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I work with the bad wolf, so to
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speak in a way that is
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not making it wrong, because the
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minute I make it wrong, it has to
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act out more to give my attention. Welcome
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to the one you feed Throughout
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time, great thinkers have recognized the
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importance of the thoughts we have, quotes
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like garbage in, garbage out,
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or you are what you think, ring
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true. And yet for many of
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us, our thoughts don't strengthen or empower
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us. We tend toward negativity,
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self pity, jealousy, or
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fear. We see what we don't have
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instead of what we do. We think
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things that hold us back and dampen our
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spirit. But it's not just about
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thinking. Our actions matter. It
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takes conscious, consistent, and creative
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effort to make a life worth living. This
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podcast is about how other people keep themselves
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moving in the right direction, how they
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feed their good wolf. Thanks
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for joining us. Our guest on this episode
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is Ruth King and emotional wisdom
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author, coach, and consultant. She's
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a guiding teacher at Insight Meditation
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Community of Washington. She's also
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on the teacher's council at Spirit Rock
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Meditation Center and is the founder
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of Mindful Members. Insight Meditation
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Community in Charlotte, North Carolina.
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Ruth has a master's degree in clinical psychology
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from John F. Kennedy University and is
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the author of several publications, including
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her new book, Mindful of Race,
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Transforming Racism from the Inside
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Out. And here's the interview with
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Ruth King. Hi, Ruth, welcome to the show.
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Thank you. It's lovely to be here. I
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am happy to have you on. Your book
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is called Mindful of Rape Transforming
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Racism from the Inside
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Out, and I'm looking forward to
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sharing the book with the listeners. But let's start
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like we always do, with the parable. There's
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a grandmother who's talking with her grandson.
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She says, in life, there are two wolves
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inside of us that are always at battle. One
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is a good wolf, which represents things like
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kindness and bravery and love, and
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the other is a bad wolf, which represents
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things like greed and hatred and fear.
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And the grandson stops and thinks about it for a
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second, looks up at his grandmother and he says, well, grandmother,
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which one wins? And the grandmother
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says, the one you feed. So I'd like
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to start off by asking you what that parable
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means to you. In your life and in the work
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that you do well. It's a beautiful
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parable. I've heard many versions of it,
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and the one I'm remembering is from
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the Cherokee tribe. It's
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an grandfather talking to a
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grandson. But you know how these
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things go, we turn it around, you
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know, they go through like the can listening
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and they come up with the inversion.
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So I don't know what it is, but the point
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of it is so powerful and
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and what it means to me, especially
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lately, is that
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the polarity of the good one
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and the bad one, uh,
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you know, is really both of coming
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from our mind. So
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um, part of what I'm really
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sensitive to at this time in my
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life is really
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befriending both the good
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and the bad thoughts are,
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you know, beliefs and things that raise through
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our mind, and not being
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attached to one being better than
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the other, because they all come
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and go with regularity.
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You know. I work with the bad wolf, so
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to speak, in a in a loving way,
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in a way that is not making
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it wrong, because the minute I make it
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wrong, it has to act out more
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to get my attention. But when I
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welcome it and sit with it
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and be come more curious about what
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the disturbance is and how it's
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running through my mind, heart and body,
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just like how the good wolf, you
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know, the good thoughts and beautiful things
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run through my body. I have to develop
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a tolerance for that also, because
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sometimes I can have an allergic reaction
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to good things and want
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to move through that quickly. But
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mostly what I'm doing these days in
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my life is holding both in
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my heart with a sense of curiosity
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and non attachment. That curiosity
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is so important. Yeah, I think
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it's important because without
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it, we're just an automatic pilot,
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right we're just like believing our
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thoughts and moving through the world like
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it's absolute, and then separating
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the good and the bad wolf becomes externalized
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and we see good and bad people, and good
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and bad cultures and good and bad races,
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and we don't get to understand
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the subtlety of mind that
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is projecting on what
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arises in our view and our and
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our consciousness. So I
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think it's a good calling, especially
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when when the good and bad are extreme,
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you know, that's when it we get gripped the most,
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you know, to really back
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up a little bit and just gentle,
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be a bit gentle and
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curious about how
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the experience is being lived
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in the heart, body and minds, and just
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to relax with that without
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taking action, without feeling like you got
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to go do something. Um, just
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really feeling into
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this thing, these two
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wolves and maybe having to have a conversation
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with each other, you know, when the bad wolf
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thoughts come up, we can call in the good wolf
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to kind of talk some sense into
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that guy. That's how I'm working with that. So
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you say that racism is a heart
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disease, Explain what
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you mean by that, Well, it's rooted uh
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and my having open
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heart surgery at the age of seven,
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where um, I realized
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that so much of what I had been doing up to
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that point was just really running
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around in righteous rage. My
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first book was about rage, you know, and
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you know, being so right in the world
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about how I felt and
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saw who was wrong and the
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racist this and that, and Um,
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I'd realized how to
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be with my upset and
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before I knew it because
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of a hyperactive thyroid. UM
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diagnosis that I had had
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a hyper thyroid that had gone
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on diagnosed for many years, which
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enlarged my heart, which
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contributed to the need to have
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open heart surgery for a micro valve
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prolapse, and in the course
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of this surgical
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procedure, I became
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aware that it was more a spiritual
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intervention that was
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suggesting to me that I needed to
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reevaluate how I
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went about living my life, which
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up to that point had just been righteous
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rage run amuck.
