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Welcome in everyone and thank you
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for joining me in a very , very
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special episode of
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Women in the Arena . It
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is my third anniversary
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of this show . I
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started this show on my 49th
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birthday in 2020 , not
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knowing what to expect , and
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I was just simply taking it one
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show at a time , one week at a time
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, to see what would happen . Turns
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out , a lot can happen , and
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that was three years ago , and today
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is a celebration And
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, like the previous two years , this
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episode is very special because
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I am in the hot seat
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. It's the only time of the year that
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I have the microphone turned on me and
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I invite a host to
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grill me with questions . And
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, boy , are you in for it today
1:28
? Maybe I'm the one that's in for it today
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because I have invited my friend
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, lawanna Bradford , because I knew she
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wouldn't let me off the hook , and
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you have met her before . She
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has been on the show two previous
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times , but in the event that
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you haven't been properly introduced
1:46
to her , let me introduce you . Lawanna
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is a force . She
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is a serial entrepreneur , she
1:54
is a visionary leader . She
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is the co-founder of Celebrate You
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, and that is a women's organization
2:01
. She has her own
2:03
TV shows , which she actually has
2:05
three of them where she produces
2:08
, directs and hosts Power
2:10
of the Pen , choose to Challenge and Business
2:14
and Raw Talk , and she
2:16
also is a five-time
2:18
best-selling author
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. Are you guys impressed yet ? Are
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you guys nervous for me ? Because she is
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going ? she is definitely not going
2:27
to let me off the hook , so
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I'm going to bring her on and
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then the show is hers . It
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is my pleasure and my honor
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to introduce to you LaWanna
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Bradford LaWanna , thank
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you so much for being here and welcome
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to the show . I'm a little nervous
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. I'm a little nervous , but it's . The
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mic is yours .
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Well , thank you so very much for
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asking me to host this
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special episode and congratulations
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on your three-year anniversary . That
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is so exciting . And
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, yeah , you're right , i'm putting you in the hot seat
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. Let's
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crank up that furnace a little bit .
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Yep , yep , like I
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said , i knew . I knew I was in for something
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. I have no idea what . Literally
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everyone hold on that . This is
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live . I know zero
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, zero what's coming at me , so it'll
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be fun to listen to me squirm .
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Well , i'll use you into it . Okay
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, so the first question , and for
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I'm certain you have your , your
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past audience , that's listening , your
3:38
followers . But then there's there's new individuals
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that are listening to this episode for the very first time
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, and what I would like to
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know is we
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hear the phrase women in the arena
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, and I'm often very curious
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as to how individuals
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come up with a particular name for
3:56
their business , for their podcast , and this
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is , in fact , is your new
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business . So , when you think about
4:03
women in the arena , two part question
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how did you come up with the name and
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why is it so relevant at this
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point in time ?
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Coming up . The name was really interesting and
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it was and it was accidental . I
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was before , long before
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I even thought about
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having a podcast . I
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was watching a Brene Brown episode
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on show on Netflix
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and she raised
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the quote of man in the arena And
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I went and I looked it up to see what it was
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And of course it is the famous
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Teddy Roosevelt quote . And
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I looked at it and I thought the
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pronouns are wrong . And I had
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a friend . I have a friend who's
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an incredible artist . I sent
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her the quote and I said
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I need you to make me a giant
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plaque because I want to hang it in my
4:54
office , but I need you to fix the pronouns
4:57
because this isn't completely
4:59
correct . So she did that And
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we hung it in my office and it hung
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in my office for probably two years . Like
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I said , long , long before
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I even thought about having a podcast . Then
5:12
, when I decided that
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I was going to do this , i kicked around
5:16
a bunch of names , didn't have any
5:18
idea what I was going to call this , And
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I was pacing back and forth here in my office And
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I was standing there staring into
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space , arms crossed , thinking
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what am I going to do ? And
5:30
my eyes focused and
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saw the plaque hanging on my wall and
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realized I had named it two
5:37
years before I even thought about putting
5:40
together the show And I thought that's
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obvious . That is obvious . So
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that's where it came from . That's where I got the inspiration
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. I got the inspiration before I even
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knew I was going to do this . So
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let me answer the second part . The second
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part is the
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arena of life . We
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are all in this arena of life
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And it
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could be both isolating , but
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it can also be empowering
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, because when you look
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around and you realize
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that you are not alone in this
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arena and
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that you have friends , family
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and individuals that just
6:22
want to see you win and maybe help
6:24
each other win along the way , that
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is what I've visualized for an
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arena , and I do see us all
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as warriors , but warriors
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doing it together .
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I love that . And it's interesting
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, audra , that often , as
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we journey through life , there
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are seeds being sprinkled
6:46
along the way and we don't
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realize their relevance until
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it's the time for them to
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not only germinate but
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to mature , to grow , and
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your harvest , if you will , is
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cultivating the voices
7:03
of women from around the world
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. You said something in your response
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and you used two words that I found quite interesting . You
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said isolating and empowering
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. Tell us
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about a time I'm
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turning up the heat a little bit When
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you were part of a community and
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you come in , you're alpha female
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. You know who you are , you know what you're going
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, you know what you're doing and your value
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. But you shared with me in
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one time that you realize
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that there were some pieces that
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were missing , that you didn't realize
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were missing , and that this
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community helped
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to gird you up in a time
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where you didn't feel isolated
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And through their strength , you
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felt even more empowered . Tell
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us a little bit about that .
