In this episode, I explain why I haven't posted in a while. A lot of the stuff I have been writing is about people in my family, and I don't want to hurt them and I will need to check with them before I include things about them in my book. I

Moving from masculine to feminine

May 3rd, 2023 6m 41s

I have been working on the structure of the book, and had a great idea this morning. The first part of the book would be about what happened when I followed the masculine, and the second half would be about finding the feminine.

Learning to make decisions

Apr 26th, 2023 12m 52s

Today, I wrote about the relatively minor, hyper-privileged decision to move out of our holiday flat in Dinard to a house further west along the coast in Saint-Cast, and all that it taught my about making decisions.

Advantages and disadvantages in all things

Apr 25th, 2023 5m 1s

I am still trying to work out how to structure the section on death and endings. I have made some headway with the part on death, but I don't yet know how to fit in the part on endings. A very short piece today on the advantages and disadvan

Struggling with death and endings

Apr 24th, 2023 8m 30s

I spent a long time this morning trying to work out how to structure this section of the book. I had initially written it as a series of reactions to deaths and leaving places, but that doesn't really work. I'm trying to find the through-line

Limiting Beliefs

Apr 13th, 2023 10m

I had a section called " I can, I can't" in which I was looking at why there were some situations in which I persuaded myself something was impossible and others in which I persisted. But I realised that I needed a central dramatic question wit

Happy memories

Apr 3rd, 2023 6m 4s

A slightly messy text on my happiest memories. I have shifted this section of my book to just before "Dreams and Visions" because I realised that memories are the flip-side of dreams and visions - memories are in the past; dreams and visions a

Time rewritten

Mar 31st, 2023 14m 51s

I am up to 74 000 words. I have structured my work into themes and I have started rewriting within the themes. I initially wrote three different texts on time - I have now combined them into a single text.

Departures

Mar 21st, 2023 6m 46s

I write about leaving Sydney to come back to Paris. I had no idea that I would still be living in Paris 27 years later. I write about other departures, and what it means to live on the other side of the world from family and friends. I write

Threads coming together

Mar 20th, 2023 7m 33s

How swimming, yoga and singing all focus on breathing and on the position of the pelvis and how they are all building on each other.

More musings on time

Mar 17th, 2023 8m 13s

I have been reading "A Happy Pocket Full of Money" by David Cameron Gikandi. I'm not quite sure what to make of this book - it is a quantum physics / spiritual guide to becoming wealthy. The author talks about seeing time in the "hear-and-now

How I want to die

Mar 16th, 2023 7m

Thinking about how I want to die means thinking about how I want to live.

Seeing time as linear or circular

Mar 13th, 2023 8m 34s

I have always seen time as linear. Today, I started musing on what difference it makes if we see time as linear or circular. I would be interested to know what you think.

How I stopped conforming

Mar 10th, 2023 7m 44s

I thought I was going to be investigating why I sometimes conformed to what other people expected of me - or at least my perceptions of what other people expected of me - and why I sometimes did my own thing. In the end, I wrote about moving f

Persistance and "I can't" - two sides of the same coin?

Mar 9th, 2023 7m 41s

Reading back over my writing of the last few months led me to ask the question: "why is it that sometimes, I persist with something, and sometimes, I say "I can't"?" What is going on there? Is there a link between these two things, and if so

Order and creativity

Mar 7th, 2023 6m 40s

The theme of order and creativity came up over and over again yesterday as I tried to pull out some of the themes in my writing. Here are my musings on the relationships between order - also known as structure, technique, habit - and creativit

Becoming my own person

Mar 6th, 2023 8m 17s

Today, I drew out themes from what I had been writing in order to find where the gaps are that need to be filled in. An extremely exercise which helped me to realise some of the dichotomies in my life and how my whole life I have been struggli

Creating community

Mar 3rd, 2023 5m 57s

I write about how important creating community is to me, and in particular creating community around our house in Brittany.

My latest one-woman show and learning to be in front of an audience

Feb 28th, 2023 7m 59s

In this episode, I write about the performance I put on last Sunday in my flat in Paris. I talk about what it is like to be in front of an audience and how I am coming to see that each performance is part of the learning process rather than an

My paternal grandfather

Feb 27th, 2023 7m 21s

This is a piece I have rewritten about my grandfather and what he transmitted - or didn't transmit - to me.

On not caring what other people think

Feb 24th, 2023 3m 38s

The power of persistence

Feb 23rd, 2023 7m 18s

Memory, great literature and piano concerts

Feb 22nd, 2023 6m 16s

A mixed bag of writing today. I am having to dig deep into my memories now, and I think the time is coming when I will have to start structuring my work. I am up to almost 60,000 words.