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And it was in the recovery of the heart surgery
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that I got in touch with how matters
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of the heart was really my work
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in the world to do, and so
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uh it took a while for me to
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realize what that actually meant
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lived out loud, but I
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often say to people that the recovery
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from the heart surgery was my first
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silent retreat because
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I got a chance to really listen to
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how much hate I was
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embodying, and a lot of it
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was wrapped around race.
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The rage was wrapped around race,
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and my body was just riddled
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with such upset that I
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needed to vacate the premises. And
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I vacated the premise is using rage
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as an exit route until
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I couldn't do that anymore, and then I
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had to thaw out. I thought out
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into a realization that I had to make
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a different deal with the disturbance I
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was in, and that it required
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tenderness that it required a
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lot of care, that it
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required me befriending the upset,
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the bad wolf, if you will, in a
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loving way. And in the course
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of that, I stepped into mindfulness
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meditation and that became a
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real tool for me, being able to sit
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with the upset in a loving way
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and to hold it and see it
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as energy moving through the body,
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as beliefs that I didn't have to necessarily
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agree with or do anything with this
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gradual process that I entered
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into, this healing if you will,
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really spoke loud to me about
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how race is
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so entangled with the heart and
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matters of the heart that I
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call it, you know, a heart disease, a
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global heart disease, and it's curable
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through our awareness, through our
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care um and through
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this kind of tenderizing our gentle
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ng that I talk about that's
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so important as medicine
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that supports us and being able to tolerate
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this conversation, being able to
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keep our heart engaged when
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we're having this conversation. Uh,
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it just requires a lot of love basically.
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UM, So I bring that
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to this. You know, phrase
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of racism is a heart disease, and it's
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curable it's not easy,
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it's messy as hell, but it is possible
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to transform internally that
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shifts our view and shifts our
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relationship to our
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understanding of what race and racism
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is. You talk about early on that when
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any of us, people of color
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or non here the word racism,
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where we start to think about it, something happens,
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you say, we, you know, we get alarmed, and
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then whether we're conscious of it or not, we tend
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to go to our weapons
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of choice, which each of us have. You know, you mentioned
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aggression in your case, or hatred, you
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know, distraction, denial, doubt, worry,
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depression, indifference. Really
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like that summary to realize that how that word
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triggers all of us and
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we all have habitual patterns
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of of how we think about it, and
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that that for all of us
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are habitual pattern doesn't
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serve us as well as it could, or doesn't
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service as well as a
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pattern that is more current. Let's
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say that, yeah, because the habitual
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pattern is oftentimes a layer
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on top of what the real deal is
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that we're experiencing that we
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can't tolerate, by the way,
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so it's a defense mechanism. And
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I think that, um,
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after a while, you
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know, if we're really interested in in deepening
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this our understanding of this topic,
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we we have to be willing to step
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into that zone of
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of what's underneath
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our habituation, are
11:14
our habits uh,
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and really understand it and then
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be willing to kind of let it go,
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you know, or or move it to the side,
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so that we can see a bigger picture, um
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and entertain a bigger story about what
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this is about. One of the
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most striking parts
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of the book for me was
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this idea that that you bring
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up and I'm just I'll just read what you say.
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A common disconnection between people of color
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and whites is that the former tend
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to experience the world through group identity,
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whereas the latter tend to experience
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the world through individual identity.
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White people generally think of themselves as well
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meaning, hard working individuals, unaware
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of themselves as a racial group.
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And boy, did that really strike
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me and hit home. And you
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go on to say that part of white privilege
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is the ability to identify or not
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identify racially, whereas
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people of color, it's not really that case
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that racial identity is so strong. It's
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part of the world that you swim
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in and and as white people, we can choose
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to either be a part of being white or
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distance ourselves from being white. And I just thought
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that was very profound. I had
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never thought of that before in quite that way.
