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Welcome to my favorite murder that

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waited for Everyone's been looking

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at their watch yet waiting for

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this Trio. It's

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now dropped. Here. It is a new

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world. How are you? I'm

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doing. Alright, I'm doing,

1:12

I'm doing well. What about yourselves?

1:15

I feel like I'm doing well, although

1:17

can't figure out what temperature am

1:19

at any given time of

1:21

the day, like flip

1:24

flop slippers a A light

1:26

sweater. Is it menopause

1:28

perimenopause

1:30

frightening? Lee enough? I'm full-blown

1:33

menopause. Are You full blown? How

1:36

did you know that it was happening? Just

1:39

flop, sweat every 15

1:42

minutes and that,

1:45

you know, just the very generic

1:47

embarrassing, marriage

1:50

issue of

1:51

the game too hot. I'm

1:53

too cold but like to

1:55

the craziest degree where

1:57

Stephanie is dressed in a Though

2:00

fared as we call it and

2:02

I'm like just,

2:05

Not anything on me and

2:07

I'm like. Interesting and slack

2:09

and then I'm freezing and tripping and.

2:11

And plus I'm sixty one and so

2:13

that gave it away too isn't it funny when

2:15

you're with some a long as you get mad at them when

2:17

they're not the temperature that you are in life

2:20

of why are you yell? of why

2:22

are you wearing that instead of it's sinn

2:24

fein that everyone's different see yeah

2:26

stephanie and stephanie always take those moments

2:29

and

2:29

We get frustrated with each other or

2:31

overly comfortable with each

2:34

other and maybe grocer awkwardly

2:36

moments we always say. Thursday.

2:40

And then when it first hand like that is

2:42

happening on the. When

2:44

I you're fighting over the temperature is

2:47

oh, and it really brings

2:49

us allotted zulay and a kind of snaps

2:51

us back and sue how we're may

2:53

be talking to each other or treating

2:56

each other.

2:57

I love the that is just

2:59

some of the amazing advice that you can

3:01

get I'm down as tech is actually

3:03

an amazing presence reminder

3:06

there are people here

3:08

and not only does it

3:10

make you realize. How?

3:13

Comfortable, you are with up first.

3:16

But it also immediately

3:18

sucks you into a set of laughter because

3:20

when you think of this,

3:22

first of all dressing and

3:24

snuggle suit or in the first day,

3:27

and yelling at each other about other temperature

3:31

another thing Then I encourage people

3:33

to try when Seventy and had

3:35

our first argument. It.

3:37

Was a very clear argument

3:40

season, I remember walking over

3:42

to a window and I don't have

3:45

a singing voice, but I put my

3:47

hand on the window and

3:49

just started. Singing a song

3:51

that I was making up in the moment called

3:54

"There was a time", says

3:56

is staring off into the distance singing

3:58

there was time. I am and started

4:01

of reminiscing about when we got along

4:03

side of that,

4:06

also made us laugh really hard and

4:08

see this day when we have arguments

4:10

with we but has since you. improv

4:14

musicals and reminded "There

4:16

aren't the good times and we're more in the middle

4:18

of a fight", says So.

4:20

The matter is that. the

4:22

said relationship advice but

4:25

Let's see that we also

4:27

learned you can't and things

4:30

in the fun and laughter

4:32

that you.

4:33

Diverted to you have to actually

4:35

go back and revisit the issue isn't

4:38

but it's never gonna work in the moment when you're fired

4:40

up riot so like you bring it back

4:42

to it and level and.

4:45

then you can we visited in that moment or later

4:47

but that yeah your that's not the place where you're going

4:49

to solve it and rare sight and anyway

4:51

said such said great idea to break the tension

4:54

and then you can't just stay in the like ridiculous

4:57

last or says that you're in while you're singing

4:59

to eat

4:59

They're so my God, I sit

5:01

and colonies other out. Yes,

5:03

you are reminiscing on good times,

5:06

you have to have that fun and then

5:08

go back and say.

5:11

As long you're terrible right

5:13

here's why should he lives there are a member

5:16

really, all about. pointing out

5:18

your hairs are fighting about windshield

5:21

wiper fluid which is my most

5:23

recent by oh really

5:24

But none that excites you get back in a while,

5:26

reciting about when. My, my. 'Cause

5:29

you have to kill time until you die.

5:32

When opening, it is lot of am really.

5:35

Ever really enjoyed window comedy to

5:37

like that, I think there were some

5:39

way except at cancer depressant add

5:42

where a woman. Before she

5:44

gets the pale, or yeah, he walks over

5:46

Seal window and then just pulls huge

5:49

sweater process else and just sit

5:51

next to ideas as it's that's

5:53

depression and that, so ah so

5:55

funny, see where it says, like, I

5:58

just have to look out the window that so. That

6:00

it is hate and but I'm always cold

6:02

because, ah, yes, yeah, so

6:04

just the just. The air.

6:07

In your now that's not when you're depressed

6:09

when you can't do anything when you're depressed

6:11

have a man the. you know

6:15

Reminds me of my mother's going through metal.

6:17

And should pick up whatever was like laughable

6:20

nearby and be like is any help

6:24

for. months for river like know

6:26

the answers the know like know one else to

6:28

say

6:29

But aggressively editing them say as like

6:32

a bitch.

6:32

Huge many from arrest us that

6:34

is anyone else looks like she

6:36

could never accept the fact it was just passing

6:38

success is needed people to go there

6:41

with her and is the anger that comes

6:43

with a brain says like nobody

6:45

else does anybody or

6:47

anything wrong. with all

6:49

to turn the sun lamp off

6:51

me please god it's also

6:53

it's have to mention which quite

6:56

possibly of people are familiar with me

6:58

that are less am assuming you're going to actually

7:00

air this bizarre if you

7:02

that's little are listening and

7:04

you're thinking read tag is experiencing

7:07

men applause and she looks like

7:09

that people sometimes things

7:11

that when you're gay or you look masculine

7:14

and anyway The you

7:16

don't. Go through menopause.

7:19

It throw them off you know and I'm saying

7:22

is that most people account balance

7:24

lot of things in their heads or absolutely

7:26

but I'm just I don't want to leave any one out

7:29

are. you saying when you go through

7:31

that supplies every time you walk

7:33

over real quick put on some hot pink

7:35

lipstick here as a switch For

7:38

comb my the madison whichever

7:40

direction I know that ah.

7:44

adnan everyone had his explosive

7:46

that no one that And why

7:48

isn't a cold one man pause blue

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hot same rate? Right points,

7:54

thank you. There was terrorist

7:57

attack.