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Well , you invited me to your
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community Celebrate You , and
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I had zero idea of
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, first of all , what I was doing there
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, because these women are so
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accomplished in this organization that I was
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like I don't know what you want me there for . But
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okay , i'll go . But
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then I started to realize that these
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women were just like me , even
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though we had different backgrounds and
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we had different accomplishments . They were just
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like me And
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I was having a moment of weakness
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because I , over the past
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year , I have become an empty nester
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And that was a very strange
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transition for me , because
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you are , you're
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pouring yourself into these humans
8:44
for a quarter
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of a century , because my oldest
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is 26 . And suddenly they
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weren't there And I didn't
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know how to feel about
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that And I suddenly felt very alone
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and very sad And
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I came to the , the
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organization , and said I need
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, i need , some words of encouragement
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, because this just feels lonely , this
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feels weird And I don't know
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how to work through this
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. And all these women , many
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of them I have never met in person , many
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of them that I haven't had the pleasure of having
9:22
a conversation with them , and
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this was all through a Facebook conversation
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All came to me and
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surrounded me And
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I do mean surround me , meaning surrounded
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me as in to embrace me and
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lifted me up and said you're not alone
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, what you're feeling is normal
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, and whatever
9:44
you need , we're here . And
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it was at that point that I recognized
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that what
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I thought was a loneliness really
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wasn't It was
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this giant community that
10:00
all I had to do was unlock
10:02
the door and they would walk
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in .
10:06
When you described it that way . It makes
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me think of what we just went
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through last month , which was mental health
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awareness month , and often
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we have misconceptions of what
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is . What is mental health , what is mental
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well-being , or what are things that can put
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us in a state of concern
10:24
, and it could be anxiety
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, right Fear of the unknown and
10:30
just not knowing how to get out of that
10:32
loop of you
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know you're just spiraling , wondering okay
10:37
, what do I do ? This is my new
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normal . How do I show up
10:41
? You know it doesn't feel right
10:44
And I love
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that you shared that experience , because
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women in the arena is
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doing just that . You are showcasing
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in a very protective
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and loving way , the
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voices of women , their lived experiences
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, which , in turn , will
11:03
give people hope and inspiration
11:05
When you think
11:08
about what you're doing . That's
11:10
a pretty weighty call . Why
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are you and I know you're confident
11:16
why are you confident that you're the one
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to make this happen on a global scale ?
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Because I really feel like I was called to
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do it . And I
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had this . I
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had a moment , i had a
11:30
moment where I got
11:32
angry and it was
11:34
. It wasn't
11:36
. There wasn't some big dramatic
11:39
thing that happened . I am a
11:41
female in a male-dominated
11:44
field and you know
11:46
, you've heard all the stories . I don't need
11:48
to go into the details of what it's like
11:50
to be a woman in a male dominated
11:53
field , especially in corporate America , and
11:56
I just finally
11:58
got to the end of what
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I was willing to tolerate And
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I didn't want
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any of the women around me
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to have to feel like they had to tolerate
12:11
it as well . I
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was like I'm done . I'm done putting
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up with this And
12:20
I thought what am I going to do with this anger ? I
12:23
it's , and what I thought
12:25
in a moment of clarity is that anger
12:27
is energy and
12:31
it's not the emotion that
12:34
is important , it's what you do
12:36
with it . And I decided
12:38
to use it as fuel for change
12:41
, and I did it in
12:43
the only way I knew
12:46
how , which is to
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talk . I have no problem
12:50
talking . I have no problem speaking to
12:52
strangers , and I thought , well , i'm
12:55
gonna do that . I am genuinely
12:57
curious about the women on this planet
13:00
and what they are doing , and that
13:02
there is there's no one
13:04
highlighting them , so I think I'll
13:06
go do it , because I
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can't find anybody else who is
13:10
So if not me
13:12
, then who ? So
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I'm ? I'm doing it because
13:17
the call was put out and
13:19
I answered it .
13:21
I love that And you are so
13:23
journeying along your way , one
13:27
story at a time , one
13:29
moment of inspiration at a time
13:32
. But I want to take it a little bit deeper
13:34
, and I know you just mentioned
13:36
to the audience that the seeing
13:39
what was happening in the workplace was a point
13:41
of frustration , but
13:44
I think that's kind of like
13:46
the icing on the cake . I want to get to the
13:48
cake . What
13:50
has happened in your past
13:53
that even created a level of sensitivity
13:56
in you that would
13:58
spark an anger as to how other
14:01
women were not being recognized
14:03
? Was there any point in your
14:05
life outside of work where you
14:07
felt that perhaps my voice isn't being
14:09
heard or where I'm not being recognized
14:12
or I'm not being seen ?
14:14
Even in my own family Being
14:17
I am the oldest of four children and
14:20
I wasn't being heard . Don't
14:23
have any idea why , and
14:26
I'm pretty loud . I don't
14:29
have any problem in expressing myself , but I just
14:31
didn't feel as if I was being heard . So
14:34
not , and it's not just in my family . Out
14:37
in public You
14:39
get pushed aside And
14:42
I realize that I'm not . I don't
14:44
take up a lot of space physically because
14:46
I'm not a big person , but
14:48
people walk by you like they don't even
14:50
know you , that they don't even see you
14:52
, and I thought I
14:55
don't want to be irrelevant
14:57
. I don't want to be erased
14:59
from history , and
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I don't want other women
15:03
to be erased either , because
15:06
they are contributing so
15:08
much every day
15:11
to every , every
15:14
aspect of their lives that they show up
15:16
in . They're contributing something
15:18
. I don't want them to be erased
15:20
Because what
15:22
we're doing is world-changing
15:25
. People need to know about it .
