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we show for other
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people and we're already and so
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gung ho about helping other
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people but when it comes to us
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to ourselves, like it's so hard
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to ask for that help. And when
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you are someone who is
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struggling with depression, or
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substance use disorder, or PTSD
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or even suicidal ideation,
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that's the last thing you want
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to talk about or sell it out
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loud, especially to your co
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workers or even your family
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members, right? Because you
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know, you're afraid of the
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repercussions afraid of like
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losing your job, afraid of
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getting a desk job like or
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having that diagnosis that oh,
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that person is depressed or that
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person has suffers from anxiety.
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Before we begin,
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we want to issue a trigger
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warning. Today's episode
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includes a discussion of suicide
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and suicidal ideation. We
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understand these topics can be
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difficult to hear for some
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listeners, and we want to make
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sure everyone is aware before
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continuing. If you or someone
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you know is struggling with
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suicidal thoughts or behaviors,
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please know that you're not
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alone. There are resources
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available to you including the
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National Suicide Prevention
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Lifeline, which is available
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24/7 at 1-800-273-Talk.
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Hi, I'm Kira Yakubov Licensed
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Marriage and Family Therapist
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Wednesday. I'm so thrilled to have our
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guests Majet Reyes on for today.
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She is a psychotherapist and
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owner of resilient mind works.
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Majet thank you so much for
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being on today. Welcome.
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Thank you so much.
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I'm so excited to be here and to
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connect with you again. So thank
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you for having me. Absolutely.
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I know you do a
2:20
lot of work in the community,
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you have a lot of organizations,
2:22
you're a therapist, you have
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phenomenal experience, so I'm
2:25
really excited to hear your
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story for today. So I always
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like to start with diving into
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how did you become a therapist?
2:32
Like can you walk us through
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that journey of how that started
2:34
for you?
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Yeah, definitely.
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So this is actually my second
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career. I was a paramedic for 13
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years before and before I was a
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paramedic, I was going to
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nursing school, and then it and
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then before that, obviously I
2:48
was in high school and you know,
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and hoping to be in the medical
2:51
field. And even before that we
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go way, way back like I was
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really, I was born and raised in
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the Philippines. So I came into
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the United States when I was 16.
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And I saw my parents struggle
3:02
through you know, studying over
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and then here. And then the
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struggle of like being new to a
3:08
country and then going to I went
3:08
to four different high schools.
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And we're all that transitions
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and all that adjustment that I
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experienced being an immigrant
3:15
at 16 years old. And then And
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then, you know, navigating my
3:20
way into college. And then when
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I was in college, I was gonna go
3:24
for nursing school. And then 911
3:28
happened. So 911, September
3:28
2001. Yeah. And then I saw, you
3:34
know, we all saw the burning
3:34
buildings in New York, and I saw
3:38
this people running into burning
3:38
buildings, and they were in
3:42
uniform, obviously, there were
3:42
firefighters, and there were
3:44
cops. And I was wondering,
3:44
right, who are the other group
3:47
of people going in there. And I
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was like, I definitely don't
3:51
want to be a firefighter. I
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definitely don't want to be a
3:55
cop. But what is that other
3:55
group of people there? And I was
3:58
like they're paramedics, and you
3:58
know, nowadays, we can just
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google the paramedics and know
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what it is. But back then, like
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I went into a phonebook and
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checked out paramedic schools,
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and I looked found a paramedic
4:09
school, went into EMT schools
4:13
first. So that's like a two to
4:13
three month program, and then
4:17
two years of paramedic school.
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So there's a difference between
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EMTs and a difference between
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paramedics. so..
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Ok, good to know.
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Yeah, so I did that
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hoping that my goal is to retire
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as a fire service paramedic.
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Right, let's just say giving
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back to this country that I have
4:33
adopted that American dream like
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you know, the what a lot of
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immigrants are aiming for. So I
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became a paramedic. Thinking
4:40
that I'm gonna retire as a
4:42
paramedic. And then I was
4:42
assaulted by my co workers when
4:46
I was working as a paramedic,
4:46
and then that kinda like helped
4:50
me grow through the healing
4:50
journey. That was the start of
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it. But it took like another 10
4:54
years, before I started that
4:57
healing journey, right. So if we
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fast forward, oh gosh, more than
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10 years after that event
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happened, I became a mom.
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And when I became a mom, I said,
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Okay, well, I'm working as a
5:08
paramedic, the hours is awful,
5:08
the work is rough, and you know
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I have this daughter, and all I
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want for my daughter is to be
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happy. And how am I going to,
5:16
you know, ask her to be or want
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her to be happy, if I'm
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miserable, right? And I said it
5:25
was my job that was making me
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miserable. Everything else in my
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life, but my focus was work. I'm
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like, I need to change jobs.
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Right? And I didn't know what I should
5:33
become, oh, maybe I should try
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to go back to nursing school or
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become a PA or become ER doctor.
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But that's not really my grand
5:42
goal. But the PA and nursing
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school are the two options for
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paramedics there's really two
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obvious options that they
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usually go for. Basically I
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tried of becoming a paramedic so
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I applied to nursing school and,
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and PA school. And I you know, I was rejected
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to this right. And I was like,
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Okay, I am. I know for a fact
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that I don't want to be a
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paramedic anymore. but, I'm also
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not sure what I should go for
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it. only in my mind, nursing or
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PA school. So I prayed, I'm not
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very religious but I'm spiritual
6:19
in a way, that you know, like,I
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believe in a higher power. And
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I'm like, Yo, you tell me what
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you want me to do? How do you
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want me to serve? But help me
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how do you want me to save your people? A few days later, I got a
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postcard from Philadelphia
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University, which is Jefferson
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now. And it says community and
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trauma counseling program. It's
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new. I was in the second cohort
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of that program. And I'm like,
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alright, I'm gonna check it out.