8:00

You're going to have known each other forever and ever

8:02

play any in Ah. The

8:04

say, maybe sixteen years

8:06

without a U.S. citizen to the day.

8:09

Happy anniversary.

8:10

Oh I know can't believe it's come

8:12

around again ah you guys

8:15

it's, too bad with we don't have that said service,

8:18

is that your of think it was bumpers you're like

8:20

really like really prom photo and son of a side oh

8:23

my god you find it

8:26

somewhere i think you just did it

8:28

like let's just see that say that wasn't like

8:30

for that reason know think

8:32

probably looking back the reason

8:34

it happened was think had

8:37

that The media.

8:39

Fall! In love with your saw that he exists

8:41

the other hand because I don't think we have hung

8:43

out before then or we hadn't extra

8:46

yeah and so think when I. Met

8:48

you and I'm

8:50

fumbling my we're not that had

8:53

I, had comedy fall

8:55

in love, and

8:58

probably wanted to ask you, to. the

9:00

but yeah i

9:02

remember karen was married at the time

9:04

so sadly one Pro print

9:06

for me to ask her to prom

9:08

scientists in that list. And

9:10

I the fireplace like that's the thing that.

9:13

That me and the comedy.

9:15

"Were those comedy crushes, isn't it

9:17

was like when someone's on stage saying

9:19

a thing that?" Is so specifically

9:21

unique to them or? There

9:24

you go away why I didn't ever

9:26

think of that there's this very

9:28

said he almost. twelve

9:30

year old feeling of like them

9:33

That you know, you just yet thing

9:35

where you're just like your brain, your personality

9:38

and so cs aiding, and

9:40

it's a thing that. Having done

9:42

stand up like you value the most of

9:44

like unique voice that's being themselves.

9:47

Absolutely, and where you find yourself

9:50

a comedian last, and yeah. Which

9:53

is unusual for

9:55

some times after certain point

9:57

because it's when you're processing comedy.

10:00

I know for myself a lot of times I'll

10:02

be thinking oh that's interesting

10:04

or that's really funny yet, but that

10:06

in those is the thoughts are going through

10:08

my brain while I'm watching comedy lot

10:11

of times said them there. Are the people

10:13

that make me laugh?

10:16

Out loud as it's cause

10:18

and it's and my wife is one

10:20

of them, were I'm says I feel so

10:23

thing every day that she

10:26

makes me laugh so hard and

10:28

when you find those people were?

10:31

The your first. The thinking, oh, that's

10:33

interesting, or, oh, what an angle

10:35

never thought of that. How

10:38

you're crying at America

10:41

yes, sir I'm, saying

10:43

and use your pushing them away

10:45

from that he. had a as

10:47

they're just like those ten alas

10:49

or uses like your silently tackling

10:52

and sears are coming out of your eyes and you're physically

10:54

spacing them away from you because it's

10:57

always much it is there's nothing

10:59

better and nothing Are rare after

11:02

you become comedian there? The trail

11:04

like the whole like arms crossed,

11:06

you can get me I've seen

11:08

it all I've been doing.

11:09

For four years or whatever, like morality

11:11

wants to be experts,

11:14

but then it's absurd. Then. Point you

11:16

watch people and just go out this as

11:18

I get to be an audience member now get

11:20

some he added not know anything and just be

11:22

like absorbing. That's because remember

11:25

watching your said, but I'd been out

11:28

for a long time and so

11:30

I just heard of you a new people loved

11:32

assassin and I was sister's. sister's and

11:35

it was the one where at the beginning you just keep

11:37

adjusting the mike san and then you end up putting

11:39

it up putting the ah And I. couldn't

11:41

i would The way, yeah,

11:43

PM further and further away and the

11:46

that it was just such a per se. Opening

11:49

job for that exact moment where that

11:51

audiences I couldn't believe because they'd

11:53

seen probably seen twenty five comics

11:56

that day it was like the festival

11:58

he though and. The of comedy,

12:00

where they are all becoming experts, and then suddenly

12:03

was just like. The

12:05

it it's a. The what I said, but it's a hundred

12:07

times year to watch it because it's just

12:09

what comics do when they cannot say, just slight

12:12

adjustment of like, "Yeah, this settling needs to be

12:14

one and half feet over there right

12:16

now, run which is, pray, you know, it's"

12:19

Walking I'm Mike Sand all the way as to the

12:21

top row other, the theater

12:23

is really sad like that, yeah,

12:26

oh yeah, I used to love.

12:28

Just wandering around the theater with

12:30

that makes them dying where can I put

12:32

this can get my so sorry that are?

12:35

That reminds the honestly have ever done that on

12:37

a special or anything and maybe I'll eat

12:39

my Bill Murray that one, of the greats

12:42

one of the early grades, I

12:44

won't say as say professional comedy.

12:46

fan myself

12:49

and not

12:49

The median I've watched both of you and had

12:51

the oh, my God founder of laugh out

12:53

loud says I want to know her moments,

12:55

so it's a treat for me and be done

12:58

on this record eight and listen to you guys.

13:00

The workshop that is so I,

13:03

love being a part of it. it

13:05

always feel ridiculous as

13:07

whenever ridiculous am around karen side

13:09

move beyond Where I where always

13:11

bring it out the canvas that the Stephanie and

13:14

my wife and would just talk

13:16

about Karen incessantly and would

13:18

just randomly checked for me like we.

13:21

are talking about see as we get over

13:23

that

13:23

Then you're fat ugly love that song

13:25

oh my God I, mean it was

13:27

three it's truly

13:29

a drug it's really the drug when you find

13:32

somebody that. them so much i

13:34

feel exactly when an awful those

13:36

tests just you know

13:38

You are sending them at a very bad

13:41

time in my life oh I think that

13:43

was my era where

13:45

basically loved riding jobs could get

13:47

were like it was a lot of four weeks jobs

13:49

on A. pilot for the

13:51

each channel there's channel lot of sun rises

13:54

like what am i doing should doing move home

13:56

and ah and then would just get the tests and

13:58

said that was like Your album

14:00

is making me cry it's that and

14:02

then it's so. having to see

14:04

her

14:05

The monuments I'm funny and therefore,.

14:09

guess we're gonna hold on Even beyond

14:11

offensive, I feel like stephanie and

14:13

could.

14:14

They see as a great voice I don't that feel

14:17

like we could record your

14:19

album lit worse for wear a bad,

14:22

word, somewhere we have we

14:24

have that. kind of kids

14:27

can be backed up raise can society

14:29

be the audience oh my god will you tell us

14:31

little bit about your family

14:33

I would love to have three tasks

14:37

that. are you We have to.