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Oh. Yes, that's one of the most common
12:35
and painful ways that we
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miss each other when we try to have a conversation.
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Um, you know, white people come to the conversation
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and this certain innocence and
12:45
Um, an individual, you know, I'm
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a good person. Uh. And
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Um, I didn't do anything. I wasn't living
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in that time. Um, I'm
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here now, you know, as if there's no
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rude rootedness and
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the history, the lineage of the people,
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the collective people are that
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we've been touched by our lives and the
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and the generations of people that helped
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us get here. Uh. And whereas
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people of color are aware of being good
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individuals as well as being racial
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identity groups. Because part of
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being a subordinated group racial
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group in this country especially, but
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I think is more broadly than this country.
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You know, part of being a subordinated
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anything, whether it's a race, a
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woman, a gay person,
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you know, a poor person. The
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dynamic of subordination is
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that what groups us together
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is that we share oppression and
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dominant groups. Whether it's it's
13:46
white people, or its men, or
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it's heterosexuals or its Christians.
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I mean, there's a lot of you know, those categories.
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The characteristic of dominance is that you
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don't have to look you just
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don't have to look at yourself as a group because
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because you just don't have to, and so you
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don't. But this is particularly
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painful when we're talking about race.
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It's it's kind of the piece that will
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support what I believe will be
14:12
a transformation around this conversation
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when white people get together with other
14:18
white people and explore the territory
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of whiteness that every other race
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seems to know a bit about but
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them. And what this means is that I
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work with a lot of white people that are in what
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I refer to as racial affinity groups,
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and it's so difficult for them because
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they talk about, uh, you know,
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we get together and I don't feel anything,
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and I'm bored and what
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we don't have anything to talk about, and
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you know, and the tendency is to go
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off and join a cause or
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to have other people of color educating
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you about what's needed.
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How do we fix it? But there's a
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lot of avoidance among people
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to talk about whiteness, and I think
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that's a very interesting
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place to begin this journey.
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You say that white people
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may never have as much experience as people
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of color and talking about racial distress
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and racism, but they must start,
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especially if they are in leadership
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positions. And you know me, I
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mentioned we've had Austin Channing Brown on
16:14
the podcast, and I'm trying to have more of these
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conversations um
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as a way of trying to
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engage in that debate in a in
16:24
a useful and healthy
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way. Tell me about a little
16:28
bit more tell the listeners, because I know because I read
16:30
the book about racial affinity groups, because
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that was a very interesting idea that
16:34
I had not really heard of. And
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the book spends a fair amount of time talking
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not only about what they are, which you're gonna tell us,
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but also how to have one.
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I just want to have that concept out there in in
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in listeners ears if it's something they're interested in.
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Very good. Well, first of all,
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you know, uh, it's important
16:53
to understand these six
16:55
hindrances that I talk about in
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the book, UM,
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so that there is something to get
17:03
our arms around and
17:05
discussed within the racial
17:07
affinity groups. So there's some education
17:09
we need about the structure of
17:11
racism that's in our social
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realm. There's a structure to it that we can
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begin to recognize and
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not only see out there, but see our
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relationship to it. And
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when we have that kind of curiosity,
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um, that's alive in us. Forming
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a racial affinity group would be UM
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a simple process of getting
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together with from two to five other people
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of your same race and actually
17:38
with white people, I would say, with your
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with your same gender, because
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sometimes white people get together and
17:45
it's mixed gendered. The
17:47
issues that white women have with white
17:50
men tends to trump
17:52
the discussion around race
17:54
and it becomes more of the upsets
17:56
around gender. So to minimize
17:58
that, I say, you know, white men get together, white
18:00
women get together. However that
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goes, you know by racial
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people get together and just come
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together. Commit for a year
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to meet once a month for
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about two and a half hours. And
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what you're doing in this in this racial
18:19
affinity group, and what I'm offering
18:22
is a mindfulness practice
18:24
of getting yourself still
18:26
and stable together. So
18:28
there's a guided meditation that you would begin
18:31
with, and then there's a series
18:33
of about thirty five or forty questions
18:36
that you would answer over the course of the
18:38
year, and what these questions
18:40
are. Are there inviting us
18:42
to look at our conditioning, look
18:45
at our beliefs, look
18:47
at our long aims, look
18:49
at what's unfinished that we're
18:52
still carrying. Um.
18:54
Talking about the hoops and ouches
18:57
in those places of embarrassment and shame
19:00
with each other. Um.