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And I went to Philly U for my
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bachelor's, so I'm like, I'll
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check it out. Right. I love the
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school that maybe it's time for
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me to get my master's. So I went
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to the orientation fell in love
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with the teachers fell in love
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with the other students. Yeah,
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I'm supposed to be here, right?
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Wow
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Now, all on our own
7:03
stuff. So I was learning about
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trauma, I was learning about
7:07
counseling, and realized that I
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got a lot of work to do. My own
7:10
inner healing. So
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Yea
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So you know, as I
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was going through the program of
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becoming a counselor a trauma
7:18
counselor, I was going through
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my own healing as well. And
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that's when I started looking
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for therapists and processing my
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traumas, my trauma from myself,
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trauma from becoming a mom
7:29
trauma, from becoming, you know,
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an immigrant and then the
7:33
childhood traumas that, you
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know, that were never processed
7:36
at all. They didn't even
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acknowledge when I was growing
7:39
up, and then I just fell in love
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with the field of counseling.
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And then and now and that's how
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I became a trauma therapist, and
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it's been sven years, and I
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love, Kira, I love love love
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what I do. That's what I love
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talking about. It's like, self
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love. It's like taking care of
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yourself, so you can continue
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doing what you love. And for me,
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that's, that's what I do. I need
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rest. I'm gonna rest. I'm gonna
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give myself love because I love
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what I do so much. I want to be
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my best when I take care of my
8:07
clients. Right, so said they
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love songs
8:16
I love your story
8:18
That's the story of
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how I became a counselor, yeah.
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Wow, that is
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honestly that is inspiring from
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the beginning to the end. I'm
8:23
also an immigrant, but I
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emigrated when I was very young,
8:26
so to know, as a teenager coming
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in, I mean, that's its own
8:29
journey, then you're going
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through all these experiences of
8:32
being a paramedic, like life and
8:36
death situations. And then
8:36
having that feeling of a
8:39
crossroad. It sounds like you
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had a lot to figure out and very
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brave of you to, you know, allow
8:43
yourself to see what comes to
8:47
you like trust it and, you know,
8:47
prayed and manifested and then
8:50
it showed up it literally showed
8:50
up on your doorstep to say, hey,
8:54
try this out. Wow, that's
8:54
incredible.
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Yeah, it's really
8:57
interesting, because my mindset
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was not there. My mindset was
8:59
about I need to take control.
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Right back then, my mindset were
9:03
about was all about, you know,
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like, I gotta control it. I
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gotta do doo doo. And, you know,
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I had so many maladaptive coping
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mechanisms, like I didn't know
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that they were maladaptive back
9:15
then. But it was normal, like
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they were normal. And they were
9:19
just part of my culture as
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Filipino American, and part of
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the culture of American culture,
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and also culture of EMS,
9:27
emergency medical services, like
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Yeah, I was working a lot. I was
9:32
drinking and exercising a lot.
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Right? And those were like, just
9:36
part of the culture and I was
9:40
working, working, working,
9:40
working, not understanding that
9:43
yo, if you really want to make
9:43
some changes, and start a
9:46
healing journey, sometimes you
9:46
just got to stay still. Right?
9:49
And just be and, and let go of
9:49
control. You know, but that
9:54
really took me a very, very long
9:54
time to understand. And I'm
9:58
still learning Yeah,
10:00
sure, I appreciate
10:00
you being vulnerable and sharing
10:03
that insight. I didn't know all
10:03
of those ins and outs of that
10:06
and how that came up. I mean,
10:06
grad school is incredible,
10:09
right? I mean, to be able to
10:09
heal and learn all this, like,
10:13
we go in trying to help other
10:13
people. And it's like a mirror
10:17
to the face of all the work that
10:17
we have to do, which I think in
10:21
a lot of ways, that's kind of
10:21
how we choose who we're going to
10:24
work with is it's almost like
10:24
simultaneously helping ourselves
10:28
heal while we're helping someone
10:28
in a somewhat of a similar way,
10:32
or some relatability in that. So
10:32
it makes sense that you've been
10:35
really focusing on first
10:35
responders, because that's a lot
10:39
to carry for anybody. Yeah.
10:42
And so can you share a little
10:42
bit about kind of specifically
10:45
the unique struggles that a
10:45
first responder might have and
10:49
how that shows up in therapy, or
10:49
what they bring to therapy when
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they do decide to go?
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It's very
10:54
interesting, right, like, so
10:56
when I, you know, when I started
10:56
my practice, like, I really
11:00
focused on helping first
11:00
responders and medical
11:03
professionals like having been
11:03
in the field, like, there's so
11:07
much stigma when it comes to
11:07
mental health. Yeah, right.
11:11
We're helpers, right? We're
11:11
saviors. And I put air quotes
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there. Because you know, like,
11:16
we go into work knowing that
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we're going to save someone, or
11:18
we're going to help, right, it's
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not save but help someone,
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right, that's part of the job.
