“They were there to remind me who I was in the world, and it hurt too much on the inside, being hurt on the outside didn’t matter as much.”

Producer: Whit Missildine, Andrew Waits

Episode Summary: A man’s rage grows after growing up with racism and abuse, leading to transformative encounters with brutality, violence and ultimately, inner strength.

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Content/Trigger Warnings: racism, racially charged language, violence, police brutality, explicit language

Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Cylinder Four/Cylinder Five” – Chris Zabriskie

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