14:40

On a six year old twin

14:42

how and of the max and fan

14:44

and they are luckily

14:47

very interested in similar

14:49

things but. they

14:52

could not be More

14:54

different is so crazy,

14:56

I mean they've both really into sports

14:59

they played. Football basketball

15:01

kickball tennis zero vague

15:04

say swam every everything

15:06

there are so into it but

15:08

sin watches he.

15:10

watches all the games He

15:13

gets his side in the mornings checks,

15:15

destiny and cell phone and sex staff

15:19

and, Yeah,

15:21

they did stuff like that these days, don't

15:24

know if they do, and he

15:26

feels like one of those kids you could put on

15:28

a talk, so although we would never put

15:30

on them on attacks, so he

15:32

knows everything he can tell you.

15:35

I guess it's been twenty nine games

15:38

there. Baseball season

15:40

or don't know it's crazy, the are know what's going

15:42

on, but there's twenty nine games he can tell

15:44

you. Score

15:46

or? Every game

15:48

and who play oh and? He

15:51

knows when so, and so was traded

15:53

to was team wow it's

15:55

so crazy, and he's as big,

15:57

it's incredible, are you are stephanie

16:00

Then. Baseball like did he start

16:02

absorbing this because you guys would have a game on

16:04

I'm probably I always say

16:07

look more like the would be

16:09

falling the sport but. Stephanie

16:11

is more in the sports

16:13

world like season and all female

16:15

basketball league and she has a game

16:17

tonight and so on and,

16:20

then her dad lives with us and

16:22

he used to coach all of the kids

16:24

teams when stephanie and her siblings

16:27

are growing up and so We

16:29

call Max and San

16:31

and Papa Grand Day or

16:34

hurt that grandfather, the three of them. Or

16:36

the triplets oh?

16:38

my god has their always playing

16:41

sports are playing cards are

16:43

rolling around on the floor So

16:46

it's nice that there's no vibe. That

16:48

all in our house where it's like you gotta

16:50

get out and he's either of you know about what

16:53

seem is this person I know, what is it or, yeah,

16:55

there's this is, there is none of that

16:58

is. As the seasons

17:00

go by, the sports seasons Max

17:02

and San. The play baseball

17:05

when baseball season son football

17:07

same thing and basketball same

17:09

thing, but Max's more into.

17:12

Star Wars and Super Heroes,

17:14

and he loves aunts and bugs

17:17

and do nice, and we have

17:19

an ant farm at our house and. Sin

17:22

and really care about that they're both into

17:24

music, they both saying John

17:26

Denver and metallic parts and the same

17:29

sailor Sparano just

17:31

selfless and it is like. There.

17:35

Here's the cutest thing is. You've

17:37

ever heard and your lies country

17:39

roads tell me how my little

17:42

five year old boy.

17:43

Yeah, that's the great, and yes, it's

17:45

the best I love that his growing up,

17:48

my mama, do this thing where. Could

17:50

get us out of bed because we are both so

17:52

my sister and couldn't get out of bed in the morning

17:55

so she'd put on like Terrell King's tapestry

17:58

to zone and realize like Joe.

18:00

For. Throwing a job and screaming wasn't

18:02

working like they are just that is evident pair

18:04

whatever it's should, practice music

18:06

on like while she was getting ready for work,

18:09

then it. Was only like, oh, it's time to get up

18:11

and it was like, and the better way to do around

18:13

here, I love that one like music

18:15

is kind of already there.

18:18

It's not something that you have to go discover

18:20

when you're a teen or something and

18:22

like there's household music, yes,

18:25

and we have music room and

18:27

said they mess around. mainly

18:29

Max goes and mess around on the

18:31

piano and drum, some you

18:33

know he's ever had less and Senate,

18:37

passed the neighbor night he is love

18:39

and at and. Our neighbors they they'll

18:41

hear it sometimes and they're

18:43

like man some, of our nose

18:45

up their plan that sounded good town

18:48

that's good neighbor has, to say

18:51

has far. As getting up assassinated

18:53

as they make fun of me because I told

18:55

her when was terrible waking

18:58

up. was a kid i failed

19:00

three grades stopped our house full of

19:02

grades sudden said it's case hills was not

19:05

out the door The school

19:07

ever? And my mother would

19:09

yell. Are you are

19:11

simply yeah? I would

19:14

I, would with attitude say, I'm

19:17

putting my. shoes a

19:20

while

19:21

I do.

19:24

whatever you think you are

19:25

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19:27

do it was nice added

19:29

that like I'm brushing my

19:31

teeth and. then i just

19:33

go back to the bar And

19:35

third Thursday so funny well yelled

19:38

sunny fine. if

19:40

attacking too long am planning I

19:44

I. got caught

19:45

One time I've got a one

19:47

in such shower came back to my room

19:50

and as towel wrapped around and then

19:52

the big tell wrapped up in my hair and.

19:55

then i just laid back to concerts The not.

20:00

That might like it. Then I heard that.

20:02

A writer had started, but yeah, I'd

20:04

go back my mom would do a thing

20:06

and now and says it were.

20:08

Then she got like best suited to.

20:12

she would make that noise that sigh exactly

20:15

and it drove me crazy

20:16

The analysis that song that see

20:18

as revelry the way fat forever

20:20

revelry seven seconds, it's like

20:22

then says it his last try, you

20:25

know, like it's nothing else is working to zoom.

20:27

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20:29

and assess wakes me up.

20:31

And that really gets you out oh yes

20:33

gets me angry and out

20:36

of bed and by the way I've heard that

20:38

song for the sensitivity to do I

20:40

might have a. of sizes another

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name ah yes Again,

20:44

have a son.

20:47

But I barely graduated high school miss

20:50

most of high school, you did,

20:52

yeah, gotta gotta.

20:55

What kind of now yeah look

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at us now talking to each

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24:49

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24:51

hometown story. Have you

24:53

been interested in True Crime? Like, did you

24:55

ever read Ann Rule

24:57

books growing up or watch Forensic Files

25:00

or anything like that? I mean, i didn't

25:02

really happy. I can't claim like oh, yeah,

25:04

like forever. followed

25:07

true crime or anything. I dated

25:10

a woman like maybe 10 years ago, and

25:12

she was really in sioux,

25:15

I think it was the so called was a

25:17

cop snatched or did I just caught

25:19

sat there snap, yes, snaps,

25:22

yes, it's see know. She'll odds

25:24

that so now I,

25:27

would just you know Lion bad weather and

25:29

watch shirt and would think the oh

25:31

wow this really is it's as such

25:33

yen. that she like

25:35

it because that was like women becoming

25:37

murderers i think she was since really

25:39

in says If the rail yard by that.

