where he used to be, and

24:06

he moves out of the way because he's not

24:08

ready to go back to who he used to be,

24:10

because when things aren't working, the last

24:13

thing you want to do is focus on when

24:15

things used to work, because

24:19

a reminder of when things used to work

24:22

makes you feel like you've lost something. And

24:25

at this time, they're trying to take him back to when

24:27

he was walking with Jesus, but he doesn't

24:29

want to go there because he feels like it's

24:32

going to cause him too many issues and too

24:34

much frustration. If you remind

24:36

me of when I was walking with Jesus and

24:38

now I can't access him, then I'm going to be upset.

24:41

It's just what happens to us when

24:43

people try to remind us of who he used

24:45

to be before the pain met us, and

24:49

we think we can't afford to go back to being

24:51

that person who had hope,

24:55

That we can't go back to being that person who

24:57

had faith and thought the best of people

24:59

because people showed us the worst of them,

25:01

and now we think it's easier to think the worst

25:04

because the last time I had hope, I was disappointed.

25:11

It costs to be vulnerable

25:15

and a world determined

25:17

to divide.

25:20

So when we find Peter, he's moving

25:24

away from the servant girl. But

25:27

I love this because no matter where

25:29

you run, you can't hide.

25:31

Another girl saw him and says to

25:34

those who were there, this fellow also

25:36

was with Jesus of Nazareth. So

25:39

Peter has this internal conflict

25:41

going on where he doesn't want

25:44

to remember or claim the fact

25:46

that he knew Jesus, but

25:48

the reality is that people could still look

25:50

at him and see that he had been with Jesus.

25:53

Which reminded me that no matter what is

25:56

going on on the inside of me, that

25:58

there is a cloak that

26:00

goes ahead of me. And

26:04

because there is a cloak that goes

26:06

ahead of me, in spite of the internal

26:08

conflict that is within me, it speaks

26:11

to the turmoil that is around me and

26:13

says that she's already been set aside.

26:15

It reminds me of Jeremiah one in five

26:18

where he said I set you apart, I sanctified

26:20

you, I ordained you. So even when

26:22

I don't feel set apart in a room full

26:25

of people, because he said he set me apart,

26:27

when I walk into a room, I look set

26:29

apart. Peter is set apart. God

26:32

help me to help these people understand

26:34

that no matter when they are in the missive issues,

26:37

no matter what they are fighting and going up

26:39

against, that they can try to detract themselves

26:42

from you, but that you have already

26:44

decided that they are bought with a price.

26:46

And because you decided that you were

26:49

gonna serve me, it only takes one

26:51

confession for him to get inside.

26:53

It only takes one time for you to open

26:55

up your heart and for him to get inside.

26:58

And when he gets inside, he doesn't let let

27:00

you go, and everyone can see

27:02

that you've got a halo over your head.

27:04

God help me, I'm

27:09

coming. I'm coming.

27:11

In verse seventy three, This

27:13

is the part I love It says in a little later,

27:16

those who stood by came up and said to

27:18

Peter, surely you are one of them,

27:20

for your speech betrays you.

27:28

There's something about

27:31

how you exist that

27:33

lets me know you're not of this

27:36

world. In

27:38

spite of the fact that of you trying to

27:40

pretend like you are of this world,

27:44

there's something that keeps setting you apart.

27:48

And God keeps blowing your spot

27:50

up. Can I be a little hood at elevation? God

27:54

keeps putting the spotlight on you

27:57

because you're trying to fit in

28:00

in a time where He needs you to stand down.

28:02

And every time you try to fit in, he

28:05

does something to let you know that you've been

28:07

separated. And you've been asking

28:09

yourself, what is it. I'm doing everything

28:11

that they're doing, but for some reason, it's not

28:13

working for me. And I hear God saying

28:15

your speech has betrayed you.

28:18

That you have prayed for.

28:19

Things, and you have soppt me for things, and

28:21

no matter what you try to do, to pretend

28:23

like you.

28:23

Don't want them anymore.

28:25

I've already set that aside for you,

28:27

so I'm not gonna let you turn your

28:29

back on the promise that I already

28:32

have on reserve with your name on

28:34

it. I feel the presence of God shaking

28:36

things up in this place and reuniting

28:39

you with the passion you used to have for

28:41

what God plays down on your heart.