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And but when it comes to us
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asking for help, right and
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needing to be saved, and again,
11:29
quote, unquote, it's looked down
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upon, right, and it says, it's a
11:33
culture that glorifies self
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neglect, right, and we put a
11:39
badge of honor when we're
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neglecting ourselves, and we
11:44
show up for other people. And
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we're all ready, and so gung ho
11:48
about helping other people, but
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when it comes to us to
11:51
ourselves, like it's so hard to
11:56
ask for that help. And when you are someone who is
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struggling with depression, or
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substance use disorder, or PTSD,
12:02
or even suicidal ideation,
12:08
that's the last thing you want
12:08
to talk about, or say it out
12:11
loud, especially to your co
12:11
workers or even your family
12:15
members, right? Because you
12:15
know, you're afraid of the
12:18
repercussions, afraid of like
12:18
losing your job, afraid of
12:21
getting a desk job right, or
12:21
having that diagnosis, that oh,
12:26
that person is depressed, or
12:26
that person has suffers from
12:28
anxiety, or even not recognizing
12:28
that the numbing activities that
12:35
we do, such as drinking, right?
12:37
That's very accepted in the
12:37
culture drinking, and you want
12:41
to be part of the team part of
12:41
the groups, you know, after
12:44
work, you know, you go out and
12:44
drink. And that's part of the
12:48
culture and not understanding
12:48
that, oh, I'm actually using
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this to numb and not process,
12:52
the emotions or the feelings or
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the traumas that I see, you
12:56
know, or experienced when I'd go
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into work and not knowing that
13:01
that's actually a problem. It's
13:04
a disorder, substance use disorder. And also not realizing that a
13:06
lot of first responders actually
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85% of first responders have
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PTSD, because going into work
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and meeting people on the worst
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day of their lives, right a lot
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of times, it's like the worst
13:22
day of their lives, and then
13:24
coming in and you were helping
13:24
them in one of the days that you
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know, when they're having a bad
13:29
day, and either there was an
13:31
accident or somebody you know,
13:31
their loved one is you know, is
13:35
dying or you know, or death and
13:35
be and having to
13:39
compartmentalize everything that
13:39
you just witnessed, so you can
13:42
go on to the next call, right?
13:42
And they become really good,
13:46
right first responders become
13:46
really good at
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compartmentalizing because they
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have to right?
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sure it's part of the job,
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Exactly, it is part
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of the job, and I then you know
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so that you can go ahead and and
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help and calls can come and back
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the back back to back and not
14:00
having the time to take a
14:02
breather, and process and feel.
14:02
Right what just went on in your
14:08
body in your mind let it in your
14:08
heart, like remember this trauma
14:12
is not necessarily the actual
14:12
event. Right. It's the felt
14:17
experience. For the general
14:17
public, It's like that
14:21
experience right, that traumatic
14:21
event that we have the big tears
14:24
could be probably one out of
14:24
five but with first responders
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t's like three out of five
14:28
first responders, right,
14:31
experienced that witnessing a
14:31
traumatic event and then having
14:35
that trauma that they carry in
14:35
their bodies that that you know
14:40
that stuff experienced that they
14:40
weren't able to process. He just
14:43
had to go to the next call. So and then
14:46
that's every day
14:48
and now it's every
14:48
day that they go into work.
14:50
holy shit
14:51
So, Right! it's
14:51
something that needs to be
14:55
talked about more. A lot of the
14:55
first responders a lot of my
14:57
clients who come to me , they,
14:57
It's usually you know, oh my,
15:02
my significant other asked me to
15:02
go see a therapist, right? Then,
15:08
you know, my there was fighting
15:08
with my significant other, or my
15:12
children, I don't have a real
15:12
connection with like children or
15:18
I'm just burned out and I don't
15:18
want to go to work anymore. But
15:21
I need my job and not realizing
15:21
that they could be struggling
15:25
with depression, or anxiety or a
15:25
CPTSD, like complex trauma, that
15:31
complex for Post Traumatic
15:31
Stress Disorder, or PTSD. Those
15:35
are some of the you know, things
15:35
that I see a lot in my in my
15:40
practice and some of the
15:40
struggles that comes to my
15:43
office. So I don't know if I
15:43
answered your question.
15:46
You answered it.
15:46
Wow. I mean, it seems almost
15:52
inevitable, right? At some
15:52
point, that if you're a
15:55
paramedic, or you're an EMS
15:55
worker that you will experience
15:58
trauma, depression, anxiety,
15:58
numbing, right? Like all of the
16:03
it almost seems inevitable,
16:03
like, we're human beings, right?
16:06
Some people have this happen
16:06
maybe once or twice in their
16:09
life. And this is someone's job
16:09
that they go in every single
16:12
day. So I can't imagine having
16:12
to hold so much of that in our
16:17
body with nowhere to go or to be
16:17
acknowledged, and then wake up
16:21
and do it again the next day.
16:22
Yeah, I mean,
16:22
that's why we can't blame them
16:25
if they use substance, right.
16:27
No, I mean, it
16:27
makes sense. I would, I mean,
16:31
just thinking about that now,
16:31
like, you have to find a way to
16:35
manage through it. And if
16:35
there's no space or time, and if
16:39
it's stigmatized. I mean, it
16:39
seems like the options are
16:42
pretty slim.
16:44
Yeah, yeah, talking
16:44
about it. It's like, you know,
16:47
it's stigmatized, you can talk
16:47
about everything else, like, you
16:51
know, they talk about politics,
16:51
and race and religion and all
16:54
that stuff. When it comes to
16:54
emotions, it's the F word nobody
16:58
wants to talk about, right? And
16:58
let's, and I tell my clients
17:03
this, I'm like, I'm not gonna
17:03
force you in the beginning of
17:06
our work together, part of your
17:06
healing journey wisely, is being
17:10
comfortable with this F word.
17:10
And they're like, what F word.
17:13
And I'm like, feelings. And then
17:13
like, ha, ha, you know, like,
17:16
it's, it's the emotions, there's
17:16
something about emotions or
17:20
feelings that is also
17:20
stigmatized in our culture.
17:23
Right?
17:24
Yeah.