25:42

Yeah, for yeah, music and documentaries

25:45

I love, and that's my other podcast

25:47

is. Higgins Cheryl True Story:

25:49

It's a weekly podcast about

25:52

the new documentary and sometimes sad. crosses

25:54

over with true crime, and I

25:57

certainly love looking at

25:59

in disgust. Those stories for

26:01

yeah think probably just had

26:03

a normal interests that is

26:06

that even the you. know nothing

26:08

or i'm like i'm gotta start gotta podcast about true

26:10

from has solid accept my favorite murder

26:12

of status as for idioms

26:14

and it's kind of extreme via so you have

26:17

cup of stories of things have happened when

26:19

you were younger do younger think serving said

26:21

A person all connections some

26:23

really awful things that happen make you to

26:25

has less wanting to dive deep

26:27

into other people's stories.

26:29

Ah I don't know

26:31

because we certainly covered

26:34

true. crime that murders

26:36

on taken feral you know

26:38

and it's fascinated says

26:40

said human behavior that you

26:43

You don't understand, I know,

26:45

for myself, just go back to don't.

26:47

The understand how

26:50

it. Get to that point

26:52

and no matter how.

26:54

mature upset about the windshield

26:57

wiper fluid to see you know it I mean it's ah

27:00

no. matter What it is

27:02

and then the fascinating part

27:04

is. You also here.

27:07

A lot of times or people.

27:10

Not premeditated and accept

27:12

snapped elder right arm, it's

27:14

just that the psychology of it the.

27:17

The mystery, it's it. That's.

27:20

What's so fun, I think it's even on Earth

27:22

theory, nothing level

27:24

the mystery of will

27:27

they are won't they get together honor

27:29

in a love story you just you, you

27:31

love. That purgatory that

27:33

the unknown and waiting

27:35

and anticipation where are they going to fall in

27:37

love to get are they going to be together this

27:40

what happened, what else would? The woods

27:42

that area that's in between

27:44

in don't know.

27:46

The moon and wanna show like "Snaps

27:48

a dozen", we watched it, and I

27:50

think it's such like the first one think

27:53

of is like. People in an

27:55

office right so then it's like is the movie

27:57

in the office and shack's weird and she does weird

27:59

stuff. People blanche and this the last split

28:02

them up what people don't know this is

28:04

this is going to add up to this horrifying

28:06

crime and, yet idea

28:09

that. i guess this is The me

28:11

when I watch those things where sake of he says

28:14

I'm ever in office and some as doing stuff like

28:16

this, remember like this are going to be exceeds

28:18

his future human behavior so.

28:20

Hi, I'm caught unaware

28:23

sleeves summons touching other people's food

28:25

in there were. The originator on earth.

28:28

That's why I like the them as a person

28:30

or whatever look for the body

28:32

of under, their, call

28:35

the fully aggressively excited to.

28:37

see their words if over

28:40

man lit second they touched her tuna

28:42

sandwich luck out and nine one yeah

28:45

and then just not remain inside

28:47

the office Right,

28:50

yeah, no, I don't know, is it made me

28:53

Malia, as you mentioned there were two stories

28:56

one was, mean, don't know,

28:58

should go into this now or whatever you,

29:00

whatever you want, my closest

29:02

friend in seventh grade dated

29:05

this thing?

29:06

As much as you date in seventh grade and,

29:09

she was Definitely

29:11

a little different.

29:13

Than anybody else he also

29:15

happen to live I believe next

29:18

door to Err on the same street

29:20

as one of my good

29:22

friends and. they

29:24

grew up Together on

29:27

the street or next door again, can remember

29:29

because it was in junior high school sports

29:32

my. Really, very best

29:34

friend. Not like oh years

29:36

later and I'll just call her my

29:38

belt yeah I'm Brian dated this guy

29:41

and. ah I would

29:43

say she was somebody that.

29:46

Just when. The undeniably.

29:50

Different and. as

29:52

i mentioned earlier mentioned am sales

29:55

am The drawn found person

29:57

I ended up in. In school suspension.

30:00

In and in that kind of this

30:02

world is at risk

30:04

kids and remember being

30:06

in the in school suspension West Ham

30:09

and. Her home for one time

30:11

looking over. And seeing him

30:13

since the back of him falling asleep.

30:17

don't have you had in school suspension, the and your

30:19

to go off your head tottering on the well,

30:22

and each of us had to be and like the

30:24

a super cold.

30:26

Like you couldn't look at or see anybody

30:28

had to do all your class work and

30:30

they deliver my class work to me.

30:33

And I was sitting there thinking. Like

30:35

and to my works out. I'n

30:37

have been suspended and saw know who

30:39

they think is the me doing this work

30:41

that's being delivered semi in school

30:44

system. Then who just pile ups,

30:46

but I? Look over and see is

30:48

a was Ricky and I see the back of

30:50

him and. just slowly

30:53

Falling asleep and then just sell

30:55

out of his, know, having nothing

30:57

to do with when he was. Going to later

30:59

do, but just.

31:01

With in circles of him, he was

31:03

not somebody I ever had plans were.

31:06

There are a had phone number, but

31:08

yeah, she asked.

31:10

There he had dated my friend, I

31:12

guess he was just did. A

31:14

shotgun. I'm his

31:16

parents loose. This is in

31:19

Texas and. He

31:22

drove up to our school

31:24

one day. fifteen

31:27

we weren't old enough to drive, he drove

31:29

his. That's pick up

31:31

have to school and.

31:34

told The principal.

31:38

"You know, I can't ever of", he said. They

31:41

killed my parents. Oh. Or

31:43

as he said, my parents are dead. The

31:47

idea of remember that his

31:49

mother was. think putting clothes

31:52

away.

31:53

In the hallway upstairs

31:55

and then over the balcony his father was in

31:57

a recliner and

31:59

as. Brother. The had headphones

32:02

on and was. Sleeping

32:04

in his bedroom, listening to music.

32:07

Then he shot his mother and then

32:09

over the. balcony and his

32:11

dad.

32:12

And then he through the rifle in the

32:14

late and. then he drove up to

32:17

school And I know that later.

32:22

I don't know if it's true that think she

32:24

claimed that think he was adopted think

32:26

he claimed that there is abuse that

32:28

had gone on him and his upbringing

32:31

but, don't know. and

32:33

i don't know You have any content?