19:02
So it's really teasing through
19:05
these these kind of tender zones
19:07
where you've been conditioned to believe
19:10
certain things, and looking at your
19:12
anger and whatever it might be
19:14
that can come up. It's there. It's a structure
19:17
that supports us and having a place
19:20
where we can engage this topic. So
19:23
when white people, for example, form
19:25
racial affinity groups, one of the beautiful
19:27
things about it because I also
19:29
suggest people of color forming racial affinity
19:32
groups. But when white people
19:34
learn about whiteness, it takes
19:36
the weight off of people of
19:38
color educating them about whiteness.
19:41
There's certain things that white people can
19:43
do on their own. But you
19:45
know, habitually, you
19:47
know, so many white people that I meet
19:50
don't even think about race unless a person
19:52
of color brings it up. I'm suggesting
19:55
you think about race and you commit
19:57
to your own engagement and educate.
20:00
And there's loads of resources
20:02
out there around whiteness, you
20:05
know, for white people. You
20:07
know, if you don't have to look at those resources,
20:09
you won't. But I'm encouraging a
20:11
structure of tenderness and
20:13
care where there can be a
20:15
mindful uh uh uh, an
20:17
intentional, compassionate
20:20
looking at our conditioning
20:22
around race, so that we can soften
20:25
and forgive and open our
20:28
awareness to see something
20:30
beyond um what's
20:32
often um fear
20:35
and shame that kind of closes
20:37
the lens and the heart closes
20:39
along with it. So the racial
20:41
affinity groups are just a crucial part,
20:44
I think, because it provides a structure
20:47
for us to investigate our
20:49
conditioning and work with that
20:52
in a very intentional way.
20:55
And when we don't have a structure, we
20:57
tend to just not go there. We
21:00
can easily go back into amnesia,
21:03
or we can just work. You know, I
21:05
think our thoughts are all
21:07
there is and um, so
21:10
I think it's very helpful. It's it's it's
21:12
been said to be very helpful for people. Wonderful.
21:15
Let's talk for a minute about you
21:17
know, in order to understand the dynamics
21:20
of racial you call it dominance and
21:22
subordination. We have to look
21:24
at group habits of harm
21:27
rather than looking solely at individual
21:29
acts or single incidents. And I thought that
21:31
was so Another very
21:34
helpful way to think about this is, again,
21:36
as as a white person, I'm familiar
21:38
with the concept of well, I'm
21:40
a good person or I wasn't there, or
21:43
you know, I'm looking at individual actions,
21:45
and you're talking about looking at habits of
21:48
harm. And you use a great metaphor
21:50
for this around um
21:52
stars and constellations because you share
21:55
that with us. Yes, the stores and the
21:57
constellations are one of
21:59
the same hindrances. That's important
22:01
for us to look at. The first one we've talked
22:04
about a bit, which is around
22:06
the white individual as a good person. That's
22:08
the first hindrance. But the second
22:10
one is the stores in the constellations, and
22:13
it goes with individual
22:15
versus group. Now, all of these
22:18
hindrances have to do with racial
22:21
group dynamics, not so much individual
22:24
acts. So the stars in the constellations
22:27
are inviting us to notice
22:29
for ourselves and we can all do this, uh,
22:32
the habits that we tend to
22:34
have around how we view racial
22:37
harm. So one of
22:39
the ways I described this is when Michael
22:41
Brown was killed in Ferguson.
22:44
There was a group of us
22:46
here in Charlotte that got together, a mixed
22:48
group, to talk about the killing.
22:50
The video was showed and we were all asked
22:53
to talk about what we saw and how we
22:55
felt. And there was a white guy
22:57
in our small group of about four or five
23:00
fool who UM spoke
23:02
very um passionately
23:04
and sincerely about how
23:07
you know that man should have never killed
23:10
that boy and left him in the
23:12
streets and this is horrible, and I'm
23:14
just really upset. And he was shaking
23:16
and trembling and crying and he was
23:18
telling his story. UM,
23:21
he saw a star. His
23:23
description of what he saw is what I
23:25
would call a star, A
23:28
single incident described
23:30
UM in the situation. When
23:32
I talked about what I saw, I
23:35
said something like, I can't believe
23:37
that once again, a white police
23:39
officer has killed an unarmed
23:42
black person. And this
23:44
has just gone on way too
23:46
long. And I named several of the
23:48
people that have been killed. UH,
23:51
And I was describing a constellation.