17:24
And even that word
17:24
and I don't let this term on
17:27
these, Oh, you're so emotional,
17:27
like what's wrong with emotion?
17:31
Right? It's such a [inaudible]
17:31
to be the emotional. like your
17:35
emotions are not wrong, it's
17:35
like a fire alarm for you to
17:40
pause and, and reflect, okay,
17:40
why am I feeling this way?
17:45
Right. And being comfortable
17:45
with knowing that you have to
17:48
pause and feel and not judge
17:48
your feelings, right and
17:52
actually give it space so that
17:52
it can pass. Right? I'm gonna
17:57
pause and I'm feeling really sad
17:57
right now. I just saw a teenager
18:02
died. Right? And I'm like that's
18:02
horrible. I mean, I think you
18:08
had to compartmentalize that.
18:10
And so you can go on to the next
18:10
call. But what if that call is
18:13
another death or maybe no, let's
18:13
not even say it's another death,
18:16
It's just a car accident, a
18:16
fender bender. Now you're going
18:19
into that call pissed off.
18:19
Right? Like, oh, you called us
18:24
for this. Right? You could have
18:24
just called triple A, and it's
18:27
like, you didn't get to process
18:27
that sadness, right. But then
18:32
you're comfortable with feeling
18:32
anger? Because that's something
18:35
that's kind of normalized to an
18:35
OK, right? that aggression, the
18:40
fight mode. But when it comes to
18:40
feeling sad, right, or confused,
18:46
or, or even anxious. Anxiety
18:46
has, you know, shows up in many
18:50
different ways, but not being
18:50
able to understand that and
18:54
judging it and shaming those
18:54
feelings. It's not helpful.
18:59
You know, and my work with first
18:59
responders is really helping
19:03
them understand their feelings,
19:03
becoming aware of them and being
19:07
comfortable with that F word.
19:07
Right? So they can talk about
19:11
it, express how they feel. So
19:11
they'll know what they need.
19:16
Right? If they continue to
19:16
suppress this emotions, these
19:20
feelings, then how would they
19:20
know what they need? How would
19:23
we know? Right? If we're just
19:23
going glaring and suppressing
19:28
suppressing the feelings because
19:28
we're so uncomfortable with
19:30
feeling, then how are we going
19:30
to be aware of what we need in
19:34
our lives? Right? I'm gonna
19:34
digress.
19:38
Yeah. Yeah, I
19:38
mean, it sounds like there's no
19:41
there's no time or space to
19:41
reassess or feel anything. It's
19:45
just kind of continuously going
19:45
through the motions. You know,
19:48
it's interesting because these
19:48
are the some of the bravest
19:50
people I mean, I consider this
19:50
super brave. Like, I'm inspired
19:54
by the fact that you did that
19:54
and went through that whole
19:56
process, but like, how brave
19:56
that this is your job every day.
20:00
And you go into danger, physical
20:00
danger, and then the emotional
20:05
internal part that can't
20:05
necessarily I mean, it can hurt
20:09
us, obviously, but not in the
20:09
same way that physical harm can
20:11
get us that that's more feared.
20:11
Right. And that as it compiles
20:15
on and on, I can imagine like,
20:15
well, if I open the lid, who
20:20
knows how much is going to come
20:20
out, I can even imagine like
20:22
people who want to start talking
20:22
about feelings are scared, how
20:26
much is going to come through,
20:26
and if they're able to manage or
20:29
control them,
20:30
unfortunately,
20:30
because not knowing that there
20:33
is a safe space to express those
20:33
feelings and emotions and that
20:37
fear of how much of that like
20:37
what you're saying, how much of
20:40
that is going to come out. And
20:40
it's so scary, like, they don't
20:42
know how that would look like.
20:42
And what we don't know, it's
20:45
very scary. So unfortunately,
20:45
there's a high rate of suicide
20:51
in first responders and that's
20:51
the reality it's the truth, it's
20:54
something that, you know, these
20:54
departments, the organizations
20:59
are not really putting a lot of
20:59
effort into looking into this,
21:03
right. And if we had provided a
21:03
safe space, or normalize,
21:09
talking about feelings,
21:09
especially sadness, then we
21:12
could have prevented those
21:12
suicides.
21:15
Yeah, it's really
21:15
heavy. And it's a shame to think
21:17
about the people who take care
21:17
of us, right, when we need to be
21:21
taken care of when the community
21:21
needs that help, they show up,
21:24
but they're not being helped,
21:24
right? Like there isn't this
21:27
already built into that job or
21:27
to that system, and that
21:31
structure to make sure that
21:31
they're taking care of
21:33
consistently moving forward
21:33
instead of having to be very
21:36
stoic and keep it moving, and
21:36
not be impacted, because the
21:40
role is hero and strong. And you
21:40
have to hold it together for
21:44
everyone else, so they can be
21:44
sad, so they can feel
21:48
vulnerable.
21:49
Wow, I love that
21:49
you brought that up, because
21:51
that idea of being a hero,
21:51
right? Like a superhero.
21:55
Superheroes are
21:56
Yeah
21:56
superheroes, you
21:56
know, are brave, superheroes,
21:59
you know, they don't talk about
21:59
their feelings but again, like,
22:03
these are human beings we're
22:03
talking about right? First
22:05
responders are human beings, and
22:05
they do have feelings, just like
22:08
a lot of us, just like all of
22:08
us. Right? And, and you brought
22:13
that up like and I love that you
22:13
brought that up, like, we want
22:15
this first responder and this
22:15
medical professionals right to
22:18
take care of themselves and to
22:18
love themselves, because they
22:21
are the people who's going to be
22:21
protecting and saving our
22:23
communities you know?