32:36

or classes

32:36

That's why I do like actually

32:38

do have a question, so he didn't do

32:40

anything to his brother, what on earth,

32:43

so his brother just basically when he

32:45

finally got up sound his parent's

32:47

dead year. Yeah.

32:51

And the crazy part

32:53

was also that was

32:55

around the time the best

32:57

skid row sawn member the

32:59

band skid row. Had that

33:01

song eighteen and lies yes

33:04

and.

33:05

Kidney yeah Ricky in the song and

33:07

the saga and that kid's name

33:09

with Ricky oh my God and did

33:12

he did they send them to jail for life ah

33:15

I believe don't know

33:17

where he is now but.

33:19

yeah i think he was tried and that

33:22

it's that sailor

33:23

I mean, obviously I'm not a

33:25

professional anything that

33:28

see. That the to people

33:30

he wanted to. Nobody out. Got

33:33

rid of the gun, yeah, not to hide

33:35

evidence to see. Get rid of him and then when

33:37

told an authority figure in I don't

33:39

know why that's neither does say that there was

33:41

some of the is going on that she

33:45

so. methodical about it because

33:47

he wanted these two people gone

33:49

year

33:50

And you know it's funny because as I'm telling

33:53

the story what is so insane.

33:57

to me is that is remember

33:59

when Everyone's like, oh, my gosh, Ricky

34:02

drove his truck up to school,

34:04

and his parents are dead, and

34:06

somebody saw his parents are he shot his peers. And

34:08

I was my for fifths, of course,

34:10

it was shocking to sign,

34:13

mean, it was so. A

34:15

lot to process young, but

34:17

also when I couldn't believe

34:19

what city. Around the truck,

34:21

up to school early.

34:23

Wow. Ricky drove

34:26

his parent's track as the saw,

34:28

it seems, so that was your brand's

34:31

way of being life, as all of the

34:33

crazy like adrenaline and shock

34:35

is going to I. Or man, it's like okay

34:37

everyone over here let's focus on this driving

34:39

same snubbed, the guy

34:42

over there is yeah, let's talk about

34:44

wrestling drive in the pickup truck up.

34:46

His school yeah I

34:48

can't handle this part yet sick so

34:50

last. kid that That

34:53

is one of those kind of like teenage

34:56

adolescent of them. Where

34:58

it flake and then the world different

35:01

from there are now like that

35:03

idea that would even be possible,

35:06

well, remember as it sits,

35:08

mean, every year for a long time

35:10

I would think, well, Ricky is still

35:13

in jail.

35:15

Wow, register and I would hit

35:17

milestones in my life, don't. The dynamic

35:19

anymore I'm in so.

35:22

Then. Contest team up, but

35:24

don't, just she doesn't really crossed my mind,

35:26

but would say, forbid ten years was

35:28

in that was, think we're like fourteen or. fifteen

35:31

cent like that, and would say

35:33

a good ten years, I would hit

35:35

a milestone or out the slacks

35:37

and thing. Ricky

35:40

is still in jail. That

35:43

all of our lives moved on

35:45

and we're losing. to different

35:47

states are travelling europe

35:49

are going to college or falling in

35:51

love or whatever it is and

35:53

whatever caused ricky to

35:55

do this Would

35:58

she is always the question? Thank

36:00

you. Have you changed, are

36:03

you a different person or do you have

36:05

regrets, three are you still angry

36:07

I will act, were just, you know, answers?

36:10

Yeah yeah so that

36:12

was somehow in my

36:15

childhood surfer, two

36:18

murders they're surrounded

36:20

my down and that was that

36:22

was the first big yeah it

36:24

was on. the front The age of

36:26

the new, yeah. The following

36:28

day and.

36:31

Your school have any kind of like

36:33

counseling did they make an announcement they

36:35

do it now known as the eighties your

36:37

where the same as yeah says?

36:39

the eighties that was can like

36:41

Her. Care that you're sounds you might wanna smoke

36:43

pot down and the creates you might wanna

36:46

drink as severe as the kickers this weekend

36:48

for a O. L. we have for you. Yeah,

36:50

guys Ricky killed his parent's

36:53

heads down, let's keep moving that

36:55

the in l're re almost like this has

36:57

nothing to do with your, so why would you be upset

36:59

that? Kind of like mentality you,

37:02

know i see think that there

37:04

was like was string of suicides

37:06

that happen that our school in

37:09

high school and do remember There

37:12

was therapy.

37:13

The about my because it was just a chain

37:16

of kids that were killing themselves

37:18

out fan, so I do. You

37:20

remember that, whereas?

37:24

When the murder happened to him,

37:26

he just went home and process that,

37:28

right? The media's res it

37:30

was probably the beginning of the twenty four hour

37:32

news cycle, it's not the kind of thing that was.

37:35

So normal I write

37:37

like just saw a headline that.

37:39

said this week and there were three mass

37:42

shootings in america and

37:44

we're not registering them anymore like

37:46

it's kind of like you see new just gonna

37:49

go or what city oh city mean i should say

37:51

do sports city oh okay

37:53

whatever but it's sights there was

37:55

a time at stopped everything and the

37:57

conversation completely focused on the and

38:00

Now it's just. Then

38:02

normalized entirely, and, you

38:04

know, I don't know if this is good or bad,

38:06

but. Probably nine

38:08

months ago, stopped. Reading

38:11

on his.

38:12

I'm so I had picture myself

38:14

on a wrath I don't follow pop culture

38:17

and then stopped reading

38:19

the news. So picture myself

38:21

on a raft sick got cut

38:23

loose and I'm to suppressing the way into

38:27

it. and know where i don't know where i'm

38:29

headed but was

38:31

starting to smell like Why

38:34

am I taking in all of this

38:36

terrible information that I?

38:39

If I can't do something about it. What

38:42

good is it dealing and if can

38:44

do something about it then better be trying

38:46

to do something about it. And

38:48

instead of just being this receptacle.

38:51

Or negativity. couldn't

38:54

do it and so just listened to

38:56

a five minute. The news podcast

38:59

when I wanna know what's going on or

39:02

stephanie will say hey.

39:04

do you want to know about The

39:06

queue and on people the am know

39:09

don't either says it's.