23:55
And I think this is another way that we
23:57
miss each other. Uh. And because of
23:59
what we bring to the table and how
24:01
we've been conditioned to see. So,
24:04
you know, the white guy that's folks saw
24:06
an individual incident. It wasn't even
24:08
colorized in the description and
24:11
the language that he used. It wasn't like a
24:13
white man or a black man. It was that
24:15
man should have never killed that boy. Well,
24:17
to me, it was very textured,
24:20
and it's because of the ways, because
24:22
of the pattern I see the tattoo that's
24:24
out there, the repetitive
24:27
motion injury, the chronic
24:29
nous of this situation. It's a it's
24:31
a big dipper. It's a comic
24:34
in the you know, in the in the
24:36
constellations. So to me, it's
24:39
useful if we're not just seeing
24:42
uh, single incidents,
24:44
because it doesn't have the gravity,
24:47
it lacks an understanding of the
24:49
gristant of the broader
24:51
pain. Uh that's repetitive
24:54
out there. So I think that's
24:56
a difference also in looking at
24:59
it from an individual lens and
25:01
also from a racial group identity
25:04
lens, um that you're part
25:06
of a group and individual wouldn't see
25:08
all these things, they would just see the single incident.
25:11
Another example of this is when people
25:13
talk about all lives matter as
25:16
opposed to Black lives matter. All lives
25:18
matter is an individual
25:21
view. We're all important. Black
25:23
lives matter is speaking to a constellation.
25:27
So these are things we can begin to
25:29
open our hearts and minds to
25:31
to see that it's not just a solo
25:34
incident. It's the patterning,
25:37
uh, that we want to bring some
25:39
attention to and open to. Yeah,
25:41
it makes me think of something that you wrote in the book
25:43
that really was was touching, and you said you're
25:45
talking about a dharma talk you gave. You said, I ended with
25:48
this. The next time you hear of a brown person being
25:50
killed by anyone, stay present
25:52
and say to yourself, oh my, another
25:54
of Ruth's children has been killed. Then
25:56
check in with your own heart to determine the appropriate
25:59
response. That's that's how I
26:01
move in the world as a as a body,
26:04
as a woman, you know, as a lesbian,
26:06
as an author, as a great grandmother.
26:09
You know, I'm concerned about these
26:12
constellations of harm towards
26:15
the bodies of color, and
26:18
you know, and there's probably harm
26:20
within the white body as well. But we're
26:22
looking at the dominant and subordinated dynamic
26:25
here. Um. But
26:27
I don't want to overlook the
26:29
fact that we all have experiences
26:32
of suffering and harm terminology
26:35
question for you here. I was talking
26:37
with someone recently who said that,
26:39
Well, it was my son who said that only
26:41
white people in this country can be
26:43
racist because racism indicates
26:46
a system of oppression. Now everybody's
26:49
prejudiced, but that racism
26:51
is speaking to this you
26:53
know, um constellation of harm that
26:55
we're talking about, or this system
26:58
of oppression. Do you say terminology?
27:01
Yeah, you know, I want to meet your son.
27:04
He's not too far away in North Carolina.
27:07
It really speaks to this this you
27:09
know, the younger generation too, maybe
27:12
that's coming up. That's that seems
27:15
to be, you know, have their fingers
27:17
and a lot of these pots, and
27:19
I think I think it's good news.
27:22
Um. But yes, so I very
27:24
seldom use the word racist because
27:27
racists is
27:30
a word that speaks to individual
27:32
actions. Um and
27:35
um. You know, so it's
27:37
at the individual level. Certainly
27:40
people can have racist behavior
27:43
depending on what they're doing at
27:45
the individual level. Um.
27:47
But racism is at the institutional
27:50
level. It's at the it's at
27:52
the group and beyond level. Racism
27:55
I associate very much with policies,
27:58
practices, social norm
28:00
um, political systems.
28:02
Who's you know, when the dominant system
28:05
is white, white supremacy
28:07
is an expression of racism
28:10
in the sense of its intentionality.
28:12
UM, the ault right movements,
28:15
um the uh, you know, white
28:18
nationalist movements that are concerned
28:21
about staying on top or examples
28:23
of racism racist intention
28:26
whether. But racism
28:29
in our social structure is
28:31
when it becomes institutionalizing. It
28:33
becomes normal that we see
28:35
black folks killed with regularity.
28:38
You know. It's normal that most
28:40
of the people in the prison industrial complex,
28:43
the profiting complex, the
28:45
disaster capitalists complex,
28:48
uh is full of is brown
28:51
bodies. You know. So these
28:53
are examples of racism
28:56
as they live in our social context.