22:25
Yeah
22:26
And if we don't
22:26
take care of them, and you know,
22:28
and we don't see them with
22:28
empathetic eyes, there's gonna
22:31
be a lot more hate. They're
22:31
spreading hate, we're spreading
22:34
hate, and then we're not
22:34
understanding each other. I
22:37
hope. And you know, if like,
22:37
there will be normalized for
22:41
organizations to promote self
22:41
love, right? Self love, self
22:47
care for first responders so
22:47
that they're not burned out. And
22:51
then so that they're not
22:51
depressed, and they're not
22:54
anxious or always in survival
22:54
mode, and they can show up for
22:58
our communities who need them
22:58
with a lot of love, and really
23:03
ready and willing and full of
23:03
compassion, showing up in these
23:07
communities and helping out,
23:07
right?
23:10
Sure, absolutely.
23:10
And I can imagine, you know, if
23:13
there's a lot of stigma you're
23:13
getting within your group of
23:16
people in your organization. And
23:16
then when you go out to help,
23:19
your job is literally to help
23:19
people and you're getting
23:22
negative feedback or this
23:22
negative association with what
23:25
you're doing. While you're
23:25
trying to help. I can see that
23:28
anger coming through, right?
23:28
Like, that all trickles
23:31
together, right. It's all part
23:31
of a system. And it all plays a
23:34
part. And so I love that you
23:34
talk about this community, and I
23:37
know you're so involved in the
23:37
community. And I love you have
23:41
this phrase on your website.
23:41
It's like bridging the gap with
23:43
empathy with the community,
23:43
would you be able to speak to
23:46
that a little bit how to bring
23:46
that a little bit closer.
23:49
One of my dream was
23:49
right in my professional life to
23:52
build this empathy bridge to
23:52
close the gap between first
23:57
responders and communities,
23:57
communities that they serve,
24:01
like. So I was a brown, you
24:01
know, like immigrant female
24:05
right and part of me. Part of my
24:05
identity is ,like, I'm a former
24:08
first responder, and I
24:08
understand, you know, like, what
24:11
goes on, like inside that life.
24:11
Right, but then also as a brown
24:18
individual, and being a member
24:18
of the community. I also
24:21
understand the struggles and the
24:21
traumas, right, and of living in
24:26
my community and living in the
24:26
community here as a brown
24:29
female, immigrant. And I feel
24:29
like, you know, there's a need
24:34
for us to understand each other.
24:34
Right, this two groups, for the
24:38
first responders to understand
24:38
and know, the journeys, the
24:42
challenges and the struggles as
24:42
being a number of communities,
24:46
especially the communities of
24:46
brown and black individuals,
24:49
right. And then also The
24:49
community white and brown to see
24:55
with empathetic eyes did joys
24:55
and the struggles and the
24:58
challenges of being a first
24:58
responder and when we understand
25:02
each other, we can't help. But,
25:02
you know, start building that
25:06
bridge of like connecting,
25:06
right? And to make sure this
25:11
deepest longing, and our deepest
25:11
fear, right as human beings,
25:16
right? It's like, you know, we
25:16
are wired for connection. But
25:20
then also we're so afraid of
25:20
connecting with people who seem
25:23
to be so different from us. But
25:23
in reality, we're not that
25:27
different. I'm wish that someday
25:27
and I have, you know, I've sent
25:33
proposals where those that I've
25:33
said, when I did presentations
25:36
as like, you know, this building
25:36
this empathy bridge between
25:39
first responders and the
25:39
communities because it would be
25:42
nice to live in a world where
25:42
in, you know, first responders
25:46
and people in the community
25:46
understand each other. There we
25:51
can live in a world where in
25:51
our, our offsprings, right, the
25:55
future, can can live a life
25:55
where they can trust each other.
25:59
And with that comes love.
26:03
I love the passion
26:03
you have for this. No, really,
26:05
it's so needed. And it's so
26:05
heartfelt. And it's so
26:09
important, because I think what
26:09
you're talking about is huge,
26:11
right? This takes a community,
26:11
it takes a lot of people to be
26:14
vulnerable, and willing to hear
26:14
other people side. And the tough
26:18
part is when there is so much
26:18
trauma right within the
26:22
community and first responders
26:22
who are dealing with vicarious
26:25
trauma, but their own, we
26:25
isolate, like the last thing we
26:29
want to do is be vulnerable and
26:29
reach out and feel closer. So
26:33
it's like another block another
26:33
layer, kind of getting in the
26:36
way of that. And that sounds
26:36
like really hard work.
26:40
Yeah. And I'm glad
26:40
that you brought that up the
26:43
vulnerability part. In our black
26:43
and brown communities like we
26:46
really love our resilience,
26:46
right? Like, we've been through
26:50
a lot, and then we're strong.
26:50
And then when you look at the
26:53
first responders, like you know,
26:53
it's like also they're very
26:56
resilient. Like bouncing back
26:56
pretty quickly to go to the next
26:59
call. But then when it comes to
26:59
being vulnerable, it's super
27:01
scary. But sometimes we do need
27:01
to take that's step. Right? To
27:08
be vulnerable. Cause with
27:08
vulnerability comes connection,
27:11
right. And then when we're
27:11
deeply connected then there's,
27:14
you know, there's intimacy, with
27:14
intimacy, love can grow. So,
27:18
yea, vulnerability is it's a
27:18
hard but necessary step that
27:23
first responders can start
27:23
practicing.