15:27
To the listening audience . We are here
15:29
with the amazing Audra Egan
15:32
, who is the founder of Women , in the Arena . She
15:34
just said something very profound . If you
15:37
are a woman out there that feel like you're
15:39
being marginalized perhaps
15:41
you're even sitting on the sideline of your own
15:43
life and have
15:46
the fear of being erased , not
15:48
being significant I
15:50
want you to just really lean in because I know
15:52
Audra is going to give us some solutions
15:55
to help you overcome that
15:57
and to stand in your seat of power , to
15:59
stand in your divine genius
16:01
that I believe all of us have Now
16:04
. Audra , you mentioned that this is
16:07
and this is prior conversations
16:09
that we've had that this is just like a fire
16:11
in you , that you feel that this was
16:13
a calling At this point
16:15
in your life now
16:19
a woman over 50 , you are
16:21
really solidified in this
16:23
purpose . It's
16:26
a very heavy call . We
16:28
know at this time in the world , women's
16:30
voices are being amplified even
16:32
more , but
16:35
there's still those that are
16:37
afraid . They're afraid of how society
16:39
will receive them or reject them . Family
16:42
, we all want to be loved and accepted
16:45
. If you could give
16:47
three points of encouragement
16:49
to those women out there
16:51
that are saying gosh , audra , i
16:54
hear you , but I'm just not like you . What
16:57
would you say to them ?
16:59
First , i would say I'm afraid
17:01
every single day
17:03
. This is scary What I'm doing
17:06
, putting a microphone in front of my own
17:08
face and every
17:10
single week interviewing
17:12
somebody else . I'm completely
17:15
and 100% vulnerable every
17:17
single conversation I have , because it doesn't
17:19
work if I'm not . And
17:21
I'm afraid every single
17:24
day . Every time I post
17:26
something vulnerable , i'm afraid
17:28
, but I'm doing
17:30
it anyway . I'm
17:32
doing one scary thing every
17:35
single day because
17:38
I have learned
17:40
number one your comfort zone
17:42
is a cage . It's
17:44
a cage . The magic
17:47
exists just
17:49
on the other side of it . I
17:51
don't want to be imprisoned anymore . So
17:54
that's number one Understand
17:56
that what you think is comfortable
17:58
is holding you captive
18:00
. Second
18:03
thing is that do
18:06
you really not
18:08
want to live up to your full
18:10
potential ? I
18:13
have this visual of
18:15
when I die
18:17
and hopefully go to heaven
18:19
and I'm
18:21
sitting across the table from
18:24
that big giant higher power . I
18:27
have this vision that a
18:29
piece of paper is slid across the table
18:32
to me . I don't
18:34
want him to say or she
18:36
, whomever , or whatever that higher
18:38
power is . I
18:40
don't want that higher power to say
18:42
this is what I had in mind
18:45
for you , but you didn't do
18:47
it because you were too
18:49
busy being comfortable . So
18:52
I don't want to miss out on
18:54
what's planned for me just
18:57
because I've got a little
18:59
bit of fear . So
19:01
that's the second thing . Don't miss
19:04
out on what you're here for . And
19:08
number three stop
19:10
caring what everybody else thinks . They're
19:14
not you . They
19:16
don't live your life , they don't
19:18
pay your bills . They don't live in your
19:21
skin . Quit giving them
19:23
rent-free space in
19:25
your head . Stop
19:27
it . The moment that you
19:30
give up the
19:32
authority of opinions
19:34
of others on your life
19:36
, that is when you start
19:38
to take back freedom , and
19:41
in freedom in all aspects , you
19:44
start to march toward freedom And you
19:46
start to march toward who you really
19:48
are .
19:49
With that last statement , it made me think
19:51
of the song Freedom by George Michael
19:54
, and you're
19:56
absolutely correct And I love
19:58
those three points . It's feel the fear
20:01
and do it anyway . Be
20:03
willing to live
20:06
up to your full potential , explore
20:08
, find out what it is . And
20:10
then , third , is get
20:13
other people out of your head . Stop
20:15
bringing space to them , right ?
20:17
Yes , Your
20:20
brain is an amazing , wonderful and
20:23
sometimes complicated space . Quit
20:25
inviting other people in it . Quit
20:29
borrowing trouble from other people that don't belong to
20:31
you . You can do trouble all
20:33
on your own , You don't need any
20:35
help .
20:39
Exactly . You mentioned
20:41
being a part of Celebrate
20:43
You embracing her wellness , and
20:47
I know that you
20:49
were talking about recognition And I
20:51
think all of us we
20:54
want to be appreciated , we
20:57
want to be celebrated , but
20:59
I always challenge individuals . The
21:01
first thing is you have
21:03
to be able to celebrate yourself . If
21:05
you're not able to celebrate who
21:08
you are , why do you expect the
21:10
world to stand up and applaud you ? Tell
21:13
me about a time during this women
21:15
in the arena journey that
21:18
you were able to truly
21:20
look at Audra in the mirror and
21:22
celebrate the amazing
21:24
work that you're doing .