28:43

I know you got disappointed.

28:45

I know things didn't go the way that you wanted

28:47

them to, But I hear God saying I still have

28:50

it on hold for you, and I just want

28:52

you to know, no matter where you go, no

28:54

matter what you do, everything you

28:56

try to do that doesn't look like that is gonna

28:59

fail. When you get back into alignment

29:01

with what I have for you, your

29:03

speech is gonna betray you.

29:05

You are a chosen child of God

29:08

and you cannot.

29:09

Do anything but serve this kingdom.

29:11

And I will do whatever it takes to bring

29:13

you back into alignment. People who

29:16

don't even know you will start to wonder

29:18

how you made it, How

29:22

you made it out here when you're supposed to be

29:24

over there. Yes,

29:32

God, God

29:36

remind us of who

29:38

we used to be. God remind

29:41

us of how we used to feel. God

29:43

remind us of when we thought that it was possible.

29:46

God before disappointment met us, before

29:48

pain ever got ahold of us. God remind

29:51

us of when I really felt like I could

29:53

do it. Remind me of when I really

29:55

felt that faith stirring down on the inside

29:57

of me. God remind me of when I thought

29:59

that you you could actually do miracles.

30:01

God remind me of when I used to.

30:03

Lift my hands in worship and I really felt

30:05

your presence. God remind me of

30:07

who I used to be in the spirit. Because

30:10

if I can remember who I used to be

30:12

in this spirit, I could shake some things

30:14

up on Earth. I could stop complaining

30:16

about it and start changing it. I

30:19

could stop wondering who was gonna do it, and

30:21

I would say, God.

30:22

Send me, because I'm.

30:23

On fire like never before.

30:25

God, to reunite me.

30:31

Reunite me with that

30:33

version of me that you decided

30:36

I was gonna be when you place

30:38

me in my mother's womb.

30:40

God, take me back.

30:41

I don't want to go any further until

30:43

you take me back. Peter couldn't go any

30:46

further until he went back, because

30:54

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30:57

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32:39

I got to live in a certain place. So

32:42

it stands to reason that

32:44

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32:48

and the most powerful when

32:50

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32:52

to Jesus again. So

32:55

I have to go back in my mind to

32:58

who I was when I felt the most connected

33:00

to him? What were

33:03

my practices? Who

33:06

were my friends? What

33:09

don't I have now that I had

33:12

back then? What

33:15

Peter had back then

33:18

that he didn't have in that moment? Is

33:20

he had a word? I

33:24

had a word. I didn't necessarily think the word

33:27

was for me, Peter. When Peter received the

33:29

word that he was going to deny Jesus, he thought,

33:31

not me, child, that

33:34

word is not for me. But

33:36

sometimes we throw away words that

33:39

aren't for us in the moment, but

33:42

therefore who were going to be? And

33:46

I feel like there's a word that

33:48

you lost somewhere in the process. But

33:51

if you can go back to that place and grab

33:54

that word, that you'll have clarity

33:56

on what's next. Because

33:58

if he could go back into that place

34:02

where he caught that word that he was going to deny

34:05

Jesus, then maybe, just

34:07

maybe he could also remember that the

34:09

reason why it seems so implausible

34:11

to him in that moment is because

34:14

he was the same person who Jesus was going to

34:16

build his church on. That

34:18

means that one word was connected to another

34:20

word, and neither of those words

34:22

had been manifest except

34:24

one word was actually being manifest in that

34:26

moment, which means that the next word was

34:29

just one reach away. There

34:33

have been prophetic words spoken over

34:35

your life from this very

34:37

stage that she thought weren't

34:40

for you in the moment, and that maybe God

34:42

had just forgotten. But I hear God

34:44

saying, if you go back to that place in

34:46

your heart where you were when you receive that word,

34:49

then you will see that there are other words connected

34:51

to it, and everything must go. That

34:54

means that everything that's in you that doesn't believe

34:56

has to go, so that.

34:57

There is face within you.

34:58

For those words, I'll come alive

35:01

God. I feel the presence of God in this place.