27:27
Yeah. And I love
27:27
that you say that because it is
27:29
from vulnerability comes
27:29
everything else, right? It's
27:32
that trust, the respect, the
27:32
understanding, the empathy, and
27:36
then we can start to grow and
27:36
make moves from there and
27:38
hearing all these different
27:38
perspectives. I'm just so amazed
27:41
by your work. I'm just, I'm like
27:41
thinking about it, like, day to
27:45
day how much that would be. And so when you are working with
27:47
individuals who are first
27:50
responders, and are in these
27:50
circumstances, how do you help
27:54
them look at self love and self
27:54
care in a way that works for
27:58
their schedules in their life,
27:58
right, because that's gonna look
28:00
a little bit different from
28:00
someone who just has a regular
28:03
nine to five in front of a
28:03
computer and wants to take care
28:05
of themselves.
28:07
There's
28:07
interesting, right? Like, that
28:09
term self care and self love.
28:09
It's like hashtag self care,
28:12
right? And automatic, lets their
28:12
mind goes into mani pedi massage
28:16
or spa day. No no no, that can
28:16
be self care, right? Like people
28:25
can find joy in that. But let's,
28:25
let's figure out what self care
28:30
is for you. And it's more on
28:30
like, what brings you joy? And
28:35
what does that mean? And
28:35
sometimes even that question of
28:38
like, what activities bring you
28:38
joy is something that they
28:40
struggle with? Because a lot of
28:40
times they don't have the time
28:43
to think and do things that
28:43
bring them joy, or they forgot
28:46
it. Right? They knew it when
28:46
they were, you know, a child or
28:49
when they were younger. And then
28:49
as we start, you know, living as
28:53
a grown ups, it's supressed
28:53
because you're busy surviving,
28:56
and then being in survival mode
28:56
becomes normal and familiar.
29:01
And I asked them to pause,
29:01
right, that's the first thing we
29:05
practice, like, let's pause and
29:05
just being able to sit for a few
29:11
minutes, it's better than better
29:11
than nothing, then, you know,
29:14
then expecting to have a full
29:14
day of spa day. Right, it's
29:18
because rest is important. And
29:18
so first responders like they
29:22
have you know, four days on four
29:22
days off the rotating shift of
29:26
like, two-day day shift, two
29:26
days night shift, and it's like,
29:28
there's very confusing and very,
29:28
they're pretty much
29:33
unpredictable time or schedule.
29:33
And so therefore, I asked them
29:39
to practice to pause, the
29:39
practice of pausing and sitting
29:43
still for a minute. We start
29:43
with that and being able to just
29:47
ground themselves and breathe
29:47
and that's self care. We start
29:51
with that normalizing pausing
29:51
and resting for one minute. And
29:55
showing self compassion we start
29:55
with that
29:58
Cause like once I tell them to
29:58
sit down for ten minutes. That's
30:00
a lot, it's so unnerving for
30:00
them. So instead of like
30:04
grounding, you know, helping
30:04
them ground their nervous, it
30:07
gets they get more anxious,
30:07
because they trying to do
30:10
something that they're not
30:10
familiar with. So I asked him to
30:13
pause and practice pausing for
30:13
one minute and breathing. And
30:16
when that like that moment that
30:16
they pause for one minute, I
30:21
remind them that, that's self
30:21
love, and it's better to love
30:25
yourself, and show yourself a
30:25
lot of love. So that in that one
30:29
minute, you know, you can reset
30:29
ground your nervous system, and
30:33
then go share that love to other
30:33
people, right, the public needs
30:37
you. So if you want to keep helping
30:38
other people, and continue
30:41
loving what you do, give
30:41
yourself that one minute. We
30:43
start with that. And they love a
30:43
challenge. So they're like,
30:47
Well, I'm gonna sit for like two
30:47
minutes. So it's that and I tell
30:53
them that mindfulness right
30:53
there and mindful, being
30:56
mindful, it's not meditation.
30:56
it's a practice of being in the
31:00
here and now. And with that
31:00
practice of one minute pausing
31:04
and breathing, you're practicing
31:04
being in the here and now. And
31:08
with that, like, I also try to
31:08
explain to them that being in
31:12
the present moment, and doing
31:12
what you need, at this moment,
31:17
right, just staying present,
31:17
right, just we can get stuck.
31:21
And I see this with a lot of
31:21
them. And a lot of my clients,
31:23
even the the not first
31:23
responders, we get stuck in the
31:27
future, right? You understand
31:27
this, like you would get stuck
31:30
in the field, we get down, we
31:30
get anxious, and we can't do
31:32
anything about the future. But
31:32
because it's in the future, so
31:35
we can't do anything about that.
31:35
And then we get stuck and
31:39
ruminate about the past, right?
31:39
And didn't do anything about
31:44
that, because it had already
31:44
happened. And that only just
31:46
make us sad. Right? So let's
31:46
focus on the here and now. Once
31:51
they find themselves, and I tell
31:51
them this, like notice, once you
31:54
find yourself geetting antcy or
31:54
anxious because you're thinking
31:58
about the future. It hasn't
31:58
happened yet, reel yourself back
32:01
into the present moment, ask
32:01
yourself, what do we need right
32:03
now? And right now, does that
32:03
mean you need to take a nap? you
32:08
need to take a bathroom break?
32:08
You need to rest or go outside
32:13
and take a breather for two
32:13
minutes? What do you mean that
32:15
now? Oh, my belly hurts. Or
32:15
maybe you need to see a doctor.
32:18
Let me just go make that one
32:18
thing like in the like bring
32:21
yourself back into the present
32:21
moment. That's self love. Right?
32:25
Like being mindful of what I
32:25
need in this very moment in this
32:29
very present moment. Right?