21:27
I told you , i'm scared every single day , and
21:30
that is one of the areas because
21:33
it's sort of uncomfortable . We're
21:35
not trained to
21:37
celebrate ourselves , as
21:40
a matter of fact . We are trained not to . We
21:42
are trained to diminish
21:45
our
21:47
accomplishments and no big
21:49
deal . What not ? And
21:52
so that's something that I'm still getting
21:54
comfortable with . I'm still getting comfortable
21:56
with celebrating , showing
21:59
up for other
22:01
women , and part
22:03
of the reason that there's this level of discomfort
22:05
is because I never started
22:07
this for
22:11
recognition for myself . I
22:13
literally started this because it was something I
22:16
needed . I went looking
22:18
for it and couldn't find it , so I thought , well
22:20
, if I need it , maybe somebody else does too , and
22:23
so that it's
22:25
a little bit uncomfortable , but
22:27
it's okay , because I know that
22:31
if it's uncomfortable , i'm
22:33
doing the right thing . So
22:36
I am working on the celebration . I will tell
22:38
you that when
22:41
I turned 50 and I
22:43
turned 52 in a week , and
22:46
at the time that this will be published
22:48
, my birthday will be three days away from it , so
22:51
my birthday is June 24th . The
22:53
year I turned 50 , i started to
22:55
throw myself a birthday party . So
22:58
I threw myself a birthday party for my 50th
23:00
birthday , i threw one for my 51st
23:03
birthday and I'm throwing
23:05
one for my 52nd birthday And
23:07
it's not because I'm like , hey , look at me , look at
23:09
me . It's because I want to celebrate And
23:12
I want to celebrate with all these amazing women
23:14
coming over to my house And
23:16
, as I like to say , we're letting our freak flags
23:19
fly And we're just going to have some
23:21
fun and have some giggles
23:23
and have some bubbles , without
23:25
any stress . And it's
23:27
not for the point of celebrating
23:30
my birthday . That's just the excuse . It's
23:32
to celebrate each other and
23:34
our community together . So
23:37
I know that's a long-winded answer
23:39
to your question , but it's
23:41
the truth .
23:44
And I love that . And when you think about
23:47
it celebration , laughter , joy
23:49
, peace it's all contagious energy
23:52
. When people
23:54
are around that , then they're like wow , i
23:56
want to do that too . How do I do that
23:59
? How do I show up ? Because when you're celebrating
24:01
, truly celebrating yourself , i believe
24:03
that's when you're showing up
24:06
in your authenticity , in
24:08
your genius , in your beauty . It's
24:11
just world . this is me and
24:14
I love me and I am
24:16
doing me . You're
24:19
allowing yourself , you've gotten to the point in
24:21
your life's journey that
24:24
you're giving yourself permission to
24:26
be Audra , not to be corporate
24:28
Audra , not to be mom
24:30
, not to be wife , but
24:32
to be Audra .
24:34
That is the day that I get to do it And
24:37
I tell the ladies come
24:40
as you want to . If you want to come in your
24:42
pajamas , come in your pajamas , i don't
24:44
care , come
24:46
and have fun and leave
24:49
all of your insecurities , all
24:52
your worries , all
24:54
of those thoughts that are plaguing
24:57
you and occupying space in your head . Leave them at the
24:59
door , because that is not what this day
25:01
is about . This day
25:03
is freedom . It is celebrating
25:05
freedom .
25:07
I would suspect in the last three
25:09
years of this journey
25:12
appeared , with
25:14
just life's transitions
25:16
, that you are a
25:18
far different person than
25:20
you were before , but
25:23
the essence of you is the same
25:25
. I think the freedom
25:27
of your expression is what has changed
25:30
, would you ?
25:31
agree , i would agree . I'm
25:34
not editing myself
25:36
anymore . I'm not saying
25:39
, oh well , i don't want to show them that part
25:41
of me because they may not like that
25:44
part of me , or I
25:46
don't want them to know this about me , because what
25:48
will they think ? Now
25:50
I'm like I don't care , i really
25:52
don't , i really don't
25:55
care . This is me , this is all of me
25:57
. And if you like me , great
25:59
. If you don't like me , that's
26:02
okay too , because it doesn't matter . And
26:05
I show up this way , even
26:07
professionally , even in my corporate
26:09
job . I make up words
26:11
regularly And it
26:14
doesn't matter who I speak to And
26:17
you know they laugh . I
26:19
mean , today I was looking for
26:21
a PowerPoint , couldn't find it . I
26:23
literally said out loud I'm becoming my grandmother
26:26
, i'm putting stuff away for safekeeping
26:28
, and then I can't find them , and
26:30
I really didn't care what
26:32
they thought of me , with me
26:34
saying that out loud . So
26:37
I'm not afraid to show
26:39
the world who I really , really
26:41
am And I'm
26:43
fun , i'm goofy , i'm serious
26:45
, i make up words , i'm
26:48
a Star Wars dork . I mean , i
26:50
am who I am .
26:52
One of the things that
26:55
we talked a little bit about is
26:57
change , and
26:59
With you Adding
27:03
to your platter of
27:05
things that you do , you have
27:07
women in the arena . You
27:09
and your husband made a decision
27:12
where he has a new career path
27:14
and Sometimes
27:16
, when individuals in in
27:18
a shared household take a different
27:20
path , that can cause friction . On
27:23
top of that , your children
27:25
have created their own paths that you're celebrating
27:28
. What would
27:30
you say to a woman who is struggling
27:32
with that , with letting go of
27:36
What was and
27:38
embracing the new and what
27:40
is ?
27:41
I will say I totally understand
27:43
you , i completely empathize
27:46
with what you're feeling . As
27:48
Luana knows , and as
27:50
some of my listeners know , my
27:52
daughter got married this spring and
27:55
From the from the day
27:57
of her bridal shower until about
27:59
I don't know , probably three
28:01
weeks ago , i cried every
28:03
day . I cried every single
28:05
day because I knew
28:07
that I was mourning what
28:10
Was no longer
28:12
my role . I was
28:15
mourning And I'm
28:17
gonna say it's a loss , because it wasn't a
28:19
loss , it was a closure . It
28:21
was a closure of a chapter
28:23
that was ending
28:26
and I allowed
28:28
myself that . So I would say allow
28:30
yourself that , allow yourself to mourn
28:33
the ending of a chapter , but
28:36
don't stay there , because That's
28:39
not the end of
28:41
the story , that's
28:43
just the end of the chapter . You
28:46
have a whole lifetime to
28:48
Write and
28:50
it's and it's unknown . So
28:53
don't be , don't be stuck
28:55
in the morning that you miss the
28:57
celebration of the new . Take
29:00
the time you need Now . Let's don't
29:02
stay there , just visit , don't stay
29:04
, don't take up residence .