39:12

that's why you know but every now and

39:14

say hey the want to know that this and

39:16

then ah then like whoa what happens i'll find

39:18

out weeks after a new variant is

39:21

like make heads rounds i just won't

39:23

even know but everything but some truly

39:26

Breaking news to me now does yeah, whereas

39:29

on T. V., it says breaking news of

39:31

bottom, but that doesn't mean anything or

39:33

is now somebody else say, oh,

39:36

there is this. Girl and her boyfriend,

39:38

they were, were traveling and see,

39:40

went missing, and then he was hiding

39:42

in the swamps and I'm like why. And

39:45

they're like, oh, you hear about on. No

39:48

yeah I guess the whole world and

39:50

following that this or am didn't

39:52

have a clue I, don't see them

39:54

sneak and read any time was out

39:56

of there and for you know I don't know it's it's. it's

39:59

good or bad

40:00

Then I can't imagine that

40:02

in any way. That all as

40:04

long as you're like second and make. They

40:06

are not like I'm missing anything important that

40:08

you could actually.

40:09

Then fuck it, I check

40:11

in very rarely, very

40:13

rarely, and used to be on it on

40:16

everything and now I'm like. Please

40:19

if can not make a

40:21

difference or six sensational

40:24

I, can't involve myself unless

40:26

it's in documentary that i'm covering

40:28

all my bag as such you want the full

40:31

guess story they produced story

40:33

delivered yes i'll watch

40:36

movie about something that

40:38

is sensational yeah but i will

40:40

not seek it out it can't do that

40:42

to my myself anymore feel

40:44

bad or like our as of actually improved

40:47

it has

40:48

drastically improve my last sentence,

40:51

trust me, there's plenty more improvement

40:53

I need a my life, but that is something

40:55

that I was lying in bed one night, as like,

40:57

was what is wrong, what sells off

41:00

what and went back to"

41:02

The news it's bothering me and

41:04

so I just really cut it

41:07

off and didn't trust that was going to

41:09

really commit to it. fell

41:14

in here it with a would succeed

41:16

or what I know and

41:19

going on in fact.

41:21

that would serve you

41:22

It's Dad, well, even people with a ton of access

41:25

to that don't know what's going on because

41:27

that's not the point of news it's to get you to keep

41:29

clicking, writing and clearing.

41:31

It am I aspire to do

41:33

what you're doing so hard.

41:36

One that feeling know.

41:39

Gordon, I've had with this tongue because social

41:41

media is.

41:43

That shit again and rate, so it's kind of like

41:45

saying a muffin, eat breakfast anymore or whatever

41:47

the gets this thing that seeds of certain part

41:49

of you and so that

41:51

idea. Giving it up there,

41:54

is real emptiness it leaves behind.

41:57

it's just very difficult relation

42:00

That where it's like if you're gone

42:02

I feel terrible and if you're here

42:04

feel worse I. was flipping

42:06

through is like speed scrolling

42:08

through twitter last night and it

42:10

truly was it's like people posting

42:12

other people saying

42:15

There's so many sets and subset

42:17

of it's all different versions of conflict

42:20

whether it's like passive aggressive people being

42:22

like oh dead man's best the or

42:25

whatever or straight up like

42:27

political polarize.

42:29

The insanity and just takes what is

42:31

this feeling and it's still in the morning

42:34

I'm just laying here kind of like looking

42:36

at him feeling the need to

42:38

not. miss any Then I think

42:40

the, yeah. And then you

42:42

are not miss him. So

42:45

lives in other way out your life.

42:47

In line for sleep or and

42:50

he, announced all of this all of the other

42:52

sang so there's other things. a

42:55

bunch of other systems there are other things

42:57

for sir

43:00

I. Feel like a bad podcasts are to them like, are we

43:02

just sat in right now like I'd so I'm

43:04

enjoying just not sensitive and

43:06

catching us, I know some

43:09

didn't? Know, he only went through to seventh

43:11

grade like the idea that didn't know that before

43:14

assassinating the Yeah seventh

43:16

grade education right here, got

43:18

my C.D. and then my. Cat

43:20

ate my. The the.

43:23

I have it framed on my wall in my

43:25

office, there's two corners

43:27

that has sin. He

43:30

chewed out of the G. D.

43:32

certificate. And in a little bite

43:34

marks throughout the rest of us.

43:37

oh my god that's cute as i have ever heard

43:39

a yeah and there is such an emphasis

43:42

put on education

43:44

Growing up and live, that's

43:47

a moment of pride for me too.

43:48

You know, that my cat

43:51

ate my ged and that it ended up

43:53

in the litter box and then,

43:56

frame and mighty these and

43:58

putting it on my wall Nothing

44:01

feels ladder and nobody's ever ask

44:04

for it. Nobody and manual

44:06

never than a moment, you know, when I dropped out

44:08

of my mother, is likely that it leads kids, D.D.

44:11

The UK and somehow I passed

44:14

and got my g the and. then here's

44:16

this just randomly sitting

44:18

here that of my My

44:21

face. Nutrition certification

44:23

that I got zeroing in.

44:25

on it

44:27

Yeah run it seems, that

44:29

first give it to the pet players and let's see what

44:31

say. they've won

44:33

have they've never Don't

44:35

have a little bit about plant based diet the

44:37

freak out how do I get healthy please

44:41

I'm. always fearful that i switched

44:43

into and annoying year when talk

44:45

about plant based foods i'll just say

44:48

that said

44:51

deadly diseases or.

44:53

Cancer or to see this,

44:55

which is a intestinal disease.

44:58

De Niro and tell me. Then

45:00

the after effects as everything

45:03

that I went. felt less of the

45:05

past ten years and now I'm. And

45:08

are you? Ride.

45:11

The plant based food and it's

45:13

helps with. Pain

45:15

and for nation. The hell

45:18

was I think prevention?

45:21

I'm hoping that it will keep

45:23

them that they say, "Yeah, I've become the

45:25

person that" The emphasis

45:27

on my diet. Every

45:30

day getting sleep. I'm

45:32

very much in that direction

45:35

and as. The care and the other day that thought about.

45:38

Open. In my free time, I

45:40

was gonna ask you where can sign

45:42

up for a that sum it up everything I'm doing

45:44

wrong, well, I have lots

45:47

of people from my. Next door neighbor, it's

45:49

other comedians, people that have different

45:52

health issues, I'm certainly not a doctor

45:54

he has, but I have some knowledge

45:56

and when people are interested, have tried.

45:58

To help them in my free time and. Started to think,

46:00

oh, maybe I.

46:02

For this is a service I'll start

46:04

consultations and then I was a psych I

46:08

I. do not have time says there

46:10

There are a cowardly consultation

46:12

bray of. you know I've

46:15

done some streaming cells or I've

46:17

talked about plant based food and I showed

46:19

people easy.