35:03

I hear God saying that the waiting season

35:06

is over, that it is time for you to

35:08

get off of the sidelines, that you

35:10

have cleared out everything that you needed

35:12

to clear out, that fear doesn't have

35:15

you anymore, that anxiety has

35:17

let you go. That you have hit rock

35:19

bottom, and you ought to rejoice. You

35:21

ought to rejoice because rock bottom is the

35:24

perfect foundation for him to

35:26

build his church.

35:27

Some people come to church, some people.

35:29

Are a church.

35:30

Everywhere you go, you're gonna see.

35:33

My king because I hit rock

35:35

bottom, and rock bottom taught me

35:37

that I can rise up again. And

35:39

since I have been risen like another

35:42

man named Jesus, I wish it Deafe

35:44

would try to remind me of who

35:46

I used to be.

35:48

When I know for a fact that he

35:50

didn't just save me for any old

35:52

reason.

35:54

He saved me to make darkness tremble.

35:57

He saved me to break generational

35:59

curses. He saved me to shake

36:01

up something here on the earth. And I

36:03

will not be satisfied until

36:06

this earth is making a sound

36:09

that looks like Heaven. So

36:11

it's not just business for me. It's kingdom.

36:14

It's not just a book. It's kingdom. It's

36:17

not just a marriage. It's kingdom.

36:18

It's not just family, it's kingdom.

36:20

Everything got touched has to look like Heaven.

36:23

I'm a church baby. Everything got

36:25

touched.

36:25

Has to look like Heaven. I take

36:27

my finances seriously because it has

36:30

to be in order like heaven, and

36:37

anything that's keeping me from that has

36:41

to get out the way. Everything

36:44

everything must go, Everything

36:47

must go. I want you to get a little gangster

36:49

elevation. I want you to start looking down

36:52

on the inside of you and saying, what is

36:54

in me that is keeping me from laying

36:56

hold of the anointing that God places

36:58

on my life Because I'm a get a little

37:00

gangster with it.

37:01

It's gotta go.

37:02

There's no room for you anymore. I'm

37:04

sorry, Depression. We've been friends long enough,

37:06

but there's no more room for you and me

37:09

any longer. I gotta go to therapy.

37:11

I need some counseling. I'm in trouble addiction.

37:14

We've been friends long enough, but you gotta

37:16

go because I'm on assignment and

37:18

I messed around and came to church and got my

37:20

Marchian orders. And now I realized

37:22

that there's a battle for me to fight, and

37:24

I'm the perfect candidate because I've

37:26

been through hell and I'm still here

37:29

because I've been through hell, and I

37:31

feel out of snow on my face. Hell,

37:34

I'm sorry, you gotta let go

37:36

with me, anxiety, I'm sorry,

37:39

I gotta go somewhere. I'm sorry

37:41

the divorce that hurt me, but I gotta get

37:43

up again. Everything. Let's

37:46

go, everything, Let's go,

37:48

everything, Let's go. I'm a kings

37:51

Kid baby, and there's an inheritance

37:53

to text to my name. I'm

38:04

not Patty Caking with the devil no more.

38:07

I'm tired of you.

38:08

Have you ever got tired?

38:09

Okay, now I feel like a church girl. But

38:11

here we are my father's bishop, Jakes.

38:14

I've been doing church my whole life. So I

38:16

just want to let you know right now that we're tired

38:18

of Patty caking with the devil and

38:23

placating our fears and insecurities

38:26

and living our lives bound and

38:30

broken and

38:32

in chains when

38:35

he died so

38:38

that we never had to be broken again.

38:42

And here I am sick, acting

38:45

like I don't have access to a ciral

38:49

that can radically change my life.

38:54

And I want every sickness,

38:57

emotional,

39:02

I want it out of me. I'm

39:05

desperate. I'm

39:07

desperate to get it out of me because

39:11

I know it's taken up space for

39:14

his grace. Shame's

39:18

gotta let me go, because I know it's taking

39:21

up space for His

39:23

anointing to be used

39:25

through me. And

39:28

so anything that's here in

39:31

me, I'm gonna

39:33

offer myself as

39:36

a living sacrifice.