29:06
How ? how is that experience
29:08
, and even the lesson that you're sharing
29:11
, help to
29:13
make you a A
29:17
better interviewer , one
29:20
who is able to interview from a
29:22
place of empathy and
29:25
understanding ?
29:26
I think it's because I have
29:28
become intimately aware of
29:30
how similar
29:33
we are , regardless
29:35
of which country you're from , your
29:38
, your educational background , your
29:40
job , your , your
29:42
race , your religion , your sexual
29:44
orientation None of that
29:47
matters , that is
29:49
, that's just noise
29:51
. But what's
29:53
truly important
29:55
are the things that make us more
29:58
similar , which is our emotions
30:00
, and since I had
30:03
these bevy of emotions , which
30:05
were surprised to me , i
30:08
am not a crier . My husband
30:10
will tell you that the only time he has actually ever
30:12
really seen me cry is when I am mad
30:15
. So
30:17
feeling these emotions , being overwhelmed with
30:19
emotions , is not necessarily me
30:21
, but it allowed
30:23
me to understand Me
30:25
a little bit better and since I understood me
30:27
a little bit better , i would , i'm think
30:29
, i'm able to understand other
30:32
women a little bit better , and it's
30:35
given me strength and
30:37
starting to Recognize
30:40
and feel empathy , whereas
30:42
I don't think I fully
30:45
allowed myself that before I might
30:47
have been , i might have been a little afraid of it
30:49
. Honestly , feeling
30:51
empathy is a little
30:53
scary , but now
30:56
that I've gone through this experience , i realized
30:58
that it's really nothing to be afraid of
31:00
. You just Pick
31:02
up your feet and go with it , because on
31:04
the other side are rewards
31:06
, and that's how
31:08
I try to meet my guest
31:11
is Go on the journey
31:13
with them and let them know that I am truly
31:15
there with them and at the end
31:17
of it there are rewards .
31:20
I love that I draw
31:22
. When you look at yourself
31:24
now in the mirror . Who
31:27
is Audra ? minus , minus
31:30
outfit titles , all
31:32
the wonderful accolades , who
31:34
are you ?
31:36
Wow , okay
31:38
, wow
31:41
, i did not realize I was gonna get this . I
31:43
I pause for a moment because I I Got
31:47
this surge of emotion that I
31:49
was not expecting . So let
31:51
me take a deep breath and tell you Audra
31:55
is a woman that
31:57
is healing a little girl , and
32:00
that little girl is me . I
32:03
Was a very sad little girl . I
32:06
was a very lonely little girl . I
32:09
Thought that
32:11
the more I achieved , i
32:13
would finally be
32:15
worthy of love and
32:18
It . It was this , this
32:21
cycle that happened that I Just
32:24
wanted to be loved so badly and
32:27
get acknowledged and recognized
32:29
, and it never came . So
32:31
, rather than rebel , i was like
32:33
I'll just , or I'll , achieve more , then
32:36
I'll finally be worthy and I
32:38
would do this cycle , and it was . It's been
32:40
a lifetime cycle and
32:44
now I recognize that that cycle
32:46
Wasn't , it
32:48
was never mine . So
32:50
I am a woman healing from
32:53
that . I am a woman
32:55
that is embracing
32:57
the unknown . I Am
33:00
a woman that Wants
33:03
to go see the world . I Am
33:06
a woman that finally recognizes
33:09
and sees myself as
33:12
a fully formed
33:14
adult most of the time , and
33:21
I I realize that I am
33:24
just getting started , that
33:27
I yes , my , my
33:29
kid . I've lived . I've lived a lifetime
33:31
already . But
33:33
I realized that that was just the first
33:35
half . The women
33:37
in my , in my family live
33:40
a long , long time . They live well
33:42
into their 90s . So I realized
33:45
that , oh , i've , i've had
33:47
half a lifetime . I got another half to
33:49
go . What adventures do
33:51
I want to do ? and
33:53
I'm excited about
33:56
the possibilities and
33:58
I suddenly have realized
34:00
that Anything's
34:03
possible , literally anything's possible
34:05
. If you can dream it , you
34:07
can probably do it , and you Don't
34:10
have to know how to do it . So
34:13
I'm a woman that's curious and I'm
34:16
a woman that's can't wait to see
34:18
what's next .
34:19
I , i love that
34:21
you are at the point where you
34:24
said that I'm a woman who's healing
34:26
and you're able
34:28
to look back at little Audra and
34:31
hold her and tell her it's okay , right
34:35
, because you're a sum of these
34:38
wonderful highs and lows
34:40
that life is taking you through . And
34:43
if you just imagine , would
34:46
you be such a force
34:48
on women in the arena
34:50
if you didn't have those experiences
34:52
?
34:54
Because I believe , that you're
34:56
as .
34:57
Women are hearing , you're tapping back here
34:59
, there's things in your journey It's like okay
35:01
, i may not have experienced that exact
35:03
thing , but I understand
35:05
the emotion , i understand the fear , i understand
35:08
the longing Right .