46:21

The meal that they can prepare when

46:24

everyone likes it so difficult, it's

46:26

so expensive, it's impossible,

46:28

it's disgusting, it's all of these saying

46:30

that I'm like it's really not and,

46:33

and I think, people assume that. I'm

46:35

eating the slave.

46:37

"Against my will and we're

46:40

in the sell anything a house" Need

46:42

for cheese?

46:44

Then. I'm just constantly

46:46

tortured by the saxon I can't eat like that

46:48

the facts of the matter is have so much

46:50

information that it's

46:53

a hard know down and. It's not

46:55

struggle, it's pleasure, it's is

46:57

really changed my life, yeah, that's what they say

46:59

as when you get the positive effects from

47:02

it is that cravings are things. That make you

47:04

feel terrible as, you realize

47:06

you know yeah that biomes

47:08

mccullough heal itself know.

47:11

and that's what almost killed me my

47:13

killed get by on and sad A

47:16

very unfortunate know. The

47:18

disease see death that I contracted

47:20

tenure. The go to almost took my life.

47:24

My step father got

47:26

and died from two weeks ago only

47:29

on. the ten year anniversary

47:32

of taking my mother off life support

47:34

life had to take my stepfather off life

47:36

support the ten year anniversary of to

47:38

the day and he'd die of

47:41

the disease i had ten years ago

47:44

And so. I can't

47:46

emphasize enough to people that if you

47:48

take antibiotics. Hey,

47:51

probiotics. simultaneously

47:53

The code. There

47:56

is no joke.

48:00

Very sadly, has my stepfather nice

48:02

and I'm so sorry, and I

48:04

think you, yeah, that's awful sides

48:07

remember when Flanagan so me that he

48:09

went and saw you in the hospital and basically kind

48:11

of told me. How bad you are doing

48:13

were either side. Thirty went through

48:15

that ailments was gonna argue with them

48:17

of, like, know, he had already went through

48:20

a really bad idea like that, Seer,

48:22

that's crazy. I

48:25

don't, don't understand what you're saying,

48:27

but it, but still you're saying

48:29

using Seat of had to do with the after

48:31

effects of the. Cancer treatments

48:34

that you went through.

48:35

Know what happened was,

48:37

I all of that was in a four

48:39

month period of time I had pneumonia

48:42

desk and then. I

48:44

couldn't hit. Pneumonial.

48:46

And when I went to urgent care they

48:49

prescribe antibiotics for me

48:51

and. then i died Then

48:54

I mean, was nose diving, got

48:56

so ill.

48:57

The man I ended up hospitalized

49:00

and they said that the antibiotics.

49:03

'Caused me to contract,

49:05

see the US. The current see

49:08

them as a bacteria and you're done. Then

49:10

it's fine. In

49:12

with other.

49:14

bacteria and they all work together

49:16

by antibiotics can clear out all

49:19

of the bacteria in your gut and

49:21

leave, see this alone

49:23

to thrive, and then it just grows

49:26

and takes over and just eats your

49:28

insides and so

49:31

I had pneumonia.

49:33

Then contracted, see this.

49:35

And. You're just during that time

49:37

just to add to the suffering

49:40

a my mother trip and hit her head

49:42

and died, yeah, and my

49:44

girlfriend and I broke up and. Then was

49:47

diagnosed with invasive cancer

49:49

and so that's what

49:51

happened in those four months and

49:54

that is the true crime what,

49:56

happened,. there if you're unsure crime

49:59

yeah You can.

50:02

It's almost like you're explaining the

50:04

slot of one of my favorite. Share

50:06

this one Mississippi said,

50:09

a lot. of were right

50:11

now

50:12

Then. As and very sadly, that's who

50:14

passed away was the character Bill

50:17

from one Mississippi, and it's

50:19

just I feel like know yourself that

50:21

I'm society now he raised

50:23

me since. was too, it's not like you

50:25

and on random guy that came in when

50:27

was a teenager and so

50:30

it was shocking and it was such.

50:33

The haunting full circle.

50:36

Seeing a ten year anniversary

50:38

of taking my mother off life support and

50:40

then he die, that's what I had ten

50:43

years ago says something, then.

50:45

A fake, but there's like a story that I

50:47

am as just doesn't make sense.

50:50

It really does and says it's

50:52

so sad he just adored

50:54

my son's. You

50:56

know whatever you have to.

50:58

It is.

51:01

It happens and it's terrible

51:03

fear it's terrible, it's really terrible

51:05

the sorry. And I think to

51:08

in men's lives we start experiencing

51:10

these losses that we start to realize

51:13

are inevitable and,.

51:15

i'll never forget when my mom died And

51:18

think just put like a small saying

51:20

on Twitter and Sarah Silverman Dm

51:23

Demand said welcome to the dead man's clubs

51:25

and it was one. of the most

51:27

i was just kind of like oh that's

51:29

right it's right think this only happened

51:31

to me and like this is the kind of laws That

51:35

lots and lots of people go through.

51:36

The time, but you go through it by

51:39

yourself. There's there's no you

51:41

down here. Then. Isolating

51:44

fanciful polls and it's not the kind of thing

51:46

you want no explain or breasts

51:49

or be the most on you know it's just

51:51

that it's a truly burden I.

51:54

mean it just makes sense of like yeah don't suck and read

51:56

the news there's plenty of shit to deal with

51:59

no blood on our

52:00

The doors everyday and,

52:02

also there's

52:03

When you people who are still here that

52:06

we're not appreciating and not thinking,

52:08

hey.

52:09

The last of containment any time for

52:11

you know it's so true when my mother

52:13

died, I remember my stepfather, we had

52:16

our friends and family over to

52:18

have this celebration of life, my

52:20

stepfather who was so. believe

52:23

wound and his and

52:25

tense.

52:27

The like way she's made a

52:29

post as the memorial, which my

52:31

but.

52:31

The and I really can a southern like, oh, this

52:33

is crazy. The anti semitic

52:36

Hosni said, "You know, I'm kicking myself.

52:39

That I never had anybody over.

52:41

When she was alive to

52:43

have this gatherings and then

52:45

I didn't even learn.

52:48

Could there I was having a memorial for him

52:50

in his house? The week ago.

52:53

I'm kicking myself,

52:56

said I didn't have.

52:57

Are random child had friends over

52:59

to celebrate? As my kids

53:02

called and probably read to the lived in Texas

53:04

so I. just don't

53:06

have a cowboy wreck and that is

53:09

what is walk away from this going

53:11

The anyone listening to this?