28:58
Their norms, practices,
29:01
policies, blind assumptions,
29:04
you know, a police institution,
29:07
and the habitual pulling of the
29:09
trigger. Uh, you know. And racism
29:12
is not something I think we all need to
29:15
try to avoid recognizing
29:17
our associating with. I think it's
29:19
something we need to you know, kind of embrace
29:21
and be curious about, because if
29:23
we're afraid of being a racist or
29:26
being a part of a racist system,
29:28
being being a part of racism, then
29:31
it's very hard to you know, we're ashamed
29:33
of that, it's very hard to investigate
29:35
it, to really understand it. More
29:37
deeply um. But yeah,
29:40
it's part of it's it's more
29:42
of a collective um
29:44
um dynamic and
29:46
and reality and our social
29:48
realm. You know, who do you see on television
29:51
most when you turn on the news, who's got
29:53
positions of power? Most? When you
29:56
look at when you go to your doctor, who are most
29:58
of the lawyers? You know, you can see the
30:00
economic influence of it as well
30:02
as the cultural piece.
30:04
But I associate racism with culture
30:08
and with the ways that
30:10
norms and practices
30:12
and policies and beliefs are embedded
30:15
in the social fabric that
30:17
we all are breathing that air and
30:20
swimming in that water together. You
31:05
know. I think one of the reasons that people tend
31:08
to avoid things, whether
31:10
it be common, run of the mill procrastination
31:13
like my task list or bigger
31:15
things, is when things feel way
31:18
too big to tackle, you
31:21
know, when something feels overwhelming, our tendencies
31:23
to walk the other direction. And
31:25
when we talk about race
31:28
in the sense of a racist
31:30
a person, you think, well, if we could
31:32
just get that person to change how they
31:34
feel, well, that feels like okay,
31:37
I could step up to the plate there. When
31:39
we start talking about this racism
31:42
as this overwhelming.
31:44
You know, the water that we swim in. How
31:46
do people not you know, I even feel
31:49
it in myself When I start to think about
31:51
all of that, I go, oh, she's that's you
31:53
know, I can think about changing a heart or
31:55
two, right,
31:57
So what's your reaction to that. Well,
31:59
I think it's a really good question
32:01
and a common one, and I think we have to start
32:03
with changing our own hearts because
32:06
I think that's really the fundamental
32:09
ground of waking up
32:11
around this. Again, That's why
32:13
I talk about it as transforming
32:16
from the inside out, because that's where
32:18
we get in touch, very intimately
32:20
with the mechanism of changing
32:23
our habits. And this is where a
32:25
mindfulness practice can be most helpful,
32:29
because it allows you to sit with
32:32
what's involved in softening
32:35
into opening up. You
32:37
know, when we get ourselves still,
32:39
when we set our intention, Hey, I'm
32:42
gonna take this on. I'm
32:44
gonna give this some real daily
32:46
time. I'm gonna be paying attention
32:48
to my habits, to my thoughts
32:51
around race. I'm
32:53
gonna be involved in a racial affinity
32:55
group for support and
32:57
to know I'm not in this alone. Um,
33:00
I'm not gonna commit to doing
33:02
a bunch of actions just yet going
33:04
to give myself a few months just to be
33:06
with my own kind
33:08
of unfolding and awareness around
33:11
this. So I think that's a place
33:13
that we begin. And I
33:16
also, you know, I coach
33:18
a lot of educators and meditation
33:20
teachers and uh
33:22
DORMA teachers, and one of
33:25
the things I say to them, and these are a lot
33:27
of them are white, and one of the things I
33:29
say to them, if you're doing your own
33:31
investigation around race, if you're
33:33
bringing it and dropping it right
33:35
into the seat of your mindfulness practice,
33:39
when you're bringing that disturbance, saying all
33:41
that confusion, all all of
33:43
that anxiety, whatever it is, and
33:45
you're dropping it into your practice, then
33:48
you have some stories to tell about
33:51
how that's going for you, right,
33:54
And when you have some stories to tell,
33:56
that's really all you need to be telling, you
33:59
know. In terms of working with other people, of course,
34:01
there's the institutional level of joining
34:04
organizations and you
34:06
know how you vote in all of that. But
34:08
I think at the interpersonal level, we
34:10
don't have to change anybody. We just
34:13
need to maybe begin to understand
34:15
our own experience and talk about
34:17
it. You know, I think for white
34:19
people it's a good use of privilege to
34:22
talk about race and
34:24
how you're working with understanding your
34:26
race. You know, it's a good use for
34:29
you to have me on this show to be
34:31
exploring this discussion. I
34:33
worked with a guy that um
34:36
was that was in a high position
34:38
and a bank, and when
34:40
the devastation happened
34:43
in Florida with the floods, he
34:46
rented three trucks and
34:49
called a bunch of his friends, most of the
34:51
home he worked with, and they went
34:53
down there to help clear out some
34:56
some of the homes right helping
34:59
people that were stuck
35:02
there. And in the middle of them
35:04
doing that work, he got a call from his
35:06
ball saying, listen, you know
35:08
you're putting us in jeopardy down there.