35:09
Oh , yeah , yeah , these , these
35:12
women that are sharing their stories with me
35:14
. It's , it's
35:16
remarkable how much their stories
35:19
have helped change and shape
35:21
my own , how how
35:23
much it has helped me heal
35:26
from hurts that I didn't even remember
35:28
that I had , that
35:30
I was carrying with me as
35:33
I don't know as as
35:35
heavy weights . But you carry
35:37
with them so long that you no longer feel it , until
35:40
another woman highlights something
35:43
in their lives and you go oh , oh
35:45
, yeah , i have that too . Oh
35:48
, and then you work through it and you let
35:50
it go . And
35:52
that's been an amazing gift
35:54
is letting it go Go , and
35:58
you have to do that because you
36:00
can't . The other , the
36:02
other part of feeling empathy
36:04
, is that you can't
36:06
absorb their
36:08
pain too , because
36:10
that's you can experience
36:13
it with them . But
36:15
you have to go through it , because
36:17
if you keep all of theirs inside
36:19
, there wouldn't be no way I could do this , because
36:22
it would crush me .
36:25
I totally agree . In
36:28
our life we have
36:31
often many individuals
36:33
that inspire us along the way . But
36:37
if you were to pick one person
36:39
who , whether
36:41
past or present , but you find yourself always
36:43
leaning in to that voice , who would that person be in your life ? Once
36:45
again , i'm getting emotional .
36:53
It was my grandmother . It was this amazing woman who only had an eighth
36:55
grade education . She never worked
36:58
, but she was so smart And
37:04
she poured all of the
37:06
wisdom that
37:09
she could into me And
37:12
she was so good at it . And
37:16
she I
37:18
refer to it as Graham's beauty
37:21
boot camp . What
37:24
she would do is she
37:26
would make me walk around her backyard with
37:28
a book on my head Because , she says
37:30
, she didn't want me to clump around like a horse , so
37:35
she had me walk around her backyard with a book
37:37
on my head So I would carry my carriage
37:40
. Properly is how she referred to it
37:42
, as She taught me how to sit
37:44
. She taught me how
37:46
to set a dinner
37:49
table , what all the forks were for
37:51
, and I kept asking
37:53
her why am I doing this ? And
37:55
she would say you're
37:59
going to need this one day . You're
38:01
going to be at some fancy dinner
38:04
parties , which I had no idea what she referred to
38:06
. I now know what is business dinners
38:08
But she says you're going to be at these
38:10
fancy dinner parties and you're going to
38:12
have absolutely exquisite
38:15
manners . And
38:17
I thought , ok , didn't
38:19
know what she was talking about , but
38:21
I did it . She taught
38:24
me how to play checkers And
38:26
wouldn't let me win . She
38:29
read to me every single day , and
38:32
she didn't read me just little
38:35
kids books , she read me
38:37
novels , like she read me little women
38:39
when I was very , very young . She
38:44
, she , she
38:46
was an immigrant , so
38:48
she did her best to
38:51
teach me Spanish as a little girl . She
38:55
made me watch those tele novellas so
38:57
it would sink in and I just couldn't . Sorry grams , sorry
38:59
grams , but it just couldn't
39:01
. But she
39:03
was such a force And
39:06
she did so much
39:09
, was so little , and
39:12
she poured all of
39:14
this into me . So
39:17
then maybe I could take the torch And
39:20
take it further than what was afforded
39:23
to her . So that is
39:25
what I think of all the time Is
39:28
the things that I'm doing , the things
39:30
that I , the opportunities that I get , the
39:32
awards that I that I achieve
39:35
. I take her with me And
39:38
I know that
39:41
there just as much hers as
39:43
they are mine , because I wouldn't
39:46
have been able to do any of it
39:48
without her pouring
39:51
into me the things that she poured
39:53
into me , not knowing what she
39:55
was doing . I mean , you'd think
39:57
you'd let a kid win checkers , not
40:00
her . Nope , she says you're going to beat
40:02
me fair and square , and it took me years
40:05
, but she that taught
40:07
me persistence , that
40:09
taught me strategy And
40:11
it taught me fair play And
40:14
those were really big lessons to learn
40:16
and take forward as we
40:18
go through this crazy life . So
40:20
it's her , it's always
40:23
been her . What did you
40:25
call your grandmother ?
40:26
Grams . Grams , one
40:31
of the things I will . You said a lot , and
40:33
I love when I hear people share about
40:35
their parents , especially their
40:37
, their grandparents . So so , grams
40:41
, as you mentioned , she taught you
40:43
the lessons of strategy
40:45
, presence , culture
40:48
, literature
40:50
, ethics
40:52
, etiquette right
40:55
, and that's
40:58
huge , because those are lifelong
41:01
lessons that you apply every
41:04
single day . And
41:06
, as you were talking , it made me think
41:08
of a song by Danny
41:11
Bell called Ordinary People , and
41:13
one part of the lyrics it says God uses
41:16
ordinary people who
41:18
are willing to do as He commands
41:20
, because little becomes
41:23
much when you place it in the master's
41:25
hands . And you
41:28
were that little child
41:31
that she was
41:33
given to safeguard
41:36
, to protect , to
41:38
nurture . Now
41:41
look at you , lodra , look
41:45
at the women who you're touching because of
41:47
Gramps .
41:49
I hope I make her proud . I
41:51
really do . I hope
41:54
that I make her proud I
41:56
know she's smiling .
41:57
now You're near me crying .
41:58
I'm not going to edit that out because I need to hear . It's
42:03
her every single day
42:05
. I hope that I do
42:07
what she wanted me to do . Yeah
42:10
, beautiful beautiful story .