32:29
That's self love. And then we're
32:34
able to practice that on a
32:34
regular basis, you know, then we
32:36
go into like, okay, let's tap
32:36
into making a list of activities
32:40
that bring you joy, like, what
32:40
are the things that bring you
32:43
joy, because once you know how
32:43
to pause for one minute or two
32:47
minutes, and then be able to
32:47
stay in the present moment, then
32:51
you'll be able to recognize, oh,
32:51
I enjoy hiking, right? And then
32:58
you tend to remember those
32:58
activities that bring you some
33:02
happiness, because you're not
33:02
caught up in survival mode
33:05
anymore. You get glimmers of
33:05
living and life is meant to be
33:10
lived. Right? And that again.
33:10
That is if you allow yourself,
33:15
love. It sounds so simple. It
33:15
doesn't have to be hard. Right?
33:20
Yeah.
33:20
But sometimes for
33:20
this professionals who are
33:22
always on the go, that practice
33:22
of pausing, staying in the
33:28
present moment. And then, you
33:28
know, going back to
33:33
understanding what made them
33:33
happy in the past and bringing
33:36
that back into their lives,
33:36
that's a big thing for them. It
33:40
seems so simple, but with
33:40
stillness comes wisdom, and
33:44
sitting still for one minute and
33:44
breathing, you know, and
33:47
increasing that time every
33:47
month, up to a point where you
33:51
can sit still for 20 minutes and
33:51
reflect and just breathe, right?
33:55
It looks like living, that's
33:55
your self love. That's your self
34:00
care. And we start with that.
34:00
Not like okay, let's travel to
34:04
Puerto Rico for a week like or
34:04
go to a retreat, because that's
34:08
self care or go to a spa for one
34:08
whole day. Those are great.
34:13
Right? But then sometimes even
34:13
when you find yourself in those
34:17
places on vacation in the spot,
34:17
your mind is in some other
34:19
places right, you're not
34:19
present. You're anxious about
34:23
work, you're anxious about
34:23
somebody else. It's like, you
34:26
know, like so let's let's talk
34:26
this, the one minute for
34:30
yourself, right and live in that
34:30
one minute, not just survive.
34:35
Because again, life is meant to
34:35
be lived not to be not to be
34:39
survival mode for the rest of
34:39
our lives.
34:41
Yeah, I mean, it sounds like you're helping them build sustainable practices over
34:42
time that they can call on
34:47
themselves anywhere at any time.
34:47
Right? Like all of you going on
34:52
these trips, taking these
34:52
breaks, like they're wonderful.
34:54
It's beautiful to have some of
34:54
these experiences. And they go
34:57
by, right like we can't hold on
34:57
to them the same way that You
35:00
can teach somebody to have that.
35:00
I mean, I'm hearing you're
35:03
giving them back control over
35:03
the time that they're being
35:06
intentional about, like, I'm
35:06
gonna give myself one minute of
35:10
my own focus and attention to
35:10
recenter my nervous system,
35:14
build this practice so that in a
35:14
month, I can sustain this for 20
35:18
minutes and do something that
35:18
brings me joy that I haven't
35:21
even thought about in years.
35:23
Yes, exactly. As
35:23
you wrap it up. Perfect. Yes,
35:30
exactly.
35:31
And you know, like you said, it's like the basics, right, like just giving the
35:33
basics of giving ourselves time.
35:36
But when you're somebody who
35:36
spends your whole career and
35:39
time and energy thinking and
35:39
caring about other people, doing
35:43
that for one minute does sound
35:43
hard, it does sound kind of
35:45
uncomfortable. And building that
35:45
tolerance over time is something
35:49
that's going to be a life skill,
35:49
right? Like that's a life skill
35:53
to be able to tap into your own
35:53
nervous system and breathe for a
35:56
little bit so that you can reset.
35:58
Yeah, exactly.
35:59
That's incredible.
35:59
You do phenomenal work. Thank
36:01
you for what you do. I mean, and
36:01
with so much passion, I imagine
36:05
your clients are very happy with
36:05
you. The experience that they
36:08
have for this safe place,
36:10
Cause I've been
36:10
there. I remember after I was
36:13
assaulted, you know, like, the
36:13
lawyers wanted me to go see
36:15
therapists, and I tried those.
36:15
And I didn't understand what
36:18
they were telling me. They were
36:18
throwing me CBT. I didn't know
36:20
it was CBT back then. Right. And
36:20
I'm just like, that doesn't
36:25
work. No that doesn't this like,
36:25
you know, and I went through two
36:28
different therapists back then.
36:28
it didn't resonate with me,
36:31
right? I've learned so much how
36:31
to just go go go.
36:35
I had my own suicidal thoughts,
36:35
right. And like, at one point in
36:39
my life, like all I wanted was
36:39
to sleep. Right. But I was so
36:43
busy. And I was just like, you
36:43
know, I had so many things in my
36:46
mind. I couldn't relax my
36:46
nervous system. And I was just
36:50
like, I wanted to sleep. At one
36:50
point, I was like, I had weed. I
36:54
had marijuana back then. And I
36:54
took smoked all my marijuana, I
36:58
drank like this bottle of
36:58
disgusting, vanilla vodka, and I
37:03
took all my sleeping pills.
37:03
Because I was like, I just want
37:06
to sleep, right? Not
37:06
understanding that, God, I'm
37:09
tired. I don't want to do this
37:09
anymore, right. But I just
37:11
wanted to sleep. And then I woke
37:11
up the next day with a really
37:14
bad hangover. But , I'm just
37:14
like, Oh, I'm alive. Like, I can
37:19
do something. And what did I do
37:19
like after that incident, I went
37:23
to Barnes and Noble and started
37:23
devouring self help stuff,
37:27
right. And those are great,
37:27
like, self help is great. And we
37:32
have to understand it. But what
37:32
we truly need is to be able to
37:35
process those feelings that we
37:35
had been holding on to. And you
37:40
know, instead of numbing it, and
37:40
suppressing them, and
37:44
distracting ourselves from it.