35:11
You know you're setting a precedent. This is
35:13
not part of our policies. I think you need
35:15
to come back to work right away.
35:18
And he he said, when
35:20
you come down here and see
35:22
what I'm seeing and
35:25
understand what I'm understanding,
35:27
you will understand why I can't leave
35:30
here until I'm done. And
35:32
he hung up the phone. He was piste off
35:35
and that was kind of the end
35:37
of it. There could have been a situation
35:39
where he could have really been in
35:41
trouble, but he wasn't really in trouble.
35:44
He really challenged a
35:46
policy or a belief are
35:49
are a kind of way a norm
35:51
that they had always operated. He challenged
35:54
it with his own authority,
35:56
his own privilege, and said, no,
35:59
that's not what I'm doing. I'm staying here and tell this
36:01
job is done. So we
36:03
all are on that edge as
36:06
as people of taking that
36:08
risk of whether we what I often
36:10
call bid or pass in these situations,
36:13
do I follow my good wolf or my
36:15
bad wolf when I when my heart
36:18
is telling me I have to go to Florida and help
36:20
these families. Whatever it takes,
36:23
I'm gonna you know. So we're
36:25
always making these decisions, whether
36:27
we know it or not. Uh.
36:29
And when we turn a light on that to really
36:31
see and listen to
36:34
and respond from that place,
36:37
that place of care, that place of
36:39
this is something I want to do, This is something
36:41
I can do, This is something
36:43
that will serve Uh.
36:45
It may not fix the whole problem, but it's
36:47
something I can do, something I
36:50
want to do. Uh.
36:52
That's I think that's the zone we're in
36:54
because this is messy. It's not going
36:56
to be fixed in our lifetime. So
36:58
we don't have to bite the whole elephant. We
37:00
can just keep planting seeds
37:03
and knowing that when we plant
37:05
them, it's the future generations,
37:08
it's your son, it's people that
37:10
come after that kind of
37:12
smell a certain fragrance from that
37:14
bloom and say, oh, I
37:16
get it. You know, I can look
37:18
at it this way. Yeah. There's
37:21
another story that you tell in the book about
37:24
UM back to this idea of
37:27
you know, white people tending to see ourselves
37:29
as individuals and not as part of
37:31
a racial group, and and how people
37:33
of color do differently. You tell a story about
37:36
talking with some folks in a in a training
37:38
program you were doing after the two
37:40
thousand sixteen election, where there were a couple
37:42
of white men UM who
37:45
felt like, you know, I'm being treated as a Trump supporter
37:47
because I'm white. Can you share that story? I thought
37:49
that was very insightful. Yeah. So
37:52
it was these these white guys
37:54
in the training and when I
37:56
was talking about the individual and group, you
37:59
know, uh, that we're all good
38:01
individuals and we're part of racial identity
38:03
group, they both said, you
38:05
know, I'm getting all this flak as
38:08
a white guy because people look at
38:10
me and think I'm I'm just because I'm white,
38:12
I'm a Trump supporter and
38:15
um, so again that's a very individual
38:18
voice. You know, it's not me. I'm
38:20
not one of him, you know. UM
38:23
and I and I basically said, welcome
38:25
to my world, you know. And
38:27
the welcome to my world part is
38:29
that that's what it's like to be
38:31
remembered. Yes, that's what it's
38:33
like to be a racial member. I have
38:36
to manage and most people of color
38:38
have to deal with not only their own
38:41
We're all in this. Most of us
38:43
have to deal with our own experience as
38:46
well as the projections that other people
38:48
place on us. But because
38:50
of the power difference, it
38:53
has different impact. So
38:55
so I'm dealing with all of the
38:57
projections that people place on me as a
39:00
black woman. You know, Um,
39:02
the automatic assumptions that might be
39:05
made about me being a teenage
39:07
mom and you know, growing
39:10
up in south central Los Angeles and all
39:12
these things. You know, people seeing
39:14
that as old poor provity,
39:17
you must have been poor, and it was like, yeah,
39:19
all of that's true. And I
39:21
was raised around all this strength and jazz
39:24
and the civil rights movement and all this passion.
39:26
Right, So I'm dealing with
39:29
what's projected on me as well as my
39:31
lived experience. I'm
39:33
dealing with my individual experience as
39:35
well as my group racial group identity
39:38
experience. White people tend
39:40
to deal with their individual
39:43
experience, but when they're uh,
39:46
racial group identity experience
39:49
is fed back to them there,
39:51
it's like wait a minute, right, you
39:55
know, that's kind of what happened.