42:13
So we've talked about your inspiration with
42:17
women in the arena . We think about
42:19
the women
42:22
today who you are inspiring
42:24
and you're celebrating their
42:26
stories . How
42:28
do you hope this will help to influence
42:31
the next generation that's coming
42:33
behind ?
42:35
First of all , the next generation
42:37
that's coming behind inspires me all
42:40
the time . They
42:43
are fearless in a way that I was not
42:45
fearless at that age . They
42:47
are not afraid to take up space . They
42:50
are not afraid to communicate
42:54
what they think . They are
42:56
not afraid to leave
42:58
a situation that doesn't
43:01
serve them . They
43:03
inspire me all the time
43:05
. What I hope is
43:08
that the generation
43:11
that's just behind
43:13
us will do a better job
43:15
of recognizing
43:17
other women as our
43:20
sisters , as our
43:22
greatest assets on
43:24
this planet , rather
43:27
than our competition , because
43:29
my generation , for
43:32
whatever reason , grew
43:34
up with this falsehood that
43:36
other women are your competition , and maybe
43:38
it was because there were so few of us fighting
43:41
for space and we thought , well , i've
43:45
gotten here , i got to defend my territory because
43:47
there's only one little spot and I've got
43:49
it . That's wrong . That
43:52
is absolutely wrong . When
43:56
I get to a space where
43:59
I'm like , ok , i've made it , i'm
44:01
automatically making space for the next one
44:03
to come with me . Automatically
44:06
, i'm making room . That
44:09
was something I needed to learn , because
44:12
that was not ingrained in me , and
44:15
I'm hoping that the next generation does
44:18
a better job than we did . When
44:21
my daughter was a teenager , i
44:24
told her , i said to her . I
44:26
don't do mean girls . I
44:28
don't play mean girl games . I don't want to hear
44:30
mean girl stories . That
44:33
does not exist in this house . There's
44:35
no such thing as mean girls . They're
44:37
misunderstood girls , not
44:40
mean girls , and I
44:42
take that with me with all
44:45
of the women I meet . I may not get along with every
44:47
woman I meet , but they're
44:49
probably still my greatest
44:51
asset and not my competition
44:54
.
44:56
Yeah , and we don't have to get along with everyone
44:58
, but we do need to
45:00
respect everyone right .
45:03
Everybody's fighting a fight . Every
45:06
woman on this planet is in that arena
45:08
. Every single woman
45:10
is a warrior in some way , shape or form
45:12
. Respect that , respect
45:14
that they're fighting a fight too .
45:17
So you've created this amazing
45:19
table of conversation . One
45:21
of the things that Shirley Chisholm
45:23
said was if
45:25
they will not invite you
45:28
to the table , you bring your
45:30
chair to the table . But you've gone a step
45:32
beyond that and said I don't really
45:34
see a table like this . So
45:36
I'm creating this table that
45:39
is all over . It's popping
45:41
up all over the world . How many
45:43
nations are you in currently ?
45:47
As of this morning , 71
45:50
. Wow .
45:52
Congratulations Yeah .
45:54
Is that insane , or what ? 71
45:59
countries ? Here's my voice . I
46:04
try not to think about it too much because that will
46:06
just make my head explode , but
46:08
I just look at it and go , wow , i
46:12
wonder , i wonder
46:14
what those conversations
46:16
are doing in those lives . I
46:18
wonder what's happening in those
46:20
communities . I hope , i
46:23
hope it is having a positive
46:25
effect .
46:27
I believe it is . I mean , this is
46:29
catching on like wildfire And
46:32
one of the things sometimes
46:35
people think , well , there's not much I can do . I'm
46:37
in my own little community , but in
46:40
your sphere of influencing and you're a testament
46:42
to this that if we step out
46:44
and we show up and
46:47
we press all in , then
46:50
we become this wave maker
46:52
I don't like to say ripple
46:54
maker , it's wave maker . You're creating this tsunami
46:57
effect because only a tsunami is
46:59
going to cross and
47:01
hit other nations . A little ripple
47:03
and a pond isn't going to do that . So
47:06
you're creating these tsunami episodes
47:08
with every single conversation
47:10
. That is causing
47:13
women to stir up within themselves
47:15
a strength that may
47:17
not have been there or may
47:19
need or is maybe
47:22
it becomes even greater
47:24
. They feel
47:26
, as you said , united . There's
47:28
this sisterhood , not just in
47:31
name only , but a true sisterhood
47:33
, by uniting our stories and
47:36
making a change . And we often
47:38
hear Gandhi's statement be
47:40
the change you want to see in the world . And
47:43
I always flip that and say be the change
47:45
the world sees . So 70
47:47
nations , the world is
47:49
hearing , seeing
47:51
and hearing the impact of women
47:53
in the arena And that is phenomenal
47:56
. So kudos .
47:59
Thank you . You know what You
48:01
use , what you got You know . And growing
48:04
up my dad would say you know what You
48:07
talk so much You must have been vaccinated
48:09
with a phonograph needle . Well , close
48:11
, close , i
48:13
have a microphone and I'm using it
48:16
.
48:19
I want to go back to Grams And
48:22
I know she's giving you many
48:24
, many words of wisdom , but
48:27
if you could leave the audience with
48:29
one thing that they could
48:31
take hold , that
48:33
grammism , if you will , what
48:37
would that be ? What would you tell the audience ?