37:44
So that's why I like I say I do
37:49
it, I do, because like I've been
37:49
there, I understand it. And also
37:53
know the power of like the inner
37:53
work the inner healing and
37:57
opening ourselves up in a safe
37:57
environment, right in a safe
38:01
space where we can process and
38:01
unpack the events and also the
38:05
feelings, the felt experiences
38:05
that we had.
38:09
Absolutely, thank
38:09
you for sharing that I really
38:11
appreciate your vulnerability, I
38:11
think it's going to really allow
38:14
people to really resonate and
38:14
not feel alone and have hope.
38:18
There's a lot more you can do.
38:18
And you don't have to stay in
38:21
this position. There's a lot of
38:21
help out there, we just have to
38:24
be open to seeking it and giving
38:24
ourselves that attention. So I
38:28
really appreciate that, Majet.
38:29
Yea, no, you're welcome. And you know, and things are changing right Kira.
38:31
Like it's,
38:33
Yea
38:34
it's, um, the
38:34
stigma of mental health is
38:37
lessening, right. I mean, we
38:37
still have a lot of work to do
38:40
with that to really make it
38:40
normal or normalize to talking
38:44
about it, but it's changing.
38:44
There's a lot of hope.
38:46
Yeah, it's going in the right direction. I mean, this is the best time for us to
38:48
be alive in all of history,
38:51
right?
38:52
Yes, I like that.
38:52
Exactly.
38:54
And so I what's
38:54
coming up next for you and your
38:57
practice? I know you have a lot
38:57
of organizations if you can kind
39:00
of share with the listeners more
39:00
about what you do and what
39:02
you're offering.
39:03
So what's coming up
39:03
for me? So I have support
39:08
groups, so for first responders
39:08
and medical professionals, and
39:12
that's normally in the fall in
39:12
September. So right now I'm
39:17
trying to get more people to
39:17
into the fall support group and
39:21
I am planning on getting
39:21
certified or licensed to do
39:26
psychedelic assisted therapy.
39:28
Oh, Majet, Oh, you
39:28
just hit my heart because that
39:33
is my life goal. That is
39:33
phenomenal. Where are you doing
39:36
this at?
39:38
There is a
39:38
Philadelphia organization called
39:41
Sound Mind
39:42
Yes! Yes!
39:44
You know it?
39:45
Yea!
39:47
Yeah, I'm a big fan
39:48
Oh I love this.
39:49
It's not everywhere
39:49
yet but people are like talking
39:52
about it. Programs are out
39:52
there. So I'm super excited
39:54
about that. It's really
39:54
expensive but also it's worth it.
40:00
Yeah,
40:01
But it's such a
40:01
beautiful tool, I guess you can
40:04
call plant medicine or like
40:04
psilocybin. It's something that
40:08
I really change mental health
40:08
and really help people talk
40:13
about emotions and feelings. And
40:13
yeah, that's what I want, then,
40:17
you know, sometimes I'm gonna
40:17
need some help from, you know,
40:19
plant medicine that can help
40:19
people take off all the blocks
40:24
or the walls, I talked about
40:24
feelings. So that's, that's
40:27
what's coming up.
40:32
That's super exciting. Oh, my God, we're gonna definitely have to have
40:34
you back on for another episode
40:37
just talking about psychedelics
40:37
and trauma, and different things
40:40
that is so near and dear to my
40:40
heart. And I know that program,
40:44
and I was actually going to do it. I'm going to do it actually, I think in a year or two, it was
40:45
just not the right timing in my
40:48
life right now. But that is
40:48
definitely I truly believe the
40:52
wave of mental health is just
40:52
finding plant medicine and
40:56
healing in that way. I am so
40:56
thrilled I wish I knew this an
40:59
hour ago. We could have talked
40:59
about that more. That's super
41:04
exciting, though. Can you share
41:04
with the listeners where they
41:07
can reach out to you how they
41:07
can get in touch with you if
41:09
they want to work with you?
41:11
Sure, you can find
41:11
me on social media
41:14
@phillytraumacounselor, and if
41:14
you want to hear all about
41:18
mental health and first
41:18
responders so you can follow me
41:20
there. And if you are interested
41:20
in women empowerment, women
41:25
education and women events, I
41:25
own diva girl tribe and you can
41:29
follow us on social media at
41:29
@divagirlcommunity. And we're
41:33
having a conference coming up in
41:33
May. So I hope we see some of
41:37
you there.
41:37
Awesome. And I
41:37
have been to one of your events
41:40
called she means biz. It was
41:40
like a business conference for
41:44
women entrepreneurs and having
41:44
that. So it was incredible. I
41:46
mean, you do so much amazing
41:46
things in the community in all
41:51
these different ways. So thank
41:51
you for being you. I think it's
41:54
just incredible all of the work
41:54
that you do. And really thank
41:57
you so much for being on today.
41:57
It's been a pleasure talking to
41:59
you and like learning more about
41:59
your story.
42:01
Thank you for
42:01
giving me the space to share my
42:04
story to show up as my true
42:04
authentic self. And you're
42:07
appreciating it and accepting me
42:07
for who I am so thank you Kira
42:13
for allowing me to be me in your
42:13
space. A safe space.
42:17
Absolutely. Oh,
42:17
thank you so much.
42:20
Thank you.
42:20
So I think we're good. I think it's a warp that was awesome.
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