39:57
So it was a real moment for these
40:00
to white guys to fall out and
40:03
get that that's what we're
40:05
dealing with. Of course, so
40:07
how are you managing the fact
40:09
that you are a member a number?
40:11
Another spin on this, Eric is
40:13
I think that uh, white
40:15
people have have um, well,
40:17
white people have said to me that another
40:20
reason they don't want to move towards racial
40:22
group identity is because
40:24
they'll be considered maybe a Trump
40:26
supporter, but also, uh,
40:29
you know it's I've heard him say a skinhead
40:32
or or you know, something extreme
40:35
as opposed to the majority
40:38
the majority experiences around
40:41
whiteness that hasn't really been vetted
40:43
or examined. Uh
40:45
So the fear is that it's going to look
40:47
like these extremes, and because they're
40:49
not that they don't go there. But
40:52
I think there's some real value in seeing
40:54
what this experience of of day
40:56
to day ordinary
40:59
white people is really about under
41:02
the under the lens are
41:04
under the inquiry of of race,
41:07
being curious about
41:09
what it's what is the collective
41:11
experience that we
41:13
share as white people could be
41:15
really valuable. I can't think of the comedian
41:18
whose joke is you know, it's it's similar
41:20
to that about how good it is to be a white person,
41:22
and how he could you know, you
41:24
know, as people of color have to be afraid getting
41:26
in a time machine, but as a white person, you didn't get in a
41:28
time machine and end up in any time, and it's
41:30
like, this pretty good time to be alive. I
41:35
also think racial affinity groups
41:37
are also important
41:40
for people of color
41:42
because you know, some of the traps
41:44
we get into our um
41:47
thinking we know all there is to know about
41:49
race. But I just came back
41:51
from Canada, and this is just one example.
41:54
My partner and I traveled through the Canadian
41:56
Rockies and then I stayed
41:58
in for two days and it was amazing,
42:01
And I ended up in Vancouver
42:04
at the end and taught a five
42:06
day retreat their meditation retreat
42:08
there, and being
42:11
in Vancouver was one of the most diverse
42:14
places I've ever been in my life,
42:16
and I've traveled a lot, and
42:18
so people of color sometimes
42:21
we think we know all
42:23
there is to know about race, but we haven't
42:26
really examined the
42:28
body of color that we have
42:30
this presumed solidarity with.
42:33
So what's what what happens with
42:35
us as people of color is we know about we
42:38
know a bit about our own racial group
42:40
identity, but not about other racial
42:42
groups identity in the body of color.
42:45
And so we know a lot about
42:47
our own race. We
42:49
don't know about other
42:52
people of color races. We don't know that
42:54
experience. But in our conversation
42:58
we tend to think it's all club together.
43:02
So for people of color,
43:04
it's important for us to investigate
43:08
what people of color means.
43:11
What does it mean among us as a body
43:13
of color, especially when we come together,
43:16
say in a racial affinity group. What
43:18
is our individual experiences
43:21
of being a race, not so much
43:23
as a collective, but as individuals,
43:27
And how do we understand
43:30
um our our
43:32
diversity within the body of color.
43:35
And this is where my Canadian experience
43:37
comes in of being in Canada
43:40
and working closely with a Chinese
43:42
Canadian there, which is very
43:45
different than a Chinese American who
43:47
had roots. His family roots
43:49
were in the railroad building the railroads
43:52
there, and um, so it
43:54
was it really stretched
43:56
my assumptions about
44:00
Chinese because I was in another context.
44:02
I wasn't an American context. I was in
44:05
Canadian context. And I think
44:07
it's this kind of intimacy
44:09
with the body of color that we need to
44:12
understand and be curious about so
44:14
that we're not making blind
44:16
assumptions and and we're not moving
44:19
just because we have a common enemy. So this
44:21
week the white people, you
44:23
know that we really turn that around and
44:25
look at you know, what is it that we're missing
44:28
out in terms of our own
44:30
connections with each other? Makes
44:32
sense. One of the things Ruth, that we have not
44:35
had a chance to talk about is,
44:37
in addition to all your teachings
44:39
on race, your hell of a dharma teacher,
44:42
and um, we are we are out
44:44
of time here. So you and I are going
44:46
to do it in the post show conversation.
44:48
But you have a little part where
44:50
you talk about the three marks
44:53
of existence that Buddhists talk
44:55
about and a short teaching there that blew
44:57
me away, and I'm really excited
44:59
to talk more about it. Listeners, if you're interested
45:01
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45:03
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45:08
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45:13
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45:15
for taking the time to come on and to share
45:18
um your book with us in your thoughts. It was very
45:20
helpful for me. Thank you so much
45:22
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45:24
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