48:41
First of all , i wish that everybody could have met
48:43
my Grams , because she would have changed
48:45
your world too . And I'm going to give you
48:47
a visual , because for
48:50
me to be able to tell you what
48:52
she said to me , you need
48:54
the full visual . She
48:57
was a 5'1" , 100-pound
49:00
, soaking wet little Hispanic woman that
49:03
would cuss a blue streak
49:05
, but in Spanish . So it sounded pretty . But
49:10
she and I'm only 5'4"
49:12
, but I felt like a giant
49:14
compared to her . I didn't realize
49:16
I was short until I married my husband , because
49:18
he's 6'6" . That's when I realized , oh
49:20
, i'm short . But I didn't think , i didn't
49:22
know that at the time . My
49:25
Grams would look up at me and point
49:27
her finger at me and say don't
49:30
ever , ever
49:33
let anybody tell you
49:35
what you're not . You
49:38
know who you are . Don't let
49:40
anybody say that
49:42
you're something different than who you are
49:44
. That's what she would say
49:46
, and she would stand there and she would stick
49:48
her finger in your face And
49:51
you'd be terrified .
49:55
That's powerful . It's know
49:58
who you are , own it , and
50:01
do so unapologetically . And
50:05
so often as we , as women
50:07
, we journey through life and
50:10
we see all these impressions
50:12
, whether it's social media , magazine , TV , everything
50:14
telling us what we should be
50:17
, how we should look , how we should talk , how we
50:19
should dress , how we should be
50:21
, And the
50:23
world is groaning under
50:25
the weight of that . And
50:28
Grams got it right
50:30
. She's saying
50:32
just be , know who you
50:34
are , own it , draw
50:38
that line in the sand . It's
50:40
like this is me right
50:42
. And it's so
50:44
powerful Because when you
50:46
are you , then
50:49
your purpose shows up , Then
50:52
the visions come , Then the opportunities
50:55
unfold , And it's
50:58
for such a time as this is
51:00
women in the arena And you're
51:03
just scratching the surface . I
51:06
mean , I'm three years . I
51:08
remember when you were telling
51:10
me I'm thinking of doing this . Where
51:13
is it going to be three years from now ?
51:16
I didn't even know to dream that it would last three
51:18
years . I didn't even know
51:20
that . I didn't even know if anybody
51:22
would listen . And now it's in
51:24
70 plus countries What
51:27
in the world ? And it's
51:29
just because I took a chance
51:31
And I take
51:33
one step forward
51:36
every single day . It
51:38
literally is just that one step
51:41
forward , because here's
51:43
a secret , guys , i don't know what I'm doing
51:45
, i really don't . I'm learning
51:48
as I go along , but
51:50
I take one step forward
51:54
towards something every
51:57
single day , so far
51:59
that something hasn't stared me
52:01
wrong .
52:02
I have two last questions before we end
52:05
, and the first is
52:07
if a woman is interested
52:10
in being on your show , is there
52:13
a type of
52:15
woman or a type of story that you want
52:17
to feature ? And then
52:19
, secondly , what's
52:22
next ? What can we expect next
52:24
for women in the arena ?
52:26
Well , in order to get ahold of me , first
52:29
of all , there's no type of
52:31
woman , there's no particular story
52:33
of woman , because I think all
52:35
of our stories are amazing
52:38
and remarkable and are worth sharing
52:40
. The only caveat
52:43
is are you ready ? Are
52:45
you ready to tell your story ? Because this
52:47
is scary , especially when I
52:49
just told you that your voice will be heard around
52:51
the world . So , if you're ready
52:53
, let's tell your story , because
52:56
, as I said before , you have to be vulnerable
52:58
or else this doesn't work . If
53:01
you're interested , reach out to me . I
53:05
am on all of the
53:07
social platforms . You can email
53:09
me . I mean , reach out to me , talk
53:11
to me . I talk to every single
53:14
woman that reaches out to me , every single
53:16
one . Not all of them are ready
53:18
to tell their story , but I
53:21
am willing to listen to every
53:23
single woman that has been brave
53:25
enough to connect with me , every
53:28
single one . And then
53:30
, as far as what's next , i
53:32
have big dreams . I have huge dreams
53:34
. I have zero idea how
53:36
I'm going to get there , but I have
53:39
this dream of having
53:41
an in-person
53:44
experience . I don't
53:46
even want to use the word event , because event
53:48
just sounds so sterile . I
53:50
want it to be an experience . I
53:53
want this experience to be one
53:55
unlike any other that
53:57
you've ever had before , and
53:59
I want it to stay with you
54:02
. I want the experience to haunt you
54:04
so that you will come back
54:06
for more . So I have this big
54:09
, giant dream . I don't know how I'm going to get it done , but
54:12
I didn't know how I was going to do this either
54:15
. So who knows ? I
54:17
don't know . We'll see what happens in the next 12
54:19
months . You never know .
54:22
You never know And , as Bert Smith-Lynes
54:24
always says , trust and allow , don't
54:26
ask how . Audra Egan
54:28
, it has been an honor and a
54:30
privilege to be here on
54:33
your show as the host of Women
54:35
in the Arena interviewing you
54:37
and celebrating you for all the amazing
54:40
things that you're doing . Thank you so very
54:42
much for having me .
54:43
Thank you for being willing to
54:45
be my host today and
54:48
being willing
54:50
to put me in the hot seat , which I knew
54:52
you would . I knew you wouldn't let me
54:54
off the hook , and thank
54:56
you for your friendship
54:59
and your support that you have given
55:01
me over the last three years , and
55:04
I can't wait to see what
55:06
else we're going to do . So thank
55:09
you for being here , and
55:11
I want to thank each and every one
55:13
of you for being such an incredible
55:15
supportive audience . This
55:18
simply would not happen without you
55:20
. So thank you so much
55:22
for supporting me these three years
55:24
, and let's see what happens in the next
55:26
three years . So thank you all so
55:29
much for being here And I'll see you again
55:31
next time .
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