53:15

Hi somebody especially an elderly

53:17

person and just don't tell

53:19

him it's a party for them to have

53:21

people over census. have

53:24

syllabus him

53:26

I'd say you can't believe I

53:28

didn't learn cause didn't think he was

53:30

gonna die although, can point

53:32

out first well you never you never

53:35

think especially parents eggers who just

53:37

don't censor gonna die it's a very

53:39

real the whole experience?

53:42

but you just talked about you

53:44

live with seventies dad like you are

53:46

three are doing that On daily

53:48

basis right now is

53:51

different relationship or does the first thing I thought of

53:53

is kind of like think you learned in some ways

53:55

because they're be, think a lotta people

53:57

have had the opportunity and like live with

53:59

him.

54:00

Five minutes ago, I couldn't handle that or this

54:02

or kind of making it a different thing,

54:04

and it's like welcoming. That.

54:07

Generations. "Into your house and your life

54:09

like that says you don't you're doing

54:12

it, yeah, for sure, and I did think

54:14

after that happened that maybe should mention

54:16

this destiny like" You know, we should do because

54:18

he loves our friends so

54:21

money like, ah, when

54:23

we have our friends over he is, is like,

54:25

have an inch rains and little

54:27

crackers. And see, you know, vague and see

54:30

society is seen as

54:32

having a blast, and I was thinking

54:34

should tell stephanie we should just

54:36

have all of our friends over.

54:39

Have a blast and then tell

54:41

him in the middle. The evening

54:44

this is for you.

54:45

We wanted to know what I hear it has people

54:47

will say no before

54:50

and say "don't because my" They're wonderful

54:52

the party for Cowboy wreck in our hometown

54:54

in a city and reckless like no for

54:56

his at can.

54:57

Okay and. the

54:59

amish i'm realizing we says is done it

55:02

Then he would have gone and thirty, and then you turn

55:04

and girl, yes, this is for you know, and

55:07

you can't get out of it as a lot of fun, so handsome

55:09

success, but can I also say like?

55:12

I. Know who Cowboy

55:14

Rich as and I am sad about

55:16

the dad that watched your beautiful

55:19

show that you could trade so

55:21

carefully and family

55:24

and wonderfully he kind

55:26

of did. Have a party for him

55:28

because everyone who watches that so

55:30

knows and loves pressure and that's that's.

55:33

beautiful thing beautiful mean i

55:35

"Thank you and he loves the show

55:37

and he thought John Ross then did

55:39

such a beautiful job", said. The

55:42

to train him. have single

55:44

complaint I thought he was gonna be

55:46

allow, didn't like how you

55:49

approach that about your mother or this

55:51

or that issue or. He

55:53

was beaming with pride and it is

55:55

something I'm so thankful that I can walk

55:57

away. One necessary.

56:00

The and I then

56:02

reward shared, and that there were so many

56:04

people that just mean, it

56:06

was a show about. How

56:08

by wreck? It really was it he will yard

56:11

our show and one of my

56:13

favorite things, and we can, I know,

56:15

we can move on that one of my favorite

56:17

things that he said to me after being so

56:19

tightly wound to my whole childhood

56:22

and not. Understanding

56:24

me, he.

56:26

My failures and my confusion

56:28

and may. Wandering.

56:31

After we buried my mother and we drove away

56:33

from the cemetery in Mississippi, she's

56:36

pride so the first time ever saw him.

56:39

And he apologized for not.

56:41

The more supportive.

56:44

And are projecting onto

56:47

me what he thought I should do

56:49

and, he said i'm realizing now

56:52

That it's not. The

56:55

child's responsibility. The

56:57

teach. The parents

57:00

who they are it's the parent's responsibility

57:03

to learn to their child. There's an

57:05

I didn't do that. And I'm sorry.

57:08

And he said that three cheers

57:10

as they drove away. They're in

57:12

my mother.

57:14

I believe. she didn't see

57:16

that but i also felt like

57:18

If she knew that half and she would have been like

57:20

it's and matter when it happened the fact

57:23

that it ever happen is less important

57:25

that's. an amazing sign

57:28

of character yeah to be able to

57:30

be retrospectively

57:33

humble and apologetic,

57:36

to somebody a

57:37

You. Basically get appointments isn't

57:40

fair for Greece all about that's what lasted

57:42

all about his you go, oh,

57:44

this person's then taken you have

57:46

all your feelings about it, but then it's. Like, and

57:48

so now d c the people around, yeah,

57:50

and so now do you appreciate what you have like,

57:53

will this teacher owl came on we'll see it'll

57:55

happen again so? Then we'll see what happens

57:57

that time that led to. me like

58:00

How we wrote that the message?

58:02

Good, the thing that I think is really hard

58:04

for older generations to do, they mark

58:06

Ray. Talking about fuel, use the word

58:08

"some"

58:09

Men weren't supposed to have feelings that all right

58:12

absolutely no, I heaved for sure.

58:15

Would come to my shows, he would.

58:18

Max and San is shops for them this

58:20

is somebody that the. only time he

58:22

called me was to tell me my mother was gonna

58:24

make it so this is somebody that Just

58:27

leaps and bounds cannot a his cell,

58:29

he asked, sell for sure, for

58:32

sure.

58:33

Anyway it's all very intense

58:35

and I'm and I don't know how ended

58:38

up talking about that we.

58:41

appreciate you sharing that stuff about i like

58:43

get yeah like it it's important

58:47

You're breaking news, sorry, I have ever

58:49

had death. rather I,

58:51

have had, ruined. it beautiful

58:55

the i'm wonderful congregation My

58:57

entitlements, you birth for having

58:59

me.

59:00

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59:02

you see, of a show coming up to

59:04

be hotel ah I believe

59:06

it's Saturday, May fourteenth at seven

59:08

o'clock do he wanted. To still

59:10

a little plugin plan might as well right it's

59:13

my album release,

59:15

oh yeah, I had an H. B.

59:17

O. Special last year, year club drawn

59:20

and it was fully. animated mean

59:22

this the audio that's coming out

59:24

but I'm doing. an hour

59:27

and an half of my new material The

59:29

show called hello again and,

59:32

I. encourage people

59:34

to please come out there is a

59:36

moment in the Now that I feel

59:39

like people wouldn't wanna mess.

59:42

That's all say okay oh

59:44

my goodness yes and

59:47

do you as a guest list can we as?

59:50

society as please do

59:52

they get please come i'd love to be there

59:55

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59:57

opener for that exact set, do

59:59

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