39:40

You guys can stand. I'm about to close. When

39:44

Peter realizes,

39:47

when the rooster crows that

39:50

everything that Jesus said was gonna

39:52

happen was happening, he weeps.

39:56

I think he weeps because he didn't

39:59

think that it was in him to deny Jesus,

40:02

and he found out that it was, and

40:06

he was shocked by that. But

40:08

I also think that he was weeping because

40:11

in that moment, in his most broken

40:13

moment, he was aligned

40:16

with exactly what Jesus

40:19

said was going to happen. And

40:22

nothing beat to alignment, even

40:26

when we're aligned in pain.

40:30

And I know that while Peter was weeping,

40:34

that Heaven was rejoicing because

40:38

he had finally been broken

40:41

down enough for

40:43

him to be the foundation for

40:46

Christ to build his church. Had

40:49

Peter had the church

40:52

built upon him before he denied Jesus,

40:54

he may have flirted with pride. He may have

40:56

thought that he had done something. I'd been

40:58

so loyal and I stood by Jesus through

41:00

thick and thin, and so of course he built

41:02

his church on me. I'd been there. But God

41:05

builds his church on broken people.

41:13

And I

41:15

know you don't want the brokenness, and

41:18

I know you don't want to go through the trials and

41:20

the struggle. But I'm telling

41:22

you that that is what makes the foundation for

41:25

God to build upon you, because

41:28

you will look within yourself and you will say

41:31

I didn't get here because I earned it, and

41:35

God knows I don't

41:37

deserve it. But

41:39

still you took a broken little girl who

41:42

never thought that she would amount to anything,

41:46

and gave her a platform to share her

41:48

story. Also

41:50

that he could get the glory at the end

41:53

of the day. And I'm wondering

41:55

what glory is attached to your pain,

41:58

And I'm wondering what gold glory is attached

42:01

to your brokenness. And

42:03

as you're weeping, and as you're crying, I

42:06

wonder if Heaven is looking down and smiling

42:10

because they recognize that this floor

42:12

that you feel like you're at right now will

42:15

be the last time that you were ever on this

42:17

level. You

42:22

got to catch that, prophetically, if it's for

42:24

you. If it's not for you,

42:26

just celebrate for other people. But

42:29

if you know that I can't go any

42:31

lower than this, that I have become

42:33

someone I never thought that I would be,

42:36

you ought to rejoice because Heaven is saying,

42:38

now you are in the perfect space for

42:40

me to build upon you like never

42:42

before. If your marriage is the

42:45

most broken it's ever been, you ought to rejoice

42:47

because it can't get.

42:48

Any lower than this.

42:50

I know that we don't like to celebrate when we

42:52

feel like we're losing, But what if every

42:54

time you lose, Heaven is winning because

42:57

now you are perfect for me to mold.

42:59

Now you are perfect for me to use. I

43:01

don't have a job, I don't have a man.

43:03

My issues and struggles are coming to the

43:06

surface.

43:06

God says, that's good because I

43:09

want to take that thing from you.

43:11

And when I take that pain from you, what

43:13

I'm gonna give you in set is gonna be

43:15

purpose and momentum and

43:18

power under working power,

43:21

miracle, working power change

43:23

is strolling power, seem and trembling

43:26

power. Hell is gonna get nervous

43:29

because you got power in

43:31

the midst of your pain.

43:34

Can I give you thirty seconds to worship?

43:38

Can I give you thirty seconds to

43:41

lift up the name of Jesus over your

43:44

circumstance. Jesus,

43:46

I was denying your power. But

43:48

now I bring your power over my circumstance.

43:52

I bring your power over my situation.

43:55

I speak Jesus over.

43:57

My children, I speak Jesus

43:59

over my find This is I speak

44:01

Jesus.

44:02

Over my career.

44:04

Jesus, Jesus, Jesus,

44:06

Jesus, Jesus, Jesus,

44:09

Jesus. That's power in the name

44:11

of Jesus. That power

44:13

in the name of Jesus, in

44:15

the name of Jesus, over

44:17

my mind, in the name of Jesus,

44:20

over my heart, in the name of Jesus,

44:22

over my spirits.